'Cause words ain't good enough

Julia Elise Marsden. Everyone is imperfectly perfect. Susie, Harlow, Bianca, and James.. Currently in a very happy relationship with Sara

[juliaxmarsden]

I can't tell whether or not that this place is better or worse than Parkwood... Maybe I should make a list or something..

[nikkicorday-deactivated20160218]

I am so overwhelmed!!! One of my best friends just sent me a letter and a locket out of the blue…

[juliaxmarsden]

Awh, really!? That's so cute! She must think that you're very special! How long have you two been best friends?

[the-michael-brooks]

Are you ready for your therapy session? 

[juliaxmarsden]

I will be.. But, only if your Dr. Brooks because I was told he is my new therapist.

[fcknsara-deactivated20141115]

Don’t worry… You’re not the only one. I just don’t like it here, that’s all. I’ve been, uh.. I don’t know.  How about you? 

[juliaxmarsden]

I don't think many people like it here.. I don't blame you. You don't know? Awh... I'm sorry. I'm okay.. I've really been missing you, mostly. 

[tegan-shay]

Because it’s on the way home…and it was closer…and there are plenty of spots where I can crash, before I enjoy the rest of the small bit of freedom that I’ve been granted. 

[juliaxmarsden]

Well, again like I said, I'm glad that I'm able to see you after the last time that you were here. I really like that smile. 

[tegan-shay]

Totally didn’t just break out of the hospital…nope.

[juliaxmarsden]

Why would you come here out of all places? Don't get me wrong though, Tegan.. I'm very happy to see you!

[fcknsara-deactivated20141115]

No.. No Jules.. Not because of a show, everything going on in my head is all over show you know? Like not making sense? Confusing perhaps? I don’t quite think you can understand if I don’t understand baby.. 

[juliaxmarsden]

I definitely don't think I could ever feel as more confused than I am right now. I'm pretty sure too that isn't a very good thing, so... I don't think that keep trying to understand. Anywho      How've you been, babe? 

[fcknsara-deactivated20141115]

Thanks but no thanks.. I mean I’d love to have you help me but I think I have to do it on my own and get over it— I dunno what I’m saying… Just work with me here okay? I might not make sense because everything’s all over the show and my mind is just all over the show. 

[juliaxmarsden]

So.. You're confused and all this stuff because of a show? I dunno.. Maybe I'm not hearing things right again. I just wanna understand, y'know? I feel out of the loop sometimes with you 'cause of how smart you are. 

[marissa-mcnally]

I’m holding you to that, being on my side I mean. Let’s see…Jenna had her late into my shift…I’m pretty sure she officially came out a couple minutes before midnight March 19 but I’d actually have to look at the birth certificate because it could’ve been after,…that was a long night… but my gut is telling me it is March 19, so four days old,give or take a day. 

[juliaxmarsden]

Of course I'm on you're side. You're very lovely and sweet and lots of things that I like about a person. Well, I think that is so adorable that you have a baby! Congrats, by the way..After all this, I don't quite think I've said that. 

[marissa-mcnally]

That’s fine with me…my fiancee thought it was weird, and so did my son…I’m sure Sara’s going to find it weird if word ever gets round to her…but hey. I’ve got reasons for the things I do, even if they only make sense to me. Haven’t broken the baby yet, score one for the rookie. 

[juliaxmarsden]

I think after what you told me, it definitely makes sense why it feels like such an accomplishment so, I'm on your side for this and I'm sure that they all will understand it too. How old is your baby?

[marissa-mcnally]

Yeah…I’ve also survived three gunshot wounds, two of which probably should’ve killed me, or at least put me out of commission, so I mean…okay maybe viewing changing a diaper  as a big accomplishment is a little odd, but it is. It’s so simple, and I can do it without hurting her…something I’m terrified of doing and I was always scared out of my mind for a baby…so…there’s a method to my madness. 

[juliaxmarsden]

I think after all that.. You definitely make a valid point. I'm still sticking with my point saying that's a little odd for you to be so happy about it but, by what you're telling me, I guess that'd be something to be proud of. I think that's wonderful. You're a survivor, darling! You should be so happy of what you have done. Even if its a diaper! 

[marissa-mcnally]

Eh, even if I never get the hang of it…as long as she’s happy and she’s healthy…then I’ll be satisfied. Besides no one realizes just how big an accomplishment changing a diaper is for me. I’ll take my little wins. 

[juliaxmarsden]

Don't you work security here? I don't want to be mean about it but, I think that's a little silly that changing a diaper is a big accomplishment! I never would have guessed. 

[marissa-mcnally]

I have no idea…this is the first baby I’ve ever had to take care of…and Jenna, I feel, is going to make me figure out most of this for myself if I can…which I suppose is only fair because she did carry the kid for nine months..

[juliaxmarsden]

You'll get the hang of it though, I promise. All people get the hang of it sooner than later. I bet after a little bit of practice, you'll be like a pro!

[fcknsara-deactivated20141115]

  I really don’t know. 

[juliaxmarsden]

Well.. You do look pretty confused but, if you figured it out.. Come tell me okay? I wanna help you any way that I can. 

[marissa-mcnally]

Nope….one or two days later, still don’t know what I’m doing. But at least I’ve figured out how to change a diaper…

[juliaxmarsden]

Everyone gets the hang of it at a different pace, right? I'm sure you'll get to where you want to be sooner than later. 

[fcknsara-deactivated20141115]

For fucks sake, not this shit again. 

[fcknsara-deactivated20141115]

[juliaxmarsden]

What's going on baby girl? 

[lucas-dalton]

I-I-I hate it here!

[juliaxmarsden]

Oh come on! It's not that bad..