Black suit Saeran decides its time for another visit to you. This time, though things go a little bit differently, and he listens to a feeling distant from his usual reckless anger.
Warnings: Degrading (obviously lol itโs Saeran), a tad bit of yelling, no spoilers doe :))
It was sickening when you first felt it - suffocating almost, the feeling making you pale, making your breathing harder like your bedroom was beginning to fill with water and you were panicking - but really it was *you* that was filling with dread. You could feel the butterflies in your stomach as his slender fingers wrapped around your throat, the fear turning into dark excitement. You were in disbelief at your own body, the way your chest burnt with desire. Betrayed. You felt betrayed - not by the man pushing himself onto you so that you were firmly at the wall while he whispered horrible sentiments to you - no. You were betrayed at how warmth pooled at your lower stomach, at how you squirmed beneath him as his hand travelled up your sides and back, the other firm around the back of your neck. Your pulse sky-rocketed when you felt Saeranโs hot breath tickle your ear, and suddenly your throat tightened not by his own hand but simply by his closeness.ย
โYouโre enjoying this, arenโt you, my toy?โ
His grin that followed caused a shiver to run down your spine, your knees weak and your lip caught between your teeth. Wide e/c eyes met piercing blue ones, and the more his irises darkened and froze over, the more your dreary eyes begged and pleaded, like a love-sick puppyโs. Saeranโs arm wrapped around your waist, his other hand at you jaw, as he tilted your head left and right, almost like he wanted to admire it. Wearing a fake pout, and a malign glint in his eye, he cooed at you when you let out a helpless whimper; his breath fanning your flushed cheeks:ย
โSo stupid, so niave... Youโre just like him,โ he breathed, his voice a bare whisper. Skill-full fingers traced the curves of your waist, inching their way down, and pushing past the waistband of your clothes. His eyes caught flame when you shivered against him - had his hands always been that cold?ย
โYou arenโt meant to be enjoying this. Whatโs wrong with you?โ, he coaxed, thumb at your bottom lip and pulling at it slightly. The two of you held eye-contact, and his face morphed into a dominant smirk, eyes narrowed, like he was watching you, waiting for you to answer the question. What had gotten into him? He seemed perfectly content with the amount of desire you portrayed towards him, cockier even, if that was possible. Had it been the way your hips kept shifting against his, or the way your eyes followed his so obediently as he did whatever he wanted with you? Was he... teasing you? His touches drove you wild - you couldnโt think clearly and you felt your body flaring up with heat the more his fingers lowered onto your bare hip, fingers pushing your underwear down.ย
โWell? Answer me then, I havenโt got time to wait around, so stop being useless and answer my question.โ, his voice was bitter, threaded with impatience and delivered more like a growl than a clear command.ย
โSaeran...โ, his name left your lips like a desperate prayer, one that had no purpose and therefore wasnโt spoken too loud. He let out a condescending snicker at your reply,ย โQuiet. Youโre clearly too incapable to answer even a simple question.โ, his expression suddenly turned into a scowl, his eyes holding an intensity that could almost be described as unquenched desire.ย
What was he trying to get out of this? He kept telling you that it was boredom drawing him to visit you so often, but how bored could he possibly be with his work load? And if he really had no care for you, why would he bother even noting your expressions, questioning which feelings they were indicatory of. Before you could even muster the courage to apologize, let alone answer to him, his fingers tugged at your hair, and he pulled you into a forced kiss, teeth clicking before he settled on a rhythm for the two of your lips.ย
Passion, pure desire seemed to be the most prominent thing he had delivered through the kiss. It was sloppy, but quick-paced and fiery, his tongue pushing past yours in an instant like it owned the place. He quickly discovered your sweet spot, using it to his advantage. A soft groan escaped you, and it had tempted him further into the kiss, the bicep next to your head tensing slightly, pale fingers relaxing their grip on your soft hair. You had to grab onto his blazer to steady yourself, because you felt yourself getting dizzy, searing heat rising from your stomach to your chest. Saeran tugged at your hair, a warning that you were pulling him closer to you, and you heard him grunt against your lips when you wrapped your arms around his waist instead.ย
Eventually, the two of you pulled away for air, panting and lips kiss-swollen. He was quiet for an unusual amount of time, the two of you just staring at each other, eyes locked onto his like you were in your own world, like the surroundings had disappeared and all there was left to look at was the abyss of the bright, unnatural hue his eyes radiated. For a moment, he looked dazed, tongue sticking out slightly and your foreheads nearly pressed together. That was before he cleared his throat, straightening up and firmly gripping your wrists, pulling them away from his waist. He looked unsure at first, letting himself feel how delicate and soft your wrists felt before unwrapping them with force that really had no place in the exchange, especially how his thumb had stroked across your skin just before.ย
You were sure that kiss had been different from the rest - the way he had so eagerly accepted when you had begun to kiss him back, almost like he was working with you, and finally not against you. For a few seconds, if you had forgotten what he had said to you all of those other nights, you could have mistaken the difference in where he had put his hands as places he wanted to anchor himself to, so that you wouldnโt ever part from him.ย
โWhat are you staring at?โ, he asked harshly, but he hadnโt dared raise his voice at you. Your eyes quickly dashed away from him, and you held your breath - now able to hear how his previously ragged and fast breathing had slowed. His teeth gritted, and he was about to open his mouth to say something, brows furrowed once again - but nothing came out. Your eyes softened, lips parted in surprise - was he feeling faint? Another glance to his face and you could see, through the ice barriers of his eyes, burried under decades of snow and frost - sadness. For the first time, he looked desolate.ย
As soon as he had seen you looking at him again, his eyes glared at you, sending you a million miles away from the place you two had just visited with the shared kiss. Back out into the cold.ย
โDonโt think Iโve finished with you yet! Youโre pathetic - You canโt even follow a simple instruction. Iโll go mad if I spend another second with you - Everything about you drives me closer to insanity-โ he took a deep shaky breath, fists clenching, his nails indenting his palm when he saw you trying to hide your face with your hair. That was when he had realized that the last of what he had said was definitely *not* taken as an insult by you. He released an aggravated growl, storming out of the room, taking the gentle moment with him, and slamming the door on the way out, making you jump.ย
A few moments of silence had passed, and you spent them inย reminisce, hand on your heart and eyes blank as you tried to hang on to the spark you had felt when he had kissed you. Your fingertips caressed your bottom lip gently, where he had placed his thumb. A smile tugged at your lips, though it quickly faded as soon as it came when the cold air finally seeped into your body, where he had previously been close to.ย
Little did you know, that back in his office, Saeran had caught himself into watching you through the camera instead of working. He felt... sick, like something was eating him inside-out. Chest heavy, like something was suffocating him. Eyes glued to his screen, and following your figure as you slid against the wall and dropped down onto the unwelcoming floor, hunched over and resting your chin on your knees. Previously brazen blue eyes softened, when he was finally behind the safety of his office door. Was this... guilt? But what did he have to be ashamed of?ย
An annoyed groan followed, his hands wresting with the wire of his monitor, tugging it out of itโs socket.
*TYSM FOR READING! this is my first fanfic so i hope itโs gud lol :,D*
something small to start the blog off hehe~ here are the RFAโs and saeranโs (minus v because i literally havenโt played his route or looked at him HJGHGJ sorry-) favourite pet names to call you: (minor spoilers for saeran)
yoosung:
not gonna lie, poor baby yoosung is probably the one *being* called the pet names most of the time; but after a while he does start to get more comfortable and less anxious and flusterable (is that word? LMAO) when giving affection to the MC. he starts off very slowly, calling you the pet names when youโre both sleepy, or when youโre focused on a game with him, so you donโt notice it too much (though his face still reddens in anticipation to your reaction) and then pet names become a more natural thing for him, and just start slipping out- especially if you give him a positive reaction because he just wants to see you happy!ย
pet names include:
- honey (delivered with a cheesy grin, he thinks heโs all smooth and classy)
- bubby (literally just baby but with extra yoosung sweetness added - it started out as something he used in his sleepy voice and then you picked up a liking to it- it still kind of embarrasses him)ย
- birdie (likes the concept of you being all small and fluffy- *is small and fluffy*- yoosungโs version of the classic pet nameย โdoveโ)
- snuggles (definitely WAS NOT the name of his old teddy bear that he MAYBE still keeps as a SECRET to cuddle when he misses you-)
-ย his little pogchamp
zen:
pet name GOD - shamelessly started using pet names as SOON as you two hit it off, this man is a pet name machine he has TRICKS UP HIS SLEEVE. bro. he uses as many pet names as he can to figure out your weak spots and then TAKES ADVANTAGE OF THIS KNOWLEDGE. it boosts his ego to see you flustered because of him of course - though he wants you to feel special too! he has a few favourites listed here with special meaning~
pet name include:
- babe/jagi/jagiya (duh bro?? its like canon or sum)
- beautiful/handsome/gorgeous - whatever suits you most~ (NEED I SAY MORE? SOMEONE AS BEAUTIFUL AS HIM WILL ONLY BE WITH SOMEONE EQUALLY AS GOOD-LOOKING?? he also give constant compliments be warned)
- cutie (wholesome zen moment)
- good-lookinโ (said as he casually pulls you in by the waist to kiss your forehead, wow zen youโre so smoo0th)
-ย ย sexyย (ITโS THE BEAST BRO)
jaehee:
unfortunately none of us have really seen jaeheeโs more lovey-dovey side in the game - she probably prefers calling you by your name the most, and she speaks it almost like itโs a praise, but the odd time she calls you pet names just as a way to appreciate you, or to remind you that she cherishes you. does it very casually and naturally, sheโs quite a steady-paced girl so she neednโt force pet names to come, they just do whenever the moment calls for it really.
pet names incluude:
- loveย
- darling (you are dear to herr!! sheโs so busy all the time - moments with you are cherished and precious - youโre like a pocket of hope and sunshine in such a grey world full of deadlines and schedules... someone she can truly relax with!)
- beloved
- dear(est)
- sweetheart (BCS. YOU. ARE. SO SWEET! youโre always looking out for her and being so patient with her as she works - you have a heart of gold, and she admires how kind you are to the RFA members - sheโs truly lucky to have won a place in your heart <3)
jumin:
this man. this man is so nonchalantly smooth. he doesnโt even know it - or maybe he does - you canโt tell because heโll just slip in a pet name mid-convo and make you mELT. when he gets soft... pet names are maybe one of his favourite things to tell you, because he gets to show you his more vulnerable and affectionate sides. he uses pet names as a way to spoil you - and spoil you he does because HIS VOICE *IS HEAVEN*, and the light kisses and touches he places on you as he speaks to you so fondly are a BIIG BONUSS. it takes him a while to start using moreย โpersonalizedโ pet names - he sticks to the generic ones at first, theyโre classy and simple - but after a while he conjures up newer ones out of his sheer emotion for you - only to be used in private though.
pet names include:ย
- the usual at first, dear, beloved, honey, love
- AND THEN BOOM: precious (you are the most precious thing in his life HANDS DOWN. gets so sentimental when he uses it aswell - will whisper it to you before bed or when heโs trying to comfort you - nothing in this world compares to how much you mean to him)
- kitten (yeah you thought i would stop myself - no.)
- mr/mrs/mx* han (after you get married he does this a lot in public - maybe to show off a little bit and see everyoneโs surprised faces as he follows it withย โdearโ or something - he isnโt big into PDA but he has his smug sneaky ways of letting you know that he is thankful to have you)
- HIS prince/princess/your majesty/highness: (DUUUDE... he wants the BEST for you - youโve finally shown him what the wonderful feelings of love do!ย you hold that power over him at least!ย ...will kiss your hand when he uses this)
saeyoung:
saeyoung has... stranger more unique ways to show you affection, and the pet names he uses do not escape his whacky tendencies - uses pet names as a way to put a smile on your face and to make you laugh, to see that cute bright smile on your face! of course though, saeyoung has a (small) share of pet names that are more sensical and have some sort of more obvious meaning behind them. he starts off using dumb pet names, then as he gets emotionally attached stops, then he accepts he loves you and starts using really cheesey pet names, theenn he regains some of his happiness with you and becomes more jokey again (WHEW!).ย
pet names include: (besides the normal boooring ones /j)
- his star (you guided him to his happiness... you shone for him brightly when he had no shine himself - you cheered him up with your beauty and warmth - and you guys did kick ass stuff in his good end like it was a MOVIE or something โ also spaaace??)
- weird food names - starts off as honey and sweetie pie - gets weird fast... will call you his chip and his nurse pepper ( doctor is reserved for the drink - otherwise it gets confusing)
- LOWKEY MAKES FUN OF YOU... if youโre short heโll call you shortie - if youโre tall he calls you tallie (haha funny.) if youโre blonde he calls you blondie, and if you have freckles or dimples OR GLASSES - consider it your new name. also starts calling you after the things you wear - if you wear chains, he calls you chains, if you wear dramatic makeup, he starts calling you a diva
-ย will call you noob iโm sorry
- sweet cheeks (SEVEN WHICH CHEEKS-)
- boople snoot (yes.)
- his galaxy (the seven alternative to my world)
saeran:
okay so - itโs assumed that saeran is actually a DID system but iโm writing for good end saeran because um - lets be honest the alters were not the most healthy and probably wouldnโt have been doing any pet name calling (ray being too insecure, black suit saeran and unknown... being black suit saeran and unknown? it would have been sarcastic and mean)
after all of the hardships you guys had gone through... saeran was TERRIFIED that you would leave because why on earth would you want to stick by with him i mean?? all he had known his whole life is literally mistreatment he thought you were too good to be true. but you stuck by and you gave him what he had needed for so long - you always made him feel safe and he finally belonged somewhere, felt like the world wasnโt ALWAYS out for him, he could breathe easier now. very reluctant at first - messing up with you especially gave him paralyzing fear. but then you showed him such loyalty, he looked at you and saw that yes you made mistakes, that you were human, and you reminded him that it was okay to be human too. so slowly he trusted that you would accept him being affectionate back - he wanted to appreciate you like you appreciated him - despite all of the flaws he saw in himself constantly. (WHOO I LOVE SAERAN SO MUCH OMG CAN YOU TELL??)
pet names include:
- angel (do i need to explain this?? youโve saved his life - his future, everything. he sees you with a halo around your head constantly, even at your darkest moments, because heโs been there before too!)
- flower (at first glance may seem like a cute thing because ray liked gardening - which sure part of it is that - but moreover he talks about your beauty when he uses this pet name, about how happy you make him, he sees you as someone delicate and gentle yet at the same time someone bold and bright - someone that the world NEEDS)
- sunshine (you brighten his day, his month, his year, his life - aaand well a garden does need sunshine doesnโt it? you keep him going when he feels like giving up)
- love and dear (too classic not to be included with a man that wore fancy suits JHGH)ย
- sweetheart/sweetie/honey (along with his big sweet tooth - he thinks youโre the sweetest person heโs ever met)
- sugarplum (pls let me have this)
*mx is like m(r)s and mr but for non-binary folks :)
