dear allyna,

i don’t know what i’m doing here

[grumpy-gh0st]

Being an adult woman is just like “oh my tummy hurts” “oh my head hurts” “oh the burden of being alive is so heavy today” and then carrying on with your day.

[juanaohjuana]

& update ko din about sa work crush ko, BAKIT HINDI PA DIN NYA AKO NILALANDI? like it’s so obvious na bet namin ang isa’t isa. hahahahahahaha feeling amputa. pero diba feel mo naman if there’s something. well okay, hahahaha sige kay mingyu muna ako lalandi.

[juanaohjuana]

hi blog! just want to update u kasi 3 months ago na daw last kong post. here’s to one year of being a cpa, to 24 years of living and to 6 months in san miguel. a lot has happened within my stay here. far from my family, hindi ko alam paano ako gagalaw without them. nasanay akong careless sa lahat ng gagawin since andyan naman sila for me incase. pero dito, sobrang hirap. ako lang talaga. so this is how adulting feels like… there were times na i cried myself to sleep kasi hindi ko alam pano ako magbabudget for my family, living expenses and syempre savings. one meal sa fast food felt like luxury. i couldn’t even bear to spend 80 pesos for a ride. goodness. kahit ice cream, hindi ko mabili. pero ang bilis at ang galing ni Lord, huhu. dahil after 3 mos, regular na agad ako. ngayon nakakaya ko na kahit pakonti konti. sobrang happy ako na i am able to give back to my family ngayon kahit hindi ganon kalaking halaga. ayun, and i get to spoil myself din. nakaspotify premium na ako ngayon. hahahahahaha. dati, inggit lang ako kapag may concerts dito ang ult kpop groups ko, pero now afford ko na kahit bumalik pa sila <3 thank U, Lord always. thank u din sa sarili ko for hanging in there. alam ko nagsisimula pa din lang ako at sobrang dami ko pa talaga need matutunan sa career man o sa paanong patakbuhin ang buhay ko, pero i’m pretty contented sa mga naabot ko as of now. i love you, self. thank you for being brave. ps: would like to also thank svt, i met you guys when i needed u the most. kayo nagpakalma sakin during my review season. thank u. let us meet again real soon :> ayun lang, bye.

[everythingfox]

[juanaohjuana]

i'm soooo torn! sobrang dami kong inapplyan after I left pwc, tapos now sabay sabay sila nagrereach out tapos puro pa prio companies ko. huhuhuhu but i guess this is on me since bat ko ba sila pinagsabay sabay. yung isang company, super bet ko kasi ang laking company pero onsite na sya and wala pa ako makakasama talaga if onsite so i've got to do things on my own. wtfffff di pa ako ready :( ok maybe the next time i'll write here, maybe meron na ako napili na company. wish me luck! <33

[juanaohjuana]

I got in beybeh

[juanaohjuana]

Some of the group pictures we took from our Baguio trip.

[juanaohjuana]

i'm soooo torn! sobrang dami kong inapplyan after I left pwc, tapos now sabay sabay sila nagrereach out tapos puro pa prio companies ko. huhuhuhu but i guess this is on me since bat ko ba sila pinagsabay sabay. yung isang company, super bet ko kasi ang laking company pero onsite na sya and wala pa ako makakasama talaga if onsite so i've got to do things on my own. wtfffff di pa ako ready :( ok maybe the next time i'll write here, maybe meron na ako napili na company. wish me luck! <33

[adictiva-ternura]

Yu na (2017) by masha bogatova

[redrola]

[juanaohjuana]

Kinda regretting leaving Isla Lipana. Pero feel ko hindi talaga kakayanin ng mental health ko knowing I've got to deal with that senior. Gusto ko naman yung auditing kahit sobrang stressful and ang hirap nya. Kaya now super namimiss ko yung stress sa work. Naisip ko lang, if I started my work with another senior, would the ending still be same? feel ko hindi. kasi super bet ko naman yung audit :( i loved working with clients and teams pero grabe yung stress ko from the senior, parang natatabunan nya yung kagustuhan ko magwork :( feel ko tuloy ang weak ko kasi yun lang, i gave up agad agad. hays ok i just miss audit life :(

[aidashakur]

[ashberrrry]

I be like "omg, i have so much to do" and then go lay down

[juanaohjuana]

me rn

[juanaohjuana]

and i'm still stuck in day one. di ko alam san ka kumuha ng lakas ng loob to treat me like this. i gave u everything, it may seem like an overstatement pero totoo. ang sakin lang, you should have atleast shown me basic human decency na if wala ka balak sa relationship natin, then you should have not bothered me na lang in the first place and let me had my peace. nakakagalit sobra na nagsayang ako ng oras ko, na by this time nakaheal na sana ako kahit onti, pero ginulo mo ulit ako so ganito na naman ako. ayos din sana if you were fully honest with me, but no eh, you told me you wanted us to get back together and sumusulpot ka on events na hindi ko naman ineexpect na andon ka kasi alam ng lahat we have broken up na. ok, bye end rant na. inis lang.

[juanaohjuana]

Last 2 weeks until I finish my work here in my current company. Di ko pa din sure lahat ng decisions ko, pero as of now ito talaga ang gusto ko. Iba to sa mga tinahak ng iba in the profession pero naisip ko lang tayo ang didikta ng kung anong gusto natin at hindi ang kung ano ang normal na mangyayari. Sana maging okay na ang mental health ko sa sunod ko na work, at sana matanggap na talaga ako dito sa inapplyan ko hahahahahah kahit sabog sabog ako nung interview, hirap hirap makapasa assessment nyo! amp. pero i hope huhu. ok yun lang, happy sunday! may ep 4 na mamaya ng twenty five, twenty one. <333

[ciellenegrete]

I know I’m probably better off on my own than lovin’ a man who didn’t know what he had when he had it

[mhtpalette]

[hiatuse]

To be desired means nothing. To be truly understood and deeply loved is everything.