Disappointment, bumped off the FFA and the UOF even though I am going great.
I have been training really hard as the UOF course was coming up. I was going so well. Today for example Bollywood dancing and an hour of boxing. Then at 5pm i read an Email from HR. I think I am getting bumped off the course for the 4th time.
My medical was supposed to last 12 months until late April. The course went from late March to early April. There is an exercise test called FFA before you can do it. I blitzed the FFA in November but it only lasts 3 months. They say I need to do another medical and I am booked in on 18 Feb. Must attend. This despite the other medical is still valid for two more months. Last year the medical people send me to a specialist and who provided a letter to say I was fit and there was no reason I could n't do the course. having had asthma since i was two my lungs have changed and its affected my FEV1% of FEV C. So I fail the spiriometry usually even when iI am great. Last year it was 65.1 and it needed to be 70%.
Here is my great improvement:
On my peakflow meter 550 would be normal for my age. Today it was 420. A peak flow meter is a plastic device that you blow into and it moves a marker. The better you can breath the higher the score. Mine is a Asthma Check. brand. I like it because its small. i use it twice a day and write down the score in a book that also doubles for medicine symptoms and exercise journal.
I cannot get in for four months to the specialist to get a letter. By then the course is over. Also it will be coming into winter before the next course and it will be harder for me to do the next course in the cold.
They could have got me to do the FFA test in January. Do you ever feel like you are being set up?
I ran for 20 minutes the other morning and I can run 3km easily. I have been training 5 days per week. I am strong, have a really strong core. I am fitter than most of the others. My cardio is not too bad. I have been around people with colds and haven't succumbed thats really rare for me.
They tell me I need to grapple so I start Ju Jitsu- thats been really fun and good fun for the stressed 18 year old. We both get new bruises every week. We have been learning how to fall and how to bring someone down.
I am so devastated. I don't know what to do. Imagine training for something for 14 months. Being scheduled 3 times and not being important enough. Being scheduled a forth time and then having it arranged so that you can't do it although you meet the policy.
After I dropped my daughter to work I thought a run would do me good, cheer me up. My daughter has a driving test tomorrow and is stressed and was really cranky on the drive. Guess who she took it out on.
It was dark at the oval but there were workman in the amenities block 4 guys. I stayed over the other side of the oval just in case. When they turned the lights out completely i thought I'd better go so I had only done one kilometer.
Last time I went to the specialist and he wanted to reschedule the next appointment he said when do you know you will be sick.
Life is so strange when you can be succeeding and fail at the same time.
I hope the stress doesn't give me asthma.
All the classes are expensive but I can't get an allowance until I pass the UOF.
I am beginning to wonder if I will ever get to go on it?
Worst all the girls got injured last time. What if I make a fuss and then get injured, break a bone or fail the shooting part? or can't stand the yelling. One of the other girls broke her hand, another her foot in three places, another sprained her finger really badly and it's still bandaged four months later. The guys say one of my friends is still psychologically affected.
Maybe I am lucky after all?
My trainer wants me to have a goal. i was thinking the Sutherland to Surf race. its 7km run in winter but I could walk up the hills.
One day I amy be able to do the city to surf- Sydney to Bondi
