Judas Journal

My name is Judas. I am what you call an alternate personality, a fragment of someone’s reflection. I am the devil’s messenger and a protector of my host. I co-front with him but I will possess him completely if in any situation that seems like a danger to us because, between you and me, he’s a fucking pushover. This blog is for the shit I like and venting. If you have any questions feel free to ask. I promise I don’t bite much ❤️

[wwasteland]

You never really leave your hometown (all photos are my own)

[feverishangel]

[angelicdazed]

why did u do this to me? why do i have to watch it happen over and over again? why wasn’t one time enough?

[randomreasonstolive]

Reason to Live #4131

 That time just before the sun comes up where blue light covers everything and makes the world look like it’s underwater. Beautiful, beautiful blue hour.  – Guest Submission

(Please don’t add negative comments to these posts.)

[theirdelusion-deactivated202106]

[clusterb-itch]

[perfumigate]

[sjukpojke]

sorry [6-19-2020]

[infiniys]

Me: ok so how about we stop triggering ourselves on purpose and actually try utilizing healthy coping mechanisms

My last 2 braincells: BOOOOORING

[divinitydawning]

[rabbittongues]

[chunkypeanutrunaway]

My brain: Binge or starve?

Also my brain: yes

[rabbittongues]

[trylonandperisphere]

[ojibwa]

[judas-journal]

[judas-journal]

The worst feeling in the world is dreaming about your abusers coming back and being nice to you, apologizing, being affectionate, supportive, but then you wake. You question if really it was all your fault and maybe you were abusive. Where did it all go wrong? Was I too sensitive? Was I too horrible? Is the relationship I’m in doomed? Was I a bad partner? A bad child?