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I just wanna not care... Is that too much to ask for?!

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I've been taking care of myself for a while, doing therapy, started antidepressants and ooop miss Bad Depressive Episode still decided to visit... Fuuuuun....

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Me: I couldn't care less about my appearance rn

Also me(one second later) : Oh I kinda feel like working towards looking perfect cause every bit of me is literally so ugly

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Abusing laxatives be like;

Ouch that sucks I'll never do it again

*literally tomorrow*

Lol what pain?!

*Yummy yummy (laxatives) in my tummy*

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LOL I'M TRASH

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Therapist: When you were suicidal, did you make a plan how you'd end your life?

Me: No.

*doesn't explain how I made multiple attempts and none were planned, I just... Did them *

Therapist: Okay

Me:(fuck.)

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I can stop any time I want

I can't

I just choose not to

It hurts resisting the urges too much

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Horror story:

THE PRINGLE LICK

*licks a Pringle in temptation*

Ed brain: I BINGED 😭

Reasonable brain: Well.. Actually binging is..

Ed brain: I broke my fast!

*Googles how many calories are in 1(one) lick of a Pringle*

Reasonable brain: You literally need so much more to nourish your body and it will not make you gain if you just take a proper care of...

*can't find it.. Obviously *

Ed brain: What if it is like... 10cal 😱 I must run for 3hours now and fast for at least a week to make up for it!!!

Reasonable brain: ... no

Ed brain: *INAUDIBLE YELLING*

-insert the meme where a woman is yelling at her child "why can't you just be normal" and the child is like histerically screaming -

The end

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😒Bitches really be in recovery for a goddamn year and decide to fuck it up because SoMeoNe waS MeAN to thEm

You know where it's going...

It's me.. I'm Bitches

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I have anxiety... Yuh

👁️👄👁️

*drinks coffee*

I have fast anxiety... Yuh

✨👄✨

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1. Completely avoiding human contact so nobody can get mad at me

...

✨And other things childhood trauma cursed me with ✨

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My disordered brain: post your body check

My reasonable brain:

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*you got a message*

-Hey, do you want an Ana coac...

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Spooky season in my brain all year long.

Yeee(t) haaaaw

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Wouldn't it be so fun if I just had a normal brain for like a day...

Just for the sake of everyone around me.

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Wishing I was drunk so I could get some rest..

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