Scarface

In search of the Great Manifesto

[juanlucio]

Life’s pretty busy when you’re in your late twenties. A bunch of photos piling up in your gallery and no exact day on when you’ll be able to go through them again or even post some— that’s sort of what it looks like when work and responsibilities eat you daily.

Sometimes it’s nice to look back to the good old carefree days and just cherish those moments one more time. But nope, time flies fast especially when you get older. Our perspective and views of the world and life in general widened, I guess. If there’s one thing that adulting has made me realize, it’s that when your eyes get opened to the reality and practicality of life, your habits start to change. You start to adapt to what’s important, what’s urgent— priorities, needs, or wants, setting aside things that do not require immediate attention.

Despite all of these, I hope we still get to enjoy the simple things, however childish or silly they may seem. At the end of the day, it’s still our choice to consume whichever thoughts and things nourish our soul and whole being. But then again, sometimes even choice is a privilege. So lucky are those who has the freedom to choose from different options they may have through every situations. And for those who do not, I hope we hang on a little tighter, and build more strength within as brighter, better days are surely ahead. I know they will be. They should be. 🤗

ps. here are some photos from our trip in the north a few weeks back ✨

📍Calle Crisologo ☀️

[juanlucio]

29th ✨

It’s funny how time flies. One day you’re just reviewing and cramming for exams and school works, the next you’re working yourself off through adulting. Most times you find yourself drowning in stress and pressure. But somehow, even without knowing how to swim, you managed to survive. In various cases you wear multiple hats, finding the perfect balance to each of them. But at the end of the day, you’re still standing strong, until you wear them off and get the rest you need. That’s part of growing up, I guess. Sometimes it’s fun, sometimes it’s tiring. But either way it’s fulfilling. And fulfillment need not to come only from good endings and results. It’s important to acknowledge the quick and small wins and losses along the way.

Well, it’s been a long year. Throughout adulthood, I have learned to walk to places where I think I’d grow, and walk away from paths that do not align with who I aspire to be.

You still got a long way to go, self, but you’ve come so far. And for that, I am immensely proud. Cheers to 29th! 🫶🏻

[juanlucio]

I hope you get to conquer and overcome your past traumas and fears. When overthinking and anxiety attack, I hope you have someone that pats your head or holds your hand to reassure everything will be alright. And if you ever feel alone, I hope you always have yourself, for that is the most important thing. When you feel like everyone's gone, please don't leave you'.

In a world where darkness and cruelty linger, I hope you find your light that will outshine everything that tries to dim your path to the greater, stronger you.

Stand a little taller, with your head held a little bit higher.

Better days are coming. You got this! I believe in you! 🤗✨

[juanlucio]

28th ✨🩵

heart’s filled with gratitude,

for blessings coming in multitude.

still a long way to go,

but for now let’s enjoy the flow.

[juanlucio]

patiently waiting for my time 🥺🤞🏻🙏🏻

[juanlucio]

Sometimes, I just feel lonely. And this is one of those times. I feel like I’m getting old and everybody’s getting busy with life. And yes, so do I. But this time I long for companionship. I am realizing how my friends are getting caught up with life and I can’t remember the last time I hang out and have deep conversations with them. I do have my partner, yes. But I also know how busy work and life outside our relationship can be. And I know it’s not a bad thing.

I wish I could get back up and enjoy life more. I miss doing the things that make me happy, and the places and experiences that make me feel alive. I’m holding on to better days. 🙏🏻

[juanlucio]

It's my 10th anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Wow, it’s been quite a while. Thanks for being a home for many years, Tumblr!

Life’s been busy (adulting iykyk) lately, but this platform will always hold a place in me and has always been a part of me. This is where I learned, practiced, and expressed all my thoughts as I onced was a hopeless romantic teenager trying to find his place and figure things out. As of date, I am managing and coping, happy and contented for that matter. But life challenges do not end. So yea, I’m continuously sailing and braving the winds and the waves onto every harbor, and making the most out of everything. I hope all of you out there are safe and sound! 🤗🫶🏻

[juanlucio]

Adulting is such a scary yet an exciting and progressively fulfilling journey. Sometimes (or maybe most times) you wouldn’t know what to do, but brave the storm anyways because you’re left with no choice. Or maybe you have options but still choose to do it. Regardless, it’s overcoming moments like this that makes us feel that little triumph; a small win, as they say. It’s when you hear the kid inside you say, ‘Look at you, self! You can do that stuff now. You managed, and I am proud of you!’. The joy that comes along with it is comparable to a child’s delight when he gets to spell a complex word after having it misspelled a couple of times. Over time, the word gets familiar and spelling it would be a walk in the park. Similarly, an adult may face a greater responsibility he’s never dealt with before, but eventually gets the hang of it. In reality though, things don’t get easier, we just get better.

Adulting is a long journey and it consists of different phases most have yet to encounter or sometimes even comprehend. We may not understand it at the moment, but we cling to the thought that these’ll all make sense one day, someday. For now, let’s embrace it, enjoy and celebrate it, and let ourselves feel whatever we need to feel for us to uncover a version of us we’ve always wanted to achieve.

‘Nothing in this life comes easy, most especially when responsibilities continue to pile up. Being an adult is never easy, but every small wins must be acknowledged and affirmed.’

🤗🫶🏻✨

Ending June with growth and maturity, and a bunch of realizations; and starting July with a desire to be better 🙏🏻

[juanlucio]

longing for those carefree and stress-free days 🥹✨☀️

[juanlucio]

What’s good?

It’s been a while since I’ve written and posted anything. Life’s been happening lately. Some days I feel overwhelmed. Some days I feel stagnant. But nonetheless, most days I am grateful. I have a stable job. My heart is at peace. My family and love ones are healthy and happy.

But life must not stop here. I still have my goals and dreams. And I promise, self, that I will achieve all these in time. I am not alone. I got the reinforcements I need. I’ll make this work. We’ll make this work.

For now, I am seizing every moment and phases of my life because I remember praying for these. I have nothing but gratitude. 🤍

[juanlucio]

twenty-seven and he does not know where to begin,

but here he is, still holding on to a pen,

leaving a series of what could’ve beens,

continuously writing his story despite a future yet to be seen.

🤗🫶🏻✨

Before the day ends, I just want to remind you how proud I am of you, self. 🤍

[juanlucio]

can’t remember the last time I wore barong

leaving it here for log 🫶🏻✨

The year’s almost ending and I am happy right now.

Despite everything, I am and will always be grateful. 🫶🏻✨

[juanlucio]

progress report uwu

So happy that I get to be consistent this time. 🥹

[juanlucio]

celebrating small progress ✨ here’s to giving back to u, self! 🤗🫶🏻

It’s been a while since I exercised regularly. I missed this. It’s like the kind of self-love that makes someone more contented than he/she already is. Plus, I can’t deny the fact that it’s one of the most effective stress relievers. So yes, here’s to being more disciplined this time, self. You got this. ☺️

[juanlucio]

‘twas a night to remember 🫶🏻

Kodaline, you will always hold special pages in my book. 💙✨

[juanlucio]

I always thought I would achieve more. But here I am, staring at my ceiling, wondering what the hell has been happening the past few years. And the question lingers, ‘Would things be much better if I had taken a different path?’.

Is this all I got? Can I have a reset button? Too many thoughts lately I just wanna lay on a green grassy field and look at the plains and the sky, and breathe as if problems do not exist.

*sigh

[juanlucio]

‘Never forget to appreciate yourself too— for trying, for thriving. It’s a cruel world, and you should be proud for conquering the toughest times.’ ✨🫶🏻