jules manticore

he / him | gayman | 19 vent blog "french" canadian just a rotting flesh capsule filled with organs am i right

[julesmanticore]

maybe the pain was supposed to help me be the man my dad wanted me to be but i think when he saw it for the first time he saw a weakness in me

[julesmanticore]

its kind of crazy how we all feel so alone yet here we are.....together on this app deep down, we all think we're super messed up and no one could understand but scrolling through certain tags i realize some people do understand. not the same life i live but the same theme. maybe if we all sat down under those parachutes youd have in music class things wouldnt feel so daunting

[julesmanticore]

Are you comfy w follows from 17 y/os or do you prefer all interactions to be from 18+? (Genuine question and dw either way!)

sorry, life consumed me. I'm fine with all interactions! If any of my posts are 18+, I'll label them as such.

[julesmanticore]

how are some people already getting suspended on mastodon bro

[julesmanticore]

TW: $H MENTION

should i make my likes public for easy access to cvtsp@ pics? they're mainly what i like lol

[thevoid0sphere]

being a grown ass adult on this side of tumblr is starting to feel like this i’m ngl

like okay unc 😞

[ybjtkyablog]

Literally 😭😭

[julesmanticore]

why do the best posters always get t4rm3d so quickly tumblr why did you become corporate and evil

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oh and about my last post TW: $H its weird to think about but lots of people kind of assume guys dont do it. i had kids in my school find out a couple years ago and they were super surprised i guess despite me displaying obvious signs

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TW: $H im kind of jealous of people who can do it on their arms because i would get caught so fast. same with most of my thighs cause i have shorts for my work uniform as soon as i move out bro im going crazy

[julesmanticore]

more nigthmare talk uhh had a dream of being tormented and then taken in by someone who seemed to actually care with these pet rats but he removed my lower body to leave my spine exposed and i couldn't really do much tbf

[julesmanticore]

i am yelling out into the void and the only response is my own echo that echo is me liking my own posts

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geniunely gonna get my shit rocked if my parents find out anything about my life also ive had awful nightmares since last time i posted but a more recent one involved FAKE TUMBLRE THIS IS A FAKE STORY babies and puppies getting run over and i lowk just had to watch and when i could move i died and felt everything and stayed smeared on the pavement until i woke up

[julesmanticore]

i can barely focus on my real life when each time i go to sleep im just tortured

[julesmanticore]

lowkey made this blog to vent about my nightmare disorder so here's a nightmare from last night except vague

my old abusers were back in my life for some reason and everyone was just okay with them being there but i started to yell at them and try to get away but they grabbed me and held me down. my friends and family did nothing to stop it lololololollllolololollool

[julesmanticore]

looking 4 moots!

looking for mutuals to chat with. 18 or older only please.

Topics: Mental Health Personality Disorders Really anything being f'ed up

[julesmanticore]

sometimes i dont feel sick enough to even be called sick