My Safe Haven

My unfiltered thoughts and feelings.

[silent-insanities]

I can't keep pretending I don't think of you.

[resqectable]

“I hope you find someone who knows how to love you when you are sad.”

— Nikita Gill

[silent-insanities]

You're a part of me.

[jrgdiary]

I want to see you smile. But I can't through all these tears.

[jrgdiary]

This is so hard. It's like I'm lost, but not really, because I am right where I'm supposed to be. I'm so sleepy, but my mind is wondering about a million different things. I'm so tired, but I feel like running for miles and miles to no end. I'm so hungry, but I dont have appetite for anything. I want to rip myself apart and build myself from scratch. I am going crazy. Is this what truly love feels like? 8.1 billion people in the world and all I want is you. I think about you all the time, but you don't. I need you, but you don't. I want you, but you don't. I want to build my future with you, but you don't. All my plans includes you, but im not included in yours. I always dream my life with you, but you don't even wonder how I am. Yeah yeah yeah, I know I'm dumb, stupid, imbecile, crazy, call me whatever you want, who gives a fuck? And I know, there's so many people in the world, why not choose from one of them? Well fuck, they're not you.

[jrgdiary]

Saklap.

[jrgdiary]

I want you back.

[jrgdiary]

I need you.

[jrgdiary]

Why the fuck am I suddenly crying out of the blue? What the fuck is this weird shit?

[jrgdiary]

"Ponder the path of thy feet, and let all thy ways be established."

[jrgdiary]

Its crazy how the world is moving too fast and Im still here where you left me.

[jrgdiary]

Araw araw, ikaw at ikaw. Walang araw na hindi. Kahit na hindi na ako ang pinipili.

[jrgdiary]

It sucks to feel I don't matter. I just want to disappear, I want to stop existing.

[jrgdiary]

I feel so incomplete without you.

[jrgdiary]

It's one of those nights where I am haunted by 'what ifs'. You know I'd give up everything for you. And I also know you would do the same. Just not with me.

[jrgdiary]

Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you But ain't nobody love you like I do Promise that I will not take it personal, baby If you're movin' on with someone new'

Cause baby you look happier, you do My friends told me one day I'll feel it too And until then I'll smile to hide the truth But I know I was happier with you

[jrgdiary]

It amazes me that you can still make me smile with small talks. I wasn't even aware until someone pointed it out.