Brutality and Violation in A Little Life
Okay, so, I just want to talk about this a little bit.ย Iโm going to go into some pretty heavy spoilers for this book here, so if you havenโt read it yet, you should skip this post.
Iโve seen some people accuse and refer to the violence and abuse we see in A Little Life asย โtorture pornโ, saying itโs excessive and unnecessary, using their own shocked reactions and otherwise dry-eyed responses during such scenes in the book to back up their claims.ย I want to address this, because I think itโs an entirely wrong take, and Iโll just explain why.
The entire point of A Little Life is to confront the reader with the reality of certain sorts of lives.ย And as Hanya Yanaghihara has said, some lives, the lives we donโt see, the lives we are often so afraid to look at, are violent lives, brutal lives, torturous lives.ย And this book specifically forces the reader to come to terms with those violent sorts of lives, and to come to terms with the consequences, with the results of people, specifically children, living through real violence and abuse.ย
The abuse Jude goes through in the book is extreme, yes, but not anywhere near impossible, or even improbable.ย These sorts of things DO happen to people, every day.ย Once again, just because we donโt see it, or hear about it, doesnโt mean it isnโt happening.ย It is.ย And what this book does, what makes it so important, is that it forces us, the reader, to look at something, and acknowledge something as existing, that we otherwise would likely turn away from and pretend wasnโt there.ย The book doesnโt allow you to do that.ย It MAKES you look, and so, it makes you see the people that have gone through the kinds of horrors Jude goes through.ย It makes you aware, whether you want to be or not, of their existence.
Now, in terms of practical story telling, the abuse and violence we see in the book is also necessary, and hereโs why.
In order for the reader to fully comprehend why Jude is as damaged as he is, we need to see what caused that damage.ย Judeโs struggle in the present, his mental health issues, his self-loathing, his inability, no matter how many people tell him he is deserving of kindness and love, no matter how many people tell him heโs good, or extraordinary, his inability to believe it, the impossibility for him to believe it, needs to be explained.ย Because Judeโs life IS a good one, on the surface.ย Heโs professionally and personally successful.ย He has a high paying, important job, he has numerous friends who love and adore him, he has enough money to live a comfortable life of privilege and luxury, heโs respected, etcโฆย So why is he so messed up?ย Making vague, half-hidden allusions to a dark and abuse filled past wouldnโt be satisfying enough, narratively, to explain away WHY Jude hates himself as much as he does, why he feels the need to self-harm to such an extreme and devastating degree, why his memories haunt and torture him so persistently, why heโs so unable to make them stop.ย A Little Life deals largely in psychology, and patterns of behavior.ย Jude thinks very specific things about himself, all of which are rooted in the abuse he suffered as a child.ย His belief that heโs unclean, that heโs spoiled and guilty, his belief that heโs a bad person, his inability to say no, or to defend himself, or understand that he even is ALLOWED to defend himself, his cutting, etcโฆ All of this is tied up, inextricably, with what happened to him in childhood.ย We, as readers, NEEDED to witness Judeโs past in order to understand his present.ย Without it, without witnessing specifically what it is that happened to him in his childhood, we wouldnโt have nearly the psychological understanding of Jude that we end up having.ย His struggles and difficulties and sufferings in the present wouldnโt make any sense to us.ย We would wonder, by the end, why it was he felt he needed to end his life, rather then the perfect understanding weโre actually left with, rather then the empathy we have for his choice, and so one of the driving and most important themes of the book (the question of justified suicide, of what makes life unendurable) would be lost, and that would be a massive failure, and make the book far lesser as a work of art.ย With the inclusion of Judeโs past, the detailed and unflinching view we get into his past, we arenโt left to wonder why heโs as broken and damaged as he is, we donโt question his pain and suffering, we donโt ever think heโs being overdramatic or self-indulgent.ย Instead we understand perfectly why he is the way he is.ย As Andy tells Willem at one point, make him tell you what happened to him, and youโll understand why he is the way he is.ย Like Willem needed to hear the truth, as brutal and horrible as it was, we too, as readers, needed to hear it as well.
Thereโs one other point I want to address too, which Iโve heard some people posit as proof that the violence and abuse we see in the book was included only for the sake of shock value.ย They say during these scenes of past abuse, they felt more shocked than anything, but didnโt find themselves tearing up or particularly emotional, and this is somehow supposed to be proof that the scenes are excessive and unnecessary and only included to shock the reader.
To me, this claim only shows poor reading comprehension.ย It shows a failure to understand the view point presented in these flashbacks.
All of the abuse scenes are told from Judeโs perspective.ย We are witnessing them through Judeโs eyes.ย One point Hanya Yanagihara has made again and again in interviews about child abuse, about what makes it such a particularly awful thing, is that children donโt possess the intellectual or emotional capacity to understand what it is thatโs happening to them, and so they arenโt able to process it at all.ย They arenโt able to comprehend it.
While these things are happening to Jude, then, while heโs being beaten, or emotionally, mentally, or sexually abused, he doesnโt have the mental or emotional maturity yet to comprehend why these things are happening to him, or what these things even are.ย And again, remember, these scenes are told to us through Judeโs perspective on them, his thoughts, his feelings.ย Jude canโt understand whatโs happening to him.ย While we as readers can understand it, and know intellectually that what is occurring is a tragedy, and heartbreaking, Jude can only respond to it with fear and confusion.ย He doesnโt have the mental or emotional capacity yet to be heartbroken, or sad, over whatโs happening.ย He only has the capacity to be confused and afraid.ย And those are the emotions weโre presented with during these scenes.ย Confusion and fear.
Early on in the abuse, Jude also responds in the way children do when something is happening to them that they donโt understand.ย He throws temper tantrums.ย He becomes violent, screaming and throwing himself against walls and onto the floor, rebelling in a confused state of pain and terror to something that he can sense is bad, but doesnโt yet understand WHY itโs so.ย Eventually, in response to these tantrums, his abusers beat him badly enough, enough times, that Jude learns responding at all to whatโs happening to him only makes it worse, and so he learns to repress what heโs feeling.ย He stops throwing tantrums, he stops screaming, he stops crying, and he shuts down.ย Again, remember, these flashbacks are being shown to us entirely from Judeโs perspective.ย So he shuts down and goes entirely within himself, learning, even , to disassociate during instances of abuse, to pretend it isnโt happening to him.ย That heโs only somehow witnessing the event, not experiencing it.ย The scenes of abuse then take on a dreary, resigned, defeated quality.ย Theyโre MEANT TO.ย Because, again, weโre experiencing them through Judeโs perspective.ย The abuse becomes an almost mundane, agonizing and oppressive part of his every day life.ย An inescapable reality for him.ย A common and inevitable part of his existence.ย Jude falls into a state of despair.ย He isnโt consciously aware of feeling anything but that resignation, then, and we feel that resignation with him.ย Extremity of emotion is missing from these scenes on purpose, because weโre meant to feel what Jude is feeling, which is nothing at a certain point.ย He disassociates, detaches, and represses his anger and pain and fear.ย Itโs the only way he has of coping with the brutality of his life.ย ย
I think itโs also important to acknowledge the sinister, creeping nature of the abuse, and how itโs portrayed, especially in regards to Brother Luke and Dr. Traylor.ย More than intending to make the reader feel sad, or heartbroken, the scenes with these two, main abusers are meant to invoke in the reader a real sense of unease and unsettlement and fear.ย Weโre aware, in a way Jude is not, that these men are manipulating him, and that their apparent kindness is nothing more than a ruse.ย Our awareness of this reality, while simultaneously witnessing Judeโs ignorance and naivety, while witnessing his trust, is incredibly disturbing, because we know these men are going to molest him at some point.ย This isnโt meant to make us cry, so much as itโs meant to make us deeply uncomfortable and frightened for Jude.ย We know whatโs coming, even as Jude doesnโt, and itโs awful to see.ย And then, once again, we experience the abuse through Judeโs perspective, and once again, because of his lack of emotional or mental maturity, because of his inability to fully understand whatโs happening to him, the emotions we find conjured in us are ones of confusion and fear and despair, rather than extreme heartbreak.ย These scenes arenโt meant to make us cry, theyโre meant to make us understand what Jude is experiencing and feeling during this period of his life, which is, after a certain point, just simply resignation, and an oppressive sense of inescapability.ย More than anything, it is an endless drudge of misery with no end in sight, and thatโs the feeling we as readers are left with, because itโs what Jude himself is feeling.ย He rarely cries, he never shows anger, he never rebels.ย He never shows any extremity of emotion.ย He is, more and more, introverted and emotionally suppressed, and once again, that oppressive inevitability which marks his existence is the primary feeling weโre left with.
It isnโt until Jude is older, and able to mentally comprehend what actually happened to him, that the heartbreaking tragedy behind it all comes more to the surface, and the emotions Jude, and thus, the reader, go through are more extreme in their intensity.ย When Jude starts to realize, as an adult, the nature of what was actually done to him, thatโs when weโre met with more emotionally charged reactions from him, and in turn, we find ourselves responding with more emotion.ย Itโs why Judeโs struggles in the present are so heartbreaking, because heโs no longer able to separate himself from the act like he had as a child, he is no longer able to pretend it happened to someone else, to escape inside himself, to shut down emotionally.ย Heโs hit with the full brunt of his reality, and itโs devastating, both to him, and to us.ย ย
Hanya Yanaghihara has said that children are far more accepting of terrible living conditions and abuse and ill treatment than an adult would be, because they simply donโt know any better, because they simply donโt know anything else.ย Whatever their lives are, thatโs all they can imagine as reality.ย They canโt imagine anything past it.ย And thatโs what we see with Jude.ย As a child, while all of these terrible things are happening to him, he grows to simply accept it as his reality, and canโt imagine a life beyond it, and so he reacts to it with a deadened resignation.ย Thereโs an oppressive, suffocating sense to what heโs experiencing, more than extreme sadness, and once again, we as readers are meant to experience that oppressive suffocation with him.ย When he grows up, and his life improves, and he learns that life can be not just better, but infinitely so, thatโs when he starts to understand what happened to him, when he begins to understand the injustice and cruelty of it, and the heartbreaking aspect of it becomes more clear, to both him and to us.
So, in conclusion, the arguments or criticisms people level at this book, particularly in regard to the scenes of abuse, donโt, in my view, hold much, if any weight, because they seem to fail entirely to grasp the purpose behind any of it.ย It makes them uncomfortable, which itโs meant to, and because it makes them uncomfortable, theyโve decided, as a means of relieving that discomfort, to dismiss it as unnecessary and excessive and included only for shock value, as a cheap trick to ring emotion out of the reader.ย Again, these sorts of takes fail to understand the purpose or importance of Judeโs past being revealed the way it is.ย This book is uncompromising, and understands the necessity of facing the ugly reality of child abuse head on.ย It understands that it achieves nothing by skirting around the issue, or by coddling the reader and making the grim and horrific reality of its subject matter more palatable for them.ย It would do both a disservice to Jude as a character, and our understanding of why he ends up where he does, and a disservice to real life victims of child abuse, who arenโt afforded the luxury of getting to pretend that what happened to them wasnโt so bad, who arenโt afforded the luxury of looking at it askance and at a remove.ย The point of this book is to show the lifelong and devastating consequences of child abuse.ย Jude is unable to escape the pain and vividness of his memories.ย He canโt get away from them.ย Heโs made to live with them every moment of every day of his life,ย ย made to relive the horror of his past again and again, and the reader too is meant to be unable to escape it, is made to relive those moments with him, precisely so that they can then better understand Judeโs suffering, and why life is so difficult for him.ย ย
Thatโs the entire point.