urself

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bros alguien tiene la foto q mando mir en la madrugada de los chamacos cachondos? me quedé despierta hasta las 12 para ver si lo publicaba pero la morra se le olvida que algunos trabajamos, ntc tqm Mir pero t mmaste bb 💔😭

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beauty standards are killing me

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my family is the problem but still i love em

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still alive

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you have no idea how annoying and exhausting it is to be hearing from everyone about me not eating, i just wanna slap them across their faces but of course they have no idea how much i hate that they comment on it

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i took pills to kms but i just ended waking up after a nap of 14 hours and still sleepy, im dumb asf but is not even maddening just funny how idiotic i am

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i’m the disrespectful one, the lazy, always a bad adjective, they are not even trying to love me and for the first time it is actually making me feel way too bad, i used to care only for my grandpa, i always feel like something will happen, ill lose something and im so scared, i hate the university ill go to, i hate the career, i hate all and my life which i should be grateful but i wish i didnt had to change, i wish i wasn’t as annoying, i really wish i was normal

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i haven’t felt like this in a long time, i feel always angry, always in defensive mode, i don’t control what i say but know im making people get away from me, im always complaining and hating on everything, i dont feel loved, im a ghost in my family again, im always feeling down and want to hide, im not doing well again and i really dont want to take my meds, i wanna be normal in a normal body and mindset, i hate my brother for no reason i just want my house and my mom to myself but she’s always with him, as soon as he leaves she’ll be back with me but im not a replacement, i understand with my friends but even with my own family? this is bullshit

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if i committed since i started posting here it would have been good, i think one of my problems is that i always leave stuff for later, i hope once im back at my house i can finally do it

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i genuinely thought i was getting better

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i’m overthinking as i think everyone hates me and i got a new for to distract myself from the thoughts, just sing and sing and sing so

ohhh love ohh lover boyyyy

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i wanna die again, it would be easier for my family and i know i should change instead of playing victim but i swear i can’t stop thinking about the kind of live they would have without me, cause is always as if im not there, and i dont blame them but still it would be cool to feel part of them without feeling im being annoying or too much

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so i can’t go out but you don’t take care of me either? dude i wonder why im so depressed

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it’s been better since someone broke my heart wtf

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got addicted to corn, what a surprise 😐

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help me to commit

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one more day wanting to rip my face off