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My journey of learning how to turn an ED into quick but sustainable and healthy-ish weight loss CW: 141 GW: 110 TW: This page includes photos and content that could be triggering to anyone suffering with an eating disorder

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I will be transparent, as I only use this page as a weight journal. I ended up getting up to 155lbs (likely closer to 150, but I weighed myself after eating). I am now under 120lbs again, after 6 months of not weighing myself until recently.

My weight gain was due to me upping my calorie intake after restricting calories severely. Please do not restrict your calories if you want consistent and long-term results. Please don’t attempt to lose too much weight in a short period of time. While it is possible, it is NOT sustainable.

I am now back to near my goal weight, but I am writing this so that others know what NOT to do.

Stay consistent and manageable, even if it takes longer!!!!!

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As with every winter, I gained some weight— and by some, I mean the most I’ve ever weighed in my life. I’ve never previously weighed more than 134lbs and my most, and now I’m up to 141lbs. (Disclaimer: these are both very healthy weights and by NO means overweight, but it is just not my goal weight or what I am personally used to.) I am about 5’5 and my (albeit pretty difficult) goal is to lose 30ish lbs in 2 months.

I’ve made a 2 hour long workout playlist on youtube and set intervals throughout the day in which I will do it, so that every day I will be able to make it through the entire playlist in a reasonable manner.

Here is my daily schedule (subject to change soon), the times are set around my own schedule as I am a college student. I will keep updating so anyone who is curious can see if this brings good results. Another disclaimer: I am making sure that I do this in a healthy way in order to not cause any lasting health problems. No matter what this schedule says, if you really need to eat, then EAT! It is 100x better to be sustainable than to resist hunger pangs until you end up binging or ruining your metabolism forever! This schedule also includes intermittent fasting from 12PM-7PM and does not allow for any sugar or salt (although I won’t beat myself up for a cheat day every once in a while).

30 minute workout by 12PM

12PM - Salad (if hungry)

1600mL water by 1PM

30 minute workout by 3PM

3PM - 1-2 hard boiled eggs (depending on appetite)

20 minute workout by 5PM

1600mL water by 6PM

40 minute workout by 7PM

7PM - Salad (last meal of the day)

Afterwards I will continue to workout if I want to and drink water until I go to bed.

One new thing that I am testing out is only allowing myself to eat food at certain times, and if I am not hungry, I will not eat it. Even if I get hungry before my next allotted food time. This is hopefully to train myself to stop focusing on food so much, as binging has become a problem in my life again over the past 6 months.

This is quite intensive because I am trying to lose a lot of weight within 2 months (aka summer). I am going to try my best to be sustainable in my diet and not fall back into very disordered eating habits. This is just a temporary thing I am trying out for the next two months and it is likely that I will add weight lifting to the mix (and therefore more calories of protein and fiber).

Follow for updates coming weekly at least!

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115lbs at 5’5 without any working out or lifting. This is just a comparison photo for the future

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Making this post so I can hopefully get feedback. If anyone familiar with specified workouts/weight loss sees this, I’d appreciate any advice that helps me stay thin (and losing more weight) while building/maintaining curves. I have photos posted on my page if that helps!

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While I like my body right now, I want to see what I look and feel like after losing 5 more pounds (10lbs more than I weighed 3 years ago). I think I may as well go for it, since I can always gain it back if I don’t like the outcome. My username says 112 after all, so that would be 5 more pounds. I’ll keep you updated if I do!

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132lbs (beach photo, march 2023) vs 118lbs (mirror pic, june 2023) at 5’4.5’’. I am sucking in my stomach and posing in the first photo, whereas I am not posing or sucking in my stomach in the second.

One of my biggest concerns with losing weight was losing my curves. Here is what happened after losing ~15lbs:

-went from 32D cup to roughly a C (leaning toward a D cup, I also went off hormonal birth control which may have also played a small part)

-my butt now looks larger in proportion to my body (even when I am not posing)

-My stomach is much flatter, my hips are more defined (in contrast with smaller waist) and I have a thigh gap

Overall, while it may look like I have less “curves” on instagram, the non-posed non-edited version of me is now more curvy. This is because my stomach/waist is much smaller in comparison to my curves, which gives me more curvy proportions than before. It feels much more freeing to not have to suck in my stomach/pose a certain way whenever I wear a swimsuit to feel like I look good. I like my curves and while they got slightly smaller (as expected), my stomach got significantly smaller which in turn now highlights my curves more.

Side note: I did not work out much in either of these pictures.

Also notice how my back creases in the first photo due to extra body fat whereas it doesn’t in the second. Hope this can encourage anyone who wants to lose weight but is scared of losing their curves! Also, I really liked my body in the first photo as well, don’t get me wrong. If you’re in that position, it is 100% a healthy weight and you don’t need to change! I personally wanted to for multiple reasons (although I intentionally gained weight in the first place), including trying to reduce chronic pain from scoliosis. It doesn’t look like it but I have two curves in my spine at 45 degrees lol. It is not the best feeling but I’ve learned how to prevent pain when possible. I just don’t want y’all to feel like you need to lose weight at 130lbs because for most people, that is a healthy weight!

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Long time no posts. Here is me in march 2023 vs june 2023, after I decided to stop overeating (aka eating when I wasn’t hungry, eating out of boredom). Before I was 130-135lbs, after I am 115-120lbs at 5’4.5’’. I do not exercise much aside from walking and swimming due to my busy schedule, but I am planning on doing more. This has been a very sustainable diet for me, as I do not heavily restrict what I eat, I simply just do not eat unless I am hungry. I also try to limit the amount of unhealthy foods like sodium, transfat, etc, while trying to eat more protein and fiber to stay full for longer. My body feels a lot better and I no longer feel full and bloated when I wake up in the morning. Keep in mind that I was on vacation in the first photo and had likely just eaten a big meal, whereas in the second photo, I had just woken up. That may contribute a lot to how bloated I look in the first photo. I’ve noticed that I carry much of my weight (as I gain weight) in my stomach, whereas my arms/legs don’t really change, so losing weight has really helped my confidence as well. I will make a follow up post about how my curves have changed (which was one of my biggest concerns going into this). Thanks for reading!

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Day 10(?)

I decided that instead of rapidly losing weight by significantly cutting food intake like I usually do is not sustainable, and I’d rather feel good and work on lowering my body fat percentage rather than solely targeting my weight. I’ve been doing many workouts consistently to lower upper arm fat and a lot of cardio to lose weight. I am focusing specifically on working my inner abs, so the difference won’t be noticeable until I drop a bit more weight but I am working on cardio for that reason. I am planning on doing leg and glute workouts mainly by lifting at the gym.

I have mostly been eating salads and vegetables, along with a low amount of carbs if I am extra hungry, such as a breadstick. I try to mix up my diet so I won’t get tired of the same food but the most important thing is that the food I eat is healthy and makes me feel good physically and mentally.

I’ve been hiking a lot and going on walks, but haven’t quite gotten back into running yet. I used to run at least six miles a day, so my plan is to start running more again. However, I want to avoid strengthening my outer abs in order to achieve a more hour glass affect, so I might do more intensive training at weight training rather than too much running. I do also want to run more in order to strengthen my leg muscles.

I’ve been drinking a lot of water so it is harder to see a difference due to water bloating, but I woke up this morning and was able to see a difference. I haven’t eaten anything yet today, so I’ve been working out on an empty stomach in order to burn more calories (I’m not sure this is true or not but I believe it is).

One thing that’s important for me to learn is not eating every time I feel hungry, as in not full. I’m so used to feeling the need to eat every time my stomach is not full, even if I’m not necessarily hungry. It is 1:30pm and I’ve usually eaten by then, but today I am still not hungry, so I’m waiting until I’m actually hungry to eat. It makes me feel better physically, especially now that I’m starting to use food as a fuel source rather than eating it for dopamine.

That is all for now, good luck to everyone else and remember to lose weight the healthy way; you’ll even look much better losing weight healthily than unhealthily. I don’t think my goal is to get to 112 anymore, it’s to gain muscle and achieve the goal of LOOKING like 112, but if I weigh more than that due to muscle weight then that is completely fine too. Overall I want to look as thin as I am comfortable with, which for me is pretty thin, while also having a low fat percentage and a lot of muscle, whether you can see it or not. I personally feel much more comfortable in life when I have a very low fat percentage because I feel better overall and don’t need as much unhealthy forms of dopamine to feel okay.

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Update: didn’t do much today but I’m still kinda easing my way in.

I drank lots of water, and ate 3/4 of a bag of microwave popcorn for lunch, half of a turkey sandwich for dinner, and a few andes mints. Not the healthiest options but I’m im college and can’t afford healthy food all the time lol.

I went to the gym and did some stairs as well as lots of walking around today.

I’m trying to only eat between 1pm-7pm but we’ll see how that works out. I was about an hour off today.

I look more thin than I did in the “before” photo (roughly 132-135lbs) but that was also taken a couple of months ago and I’ve since already lost a little weight. I don’t have a scale here so I’ll likely only be able to weigh myself weekly at best. I think that may be better though as it shows more progress at once.

I’m making this account to hold myself accountable, and while I’ve lost a lot of weight before, I want to try building a lot more muscle while I do that this time. I want to try to retain or emphasize my curves while losing weight so I’m going to try to avoid looking like a rectangle (what usually happens when I lose weight) lol. But at the very least, I want to lose 10-20lbs or so, depending on what looks best.

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The first photo is me from nearly a year ago (around 118lbs) and the second one is from two months ago (132+ lbs) and I still weigh around the same as the second photo. I had a bmi of around 19.6 in the first and 22 in the second. I’ll probably post more photos of how my body used to look as comparison photos, since I ultimately want to weigh less than I used to but right now I would be happy to only weigh 118. My goal bmi is around 18.5. Anything above 18.5 is a healthy weight for bmi.

In the first photo, I had lost nearly 15lbs in just 2-3 weeks beforehand, which is why I am confident that I’ll be able to lose 20lbs in 40 days as long as I stick to my meal and exercise plan.

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I haven’t been able to weigh myself in a while but I estimate that I’m still around 132lbs. I’m 5’4 and want to lose 20lbs within the next 40 days (0.5lbs a day). I’ve nearly done this before so I think that it might work if I stick to my plan. I’ll update daily with the meals/exercises that I do