Humans call me a clinical zooanthrope, but I’m really just turning into a bird. I was born in a human body but ever since I was little I could feel my wings starting to sprout and my feathers come in. Now I have wings with a wingspan of about 35 inches, with small flight feathers. These wings are located about 5 inches below my shoulder blades, and 4 inches apart. I also have baby feathers growing from my shoulders, chest, and back.
The doctors have tried to medicate and diagnose me, but nothing has “worked”, because I AM a bird.
I will use this to document my transformation, and connect with others who are similar.
Fly free
Live fast
Love hard
Personal info and dni/boundaries below cut
diagnosis
Name: Juice / Juice box / Birdie
Pronouns: It/Its/Itself and Feather/Feathers/Featherself mostly, They/Them/Themself as needed
Homophobia, racism, colonialism, transphobia, ableism/saneism, and other forms of exclusion WILL NOT be tolerated here. I am a queer, disabled, Native American, I find this things disturbing, triggering, and disgusting
I am an open book, all questions that are not explicitly nsfw will be answered. Please, don’t be afraid to send asks, I have hyper empathy, so as long as I can understand where a question is coming from, I’ll be understanding in your asking, plus I love to talk about things.
You are always welcome to reblog my posts!
Tagging system
Juice squawks - my original posts
Chirps from creatures - asks
Juices flock - specific posts about / from my flock
Resquawk! - reposts
Bird and brush - my art
Angel x bird - posts and asks from my packmate Liam
Fly high swim low - posts and asks from mootie cyana reef
Bird and dragon - asks from the dragon anon
The sky and the sea - cetacean and avian interactions
I also use the tags “zooanthropy” “zooanthrope” “clinical zooanthrope” and “clinical zooanthropy” quite frequently.
Juice goes by Juice and uses It/Its pronouns.
I frequently post things about my “delusions” I will not label them as unreality because this is really for me.
Hello, Juice! I hope you’re doing well. I just wanted to say that, even though I am not a bird, your blog brings me a lot of comfort. It makes me feel less alone in my experience as a physical nonhuman and has helped me understand myself better. Have a nice *time zone*!
@seawolf-with-a-blog
Well, I’m glad I can bring you comfort, you, and every other creature for that matter, deserves a safe space.
Ok, I’m not quite sure what kind of genitalia you are going for, but for me, I know I want a cloaca. The way I achieve this is with undergarments that match my skin tone and are breathable, this feels just like a second skin which gives the flat/genital-less look. Then I’ll usually just pop a pair of boxers on top.
Also, I personally know growing hair down there and keeping it pretty bushy makes it look more mammalian, so that may be worth trying.
Also also, and I don’t really do sex, so I don’t know from experience, but I’ve heard animal straps/covers can make sex less dysphoric for some alterhumans. But again, I’ve not tried that before, so take with an ocean of salt on that one.
I love alterhumans who actually think they are their kintypes. I know what it's like to have your nonhuman experiences caused by disorders! It's okay! It's okay, it's okay, it's okay. And it always will be. Anyone who tells you otherwise can get lost, they will never understand what it's like to have an identity so strong that it becomes your whole world.
Mental health matters.
Be what you want to be, no matter what it is. I genuinely identify as my oc, and it's alright. It might not be 'normal,' and it might mean you do struggle with identity issues but it's okay.
hi juice! Youre experienced with birds right? Im technically an angel so i shouldnt be in this ask box but in heaven i could turn into a bird, though its weird because i dont match any earth birds and am more of a Frankensteined mix of a few.
Im eagle shaped with greyish white/iridescent feathers through most of the body but my primaries, secondaries, and tail feathers have increasingly visible silver on them, my wings have less breadth so they match a vulture/pelican/condor more than full eagles, and i have a crest like a sulfur crested cockatoo. I havent seen any birds on tumblr that are a mix of several rather than just one. I dont think ive lived many earth lives and it all feels like one bird instead of several.
i cant turn into this now since my only physical shifts here are for the wings and halo but i still giggle a little when i think of a fucked up little celestial goofing off at his job and bothering all the other angels like(not an exact recollection of what happened):
someone: “*NAME* you need to stay on guard! What if you let a human pass through here!? We cant let those eat from this tree they will become immortal, overpopulate, and RUIN the fragile ecosystems of this earth!”
me:
First, it’s absolutely hilarious to think of you soaring around heaven fucking with others as a bird. Second, all creatures are welcome in my ask box, we’ve had humans, angels, birds, whales, cats and dogs here. You are just as beloved in my ask box as anyone else.
Ok, as for birds, there is no extinct or extant (extant = still kicking on earth) that matches your description, but, there are some that you could look into.
Ok, you described an eagle like body, with thinner, more vulture like wings. This sounds a lot like it could be a hooded vulture, which has the wings you described, and has feathers in its head. AND, AND look what they sometimes do with their head feathers.
It’s not exactly like a cockatoo, but, it could be what you’re describing. And then your coloring can be whatever you feel, especially as a divine being.
But also, you can be a polymorph bird, I’ve not seen it so much on tumblr, but there are lots of us. I’d even consider myself one, as I have other types than just my bird identity, and they all mix to create one body.
Uhh yea, I don’t really have a satisfying conclusion to this… :/
HECK YEEEAAAH DO IT JUICE! You can find the two tutorials on how to do it i posted somewhere on my blog, i wish i gave them special tags to be easier to find but i think you should find them alright if you search for the #cosplay or #diy tags.
I personally failed while trying to make mine but thats because the beginner friendly tutorials are for small wings and i tried to make big ones. if you want more detailed help look for misstwisted on youtube, she makes massive ones, guides you through all the steps, tells you everything you need, and is honest about how hard it can get while still not giving up hope!
i tried to make a pair but i failed 3 times, am running out of space in my room, and dont have a way to rehome the failures so i caved and bought a pair from etsy😔🪽
if i make a pair again ill have to go the hard route with making the strong skeleton with pvc pipe or ill have to make a tiny pair that doesnt rip off the base upon use.
Hey! I know I have a lot of orcas that follow me, this video is by one of my personal favorite zoologists, and it covers a lot of information in a very manageable amount of time!
Ok, some folks have been asking about nesting, how to make a nest, what my nest looks like, etc. So this is that post.
First, I feel that it is important to mention that every creature will nest differently, this is simply my nest and how I upkeep it.
I keep my nest in a bunk bed, and I like to fill it with things I like, things that remind me of my friends, and my community.
I’ll have reference pictures of my nest and the things I like to fill it with. Also keep in mind, my nest is freshly cleaned, that’s why I’m comfortable sharing it, my nest is usually a mess and a half.
This is wall one, it is where I hang (some of) my masks, my posters, art from my friends and system, and other things of that nature. This is the personal reflection wall, when I sit up in bed, this is what I see across from me. It reminds me of all the things I love in life.
This is my actual nest, the place where I sit and post from. I try to keep it comfortable, as I do spend a lot of time in here due to my illness. I try my hardest to keep it comfy and cozy. Key features are lots of blankets and pillows, as well as easy access to my books, my charger, and my water.
(Enjoy the picture of my cat pretending not to be a sociopath)
This is the back wall of my nest, I hang my paintings there and photos from old calendars (pictured is the Grand Canyon)
I also keep my pillows on this side of the nest, so that I can stretch out long ways or curl into a ball.
And here is the final wall, I hang all my flags and taxidermy here. You can also see the ceiling that is covered in fake vines and dream catchers. This wall also has lots and lots of string lights and LEDs on it.
I personally keep it clean by making my bed and removing trash every week, and washing my sheets every month. I should probably clean it more, but that’s all I can manage to handle at any given time.
So that’s it, this is my nest! I’m very proud of it, it reflects me very well. It’s kind of hard to share it because I am so protective of it, but I feel it may be helpful.
I know I'm not human, that much is certain, but... am I really a bird? physically. I don't think so, and it's scary.
I thought I was a macaw, and I definitely still am in some way (probably a kintype), but I think it was instead just me trying to repress what I know deep down is true.
because... because what I truly, deep down, know I am, is a narwhal.
yes, I know, "another cetacean who believes they were turned into a human shape???"
yes.
I've tried repressing it for a long time, tried to hide behind different kintypes and identities, but it always comes back to this. I even know when I was given to my human family.
I don't know how I'm like this or why, but I know I'm a narwhal. my whole childhood I wished to be a mermaid, to live in the ocean, to merge my legs into a fin. I tried everything I could, every spell I found on the internet, every potion, every ritual, but of course nothing worked. I gave up on my dream as I grew up, and now I'm even scared of deep water, but that longing stayed deep inside of me.
gods it's... it's scary to admit this in a post. I know someone will think "you said you were a macaw two days ago! so you were lying?!" and "another cetacean? you're making it up at this point." and I can't do anything but ask of those people to just. just leave if you think I'm making it up to "jump on the trend" of physical cetaceans.
it's been a LONG time since I figured this out, since I realized, but these people have made me suppress it. suppress this part of me. suppress what I know is true to the point my mind latched onto other, more "believable", identities to hide it.
so. this is it. this is what I am, who I am. my username is staying the same though, I refuse to give this one up and I still am a bird, just in a different way.
thank you for reading.
(to lighten the mood, take a shot every time I say the word "know" in this post)(/j please don't)
It is totally ok to not be a bird in that way anymore, identity changes overtime and with our environment.
You are always welcome in the bird community, even if you aren’t one anymore. And I can’t speak for the cetacean community, but I’m sure they’ll love you.
