My brain is like Inside Out but instead of five emotions it's five raccoons with mental disorders. We write MCU Fanfiction and hyperfixate over Bucky Barnes. Gender-fluid they/them A drabble a day keeps the plot bunnies at bay. Prompt my next one below⬇️
I am Fivecrazyraccoons. You can call me Mad. I’m about to be 30, neurodivergent, queer, gender-fluid, and use they/them, pronouns. I have a hyperfixation with the MCU overall (but mostly Cap and Bucky) that borders insanity. I started reading fanfic around summer/fall of last year and started writing in the October last year when the ideas hit me and won’t go away.
I have many opinions about a lot of things to do with the MCU and will talk at length if you let me (please let me).
Most of my writing follows canon with my headcanons for what happens off-screen and in their heads. I do have miscellaneous works that are AUs and such, but I’m not presently working on them seriously. I like diving deep into characters and relationships and less on huge extravagant plots.
I’ve recently started writing drabbles (and doubles and triples) from scenes that inspire me and it’s helped get some ideas out without starting another grand project. I think it would be a fun challenge to take prompts for drabbles based on scenes or lines, so send them my way!
I also like to talk queer and trans things, neurodivergent things, Legos (I recently built the Avengers tower), and yarn crafts.
See here for my Stucky fic rec list
See here for my AO3 masterlist and current wips
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See raccoon explanation below
Imagine the Pixar movie Inside Out, but all the brain workers are feral raccoons. The five in headquarters are not based on emotions, but various things relating to my neurodivergencies. Three of them have names. I’m still coming up with the other two.
Autism raccoon - what it says. They have many sensory issues, tend to take things very literally, don’t love being thrown into social situations, and have very strong opinions. Still needs a name.
PDA raccoon - he’s got pathological demand avoidance/pervasive drive for autonomy. A really overly-simplified explanation is an extreme version of “don’t tell me what to do.” It is much more than that though. Something as little as a suggestion or something I’ve told myself I plan to do can set him off and he will be upset and refuse to do anything. Prone to setting off the other raccoons. He was born of trauma and lack of autonomy. His name is Rocket (yes after GOTG Rocket)
ADHD raccoon - he’s got trouble focusing and is easily distracted unless we get into tunnel vision and then he will keep me working on the same thing for HOURS. He craves social interaction and just wants to talk about his hyperfixations. His name is Bubbles (after the fish in Finding Nemo). Pretty sure Bubbles is the one that chases the plot bunnies.
BPD raccoon - thankfully pretty dormant lately. But when set off he splits and it’s really not fun. He’s prone to being mean as a really bad self-sabotaging coping mechanism. He is named Stitch because he was only created to destroy but also he kind of just wants to be loved and cuddled
Masking raccoon - she’s tired. She focuses on making me act relatively normal in public so I don’t accidentally say offensive things or make faces that make people think I’m upset. We’re working on giving her a break. But as a late-diagnosed AFAB that’s spent years working with the public in a way that I have to play their game, it’s hard. She also doesn’t have a name.
It seems kind of crazy, but this has really helped me analyze my brain, my feelings, and why I may be acting or reacting a certain way. If I can identify which raccoon is in control, I can better determine my own needs. I am also convinced that everyone has brain animals (whether they’re all the same or multiple head animals) and most of my neurospicy friends love this theory and have adopted it. We ask each other a deeper level of “how are you doing” by saying things like “how are the squirrels today?” And communicate when we’re not doing so great by saying things like “the raccoons are on something today.” For me it also separates out sometimes how I don’t WANT to be feeling a certain way and sometimes I know my thoughts are not rational, but I can’t help it in the moment.
I just found out about Northstar and omg I love him! First openly gay superhero is also Canadian??? Made for me fr. I thought his coming out comic was incredibly well done and interesting my jaw was on the FLOOR bc it was so long ago! Never let "it was different back then" be an excuse.
(Actual comics and more thoughts under the cut)
This is the scene after Northstar finds a baby girl abandoned in the trash and discovers she was born with AIDS after adopting her. I really loved the commentary in this issue (Alpha Flight #106) because it felt very real and the 'villian' was completely valid and ended up helping Northstar get through his daughter's death.
Also, I thought one of the letters sent was really cool! Well, not the letter, but the reply.
(Reading this again there is no way Burns D. Gross is real like hmm okay)
Also ALSO, this is the letter from the 100th issue discussed above. Charles is a legend.
favorite movie ⋆ series ⋆ comfort character ⋆ male ⋆ female ⋆ duo ⋆ trio ⋆ ship ⋆ siblings
crack edition because i have been blessed/cursed with free will
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Yes yes. I do love them both. Though oddly in the polyamory context I only generally like all three of them together if it's Cap quartet and Nat is also involved? Nothing against All Caps, just doesn't speak to me the same. Idk.
Shameless self-promo because I keep seeing this post come up.
Re: Bucky's last words before being dusted being Steve’s name.
I wrote Sticks and Stones as part of a my Stucky canon series, which included this passage for that moment.
“Steve.” He heard it before he processed what had happened. Pit in his stomach, as he turned around it felt like time slowed down. He heard the same voice and the same name over different moments in time. Mumbled in fear and sadness in a tenement apartment over his own coughing fits. Groaned in exasperation and disagreement on Brooklyn streets and alleyways. Gasped in relief and incredulity in a factory in Krausberg. Growled in anger and resentment in an abandoned building in Germany. Shouted in assent and gratitude over the sounds of battle. Sighed into wrinkled bedsheets. Whispered in the dark over a shared pillow. Mouthed against his skin with a smile, more of a feeling than a sound.
And then subsequently wrote this entire drabble collection about all the little moments that Bucky said, "Steve." (the last one will be posted tomorrow morning)
