~mental breakdown #02~
05/31/17 4:48pm I feel so lonely, I have people round me all the time, and they are here for me when I need them, although I just feel like I’ll never be actually connected with someone. I mean, I don’t know, I’m really lost in all my stupid thoughts… I don’t understand love, or people, or life… and not understanding that creeps me out. I don’t know if I’ll ever be capable of loving someone, I’m broken and I actually don’t know if I want to be fixed…. (I’m fucked up) I want something, I want to feel something different. I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m sorry for everything, for being a mess and stuff like that. I want to be normal, I want to be stable. I want to know what I feel and why I feel it. I want so hard to connect with someone, but at the same time I don’t want to share all my feelings and fears with anyone cause they’ll never understand it, even I don’t… And they’ll just suffer beside me, having to deal with all that shit. I HATE THIS!
Almost three years later and it still describes me












