โฎ Cafeteria Confessionsโข PSH - @reinahwanggg (everyone thinks you're dating your childhood best friend sunghoon. well, everyone including sunghoon because he confessed to you almost a year ago and you didn't exactly know it was a confession because of how casually he said it.)
โฎ NOONA โ p. sunghoon smau - @hoonvrs (park sunghoon experienced love at first sight when he first laid eyes on his friends older sister. a series of sunghoon desperately trying to do anything in his power to get the girl and yang jungwon cockblocking him for funsies.)
โฎ secret soft boy revealed | enhypen sunghoon - @elysianeclipxe (build-a-bear is a cliche and old thing that couple do. only lame people would go there to build a bear when it's obviously easier to just buy one.. so tell me why THE Park Sunghoon just so happens to be there, enjoying the fact that he's building a bear... whipped af)
โฎ the 24-hour dating challenge - @jaeyunverse (being a famous youtuber isnโt easy, especially when you have to constantly come up with new ideas to keep your audience entertained. and this time, your viewers want you to date park sunghoon, your best friend of nearly a decade, for the entirety of 24 hours.)
โฎ CITRUS IN THE MORNING. - @hannie-dul-set (lovestruck! sunghoon just being Very In Love)
โฎ ๋ฐ์ฑํ ใSPOILED ROTTEN - @boyfhee (sunghoon is drunk and is trying to break into your room through the balcony.)
โฎ ์ฑํย ใPARK SUNGHOON ! - @sseastar (THE ONE WITH THINGS THAT BLUR THE LINE BETWEEN FRIENDSHIPย AND MORE)
โฎ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ โ BED ๋ฐ์ฑํ - @karinasbaby (your fiance, sunghoon insisted on a "mini honeymoon" before your wedding preparations took over your time, so how would your day go now that you're on an island thousands of miles away from home with sunghoon?)
โฎ angel - @yenqa (sunghoon canโt seem to figure out if youโre human or an angel.)
โฎ come on baby, donโt say that. / park sunghoon - @snghnlvr (you were curious whether or not your boyfriend was a possessive type so you tested it out.)
โฎ ceo sunghoon who loves taking care of you because you're his เฑจเง - @hottestvirgin
โฎ sunghoon with a crush on you | smau - @woniecore
โฎ scoring a date - @shuichi-sama (if someone had told you that after becoming your high school's volleyball team manager, you would capture the attention of itโs captain, park sunghoon, you wouldnโt have believe them. but as he charmโs his way to your heart, you just might. or in which, sunghoon attempts to woo-you, seem to be working in his favor.)
โฎ we canโt be friends โ [ ์ํ์ดํ ์ฑํ ] genre โ smut - @dearjaeyuns
โฎ แด แดษดโแด แดแดสแด แดแด แดแด | psh. - @pshcomforts (you test sunghoon on his reaction to a girl hitting on him after finding one of those videos on tiktok.)
โฎ ๐๐. & ๐๐. ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ เญจเญง ๐๐๐ - @jlheon (seeing your ex in public leads to hiding in a small photobooth with your annoying student council vice president park sunghoon)
โฎ IMPATIENT. - @sainns (he had everything planned out but how's he supposed to wait when it comes to you?)
โฎ MY WORLDย โย p.sunghoon - @ikeuverse (you're back and you owe Sunghoon an explanation for your departure, but it looks like it's going to be a bit tricky to get him to listen to you.)
โฎ UNLUCKY GIRL SYNDROME โฆ PSH - @suneng (if it was possible to see the number of people who would fall in love with you over your lifetime, most people would agree to it in a heartbeat, but some might not. you don't get that choice, labelled by a mysterious system as someone destined to receive no love and threatened to fix this 'error' before it's too late. but who will be your saviour, the social pariah sunghoon, or the school's golden boy sim jaeyun?)
โฎ park sunghoon โ THE PUSSY EATING COMPETITION! - @karinasbaby (in whichโฆ jake convinces sunghoon to join a pussy eating competition with a bet !)
โfucking all the time is wrong when you're not mine, baby"
PAIRING: boyfriend's best friend!sunghoon x reader (f)
SUMMARY: just like eva did in the garden of eden, you fell under the serpent's court and now are under his spell. you knew you shouldn't betray your boyfriend, jake, like that when he was (not) so right for you, but seeing that he spent more time out for work made you seek the love and affection you needed, and who if not sunghoon could give you what you deserved?
WARNINGS: cheating (donโt like, donโt read). unprotected sex (donโt be silly, wrap your willy), they fuck everywhere and i mean it, toxic, creampie, masturbating, pussy eating, fighting, kissing, jealousy, doggy, missionary, rough blowjob, angst if u squint? jake is a toxic bf, sunghoon low-key corrupts reader, reader is designed with a weak personality. lmk if more. NOT PROOFREAD.
a/n: before some loser tries to throw shit at this i have to say that no, cheating is NOT hot and this is purely fictional. this isnโt the only fiction with cheating as a trope and it comes from a project that IS supposed to have heavy and bothering themes, mostly because it comes as inspiration from a song (go listen to it, daniel di angelo โGET YOU BETTERโ) that gives me toxic vibes. anw, LIKE & REBLOG please and lmk your thoughts (again) on this fic <3
โAgain?โ You asked with a deep frown after hearing that your boyfriend had yet to go to another work trip, despite having just returned from one โI know baby, what can I do? They need me.โ He said it as if you were complaining already.
But could he blame you? You had spent two summer weeks alone and bored without Jake and now you had to go through another couple of weeks.
โWhy you? They have other workers.โ You commented, raising a brow.
Jake sighed and walked closer to you โBecause Iโm good, arenโt you proud of me?โ You looked away and murmured โOf course iโm proud of you.โ
Jake noticed your sudden change of mood and turned you to look at him โCome on, I'll be back before you even realise it.โ
You rolled your eyes at his statement, something that Jake did not like โDonโt be selfish, I need to work to have money.โ
โI'm not being selfish,โ You reminded, tone cold. โI just miss my boyfriend whoโd rather be miles away from me.โ You snapped, stepping back and crossing your arms to your chest.
Those words had been left unspoken on your tongue for too long to be able to hold them back anymore.
โWe both know thatโs not true.โ He hissed, rubbing his temples โDo we?โ You scoffed
Jake clicked his tongue, โListen, I'm just asking you to understand.โ
You frowned again at him โI understand Jake, I've always done it!โ Your voice raised out of frustration โSo why canโt you understand me?โ
โYou?โ His frown matched yours, a few wrinkles appearing on his forehead โWhat is there to understand about a needy and clingy girl?โ
As soon as those words left his mouth your eyes saddened. Were you really being that whiney? So many questions formed inside your head while Jake regretted ever speaking.
You were just being honest, thatโs what Jake always wanted from you; honesty, to voice out your feelings, so why was he mad at you?
โTaking many short distance flights is also not good for your bodyโฆโ You murmured, bitter tears running down your cheeks, your gaze locked on the ground
Jakeโs face softened, realising that you werenโt complainingโ you were worried for him โBaby Iโโ
You shook your head โSave it.โ And walked away, disappearing in the bedroom. Jake ran a hand through his hair in frustration, leaving you to cool down.
However you both were two stubborn beings so, instead of resolving it, you laid on opposite sides of the bed with heavy hearts, hoping the night to wash the annoying feelings away.
Heleft early in the morning, without a single message or a note and not even a kiss on your shoulder.
Whenever he had a flight in the night or early morning to catch and you would still be asleep, he used to kiss you softly on the shoulder, but this time he hadnโt.
Had you been too harsh with him the day before? Were you really being selfish?
You glanced at the clock and noticed you had already slept the morning away so you decided to get something done.
You stretched your limbs and exited the bed, doing your usual routine and some chores as well, trying your best not to think about jake. If he wanted to stay mad, so be it.
When you were cleaning the living roomโs floor you heard your doorbell ring, so you went to open the door.
In front of you a tall man with a sheepish grin stood, waving his hand โHi, Y/N.โ He greeted warmly
โHi, Sunghoon.โ You said back, stepping aside to let him enter. you closed the door behind your back and walked him to the living room โWhatโs the occasion?โ You asked, smiling
Sunghoon looked around the house โIs Jake home?โ You shook your head in reply โHeโs on a work trip.โ
Sunghoonโs eyes widened โAgain?โ He asked and you couldnโt help but chuckle, you two had the same reaction to the news of Jake's departure โAgain.โ You nodded
โAw, man.โ He sighed, โI havenโt seen him in forever since he changed job.โ You wanted to reply that you too hadnโt seen him since he decided to pick a job that required to travel around the world, but Sunghoon didnโt need to know that.
Sunghoon tilted his head, looking you up and down โSo, home alone?โ You smiled sadly โunfortunately.โ
He gave you a wide smile, one that showed his two fangs โI took a couple of weeks off work because I had to go on vacation but the hotel shut down,โ He seemed to debate whether to continue, but then added โI can keep you company.โ
You blinked faintly at his offer, you two werenโt really close, you never really hung out apart from Jakeโs friend group so itโd be awkward.
However , loneliness made you desperate so you just smiled in return โwhy not?โ
Little did you know that Sunghoon had another plan in store for you.
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โGood morning, Y/N.โ Sunghoon greeted a few days later, entering your house with his awkward yet comforting demeanour.
โMorning.โ You said back, guiding him to the kitchen and placing down the casket of fruits he had brought you โYou didnโt have to..โ
โDotโt be silly, itโs a pleasure.โ Sunghoon smiled, sitting on a chair โCan i help you with anything?โ
You quickly shook your head โNo, no,โ You took a pear and showed it to him โI'll cut this so we can eat and chat?โ โSounds good.โ
It had become a small occurence that youโd sit together and talk about anything. You two had got to know each other, and you realised you had a completely different prejudice of him.
At first, you thought he was cold and awkward, but he actually was very soft spoken and kind. your heart always felt content when you were with him, but you chose to ignore that detail.
It was probably just because Jake hadnโt replied to your texts since he left the country, your heart was just pulling tricks on you.
You placed a small plate on the table with the pieces of pear and began to talk with him, laughing at a story of his dog scaring Jake's family dog, despite being a lot smaller.
โLayla and Jake are so alike,โ You commented, chuckling โIndeed, I see no difference between them. like an owner like a pet." Sunghoon replied, taking a bite of the pear.
A small drop of the fruitโs juice rolled down his cheek, reaching his jawline. You had never paid attention to his features so closely, but he was so attractive. His jaw was sharp, you thought that if you ran your finger on it, itโd cut.
His skin was pale, porcelain-like and his eyes were so dark in contrast, his eyebrows thick and hair that seemed so fluffy.
Before the drop could fall down, you quickly extended yourself and dried it with your thumb, making both of you stop in your tracks. Sunghoon โs deep eyes widened and you pulled away โIโIโm sorry..โ you stuttered, embarrassed
But Sunghoon didnโt seem to mind โItโs alright, thank you.โ He reassured, resuming to tell his story. You try to shake the awkward feeling but get sidetracked when your phone screen lit up.
You quickly took it, hopeful that it was finally a message from your boyfriend, but your face fell when you realised it was just a notification from YouTube.
You sighed and looked so gloomy, like a whole storm fell over your shoulders, Sunghoon blinked faintly โAre you ok?โ
You didnโt want to annoy him with your problems, you two had just started to be friends, but you just needed someone.
All your friends were busy working or living their adulthood somewhere, while you had been inside that house too much it felt almost sickish.
You sighed โItโs just that Jake and I had a small argument, right before he left.โ Sunghoonโs eyes were so attentive you felt exposed, so kind and gentle.
โIs that so?โ He asked, letting you know that he was listening โYes,โ You breathed out โWe said harsh things and now he wonโt even reply to my texts.โ
Sunghoonโs jaw clenched at your admission, How could Jake ever ghost you? He could be mad all he wanted, but he was on the other side of the earth, for Christโs sake, he could at least reply to your texts just like he did to Sunghoon a few hours before.
Seeing you so sorrowful made his heart ache; he wouldnโt admit it out loud but he had always found you attractive, since the first day he saw you on campus.
Screw his introverted personality, he never tried to speak to you, only admired from afar.
However, when he learnt that his best friend had found a girlfriend and the so-called girlfriend was you, he couldnโt help but blame himself.
Especially since jake was treating you like you werenโt worth anything.
You were worth it, you were everything Sunghoon dreamt ofโ if only you knew how better he could get you. good for him, he had two weeks to prove you so.
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โYou just didnโt strike me as someone who likes doing grocery shopping.โ You commented, putting milk inside the cart Sunghoon was gently pushing for you
Truth to be told, Sunghoon hated grocery shopping. Heโd rather starve himself than get out of bed to buy himself food, which was why his friend Jay and his mother would often bring him food or just something enough to survive.
But it was for you and you needed to eat to be healthy, he could do an exception.
โI donโt have anything better to do, do I?โ He said, chuckling at the sight of you trying to take a bag of chips which was on the top shelf, clearly too high for you.
You felt his figure hovering over you, the warmth of his body surrounding yours, his chest caressing your back as he took the chip for you.
That movement lasted no longer than five seconds but to you, it felt as if time had stopped.
You snapped out of your trance at the sound of the bag of chips being thrown inside the cart and Sunghoon moving forward.
You failed to notice the smirk on his lips, but the man was quick to hide it before his undercover was caught.
โWhatโs left on your list?โ He asked, scanning the cartโs contents to see if he mentally remembered
โUhโโ You quickly took the grocery list that was crumpled inside your pocket and cleared your throat โJustโฆ donuts.โ You said quietly.
You werenโt usually one to overeat, but since your heart was upset, your stomach was the same and you craved junk food.
You waited for Sunghoon to make a comment over it, to call you โgrossโ the same way Jake once did when he saw you putting a bag of chips โ the same type Sunghoon helped you take โ inside the cart. You waited for it, but nothing came.
Instead, Sunghoon pushed the cart a little further in the lane until he reached the snacks section and eyed the shelves โThereโs strawberry, brown chocolate and oreo.โ He turned toward you and looked genuinely interested in your choice.
โWhich one do you want?โ You blinked faintly, unsure on how to handle that situation. He raised a brow, awaiting your answer โStrawberry.โ You murmured.
โStrawberry it is.โ He took the donuts and placed them in the cart โDo you want something?โ You asked, reaching for him with a smile.
โMe?โ You nodded in reply โYes, take something you like, Iโll sugar mama you.โ You joked nudging his shoulder.
Sunghoon stayed silent a few beats, โNo.โ He said sternly, โIโll buy this for you.โ He pointed to the food you wanted to purchase.
Your brows furrowed โWhat?โ Sunghoon smiled, a wicked grin creeping on his lips โIโll sugar daddy you.โ
It seemed like you had hurt his pride trying to say youโd pay for his food, but you still didnโt want him to spend money on you, so you shook your head โThatโs not necessary.โ
โI insist.โ He took another small cartoon of donuts and placed it in the cart, hurrying away before you could talk back. You reached him again โNo, Sunghoon.โ
โYes, Y/N.โ He kept taking useless things from the shelves and you kept putting them back, this went on for almost two whole lanes until you placed yourself in front of the cart.
Sunghoon tilted his head โWhat?โ You narrowed your eyes, clearly upset. Seeing your change of mood made Sunghoon freeze. Did he overdo it?
He let out a small sigh โAlright, Iโll stop adding things.โ You nodded satisfactorily, placing yourself back by his side.
โBut Iโll pay.โ Your head snapped back to him and Sunghoon chuckled โItโs the least I can do, you invite me to your house and I pay for your groceries, itโs even.โ
Arguing with Sunghoon seemed to be a losing battle, so you just nodded your head and smiled back at him โOkay, thank you.โ
โAnything for you.โ They were just three words, but they were the most sincere youโve ever heard.
After paying for your groceries, you two made your way towards the parking lot, you walked in front of a window, a crimson short dress on a mannequin.
You stopped to glance at it for a few seconds, your eyes sparkling. Sunghoon noticed you stopping and took a few steps back โLike it?โ He asked, smiling at you
You were so stunned you just nodded in reply, eyes still glued to the dress. It seemed so perfect, sleeveless and not too short but not too long as well. You could see strings on the back, leaving it a little exposed.
โYou want to try it?โ At his question you snapped out of thoughts, turning to face Sunghoon (who was also a rather nice view).
โNo, no, we should go home.โ Sunghoon frowned at your reply โBut you like it.โ
You sighed softly and chuckled โYes, but that doesnโt mean I should try it.โ He eyed the dress and then you, studying you from head to toe โEven if I want to see you in it?โ
His words took you by surprise and you widened your eyes โW-what?โ He smirked, his fangs showing from the corner of his lips โLetโs enter.โ He took your hand and dragged you inside the shop.
He sat on a small sofa in front of the dressing room, patiently waiting for you to try that dress on.
The way your eyes seemed to light up made him want to buy you anything if it meant to see your pretty face smile and be bright.
He knew you were still shaken from your argument with Jake, and by the fact that the bastard was obviously ghosting you, and heโd do anything to take that sorrow away from you.
โReady?โ He asked after a few minutes of not hearing anything from you.
You carefully opened the curtain and lord if he didnโt get an erection on the spot.
Seeing that tiny dress hugging your perfect curves, the shy blush on your cheeks and still that perfect smile on your lips โItโs so beautiful.โ You commented
โGive me a twirl.โ He asked and you complied, twirling gracefully โYouโre beautiful.โ Your smile lit up the whole room, you nodded in reply โI think itโs pretty nice.โ
Sunghoon stood up and walked toward you, his arms raising and taking your hair away from your back.
The proximity between you two made your breath hitch once again. You could smell his manly cologne and the fabric softener of his hoodie.
โThis should be tied.โ He murmured in your ear, sending a shiver down your spine. His breath hit your skin, so warm. You closed your eyes, waiting for him to finish tying the lace behind your back.
He placed your hair back where they were and placed one strand behind your ear. He pulled away satisfied and smiled โNow, thatโs even better.โ
You looked at yourself in the mirror of the dressing room and Sunghoon brought his hands on your shoulder. He leaned beside your ear and whispered huskily โLet me buy it for you.โ
Your brows shot up and you quickly shook your head โI canโt let you do that.โ Sunghoon gave you a mesmerising smile from the mirror โWhy not?โ
โBecause you already paid for the groceries.โ Sunghoon tsked at your reasoning โAnd?โ
โAnd itโd be too much if you also bought this dress. Besides, I donโt even have a reason to wear it.โ
โWeโll make one.โ You felt a sudden rush of coldness when his breath left your skin and he stepped away โItโs settled, Iโll buy it.โ
You turned around, โButโโ He brought a finger to your lips โSh, I said Iโd sugar daddy you and I always keep my word.โ
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Y/N: Please Jake, can you reply to me?
Y/N: Itโs been five days, at least let me know youโre fine.
You sighed and dropped the phone on the mattress beside you, tired of reading โdeliveredโ beside your messages. Had you crossed the line when you argued? Personally, you thought what Jake said was far worse, but you were ready to forgive him if only he swallowed his pride.
You bit your bottom lip, your body craving to be touched and screaming for release.
Not only had you and Jake not spent time together, but it had also been more than a month since you last had sex.
You tried to ignore your primal urges, however your hips unconsciously moved back and forth, trying to soothe the aching feeling between your legs.
Your breath got heavier as you let your palm wander under your nightgown, touching, trying to turn yourself on.
You bit your bottom lip, your hand reaching down to touch your clit, circling it with your fingers; using your slick to wet it more.
You slid one digit inside of you, fingering yourself for what seems like ten minutes, trying to find that one spot that makes your head spinโ it didnโt feel good.
You decided to try and squeeze your breasts, fingering yourself at a fast speedโฆ nothing seemed to work out.
Frustrated, you pulled your fingers out and curled yourself in a small ball, checking your phone just to see that again, Jake had not texted you.
At that moment, a new message popped on your screen.
Sunghoon: Hey Y/N, movie night tomorrow?
You unconsciously smiled and replied with a positive answer, feeling strangely giddy at the thought of having another plan with him.
Y/N: Sounds good.
It didnโt take much for him to text you back, only a few seconds needed.
Sunghoon: Awesome. Tomorrow @ 9pm?
Y/N: Yup. Iโll make sure to do some pop corns.
Sunghoon: Haha ok
You turned off the lights, placed the phone back on the bedside table and tucked yourself under the covers, ready to fall asleep when it buzzed again.
You took it, the screen light too bright for your poor eyes. You narrowed them, trying to read the new messages
Sunghoon: What are you doing now?
Your cheeks flushed at the thought of what you had been doing before he texted you.
Y/N: About to sleep
Sunghoon: Aw :(
Y/N: Why the sad face?
Sunghoon chuckled at your innocence and kind self. He bit his bottom lip and leaned back on the chair, typing his reply.
Sunghoon: I was playing a game and wanted some company.
Y/N: Iโm not really sleepy
His eyebrows raised, he thought youโd just turn him off.
Maybe his plan was working.
Sunghoon: Can I call you?
You jolted up, sitting on the bed and looking around in panic.
Y/N: Voice call?
Sunghoon: Anything you want, x
The way Sunghoon was treating you wasnโt the way you treated fiends, but you decided not to overthink it much. Sunghoonโs contact name flashed on your screen as he called you.
You cleared your throat and tapped on the green button.
โHey,โ His voice came out as hoarse from the other line โHi.โ You whispered back, hugging your knees to your chest and fidgeting with the sheets
You could hear some keyboard tapping and asked โWhat are you playing?โ Sunghoon chuckled โLeague of Legends.โ
You hummed โIโve never played.โ Sunghoon let out a sound of disbelief โNever? Jake never let you play with him?โ
Jake would always complain when you ever interrupted his gaming nights with friends, โNo.โ You replied simply.
โShoot!โ He exclaimed from the other line, making you jump in surprise and gasp โSorry about thatโ I didnโt mean to startle you.โ He was quick to apologise.
โItโs okay,โ You reassured, not wanting him to feel guilty about that. โSo, how was your day?โ
You two started talking about everything and anything, laughing and just enjoying each other's company.
You hadnโt even realised you had fallen asleep, your light snores and deep breaths probably became Sunghoonโs favourite sounds.
Because he never hung up, not until you woke up the next morning and did it yourself.
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Something didnโt feel quite right that day, you let Sunghoon inside your apartment and the two of you prepared the living room for the movie nightโฆ but he had something different. Perhaps, the other night something changed between you two.
Maybe it was his not-combed hair, all fluffy and wild, or the white tee he was wearing that showed the shadow of his muscles and absโ or maybe the grey sweats he was wearing. You gulped down, it was you, you were the one off.
Not cumming for so much time did tricks to your brain.
You decided to ignore it and you two sat side by side, but still keeping distance โWhat movie do you wanna watch?โ
Sunghoon asked, lazily eating a pop corn while scrolling through Netflix โCause I had one in mind, but we can watch something else if you want.โ
You hummed โWhat did you have in mind?โ Your voice was softer and quieter, making Sunghoon feel goosebumps all over his skin.
Oh, the effect you had on him.
He took one pillow and sneakingly placed it on his laps, hoping it wasnโt obvious that he was trying to cover his growing bulge.
โHow to lose a guy in ten days?โ He asked, faking innocence when you widened your eyes and physically squeaked โI love that movie!โ
โIs that so?โ Sunghoon asked but he already knew the answer. you had said that one day when you were having a group hang out with the others.
He remembered, actually, he remembered every detail of youโ even the ones you may think of stupid.
โThen, letโs watch it.โ He said and clicked play, the movie beginning peacefully.
It all went alright until Sunghoonโs knee got closer and closer, touching yours.
He acted oblivious, focusing on the scene unfolding in front of him but he was painfully aware of you.
Maybe it was also because of your exposed thighs, the shorts hugging your legs so perfectly, making him almost drool. He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself.
Seeing that you didnโt reject his touch, Sunghoon grew a little bolder and placed his hand on your thigh, caressing it.
An alarm inside your conscience screamed danger! stop! but something told you that his touch was safe, soothing and so attractive.
Your mind went to Jake, how he would react if he ever saw your best friend touching your thigh, too close to where he shouldnโt be touching.
Nonetheless, Jake was so far away and Sunghoon so close to you, his hand slowly creeping closer to where you ached, where you just needed him.
Your breath hitched and your stiff state made sunghoon smirk sly. his plan was working smoothly.
His hand squeezed the flesh beside your thigh as your gaze was still fixed on the tv; however your attention was all on the coldness of his fingers, the way they felt on your skin.
โSunghoon.โ You wanted to say sternly but only a small whisper left your lips โHmm?โ He hummed, his dark eyes back on you
You gulped down and turned your head to meet his face, you glanced at the hand on your thigh and shook your head โYou should stop.โ
โStop?โ Sunghoon asked, his voice teasing and soft โIt seems to me that you are enjoying my touch.โ
Deny was what your brain told you to do but his hand moved even closer, resting just below the hem on your shorts.
Your hesitation made Sunghoonโs smirk turn more cunning, โWhat is on your mind?โ He asked, his position shifting so his whole body was facing yours, the pillow falling on the floor.
You didnโt move a bit.
โThat itโs weirdโฆโ You murmured โWhat youโre doing.โ
โYeah?โ He cooed โAnd why do you think that?โ He asked and his finger tucked a strand of hair behind your ear, making a small tint of blush appear on your cheeks
You werenโt naรฏve, you knew what Sunghoon was hinting at with his actions and words.
You knew it, yet you didnโt want it to stop.
โBecause Jake wouldnโt like it.โ At your words, Sunghoonโs smirk fell.
You were loyal and that was admirable, but it was only because his best friend made a move on you first, before he built the courage to talk to you.
Though Jake wasnโt treating you like you deserved, like Sunghoon would.
โDonโt think about him,โ He said, his voice harsher than he intended to โThink about me.โ
You watched him with hooded eyes as his hand that was tucking the small strand of hair behind your ear slowly slid down your shoulder.
Your heart was pounding so hard you could feel it in your throat and your breath heavier than before.
โThis is wrong.โ You whispered, unable to voice out the coherent thoughts forming in your brain with his hands touching you ever so gently โwe shouldnโt do this.โ
Sunghoon gave you a smile that was meant to be reassuring even if it was just victorious.
He knew youโd give in to him, sooner or later.
โIt's wrong only if Jake finds out.โ He looked down at your body, the way your nipples hardened and their outline could be seen from the shirt, he licked his bottom lip โBesides, donโt act like you donโt want it to happen as well.โ
Silence filled the room except for the sound of the long forgotten movie, Sunghoon could sense your hesitation and your pretty brain overthinking, so he let out a small sigh โIโll try something, you can tell me to stop if you donโt want to.โ He said but remained still, waiting for your permission
โTry what?โ You asked, your voice so soft and quiet it made his cock harden inside his sweats
โThis.'' His voice sounded more like a growl, Sunghoon cupped the back of your neck while his other hand hooked around your waist, bringing you close; his lips connected to your neck, leaving wet kisses all over.
You instantly closed your eyes and a shaky breath left your lips, Sunghoon took it as a clue to add more pressure and suck small spots, careful not to do anything sudden.
One of your hands raised and placed on his forearm, feeling the muscle of his arm, Sunghoon smirked on your skin and detached himself just enough to talk โDo you want to stop?โ
You sighed softly and grasped his hair with your other hand, bringing his mouth down on your neck โKeep going.โ You said and sunghoon felt as if he was the luckiest man on earth.
His kisses grew hungrier, not leaving even a single spot untouched by his lips. one hand grasped your hair back, bringing it back to have more room while the other groped your breasts from outside the shirt.
You squeezed your thighs together, trying to find relief. โN-no marks.โ you said as he sucked a spot for too long, he pulled away and bit his bottom lip, repressing a chuckle โToo late.โ
Before you could reply, his lips found yours in a heated and desperate kiss, it was so wrong but it felt too right to stop.
You let your hands slip under his shirt and roam freely, feeling his sculpted chest under your palms, earning a deep groan from sunghoon.
His tongue slipped inside your mouth, he was the one in control of the kiss but you didnโt mind. You just craved to be taken care of.
He pulled away from you and began to lift your shirt up, too eager to feel your whole bodyโ to make you his even if you didnโt belong to him.
He threw the shirt on the floor and widened his eyes as he saw your naked upper body.
Sunghoon stared in trance at you, but it made you feel self conscious and your arms wrapped around your chest.
Sunghoon frowned, taking your hands away โNever,โ He murmured, kissing your lips once more โNever cover yourself from me, understand?โ You nodded in response โYes, Hoon.โ
He squeezed your tit and lowered his lips to the other one, sucking on your abused nipple โSuch pretty tits.โ He commented and you unconsciously grind on the sofa, the wetness of your pussy glistening your panties.
He left one breast to pay attention to the other, sucking and flicking his tongue on it, making you whine โMhhh.. Hoon.โ You encouraged him to continue
Sunghoon smirked and looked at you, moving your hips while your eyes were closed and your mouth slightly opened, soft whimpers exiting it.
โLay down, princess.โ He ordered and you complied. His voice was so low and demanding you thought youโd do anything he asked without contemplating anything. Maybe he truly did a spell on you.
His fingers hooked under the hem of your shorts and he looked at your eyes, waiting for your approval. โDonโt ask,โ
You said, trusting him and knowing heโd stop if you ever asked, but Aunghoon pecked your lips โAre you sure you want this?โ He asked, because no matter how hard he wanted you, heโd never force himself on you.
You nodded, your mind hazy and you body in need to be touched โYesโ I need you, Hoon.โ Your soft pleading made blood rush straight to his cock, the visible bulge pocking through his pants.
โFuck, Y/N.โ He groaned and pulled your shorts down, discarding them on the floor โYouโll be the death of me.โ He stared at your body like you were a sculpture to admire at a museum, his hand tracing your curves.
โMy gorgeous baby,โ Sunghoon noticed the wet patch on your panties and smirked widely โSo wet for me? We havenโt even started.โ He cooed as he tucked the hem down, leaving you completely bare in front of him.
With one finger he gathered your juices and took his digit inside his mouth, humming in approval โTastes good, so fucking good.โ
At such a sight you couldnโt help but let out a small whine โHoon..โ You murmured and his attention immediately snapped back at you โYes, baby?โ
You moved your hips closer to him โTouch me please.โ And how could he say no when you asked so politely?
โWant me to touch you?โ His finger went down and played with your clit, making you arch your back โWant me to make you feel good, sโthat what you want baby?โ
He cooed, one finger slipping inside your needy and wet hole, your walls squeezing around it โFuck, youโre so tight.โ
He frowned, working his finger in and out your hole while you moaned under him โDoes jake even touch you, uh?โ He scoffed
He added another finger, keeping your legs opened with his other hand.
The movements of his fingers inside of you made you see stars, he was so skilled it almost made you forget you had a boyfriend that should do such filthy things to your body.
Not that you cared at that moment, and neither did Sunghoon.
Your hips moved back and forth to match his digits, deep inside of you.
He curled them and caressed your g-spot, making you squeeze your eyes and pant heavily โFaster.โ You asked โPlease Sunghoonโ feels sโgood.โ His fingers moved faster and faster, the knot in your stomach about to snap when he abruptly pulled away.
You opened your eyes and whined, looking at him with a huge frown which made Sunghoon smile.
You were so cute like that, face all flushed in desperate need to cum โDonโt worry.โ He reassured, pulling his sweat and boxers away โJust wanted you to cum all over my cock.โ
You smiled but it soon transformed into a huge jaw drop as you saw how big and fat his cock was. it pulsed, angry red and thick, up on his stomach.
Sunghoon chuckled at your reaction, โToo big for you?โ He asked, taking your chin in his hands and bringing your face slightly closer to him โJake isnโt as big as me, is he?โ
โThatโsโฆ never gonna fit.โ You whispered, embarrassed โWeโll see that.โ He pulled your head down on the sofa again and he fisted his shaft, your juices that still coated his fingers acting as lube.
He pressed the tip of his dick by your entrance, teasing it โHurry.โ You whined
Sunghoon smirked โSuch a needy girl,โ He scowled at you and pushed his cock into you in one deep thrust, making you gasp. you felt so stretched, your walls hugging his member, making his eyes roll back โShit, princess,โ He panted โYouโre really so tight,โ he pushed himself deeper, already bottoming out.
You whined in a mixture of pain and pleasure, gripping the sofa beneath you, Sunghoon noticed you and connected your lips with his, trying to distract you โRelax,โ He cooed, one of his hands caressing your forehead with his thumb โItโs all good, youโre doing so well.โ
His sweet words made you instantly relax, you looked at him through your teary eyes and he smiled warmly, pecking your lips once more.
He started moving inside of you, slowly at first and when the pain subdued to pleasure, you moaned โSโdeep,โ You breathed out, gripping his arm.
Sunghoon couldnโt hold back anymore, his hips started moving faster, your skin slapping together as he tsked โBet he canโt fuck you like i do,โ
He circled your clit with his free hand, while his other snuck around your neck, adding small pressure, just enough to make your mind hazy.
He groaned, trying his best not to cum right there as he heard your sweet moans, your tits moving back and forth alongside your body as he pushed his cock so deep he could see the shadow his bulge in your stomach.
โIโm the only one who can fuck you like you deserve,โ He kept saying nonsense while you laid under him, the knot in your stomach about to snap.
You nodded at his statement, not registering his words at all โHoonโ sโclose, iโm close.โ You said, your voice cracked and quiet.
โI know baby,โ He circled your clit faster โCan feel you squeeze meโ fuckโ squeeze my cock.โ He threw his head back to move the bangs sticking to his sweaty forehead, revealing an image of every girlโs erotic dream.
He felt your walls squeezing his cock, signalling that you were about to fall apart and so he hurried his movements โDonโt cum yet,โ He ordered but you shook your head, unable to resist anymore as you came, your orgasm hitting like a crashing wave, making your body squirm underneath him.
Sunghoon slowed his thrusts but never faltered, he helped you ride out of your high until you were able to open your eyes again, your breath so heavy.
He kissed your lips, holding your chin in his fingers while he resumed his speed, trying to reach his own release
You moaned louder, probably even your neighbours could hear you but Sunghoon pushed you to overstimulation, โGonna cum, just a little more baby.โ He panted, gripping both your hips and rutting inside of you until he pulled out and came all over your chest and body, shots of white seed painting you.
You spread it all over yourself, waiting for him to calm down as the realisation of what you had just done hit both of you.
You exchanged no words but Sunghoon carefully scooped your figure from the sofa and carried you bridal style to the bathroom, making you sit as he prepared you a warm bath.
โHoon..โ you murmured, guilt eating you alive. Sunghoon turned around and saw the state you were in.
Ignoring the hard-on he had again at the sight of you all dirty in his cum, he pressed a featherlight kiss on your forehead โDonโt overthink it,โ He said gently โitโll be alright if he doesnโt know, and you can keep a secret, canโt you?โ
Sunghoon asked and you nodded โThatโs a good girl.โ He pecked your lips but you brought him into a deeper kiss and before you knew, his tongue was inside your mouth again.
He reluctantly pulled away, shaking his head, feeling like heโd be taking advantage of you.
Sunghoon closed the tab of the bath and helped you in, despite your legs that were like jelly, you felt refreshed and happier.
He let go of your hand but you didnโt, keeping it secured in yours. He looked at you with a puzzled expression.
โGet inside.โ You beckoned to the bath and he shook his head again โIโll take a shower later.โ
You pouted โLetโs save water.โ Your eyes were so soft and glossy he couldnโt help but comply and he entered the bathtub with you.
Nedless to say, you found yourself on his laps, needy grinding against his hard cock as you two made out with the warm water around you both.
Maybe you could do more than that while Jake was away.
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The next morning you woke up to a strange sensation between your thighs, it felt hot but also good, waves of pleasure rushing through your body.
You slowly opened your eyes and looked down, seeing a ruffled head buried between your legs, two strong hands pinning you down the bed.
โHoon..โ You breathed out, your mind still hazy and eyes too heavy to keep open.
Sunghoon momentarily detached himself from your cunt, your wetness coating his chin โMh, hey princess.โ He smiled as if he wasnโt eating you out for breakfast โJust relax, let me take care of you.โ
You already weak heart melted at his statement and you just nodded, resting your head back on the pillow while Sunghoon flicked his tongue on your tongue, stimulating it with his fingers as well.
You closed your eyes and placed one hand behind sunghoonโs head, grasping his hair, trying to bring him closer, needing him closer.
The phone on your bedside table started ringing, making you take it and frustratedly checking who was ruining your moment.
You wouldโve jerked away if it wasnโt for Sunghoonโs grip at the sight of Jakeโs contact name โItโs Jake.โ You half-whispered, half-screamed, trying to pull Sunghoonโs head away from your pussy.
He reluctantly let go and nodded โAnswer.โ Though his tone said that was the last thing he wanted you to do. With shaky hands, you took the call and placed the phone beside your ear โHello?โ
โY/N, hiโฆ itโs morning there, did I wake you up?โ Jakeโs voice seemed to foreign to your ears it felt strange at first; as you were about to reply, Sunghoonโs lips attached to your pussy once more, making you gasp.
โYou good?โ Jake asked from the other line, worry lacing his tone โAll good!โ You exclaimed, a little too high pitched.
No matter how hard you grasped Sunghoonโs hair, the man was not going to pull away from your pussy and the way he pinned you more down on the bed confirmed your thoughts.
Instead, you bit your bottom lip and tried your best not to give away the pleasure your boyfriendโs best friend was giving you. โListen, I'm so sorry.โ You frowned, confused โWhat are you sorry for?โ
A whimper died down your throat when Jake answered โHow I left things, I shouldnโt have ignored your texts..โ He sighed softly โI was just mad, I needed some time alone, but it isnโt an excuse.โ
No, it wasnโt, but you had forgotten about the fight thanks to Sunghoonโs magic bed skills, so you just shrugged it off.
โI understand.โ You breathed out as Sunghoon inserted a finger into your sticky walls, fingering you while his tongue worked on your clit.
Jake sighed at your answer โI said hurtful things to you, can you forgive me?โ You moved your hips, fucking yourself on sunghoonโs tongue, earning a hum of approval that sent waves through your body.
โYes,โ you replied, though you didnโt know if it was meant for Jakeโs question or to incite Sunghoon in his act โReally?โ
Jakeโs voice sounded surprised, you usually took things personally, so why brush it all off? He wasnโt going to complain, though.
โHow are things going there?โ He asked โAlright,โ You murmured, Sunghoonโs skilled tongue making you see stars.
โThere?โ You managed to ask without letting your voice shake when Sunghoon added a second digit inside of you, curling them like he had already memorised where your sweet spot was.
And he probably did.
โWell.โ Jake chuckled โBut I miss you so much,โ You felt a pang of guilt, because since Sunghoon occupied your daily life, your mind had started to drift toward Jake less.
โMiss you too,โ You whispered, your words making Sunghoonโs fingers move faster. You bit down on your fist to prevent yourself from making unwanted noises.
You heard a second voice from the other line but couldnโt quite understand what it said, and then Jake sighed sadly โI have to go baby, I'll text you when I finish this meeting.โ
You hummed, your back arching โI love you.โ Jake said sweetly and you answered with a quick โMe too.โ Before hanging up, throwing the phone on the mattress.
You pulled sunghoonโs head away and pushed it on the bed, strangely he let you do it, not fighting you.
He laid on the bed while you crawled on top of him, hovering just above his face โYouโre so hot when youโre pissed.โ he teased, knowing that you wouldโve been anxious about being discovered.
That was what added the thrill to Sunghoon, it would be boring otherwise.
โShut up,โ You shushed, lowering yourself on his lips and gripping his hair, pulling his lips on your pussy, the sweet sensation appearing again.
You bucked your hips down, riding his face while you moaned, trying to reach your orgasm.
Sunghoonโs tongue found your entrance, fucking your hole, drinking all your wetness like you were his last meal.
On other occasions you would've been scared of choking him, but with the pre-orgasm bliss, your selfishness appeared and you just worried about cumming.
His nose poked your clit, his tongue fucking in and out and his hums of approval to let you know that he was, at least, still breathing made you reach your high, legs shaking.
He helped you ride out of your orgasm, your breath still hard as you laid down on the bed again, chest raising up and down.
He sat up and kissed your lips, tasting your cum on his tongue โMorning, Y/N.โ He murmured in a hoarse voice.
โMorning, Sunghoon.โ It was the same thing you two had been telling each other for a week, only this time, it meant so much more.
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โLet me see them, come here.โ He demanded as you two got home from your nail salon appointment, which he insisted on paying.
You smiled widely and walked closer to the sofa where he was sitting โ or rather, manspreading โ and happily showed him your pinkish nails.
โI love them.โ You confessed, the small brush of Sunghoonโs thumb on your knuckles making your breath hitch โPretty nails for a pretty girl.โ He smirked when he noticed the effect he had on you.
Sunghoon was no innocent man, despite his shy appearance.
When he said heโd do anything for you, he meant it, even betray his best friend for you.
Maybe you didnโt want to dump him because Jake was, in fact, a good boyfriend if you didnโt count the bad moments you had together.
But Sunghoon was better than him, and he was planning on showing you.
He let go of your hand and patted his lap, beckoning you to sit on it.
Complying, you straddled him and wrapped your arms around his neck โBut you didnโt have to pay for them.โ You murmured, feeling guilty that he spent so much for you, along with the necklace and earrings he bought you as a gift
โShhh,โ He hushed you, pressing a finger on your lips, brushing his thumb over your bottom one.
โI want to spoil you baby, you deserve it.โ His voice was barely a whisper, so deep and husky.
Your lips hitched with the urge you had to put them on his, kissing until you grew sick of itโ but you couldnโt.
โActually,โ You mumbled and pulled away, just enough to resist your deepest thoughts โI donโt want to send you away, but Jake wanted to FaceTime me,โ You gulped, fidgeting with his shirt
Sunghoon tilted his head, his hands securing around your waist, protectively keeping you close โSo?โ
โSo, I thought itโd be better if he didnโt see you here.โ You added, nodding at your own statement
Sunghoon frowned, โI can hide in the bathroom until youโre done.โ
โHoonโ youโve been sleeping here for four days..โ His jaw ticked โAm I bothering you?โ
You were quick to shake your head โNo, never.โ You bit your bottom lip, afraid to voice out your feelings since that useless argument you had with Jake
He sighed softly and took your chin in his fingers, making you look inside his eyes โWhatโs wrong, baby?โ He asked, holding you so gently you thought youโd shatter right there and heโd be able to pick up all your pieces
โIโโ You shook your head, but Sunghoonโs grip tightened on your chin โTell me.โ He demanded, not harshly.
โI justโฆ I donโt think Jake would like it if he knew about this and I feel so guilty.โ Sunghoon felt his anger rise, because he wanted to tell you that your relationship was more off than on, he wanted to tell you to just break up with Jake and live with him, spend your day tucked under his protections so that no one could hurt you anymore.
But, you werenโt his and he couldnโt do anything about itโฆ yet.
โWhat weโre doing isnโt bad, alright?โ He tried to sooth your worry โWeโre just two adults trying to satisfy each otherโs needs,โ Sunghoon licked his bottom lip, looking at your glossy and innocent eyes made his dick harden inside his jeans.
โAnd I want to take care of you..โ He whispered, his hand slipping under your shirt, groping your breasts, earning a small whimper from you โWill you let me?โ
Were the necklace and earrings he gave you cursed? Because no matter how much you knew this was wrong, you only craved for more.
โYes,โ You whispered, โI want to make you feel good too.โ Sunghoonโs eyes softened, you were so cute and innocent and so his to ruin โIs that so, princess?โ You nodded in response
โWant to make me feel good?โ You hummed and Sunghoon got close to your ear, purring โGet on your knees.โ
You complied right away, climbing down his laps and placing yourself between his legs โNeed those pretty hands around my cock,โ He said and you unzipped his jeans, palming his already hard length through the fabric
โDo you know how to give a blow?โ He scoffed, almost being degrading โI bet Jake couldnโt even teach you properly.โ Sunghoon caressed the side of your cheek and then his hand gripped your hair, pulling your head toward his hips โHurry up, sweetheart.โ
Not wanting to make him wait, you quickly pulled the hem of his boxers down and let them fall to his ankles.
His cock sprung free, veiny and thick, you let your tongue trace it, giving kitten licks to the tip.
Sunghoon groaned, holding your hair up to a semi-ponytail so they wouldnโt bother you.
You circled your tongue all over the tip, tasting his bittersweet precum.
โStop teasing.โ he warned, pulling your hair back and looking into your eyes, his tone softening, โUnderstood, baby?โ You nodded in approval and took him whole inside your mouth in one swift movement, his long shaft hitting the back of your throat, making you gag.
He ard your slight gag but the sensation of your warm mouth wrapped around him was enough to cloud his mind. you bobbed your head back and forth, filthy sounds filling the room.
โShit princess, you feel so good.โ He groaned โMhโ could just cum right here.โ His praising fuelled your confidence, so you gripped both his hips and moved your head faster, trying to provide him pleasure
You palmed his balls as well, gripping them gently as Sunghoon let out a low moan, throwing his head back on the headboard on the sofa.
You spied him from your eyelashes, he looked like the epitome of erotic: mouth hanging open, eyebrows furrowed and eyes squeezed shut.
He pushed your mouth further, trying to bottom out when your phone started ringing. You got distracted, looking to the side, about to pull away as you knew it was Jake.
โDonโt you dare.โ Sunghoon groaned, standing up and pushing his cock deep inside your throat, you gagged, it being too big to fit.
You tried to push him away to catch your breath but Sunghoon didnโt seem to care. Only when he saw your teary eyes did he give you the chance to breathe.
You panted heavily, spit rolling down your cheeks and wetting your shirt.
Your ringtone started once again and Sunghoon watched you wild his eyes, he took your chin in his hands and raised a brow โYou going to answer?โ
Your eyes were glossy and the tip of your nose red, you shook your head in reply โThatโs what I thought.โ he smirked and yanked you by your hair, snatching them to push his fat cock inside your mouth once again.
The way you were just staring at him with those eyes made him grin, the sweat dripping down his forehead added a small spark to the whole situation.
Your phone rang once more and he let out an annoyed groan, taking it in his hands โMaybe I should just show your boyfriend what youโre doing right now, uh?โ You panicked and shook your head, trying to pull away from him.
โKeep sucking,โ he warned, maintaining his grip on your hair. He showed your phone screen to you, Jakeโs contact name appearing before your eyes.
You murmured, trying to tell him not to do anything reckless but that only sent waves of pleasure to his length.
โShit Y/N.โ he panted, throwing your phone back on the sofa, not caring about its ringtone anymore.
โAlways ruining the moment, that fucker.โ He murmured, holding your head with both his hands and pushing his dick in and out your warm and went mouth
โIโm so close baby,โ You nodded, dropping your arms on your side and letting him do what he needed to reach his high. His moans were low, more like growls which made the wetness between your legs grow more uncomfortable as time passed.
You liked when he acted so possessive, when he acted like you belonged to him.
You wished you did.
โFuck, Fuck, Fuck.โ He chanted, eyes rolling back โSuch a good girl for me,โ He groaned once more, pushing one last time, deeper until released his seed inside your mouth.
He took deep breaths, trying to calm down โSwallow.โ Sunghoon ordered, his eyes so dark and red.
You gulped down and then stuck out your tongue to show him that no trace of his cum was left โGood girl.โ He smiled, helping you up.
He helped you up and was about to pull your body closer when you shook your head โWhatโs wrong?โ He asked, confused at your sudden coldness
You glanced at your phone on the sofa and smiled faintly โI think I should call Jake back.โ You took it and bit your bottom lip, โIโll be back later.โ
You didnโt spare Sunghoon a glance and just disappeared in your bedroom, closing the door behind your back, leaving Sunghoon in the living room with the realisation that your heart still belonged to Jake.
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Jake was a total asshole. He had always known that, but realisation hit him the moment he saw you coming out of that room bawling your eyes out.
Despite not wanting to tell him, he had a feeling it meant Jakeโs foul mouth said things he shouldnโt have.
And as he rocked you to sleep, whispering sweet nothings while gently caressing your body, he was more than determined to take you away.
What made it worse was that you took your time to clean the drool from your cheeks, combed your tangled hair and even put some mascara on to be pretty.
Jake didnโt even consider that, or didnโt try to think how happy youโd be to talk to him and harshly destroyed your mood.
The next morning you woke up feeling groggy, your eyes were puffy and tear stains lined down your cheeks.
You looked at yourself in the mirror and sighed, trying to fix the damage that was your appearance.
After washing your face and doing your needs, you exited the bathroom thinking youโd be alone and mentally preparing to make something for yourself to eat when you came across a tall male figure cooking.
You stopped in your tracks, eyes wide as you drank him in. Sunghoon was toasting something with the pan, his forearms flexing as he twisted the bread.
He was quietly humming a melody, quiet enough not to wake you up, the smell of caramel and first loves filling the air.
You felt a sudden peace of mind, dreaming about waking up like this every day, lazy sunday mornings spent in, cuddling and just being with each other.
Your dream was crushed when you remembered you actually had someone to do that with you, and he wasnโt Sunghoon.
You walked towards him and hugged his waist, your small arms wrapped around his toned torso. He stiffed for a second before realising it was you โMorning sleepyhead.โ
โMorning Hoon.โ You said back, snuggling your face closer to his back. He turned off the stove and turned around, his arms wrapping around your waist, pulling your body closer
โSlept well?โ Sunghoon asked, placing the palm of his hand on your cheek, his thumb giving it gentle strokes.
The way he talked and looked had you so weak and vulnerable and the only place you wanted to be in was the space between his arms, pressed in so close and so tight.
โYes, thanks to you.โ You gave him a sincere smile. His lips twitch up into a smile and you can feel the warmth of his gaze on your face.
He shook his head and placed a featherlight kiss on your head โI did nothing, really.โ He did what Jake shouldโve done, instead he chose to be the reason for your hurting.
You were about to answer when he held your waist tightly and placed you to sit on the kitchen counter, you blinked faintly in confusion. Sunghoon smiled and pecked your nose โBreakfast will be done soon.โ He announced, winking at you.
He turned back to the stove and placed the toasts on a small plate; he walked to the fridge and took some jam along with butter.
You followed all his movements with your gaze, noticing how his muscles twitched at his every movement. He was wearing a t-shirt that was supposed to be Jakeโs, though you had to admit it looked way better on Sunghoon. You shook your head, getting rid of those (not so) untrue allegations.
Sunghoon finished making the toasts and turned towards you, his fang smile so addictive. โAre you hungry?โ He asked โI made toast and found strawberries in the fridge.โ
โI think youโd like to eat something else.โ You murmured, voice still hoarse from sleeping.
Sunghoonโs gaze darkened as he registered your words, placing himself between your legs โAnd what is it?โ He questioned, face so close to yours you could feel his hot breath hitting your skin
With one hand you held yourself on the counter and wrapped the other around Sunghoonโs neck.
You two had only four more days together, and you chose to make the best of them.
Youโd deal with Jake when he came back and could talk face to face.
โI have a perfect meal for you.โ You smirked, looking down at your lower body. Sunghoon let out a soft sigh, his bulge already poking from his shorts โMy favourite.โ
His palm traced all the way from your breasts, down to your stomach and hem of the shorts.
He slipped one finger inside and cursed under his breath when he realised you were wearing no underwear
You chuckled at his reactions and Sunghoon attacked your lips with his, sucking on your bottom lip, making you squirm.
He squeezed your breasts and simultaneously played with your clit, touching you in only ways he could.
He detached his lips from yours and lowered himself, kneeling in front of you.
He kissed your clothed core, smelling the scent of you, so addicting.
You felt your pussy clench around nothing, the usual warm feeling building inside your body.
You looked down at Sunghoon with pleading eyes and he was more than happy to satisfy you โOn it, baby.โ He licked his lips as he pulled your shorts down, the cold air of the room hitting your sensitive skin, making you shiver.
Sunghoon placed kitten kisses all over your thighs, so close to where you needed him but not exactly there.
โHoon.. please.โ You whined, pulling him by his hair closer to your core. Sunghoon flicked his tongue on your clit, making you gasp out.
He continued to lick your pussy like a popsicle, his skilled tongue brushing against your shaven mound, making your head hazy.
Your breath grew heavy and you couldnโt help but throw your head back, desperately pushing Sunghoon closer, trying to find satisfaction.
Sunghoon rewarded your bravery by inserting one finger inside your hole, brushing it against your g-spot โFuckโ Hoon, yesโ You moaned out
โPussy tastes so good.โ he purred, diving again between your thighs โAll mine, this is all mine, got it?โ in your blissful state you nodded your head in reply, bucking your hips to meet his movements
As Sunghoonโs fingers kept brushing against a certain spot that had your eyes roll back, you felt something snap inside of you and liquid spurred out of your pussy.
You widened your eyes, looking down at him with an apologetic look.
โIโ Iโm sorry.โ You said, taking in the sight of said liquid dripping down Sunghoonโs chin and having wetted his shirt.
Sunghoon, on the other hand, seemed to be on cloud 9 โThat was so hot, Y/N.โ He said with sparkling eyes โSquirt on me again baby, please.โ
He was really pussy drunk, drinking all your juices, fucking you with his tongue and fingers.
He raised himself on his feet and brought you into a sloppy and messy kiss, you could taste yourself on his lips.
His painful clothed bulge pressed against your core, rubbing against it.
Sunghoon made his shorts and boxers fall down to his ankles and rubbed his red tip on your wet folds, gathering your sweet juices.
He pushed his thick cock inside you and your breath hitched, its length still something you werenโt used to.
You propped yourself on your elbows and took deep breaths, trying to distract yourself from the burning stretch.
Sunghoon moved slowly, rubbing your clit to make you even wetter so that he could slip in and out without hurting you.
He held your face with one hand, his thumb inside your thumb while you sucked on it โYouโre so dirty.โ he smirked โMy dirty girl.โ He got close to your face and hurried his thrusts
โTell me babyโ shitโ you mine, uh?โ He asked, voice husky
โIโm not y-yours.โ Ah, wrong answer. He stilled his movements, looking down at you with a raised brow โNot mine?โ He scoffed, โThen you donโt deserve to cum.โ
You felt him pull out and panicked, gripping his forearm desperately โNo!โ You exclaimed โPlease Hoon.โ
He gave one deep thrust, making you whimper โWhat did you say?โ You blinked faintly โPlease..โ He shook his head โNah ah.โ
You sighed โIโm yours, Hoon.โ His lips twitched into a sly smirk โGood girl.โ Sunghoon praised as he gripped your waist.
You raised your top just enough to let your breasts run free and squeezed your nipple, stimulating your body.
Sunghoon joined you and squeezed the other one, bringing his lips down to circle it and send waves of pleasure through your body.
Sunghoon took hold of your hips, raising you from the counter while your hands were still gripping it, moving your lower body to meet his in quick and deep thrusts.
โFuck, get down.โ he helped you down the counter and manhandled you, turning you as he pleased.
He took your arms and hooked them around one of his, your back pressed against his chest.
Sunghoon entered your body once more, his movements so fast. You clenched around him, your moans so loud.
โYou were made for me.โ He groaned in your ear, kissing your shoulder โMine to fuck, mine to own, mine to love.โ
You felt the knot in your stomach tighten, crying out in pleasure โS-sunghoon.โ He breathed out โI know baby,โ the speed of his thrusts hurried, rutting inside of you as he hit the sweet spot โCum for me.โ
At his words your eyes rolled at the back of your head, mouth agape as you came apart on his cock.
He looked down, the white circle forming around his shaft, almost making him cum as well on spot.
Your legs started shaking, his thrusts never faltering even as you squirmed in his grip. He circled your clit with one hand, your eyes getting watery.
โShh,โ He soothed, letting go of your arms to make you stabilise yourself by gripping the counter; his hands grasped your hips, grip so tight it would probably leave marks by the next day as he thrusted inside of you, trying to reach his release.
โIโm gonna cum,โ Sunghoon panted, the speed of his movements increasing even more โInsideโโ You choked out โCum inside me.โ Your words made him release his seed right there, coating your clenching walls with his warm cum.
He hugged your back, lips brushing against your shoulders as he fucked his cum right back into you, not wanting a single drop to fall out.
He raised from your figure but still not pulling out, turning your head by your chin and connecting your lips.
The kiss was sloppy and uncomfortable due to the position, but it held so many feelings it made you melt.
Sunghoonโs fingertips caressed your stomach, holding you close while gentle thrusts kept uniting your bodies โYou begging me to cum inside really did something to me, pretty girl.โ He chuckled, kissing your jawline.
โFortunately,โ You started, still out of breath โIโm on the pill. Sunghoon chuckled huskily, โI wouldnโt have minded even if you werenโt.โ
He pulled out, drops of his cum running down your thighs. He turned you around and kissed you deeply once more โLetโs get you cleaned up, then we can eat.โ
You gave him a weak smile, you were sticky and sweaty, probably your hair was also messed up, but Sunghoon still looked at you like you were the most beautiful person in the world. โYeah. Letโs do that.โ
He kissed the tip of your nose and chuckled โIโm taking you out for the night, so prepare that dress I bought you.โ Euphoria took over your face as you nodded happily โThank you, Hoon.โ
โI already told you Iโd do anything for you.โ
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You were putting the earrings he had bought you, the crimson dress hugging your body.
You stood in front of the full-length mirror inside your room, trying your best not to poke another hole in your ear.
You felt a pair of strong arms wrapping around your waist, Sunghoonโs head snuggled in the crook of his neck. The familiar cologne filled your nostrils, bringing a sense of peacefulness inside you.
Sunghoon kissed the back of your shoulder, his arms bringing you to his body. You felt his erections pressing between your ass cheeks, making you chuckle โYouโre gorgeous.โ He whispered in your ear, his kisses raising toward your jaw
You let out a shaky breath as he started slowly grinding against your ass โHoonโฆ We have a reservation.โ You cleared your throat, trying not to think at the wetness between your legs
โSo?โ His voice was so low it made you shiver in his embrace. His hands moved towards your breasts, squeezing them from outside the fabric of your dress. โIโll be quick, I promise.โ
You shook your head โWeโre going to be late.โ He pressed your lower body even closer to his, rutting his clothes cock on your ass โPlease babyโฆโ He groaned, โIโm so hard it hurts.โ
His eyes locked with your from the mirror and you couldnโt deny him when he looked so desperate for you.
You loved it, you loved the way he seemed to be so obsessed with you.
You nodded โAlright.โ He didnโt waste time and flicked your skirt up, pushing his pants and boxers down and pushing your panties to the side. As his cock sprung free, you could feel it rubbing against you, so hot and hard.
He took your arms and held them in his hand, rubbing your folds with his shaft with the other. With one swift movement, he entered you, moving fast already.
Your moans were music to his ear and the sight of you rolling your eyes from the full-length mirror made his cock twitch inside of you.
Sunghoon groaned, sweat coating his forehead as he sped up, letting go of your arms to grip your hips and use your body as he pleased.
You put one hand behind his head and pressed yourself closer to him, your back tightly against his chest.
โMy perfect girl,โ He chanted, biting his bottom lip, trying his best not to cum just there โThis pussy was made for me, uh?โ
His heavy breath sent shivers through all your body, the sweet feeling of his dick bottoming out, hitting your cervix repeatedly made your legs shake.
โClose already?โ He asked, the sound of skin slapping and the wet sounds from your cunt filling the room โY-yes.โ You managed to say, the feeling of euphoria approaching you.
โFuckโ me too.โ He let out a few breaths, hurrying his speeds โLetโs cum together baby,โ Sunghoon hugged your body from behind, spooning you while standing up as he rutted fast your abused pussy
โYouโll let me cum inside, right?โ You nodded your head, โPlease.โ You breathed out โWant you to fill me up.โ
Your words were enough for Sunghoon to empty his load inside of you, your own hand went down to circle your clit and you came right with him.
Your walls pulsed around him and his cock twitched, with slow and deep thrusts. He kissed the back of your shoulder, his breath calming down.
โYou did amazing,โ He whispered, pulling out and covering your folds with your underwear.
He pulled his pants and boxers up and pulled you by your waist, kissing you hungrily โNow, youโre going to dinner with my cum inside,โ He murmured on your lips โAnd after we come home Iโll fuck it right back, filling you up again.โ
You were still dazed from your orgasm, or maybe it was the spell he gave you, because all you could manage to do was nod blissfully. Sunghoonโs plan was indeed working.
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Saying that you two had been fucking like two rabbits was an understatement.
Sunghoon took you in the kitchen again, then on the sofa, in the bathtub and so many times in the bedroom.
Like now, you had the insane idea to blow him around three am, the day before Jake was coming home.
Nobody could blame you, though, because the way he was sleeping with his lips open, bare chested and hands ruffled turned you so on you wanted to give him the sloppiest and messiest head of his life. And so you did.
Sunghoon was now cuddling with you, his fingertips brushing against your sensitive skin, the quiet of the night too comfortable as you laid in his embrace.
His breath was even and soft, his body heat shouldโve been bothering you since you were in July but it only made you seek more. Maybe it was the fact that the day before, it would be gone forever.
โHoon?โ you asked, tone gentle โHmm?โ he murmured sleepily, sniffling his head closer to your shoulder
You stayed silent for a couple of seconds, trying to gather your thoughts โWhen tomorrow comes, can you give me some time alone?โ
Sunghoon frowned โWhat?โ You gulped, looking down at him, smelling your shampoo scent in his hair. โI need some time to figure things out.โ
Sunghoon was scared to feel hopeful by your words, he still said โFigure what?โ
โMy feelings.โ You answered, sighing softly โItโs just that, Iโve never felt so happy like when Iโm with you.โ At those words, he raised his head, his tired dark eyes meeting yours
โWith Jake, everything feels on autopilot, we just live our lives as if we were two roommates.โ He caressed your shoulder, letting you know that he was with you, that he had got you
โBut with youโ you made me rediscover how love feels like, how it feels to be someoneโs first choice.โ
โY/N..โ He whispered, feeling a sudden urge to protect you โBut Iโm saying this after spending basically one month without my boyfriend.โ Hearing you utter those two words felt like a punch in the stomach, even though you were just stating the truth.
Sunghoon had just been a replacement for you, something to fill the void created by Jake.
โI need to see it for myself if I really have no feelings left for him or if..โ He interrupted you before you could finish โI understand.โ
You blinked faintly, โYou do?โ Sunghoon nodded, a smile forming on his lips โOf course, Iโll wait for you and understand if you choose to be with Jake.โ
Your eyes sparkled at his words, he was so gentle despite the fact that his heart was breaking.
But that wouldnโt happen, because as he held you close to him, he knew his spell had worked.
No matter how much you tried, you wouldnโt be able to get away from him.
โIโll always be there for you.โ No matter how many times he repeated it, you always felt the sincerity of his words.
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โIโm back.โ Jake announced, entering the front door with his huge luggage โY/N?โ He asked, walking into the living room
โHey,โ You smiled, reaching him โWelcome back.โ Jake smiled wrapped his arms around you โHow is my love?โ He asked rather happily
โLaylaโs alright, I think.โ Your answer sounded harsh, still not fully having forgiven him for the horrible things he said on FaceTime.
Jake frowned, knowing his sins โIโm so sorry, baby.โ You sighed, pulling away from his embrace โI know.โ You just said and took his luggage โIโll put the dirty clothes in the laundry.โ
Everything went smoothly, he had talked to you all about his journey, how awesome Los Angeles was, everyone was so kind and supportive towards him. And, not a single question on how you had been the past two weeks.
Shaking the feeling off and trying not to think about Sunghoon anytime Jake brushed his fingers against your skin, you successfully managed to get through three days.
What you told Sunghoon was true, your life went on autopilot when you were with Jake.
You woke up, went to work, did the chores and then went to sleep. You barely spoke to each other and the awkward silence in the house was always present.
โBaby?โ He asked while you were cooking by the gas stoves, you hummed in response, not turning around.
โSince when did you buy all those jewellery and clothes?โ He raised a brow, leaning against the counter โTheyโre pretty expensive, theyโre from Pandora.โ
โOh?โ You turned around and looked at the jewel case in his hands, trying to suppress a smile at the memory of Sunghoon buying you all the things you liked. Honestly, you wouldnโt even care if he had bought you diamonds or just paper rings, youโd take anything heโd give you.
โI liked them, so I bought them.โ You shrugged, turning back to stir the soup inside the pot
โYouโre so rich you can buy anything you want now?โ He scoffed, placing the jewel case on the table and crossing his arms.
You stopped in your tracks, raising a brow โWhat?โ Jake clicked his tongue โDid you pay the rent?โ You nodded โOf course I did, last week.โ
He let out a satisfied sound โWhat about the car insurance?โ Now did you turn around and stared at him in disbelief โItโs your car, Iโm not going to pay for you.โ
Jake sighed โCome on baby, Iโve spent all my money on the trip.โ You narrowed your eyes, dots collecting inside your brain โItโs a business trip, the company shouldโve paid for you.โ
Jake widened his eyes, stuttering โIโ I meant the food andโฆโ He trailed off. You werenโt going to buy it, you didnโt want to hear his excuses anymore.
โI donโt care, itโs your car. I donโt use it.โ You informed, cleaning your hands in the apron and crossing them on your chest โBut Iโm your boyfriend.โ
Your brows furrowed at his statement โOnly when you want to.โ Jake rolled his eyes โHere you go again.โ He ran a hand through his hair โCould you stop being so over dramatic?โ
โOh, so now Iโm over dramatic.โ You said sarcastically โYes! Yes you are.โ He snapped
You didnโt flinch or look away this time, you werenโt going to show your weak side. Jake always took advantage of it, and you werenโt going to let him.
โSunghoon was right.โ You murmured and Jakeโs head snapped back toward you โWhat?โ
โYouโre an asshole.โ You narrowed your eyes but Jake just dismissed your โYeah, ok. What about Sunghoon?โ
โIโve spent a lot of time with him lately,โ Jake laughed at your statement, seeming genuinely thrilled at your information โYou and that weirdo?โ
Your mouth hung open โWhat did you say about him? Heโs your best friend.โ
Jake tsked, โThatโs what he thinks. He was a loner and I just talked to him. He has stuck with me since then and Iโm growing pretty sick of it.โ
โHow dare you talk about him like that?โ Jakeโs brow raised โWhy do you care?โ
โBecause he is ten times better than you.โ Jake chuckled again โOh, he is? Baby, Iโm better than him or you wouldโve been his girlfriend by now.โ
He leaned back against the counter โAnd what have you two been doing, eh? Reading books? Watching corny films? Playing table games?โ
โSex.โ You replied, your tone monotone, having had enough of his bullshits. His chuckle died and he frowned, looking up at you.
โYou heard me, I slept with Sunghoon.โ His jaw dropped, anger building inside of him โSo you just go around and act like a slut? Is that what you do when Iโm not home?โ
โDonโt you dare call me a slut.โ You snapped, your voice raising for the first time in three years โYou cheated on me, Y/N. When were you going to tell me?โ
โI needed a few days to figure my feelings out, and thank you for making me realise how much of an asshole you are.โ
Jake scoffed โYou're the one who slept with another man when youโre supposed to be my girlfriend.โ
โYouโre right, and Iโm sorry for cheating.โ His face held some victorious feelings that quickly died as you added โBecause I shouldโve dumped you before.โ
โAnd thatโs what Iโm doing right now, Sim Jaeyun, Iโm breaking up with you.โ
โYou canโt do that.โ His face filled with anger, but no regret could be found.
You were glad you opened your eyes before you were stuck with him โYouโve sucked my happiness out, you took the life out of me. Now Iโm going to take it back.โ You took off the apron, throwing it at his chest โIโll come and get my things tomorrow.โ
You heard him throwing other harsh words to you, but you didnโt care. You didnโt even wear your shoes, just ran out of your old apartment in slippers, towards the only place you knew would always have space for you.
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โDonโt shoot me!โ Sunghoon was playing with his friends at a video game, the sound of keyboard taps filled the whole house along with his shouting.
It was strange his neighbours hadnโt come to complain already.
โAt your back!โ Jay informed him, Sunghoon was taking the aim to kill the enemy but his doorbell ringing distracted him, making his shoot pointless. โShit man, I think itโs Miss Choi again.โ
Jay snorted, โAlright, go deal with her.โ The friends exchanged goodbyes and Sunghoon got up, the doorbell kept ringing, making Sunghoon groan
โHere, Here.โ He sighed as he opened the door only to widen his eyes when he realised it was you in front of himโ not his neighbour.
โY/Nโโ He couldnโt even finish saying your name when you threw yourself on him, lips meeting his. Sunghoon was taken aback at first but soon enough kissed you back, your lips touching and moving together.
You pulled away, panting heavily โWhat are you doing here?โ He asked, taking in the sight of you.
Home clothes, slippers on and heavy breathsโฆ
โDid you run here?โ You took several deep breaths before speaking โIโm so sorry I made you wait.โ Sunghoon blinked faintly at your sudden apologies
โWhy are youโโ You shook your head โPlease let me finish first.โ
Sunghoon nodded slowly, waiting for you to continue. โWhen I first met Jake, I had never experienced love, so I thought what he did was normalโฆโ You recalled in your mind all the times he and treated you unfairly for a span of three years and shivered
โBut you made me realise how love actually feels, and I want to learn all the other forms it comes with.โ You looked up at his eyes โHe called you names and said heโd only been your friend for pity.โ
You continued โI just wanted you to know that you are not pitiful, in fact, you're the best person Iโve ever met. Please, donโt listen to him.โ
Sunghoon couldnโt care less about Jakeโs opinion about him. But a small smile appeared on his face at the way you seemed to be so annoyed by the fact that he had insulted him.
โYou defended me?โ He asked softly, and you nodded as if it was the most obvious answer โI also dumped his unworthy ass.โ
Sunghoonโs brows shot up in surprise and a smirk crept on his lips โThatโs my girl.โ
He brought his arms around your waist, pressing your body on his โI want to make it right, Sunghoon, I want to be happy and I want you.โ You bit your bottom lip โIf you want me too?โ
Sunghoon chuckled and twirled you in the air, your giggles filling his usual lonely apartment โIโve always wanted you, from the first day I saw you, I knew you were the one.โ
His answer surprised you, โYou liked me?โ Sunghoon booped your nose, you looked so cute, all rebel wannabe just for your insecurities to stop you again โI think I love you.โ
Your breath hitched, those words leaving his lips made you feel so warm on the inside, your heart skipping so many beats you werenโt sure it was still working โI think I love you too.โ
Sunghoon kissed you deeply, his tongue entering your mouth as he claimed you, finally able to call you his.
You pulled away and chuckled, wrapping your arms around his neck.
You tilted your head, tone flirty โSo.. Youโll let me stay for the night?โ Sunghoon secured your waist in his grasp โIโll let you stay forever.โ
summary: all the teachers at your kids' school have a crush on soobin- but you're the lucky wife that he comes home to
warnings: soobin & y/n are parents, breeding kink + creampie, oral (sb receiving), fingering (y/n receiving), use of โbabyโ for soobin, use of "baby/ my love/ my pretty wife" for y/n
word count: 2,500+
author's note: kinda mushy smut with feelings. directly inspired by how good he looked for the Jakarta soundcheck. this work is 18+
Soobin picks up the kids from school still dressed from work, his blue- collared polo shirt hugging his narrow frame. Heโs all packed into his slim, crisp jeans. All of the teachers standing outside with their classes harbor not-so-secret crushes on him as they wait for parents to take their students home for the day.
These obvious little crushes give you a mischievous pride when walking arm-in-arm with him for parent-teacher conferences, have you preening when you sit beside him to watch your kidsโ in the school play. Thatโs your husband that all the young teachers want, but youโre the one that gets to go home with him.
And go home with him you do.
You say goodnight to both your kids, tucking them safely in bed after brushing their teeth and reading them bedtime stories. You help with one kid, Soobin helps with the other. You make a great team and your kids absolutely adore him. Heโs wrapped around their little fingers and heโll do whatever they ask. Their chubby cheeks and deep dimples are nearly impossible to say no to.
You have to step in when you see Soobin hesitate- your daughterโs big boba eyes begging to stay up just a little bit longer. โNot tonight sleepyhead, you have school again in the morning.โ You reply, kissing her forehead before shooting your husband a stern look to not play along with the kids this time.
โYeah,โ he quickly gets the message, โyou have to sleep so you can be ready to learn all those big new words for the spelling test.โ He leans in to your childโs ear but you can still hear him whisper โbut I think youโre gonna ace it anyway.โ
With big smiles and lots of kisses, you finally close the door to the kidsโ room for the night. Theyโre little, so itโs still pretty early.
You let out a contented sigh. Finally, your busy day of work and motherhood has given you time to relax, just you and your perfect husband. Soobin had left for work earlier than usual this morning, so you havenโt had him to yourself once yet today, until now.
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Heโs sat on the couch, still in his work clothes but finally relaxing for the night. Heโs re-watching an anime on the tv, the volume low so as to not wake up the kids. You finish up your task in the kitchen before coming to join him by the tv.
He glances up at you as you walk in the room, smiling in greeting. You sit on the armchair so you can watch both the tv and him, your eyes darting between the two. You take him in, the long, long lines of his body as he splays out, legs spread enough for you to see the shape of his bulge between them. He isnโt hard, but heโs still big.
You havenโt had alone time with Soobin in a while. Back to school is always such a stressful time as parents and right now all you want is him.
You slip off the chair and begin slowly crawling towards your husband. Soobin looks at you, confusion on his face. The distance isnโt far and you're soon kneeling in front of him. His attention is solely on you, the TV a long-forgotten background noise.
He cups your cheek, brushing his thumb gently across your face. โWhat are you thinking about my love?โ
You lean into his touch, the soft caress a familiar comfort. โMissed you.โ
He laughs a little at that. โBut I havenโt been anywhere.โ
โI can still miss you.โ You turn into his touch, pressing a soft kiss to his palm. โPlus, I really have missed you,โ you say, reaching to palm his bulge over his jeans.
He hisses softly at your touch. โI see. I've missed you too baby.โ
You hum, feeling content as he moves his hand to play with your hair. You continue playing with him through his jeans, feeling him start to grow hard, tracing the shape of his cock underneath. You press one long, closed mouth kiss to the imprint and you can feel Soobinโs breath hitch.
โCan you stay quiet for me?โ You ask, your eyes big and reflecting in the low light. He nods and you unbutton his pants. He lifts his hips a little, easing the process as you tug them low. You want to kiss him so bad but donโt want to move from this position just yet. You have him where you want him so youโll just have to wait.
After freeing his cock you canโt help but tease him, pressing sweet kisses to his hips, thighs and lower tummy. He does his best to stay quiet, clamping down whines as you continue to avoid touching him where he needs you the most.
When you finally do turn your attention to his cock, itโs half-hard with a pretty bead of precum glinting at the tip. You dart your tongue out to lick it off, earning a quiet moan from your pretty husband. โShh, shh, stay quiet for me baby,โ you remind him.
You hold his cock in your hands, feeling the warmth in your palms as you press another closed-mouth kiss to his shaft and another on the tip before you open your mouth. You look up at him to tease him again, placing the head on your tongue and staring up at him, unmoving.
โPlease baby,โ he whispers, stroking your hair, โmake me feel good.โ
You canโt resist when he asks so pretty so you take him into your mouth, licking and sucking at the tip. His hands come up to muffle his moans. Heโs never been quiet, especially not when youโre on your knees for him, but he knows if heโs loud youโll stop, or worse, heโll wake the kids.
You continue your ministrations, bringing a hand up to pump near the base while your other strokes his thigh. His hand in your hair grips hard, pulling you back for a second before you take him deep in your throat.
Beneath your hand you can feel his muscles clench as he physically holds back his moans. You look up at him as you drag your tongue up his shaft. His head is thrown back, relishing in the feeling of your mouth. You love the way he acts when you suck him off- head empty as he takes it in, pretty noises falling more freely from his lips. It makes you crave him in your mouth, makes you want to have him like this all the time.
You move your hand from where it rests on his thigh, slipping it down to firmly grip his balls, applying an even squeeze while you suckle on the head of his cock.
Soobinโs breath hitches in a strangled gasp. You squeeze him again, taking him further in your mouth as you do. He stifles a moan but itโs still loud. You stop for a second, pulling off of him completely. The two of you pause, listening for any little feet on the carpet upstairs. When the coast is clear- no noise means kids are still in bed, you pull yourself up off the floor.
โI think thatโs enough of that, since someone canโt stay quiet,โ you tease as you climb into his lap. His hands come to settle on your ass, holding you in place.
โMmm, but how can I stay quiet when you make me feel so good?โ He kisses you finally and it feels like the world has settled. The busy day behind you forgotten as he fills your senses. His lips trail down your throat and you let out a soft sigh as he sucks gently on the skin. You can feel him smile before he hums and asks you if you can stay quiet for him now.
He looks at you as you nod.
The two of you have been together for years, married with two beautiful kids, but no matter how many times youโve taken his cock, Soobin still needs to prep you. Heโs big. You could see him through his jeans, feel his heavy weight in your hands. As much as you want him inside you, you know you need to wait.
You had changed out of your work clothes into your โcomfy clothesโ as soon as you got home. Clad now in a tank top and shorts, Soobin had much easier access to your body as you did to his. He tugged down the elastic waist of the shorts, giving him room to pull them to the side, away from your already wet pussy. Your breath hitched as his fingers made contact with your folds. Everything about your husband was big, his fingers long as he teased you, tracing lines through your wetness and circling your clit.
โKeep your eyes on me baby, okay?โ
He pulled two fingers through your folds before roughly pressing his thumb to your clit. You fell forward, head resting on his shoulder as you bit back a gasp.
He chuckled as you reset yourself. โI said to keep your eyes on me.โ
You shook your head at his teasing before leaning in for a kiss. He swallowed your quiet moan when he finally pressed two of his long fingers into you. He pumped them in, letting you adjust to the intrusion before you wiggled your ass and pushed your hips back, asking for more.
It was your turn to stifle your moans as he picked up speed, curling his fingers to press where you wanted most. His fingers were long and you could feel him so deep inside, but still you knew that this wasn't enough, not when his cock was hot on your thigh, beads of precum dripping on your skin. โSoobin, please,โ you struggled to keep your voice low, โplease give it to me.โ
His movements slowed, fingers moving out of you. He held his hand up towards the lamp, watching the way your wetness caught the light. โSo wet for me.โ
You moaned as you watched him stroke his cock with your wetness. You leaned forward to kiss him again. โAlways for you.โ
You held your shorts and panties to the side as he lined himself up with your entrance, fat tip pressing against your folds.
You looked into his eyes, warm with love and admiration. Youโre sure yours looked the same. After years with Soobin, he was still the only one you wanted, and you still wanted him as badly now as you did on day one. You slowly sunk down on his cock, feeling the stretch even after his fingers, and the two of you moaned together. Voices holding back to keep quiet, but hearts finding the meaning nonetheless.
Once you were impaled on his cock you paused, adjusting to his size. You were full, so full and so completely blissed out.
โFeels good baby?โ
โSo good.โ
Soobin hummed, satisfied. He tugged down the side of your tank top to expose your breast, the cool air causing your nipple to perk up. His thumb grazed the bud as his other hand, still resting on your hip and ass, guided you to move your hips. You began to slowly rock on him, your hands finding his shoulders for balance as he ducked his head to capture your nipple in his mouth.
His tongue was hot as he licked and sucked, leaving a hickey to bloom against the swell of your breast.
He pulled back, saliva dripping from his swollen lips, looking fucked out even as you had just started riding his cock. You moved quicker, bouncing on his lap, feeling him so big and so deep inside of you. This was what you wanted, what you needed even though you hadnโt realized it.
You squeezed around him and Soobin moaned. "Baby, look so good for me, taking my cock so well," he grabbed your breast roughly, "showing off for me." He placed another kiss to your chest.
"Wanted you so bad Soobin," you whisper, your breathing uneven as you ride him.
"Lemme help you baby." He moved his hands under your ass, holding you up. You whined from the lack of movement.
"Shhh, gotta stay quiet." He said smugly before sharply thrusting up into you. Your moan was strangled; you tried your best to keep it quiet but the feeling of him so deep inside was euphoric.
He took over, thrusting up into you from below. You could feel the rough brush of his denim against your thighs where you had pulled it down before. You were sure the skin would be sensitive there after this but right now all you wanted was Soobin's thick cock to fill you up. You wanted to be full of him and his cum, have him surround you inside and out.
His pace was quick and brought you both to the edge of orgasm quickly. Neither of you realized how badly you needed this, how the busy last few weeks had made you crave one another like teenagers.
Soobin's hips pounded into you steadily, his hand groping and squeezing your chest.
โNeed you, need you,โ you repeated like a mantra as you neared your high.
โYou have me,โ Soobin whispered, โIโm all yours.โ
His thumb found your clit and the circles he rubbed brought you over the edge. Your mouth found his shoulder as you felt your release wash over you, hoping it was enough to muffle your cries. Your body shook from the feeling of him all around you.
โHmmf, baby,โ he struggled as your walls pulsed around him, still fucking into you through your orgasm, โgonna put another baby in you.โ
You looked at him again, still dazed and riding out your high. โPlease- want it so bad.โ
His hips thrust erratically up into you as he reached his high, trying to quiet his moans with his hand. You pulled it away to kiss him.
You pulled away, grabbing his shiny black hair, damp now with sweat, pulling him to look you in the eyes. โSoobin, need you to cum in me.โ
His breath was hot against your ear as he snapped his hips against you, โMy pretty wife, gonna take all my cum.โ
His release came with a sharp thrust as he shot ropes of cum inside you. His hands wrapped around you in a hug, holding you as close as possible as he came inside. Fighting overstimulation, you rocked your hips, helping him through the end of his orgasm. Again and again you felt his hot cum shoot inside you.
For a moment, the two of you sat in a comfortable silence, wrapped around one another in a loving embrace. You didnโt want to move; if you could stay like this forever you would.
You felt his cum drip down, out of you, and you knew it was time to clean up. You stroked his head, โhey baby?โ
โMmm, just a little longer. Love you so much.โ He was always sappy after he came.
โI love you too,โ you pressed a kiss to the top of his head, โbut we donโt want to ruin the couch.โ You settled back on your hips, loosening the hug, though his hands still held you, โletโs go to bed my love.โ
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After cleaning yourselves up under the warmth of a shared shower, kisses pressed to lips and soapy hugs shared between you, you fell asleep in the arms of your perfect husband.
authorโs note: this is a work of fiction not meant to accurately represent the idol. please do not repost.
this work contains smut - minors please do not interact
pairing. best friend!sunghoon x fem!reader
synopsis. One night early on in your summer vacation, your best friend Sunghoon admits that his biggest anxiety about starting college is going there as a virgin - one thing leads to another, and you end up learning a few things from each other. The more time passes, the more obvious it becomes that your feelings for each other surpass friendship, but with the end of summer looming over your heads, it's hard to tell where these newfound emotions will lead you.
genre. best friends/childhood friends 2 lovers, summer au, lots of fluff and smut but also some angst to spice things up, when i say smut i mean LOTS of smut. like mostly smut lol (mutual first time, ice play, crazy stuff)
word count. 22.1k
a/n. bringing this one back from the pits of my google docs guys.. its been so long since i've posted anything and im not sure when the new hoon fic will be ready so i thought i'd repost an og asahicore fic!!! the title was originally 'hot like ice' but i changed it bc this is my blog and i do what i want <3 i'd also like to say that in terms of plot this is probably not something i would write nowadays, it's very smut-heavy and thats not what im about now idk i was crazy back then... but i rmb being happy w this fic and its reception when i first posted it so i'm happy to have it back on my blog and hope u guys will like it too <3 as always lmk what u think!!
It all started with a lollipop. Well, two, to be exact. One strawberry-flavored, one apple-flavored.ย
You stand in front of your friend, lollipops in hand. โWhich one do you want, Hoon?โย
โI donโt mind, just pick whichever one you like best,โ he replies absent-mindedly, eyes on the TV as he tries to find a suitable movie for this late summer afternoon.
You plop down on the couch next to him and look at the two lollipops in your hands, unable to decide which flavor you like better. โI donโt know what I feel like right now,โ you announce to an uninterested Sunghoon. โIโll just try both.โ
That seems to catch your best friendโs attention. He watches as you unwrap both candies, tasting each once, twice, then as you decide you want the apple-flavored lollipop and hand him the strawberry-flavored one. He doesnโt take his eyes off of your lips as you wrap them and swirl your tongue around the candy, letting its sweetness wash over your taste buds. You raise your eyebrows when you notice his staring and he blinks a couple times, trying to snap himself out of it. โDid you want the other one?โ you ask, confused by his behavior.
โN-no, I like strawberry,โ he stammers, turning his gaze back to the screen in front of you and settling for โWhen Harry Met Sally,โ a movie youโve both seen a thousand times but never get bored of.
Youโre used to Sunghoon getting lost in his thoughts, so you donโt question it much. You sit back on the couch, your knee touching his. You two are no strangers to a little skinship - after being friends for almost eight years, physical contact comes naturally. You have to admit that recently, itโs started to feel different; but the idea of your friendship changing tugs at your heartstrings so much that you ignore the prickles on your skin when he hugs you or the way your stomach flips when he smiles at you, dimples and sharp canines on display. You tell yourself itโs all stupid and that you can handle so much as your knees touching.
Sunghoon, on the other hand, can't. The lollipop in his mouth right now was in yours mere moments ago and youโd given it to him like sharing saliva was no big deal. He feels like a thirteen year-old for thinking like this, but this was pretty much an indirect kiss.
He stares at the TV screen, but all he can see are your perfect lips sucking that lollipop, and his mind is desperately not trying to go there, but he just cannot help himself. Blood rushes to his dick as he pictures your mouth around him, sucking him off with as much enthusiasm as you are the lollipop. Would you like his taste? Would you look up at him with those pretty eyes of yours, smiling even with his dick stuffed in your mouth?
His own thoughts catch him off guard, and before they can get any wilder, he runs off to the bathroom, knowing heโd never live it down if you caught a glimpse of his erection. Thankfully, you donโt, and you call after him, asking if he wants you to pause the movie, to which he shouts back a strangled โno.โ
He comes back ten minutes later, face flushed and breath heavy. โGoddamn, Hoon, I know weโre best friends, but if youโre going to dump a massive load, I wished you did it in your own bathroom and not mine,โ you tease him, laughing as his face gets even redder and he opens his mouth to protest.
โI was just on my phone!โ he replies, mildly offended.
โWhatever,โ you say, still laughing, and turn your attention back to the movie.
Well. Sunghoon would rather have you think he just took a huge shit than have you know he came to the idea of you sucking him off and swallowing every last drop of his cum.ย
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A few days later, you and Sunghoon are lying on his bed, the both of you on your backs, talking about this and that as you often do. Itโs almost 3 a.m., and it feels almost rebellious, being up this late after months of waking up at 6, but your high school graduation was a week ago and you feel like you can do anything. The dim fairy lights you forced him to put up and the bright moon outside are the only sources of light in the room, and when you turn to look at him, you can just make out the outline of his face, the curve of his nose, the sharpness of his jaw. You've looked at him a thousand times before, so your memory makes up for what the light takes away from your eyes. You shift to lying on your stomach, propping yourself up on your elbows so you can take a better look at your friend. Something about the moonlight makes him look ethereal, and his beauty makes your heart skip a beat, but youโd never admit that to him. Out of habit, you reach out to touch his moles, gently placing your middle finger on his nose and your pointer finger on his cheek. Sunghoon closes his eyes at your touch, used to the warm feeling that settles in his stomach whenever you do that.
โY/N?โ he calls out, just as you pull your fingers away from his moles.
โYeah?โ
He opens his eyes again, meeting yours. โIs there anything youโre scared of for next year? You know, heading off to college and all that?โ You shift again and lie on your back, the sides of your two bodies touching. You stare at the ceiling for a while, thinking about his question, and Sunghoon patiently waits for your answer.
โIโm scared about not making friends. Iโm not the least outgoing person ever, but itโs so intimidating, not knowing anyone. And itโll be weird not having you around. Shut up,โ you warn before he can make an egotistical remark, so he just chuckles. โIโm also worried about the amount of work Iโll have. Iโve heard so many times that itโs a huge step-up from high school, the workload and the type of work and all that. What if I donโt even like the degree that I chose? I know I can change it, but it still stresses me out. Turning 18 doesnโt feel like a huge deal, but going to college does. Itโs when all the responsibility hits. My mom told me to make my own doctorโs appointment the other day, and I almost cried when I had to call them. Iโm not gonna have anyone to do my groceries for me. Iโm scared I might get an awful roommate. I hate the idea of communal showers. I donโt even know what I want to do after college, and I know I have four years to make up my mind, but Iโm scared those four years are gonna flash by and Iโll be indebted and unemployed by the end of it.โ You pause to take a breath, and you can feel Sunghoonโs eyes on the sides of your face, but he doesnโt say anything. โAlso, I heard that you put on a lot of weight during your freshman year.โ
You turn to look at him to find him smiling at you. โWow. Thatโs a lot.โ
The two of you giggle, eyes not leaving the otherโs. After a moment, you turn your gaze back to the ceiling and sigh. โYeah, I know. But Iโm more excited than I am scared. What about you?โ
Sunghoon follows your gaze and looks up above him. He doesnโt say anything for a while, and when he finally speaks up, he says it so quietly, you almost donโt hear it. โIโm scared of going to college a virgin.โ
You try to stay serious for a few seconds, but you canโt keep your laughter in and snort loudly at your friendโs words, laughing so hard your stomach starts to hurt.
โDonโt make fun of me!โ he whines, hands coming up to cover his face.
It takes you a while to calm down; not only was Sunghoonโs statement ridiculous, it was so unexpected that you couldnโt stop laughing. โIโm sorry, Iโm sorry,โ you apologize, catching your breath. โI just canโt believe that thatโs what youโre scared of, of all things.โ
โWhat? Itโs a perfectly reasonable concern,โ he defends himself.
โNobodyโs gonna care if youโre a virgin, Hoon,โ you try to reason with him, but if there is one thing your best friend is, itโs stubborn.
โIโm gonna care! What if I like a girl but I canโt bring myself to make a move on her โcause I have no experience?โ
โBut Hoon, chances are she doesnโt have a lot more experience than you do! Sheโll be the same age we are, dummy. Weโre not sixteen year-olds jumping into a world of twenty year-olds. Sure, some people have their first time in high school, but a lot do it at university. Youโll be fine,โ you reassure. His furrowed eyebrows and pout tell you heโs not fully convinced, though.
โOh, cโmon! If you really want to lose your virginity before leaving, we can get you laid during the summer. Iโm sure we can find a girl nice enough,โ you tease, jokingly patting his bicep, trying not to make a note of how firm the skin feels under your hand.
Sunghoon sighs, and you can tell heโs actually taking this seriously. โIโm not that desperate that Iโd have sex with the first girl that agrees, you know. Iโd still rather do it with someoneโฆโ He glances at you for just a second. โSomeone I trust.โ
You feel your face heat up at the possible meaning behind his words, so you look away, not wanting him to see the effect they had on you. He changes his position on the bed, and now itโs his turn to prop himself up on his elbows and look down at you.
โWhat about you, Y/N? Donโt you think itโd be good to get a bit of experience before going off to college? Itโll be one less thing to stress about,โ he says, a small smirk playing on his lips, and his shy demeanor from moments prior is completely gone. Out of fear that his ego would get even bigger, you'd never tell him, but you love it when he gets like that - when he thinks heโs the shit and teases you mercilessly. You know he does it lightheartedly, and it never fails to bring a smile to your face.
Except right now it does. Youโre not smiling, far from it; youโre looking up at your best friend, mouth slightly agape and wide eyes searching for a sign that he may be just joking. He raises an eyebrow expectantly, and your reaction is to scoff at him.ย
โDo I need to remind you that youโre the reason I have no experience to begin with, Park Sunghoon?โ you ask, sitting up on the bed to peer down at him. He shifts again and lays on his back, his hands coming up behind his head as he beams at you.
โAm I really?โ
You wish you could slap that shit-eating grin off of his face. This is not the first time you're having this conversation. โYes, Hoon. Every time a guy was even remotely interested in me, you chased them away. Iโm still not over you telling Kang Taehyun I have smelly feet! I had a huge crush on that guy!โ
Sunghoon loudly laughs at the memory, and you curse yourself for cracking a smile when you see his face scrunched in laughter. โThat was in Year 5, Y/N! Itโs been years!โ
You grab a pillow and throw it at his head, unable to not laugh along with him. โWhat about Bang Yedam, then? That was only last year, and you totally ruined my chances with him!โ
โListen, if you having a creepy doll collection is enough to make him not ask you out, then he must not have liked you that much.โ
โBut I donโt have a creepy doll collection! Thatโs the whole point!โ you say, on the brink of desperation. You sigh at your friend whoโs still catching his breath from laughing so much. โYouโre just lucky they didnโt repeat your bullshit to anyone. I wouldโve had such a weird reputation otherwise.โ
โOf course they didnโt. I told them Iโd kill them if they did,โ he stated matter-of-factly, as if that was a normal and appropriate thing to do.
โCouldnโt you have threatened them that way so they wouldnโt ask me out instead of lying to them about me?โ
Sunghoon stares at you for a few seconds, eyes seemingly empty of thought. โHuh. Yeah, I guess I couldโve done that.โ
โUgh,โ you groan, and plop down on the bed next to him. Neither of you says anything for some time, until you break the silence again. โYou know you even stole my first kiss, Hoon,โ you speak softly.
โI know,โ he says, voice just as quiet as yours. โYou never shut up about it.โ
โWhy would I? I was about to kiss Lee Heeseung, of all people, the boy everybody, including me, had a crush on, but no, someone had to get between us and kiss me in his stead,โ you grumble, giving your friend a harsh side-eye.
Sunghoon sighs and shakes his head as if youโre being irrational. โI donโt get why youโre so hung-up on that. Why would you want your first kiss to be because of a middle-school party dare rather than have it with your best friend, whom you know and trust?โ
โIt was Lee Heeseung, for Godโs sake!โ
โAnd Iโm Park Sunghoon!โ
Still both laying on your backs, you turn your heads to look at each other. Thereโs something in his eyes youโve never seen before that you canโt quite put your finger on. The person in front of you is one youโve known for years now and yet the look in his eyes is of such unfamiliar intensity that it makes your stomach flip. You inhale sharply when his eyes drift down to your lips, and you canโt help but mirror his actions. The atmosphere has flipped like a light switch; it was playful just mere seconds ago, the sound of your usual banter filling up the room. All of a sudden, thereโs something heavy dancing in the air around you, and it makes your heart skip a bit faster and your breath a bit shallower.
Your voice is barely above a whisper when you say his name.
โYeah?โ His eyes snap back up to yours, but you're still stuck on his lips. Have they always looked so kissable?
โWhy did you do that? Why did you push those boys away from me?โ you ask, even though youโve asked this question a thousand times before. You want to hear his answer again.
โIโve already told you. You deserved better than them.โ Whenever you ask him about it, Sunghoon always stops here, and you never push. But there are unspoken words left hanging that youโre dying to hear.
โWho, then? Whoโd be better than them?โ
He's quiet for a second. โItโs a secret,โ he whispers finally, a small smirk teasing his lips, and you roll your eyes at him. But then your eyes meet again and your breath hitches. You shift to your side so you can face him more fully, and he mirrors your actions.ย
Itโs his turn to say your name. โY/N?โ
โYeah?โ
โHave you kissed anyone since?โ he asks, coming off shyer than heโd intended to.
You giggle and smack his shoulder lightly. โWhy do you wanna know?โ
He snickers too and, to your surprise, stops your fist from hitting him a second time, enveloping his larger hand around yours and laying it between the two of you on the bed. โCause I should know that sorta thing. Also, if you did kiss someone since then, and I didnโt know about it, I'd be upset.โ
โWhy would you be mad?โ you say, still giggling, trying to ignore the way your heartbeat quickens when he threads your fingers with his.
โBecause you wouldnโt have told me!โ
โWellโฆโ
โNo way, Y/N,โ he practically shouts, already feeling betrayed, his free hand coming up to grip his heart in fake shock.
โLet me at least finish first,โ you protest. He obliges, although he doesn't look very happy about it. โYou know that summer 2 years ago I went away to camp?โ
โYeah, worst summer ever.โ
โWell, I did sort ofโฆ get with someone, that summer,โ you say, avoiding Sunghoonโs wide eyes as he gasps loudly.
โWhat? Who with? How come you didn't tell me?โ he exclaims, letting go of your hand. He sits up on the bed and crosses his arms over his chest like an annoyed child.ย
โBecause of this exactly.โ
โWhatโs this?โ
โYour reaction right now!โ you say, sitting up as well, both of your knees grazing his. The simple touch sends a shiver down your spine that you can only hope he takes no notice of.
โWouldnโt you be a bit upset if I told you I โgot withโ,โ he air-quotes, โa random girl two years ago?โ
โNo? Especially not if it was two years ago?โ
You both look just as confused as the other, obviously not on the same wavelength. He furrows his eyebrows and glares at you. โWell, I am.โ
You throw your head back in laughter and place your hands on his knees, but when you come forward again, you overestimate the distance between the both of you and find yourself mere inches from his face. The laughter immediately dies in your throat, and you feel it go dry when your stunned reaction elicits a smirk from him. You donโt know how long you stare into his eyes, all you know is you snap out of it when his gaze drifts down to your lips once more. Youโre closer now than you were before, and having him so close makes your mind spin with all the possible outcomes of such proximity. You lean back on the bed, pulling away your hands from his knees to hold yourself up on them.
โThereโs no reason to,โ you say, hoping that breaking the silence will dissipate some of the tension in the air. You keep going back and forth between familiar and dangerous and you donโt know how long youโll be able to handle that atmosphere. โItโs not like anything grand happened. We made out a bit and held hands. We never spoke after that summer, otherwise youโd have known about it.โย
Sunghoon lets out a low hum. His eyes are still trained on yours, and you wished heโd look away because you canโt seem to do it yourself. He still doesnโt say anything, so you speak up again. โYou say that like youโve never had girlfriends, by the way. Surely youโve done more than just kissing.โ Silence again, and you canโt decipher the look heโs giving you. โSo, I donโt know what youโre so scared about, because itโs not like you have zero experience. Iโm sure the girls at uni will love you, Hoon.โ
He sighs and finally tears his eyes away from yours, and youโre not sure if youโre seeing things because of how dark and late it is or if thereโs an actual blush creeping on his cheeks. โSure, Iโve had a couple girlfriends, but you know theyโve never lasted long,โ he says, looking down at his lap. โWe made outโฆ I guess I-โ he gives you a quick glance, โIโve touched their boobs and theyโve touched myโฆ you knowโฆโ
You canโt help but giggle at how shy your friend is suddenly being. โCanโt even say the word โpenisโ, Hoon?,โ you tease, and his eyes snap back up at yours.
โOf course I can. Penis! There.โ You look at each other for a few seconds before bursting into laughter, Sunghoon hushing you so you donโt wake up his parents, but his hushes are louder than your laugh. After a couple minutes, you calm down and wipe your tears away, grateful for the break in the tension between you and Sunghoon.
โAnyway, yeah, I guess I donโt have that much experience. Which is why I brought it up in the first place.โ And just as quickly as itโd left, the tension is back again.
You look around the room because the weight of Sunghoonโs gaze on your face is unbearable. You release a shaky breath when you feel his gentle hand on your knee, and your eyes drift to it, but you canโt get yourself to look him straight in the eyes.ย
โDonโt you think itโd be good to get experience before leaving for college, Y/N?โ he asks, and you can tell heโs trying to sound confident, but his voice comes out breathier and shakier than he must intend it to.
โI donโt knowโฆ I donโt think itโs necessary,โ you say, eyes still trained on his hand resting on your knee. He squeezes it a bit, making you finally look up at him. Is it just you, or did the room get hotter all of a sudden?
โNot everything you do has to be out of necessity, you know.โ
The both of you stare at each other for a few moments. This shift in your relationship was bound to happen; youโd been feeling it more and more recently. You didnโt use to think twice about Sunghoon taking your hand in his, nor did you feel those stupid butterflies eating away at your stomach every time his gaze lingered for a second too long. Youโd tried to reason with yourself that it was just teenage hormones doing their stupid job, and that you were doomed to feel some kind of attraction for your extremely handsome best friend at some point in your life, but that if you ignored it hard and long enough it would go away.
Well, now that Sunghoonโs lips are barely inches away from yours and your skin is on fire under his hand, it definitely isnโt going away.
โWhat would you do if I kissed you?โ Sunghoon asks, eyes fluttering down to your lips. You think heโs looked at your lips more than the rest of your face in the past hour.
โIโd slap you,โ you lie, gaze mirroring his.
โWould you really?โ he says, and your hesitation makes him smirk slightly.
โNo,โ you breathe out, and itโs the answer heโs been waiting for, the answer he needs to finally press his soft lips against yours.ย
You donโt even have the time to savor the moment, though, because the warmth of his lips is gone as quickly as it came. He pulls back, a surprised look in his eyes, as if he canโt believe what he just did. The tension above you breaks and rains down on you like small pieces of confetti that settle comfortably on your head and shoulders. Thereโs a knot in your stomach but instead of twisting your insides in nervousness, it feels warm and makes you giddy for whatโs to come next. Sunghoonโs surprised expression transforms into a grin at the sound of your laughter, and he canโt help but chuckle along with you.
You scooch closer to him, and his other hand comes to rest on your second knee. You can tell heโs not going to do much more, so you lean in bit by bit, and peck him softly on the lips. You both giggle again and you blame the fact that you want to feel his lips on yours again on the late hour of the night. You peck his lips once, twice more, giggling inbetween, but when you peck them a third time, he doesnโt let you pull away and keeps his lips on yours. The sudden added strength takes you aback, but it doesnโt take you long to yield to his touch and kiss him back.ย
Sunghoon moves his lips slowly against yours and itโs surprisingly easy to fall into his rhythm. You donโt have the most experience with kissing, but something about doing it with your best friend reassures you and your whole body relaxes as you focus on the feeling of his lips moving in cadence with yours. The knot in your stomach stays there and tightens when his hands ride up your thighs and settle on your hips, holding you snugly there. Youโre only wearing shorts and his palms against your bare skin make you release a shaky breath in Sunghoonโs mouth. You pull back for a bit, surprised at your own reaction, but nothing has prepared you for the way your best friend looks at you.
His pupils are dilated, dark; his glossed-over eyes bore right into yours. Your breath was already shallow from the kiss, but itโs his gaze that renders you completely breathless. Sunghoon tightens his grip on your hips and leans in for more, but you put a hand on his chest to stop him, making his eyes snap back into focus.
โOh my God, Iโm so sorry, Y/N. I donโt know what took over me. Are you okay?โ he asks, as short of breath as you are, but worry laced in his voice.
โNo- Yes- I mean, yes, Iโm fine, everythingโs fine, I just-โ you shake your head, trying to gather your thoughts. โIโm justโฆโ
โTell me. You can tell me,โ he says, rubbing gentle circles into your hips with his thumb, and the unfamiliar yet intimate gesture makes it even harder to concentrate.ย
โWe- weโre best friends, right?โ you ask, voice trembling, You ask, even though you know the answer, just because youโre afraid the line the two of you have just crossed is already miles behind you, and you wonโt be able to retrace your steps.
โYeah, of course we are,โ Sunghoon reassures, head tilting to the side in confusion.ย
โAnd best friendsโฆ Do theyโฆ Well, itโs normal for best friends to kiss, right?โ you say, trying to calm the overpowering urge to kiss him again.
Sunghoon chuckles and tucks a loose strand of hair behind your ear. โI donโt know about that, Y/N.โ
โOh,โ you breathe.
Sunghoon quickly catches on to your hesitation. โBut who cares about what best friends usually do and donโt do?โ he says, holding your face between his hands to make you look up at him. โI liked kissing you, just now. I really, really liked it,โ he admits, red dusting his cheeks. โDid you?โ
You nod, too shy to put just how much you enjoyed kissing Sunghoon into words. โDo you want to do it again?โ he asks and chuckles when you nod again, eyes already on his lips. This time, you donโt stop him when he leans in and let him press his lips to yours again. His words have reassured you and you sigh into his mouth, making him smile into the kiss.ย
His hands ride up a bit and settle on your waist, bringing you a bit closer to him, and you circle your arms around his neck. The shyness of the first kiss is completely gone, and youโre both gaining more and more confidence, letting everything go and focusing solely on where your bodies meet. He tilts his head, deepening the kiss, and you push your body onto his, a sudden need to feel him against you, to feel his strong arms encaging you.ย
You pull away at the same time to catch your breaths, smiling at each other when you see how lustful the otherโs expression is. Sunghoonโs eyes have glossed over once more, and youโre sure yours have too. โCโmere,โ he whispers, beckoning you to him. You climb onto his lap, one knee on each side of his hips. โIs this okay?โ he asks, but you donโt answer, you just lean in and kiss him again, holding his face in your hand as his hands roam your back over the thin fabric of your t-shirt. Your kisses are curious, the both of you trying to figure out what feels best as you tilt your heads from one side to the other and let your inquisitive hands travel each otherโs bodies. Yours find purchase in his hair, and you revel in the sighs that escape his lips whenever you pull and tug at the strands.ย
As the kiss gets hungrier and needier, his hands fall down to your lower back, and then to your ass. He just cups it for a while, but after a few moments, grabs it harder and brings you close to him, making your core rub againstย the hardness that had been building in his sweatpants for a while now. The friction is unexpected and you canโt help the loud moan leaving your lips at the feeling. Itโs a feeling you know from your own hand in the privacy of your dark room, but Sunghoon making you feel that way is so foreign that it snaps you out of the daze youโre in.ย
โIโm sorry, Iโm sorry, was that too much?โ Sunghoon scrambles for words, but youโre already pulling away, and he doesnโt know what to do to keep you close.
You sit back on the bed, holding your knees close to your chest. You look at your best friend in front of you whoโs looking at you with a worried expression. Something in you craves to reach a hand out to him, to feel his cheeks and jawline under your palms again, to find out if heโd shiver at your touch and if goosebumps would form on his skin. Heโs been your best friend for eight years, and youโve always thought you knew everything about him, the same way heโs supposed to know everything about you. But you realize in this moment that there are things you donโt yet know, melodies to be discovered, treasures to be unearthed. Your fingertips are burning to find them all.ย
The sound of your name resonates inside your mind and it takes you everything not to fall back on him again. You furrow your eyebrows, confused by all those things youโre feeling. What was it that just took over you, that lit your insides up so?
You straighten your back suddenly and take in your surroundings. Sunghoonโs room is still the same old room youโve always known, the same blue walls, the same posters he only ever changes when he finds a new interest and lets go of an old one. The same pictures from when you were 10, 12, 15, recent ones now that youโre 18; the same figure skating trophies and medals on his shelves. You turn to look at your best friend. The same soft, round cheeks contrasted by a sharp jaw; the same almond eyes, round with worry at your sudden movement away from him; the same two moles youโve always found so comforting, for some reason. You almost reach out to touch them, to give you some sense of balance, to reassure you that things arenโt changing as much as it feels like they are. But youโre scared electricity might fry your fingers if you touch him right now. Youโre scared you wonโt be able to take your fingers off of him, no matter how much it stings. His face is the same as always before, but thereโs something else to it, something you could probably figure out if you spent more than three seconds thinking about it, but youโre not sure you want to figure it out.
โIs everything okay? Did- Did I do something wrong?โ he asks, voice laced with concern.ย
Before he can put a reassuring hand on your knee, you get off of the bed, and hurriedly say, โNo. I just- I think I should go home.โ You look everywhere but at him.
He sits up at your words, concern turned into confusion. โItโs 3 a.m., Y/N, why do you want to go home all of a sudden? Youโve stayed over plenty of times before.โ
โI know, I justโฆโ you trail off, trying to come up with an excuse. โIโve got cramps. I think my periodโs coming,โ you lie. Itโs better than whatever truth is threatening to bubble up.
โOh. Right.โ He scooches a bit, sitting on the edge of his bed. โIs there anything- like- can I do anything?โ He sighs, steadies himself. โYou donโt have to go, is what Iโm trying to say.โ
A few months ago, when you had finally wrapped your head around the fact that your best friend was an attractive man and that he made you feel things friends werenโt supposed to make you feel, youโd told yourself it was all just a phase that would pass soon. But feelings this strong surely cannot go away that easily.
You take a deep breath in and tear your eyes away from him. โI think I should go home,โ you repeat. โIโll see you tomorrow, Hoon.โ
You turn around and start walking away, but Sunghoon is quick on his feet and stops you from going out the door. โDo you actually have cramps? Or are you just scared that our friendship might change?โ He sounds out of breath, like asking this question is taking him all of his energy.
You avert his gaze and try to push past him, but heโs much stronger than you. Puberty sure played its trick on him. You sigh and look down at your feet. โIโm tired, Hoon, letโs talk about it tomorrow.โ
But if there is one thing your best friend is, itโs stubborn. โI donโt wanna talk about it tomorrow. I wanna talk about it now. Did it feel nice?โ he asks, and his resolute tone of voice makes you look up at him.
โI- I mean-โ
โY/N,โ he starts, wrapping his arms around you and leaning in a bit, his familiar scent filling your nostrils. You have to close your eyes. โAnswer me. Did it feel good?โ
โYes,โ you answer without thinking.ย
โIs that why youโre scared?โ
โYes.โ Your eyes flutter open when you feel his fingers graze your cheek. He leans in again and traps your kiss in a much softer and intimate kiss that makes your head spin and your thoughts cloud. Before you can get carried away, you pull away again, and ignore how beautiful he looks when his eyes stay closed for a couple of seconds longer. He only opens them once you tell him once again you should go home, that you need some time to think.
โLet me at least walk you there. Itโs dark,โ he pleads, his grip on your waist still tight.
โHoon, I live right next door, Iโll be fine.โ You let him kiss you once more and he makes you promise to call or text him tomorrow.
When you leave, Sunghoon plops back down on his bed, arm resting on his forehead as he plays back the events of the night. Had he done something wrong? Something that made you want to get as far away from him as quickly as possible? Heโd tried to be gentle and to make sure you were okay with everything, but he couldnโt help but get carried away when he heard those sweet sighs of yours. He thought he was going to combust when he heard you moan, and he wanted to hear it over and over again, but youโd jumped from him like heโd told you he had killed someone.
He hopes you were telling the truth when you said you were just scared about your friendship changing. He hadnโt wanted to push and get you to stay; he knew it was weird, seeing each other in a different light all at once. He wasnโt completely oblivious; heโd felt that same shift in your relationship those past few months, just like you had, although youโd never spoken about it to each other. He knew he could never go back to seeing you as just a friend when heโd jerked off one day and you were all he could think of. He kept imagining the sounds youโd make and the way your hands would feel on him, and heโd gotten so close to getting that today, but he mustโve fucked something up and now his chances were ruined. He curses himself for letting you slip through his fingers just when he thought he finally had you.
You donโt get a wink of sleep that night. Your mind is reeling with everything that happened in Sunghoonโs room. Your fingers unconsciously keep coming up to touch your lips and feel the ghost of his touch there. Your skin turns hot at the simple thought of how perfect his lips had felt against yours, and you toss and turn in your bed as you consider what mightโve been, had you stayed with Sunghoon.ย
But itโs all happening too quickly, and even though youโve been curious in more ways than one about your best friend for the past few months, you hadnโt expected to kiss him and to enjoy it so much on a random summer night. Your thoughts only seem to calm down and your eyes finally close just as the sun starts to rise.
--
The next day, Sunghoon wakes up in the early hours of the afternoon and checks his phone right away. A couple of notifications, but nothing from you. A text from Jake in their group chat with Jay asking to hang out at Sunghoonโs pool, to which he replies that they can come whenever. He taps a quick one out in the shower, memories of your scent and your lips on his getting him to finish quicker than heโd like to admit. Heโs in the middle of a late breakfast when Jake and Jay spawn at his door, swimming trunks already on. Still nothing from you.
It doesnโt take Jay and Jake long to figure out that something is up with their best friend. Itโs not like he does much usually, but today especially, he makes no effort to entertain them. He laughs at their jokes, but it feels like he laughs because he hears other people laughing rather than because he genuinely finds them funny. He barely even reacts when the inflatable pool ball hits him right in the face.
His friends donโt say anything until theyโre all seated at a table by the pool, sipping on some ice-cold Coke. The air is still warm but the sun is low in the sky, hidden behind the house. Sunghoon is still lost in his thoughts, unblinking eyes fixed on a random point in the distance. Jay and Jake exchange a look before the former breaks the silence.
โIs everything alright, Hoon? You look out of it today.โ
Jayโs voice brings him back to the here and now, and his eyes jump back and forth between his two friends who are looking at him expectantly. โHuh? Yeah, yeah, Iโm fine. Just tired. I didnโt get a lot of sleep last night,โ he says, leaving some of the truth out, but his friends know him better than he gives them credit for.
โAre you sure? I feel like thereโs something youโre not telling us. You usually act like a little bitch when youโre tired, you donโt get allโฆ,โ Jake shakes his hand in front of his face, โdistant like that.โ
Sunghoon bites his lip, debating whether he should tell his friends about you or not. No matter how stupid they may be, they also know both of you quite well, so they might prove not completely useless, he thinks.
โY/N and I kissed last night.โ
Itโs almost comical, how Jay and Jake bring their head forward in astonishment, how wide their mouth gets, how their eyes look like they might pop out of their sockets, and how they say โYou what?!โ at the same time. On a normal day, Sunghoon would've laughed.
โWe kissed,โ Sunghoon repeats, eyes drifting down to the ground in front of him as he rubs his neck in embarrassment.
โFucking finally!โ Jay exclaims.
โTold you it was gonna happen. No way you two were going to stay just besties forever,โ Jake teases, punching Sunghoon in the arm. โHow was it?โ
Sunghoon sighs and leans back in his chair, letting his head hang back. โReally fucking amazing,โ he chuckles. His friends holler for him, snickering like 12-year old boys who just saw a hot girl walk past.ย
โGod, I saw this coming from miles away. I donโt know why you kept on insisting nothing was gonna happen between you two,โ Jake says, beaming.
โI really didnโt think anything wouldโฆ I justโฆ Started seeing her differently recently, I guess.โ Sunghoon shrugs, sheepishly smiling to himself.
โSo, what happened? Did you guys just kiss orโฆ?โ Jay asks, raising his eyebrows suggestively. Jake giggles at the insinuation of sex but has a curious glint in his eyes when he waits for Sunghoonโs answer.
โYeah, um, we just kissed cause she- she sort of ran away?โ Sunghoon admits, wincing at the recollection.
โYou what?!โ Chaeyongโs voice rings out in the food court of the mall where youโre currently sitting, halfway through your strawberry milkshake.
โKeep it down, would you?!โ you scold her, smiling apologetically to the people staring at you and your friend.
โIf it was so good, why the hell did you run away, Y/N?โ
โI just- I donโt knowโฆ Freaked out, I guessโฆโ you mumble, cowering under the harsh look she gives you.
โWell, have you talked since?โ You donโt reply, just guiltily avoid her gaze. โY/N!โ
โI know, I know! I justโฆ donโt know what to do. โHey, nice making out with you last night, bit weird since weโve been best friends since we were 11, but thatโs fine, right?โ Ugh! Thatโs so stupid,โ you complain, flopping back in your chair.
โThatโs exactly what you should say. Going MIA on him will just make things weirder. Plus youโve never gone more than 24 hours without speaking so one of you will eventually cave in. It should be you,โ she says, looking at you with a raised eyebrow as she takes a sip from her milkshake.ย
You scoff when she gives you a โyou know Iโm rightโ look. โIโll think about it on the way home and text him. There.โ
And you do think about it on the way home; but you donโt get the opportunity to send the text, because as soon as you get off the bus at the stop right across from your house, you see Sunghoon sitting on the bench of your porch, looking around nervously and rubbing his hands on his denim shorts. You chuckle to yourself; who knew he got so distressed from not speaking to you for a day?
He stands up when he sees you approaching and raises his hand in a quick wave. โHi, Hoon,โ you greet, and you can feel his whole body relax when you hug him. So, you donโt hate him, he thinks. You sit down on the bench together. โSorry I didnโt text you. I didnโt know what to say afterโฆ last night,โ you admit, hugging your knees to your chest as you sit facing him.
โYeah, I figured,โ he chuckles, smiling shyly at you. โI was scared youโd never want to see me again.โ
You look at him with wide eyes, mildly offended, and punch his arm. โHow could you think that?!โ
โWell, you did sort of run away from me last night,โ he says, lightly punching your arm in return.
You tut in defeat. โI did, didnโt I?โย
โYeah. Iโm just glad you didnโt walk past me straight into your house just now.โ
You chuckle and rest your head on top of your knees. โThat wouldโve been a bit much, even for me.โ
Sunghoon lets out a puff of air through his nose in response, and then the two of you sit in silence. Youโre contemplating what to do next when your friend pulls you from your thoughts. โShould we, umโฆโ He shuts his eyes tightly in reflection for a second before opening them again and looking straight at you. โShould we just pretend like last night didnโt happen? Would that make you feel more comfortable?โ
His words take you aback and your eyes widen a bit; you hadnโt even thought pretending nothing happened last night was an option, because you didnโt think youโd ever be able to actually get it out of your head. Even now, if you stare at Sunghoon for too long, your gaze will naturally drift downwards or youโll get a flashback of his large hands around your waist. But apparently, if he can offer to pretend like the previous night wasnโt a thing, then it must not have been such a huge deal to him. You quickly try to hide your disappointment and nod at your friend. โRight. Yeah. Sure.โ
Silence makes its way between you two again. It makes the late afternoon breeze a bit chillier and the physical distance between you and Sunghoon feel much bigger than it actually is. Wanting it to go away quickly, you ask, โDo you wanna watch a movie, then?โ
Sunghoonโs never looked so relieved about watching a movie, and he immediately accepts your offer. You get some popcorn ready while he searches for a movie to watch. He clicks on a horror movie that looks like itโs got a clichรฉ storyline and awful acting, but youโre happy for any sort of distraction when Sunghoon is sitting so close to you.
You and Sunghoon always sit close-by when you watch something together, knees and shoulders brushing against each other. Tonight isnโt any different, except that your skin burns everywhere it touches his. You can smell the faint scent of chlorine in his hair, and itโs so intoxicating you want to bury your face there and breathe it in.
Youโre thirty minutes into the movie and still nothingโs happened when Sunghoon puts his arm around you, letting his hand hang over your shoulder. The sudden warm contact makes you take a sharp intake of breath as memories of the previous night come flooding once again. You donโt know what you were expecting, but Sunghoon simply rests his hand there and doesnโt do anything more for another thirty minutes, except for squeezing your shoulder when thereโs a small jumpscare, making you chuckle at him. This isnโt much more than what youโre used to with him, but knowing your friend, he must be thinking the ball is in your court. So you scooch a bit closer into his side and rest your head on his shoulder, the scent of his skin even stronger now that your nose is so close to his neck. You feel his chest raise and relax as he sighs deeply and tightens his hold around your shoulders. His small reactions to you spur you on and you decide to wrap an arm around his waist and you feel him flinch oh-so-slightly at your touch in such a sensitive spot. He starts to rub circles into your shoulder and rests his head on top of yours, and your whole body relaxes into his. This is so much more than what youโre used to with him; and yet, you so readily melt under his touch.
You can barely focus on the movie because of how close Sunghoon is. When a particularly scary ghost jumps on the screen, you flinch and hide your face in his neck, and he giggles at your reaction, hand coming up to stroke your hair comfortingly. It only takes you a few seconds to realize what position youโre in, and you release a shaky breath as you slowly lift your head towards Sunghoon, only to find him already looking at you, seemingly having had that same realization. When his eyes drift down to your lips, you know youโre done for.
You call out his name, and heโs already answered โYes?โ before youโve had time to finish uttering the second syllable. โI donโt think I want to pretend last night never happened,โ you admit, holding his waist a bit tighter.
โGood. Me neither,โ he breathes out before leaning down and trapping your lips in his, the kiss releasing all your pent-up frustration of the day. The world seems to melt away with his lips on yours, the movie already long forgotten. Sunghoon pulls you into his lap and you slide your palms up from his waist, against his chest and to his shoulders before wrapping your arms around his neck, bringing your body closer to his. His hands are sitting on your hips, fingers lightly pressing into them and your lower back. Now that you both seem to know what you want, itโs so easy, just falling into this kiss.
His tongue darts out to lick your bottom lip and you gladly open your mouth for him, letting his tongue explore it. You havenโt kissed someone like this in ages, maybe ever, but Sunghoon takes the lead and effortlessly gets you to follow his rhythm. When a flick of his tongue against yours feels particularly nice, you arch your back and press your chest into his, making him smirk into the kiss. This time, when he brings your hips down onto his, letting you feel his erection against your clothed core, the feeling doesnโt make you want to run away; instead, you want to feel it again and again.
You fall into a nice pace of rubbing yourself against him, eliciting hushed moans and loud breaths from the both of you. You canโt concentrate on kissing him and grinding down on him at the same time, so you drop your head down to bury your face in his neck, leaving a few pecks there but mostly moaning against his skin, enjoying how your hot breaths make him shiver.
You canโt keep a whine from escaping your lips when he bucks his hip into yours and his tip brushes directly against your covered clit, instantly bringing a hand up to your mouth. โFuck, Y/N,โ he breathes. โI know we gotta keep quiet โcause of your parents but the sounds youโre making are so fucking pretty. I wanna hear them over and over again.โ His words make you whimper against his neck and you feel your slick starting to pool in your panties.
โH-hoon. This feels so good,โ you moan, breathing warmly against the shell of his ear.
โI know, right? Feels so good,โ he chuckles, hands grabbing at your ass to bring you harder down onto him. His actions are about to elicit another moan from you when, all of a sudden, a loud jumpscare in the movie makes you jump away from the boy underneath you and yelp in fear, which in turn makes him scream in surprise. You look at each other, panting and eyes open wide, hands clutching at your hearts, until you burst into laughter. The fun moment is short-lived, however, as your mom rushes down the stairs not ten seconds later, frantically asking if everything is alright.ย
You sit up straight at the sight of your mother and clear your throat. Youโre thankful for the dark of the room which hides your and Sunghoonโs swollen lips and flushed faces from her view. โSorry, mom, we were just watching a scary movie. Weโre fine.โ She sleepily nods and walks back up the stairs, and when sheโs back in her room, Sunghoon and you exchange a look and erupt into another fit of smaller, quieter giggles.ย
That night, after Sunghoonโs gone home, the both of you get yourselves off in your own beds, the strong memory of each otherโs lips and hands bringing you both to your releases. Without even realizing it, you moan out Sunghoonโs name as your orgasm hits. The window from your room doesnโt face his; but still, your heart is beating so loudly that youโre afraid the sound might carry from your open window to his. You get up and close it.
--
Now that you and Sunghoon both know you want to kiss each other, you do it everywhere: in his pool, his back pressed against the wall; on the sunchairs when you were supposed to be drying off; on your beds in the middle of the night, none of your parents or siblings suspicious of anything; in front of your house, because even though he was supposed to just walk you home, he couldnโt keep himself from tasting you one last time; in the backseat of his car after an evening with your friends and he drove you two home.
You spend a good two weeks of just kissing before your body starts to crave something more. At some point, Sunghoonโs hands resting nicely on your waist or sometimes, if heโs feeling bold, grabbing at your ass, start to not be enough anymore. You knew you wouldnโt be satisfied with just kisses and sweet touches when one day, his hands slowly but surely slid up your naked belly before grabbing onto your bikini-clad breast, lighting your whole body up on fire. Heโd slipped his hand underneath your swimming top and rolled your nipple between two fingers and you had felt his dick twitch under your core when you let out a loud moan at the new yet so pleasurable feeling.
You know what it is that you want, but it makes you feel dirty. Your fingers have made you finish a hundred times before, but wanting Sunghoon to make you feel that way is a whole other story. Is that even what he wants? Would he be weirded out if you asked him about it? Is there even the sliver of a chance that maybe, just maybe, he has those same thoughts about you, and wants you to make him feel good as much as he wants to make you feel good?
If his grunts and the way he ruts into you when your make-out sessions get particularly steamy are any indication, then the answer to those questions would respectively be yes, no, and yes.ย
Youโre lying on a sunbed one afternoon, letting the sun dry off your wet skin from the pool, when you finally muster the courage to tell Sunghoon about your wishes. After all, he is your best friend, and you know you can talk to him about anything. Even when that โanythingโ involves his fingers inside of you and his dick in your mouth.
โSunghoon?โ you call out, turning your head to look at your best friend. Heโs bathing in the sunlight without a care in the world. His skin has tanned a bit since summer started three weeks ago and his muscles are even more defined after all that swimming and working out heโs been doing. You want to reach out a hand, to feel the taut skin of his abs and chest under your palms, and to maybe then slide your hand down until you feel his hard-on underneath his swimming trunks. Your chairs arenโt far apart and you could do it from where you are, but youโd rather ask him first.
โYeah?โ he answers without turning towards you.
You take a deep breath in before you start talking again. โYou know how you said it could be good for us to getโฆ experience before going to collegeโฆ And how weโve been kissing these past couple weeksโฆโ
โYeah, I know,โ he chuckles.
โWellโฆ people do more than just kissing, right?โ you ask, voice slightly shaky. This seems to pique his interest as he turns to look at you.
โYeah?โย
You hope youโre not just imagining the enthusiastic tone in his voice. โI thinkโฆ I think we should try that too, donโt you think?โ you ask, eyes not leaving his as he sits up on his chair and turns his knees towards you, fully facing you now.
โYeah, I agree. I completely agree.โ He stares at you for a few moments as if in disbelief. โDo you want to- Should we- Letโs go up to my room, yeah?โ he offers, standing up and reaching his hand out to you. You gladly take it.
You and Sunghoon are a giggling mess as you practically run up the stairs, unable to get to his room quick enough. As soon as the door is closed behind you, you wrap your arms around each other, your lips finding his immediately as he walks you back to his bed. When you feel the back of your knees hit it, you detach yourself from him and lay on it, elbows holding you up as you look up at him expectantly.
โFuck,โ he whispers, leaning in to hover over you. He traps your lips in a short but sweet kiss before pulling back and murmuring against your lips, โHave I ever told you how pretty you are, Y/N?โ
You beam at his words but decide to tease anyway. โYou always go on and on about how pretty you are, but never about me.โ
He giggles and pecks your lips again. โWell, Iโm telling you now. Youโre gorgeous.โ You kiss him to hide your flustered face, pulling him so close to you heโs practically laying on top of you. Your hands are a bit more curious than usual, your kisses hungrier, the both of you anticipating whatโs to come.ย
You grind against each other, the feeling of his erection against your barely covered core enough to send your mind into a frenzy. You forget everything around you when you feel Sunghoon pull back in the slightest, far enough so that he can look at your face and gauge your reactions but not too much that you still feel his hot breath on your lips. One of his hands is holding the back of your head as the other travels downwards, stopping for a second on your breast to massage it lightly before continuing its journey. It ever-so-slightly brushes against your core, making you buck your hips up into his touch, but his hand is already gone leaving you whining and pouting and him chuckling at your cute reaction. โYou want it that bad, huh?โ he teases.
You scoff, not wanting to let your friend know the effect he has on you. You press your palm against his clothed erection and he hisses at the unexpected contact. โSo do you, Hoon.โ
When he presses his lips to yours again, you both smile into the kiss. You cup his jaw and tangle your fingers through his hair, and his hand slips from under your head and joins his other hand on your thigh, grabbing at both of them, fingers slightly digging in your skin. Heโs so, so close to where you want him most, and he seems to have noticed your growing impatience by the way you squirm underneath him. Seeing you so needy for him only makes him needier for you; he has more experience than you, so you probably expect him to take the lead, but the truth is, he has no idea what the fuck heโs doing.
โY/N?โ he murmurs, face buried in your neck as he leaves a trail of wet kisses there.
โYeah?โ
โWhat do you want me to do?โ
The question takes you a bit by surprise. You pull away to look at your friend. His eyes are completely glossed-over, and yours are probably the same. โOh. I donโt know. I justโฆ want you to touch me, I guess,โ you say, voice a bit quiet.
โI donโt know how to do that,โ he admits sheepishly. He kisses your neck and cheeks before pecking your lips. โCould you- could you show me? How you do it? And I can show you how I do it?โ
You take a second to take his words in. Was he suggesting that you touch yourself in front of him, and that he do the same?
This was like a dream come true.
โYeah, sure.โ
Sunghoon giggles in response, and you canโt help but crack a smile too, even though the idea of getting yourself off in front of your friend, no matter how appealing, is still a bit nerve-wracking. โYou first,โ he says, a mischievous glint in his eyes, and you roll your eyes at him.
You sit back against the headboard of the bed and slip a hand underneath your swim bottom, the other hand coming up to cover your eyes in an attempt to escape Sunghoonโs heavy, lustful gaze. โNone of that. I wanna see you,โ he says, pulling your hand away from your eyes and resting it on a pillow next to you. โAnd if you keep these on, I wonโt be able to see anything,โ he says, looking down at your bikini top.
Before you can protest, he comes to sit on his knees in front of you, kissing your neck and letting his hands roam your back. โI wanna see all of you.โ Itโs so easy, untying your string bikini, he almost thinks you wore it on purpose for him to take it off. You avoid his gaze as he takes your top off of you, leaving you half-naked in front of him. โSo pretty,โ he whispers, and you canโt help but look at him, slick pooling between your legs from the fascination heโs looking at your breasts with. He trails kisses down your neck until he reaches them, taking a nipple in his mouth and swirling his tongue around it, then looks up to see your reaction. You never knew your nipples were this sensitive, and you canโt help but arch your back at his touch and moan loudly, hand flying up to tug at his soft hair. He releases your nipple with a pop and moves sideways to pay the same attention to the other one, but Sunghoon is impatient and doesnโt waste too much time on it; he knows he can come back to your boobs later anyway. Right now, youโve got a hand between your legs, and thatโs what heโs dying to see.
โCan I take this off, too?โ he asks, looking up at you as his fingers hook on the sides of your swimming bottoms, waiting for you to nod. His eyes donโt leave your glistening core as he pulls the thin fabric down your legs, discarding it somewhere on the floor of his room. He lays on his belly and kisses the inside of your knee as he holds your thighs in his large hands, still transfixed by your pussy when he says, โShow me how you do it, please.โ
You both take a sharp breath in when you start moving two fingers in gentle circles over your clit, already wet from making out with Sunghoon. Your fingers are nimble and know exactly what to do after years of doing this, but the pulse in your core is even stronger now that your best friend is watching your movements this intently. He looks like heโs scared to blink in case he might miss something. You canโt take your eyes off of his face; youโve never seen him so fascinated by something, so eager to learn. It makes you want to put on a show for him.
A surge of confidence hits you out of nowhere as you slide your digits down your folds, gathering some slick before sliding them back up to your clit and rubbing it a bit faster, a bit harder, your moans growing louder and higher in pitch. With your free hand, you tug at the base of Sunghoonโs hair and make him look up at you. You release his hair and bring your pointer finger up to your mouth, sucking on it and swirling your tongue around it, and Sunghoonโs mind is taken back to that day a couple weeks ago when you had sucked on those lollipops. Oh, how things have changed since then. Not that heโs complaining. โFuck, thatโs hot,โ he breathes out, eyes zeroed in on your lips and mouth slightly agape.
You smirk at his reaction, stomach on fire with the feeling of having this kind of power on him. When youโve wet your finger enough, you bring it down to your slit, circling around your hole before entering it, releasing a loud moan for good measure. Sunghoon is mesmerized by the quickening with which your finger slips in and out of you, the fingers on your clit never relenting. He doesnโt even realize heโs released one of your thighs to palm himself over his shorts until you notice it yourself and tut in disapproval.
โCome and help me, Hoon,โ you say, and the boy snaps out of his daze at the sound of his nickname. He nods slowly, changing his position so that heโs laying between your legs, head dangerously close to your core. You slip your other finger out of your hole and he takes that as a sign to replace it with his own. One hand still gripping your thigh, he imitates your previous actions as he gets his pointer finger wet with his saliva before pressing it between your folds, right underneath your clit where your fingers are still rubbing circles, sliding it down towards your slit, and finally pushing it in.ย
โSo warmโฆ So wet, too,โ he whispers in wonder, making you cover your eyes with your forearm out of shyness.
โOh my God,โ you moan, arching your back and letting your head drop to the side on the pillow. Sunghoonโs finger is much thicker and longer than your own, and it stretches you out and hits a deep spot inside you you never could, no matter how much you tried.
โLike this?โ he asks, eyes curious as they bounce back and forth between your face and your entrance sucking his finger in.
โYes, yes, just like that, you can also- oh- you can also curve it upwards a bit- fuck, yeah, just like that, Hoon, youโre doing so well,โ you say, the praises just flying out of your mouth.ย
This seems to instill some confidence in him, as he cocks an eyebrow at you and speeds up his actions. โYeah? My finger making you feel good, Y/N?โ
โOh, shut up,โ you bite back, but immediately let out a long whine when he easily inserts a second finger in your soaking pussy. He curves them inside you just like you told him to, and the feeling of his fingers filling you up and your own quick ones on your clit are creating a familiar knot in your stomach that is so close to breaking. That is, until Sunghoon pulls your wrist away from your clit.
โY/Nโฆ Can I?โ he asks, and youโre not sure what heโs planning, but nod anyway. He wastes no time before pressing his tongue flat down on the sensitive bud, and you actually feel like your soul might leave your body. Fingers knuckle-deep inside you, he licks and sucks at your clit, and the warmth of his tongue against your folds is what makes you tumble over the edge, tightly gripping his hair and bucking your hips into his mouth.
โOh my Godโฆ Oh my God, Hoon, please, donโt stop, please,โ you beg, voice getting higher and whinier as you cum all over his tongue. He continues eating you out until it gets too much and you have to tell him to stop. He hikes his body up yours, pecking you sweetly on the lips when he reaches them.
โYour turn,โ you announce and hook your legs over his hips to straddle him. Youโre about to lean in for a kiss when you notice how lovingly heโs looking at you: his eyes are soft and a small smile is playing on his lips. It takes you aback, but youโd be lying if you said butterflies didnโt spread in your stomach. โW-why are you looking at me like that?โ
His grin gets a bit wider. โDid I make you feel good?โ
โY-yeahโฆ,โ you admit, averting your gaze from him.
โIโm glad. You taste good, by the way. Sweet.โ You want to kiss the devilish smirk off of his face.
You scoff at your friend, glaring a bit. โWhatever. Sit up,โ you order, but it just makes him smirk more.
โYes, maโam.โ
You look up at him to check for confirmation, and when he nods, you hook your fingers under his swimming trunks, taking them off of him along with his boxers underneath. His already fully-hard cock springs free and slaps against his stomach, and you curse yourself for your reaction that will surely just inflate his ego, as if it wasnโt already massive. Your mouth hangs open, eyes zeroing in on his length, flushed red from lack of attention and what you can only guess is precum leaking at the tip. It's straight from a porno.
โLike what you see?โ Sunghoon teases, making you look up at him, and you can only stupidly nod. You take the position he was in earlier, laying your head on his thigh and caressing the other, letting it ride up to rub his inner thigh and the tiniest bit over his cock, making his smirk vanish as he takes a shaky breath in.
โShow me how you do it,โ you say, echoing his words from earlier. He gulps, finally realizing that he was going to have to masturbate in front of your curious eyes just as you had. He spits on his open palm and spreads the precum over his length with his thumb, lubing himself up before gripping the base and starting to move his hand up and down. You watch as his head falls back against the pillow when his palm grazes over his tip and his movements pick up some speed.
You rub his palms over his thighs, itching to get closer to his cock and make him feel as good as he had done to you earlier. Tentatively, you reach out to grab his balls in your hands, massaging them softly, feeling satisfied when a loud moan leaves his throat. โOh, f-fuck, that feels good, Y/N,โ he breathes out, voice much higher than youโre used to. If he thought that felt good, then nothing couldโve prepared him for the feeling of your soft and warm tongue kitty-licking his balls, then taking turns sucking each one into your mouth and releasing them with a pop. โWhere the fuck did you learn how to do that?โ he asks, involuntarily bucking his hips into your face.
You canโt help but giggle, and Sunghoon thinks he might come from the sweet sound contrasted with your lewd actions alone. โI read a lot of fanfiction,โ you explain, and he doesnโt question it. If Wattpad taught you how to suck dick, then so be it.
You wrap your hand around his and tell him to keep going so you can get an idea of what pace and movements he likes, and you graze your fingernails over his abs and chest with your other hand, chuckling at how sensitive he is when you lightly pinch his nipples. Sunghoon takes his hand off of himself, laying both of his hands palms up next to him on the bed, so you decide to literally take things into your own hands. Trying to recreate what he did before, you spit into your palm and wrap your fingers around his tip, bringing your hand down in a swirly motion to the base of his shaft. You do that a few times, asking, โLike that?โ to get confirmation from Sunghoon.
โJust like that, baby,โ he says, not even taking notice of the pet name; but you do, and your face immediately flushes, surprised at how much you like it.
โBaby?โ you repeat, but heโs too lost in his pleasure and just hums in response. His reaction eggs you on, and you lick a long stripe from his base to his tip, swirling your tongue around it and humming at the bitter but not unpleasant taste of precum there. When another moan escapes his throat, you take his tip in your mouth, at first just shallowly thrusting your head, but then trying to take more and more of him.ย
Youโre so focused on what youโre doing that you donโt even realize how quickly heโs panting and how his grunts start to get whinier until heโs moaning out your name. โA-ah, Y/N, feels so good, โm gonna cum, fuck-โ
He goes silent as he shoots his release down your throat, eyebrows deeply furrowed and mouth open wide in pleasure. Thereโs so much of it and you canโt swallow it all, so you pull your head back, catching your breath, and a hot string of cum hits your chin and your throat. Sunghoon takes a look at you and the sight of you with some of his cum makes his dick twitch before he plops back down on the bed. You giggle as you take tissues from the bedside table (cause of course heโs got tissues next to his bed) and wipe away his seed, then lie down next to him, brushing away the hair thatโs sticking to his forehead with sweat and peppering his face with soft kisses.
He opens his eyes and smiles, turning his head to look at you before engulfing you in a bear hug, sweaty bodies sticking together but neither of you minding it. โThat was so good, Y/N. What the fuck,โ he sighs, pecking your forehead.
You hum, nuzzling your nose into his neck. โI know, right? Who knew you could use your mouth for other things than saying stupid shit,โ you tease.
He pulls back and gives you a look that tries to be stern, but you know heโs joking. โDo I need to remind you again, young lady?โ
You giggle and peck his lips, forcing him out of character as his dimples appear on his cheeks. โLater, definitely.โ
And after that day, he makes sure to remind you time and time again of how good his mouth feels on you. You shouldโve seen it coming with how amazing of a kisser he was; but truly, there was nothing like cumming on your friendโs tongue.
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Youโre relieved to find that not much has changed, after all; you and Sunghoon still play around in the pool, watch stupid movies and hang out with your friends like always. Sure, there are stray hands here and there, or looks that last a little too long and mean a little too much, but if anything, it just makes your friendship more playful and exciting.ย
Youโre both open with what you like and donโt like, so it doesnโt take either of you to figure out exactly how to make the other come undone embarrassingly quickly. (The shortest amount of time it took him was 2:38 seconds - yes, he timed it - and he hasnโt let you live it down since.) You like it when he presses his large hand down onto your lower tummy while he eats you out, or when he sits you between his legs and whispers all sorts of things as his fingers work their magic inside you and on your clit. He likes it when you get down on your knees in front of him and look up at him as you suck him dry, or when you sit in his lap and kiss his neck and play with his hair while he plays video games. And donโt even get him started on when you palmed him over his sweatpants while you watched a movie with Chaeyong, Jay and Jake, making sure that the movements under the blanket went unnoticed by them. He wanted to punish you after they left, he really did, but you took him in your mouth right there in the living room and gave him an orgasm that had his thighs shaking for five minutes afterwards. You were pretty proud of yourself for that one.ย
You also find out that he hates it when you tease and edge him, which only makes you do it more; the only problem is that, if you do that, heโll make you ride his thigh and wonโt help you at all. His proud smirk and snide praises combined with the feeling of his thick thigh underneath your core were more than enough to get you to your end, though.
And truly, nothing has changed, especially not Sunghoonโs special talent in pushing boys away from you.
โWhat do you mean, Lee Heeseung is coming back?โ he heatedly asks, slamming his glass of lemonade down on the outdoor table so hard youโre scared it might break.
โItโs the summer, of course heโs coming back. He just stayed behind for a bit to enjoy a few weeks of the city without college, and now heโs coming back here,โ Jake explains, shrugging.
โDo you know when heโll be here?โ you ask, far too much excitement in your voice to Sunghoonโs taste.
โJust in a couple days.โ
Sunghoon has smoke coming out of his ears when he sees how much you perk up at the news of your old crush being back in town for summer. He likes the boy, but he hates that you like him. And since Heeseung is friends with Jay, Jake, and by association Sunghoon, begrudgingly so, heโll definitely see lots of him in the upcoming months. And if Sunghoon sees Heeseung, then youโll see Heeseung, too. And that, Sunghoon doesnโt like.
You notice something is off with him that afternoon because of how uncharacteristically quiet he is. Sunghoon, ever the loud introvert, is always arguing for no reason and laughing louder than everybody around him. So when he merely chuckles at his friendsโ numerous displays of stupidity in the pool and doesnโt even say anything in protest to you getting on Jakeโs shoulders to play against Chaeyoung and Jay, you know something is definitely up. You also have a good idea of what that something might be, and youโd be lying if you said you didnโt find it endearing.
You stay behind when your friends leave in the early evening. Without a word, you and Sunghoon pack away the inflatable toys in the pool cabin and clean up the table, putting the dirty glasses in the sink. You do the dishes while he prepares sandwiches for the two of you, which he insisted on doing after he heard your stomach grumbling. You watch the latest Kurtis Conner video as you eat and canโt help but notice that he doesnโt even chuckle at any of the jokes or skits when heโd usually be clutching his stomach in laughter.ย
When youโre done eating, you take a resolute breath and pause the video, but Sunghoon doesnโt even notice, only snapping out of his daze when you call out his name.
โHuh?โ When his eyes find you, he almost looks surprised to see you, as if heโd forgotten you were there.
โAre you going to tell me whatโs wrong?โ you ask, slightly frowning. โYou look so out of it today.โ
โHuh? Iโm fine, nothingโs wrong,โ he says dismissively and presses play, but you quickly pause the video again.
โIโm your best friend, Sunghoon, I know when somethingโs the matter and I know when youโre lying. We donโt have to talk about it if you donโt want to, but donโt pretend everythingโs fine when we both know thatโs not true.โ
He peers at you for a moment, cursing you for knowing him so well. He crosses his arm and averts his gaze, pouting like an angry child. โI hate it when youโre right.โ
You giggle and make your way around the counter to him, standing inbetween his legs and wrapping your arms around his neck to make him look up at you. His hands come naturally up to your waist. โI justโฆโ he starts, then immediately stops himself with a sigh., โYouโve always had a crush on Heeseung. But these are our last couple months together, and I donโt want somebody else taking up your attentionโฆโ
He buries his face between your breasts to hide his blush, and you canโt help but giggle again. โStop laughing at me!โ he protests, but the muffled sound of his voice just makes you laugh more. You stroke his hair and press a gentle kiss at the top of his head.
โSure, Iโm happy Heeseungโs coming back. But thereโs no one Iโd rather spend my summer with than you, Sunghoon, you should know that.โ He leans back to look up at you with puppy eyes and a small pout. You cup his face, admiring how cute he looks like this, and smile softly down at him.
โReally?โ
โReally,โ you answer, and he leans in for a kiss.
Itโs a soft one. Itโs a patient kiss, neither of you urging to get somewhere else, to do something more. It reminds you of that kiss in his room a few weeks ago, when you were still curious and discovering each other. From then on, your kisses had become more feverish, more eager, more playful. But now, youโre taking your time. For now at least, neither of you is going anywhere. So your lips melt together slowly, and when you take breaks to breathe, you look each other in the eyes and smile before leaning back in.
Itโs when you sigh against his lips, eyes still closed as you pull away, that it hits him. I could do this forever, he thinks.
I could sit here with my arms around her waist and her lips against mine and the smell of chlorine and the sound of her laugh forever and Iโd never get tired of it, he thinks, but immediately afterwards, he realizes he wonโt get to do this forever. Summer will end, youโll both head off to college, and youโll only get to see each other every few months until another summer comes. And who knows what might happen until then?
You might meet someone and realize Sunghoon isnโt all that; hell, he might meet someone, but he highly doubts anyone could even come close to the way you make him feel.
โHello? Earth to Sunghoon?โ you quietly joke, looking down at him with an affectionate look in your eyes. You press the pads of your fingers to his two moles before replacing your fingers with your lips, giving each one a quick peck. โYou were up on the moon for a minute there.โ
Sunghoon hums softly, smiling as he lets himself melt under your touch. โSorry. Itโs just really hot, isnโt it?โ he says, a stupid excuse he uses as a blanket to cover his feelings. There is some sweat beading at his hairline, which helps make his lie more believable, but you donโt need to know itโs not just because of the summer heat.
Slowly, your smile turns mischievous, and Sunghoon can tell you have an idea in mind. โIt is pretty hotโฆ Wait here.โ
He watches as you fill a tall glass with ice from the dispenser in the fridge and pop an ice cube in your mouth, a devilish smile on your face, and laughs when that smile is replaced with a frown as the coldness hits you and you spit it back into the glass, laughing along with him. โWhat the hell are you doing?โ he asks between giggles.
โI got the idea a few days ago when we were having popsiclesโฆ,โ you say looking down at the glass between your hands, slightly embarrassed. โYou kissed me and your mouth was really cold but it felt nice.โ Sunghoon hums, egging you to go on. You lift the glass up to his cheeks, applying just a bit of pressure to the soft skin. โI thought this could be refreshing.โย
You take the ice cube back in your mouth, sucking on it but not letting it melt completely before pressing your lips against Sunghoonโs and opening your mouth just a bit so he could feel the cold of the ice cube. You feel his smile into the kiss as the ice cube swirls between your tongues, sending shivers down your spine.ย
โVery refreshing indeed,โ he murmurs when the ice has completely melted. He gets up and takes the glass in one of his hands, leaning down to your level and says โCโmonโ with the same mischievous smile as you on his face.
You two hurry up the stairs, and when you get to his room, he hands you the glass before throwing himself on his back, laying on his back with his hands behind his head. โShow me what you had in mind.โ
You straddle his hips and take an ice cube from the glass, rubbing it over his lips before pushing it inside his mouth, the cold making him hiss. You quickly counteract that by pressing your lips to his, the contrast of your warm tongue and the freezing ice turning him on more than he wouldโve thought.
When the ice has melted, you take another piece and brush it along his jaw, down his Adamโs apple and around his nipples. The cold temperature makes him squirm but he doesnโt shy away from it, even closing his eyes to focus solely on the feeling. While you play with the ice cube, you also leave warm kisses all over his skin, reveling in its slightly salty taste from the thin layer of sweat. You let the ice cube melt between his abs and watch him wriggle as he sucks in a sharp breath, then grab another one, starting off where the previous one stopped. You circle his navel while your fingers play with the hem of his swimming trunks. He pulls them down himself and you chuckle at his eagerness. โI shouldโve known you liked the cold, with all those years of ice skating you did,โ you tease.ย ย
Heโs almost fully hard, and it only takes a few kisses and trailing the ice cube down his inner thighs to have his dick fully erect. Heโd only been letting out small sighs and hisses until now, but when you grab another ice cube and circle it around his sensitive tip, he throws his head back into the pillows and moans loudly. You push your luck and drag the ice cube down his shaft, his thighs snapping together when it reaches his balls. You put it in your mouth and let it melt so that your tongue is still cold when you swirl it around his tip, already tasting precum there. But before you can take him further in your mouth, he calls out your name.
โWait. I donโt wanna cum just yet. My turn.โ
He shakes his shoulders in excitement as you switch positions, you taking your t-shirt and bikini top off and laying on your back and him sitting down with one knee on each side of your thighs, an ice cube in his hand and a giddy smile on his face.
He brushes it over your lips before pushing it just a bit into your mouth, holding onto it with two fingers while you suck on it, gazes locked in each other. Just as you did earlier, he trails it down your throat and your chest until they reach your nipples, marveling at the thin wet trail it leaves in its wake. He licks this trail as he circles one of your nipples with the ice cube, and you donโt know if you should focus on his warm tongue or on the cold ice cube. Once itโs melted, he takes another one and circles your other nipple with it, his mouth coming to wrap around the now cold one. Your hands fly up to grab at his hair, your back arching into his touch as you moan and pant loudly.
He sucks and licks at your nipples until youโre calling out his name, begging for more. As nice as his mouth or an ice cube around your nipples feel, your pussy is throbbing and desperate for attention. โSunghoonโฆ Please,โ you whine.
โPlease what?โ he teases, looking up from your breasts with a smirk.
You whine again, knowing he knows full well what you want. โPleaseโฆโ
He trails the ice cube down your stomach, circling your navel a few times where it melts before slipping two cold fingers underneath your bikini bottoms. โIs this what you want, baby?,โ he asks as he rubs his fingers between his folds, and you whine at the feeling of having him so close to your hole and to your clit but not quite there either. He smirks when you nod frantically but whine at the loss of his fingers against you as he takes your bottoms off and reaches for another ice cube.
You release a loud moan and arch your back off the bed when the ice cube touches your clit. โFuck, Hoon!โ
He rubs the ice cube up and down your folds, your heat melting it much faster than your skin. He takes another one and brings it to your entrance this time, circling around it before pushing the ice cube in and staring with wonder as it melts quickly. He holds your hips down so you stop bucking them up, whimpering at the amazing feeling of the ice against you. He replaces the ice cube with his fingers inside of you and his tongue on your clit, sucking expertly at the sensitive bud and lapping at your juices. And while it feels good - God, does it feel good - and you let Sunghoon know just how nice it feels with your moans, whispers of his names and the way you hold onto his hair, youโre craving something more.
Itโs something youโve been wanting for the past few days, but you couldnโt quite put your finger on it. No matter how nice Sunghoonโs fingers and mouth felt, they didnโt make you feel close to him enough. You wanted to be so close to him you didnโt know where you ended and where he started; you wanted to feel him.ย
You pull him up by the face, asking him to come here and getting lost in his lips as soon as they reach your level. God, Sunghoonโs kisses. You could drown in them. But still, that craving, that need for more. And now that his body is pressed up against yours and you can feel his erection against your thigh, so close to your core, you think you know what it is that you want. โHmm, pleaseโฆโ
โYou keep asking me for something, but you donโt tell me what it is.โ
โYou. I want you, Hoon, please,โ you beg, murmuring against his lips as you wrap your legs around his hips and bring him even closer, his cock now pressing against your cunt.
โM-me?,โ he asks, leaning back just a bit, but you pull him back in right away, resting his forehead against yours.
โYes, please. I need to feel you inside me.โ
Your words are enough to get a moan out of Sunghoon. โFuck, you have no idea how long Iโve been waiting for this,โ he pants, planting kisses all over your face and neck. Usually, youโd giggle at the ticklish sensation, but right now, youโre so drunk on pleasure, it just makes your breath even shallower and your core wetter.
โHow long?โ
โGod. Since the second time we kissed probably,โ he replies, reaching for a condom in the drawer of his bedside table. You think back to that moment six weeks ago (how has it been six weeks already?, you think), after you and Sunghoon had made up and made out on his couch in front of a horror movie. Heโd wanted you for that long? And heโd waited for you to say something since then?
โTodayโs your lucky day, then,โ you tease in an attempt to alleviate the need for him that takes over your bones, but his gaze when he looks back at you ruins any effort. If anything, it just makes you need him even more. You feel like you might explode if you donโt have him right now.
You watch as he clumsily wraps the condom around his member, clearly never having done this before, but you wouldnโt be of any help, so you let him figure it out on his own. You let your head fall back as he rubs his tip up and down your folds, gathering your slick on his dick before aligning himself at your entrance and giving you a long, deep kiss.
โAre you sure about this?โ he asks, forehead on yours.
โYeah. Are you?โ
โYeah, I am. But Iโm also scared.โ
โScared of what, Hoon?โ you ask, opening your eyes to look at him. You caress his cheek and cup his face in your hands, watching softly as he lets his head rest on your palm.
โIโm scared of hurting you. I heard it hurts the first time. And Iโm scaredโฆโ he closes his eyes and frowns a bit. โIโm scared itโll feel too good. That Iโll always want it. You.โ
You take a small moment to think, your thumb brushing over his cheek in what you hope is a comforting manner. โYou wonโt hurt me, Hoon. It only hurts if youโre not readyโฆ And Iโm plenty ready. I know youโll take it slow.โ You smile softly when he nods, turning his head to kiss your palm. But if sex is as good as youโve heard it is, youโre also scared that it might be the best thing youโve ever experienced and that youโll never get enough. You and Sunghoon have been meeting up almost everyday this summer and it has more often than not ended up with one of you between the otherโs legs; you could never get bored of the things he made you feel or of knowing you were making him feel those exact same things. If you couldnโt live without his fingers, how could you live without his dick?
How could you live without him?
You tried to snap out of those thoughts, reassuring yourself that even before all of this you couldnโt imagine yourself living without Sunghoon, and that there was no reason this should change anything. โAnd donโt be scared of that, silly,โ you say, making him smile. โIโll always be here, Sunghoon. Iโll always want you, too.โย
โFuck, okay,โ he whispers, kissing your lips once before pulling himself up on his palms, hovering over you. โTell me if you need me to stop, yeah?โ he asks and waits for you to nod before finally pushing in.
You instantly moan when you feel his tip inside you, and Sunghoon stops, frantically asking if youโre okay. It takes some convincing to get him to push himself further in. โIt feels so good, Hoon. Please keep going.โ
You tell him to not stop until heโs fully inside you, and he obeys, even though he wants to stop when he sees your frown and your sharp intakes of breath. When heโs buried to a hilt, he canโt help but collapse on top of you, burying his face in your neck and wrapping his arms tightly around your waist. โY/N,โ he drawls out. โFeels so fucking good. So tight,โ he murmurs against your neck.
โMmh. Give me a minute, baby.โ Your hands caress up and down the expanse of his back and you feel him relax on top of you. As you adjust around his length, the stretch starts to feel more and more pleasurable, until pleasure is the only thing you feel. โHoon?โ
โYeah?โ he says, kissing and nibbling softly at your neck and earlobe.
โYou can move, now.โ
Sunghoon doesnโt need to be told twice and ever-so-slowly slides out of you, leaving only the tip in before he slides back in. His thrusts are slow but deep, and itโs everything youโve ever wanted and more. Heโs barely started but youโre both already whimpering messes, holding onto each other tightly as pleasure like neither of you has felt before takes over your entire bodies.
As you both get more comfortable, his pace picks up just a tiny bit and you tentatively raise your legs higher so that theyโre hooked around the back of his knees instead of laying on the bed. The new angle only adds to the intense pleasure, but you donโt even realize youโre crying until Sunghoon stops mid-thrust, wiping your tears with his thumb and worryingly asking if youโre okay and if it hurts and if he should stop. You open your eyes and smile, instantly calming his nerves. You bring his head closer to yours and kiss him like youโd stop breathing if you didnโt. โIt feels so fucking good, Hoon. So, so good.โ
He sighs out of relief and resumes his actions, heart swelling with pride that heโs making you feel so good, youโre crying. Heโs always hated seeing you cry or hurt in general; but knowing what kind of tears these are, he thinks you look so pretty with tears streaming down your face. His hands grip your thighs a bit tighter as he quickens his pace, already addicted to the feeling of your warm walls taking him in so well.
He slips out a few times but youโre always quick to guide him back inside you. He lifts his body up a bit to get a deeper angle, hoping itโll get him to stop slipping out, and heโs blown away by the sight underneath him. He thinks youโve never looked so gorgeous as you do now, legs spread wide for him, cheeks flushed, brows furrowed and mouth agape for him. He kisses your tears, the salty taste bringing a smile to his lips. โSo perfect,โ he whispers against your mouth. โYou look so beautiful.โ
Sunghoon takes your legs and wraps them higher around his hips, the new angle hitting a spot inside you thatโs making you see stars and has you moaning his name like itโs the only thing you know how to say. You feel that familiar tension build up inside your stomach much faster and much stronger than it usually does.
โFuck, Sunghoon, Iโm gonna cum,โ you warn, and a harsher thrust inside you is what pushes you over the edge, the sensation crashing into you and making your thighs shake. An orgasm has never hit you this hard before.
Youโre clenching around him like crazy and Sunghoon gasps as you milk him dry, his own orgasm hitting him all at once. He shoots his release inside the condom and stills inside you, breath completely taken away by the sudden, overwhelming sensation.
He lays on top of you for a moment as you both catch your breaths, trying to make sense of how something can feel this good without killing you instantly. He apologizes when his pulling out makes you wince and kisses the top of your head. He rolls onto his back, pulling you with him so that youโre now almost lying on top of him, head against his chest as his arms wrap themselves around you. You leave kisses all over his chest and neck and his hands caress your back.
โThat was amazing.โ
โI know, right?โ he responds immediately, his enthusiasm making you laugh.
โThanks, Hoon,โ you say timidly, voice muffled against his skin.
โFor what?โ
โFor making me feel this good.โ
He chuckles. โNo need to thank me, pretty. If anything, I should thank you for letting me make you feel good, and on top of that making me feel good.โ
You hum at his words and you both stay there for a bit longer, enjoying each otherโs warmth. Something blooms inside your chest, and you donโt know whether to let it grow or to squash it down. It feels nice, almost too nice, and youโre scared it might get ripped away from you and it wonโt feel so nice then.
Friendship, sex, love. In those weeks spent with Sunghoon, those previously clear lines have blurred to a point they were all one big messy ball of feelings and not three distinct things you could tell apart. Has sex turned your friendship with Sunghoon into something romantic? Or is that just an illusion, and being so intimate with your best friend has messed up your once platonic vision of him? But was your vision of him ever platonic?
Haven't the two of you always been teased about liking each other for a reason? After all, you and Sunghoon didn't grow up together, and heโs never felt like a brother to you. He has always been your male friend; youโve always been aware that he was your friend who was also a boy. When you'd moved in the house next to his, you hadnโt instantly clicked; it took a while for the ice skating prodigy to warm up to you, but his parents had warmly welcomed yours into the neighborhood and quickly became friends, so it was only a matter of time before heโd open up to the idea of you being around. Constantly.
Youโd walk to and from school together, do homework together, go on family trips together, cheer each other on at your respective competitions. After his ice skating lessons, when his coach let him have the whole place to himself for a bit more practice, heโd tie your ice skates for you and drag you onto the ice rink, holding you by the waist or shoulders as he skated backwards in front of you, but also laughing at you when you inevitably fell. Heโd tease you for getting second place at the science fair or for getting your arguments torn apart during Model United Nations, but the way heโd be a little nicer to you or share his food more often that week wouldnโt escape you.
Being a handsome young ice skater, Sunghoon had developed quite the loyal following of boys and girls alike who would come to see him at his competitions. He thrived off of the attention, but no matter how much he enjoyed his fansโ admiration, you were always the one heโd skate to after having won first place, hugging you tightly over the barrier separating the ice from the bleachers. Especially during your younger teen years, Sunghoon wasnโt one for skinship or PDA, so it always meant that much more to you that even after his most important wins, you were the first thing on his mind. It never failed to make your stomach flip, and all the death stares from his fans in the world couldnโt have changed a thing.
You were already close, but you became practically inseparable after Sunghoonโs injury. During the competition that would have gotten him a place at the Youth Winter Olympics had he won, his nerves got the best of him and he didnโt land his triple axel, hurting his ankle in the process. Ten years of dedication and hard work, ruined in mere seconds. To say that it destroyed him would be an understatement.
You were the one to bring him back up. You listened to him when he needed to vent, held him when he needed a shoulder to cry on, cheered him up when he needed to smile. He didnโt even need to tell you what he needed, you seemed to just know. You reminded him that he had a lot more value than his medals and trophies and that he didnโt need them to be complete. His family and friends tried their best to make him feel better, but their words never reached him quite like yours did.
Slowly but surely, his confidence came back. Heโd lost his fans, but heโd gained a friend he knew would always be there for him. His dimples would appear more often, his laugh would resonate louder. His injury had made the two of you grow closer, creating a bond that would only strengthen over time.
And yet there were moments when being friends wasnโt enough. When calling him your best friend didnโt feel right. You had other friends, friends you were close to; sure, maybe not as close as to Sunghoon, but close nonetheless. And you didnโt feel that way around them.
Their laugh didnโt make your heart skip a beat. You didnโt want to bury your face in their necks and breathe in their scent when they hugged you. You didnโt want to know every single detail of their day. And you surely didnโt feel a pang of jealousy in your chest when they danced with another girl at your school ball.
You also didnโt crave their lips on yours every single day since it had happened for the first time and didnโt want to see what they sounded or looked like while getting the life sucked out of them through their dick.
Everybody told you it was obvious you were โmore than friends.โ Why did romantic love have to be โmoreโ than platonic love? Why were there levels to it? You didnโt like the idea of taking your relationship with Sunghoon โone step furtherโ; that wasnโt the way it felt to you. Rather, it felt like having to change everything you knew and create something new. Something where you could see him laugh and tell him about your day, but where you could also kiss him and graze his skin with your fingertips. Something that only you could share with him and only he could share with you. But you were afraid the friendship would fall apart if things didn't work out. So, instead of taking the risk of changing everything, you made sure things would stay the same. Youโd tell the butterflies raging in your stomach to settle down and you wouldnโt let yourself fall into his touch in case itโd be like falling from the highest mountain.
That is, until he kissed you. Until this moment, right now, lying in his arms, ear right over his heart so you can hear it beat for you. You look up at him. His eyes are closed and a soft smile rests on his lips. He looks so peaceful. He always looks pleased when youโve just been together, but right now, he seems to be in such a serene state, it almost makes you laugh.
Now that youโve given in to your feelings, youโve realized just how strong they were this whole time. Nothing has ever felt better than being in Sunghoonโs arms, than being able to see him at his most vulnerable state and to give all of you to him. All those things you didnโt know about him just six weeks ago, you know them by heart now. Youโre sure thereโs other things to find out, and youโll make sure you will.
But summer wonโt last forever.
A wave of sadness slaps you right in the face, bringing you back to reality. Thereโll come a time where you and Sunghoon wonโt be able to lounge around all day or lazily make-out at your will. Youโll go your own ways and not see each other for months at a time. The thought of that is unbearable, and you feel like looking at Sunghoon for a second longer might rip your heart into a million pieces.
When you sit up, tearing yourself away from his grip, he immediately opens his eyes, asking whatโs wrong.
โJust need to go to the bathroom. I heard you can get STIs from not peeing after sex,โ you half-lie. He nods and falls back into the bed.ย
You rush to the toilet, needing to get far away from Sunghoon as quickly as possible. Even your pee smells different - guess thatโs what having a dick inside you will do to you. You wash your hands and look in the mirror: your skin is darker in some spots, surely Sunghoonโs work. So not only did he mess with your thoughts, he also had to make your body all weird, too?
You splash your face with cold water, hoping it will bring you back to your senses. You and Sunghoon have been best friends for years. Thereโs no point in changing all of that now, is there? Youโll be leaving soon enough, anyway. Why ruin a perfectly fine friendship for a summer fling?
Those are your thoughts as you head back to Sunghoonโs bedroom, ready to tell him that this whole thing was a mistake and you should just pretend it never happened. But your resolve crumbles at your feet as soon as you step inside the room.
Sunghoonโs got a couple of snacks ready as he browses through Netflix in search of an appropriate movie. โHow about Twilight?โ he says when he feels the bed dip under your weight next to him. He kisses your forehead and pulls you down on the bed with him so that youโre lying back against his chest.
Screw it, you think. Whatever this is, itโs much more than a summer fling.
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The rest of the summer goes by in a flash. No, you donโt try to make Sunghoon jealous by flirting with Heeseung; if the mention of the latterโs name was enough to get your friend mad, then purposefully twirling your hair or batting your eyelashes at the older boy just might make Sunghoon white-boy-punch a hole into a wall. And itโs not like Heeseung would try coming onto you, either, with how clingy Sunghoon gets when heโs around, always an arm around your waist and a glare that could kill Heeseung.
Sunghoon gradually opens up to Heeseung being around, even though it takes you reminding him almost daily that heโs the one whose arms you wanna end up in over anybodyโs. After a couple weeks, Sunghoon stops looking like he's on the brink of starting a fight every time Heeseung so much as talks to you or hands you a glass of lemonade, and finally relaxes around him.
You spend countless sleepless nights with Sunghoon. Youโve probably memorized every single one of his moles by now, and youโve made sure to kiss all of them. He holds you against him like he might lose you at any given moment. The only nights you donโt fall asleep in each otherโs embrace are when either one of you is sleeping over at your friendโs house. On those nights, sleep always takes hours before washing over you, the lack of warmth keeping you awake.
Your friends and you spend entire days at the lake or by Sunghoonโs pool, not a care in the world. You rest your head on Sunghoonโs shoulder as you watch the fireworks Jake and Jay bought go off. Sunghoon grills your marshmallows for you, blowing on them so they cool down before handing you the stick. You try to ignore how the night air gets slightly chillier and how the sun sets slightly earlier, but by the last days of August, it becomes too noticeable. When September rolls around, youโre sure thereโs a small crack in your heart.
You know Sunghoon feels the end of summer too. His kisses are deeper and his lips linger over yours a second longer. He frowns when he kisses you and hugs you, like heโs trying to remember what it feels like. His usual playful demeanor when youโre in bed together is gone, instead seemingly hellbent on making you feel good and almost begging you to say his name. As if you could say any other name. As if you could say anything else.
Neither of you mention your departure until the night before you leave. After spending the evening with your friends, you lie together in bed, the side of your face resting against his chest so you can feel his heart against your ear. Heโs tracing patterns with his fingertips on your back, and it takes you a while to figure out heโs spelling his name over and over again, as if to etch it in your skin. When, once in a while, he takes his hand off of you to reach for his phone, you can still feel his fingers caressing you, ghostlike against your skin.
The air around you feels heavy, pressing the both of you down into the mattress. You wish the bed would eat you alive so you could stay there, warm against each other, as long as you like. You know you canโt leave without talking first, but the words wonโt come to you. Instead, they float around the bed, weighing your heart down into your stomach.
โSo,โ you start. You're unsure what to say, but you know this conversation has to happen, one way or another. In the end, you settle on, โExcited to leave?โ
Sunghoon scoffs lightly, his motions on your back coming to a stop. โNot really, no. Itโs not like Iโm leaving that far, and half of our school is going to our uni.โ
โMaybe, but thereโll be tons of other people. Tons of other girls, too,โ you add after a short pause.
โDonโt do this, Y/N, please.โ
You sit up at his words. He covers his eyes with his forearm and takes a deep breath in, sensing an incoming argument. โDo what?โ
โThis. Getting mad at me when I havenโt done anything.โ
โIโm not mad at you,โ you protest, frowning down at him.
โNo? Then whatโs this?โ he says, smoothing down the lines between your eyebrows and on your forehead with the pad of a finger.
โWhatever.โ You nudge your head away from his touch. It burns. โItโs not like Iโm wrong, anyway. Youโre gonna have a bunch of girls at your feet, and youโll know what to do with them, right? Now that youโre not a virgin?โ you question, avoiding his gaze.
โY/Nโฆโ he sighs, shutting his eyes tighter as if in pain.
โWhat? This was the whole reason why, right? Get experience with me so you could fuck girls better, no?โ
โY/N!โ he says, raising his voice enough to let you know heโs upset but not enough to scare you. He sits up, looking at you with hurt and disbelief in his eyes. โWhatโs this all of a sudden? Itโs not like I forced you into this! We agreed on it together!โ
โSo you agree? That this summer was just about getting experience and now youโll use it on other girls and pretend like we,โ you gesture between the two of you, โnever happened?โ
โWhat do you mean โagreeโ? I never said any of this! Donโt put words into my mouth!โ
He watches as you get up from the bed, arms crossed and pacing his room. He calls out to you a few times, but you donโt stop to look at him until he speaks your name with a sternness youโve never heard before from him. โWhat?โ you snap.
โI donโt get why youโre acting like this out of nowhere! We both knew summer was gonna end at some point, and why we were doing this! Why are you blaming me now?โ
โBecauseโฆ becauseโฆโ you sigh, scrambling for an excuse. Why were you doing this? The thought of Sunghoon doing what he did to you to another girl, making her feel as good as he had made you feel, kissing her like he had kissed you, made you sick. It made you see red, it made you want to make him wear a shirt with your face on it so everybody knew he was yours.
Sunghoon gets up and stands close in front of you, too close. You close your eyes. If you see his moles, you might reach out to touch them and let yourself fall even more. If you fall, youโll need to get up, but his scent makes your knees weak.
His hands find your face, holding a little too gently, you think. Your small ones wrap around his wrists and grip them, a little too harshly, he thinks.ย
You take a step back and finally look into his eyes. Thereโs hope in them; hope youโll say what he wants, what he needs to hear. That you want him like he wants you. That you wish summer wasnโt over. That youโll keep him in your heart until you can see him again. So, when what you say next is none of the above, he feels his heart sink down to his feet, leaving a murky puddle there.
โI canโt do this.โ
You rush out of the room, practically running home. You fight your tears back until you slam your bedroom behind you, pathetically sinking to the ground as you let out a loud sob. You don't have the energy to get up, and cry into your hoodie's sleeve right there on the floor.
When youโve calmed down a bit, you get up and lay in your bed, hiding your whole body underneath the covers. Maybe this is for the best, you think. If you end it like this, you wonโt have the knowledge of whether heโll wait to have you back or heโll move on like nothing happened. That way, you can do whatever you want, not caring about what heโs up to.ย
But even now, your hands subconsciously reach out towards a person thatโs not there and your feet hang over the edge of your bed as though to get up and run to him anytime. You curl in on yourself to stop your body from aching for him. It doesnโt work very well.
Sunghoon stays where you left him for a few minutes, too stunned to move. Should he run after you? Should he let you cool off for a bit and talk to you in the morning? Would you be mad at him if he didnโt try to see you now or would the mere sight of him just make you angrier? He plops down on his bed as these questions run through his mind, butting into each other and making everything more confusing.ย
He thinks back on everything that led to this, and his mind settles on that day a few days after graduation where his thoughts had dropped to the lowest pits of hell. If only you hadnโt brought those two damned lollipops.
--
The next morning, Sunghoon wakes up as if somebody had slapped him awake. He doesnโt bother to brush his teeth or eat anything before running over to your house, almost forgetting to put shoes on. He finds you in your room, packing the last of your things into an already full suitcase. He stands at your door, panting as his hands rest on his knees.
โYou havenโt left yet. Thank God.โ
โGod, Hoon. Itโs not that far between your house and mine. How are you so out of breath,โ you say, glancing at him from the corner of your eye.
He walks to you and kneels in front of you, taking you in his arms before you can say anything. โTalk to me, please. Donโt leave like this. Iโd never forgive myself if you left and you were mad at me, Y/N.โ
You thought youโd cried so much last night that there was not a single drop of water left in your body, but you thought wrong. Your eyes immediately well up at his words, and he leans back when he hears a soft sniffle escaping you. Only then does he notice how puffy your eyes from all your crying.
โNo, noโฆ Have you been crying? Iโm so sorry, pretty, please donโt cry,โ he pouts, pulling you back into his embrace. It hasnโt even been half a day, but you missed his warmth so much, it only makes you cry harder.
After sobbing against his chest, possibly staining his shirt in the process, you pull away and in your light-headed, dehydrated state, spill your heart out. โItโs so stupid,โ you sob. โWeโre not gonna see each other for months and Iโm gonna miss you so much and I donโt want you to be with other girls. I want you all to myself and I donโt want to be your friend that you fucked for a summer just so you could get experience, it was a stupid idea in the first place, if you wanted to kiss me, you shouldโve just kissed me. But you didnโt just kiss me and now Iโm scared that this all meant nothing to you but everything to me and that I donโt want to be friends anymore but you do and Iโm mad that it took me all summer to say this even though Iโve known it for years but I didnโt want to admit it to myself but also you didnโt say anything and Iโm mad about that too. Because thereโs no way you donโt feel like I do but maybe you actually donโt and-โ
Whatever you were about to say dies out against Sunghoonโs lips as he presses his lips to yours, interrupting your rambling. He pulls away, looking at you with a huge, stupid grin. Heโs so stupid, you think. I love him so much.
โFucking hell, Y/N. Iโve been waiting for you to say this so bad, you have no idea.โ
You punch his chest, frowning at him. Those stupid tears wonโt stop. Everything is so stupid. โThen why didnโt you say it first?โ
โBecause I didnโt know how to. You know Iโm bad with words. And I was scared itโd make things weird.โ
โI donโt want things to be weird,โ you pout.
โI donโt want things to be weird, either. I want things to be nice and happy.โ
You giggle. โThatโs so stupid.โ
โRight? Itโs so stupid,โ he repeats, kissing you again.
โYour breath smells,โ you complain when he pulls away.
โAnd you have tears on your lips. Tastes salty,โ he teases.
โYeah, thanks to who?โ
โSorry.โ He smiles and kisses you again. He holds you against him for a while, enjoying this last moment together. As long as he can see a smile on your face before you leave, heโll be fine.
โIโm gonna miss you so much too, Y/N. And forget about those non-existent girls. Thereโs no one Iโd rather be with than you.โ
โHow do you know? You havenโt met any of them yet,โ you say, voice muffled against his t-shirt.
โIโve met other girls before. None of them compare to you,โ he says, and you immediately gag at how clichรฉ it sounds. โWhat?! Itโs true,โ he giggles.
โYouโre not gonna go and date a random guy, are you?โ
โOf course not. None of them compare to you,โ you say, lowering your voice to imitate his.
He helps you finish packing, and when youโre done, you lay together on your bed, not saying much because not much needs to be said. Your parents struggle to tear you away from each other and from your bed when itโs time to leave. He helps your dad put your baggage in the trunk of his car, telling you to not lift a finger so you watch him go to and from the car, leaving a kiss on your forehead every time he walks past you. You notice with a smile that he doesnโt carry much at once, making him have to go back-and-forth quite often.
After saying goodbye to your family, your dad waits in the car as you and Sunghoon hang back awkwardly, kicking small pebbles on the pavement. He takes your hand in his, making you look up at him, then takes the other hand, then hugs you close to him.
โIโm gonna miss you,โ you say, as if that wasnโt obvious. Youโre trying hard to fight tears from falling again, but itโs like thereโs an ocean behind your eyes, water somehow never running out.ย
โI already miss you,โ he says, and thatโs enough to get you to sob again, which makes him start crying too. Youโre crying, heโs crying, your mom is crying from the porch as she watches the two of you, itโs a mess.
You force yourself away from him, cupping his face in your hands. โWeโll see each other soon, okay? And college will be fun. You wonโt even have time to miss me. But make time to think about me, yeah? And text me.โ
โI will. Iโll think about you all the time, I already do,โ he says.
โOkay,โ you whisper and hug him one last time, very briefly, pressing a kiss to his cheek. Youโre about to walk away but he doesnโt let go of your hand and pulls on your arm to bring you back to him.
Pressing his forehead against yours, he whispers, โI love you,โ and you sob.
โI love you, too.โ
This time, when you walk away, he lets you go. He watches as you get into the passengerโs seat and as the car drives away, as it takes you away from him. You watch him stand there in the rearview mirror, until his silhouette becomes smaller, and smaller, and smaller, until you canโt see him at all anymore.
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Summer went and fall came as they do every year. Dead leaves are falling but itโs a new start for you. Itโs a new town and you donโt know anybody, but you click instantly with your roommate and make new friends throughout your first week there. You realize everybodyโs in the same boat, and theyโre all eager to meet people and are curious about college life. You love your classes but complain about them nonetheless. You eat more ramen than youโd like to admit and turn up hungover at a 9 am class on a Thursday. You pull all-nighters at the library and develop a caffeine dependency. Youโre a college student.
You and Sunghoon were very dramatic when you left, you soon realize. You call almost everyday. Heโs not there with you and you miss him but at least you donโt have to pretend youโre not stupidly in love with him anymore. Because itโs stupid, being in love, it really is. You wouldnโt trade it for the world.
Your first semester passes by almost too quickly, and before you know it, youโre on the drive home, already one eighth of the way through university. Youโre excited to go home, but Sunghoonโs finals last a week longer so you wait around for him. When you complain about it, Chaeyoung tells you to get a grip. โYou havenโt seen him in three months, Iโm sure you can handle another week.โ
And you can, but barely. You were about to explode but then heโs back and youโre in his arms and his hair is still so soft, his scent is still so comforting and his moles are still there. You kiss them both before you finally press your lips to his, and it makes you feel so alive, you could die right then and there.
You lie on his bed and talk for hours as if you didnโt keep in touch the whole time and itโs like you never left. Itโs like summer never ended and youโve just been lying in his bed the whole time, college just one big fever dream.ย
But his skin doesnโt smell like chlorine anymore, and heโs not in his swimming trunks. Itโs fall, almost winter, and youโre kissing Park Sunghoon. You realize you can kiss him whatever the season and you find comfort in that. It was a big day (you cried a lot when you saw him) and youโre tired so you think youโll kiss for a bit and thatโll be all but then he whispers โI missed you so muchโ against your neck and a fire lights inside your stomach. Oh, how it burns. You think it might consume you whole, but you donโt dislike that idea.
In a flash, youโre on top of him, his shirt is off, your shirt is off, but itโs not enough so you take your pants off too and Sunghoon is confused as to why youโre going so fast, but follows you anyway. โWhatโs going on?โ he asks when youโre done with the taking off of your clothes and have moved on to kissing and biting at his neck like itโs your first meal in ages, because it is.
โI missed you too,โ you simply answer, and he smirks as he nods slowly, now understanding your eagerness.
โMissed me that much, huh?โ he teases, letting his head fall back against the pillow so you have better access to his neck.
โShut up. Kiss me,โ you order, and he doesnโt need to be told twice. Your kisses are ravenous and desperate, very fitting for two horny people in love who havenโt seen each other in months. But the pulse in your core makes you too impatient to stay anywhere for too long, and really, itโs not your fault if youโre grinding down onto Sunghoonโs clothed erection, itโs just that he smells too good and you missed him too much.
Sunghoon laughs at you for being so impatient to hide just how impatient he is. His giggles keep him from moaning loudly enough to wake the whole house, and you laugh as you tell him to stop laughing.
โIโm serious. I missed you so much. Need you so bad,โ you say as you get rid of your underwear and quickly do the same for his. He gasps when he feels you take his dick in your hand and brush its tip between your folds, both out of pleasure and out of surprise.
โShouldnโt I get you ready? Stretch you out a bit?โ he asks, his hands roaming up and down your back as he sits up on the bed so that youโre straddling his lap, and you shake your head no. Youโre probably already embarrassingly wet from your short makeout session, anyway.
โI donโt care if it hurts,โ you say, lining his tip with your entrance. โNeed to feel you.โ
You sink down on his cock, the both of you releasing loud moans at the long-awaited feeling. He lets you adjust to his size for a minute, but as soon as you move your hips just a bit, signaling to him that youโre ready for more, itโs over for you. He wanted to be patient and take his time, he really did, but you feel so warm around him and your small whimpers are so pretty that his resolve of letting you take the lead is thrown out the window. He pounds into you at a rapid pace that has you biting his shoulder to keep yourself from screaming.
You had imagined your first time back with Sunghoon so many times before. It usually involved a nice playlist in the background, fairy lights and candles lighting the room, hours of foreplay and sensual lovemaking, with a nice bath afterwards. Sometimes, when you were particularly needy for him, you imagined something closer to what was actually happening, where youโd rip each otherโs clothes as soon as you got to the bedroom and fucked like animals (a bit much, admittedly, but you really missed him).
What you definitely hadnโt expected, however, was that youโd both cum in less than five minutes. What could you do, though, when he was hitting your g-spot over and over again, his length stretching you perfectly as he whispered in your ear how much heโd missed you and how good you felt? And what could he do when you took him in so well, clinging onto him as you told him how much youโd missed him and how good he felt?
You finish at the same time, hole clenching around him and milking him dry. He doesnโt pull out for a while, letting you collapse onto him as you both catch your breaths, just like you had that first time. โThat was a bit quick,โ he pants, and you canโt help but laugh.ย
You pull back to look at his face. Itโs so pretty and stupid. What a stupid face that you love so much. Do you love it because itโs stupid or is it stupid because you love it? You think that thatโs a stupid question, and you kiss the mole on his nose, then the mole on his cheek, right next to his nose.
โWe have all night to go slower.โ
โWe have all Christmas break,โ he corrects.
We have the rest of our lives, you think, and you think that might be a bit much, but you say it anyway. Sunghoon hums and says, โyes, we do,โ and you think maybe itโs not all that stupid.
Maybe itโs the greatest thing thatโs ever been.
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summary: after catching his roommate and his girlfriend making out, Choi Soobinโs life has been in an awkward standstill where he canโt decide if he should still be upset or move on. never one for confrontation, he still works with his ex girlfriend whose suddenly interested in him again all because heโs shown interest in another girlโhis new roommate.
โฃgenre/au: roommate!soobin x roommate!y/n [she/her. female anatomy]
โฃ19.3k words
warnings: smut. kinda fluff. soobin is a barista. college grads. oc is soobinโs new roommate. one instant of fake dating. soobin is a whiny drunk. soobinโs cheating ex tries to get him back. soobin and oc friends. cute soobin but heโs a switch. dom soobin in the bedroom. soobin doesnโt like confrontation until the end. oral sรจx [f receiving, in the kitchen ๐คญ] protected sรจx. missionary. riding. soobin is subby post-sex. he has an unexplored boob kink. big soobin. jealous soobin but only slightly
When it comes to drama, you want no part of it. You keep your circle small and try not to involve yourself with things that donโt concern you but itโs been hard now that youโve moved in with your new roommate. Originally, you thought it would be less drama to have a guy you didnโt know as a roommate, aside from the obvious worries Soobin had seemed perfect.
He was quiet and a bit shy but he seemed to have good intentions. Youโve heard him through the thin walls and he laughs when he watches something funny or talks on the phone but heโs not obnoxiously loud. He cleans up after himself and gives you your space so this first week has been good.
Youโve recently started rooming together when you answered his ad in search of a roommate and youโre starting to understand why he was looking for one in the first place.
โSo she just dumped you?โ You asked, unable to help yourself from being nosy. This is the first time since your first meeting that youโre sharing a conversation with him and itโs about his past relationshipโevidently to thank for giving you a room for cheap.
โBasically,โ Soobin said with a shrug as he stared at the television where his Nintendo Switch was connected. He was currently playing some Jujutsu Kaisen game that managed to grab your attention when you had come out of your cave for a bowl of cereal.
โThatโs crazy,โ you mumbled to yourself, turning away from him to wash your dishes in the sink.
Apparently, his last roommate moved out very suddenly considering he slept with Soobinโs girlfriend and things just didnโt work out.
โItโs whatever,โ Soobin said, so hyper focused on his game, and saying whatever was on his mind with no attention at all, โJust sucks because I still have to work with her.โ
โWait!โ You dropped what you were doing, rushing over to where he was and standing in front of the tv, โSo youโre saying you still have to see your cheating ex girlfriend who slept with your roommate at work?โ
โYeah,โ Soobin said, making you shake your head in disbelief. Still thinking about his sheer bad luck, you finally left him to his game and retreated to your bedroom to wallow in self pity like usual.
It was all too much to talk about for Soobin. His relationship only lasted about six months but he still canโt believe she slept with his roommate. He thought they all had become good friends but to find out sheโs secretly going to his roommateโs bedroom while heโs at work. She would come over and stay while he would leave to work and while he thought she was waiting for him to get home, sheโs letting his roommate stick it to her! The audacity, honestly, to do that in his home is ridiculous but thankfully his name was the one on the lease and he got to kick the guy out.
At first it was strange to have a girl move in with him considering heโs only ever roomed with guys and he was supposed to be in his โI Hate Womanโ era but youโve turned out to be better than he expected. Of course itโs only been a few days but you both seem to be hyper aware of the fact that this is something new for the both of you. At least he wonโt have to worry about you sleeping with his next girlfriendโฆ or does he?
For another hour or so, Soobin played his game, completely engrossed that not even the pounding on the door for two solid minutes broke him from his trance. It wasnโt until you stormed out of your bedroom once again and headed right to the front door did he realize the person at the door was here for him.
You looked at the guy in front of you, a bit stunned to speak at how attractive he was and for a moment the two of you just stood there looking stupefied. The guy took a step back into the hallway and read the number on the wall which was sure enough his best friendโs apartment.
โWhat are you doing here?โ Soobin asked, suddenly appearing behind you with a hand on the door above your head. Once you acknowledged that this stranger was here for your roommate you quietly made your leave, unaware of the new pair of eyes trailing after you.
โThere you go, I didnโt know you had it in you to bounce back so fast,โ Yeonjun said, looking to your closed door, โAnd with a baddie at that!โ
โWhat are you talking about? Sheโs my new roommate,โ Soobin said letting his best friend follow him to his bedroom so the two of them wouldnโt be in the living room and possibly make you uncomfortable. โAnd what are you doing here?โ
โI came to cheer you up, I know its been a rough two weeks and I didnโt want you to think I left you at your lowest,โ Yeonjun said, flopping himself down on the beanbag in the corner of Soobinโs room. He reached into his backpack and pulled out a couple bottles of Soju. Soobin released a sigh as he checked the time and read how late it was, โFirst of all itโs a weekday, second Iโm not at my lowest.โ
โRightโฆ thatโs the Denial stage of grief, donโt worry friend, you donโt have to lie to me, I know you,โ Yeonjun said as he got up once again and went to the door, โRemember when you lost Odi? You cried for three weeks straightโโ
โThat is different! Odi was the real love of my life so donโt compare this to the heartbreak I felt for my beloved child!โ Soobin yelled but Yeonjun just brushed him off to leave the kitchen and find glassesโand also hopefully run into you again.
Once he was back in the room, Soobin was sniffing Odiโs old blanket for comfort.
โSo are you saying your roommate is up for grabs because she really is hot,โ Yeonjun asked, beginning to pour two shot glasses with peach flavored Soju. Soobin shrugged his shoulders, โI donโt know and considering what happened with my last roommate, Iโm not really into inner circle mixing with my friends and roommate.โ
โFair enough.โ
Fresh out of school, youโve been lucky enough to find a small job at the lowest ranking possible while still being in the world of fashion. There certainly are better things you could be doing besides running errands for your boss but as a new college grad with no experience, its not like you could expect more in the fashion world. It honestly wasnโt too bad and your boss wasnโt one of those horrendous bosses that paged their employee at all hours of the day and the pay was good enough to keep a roof over your head so there wasnโt much to complain about.
You surprisingly do have quite a bit of freedom and donโt always feel tied to your work so youโre thankful that you have time to visit your friends. Now that none of you are in school its become harder to fit time to see each other in your schedules but today you got lucky to finish a shoot early and you were able to get off sooner than usual.
Seeing Soobinโs friend the other night worked as a reminder to tell you youโre not a loser and actually have friends to visit too and thatโs how you found yourself sitting next to your friend while he played Overwatch at a public game room.
Your computer screen had gone back to sleep mode after you got tired of making random SIMs characters and resorted to spinning in the rolling chair next to him. It was alright for a while but when it had been almost a full hour of this, you couldnโt take it anymore, โWhen you asked to hang out, I thought we would actually be doing something fun.โ
โThis is fun, what are you talking about?โ Beomgyu asked, eyes locked on the screen making you roll your eyes. Youโve been friends since your freshman year of college so his need to pay more attention to his games than you isnโt a surprise but it is annoyingโeven though your roommate was kind of the same.
When you didnโt say anything, Beomgyu tried harder, โSo hows the new living situation?โ
โItโs alright, he seems cool and itโs cheap,โ You told him, still spinning absentmindedly.
Beomgyu nodded, โIs he a weirdo? Like do I have to worry about you popping up on a missing persons ad?โ
โI hope not, but let me share my location with you just in case,โ you joked making him chuckle, โBut honestly, he seems like a good guy. It was kind of weird at first since it all seemed rushed so i was obviously worried but he explained why and its all good nowโ
โSpill the tea, why was he in a hurry to find a roommate?โ Beomgyu asked, visibly more interested in your story than before, but still gaming.
โHis girlfriend slept with his roommate when he was at work,โ You said making Beomgyu gasp dramatically.
โWhoa, what a bitch,โ he said, โI wouldโve fought my roommate.โ
โAnd you wouldโve lost too,โ you said to him making him kick your chair causing it to roll back a bit. Your laughter began to slowly die down when you felt the vibrations of your ringing cellphone. You checked the caller, surprised to see the man in questionโs name on your screen.
โHello?โ
โHave I ever told you youโre the best roommate Iโve ever had?โ Immediately you were taken back by the brightness in his voice. He was obviously being dramatic and you could practically hear the favor heโs going to ask.
โWell itโs not like I have a lot of competition, right?โ You asked, hearing the line go silent for a moment making you wonder if you shouldnโt have said that.
Soobin rolled his eyes but wasnโt mad, โRightโฆ So can you do me a favor? I have to meet up with some friends right after work but my phone is about to die and I donโt have a charger. Is there any way you can bring one to my work?โ
You thought about it for a moment, โNobody has one you can borrow?โ
โYes, but thereโs no way Iโm asking her for it,โ he said with an annoyed sigh. Heโs already asked everyone and theyโve all pointed him to his ex girlfriend, โPlease?โ
You looked back at Beomgyu who started playing his game again, forgetting you were even beside him and with a shrug Soobin couldnโt see, you said, โI guess, Iโll be there in a bit.โ
Soobinโs attempt to thank you was cut short when you hung up abruptly but he was too relieved to care and tucked his phone back into his pocket.
โWant me to ask Jia if you could borrow it?โ His coworker asked when Soobin got back to the counter. He shook his head, โIโve got someone bringing one.โ
He couldnโt believe he forgot his charger and didnโt realize it until he was halfway through his shift with only 15% battery. When he went to the break room in search of his charger, he nearly lost his shit when he couldnโt find it.
At first he hoped his work bestie, Taehyun, would have one but he didnโt and the only other person to ask was his ex. Obviously he wasnโt going to ask her and although he could try and run home after his shift, unless he were to find an outlet at the place he was going with his friends, his phone would be dead anyway.
Soobinโs last resort was to see if there was any way you could just bring it to him. He left it on the entrance table and must have forgot it when he was putting his shoes on and ran out. He was pleasantly surprised that you said yes and it was such a huge relief that he wouldnโt have to ask Jia.
When you walked into the coffee shop you were immediately surrounded by warmth and the smell of espresso beans. It was the first time you ever stepped foot into this cafรจ but it was calm and aesthetically pleasing, somewhere you can talk with friends or do some work. You followed the scent to the front register where a girl with blonde highlights stood with a polite smile on her face.
With wandering eyes toward the menu above her head, you asked, โIs Soobin here?โ
You didnโt notice how that smile fell as she looked at you a little closer and before she could even respond, your roommate came out from behind some door holding a bag of hot to-go cups.
Once Soobin saw you, his heart unintentionally leapt in relief and he quickly set the bag down to go to you. A shy smile spread across his lips, very happy you actually came, โYou brought it?โ
โYes,โ you said, moving to the side of the counter and closer to where he was, beginning to look through your bag for it. Soobin had his hands on the counter waiting patiently as you two stood a few feet away from where his ex was. โBut it wasnโt by the door, you left it on the bed.โ
You felt a little awkward to go to his room but he left the door open and you could see it on the bed. Now, you couldโve easily just leant him yours so you wouldnโt invade his privacy but you werenโt going to risk him forgetting it.
โI did?โ Soobin asked with a somewhat cute tilt of his head, โOops, I swear I left it by the door, thanks though.โ
When you handed it to him, your hands accidentally touched but neither one of you thought much about it, unaware of the people behind the counter watching the interaction.
โDo you want a drink?โ Soobin asked, the least he could do is give you a free drink in thanks plus when he came out he saw you eyeing the menu.
โSure,โ you looked at the menu once again before just saying, โSurprise me.โ
Soobin nodded with a smile as he got to making it while you looked down at the pastries in the dessert case.
By the time he was done and gave you the drink, you were ready to leave but before you could, he said, โI wonโt be home till late.โ
He just meant to give you a heads up that way you knew you had the apartment to yourself and didnโt think about how it would sound to the others.
You left with a goodbye and thanks for the drink and he was left behind to deal with his ex for another three hours.
โSo who was that?โ Taehyun asked, suddenly popping up beside him, catching him off guard and making him scream. Soobin clutched his chest in an attempt to calm his racing heart as he looked at his friend with a dumb expression, โWho?โ
Taehyun couldnโt even pretend to be amused and asked again, โThe person who you were talking to like ten seconds ago.โ
โOh! Thatโs Y/n, sheโs my new roommate,โ Soobin said casually with a shrug of his shoulders.
โThatโs it? I thought you had moved on already, I was impressed,โ Taehyun said with a chuckle as Soobin rinsed out the froth pitcher, โI think Jia got a little worried there for a second.โ
Soobin stopped as he tried to process what his friend was saying, โWhat do you mean?โ
โIโm not gonna lie it kind of looked like the two of you had something going on at first and Jia asked me if I knew her,โ Taehyun told him confidently. Jia left on her break without telling either one of them but now theyโre comfortably talking without her around.
โIt shouldnโt matter to her anyway,โ Soobin muttered under his breath as he moved past Taehyun to help the customer in line. Why does it matter to Jia who he talks to and why does she feel the need to ask Taehyun what he knows? She cheated on him. She betrayed his trust so heavily that he doubts she ever truly cared about him so why is she acting interested or concerned?
Does it bother her to see him talking to someone despite everything sheโs done?
It was a couple days later when he realized your short visit to his work which should have been in the past, wasnโt.
Like the other night, he was stuck working with Jia and he had been counting every minute that passed until the end of his shift since it started. For hours they worked and talked around each other but never intercepted even when he could feel her eyes on him.
When they closed the cafรจ and Soobin was ready to run home and escape her presence, she decided to speak up, โSoobin?โ
For a second he debated ignoring her so he could walk straight to the bus stop and not worry about seeing her for the rest of the night. It was hard to always act unaffected as if she didnโt completely disintegrate his entire confidence and practically shove new insecurities, he never wanted to show, down his throat.
Taking a deep breath, he turned to her wordlessly, waiting to see what she had to say.
โIโฆโ she bit her lip trying to figure out how to word her thoughts, โIโฆ um, I just wanted to know how you were doing.โ
He resisted the urge to scoff as he answered questioning, โIโm good?โ
For the past few weeks heโs worked hard to act like he didn't catch Jia and his roommate kissing on his couch so why was she wanting to know now of all times?
As much as he wanted to go home, part of him wanted to see what was up. Jia met his eyes, still taken back to see his harsh gaze which was a huge contrast than the gentle stare she had grown used to in the last six months.
The obvious look of disbelief on Soobinโs face had her rushing to explain, โI meanโฆ the person who came to visit you the other night. Is she, yknow, are you seeing her?โ
โYou mean Y/n?โ Soobin asked with a tilt of his head. Why was she asking about you?
Jia stood there silently trying to figure out what to say next. What was her point? What was she trying to find out by asking him that? Had she expected him to still be mourning their relationship? Does she have a right to feel worried that heโs moved on so quickly after what she did?
Before she could even try to word a shitty excuse for why she asked in the first place, Soobin had already stopped paying attention to her when he got a text.
you: ordered too much pizza
you: Iโll die if I eat more
you: pls take some
For some reason your sequence of texts brought a slight smile on his face. He put a thumbs up on the message and looked at Jia, โNight.โ
He left her standing there alone as he ran home to his roommate who was slowly beginning to like more and more. He doesnโt even mean it romantically because clearly nowโs not the best time for him but he likes you as a roommate and possible friend? Youโve slowly begun to help each other out and you donโt completely avoid shared spaces so youโve been interacting a little more. He wouldnโt call you a friend just yet but youโre an easy person to live with and he doesnโt have that many people around him so itโs nice talking to you either way.
The two of you text here and there but never about anything important, usually you ask how to fix the hot water and he sends you anime reels he thinks you might enjoy. If heโs up for it, heโll ask if you want any pastries heโs supposed to throw out.
Itโs a very simple arrangement and he much preferred being with you than suffering another second with Jia where he risked asking her every question he had on why he wasnโt good enough.
Itโs a very simple arrangement and he much preferred being with you than suffering another second with Jia where he risked asking her every question he had on why he wasnโt good enough.
By the time Soobin got home, you had moved from the dining room to the couch where you engrossed yourself into some animated movie laying on your side. You barely raised your head to acknowledge him but he smiled anyway as he headed to the kitchen, โThanks for sharing.โ
โNo problem, I overestimated how much I could eat in one setting,โ You mumbled in a tired, raspy tone, โHow was work?โ
Soobin didnโt bother heating up his slice, or even get a plate, and he took a big bite out of the cold pizza, walked out the kitchen to talk, โIt was alright, kinda slow aside from some teens who wouldnโt stop giggling at me.โ
โQuestion, was that girl from the other night your ex or someone else?โ You asked sitting up a bit when you noticed he was trying to sit down.
โYeah thatโs her, Jin, she also asked about you tonight,โ Soobin said seeing it as a joke, โTaehyun said she seemed jealous when I was talking to you.โ
Your brows furrowed with confusion, โDid you tell her I was your roommate?โ
He shook his head, taking a moment to chew before saying, โNo, I didnโt see why it mattered.โ
โTrue, thatโs so weird,โ You released a sigh, resting your elbow on the arm rest and leaning your head on your hand, โWow, no offense but your ex girlfriend is a bitch.โ
He couldnโt hide the look of surprise on his face as you said that but he couldnโt disagreeโhe just wouldโve used kinder words. It was kind of funny though and for some reason hearing you say that made him feel better. His other friends who know about it donโt really ask and they donโt explicitly tell him to his face how they felt about his former girlfriend. It just feels nice to have someone listen and be on his side, it made him want to open up more.
โSorry, I really donโt want to seem mean, I just think its kind of bullshit for her to act jealous because youโre talking to someone. Like, why does she care who I am or how you know me when she cheated on you,โ You said, unable to help yourself from speaking your mind, โEven if I was someone youโre talking to, why is she concerned about it? Did she expect you to just always be hung on her despite what she did?โ
Soobin had to think about that for a second. Thatโs the same thing he had originally thought too but he tried to ignore it because it seemed wrong. He thought that maybe he was reading into it too much and Jia wasnโt actually jealous but now that youโre saying it too, he canโt help but wonder. She also talked to him tonight and even at work when they didnโt speak, she was looking at him constantly. She even tried helping him once but he just blew her off to do it on his own. Itโs like tonight she was trying to remind him she was still around and that confused him.
โDo you think thatโs true though?โ He asked. You shrugged trying not to seem too invested but it was too late. Soobin is a good guy and now that youโve met the girl, you just canโt wrap your mind around what she did. Cheating is already a huge betrayal but to do it with someone Soobin knew and lived with? To do it in the apartment, Soobin paid for? Thatโs the lowest of the low.
โI honestly do.โ
What you said stayed on his mind for days. It didnโt help that Jia was trying to talk to him at work and last night she looked at his instagram story despite the fact they unfollowed each other. He just doesnโt get it. What did she want with him now?
When he came into work today, there was his favorite drink in his locker that he knew was from Jia because Taehyun had told her. Thankfully he wasnโt working with her now but Taehyun had filled him in. Apparently, she came in with drinks and he saw her putting it in Soobinโs locker.
โI donโt get her,โ Soobin said with a huff of frustration, โWhy does she keep doing these things?โ
โHonestly, she probably regrets fucking up and wants to get on your good side again,โ Taehyun said as he made a hot matcha latte for a customer that Soobin was ringing up.
โBut why?โ
โWhat if she wants to get you back?โ Taehyun asked as he finished the drink and handed it to the customer. He turned back to Soobin, realization hitting him like a truck and he gasped, โOh my god. She probably thinks youโve moved on already and wants to get you back! Thatโs really bold of her to think youโd fall for it, right?โ
โRight. You donโt think she is though, right? Why would she cheat on me just to try and get back with me?โ Soobin asked and his voice was laced with confusion.
โBecause she probably thinks itโs going to work and youโll fall for it. God I knew based off her MBTI that she was going to try something, I could see the determination in her eyes when she saw Y/n.โ
Soobin couldnโt help but scoff with a laugh. Why were you the reason Jia suddenly wanted to notice him again? You and Soobin were nothing but roommates, the only time you ever talk is during your daily debriefings when youโre getting midnight snacks. You donโt text and you donโt do anything together so itโs comical that you apparently worried his ex girlfriend enough based off one interaction to try and get him backโhe wouldnโt do it, he should add.
โWait! You know what you should do?โ Taehyun dropped a itcher into the sink haphazardly as the idea came to mind, โImagine if you started dating Y/n and made it known to Jia that youโve moved on. Sheโs only putting in effort again because she probably thinks she can get you back. You gotta make her think youโre over her.โ
โFirst of all, I am over her and second, Y/n and I donโt like each other like that,โ Soobin said, making Taehyun roll his eyes.
โI donโt mean like actually date, I meanโฆ make Jia think you are that way she can back off and wonโt think she has a chance,โ Taehyun said.
Soobin froze, looking at his friend in disbelief. Taehyun said it so casually like what he said wasnโt a big deal at all and Soobin just couldnโt believe it. He was completely lost by the whole and after an awkward silence between the two he just shook his head feeling a blush rise in his cheeks as he said, โThat is a really bad idea.โ
It was an awful idea and too much work. Soobin didnโt need to prove anything to anyone and why would he make Jia believe he was over her when he knew he was? She could try and talk to him all she wants but it wonโt make a difference to him, honestly. It is kind of annoying that neither Taehyun or Yeonjun believed he was over Jia and now it seems like Jia doesnโt think so too? Why else would she be making this much effort to talk to him again?
Taehyunโs words were stuck in his head now and it made no sense. Why would he drag you into his problems and why would you want to do it? You probably have things going on in your own life that there's no reason to bother you with his. Sure, youโve been fun to talk to since youโre not his usual circle of friends but thatโs it. You donโt know each other well enough to do that.
โHey,โ when he got home that night, he could tell by the tone of your voice that something was off. You were in the kitchen washing some dishes when he walked in.
โHey,โ Soobin greeted as he began taking his shoes off at the door, โHow was your day?โ
โIt was alright. I almost cried in the bathroom because my boss yelled at me for getting her the wrong milk in her coffee,โ you said with a shrug, โAnd yours?โ
โOh,โ Soobin said, blinking slowly trying to figure out if he should ask if you were okay or just say his part. โUm, it was nice, I worked with my friend but he said the craziest thing I had ever heard and it threw me off.โ
You dried your hands off with the towel and walked past him, heading to your room but still holding conversation, โWhatโd he say?โ
โHe said that I should pretend to date you,โ the words completely slipped from his and the second they were said, he felt his body tense up and his face go blank. You stopped at your door, turning to look at his confused state when he suddenly rushed to say, โI meanโฆ Sheโs been trying to talk lately and I donโt know what sheโs doing but itโs like she thinks we can get back together.โ
He bit his lip and he just couldnโt stop talking, โSo, Taehyun said I needed to make her think I was over her and that I should get your help but I thought it was an awful idea. Like, I donโt need to prove anything to her if anyone else and thereโs no way you would ever do something likโI would never ask you too and I know I should stop talking about it but you asked and for some reason I always just tell you whatโs going and I canโt stop, oh my god.โ
He covered his face with his hands, unable to see the way a smile played on your lips at his rambling. With a deep sigh you opened your bedroom door, โGoodnight.โ
He waved goodbye, still refusing to look at you and stormed to his room in embarrassment. You got in yours and laid in bed where you got on your phone and immediately told your friends.
you: I think my roommate is weird
beomgyu: why
you: idk, just strange
kai: aww, ur twinning w/him (โกหอ ๊ณ หอ)
you: โฆ ( โขแทโเกโขแท )
beomgyu: (โธโธโธโโธ ๏ฝก โธโโธโธโธ)
you: anyway, he was talking about fake dating like this is a wattpad story
kai: do it, his ex is a bitch
Lately, itโs been getting hard for Soobin to look forward to the cafรฉ. Itโs such a huge contrast to the work he does at his internship that going to the cafe sometimes feels relaxing and not like work at all but these past few weeks have been dreadful. Itโs very hard to ignore someone who hurt you when you have to work with her. Itโs a constant reminder and everyone seems to always point it out. Taehyung was right, she was trying to do something with him again and itโs becoming even more noticeable everytime he goes to work.
โAre you going to Yunaโs party this weekend?โ Jia asked him. The shop had been slow so he busied himself with closing duties, hoping he could get done sooner and meet his friend.
โProbably,โ Soobin answered absently.
โOh, maybe Iโll see you there,โ Jia said with a nervous laugh, โI gotta be honest, Soobin itโs strange being so distant.โ
Soobin scoffed, looking at her in disbelief. What was wrong with her and why did she act like there isnโt a cause for this distance.
Just as he was debating telling her how he felt, the bell above the door chimed and they both got ready to greet them with a customer service smile. His soon turned into a real smile despite his confusion at the surprise, โWhat are you doing here?โ
โI want coffee?โ Your tone was questioning but light as you got to the counter, trying not to look at the girl again.
Itโs been a bit awkward since Soobin made that weird comment the other night but youโre tired of acting bothered by it. It was harmless and your friends thought it was funny [ and a good idea? ] but you just thought it was bizarre. You think itโs strange and although you wanted to avoid Soobin itโs very hard when you get to know him. Heโs kind of cute actuallyโnot looks wise but personality wise.
โNice,โ Soobin said with a nod of his head although he made no move to ring you up or make you a drink. You looked from him down to the register, โCan I order yet?โ
โOh, yes,โ he cleared his throat awkwardly and waited for you to say something. Once he rang up your drink, he gave a discount and left to make it while you paid.
Honestly, he thought you were mad at him for what he said. He still has no idea why he brought up what Taehyun said but the way you ignored him let him know it was a mistake at the time. Heโs been worried for days that he crossed the line but now youโre here talking to him like everything is normal. It makes him feel better.
You could feel Jiaโs eyes on you and this time around it bothered you. Why was she glaring at you like you were the problem? You donโt even know her and itโs very obvious thereโs nothing between you and Soobin. Why would it matter to her if there was or wasnโt?
โAre you off already?โ Soobin asked handing you your drink over the counter.
You nodded, โKind of? I still have some stuff to finish up but the WiFi at home is lagging.โ
โJust work here then,โ Soobin said motioning toward the tables, โConnect to the internet and keep me company.โ
Now that he knows youโre not bothered by him itโs been like a confidence boost to try and befriend you again. He just needed the assurance that you werenโt going to ditch him and move out so for you to come and talk to him felt good. He was worried he scared you off.
With a dramatic sigh, you pretended to give in, โOh, I guess I could do that. Iโll just stay a bit.โ
โOr you could stay till Iโm off and we can go home together,โ Soobin said but the sound of the espresso machine grumbling stole your attention instead. Jia was cleaning it already and had no problem cutting your conversation short with the loudness of it.
She was clearly annoyed with you being here and you just couldnโt understand it. Why was she so mad when sheโs the one who ruined her relationship with Soobin? Soobin deserved so much better and it annoys you that sheโs the one upset now.
โMaybe, who knows if I want to wait that long,โ you said playfully, watching him leave the counter to talk to you. You were the only one in the shop and he didnโt care either way, youโre his saving grace from spending this last hour with Jia trying to talk to him.
โPlease? Iโll buy you food on the way,โ he said, feeling your eyes on him.
He wore a cream colored crew neck and light washed baggy jeans, a brown apron tied at his waist and even his glasses tonight. You donโt see him in his glasses often so it was a nice surprise, โAlright, you got me. Iโll stay.โ
What really made you decide on staying wasnโt his begging or his offer to buy you food but it was actually knowing he probably wanted to avoid any more alone time with his ex. You already pitied the guyโs circumstances and you couldnโt just leave him to suffer while he begged for your help.
So you stayed, you had to remind Soobin every now and then to get back to work when he would lose track of time telling you whatever was on his mind and forget a customer was around. Jia did not acknowledge you at all, not until the very end when she came up to you and with a snarky tone said, โHeads up, we close in ten minutes.โ
โOkay,โ you flashed her a polite but strained smile, โIโm just waiting for Soobin.โ
โI know, but youโll have to leave when weโre closing,โ she said bluntly.
โReally? Thanks for the heads up,โ you put your headphones back on and turned your attention to your laptop, making it known you werenโt going to talk to her anymore and with a slight roll of her eyes, she left.
After a minute or so, you closed your laptop and put your things away. You got up from the table as Soobin was coming out with things he was planning on restocking and when he saw you get up, he practically dropped it all to go to you, โWhat are you doing?โ
โIโm just going to wait outside,โ you said with a shrug, slinging your backpack over your shoulders.
โBuโโ
โSoobin, can you start cleaning out the espresso machines?โ Jia asked with an annoyed tone and with a huff in irritation, he watched you make your leave till he was alone once again.
He didnโt bother talking to her as he finished up his chores and the cafรจ was filled with an uncomfortable silence the remainder of the time. Heโs been cleaning all evening but Jia wants to remind him about the espresso machines just because she sees him talking to you. Itโs crazy and Soobin doesnโt know how to speak up.
He has so much he wants to say but then he gets worried heโs being rude or overthinking things that he ends up just staying silent anyway. Thatโs probably why his relationship with Jia was so rocky from the beginningโand also why he didn't argue when he caught her. He just doesnโt want to be in uncomfortable situations.
You had honestly debated just going home despite Soobin wanting you to stay. It was freezing cold out and you only had a thin sweater that did nothing to keep you warm. You had every right to just go home but he asked you so nicely and Jia was kind of rude when she tried kicking you out and it makes your pettiness want to show through.
When Soobin and Jia finally finished closing, she waited around while she locked the door looking like she had something to say but he wouldnโt even turn to look at her. Instead, he looked around for you, worried you had left already but he found you sitting on the curb, surprising him in the process. Jia didnโt seem to see you there either and it was hard for her to hide the look of displeasure when you got up.
โSo what are you feeding me?โ You asked, hugging your arms around yourself to fight off the cold wind from the winter air. Soobin didnโt hesitate to take off his jacket, leaving him only in a crewneck and pulling it around you.
โSomething warm?โ He asked, looking at the tip of your nose which was a deep shade of red. The two of you left without so much as a goodbye and when you were out of earshot he added, โAlso, thanks for waiting. I thought you wouldโve left and now I feel bad that you had to wait outside. I wouldโve said something but you were already leaving and I assumed you got mad and went home.โ
โI was going to,โ you said honestly as he held the door open to some Korean hotpot tent restaurant, โBut I decided against it. Also, Iโve got something to say.โ
โOh yeah?โ He asked, sitting down at a table across from you.
โI can tell you struggle a little bit speaking your mind and she talks to you like she still has a say over what you do,โ you said to him, โAnd she was kind of rude? Like, she didnโt say anything mean to me but itโs obvious she doesnโt like me for talking to you and I donโt think thatโs fair. So, is there any way we can make her know you donโt want her without you having to tell her harshly?โ
It took him a moment to process everything you had said in such a short time and he wondered if you had said anything at all. Maybe he imagined you saying that because itโs been in his mind lately and he couldnโt see what you would gain anything from it so why would you help him?
He should just tell you itโs not something you have to do. If you were to go along with a charade just so that it looks like heโs moved on from his ex. He knows he has, he just canโt be mean. All he can do is ignore her but that doesnโt seem to be stopping Jia from approaching him. No, it still doesnโt mean he has to drag you into something useless.
โWell, thereโs a party this weekend that I know sheโll be at.โ
Pulling it off was harder than you had originally thought and thereโs very specific reasons for this.
One, appearing as anything aside from friends or roommates was hard considering you were still at an awkward stage of friendship. You knew Soobin and how he looked in the mornings but youโve no clue what his favorite movie is or favorite color or even his zodiac sign. You knew his ex girlfriend was a cheating bitch but you donโt know what his internship is or what his major was in college so when someone at the party asked you things about Soobinโฆ you had no idea what to say.
Two, youโre not sure if the chemistry is there. So far, you donโt think youโre pulling it off. Sure, Soobin has remained at your side since the two of you got here but you think you both look stiff and nervous. Even when someone expects him to introduce you, it feels weird and youโre not sure how close youโre supposed to seem.
โYou two suck,โ Taehyun said [the first time he had ever spoken to you too], โPut some flavor into this. Hold hands, act cute, give me emotion because I can tell you right now, Jia wonโt think sheโs got competition.
Soobin rolled his eyes, โShh, this is harder than we thought it would beโ a-nd itโs not about competition.โ
โReally? Because Yuna asked me who you brought because Jia was asking her, something about you not wanting to talk to her?โ Taehyun said with a chuckle, โItโs like sheโs completely forgotten what happened.โ
You hadnโt spoken up once this entire time but Soobin was beginning to look visibly uncomfortable talking about his ex in a crowded place. Usually heโs open when youโre at home and youโre the only one listening to him but right now he keeps glancing around anxiously.
โShould we get a drink?โ You asked him suddenly, watching him nod his head eagerly in an attempt to leave his friend who said too many things he didnโt want to hear right now.
โSorry for him, he just says things sometimes andโโ
โItโs alright,โ you laughed softly, making your way to the kitchen where the countertop was filled with various bottles. Soobin was right behind you, not wanting to lose you in the crowd.
He doesnโt understand you. Youโre so nice to him and he doesnโt know what to make of it. You donโt question him or make him talk when he doesnโt want to. You seem to have some understanding of what he wants and he doesnโt even have to tell you anything.
He knows youโre just helping him out so he doesnโt look like a sore loser at a party he knows his ex-girlfriend is at but for the moment, he wants to forget Jia is here. Can he just have one night where his past relationship isnโt brought up by Taehyun or Yeonjun or anybody else? Can he just pretend like the two of you are here as friends just hanging out and not because you somewhat pitied his circumstances?
โYou look pretty tonight,โ the words slipped before he could stop himself and he immediately turned red in embarrassment, โI meanโฆ yknowโฆโ
โThanks,โ you said casually as you filled a cup of whatever interested you, โI actually put in effort, just for you.โ
You didnโt think much about what you said even though you could see the blush in his cheeks. It was a bit surprising actually. At first, you thought Soobin was just some distant gamer you shared an apartment with but little by little youโve gotten to know him more. Heโs still shy like you first assumed but heโs also kind of cute, as a friend you mean. It would be weird to think of him as anything but that considering what heโs gone through lately.
He couldnโt help but smile, trying to hide it by biting his lower lip but his dimple still showed through and for a second he just stood there looking at you. You handed him a drink and as he opened his mouth to say something else, a familiar feminine voice came from behind him.
โSoobin? Is this where youโve been hiding all night?โ Yuna asked as she entered the kitchen with a smile, โI kept hearing everyone say you were here but I couldnโt find you. Hey buddy.โ
โHey Yuna,โ Soobin said with a smile. Yuna was one of the few other baristas from work and someone he did enjoy working with. She was bubbly and nice so they got along easily but sheโs more friends with Jia than him. He still canโt tell if she knew Jia cheated on him or not and he hasnโt bothered saying anything. She knew something happened to make them break up but neither have gone into it for different reasons. He didnโt want to tell the whole world he was cheated on and Jia didnโt want to seem like the lying cheater she was.
โThis is Y/n,โ Soobin said suddenly, grabbing your hand and pulling you toward his side, โSheโs my uh, umโฆโ
โFriend,โ you said, emphasizing on the word that it sounded like it had a double meaning and he couldnโt tell if you did it on purpose. Did you mean friend, like how heโs friends with Yeonjun and Taehyun? Or did you mean, friend, like something more?
While he tried to decipher it, Yuna seemed to pick up on the tone much faster than he did and her smile strained slightly. โReally? Thatโs, uh, thatโs great. Have you seen Jia yet?โ
โWho?โ You asked Soobin, looking cutely confused, feigning innocence as you touched his arm.
โThe girl from work,โ Soobin said despite you already knowing. The room began to feel hot as Yuna stared at you and Soobin couldnโt take the heat. He didnโt like the way it seemed like she was trying to pick you apart with her eyesโprobably seeing if there was anything she should tell Jiw and he couldnโt take it. It had him taking big sips of his drink to satiate his dry mouth, completely ignoring the heavy taste of alcohol.
โBinnie,โ your use of a nickname nearly sent him in a spiral, it was the first time youโve ever called him as such and there was a possibility it was all for show.
โYeah?โ He cleared his throat awkwardly, ignoring Yuna to turn to you.
โDonโt drink so fast, okay?โ Concern was evident in your tone but you didnโt seem displeased. You just worried about having to haul a 6-foot-something drunk man back to your apartment when he wasnโt your boyfriend.
He looked down at his empty cup, realizing he really did chug back the full drink quickly and the thought alone made him dizzy. Heโs usually good at knowing his limit but heโs been nervous all night. When you first got here he got a drink that emptied out right after he saw Taehyun for the first time. It was before Taehyun had even approached you two because he was in the middle of some game but it made Soobin nervous. He had to tell his friend ahead of time that he was bringing you but then the thought of Taehyun saying something he should had him anxious and he chugged his drink then too.
Now, Yunaโs here bringing up Jia once again and on top of that youโve called him a friend but your tone sounded different than usual and you held his arm and called him Binnieโand it all just became too much.
What was wrong with him?
โSoobin?โ You said his name a little while after the kitchen encounter and you sounded so distant despite standing right next to him. Just by looking at him, you could tell he was at least tipsy.
His cheeks were flushed, his eyes a bit lazy and he just seemed less stiff than earlier. Heโs also leaning into you a bit, no longer caring who saw or what people thought of it but more so for a sense of comfort as his vision blurred with the alcohol in his system. โHm?โ
โYou okay?โ You asked as he blinked slowly, โYou donโt seem as nervous anymore.โ
โOh! Um,โ he looked down at you and how close the two of you had grown, making him grin, โIโm fine, Iโm with you.โ
โOkayโฆ but let me know when youโre ready to call it a night,โ you said with a small yawn and he couldnโt help but look to your lips, blinking away the thought as you pressed your lips closed and looked off in the distance.
He shook his head, trying to clear his thoughts a bit but right now everything seemed fuzzy. The night had been fine at first. He hadnโt been nervous at all and was actually a bit excited to get a chance to hang out with you [aside from the night you stopped to get food] and he had been thinking on how it would go all day.
When the two of you got to the party he had met up with Taehyun and he had a good time with him too so the only time he ever felt uncomfortable was when he was reminded of the situation. Talking about Jia didnโt bother him as much as the reminder that everyone knew about it did. On top of that, anytime someone looked at you or asked who you were, he would get nervous. He doesnโt know whatโs going on with him.
Just as you were going to ask him one more time if he was okay, you felt a sudden weight pressed against your shoulder as Soobin leaned into your side. He felt heavy against your arm and his head dipped low enough that his face was pressing into yours, โI think Iโm ready.โ
โReady?โ You ask, feeling your heart race as the warmth of his breath fanned your neck and his hand brushed against yours like he was debating reaching for yours. When you looked at him, it was finally noticeable that whatever he drank tonight had taken effect and he was finally drunk. Heโs more quiet than you expected. His cheeks are red with a blush and his lips a bit pouty making him look a little cute.
He nodded his head aggressively, โLetโs go home.โ
You didnโt question his decision and took his hand in yours when he swayed in his step and looked around for his friend so they could at least say their goodbyes. Every now and then you would look back to see how he was hanging but he seemed perfectly content having a blank mind and being dragged behind you.
โSoob? You good there, buddy?โ Taehyun asked once he saw his friendโs state of drunkenness and placed a soothing hand on his tall friendโs back.
โYesh,โ Soobin said, leaning into your back, โGoing home.โ
Taehyun looked over at you with concerned eyes, โAre you alright? Sorry, I think he had too much to drink.โ
โIโm good, the last bus will pass soon so weโll just get home that way,โ You told him, scanning the people around at the party, eyes catching on the one person you didnโt care to see.
Jia didnโt shy back from your short eye contact and she looked far from happy at the way Soobin was clinging to youโsomething he never did with her. To be fair, Jia was usually the one out at parties and getting wasted so she didnโt give him many chances to be the drunk one with no worries.
It bothered her to see how comfortable Soobin had gotten with another girl after their break up.
โAlright, iโll give you my number and just let me know if you two get home safe,โ Taehyun said before leaning closer into you, โAlso, Soobin really likes being around you. Be safe.โ
His friend left after that and for a moment you thought about what he just said, wondering how he meant it and if you were too hard into it.
โY/n,โ Soobin whined against you, โHome, please.โ
โOh my god, okay, let's go,โ You said with a small laugh as he followed after you as got to the door.
Soobin was tired, he always got sleepy when he drank too much and when the two of you got on the empty bus, he couldnโt help but rest his head against the window. You didnโt pay much attention to him on the ride home but every now and then he could feel your eyes on him probably wondering how he was holding up. Going up to your apartment was another challenge trying to drag Soobin up the stairs without stumbling up the steps.
โThanks,โ Soobin yawned cutely as he rubbed his tired eyes, waving you goodnight.
You went to your room silently, flashing him a smile as you left and once your door was shut, you immediately began to undress. It had been a long night and all you wanted was to crawl in bed, scroll in your phone and go to sleep. You didnโt drink as much as Soobin did so the alcohol didnโt have the same effect on you but you were still tired. It was nice getting to hang out with him for a while despite the reason or who was around. At some points you were able to forget who was there but when you would catch sight of Jia and think back to Soobin, you just couldnโt understand why she would ever do that to someone.
Now changed into your pajamas, too tired to do anything more, you were halfway crawling on your bed when there was a soft thud on your door and a small whine of your name, โY/n.โ
โYes, Soobin?โ You asked with a sigh and a smile as you heard your roommate on the other side of the door, โI thought you were going to bed.โ
โIโm not tired, can I come in?โ He asked and you could practically see the pout on his lips. It was about midnight so you should just turn him away but you could hear the shuffling on the other side of the door and before you knew it, you were unlocking your bedroom door and letting him in.
โWhatโs wrong?โ You asked as he hesitated to sit on the edge of your bed.
โNothing,โ he answered honestly, โI justโฆ I wanted to see what you were up to, were you going to bed?โ
โI was probably just going to be on my phone a bit,โ you laid down on your usual spot reaching for the remote to your television, โWhat should I watch?โ
You didnโt outwardly tell him to lay down next to you but the way you moved your things to your side, it was easy to assume you didnโt mind. Soobin was still hesitant to lay down with his back against your headboard but once you made no sign to kick him out, he let himself relax as you scrolled through Netflix.
โSomething scary,โ Soobin said, barely paying attention as he looked around your bedroom. This was the first time he had stepped into it since you moved in and it looks completely different than what it did before. He couldnโt explain into words but it looked like a room you would have. It was like an insight to who you are from the pictures on your walls to the clothes by your closet. It was cozy and your bed was so soft he found himself yawning.
โYou surprised me tonight,โ You told him as you finally settled on a movie about a haunted house, โFirst because you were surprisingly populโโ
โWhyโs that a surprise?โ Soobin asked, slightly more alert as he looked at you, โIโm a catch.โ
โYou are,โ you said casually, โI just meantโฆ a lot of people like you.โ
He couldnโt help but bite his lips at your words. He didnโt mean to seem overly confident or anything but he knew he was somewhat likable. He tried being nice and friendly to everyone and clearly sometimes that didnโt work in his favor when it came to relationships but heโs always had people around him. Not everyone he would consider a real friend but the ones he have right now or the real deal.
Taehyun and him got along from the moment they met at work. Soobinโs the one who trained Taehyun when he first started and they just got super close from there.
Yeonjun has been his best friend for as long as he can remember and they even fight like an old bickering couple too.
Sometimes they donโt understand himโlike when they thought he was still upset over Jia, and he needs a break from them but thatโs where you came along. Youโre one of his friends now too so does that mean you also like him?
As a friend?
As more?
No, not as more. He was getting ahead of himself.
โDonโt say those things to me, Y/n,โ Soobin whined, hiding behind a pillow.
โWhy?โ You asked with a small laugh as he curled himself up on your bed, looking every bit out of place in your Sanrio bed sheets and his tall frame.
โBecause, theyโll get to my head,โ he confessed, sitting up a little to regain himself, โSo whatโs the other reason you were surprised by me?โ
You hummed in thought, โYouโre surprisingly cute when youโre drunk, and really clingy.โ
It was clear that throughout the time it took to get home, Soobin had sobered up enough to have clearer thoughts and you just wanted to be honest. Itโs what you believed and you hoped he wouldnโt take it the wrong way and think you were hitting on him. Sure, Soobin is attractive for many reasons and you enjoy hanging out with him but just think about the circumstances. Heโs your roommate and he just got out of a relationship with someone who cheated on him.
โI mean,โ you cleared your throat awkwardly, acting like you were watching the movie, โI bet you really sold it to Jia that you were seeing someone. Thereโs no way sheโll try and get you to go out with her again now.โ
At the reminder, Soobin seemed to sigh, โYeah.โ
For a second he had thought you were going to say something else. He doesnโt know what heโs feeling at the moment and it worries him but at the same time itโs exciting and he wished he didnโt react this way to you and so soon.
โDo you work tomorrow?โ You asked him, letting out a small yawn as you made yourself more comfortable indeed the covers.
โOnly in the afternoon,โ Soobin said, looking over at you hopefully, โWhy? Do you want to do something?โ
โI have to work, if I get off early I might stop by,โ You said, looking back at him too. You could see the small dimple in his cheek become more prominent as he resisted the urge to smile, nodding his head.
With a small sigh, Soobin checked the time and sat up, โOkay, Iโll let you sleep.โ
For some reason he wanted to do or say more but heโs not sure what he wouldโve been able to say in the first place. You got up after him so you could close the door on his way out but at the door, you both stopped to look at each other.
โI did have fun tonight,โ you told him truthfully.
Soobin stood at the door looking down at you with his lip pulled between his teeth. It was becoming more obvious that he liked being around you. He thought you were pretty and fun to be with and you have yet to make him feel poorly. Heโs very aware of the fact that heโs only been single for a little over a month but he canโt deny the sudden race in his heart when youโre around.
It scares him to think he might be feeling something toward you at such an awkward time.
โGoodnight.โ
Things slowly began to change between you two and neither one of you knew what to do about that sort of thing. On one hand, Soobin wanted to see if you would like to spend more time together but he also wasnโt sure if he was ready. It has nothing to do with how he felt toward his ex girlfriend and more with how he felt at possibly seeing someone again.
Jia was a major push to his confidence and definitely raised his insecurities and trust issues so he thought he would stay single for a while. Plus, you were his roommate which could pose an entirely different problem and yet none of that has helped him stop thinking about you. Itโs been days from the party and he knows hes been slightly more in your bubble than before but its only because he doesnโt know how to read you.
How is he supposed to know how you might feel about him and how should he feel about it?
โYouโre overthinking it,โ Yeonjun said as he sat across from Soobin and Yeonjun who were in their matching brown aprons as part of the cafeโs unofficial uniform. The cafe was empty aside from a couple college students grossly immersed in their studies to care that the only two workers were currently siting at a table with a friend. Every now and then the three would feel the eyes of some high school girl gawking at them through the shop windows but none dared to enter making the cafe slow with traffic.
โIf you like her, why canโt you at least try?โ Yeonjun asked him like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
โBecause sheโs my roommate and what if that just messes things up completely?โ Soobin asked.
โI mean, Y/n seemed pretty into you at the party,โ Taehyun said with a shrug of his shoulders.
Soobin shook his head, โNo, she was just being nice. I was drunk and probably embarrassed myself so thereโs no way she liked itโwell, okay she said it was cute, but do you think she meant it?โ
Yeonjun reached across the small table and pinched Soobinโs cheek hard, pouting his lips in a kiss as he gushed over his friend, โOf course she meant it, just look at you. Who can resist this bunny face?โ
Just as Soobin was ready to fight Yeonjun off, the familiar bell above the door rang and a loud burst of energy came through the door.
โKai, I swear to god, if you donโt stop Iโm going to bite you,โ a guy said as he smacked another guy off and the two cafe workers couldnโt help but snap into attention and get behind the counter.
โY/n,โ Kai said with a forced whiny voice, โSave me.โ
โDonโt touch me,โ you pushed him off as you looked around the cafรจ for Soobin.
Just a couple feet away from you, he stood there with his lips parted in surprise before letting his eyes drift off to the two guys behind you. A smile spread across his lips as he left Taehyun and Yeonjun to go to you, โHi, what are you doing here?โ
โWe were just at the arcade across the street so I figured why not stop for a drink?โ You said with a gentle smile that had him practically giggling.
โOh, so you didnโt come just to see me?โ Soobin teased, a flirty undertone in his voice. He couldnโt help but glance back to the guys, curious who they were.
Since you moved in, you havenโt brought anyone home and he assumed you were single since you offered to go with him to a partyโand let him on your bed, but now heโs not sure. What if everything you were doing really was as a friend and heโs just overthinking it all?
โSadly no, I really need coffee,โ you joked as he went to the counter to get you a drink. Taehyun was helping the two guys while you talked to Soobin and he couldnโt wait to be done so he can ask who they were.
โO-oh,โ he cleared his throat awkwardly as he began to make it, ringing you up and trying to apply some sort of discount so you wouldnโt have to pay full price. Before he could tell you your total,one of the guys who was with you gave him cash to pay.
Beomgyu placed his hand on your shoulder as he leaned down to whisper, โIs this him?โ
You just nodded your head ignoring his growing smile as he thanked Soobin for his change back and ruffled your hair, โHurry up, I need real food.โ
โAre you gonna be home later?โ Soobin asked as the guys left through the door, waiting outside but looking in and it was clear they were talking about you. He wanted to say he was just curious for no reason but part of him wanted to know if you would be out with them.
โProbably, not till late though, I think weโre probably gonna go have a drink or two,โ you said with a shrug and this was the perfect time for Soobin to ask who they were. Were they just friends? Was one of them something more? Have you been in any relationship?
โLet me know if you want me to pick you up,โ Soobin said, โI-I mean, yknow, repay the favor from the other night that I embarrassed myself.โ
โYou didnโt,โ you rolled your eyes looking around. Your friends were waiting and you had your drink so you shouldโve left by now but instead youโre looking at his two friends. Taehyun had gone with Yeonjun again and itโs the first time in a while you saw Yeonjun. When you first met him he had gone over to the apartment and you had thought he was attractive. You still do but not in the same context anymore. Taehyun waved at you enthusiastically which you did back and looked back at Soobin, โIt was cute, but should I call you tonight then? Or will you be asleep.โ
โIโll hear you come home either way, so come say hi even if itโs late,โ Soobin said, making you nod your head.
โOkay, well I have to go before they come and drag me out,โ you told him as you pointed to your two friends who were getting annoyed waiting out there.
โY/n,โ he called for you but when you looked back at him, he couldnโt bring himself to ask, โNevermind, be safe.โ
Soobin waved you goodbye and watched you leave with the guy from earlier wrapping his arm around your shoulders.
โGod, Bin, you canโt even hide it,โ Yeonjun said with a chuckle as Soobin joined them again, โYou looked jealous.โ
โWhat?โ Soobin looked at him with big doe eyes, looking every bit clueless as he felt, โNo, I justโI donโt, um, Y/nโsโฆ did I?โ
They both nodded their heads and Taehyun said, โYes but not too much. We noticed because weโre your best friends but Iโm sure none of them could tell. You were all smiley and blush which is major cringecore with Y/n but any time you looked at those guys, youโd glare.โ
โI donโt glare,โ Soobin muttered under his breath as he stared at the window, โBesides, I donโt know if one of them is dating Y/n so thereโs no point in doing anything now.โ
โYou didnโt bother to ask!?โ Yeonjun and Taehyun asked at the same time that it caused Soobin to jump, feeling startled.
โIโm sorry but if I was into someone and I was in their bed and then I see them talking to someone, you better believe Iโm going to ask who!โ Yeonjun added, making Soobin groan in frustration that he couldnโt just man up and ask.
Itโs clear thereโs no point in pretending he isnโt catching feelings for you and he has to figure out how to tell you. The only problem is if you reject him, he wonโt be sure how to live with you anymoreโespecially if you were to date someone.
He shouldโve just acted curious and asked who they were.
โYou guys are so annoying,โ you said with a groan as you followed after your two best friends who were fighting down the street.
โSoobin and Y/n, kissing in a tree! K-I-S-Sโow, ow, ow!โ Kai cried out as you pulled his ear.
โThis is why I donโt tell you guys anything,โ you said when they laughed. Kai was doing that creepy evil loud laugh he always does and Beomgyu is just instigating it.
โFirst of all, you tell us everything,โ Beomgyu pointed out, โAnd whatโs the problem? Pretty sure he likes you too.โ
โOh my god, I donโt like SooโI mean, heโs my roommate, it would be weird,โ you said, โPlus, he just got out of a relationship.โ
โYeah like two months ago or something, and she cheated on him,โ Kai said before clutching his chest, โYou could heal his heart.โ
โCorny,โ Beomgyu yelled and the two laughed again.
โWhatever, letโs just go eat.โ
It took a lot of convincing from his friends for him to actually agree to just go for it. He had been debating it for a while now and each day that passed where he gets to see you first thing in the morning or last thing at night just reminds him he wants to keep seeing you. Heโs not sure how much more he could go just acting like a friend.
He likes everything about you and heโs not good at hiding it. Usually, it takes him a while to fall for someone.
When he met Jia its because they were partners in chemistry one semester and she helped him get the job at the cafe so he could make more money aside from his internship. Truth be told, Jia kind of scared him at first because she never hid her interest from him. She was aggressive with it and he didnโt know how to react so he never made a move on her.
Sheโs the one who had to ask him and even then, he didnโt say yes right away because he hadnโt been sure if it was something he wanted to do. Over time he obviously grew feelings for her but the relationship never felt as easy as his friendship with you did.
So really, the realization of how differently and strongly he felt for you in such a short time was an indicator that he clearly had strong feelings for you.
When he got home after the cafe, he had a strong sense of confidence that was going to be his push to just go for it. He had been talking himself up all day and had decided the worst thing that could happen is you say no. He could live with thatโฆ maybe.
โY/n?โ Soobin called out to you as he dropped his things at the door, โYou home?โ
You were in your room reading some poetry book with music playing quietly and he knocked on your open door. You looked up at him, sliding your headphones down to your neck, โHey.โ
You sat up a little, motioning for him to come inside and he looked around nervously, โAre you busy?โ
โNo?โ You smiled as you looked down at your book, โWhatโs up?โ
Soobin bit his lip in thought as he tried to figure out how to word it before saying, โDo you want toโฆ I donโt know, get food? Maybe go for a walk later?โ
โUm, sure?โ You said with a racing heart, โWhat time?โ
โUm, an hour? Forty five minutes?โ Soobin asked, more eager now knowing youโll hang out with him, โThirty?โ
โIn thirty minutes?โ You asked, โOkay.โ
โOkay, Iโm just gonna change and probably, uh,โ Soobin blinked nervously, โGet ready.โ
โOkay,โ you laughed softly as he nearly stumbled out the door. Once your door was shut, you jumped out of bed and straight to your vanity where you hoped to make yourself look a little better.
This wasnโt a date.
Soobin didnโt ask you out, he just asked you to get food.
How would you feel if he were to ask you on a date? Would he ever do that or does he only see you as a friend? For all you know, heโs sworn off dating completely.
When you left with Soobin at your side, things were normal. You talked about normal things, laughed about normal things and for a while you were able to forget your worries. You were just spending time with someone you enjoy spending time with without thinking every little thing over nonstop.
โSo whatโs your type?โ Soobin asked so suddenly that you nearly choked on your water. Usually heโs not so forward with his questions so it caught you off guard. The two of you were at a small restaurant and it felt oddly like a date when he asked you things like this.
With an awkward clear of your throat, you said, โUm, Iโm not sure if I have a type. The people Iโve been with in the past have all been a little different, I think.โ
โWhat about looks?โ Soobin asked, fidgeting with the hem of his sweater. He knows heโs an attractive guy but what if he still wasnโt your type?
You laughed softly, โI donโt know, Binnie, I like who I like.โ
Soobin couldnโt help but blush, as he finally decided to ask, โWhat about me?โ
You looked at him curiously, trying to decipher what he meant and when he couldnโt meet your gaze, you said, โYou?โ
โAm I your type?โ He asked quietly. The server brought your meals which worked as a distraction to give you time to calm your beating heart and you took a deep breath.
It was hard to say because as of nowโฆ yes. Youโve always thought Soobin was attractive and kind and youโve never actually dated someone like him so to say heโs your type is weird when youโre not sure if you even have one. You like Soobin, you know you do but what would it mean if you answer this question and what does he expect you to say?
โI think so,โ you said shyly, looking down at your plate to avoid his gaze. Soobin resisted the urge to smile and ask you more about how you might feel for him.
He tried not to bring so much up while you had your late dinner and when the bill came, it became another topic of discussion.
โSoobin, you paid last time,โ you said remembering the time you went to get hotpot last time, โEither I can pay or we can split the bill.โ
โI asked you to come out with me,โ Soobin said, getting his wallet out, โSo Iโm going to pay.โ
โBinnie,โ you said to him, watching him set money for the bill and a little extra for a tip before standing up, ready to leave. The server took the money and bid you both a goodnight.
โY/n,โ he used the same whiny voice you had, โNext time Iโll let you pay, I promise.โ
Part of him wanted to reach for your hand as you left the restaurant but instead, he said, โI donโt want to go home yet.โ
You have to admit, Soobin is really making your heart flutter in a very confusing way. You thought about taking his hand in yours and leading him toward the park across the street but you decided against it, unsure if it was something he wanted.
The night of the party when you held his hand, he made sure to not let it go even when you were on the bus but maybe it was just because he was drunk and not feeling good?
โSo letโs go on a walk then,โ you said, taking the reign to hold his hand, trying not to think about it.
Soobin smiled widely as he happily held yours, swinging them a little, โY/n, I just want to say, youโre one of my best friends.โ
Heโs not sure heโs ever been able to call someone heโs dating his best friend. His past girlfriends never really cared to get to know him or have the same interests which wasnโt necessarily a problem but youโve become his friend first and he thinks thatโs what helped him develop feelings for you. You liked the same things, you enjoyed each otherโs company and you never made him feel weird no matter what he did. He was being honest when he called you his best friend, itโs just that he wanted you to be more too.
โWhoโs my competition?โ You asked, waiting for him to say Taehyun or Yeonjun but he just shook his head, fixing your hands so your fingers were intertwined.
โYou donโt have any,โ Soobin shrugged, staring ahead at the path of street lamps, feeling a slight chill in the night air.
After a while the two of you decided to take a seat on a bench nearby, just under a streetlamp that casted down on it like a scene from a movie. You couldnโt help but shiver under the cold yet neither one of you brought up possibly going homeโas if that would end the chances of spending time together.
Soobin felt you shivering beside him and without wasting too much time pondering, he scooted closer to you until his side was pressed to yours and provide you with much needed warmth. You looked at him with a teasing a smile, โSo what youโre saying is, Iโm actually your only best friend. Iโm not sure if Taehyung or Yeonjuun would like that.โ
He smiled cheekily, โIโm sure they wouldnโt mind, I donโt really keep it a secret that youโre my new favorite person.โ
โOh wow, what an honor. What did I do to deserve that?โ You asked with a playful tone, trying to hide the way your face began to heat up.
โI donโt know,โ he shrugged, looking over at you with soft, moonlit eyes, โIโm still trying to figure that out too.โ
You didnโt say anything for a moment, unsure what to even say and you just looked into each otherโs eyes, wondering if you were thinking the same. You were so close now and it was getting very hard to ignore when you couldnโt look away from him. Soobin was hesitant for a long while, debating if he should just go for it.
There were a millรณn things running through your mind, some about kissing him, or not kissing. Wondering if you should cross the line or give him space. You turned to face him, lips parting, โIโโ
It happened rather quickly, the brush of his lips against yours, and you hadnโt fully thought it through when you kissed him back. There was a sudden sense of bliss that caused him to relax into the short kiss, melting into you when your lips moved against his.
His fingers lingered on your thigh, itching to deepen the kiss with a hand in your hair. Just as he was going to reach out, you pulled away abruptly, nearly leaving him to follow and his eyes snapped awake, unaware when he closed them.
โI donโt know if this is a good idea,โ You whispered so quietly he could barely hear you. It didnโt stop his heart from dropping with clarity, โOhโ
You were rejecting him, even if you kissed him too.
โBinnie, I justโI like you but,โ You bit your lip nervously, โI donโt know if this is a good idea.โ
โOh,โ he slumped back, giving you more space, โWhy? Because we live together?โ
โYeah,โ you sounded regretful, โAnd you havenโt been single for long and I just donโt want to be a, umโฆโ
โYou think itโll be like a rebound?โ Soobin asked with a small scoff, โY/n, Iโฆ I wouldnโt do that to you, I want to try with you.โ
โBut, I donโt know, I just donโt want this to become a real thing, and it ends badly and we canโt talk anymore,โ you confessed, โIโm sorry.โ
โNo, itโs okay,โ Soobin said, โI get it.โ
He doesnโt.
Silence filled the space between you and neither one of you knew what to do about it. The awkwardness was already beginning to settle and he didnโt want that at all. A sorry smile spread across his lips, โYouโre still my favorite person.โ
A laugh left your lips, an ounce of worry disappearing but you still felt awful. You liked Soobin, and you were always such a sure person but when it comes to relationships you can be doubtful. You never know their full intentions and although Soobin is a really good guy but you havenโt known each other long and he was just in a relationship not that long ago.
After a while he asked if you should head home and the walk back was a bit quieter.
Honestly, you really did like Soobin. You never thought of him as anything more than a friend but not because you wanted to friendzone him but because you I never thought he saw you as anything but. Maybe you thought you would be the one rejected that you never thought about him romantically. He was attractive and you always knew so but you just seemed different at the time.
You were friendly, you talked nicely to each other and to only been a while since you started hanging around him. You assumed you were the only one feeling this way and its strange to learn thatโs not true.
How would you have guessed he had feelings for you? Sure, he was nice from the getgo but it had always been casual. The only time e acted differently was when he was drunk and even then you assumed it was because he was too drunk to remember. Sheen he crawled into your bed after, it are your heart race but nothing happened between you two and it was never mentioned again. You grew to like him but you had no idea he would start liking you too.
It was a flaw in your character design, you think. You have no problem making decisions and being more confident and in control with it came to other things but for some reason when it comes to yourself, youโre doubtful. Itโs easy for you to catch on to feelings when it comes to others but yourself.
Thatโs not to say youโve never been in a relationship with someone but youโve always just struggled reading how someone feels about you. Now you feel awful thinking you read Soobinโs intentions wrong but you couldnโt help it. You know what it feels like to be a rebound and its not a feeling you want to go through again.
The other person didnโt make you feel as good as your time with Soobin does and thatโs what worried you. Youโre also not in a spot to put your living situation at risk again. You had gotten so lucky to find him and f it goes bad between you, where would you go? Youโre not as strong as Soobin. He could keep working with Jia and seeing her in public after what she did to him and be fine, but would you be able to live with him after? If he hurt you, or if you hurt himโฆ could you handle it?
Lately, its not that youโve been purposely avoiding him but ever since the kiss, your paths have barely passed. It seems like you both made an effort to interact at least once before and now that youโre not, its been boring.
When Soobin gets to the cafe, he couldnโt even think about having to work with Jia. She wasnโt in his mind anymore because all he could think about is you. You didnโt fully reject him and thatโs what drives him insane.
โHey Soob,โ Taehyung said as he watched his friend walked past him with a somber expression, completely ignoring him.
You like him. You said you liked him, right? So why canโt you just give him a chance?
His mind felt a million miles away as he slipped up on his apron, tying it over his baggy shirt and sweats. Soobin was unaware of the stares his coworkers sent him as he found his job for the day and busied himself with it.
โYouโre quieter than usual,โ Jia pointed out toward the end of their shift, โDid something happen?โ
Her voice was laced with feigned concern and that only bother him more. Why does she bother pretending like she cares about him?
โNothing that you have to worry about,โ Soobin mumbled more to himself than her but she heard him anyway. He wouldnโt tell her about you and how you somewhat rejected him, instead he looked at the time wishing Taehyun couldโve just stayed till close with him and Jia.
โSoobin,โ Jiaโs voice was soft, coming over to where he was wiping down tables and chairs, โI know you and I arenโt as close as we used to be butโฆ I really do care about you.โ
A small scoff left his lips that he wasnโt able to hide as much as before and he turned away, ready to leave her behind so he could be alone.
โDoes it have anything to do with that girl?โ She asked closer to close when there wasnโt a single customer in sight and the sign had already been flipped.
Soobin couldnโt help but release a sigh in frustration as he looked at her, โJia, why are you doing this?โ
โDoing what?โ She asked with furrowed brows.
โWhy are you acting like you all of a sudden care? Canโt we just work without talking and then go home?โ Soobin asked, clearly annoyed and not in the mood for her.
Heโs kept his mouth shut ever since they broke up and heโs never asked her to explain anything or to apologize so why doesnโt she just let it go. Heโs been biting his tongue because he didnโt want to seem bitter that she cheated on him but at this point he doesnโt care. He has other things to worry about then listening to his ex girlfriend try and act like everything is okay between them.
โSoobin, Iโm sorry,โ Jia confessed watching as he walked past her to the front door already holding the key to lock the shop for the night, โI know I probably hurt you and what I did was unforgivable but can you please just give me one more chance. IโI donโt like thinking you hate me.โ
โJia, I donโt hate you,โ Soobin told her honestly as they stood outside and he can see the way she got hope in her eyes, making him keep explaining, โAnd I can work with you because I have to but Iโm not going to forgive you.โ
It felt strange being so honest after acting unaffected for a while but it was the truth and he needed to get it out, โYou cheated on me, donโt you get that?โ
โI know buโโ
โNo, you clearly donโt know because since you saw me and Y/n get closer all youโve wanted to do is talk to me. Itโs not because you still want me but because you know you fucked up and donโt want me to move on with anyone else,โ Soobin said harshly, โDo you realize how frustrating it is to want to be with someone and everyone thinks youโre not over your cheating ex girlfriend?โ
Jia looked like she wanted to say something but the words were caught in her throat, so Soobin continued, โYou slept with someone I lived with behind my back and in my own home and you think apologizing and asking for one more chance is going to work?โ
She was frozen, unsure what to say or if she should say anything at all. Of course heโs right and she was only wishing that things could change but she knows that she fucked up. Being with Soobin had been great, he was sweet and caring and she wanted more so she looked for more in a guy who doesnโt mean a thing to either one of them.
It had always felt like Soobin didnโt love her, like he only dealt with her because they were dating and even then it felt like she pushed him to it. He never got upset with her, even when he caught her cheating, he was just quiet and listened to her apologies over and over again. All he did was ask them both to leave and that was it. When he still went to work at the cafe she hoped it was a sign that he would forgive her if he could still stand being around her but then you came along and she could see the way Soobinโs face began to light up.
From the get-go, she feels like you were able to draw more out from him than she ever was and that really did annoy her. Sheโs not putting the blame on him for her cheating but why couldnโt he show more with her as he had with you and why is it too late now?
โIโm sorry,โ she said quietly, close to tears but it was obvious Soobin didnโt care anymore.
โHave a good night, Jia,โ he sighed, leaving her behind as he went to the bus stop.
He likes you, youโre all heโs been able to think about and he canโt stand knowing you doubt his intentions. Soobin has never been the type to use someone for his own gain and even that night of the party he forgot you went with him so he wouldnโt be alone knowing Jia was there. Once he had you with him, he didnโt care who was around. All he cared about was you and he needs you to know that.
When he got home, he was surprised to see you coming out of your bedroom right as he walked through the front door. You looked over at him, nervous and unsure what to say or if you should say anything at all. You werenโt sure if he was still upset with you or if he was ever really upset by what you said.
โHey,โ you said shyly, walking toward the kitchen where you were returning a bowl.
โHey,โ Soobin set his things, debating if he should go to his room or just try with you one more time.
Now that heโs told Jia how he feels about her still trying with him, he feels more confident to tell you exactly what it is he wants with you. He doesnโt want a rebound, he doesnโt care about his last relationship, he cares about getting to know you and kissing you more.
โWere you just at work?โ You asked, trying to make some conversation, see if you could read how he might feel with you.
โYeah,โ Soobin joined you in the kitchen, โI had to close with Jia.โ
You turned away from the counter, jumping slightly at how close he was behind you suddenly, โAnd how was that?โ
โWell she apologized and asked for a second chance,โ Soobin said, looking down at you, so close that his front nearly brushed against yours. You raised a brow in surprise that Jia had the nerve to ask for another chance but you wondered if Soobin was bringing this up because he planned on giving it to her.
โOh?โ You said, unsure what he was planning on saying next.
Soobin bit his lip, not shying away from your stare like he normally would, โSo I told her that it was never going to happen because Iโve moved on and I like you and I donโt want you to think Iโm using you or still not over my ex because Iโm so over her, you donโt understand. The night of the party was one of the first nights I realized how much I like you and itโs taken me a while to admit it because I wanted to be sure.โ
You blinked in surprise as he moved even closer, โAnd I know you kind of rejected me the other night but I also know you like me too so if you just give me one chance, I swear Iโll be the best boy youโve ever been with and I have no intentions of just being with you as some rebound. You mean so much more to me and I shouldโve told you that the other night but Y/n, I really want to be with you and no one else.โ
With a small sigh, you leaned onto the counter behind you and nodded, โI want to be with you too, Binnie, butโฆโ
He couldnโt hold back the smile on his face as he reached forward, cupping your face in his hands, โY/n, just give me a chance.โ
โIโokay,โ you laughed softly and with that, he was leaning down, pressing his lips to yours gently.
Your eyes fell shut, reaching out to touch him when he moved closer, pushing you against the counter with no room to go anywhere. A small gasp left your lips in surprise and it gave him a chance to deepen the kiss with his tongue.
โSoobin,โ you laughed in shock as he pulled back in an attempt to catch his breath, โThat was unexpected, different from the last kiss.โ
His hands were resting on the counter, trapping you between them, he was leaning downuntil he could leave tender kisses along your neck, โIโm sorry, Iโฆ it was sudden and last time you wanted to stop.โ
He was panting softly, eyes squeezed shut as he tried to take a deep breath, โDo you want to stop again?โ
You looked into his eyes, โNot really.โ
That was all he needed to hear before leaning back down for a kiss, this time sliding his hands down to your waist, grounding himself to the reality of this all. Your hands went to his soft black hair, brushed it out of his face and kissed him feverishly.
Soobinโs lips parted against yours, a sigh of relief escaped as he tilted his head to the side. You were a bit surprised by his forwardness once again that when his tongue trailed along your lower lip as if asking for permission, all you could was grant it. Your tongues met smoothly, circling around each other, before pulling back to his lips on your bottom one. Was he such a good kisser last time?
The more he seemed to lean forward and close the nonexistent gap between you, the more you leaned back with need, never once pulling your mouth away from his. With an annoyed huff at your attempt to lean back, he found himself tightening his grip on your waist before pulling you onto the counter making you gasp, โBiโโ
The near call of his nickname made him groan into your mouth, he kissed you with frenzy, like soon you would change your mind and everything would stop.
A small laugh escaped your lips at his eagerness, not shying away from wrapping your legs around his waist as he sat you down on the peninsula countertop. You brought a hand down to the cold marble, trying to steady yourself when he kissed along your jaw, then your neck leaving small red marks where he nipped at.
โY/n,โ Soobinโs voice caught you by surprise, his usual tone was deeper and hoarse with need as he pulled away from kissing you. His hands remained on your waist, his thumbs underneath the thin fabric of your shirt, inching it up just slightly, โOne chance.โ
โThatโs all itโs gonna take,โ he mumbled with swollen lips as he looked down at your lap, the material of your leggings not threatening and you could feel his hands slide down till they were at the hem of your leggings.
His gaze was darkened and you were admittedly incredibly turned on by this new side of him. Itโs not like you expected him to suddenly take the lead so heavily but you canโt say you hated it. Itโs different that what youโre used to from him and it makes you think back to the night of your first kiss. Should you have said yes all along? Would you have ever gotten to see this side of him where he felt the need to express just how much he wants to be with you?
Your eyes locked with his as he slowly began to pull down the material of your pants, lifting your hips slightly as he let them slide down. Itโs like he was still waiting for you to tell him stop but with the parting of your legs and the way you guided him down to his knees, it was clear to him you wanted this just as bad.
Soobin started with gentle kisses along your thighs, neither you caring that you were doing this in your kitchen, it only seemed to fuel the heat in his stomach that you were alone. You licked your lips with anticipation, eyes dropping with need at the way he pulled your legs over his shoulders swiftly, looking down at your covered heat with a cute sort of curiosity.
He could see through the thin fabric how turned on you had gotten from the kiss. He can make out the shape of your slit and there was a slight dampness where your entrance would be and it made him feel so much bitter about the growing bulge in his jeans. With eager fingers, he pulled the fabric down, unable to help himself from teasing your heat with his nose tip, โY/n.โ
Your name fell from his lips so prettily that you nearly missed the urgency in it until you were looking at him, looking down at your cunt until finally, he leaned in. A sigh in content escaped you as he placed a soft kiss along your folds, teasing you by avoiding your hardened clit. His hands which held your legs apart were so far up your thighs you could feel the shadow of them against your core and it felt good to be grabbed by him. You never noticed just how big his hands were, or how good he could possibly be with his mouth.
After the light teasing he did with your folds, he licked softly against your clit before pulling it into his mouth, sucking gently making you moan for the first time. Soobinโs eyes immediately went to your face as he swirled his tongue around your clit, lathering it in his drool as he watched your face contort in pleasure making him throb in his jeans uncomfortably.
With one hand on the counter for support, your other hand went to his hair, pulling him closer between your legs and you could feel one of his hands unravel from your thigh and come up to your cunt. You could feel the tip of his middle finger dip into your folds, collecting whatever slick your pussy let out when he sucked on your clit and ever so gently, he pushed a finger in.
โYouโre so pretty,โ he sighed, attempting to catch his breath as he let his finger do some of the work. He rested his cheek against the softness of your thigh while beginning to thrust his middle finger into your wet pussy, โSo fucking pretty, Y/n.โ
With a deep groan, he went back to your clit, letting his middle finger hook into your g-spot while he mouthed at your clit, costing it in spit while fucking you with his finger. Your hand in his hair never let up, you used it for support, unable to keep your moans down, โBinnie.โ
He felt the way you fluttered around him and it only made him put in more effort to bring you to your edgeโand not just on the counter. He was nearly on his knees and his legs were beginning to cramp, his cock was getting heavy in its confinement but he didnโt let up. Instead, he let his mouth glide over your wet cunt leaving open mouth kisses in its wake.
โOh god,โ you whined softly as you felt a second finger push into your heat and a few seconds of this had your thighs threatening to shut, feeling the familiar knot in the pit of your stomach, โYour mouth feels so good.โ
โCum for me then, baby,โ the words slipped from his lips without thought but for some reason those were the exact words you needed to hear. He felt your release on his tongue a short moment after he spoke and your folds throbbed with please around him.
โThatโs it,โ he groaned, watching your juice drop around his fingers, gently pulling them away and letting you relax post orgasm.
You looked at him with a new sense of attraction, why was he so confident in bed? Soobinโs cheeks flushed red as he looked down at the mess you made on the counter but his dick loved the sight of your release dripping down on the counter. It was an easy clean up and it was hot, so fucking hot.
Without much thought put into it, Soobin raised his soaked fingers to his lips, humming softly at the taste of your essence. A bunny-like grin spread across his face as he couldnโt help but laugh, โYou know weโre not done, right?โ
Despite the last couple moments where heโs initiated intimacy, he didnโt wait for permission. He was letting you know he wasnโt done with you yet and that made it all the better when he pulled you into his arms, not caring that you were half naked and taking you toward his bedroom.
He set you down on his bed gently, looking down at you as he yanked off his shirt exposing a lean body of muscle you hadnโt expected.
Soobin isnโt the type to show off his body, he liked more loose fitting clothes and whenever heโs complimented on his physique he always gets shy. Whenever he leaves his room or he knows youโre home he makes sure to be fully dressed and heโs kept himself a secret from you out of nervousness that you might get uncomfortable. Now that your eyes are on his toned stomach, all he could think about is how he wished youโd seen him soonerโif he knew you would look at him like this.
Seeing him undress before you, taking his jeans off next followed by his briefs left you with your lip pulled between your teeth. You now knew why he looked so sweaty early in the mornings, he went to the gym at dawn while you slept in.
You sat up and pulled your shirt off, careful to undo your bra as you felt the bed dip down with his weight and he crawled toward you, helping you throw your things down before pushing you to lay down.
โCondom?โ You ask, making him look at you with a sense of curiosity. He knew what you were asking and he of course would oblige but as he looked down at your naked bodies and the way his hard cock pressed against your head, he couldnโt help but let his mind go astray. He just couldnโt believe this was actually happening.
You let Soobin get up as he leaned over his nightstand, praying to the universe that he had a condom somewhere about. Itโs obvious he hasnโt had sex in a good long while but heโs just hoping the universe is on his side and he can find one.
After a moment of searching, his heart raced, moved back between your legs and kissed you hungrily. You took the condom from his hands, ripped the wrapper off and searched down his toned abdomen till you found his stiff member. Although you havenโt gotten a good look at it, it had a weight to it and good girth that you couldnโt help but write with need.
Soobin didnโt hesitate to himself up with your entrance when you got the condom on and as gentler as ever, he pushed in. A low growl left his lips as your walls hugged him tightly and he couldnโt help but let his strength falter, nearly crushing you with his weight at the pleasure.
"Mmm," he groans into your neck, his body pressed against yours as he pulled out slowly, taking a moan to let you feel his big mushroom tip against your ring of nerves. Once he needed more, he pushed back in with a bit more force.
โSoobin,โ you moaned, letting your head fall back into to the pillows as his hips began a steady pace of thrusting into you, "Ohโฆ fuck."
He brushed his lips against yours, fucking you with his big cock, basking in the feel of your pussy around him, โSo wet, bub.โ
His voice had softened even if his thrusts grew rougher, โYou feel so good around me.โ
Soobin couldnโt help but be close and he was awfully pathetic for it. In his defense, he had just made out with a girl he was crushing on for the past hour. Add on how he ate your pussy in the kitchen [of all places] he felt it was only human of him to be so close to cumming despite barely fucking you.
With a deep grunt, he snuck his hand under your arched back pulling you off the bed and a quiet squeal left your lips. You moved your legs to hug his waist and cling to him when he sat you down on his thighs, cock still deep in your pussy. Soobinโs hands founded their way to the softness of your ass, pinching softly at the way you basically cock warmed him and it took him a moment to raise you up, and pull you back to take him all.
โPlease Y/n,โ he groaned, grinding your pussy on his dick, โJust say you want to be with me already, fuck. I just want to hear you say it.โ
Pure bliss was evident on his face and your usual cute Soobin was replaced by a feral, dark and lustful Soobin you werenโt used to. His hair was sweaty and voice so deep that you couldnโt help but succumb to his advances.
He hugged your body to his and you began to bounce on his lap, kissing his neck and letting your hands trace down his chest feeling his nipples harden, โI want to be with you, Binnie.โ
โFuck,โ he groaned, โIโm gonna cum.โ
His eyes squeezed shut urging every muscle in his body to hold back from cumming first but he couldnโt. A shiver ran down his body as he felt the knot in his stomach come undone, his cock shooting thick spurts of cum into the condom, trembling underneath you.
โFuck,โ his voice was dry, urging you to keep riding his cock, โKeep going.โ
โBinโโ you moaned, hearing the desperation in his voice and did as you were told. It didnโt take long for you to let go, cumming in his arms as he whispered how good you felt around him.
As gentle as ever, he set you back on the bed, collapsing on top of you in a sweaty mess that had you groaning.
โSticky,โ you mumbled, โI feel sticky.โ
Soobin looked down at you and the mess the two of you made of each other, blinking with confusion on how things had escalated so quickly. Did he do that?
โSorry,โ he pouted, โDo you want to get cleaned up?โ
โI think so,โ you giggled softly as he reluctantly let you sit up, โHow about I meet you back here in a minute?โ
Soobin couldnโt think of anything to say and with a silent nod, he let you gather your things and leave.
You werenโt trying to ditch him but you needed to freshen up at least a little bit.
He thought about waiting for you in his bed after he cleaned up after himself but after a while he began to overthink it. Would you actually come back? He understands youโre just a wall away but the distance seemed so far now that he couldnโt help but get up and dressed, following you out his bedroom.
In the process of heading to your room, he stopped in the kitchen to clean up the mess as best as he could for the moment. A soft hum left his lips as he did so and when his eyes landed on a thin piece of lace fabric, he blinked curiously.
With a someone innocent look in his eyes, Soobin picked up your underwear, biting down on his bottom lip to stop a mischievous smile from growing before he shoved them in the pocket of his sweats, unsure what he would do with them later on. A giddy smile plastered his face, dimples on display as he walked toward your room, hearing the water run and he laid in your bed.
โNow, I thought I said I would be back in a minute,โ you laughed softly when you came out your bathroom and Soobin just cutely snuggled himself deeper between your sheets and pillows.
โIt was too long,โ Soobin said as he lifted your bed covers, โCome lay down.โ
โI gotta clean out thโโ
โI already did,โ Soobin whined when you tried walking past him on the bed and with a gentle pull on your wrist, he was leading you onto the bed.
โDid you?โ You asked, letting him pull you down until you were laying down next to him, feeling him snuggle into you with his face against your breasts.
โMhm,โ he hummed, his interest caught on the softness of your chestโa place he had neglected when he knew damn well he shouldnโt have.
โBinnie,โ you warned when you felt nuzzle into your breasts, squirming against your side, โItโs late already.โ
โI know, but your bedโฆ itโs so soft,โ he clearly didnโt mean the bed and he thought he was just being a sly bunny, โAnd you said you would be with me now. Donโt kick me out.โ
You could already feel his print press against your thigh, a clear sign that he was getting turned on all over and it was obvious he skipped over wearing anything under his sweats.
A gasp left his lips when he felt your hand palm his erection lightly and unexpectedly, saying to him, โWell, I guess my bed hasnโt been broke into yet.โ
Soobinโs hand clutched yours tightly, following you so close that he almost stepped on the back of your shoes everytime you walked. The bar was packed with people and it made his anxiety spike up a bit and feeling your hand in his made him feel slightly better.
โNow donโt get too drunk tonight,โ Taehyun said with a laugh as he trailed after you two. Soobin just glared at him, letting you take the lead to order the drinks, eyeing the bartender who was a little too nice to you.
โI donโt plan on drinking too much if heโs the bartender all night,โ Soobin mumbled under his breath, hearing the way the bartender talked to you compared to the others. You didnโt pay him any mind but Soobin was watching him too closely that it made Taehyun laugh.
โRelax buddy, you already got Y/n and I donโt think sheโs going anywhere,โ Taehyun said looking around the bar, waving down Yeonjun who had been search for them all night. Even if your attention was on the bartender, you still held Soobinโs hand, beating him to it when he offered to pay.
โYou paid the last two times we went out,โ you told him, handing everyone their drink but Soobin was whining.
โBut I like paying for you, Taehyun and Yeonjun have their own money,โ Soobin said, turning to his friends with a scowl, โDonโt spoil them, only me if you do things like this.โ
You laughed, feeling his arm circle around your waist, โItโs okay, come on, my friends are around here somewhere.โ
โHurry up before I puke,โ Yeonjun groaned, reminding Soobin that he wasnโt alone with you at home and it made him shy, hiding behind you as you lead the way.
โWow, Y/n, I didnโt know you were so rizz!โ A loud voice yelled out from your side before you were being pummeled back a few steps with large arms around you, jumping excitedly.
โWhoa, rizz!โ Beomgyu shouted equally as annoying, making you groan. Soobin smiled nervously as he looked back to his friends who looked just as confused as him. He felt awkward seeing you being hugged by two guys but he tried to ignore it knowing they were just your friends.
โBinnie this is Kai and thatโs Beomgyu,โ you told him before looking at your friends, โGuys this is Soobin, my boyfriend.โ
His dimples showed through and he couldnโt help but smile widely as you addressed him. When you joined his side against he was quick to reach for you, more happy now that youโve called him that.
โHello,โ Beomgyu stood straight and brought a hand to his forehead as if in salute, โThis is our first formal meeting.โ
Kai nodded as he took your drink in his own hands, โYeah, we would have said hi to you when we went to the cafe but Y/n wouldnโt let us because she didnโt want you to know she had a big fat mega obtuse crush on you.โ
โOh my god,โ you rolled your eyes at him, โIt wasnโt like I was obsessed. I was just, yknow, curious.โ
Taehyun put a hand on Soobinโs shoulder, โYou see? Y/n liked you then too.โ
You spent the night either sitting on Soobinโs lap or dancing with him when he asked you to, and when you went home, he jumped in your bed like heโs been doing since the first night.
โฆ THE END, okay Iโm out of text boxes but basically sorry it took my so long to finally drop a Soobin fic but hopefully the length of this makes up for it ๐ญafter drafting a story, hating it, drafting a new story, hating it and repeating the cycle for months, I finally got one finish. please interact and lmk what you thinksโฆ itโs kinda a mess but I tried ๐ค
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๐ผynopsis. seeing your ex in public leads to hiding in a small photobooth with your annoying student council vice president park sunghoon
โyouโre late,โ sunghoon says in the most agitating voice possible as you walk through the classroom door.
โi wouldnโt be late if you did your job,โ you huff, walking right up to the desk he sat at and dropping the bags of decorations you had picked up from the party supplies store.
โhey! i said i would pick those up!โ he says annoyed, sifting through everything you brought.
โmrs. kim said we needed them by today! why the fuck were you just sitting around?โย
โgeez, loosen up,โ the boy gets up from his seat, his tall body looming over yours. โletโs just go decorate the gym.โ
the two of you split up the bags of party supplies and headed towards the gym where the rest of the council and student volunteers were waiting.ย
setting up for the fundraiser was easy until you and sunghoon started yelling at each other over which color streamers should be used over the doorway.ย
jake had to drag you away by the shoulders to come to help him with the balloons. sunghoon felt a bitter taste when he saw jake with his arm around your shoulder but decided to ignore it.ย
โhoon,โ jungwon calls out. โweโre out of balloons!โ
โthatโs why i should have bought the decorationsโฆโ sunghoon mutters under his breath before walking up to where you and jake were giggling.ย
sunghoon walks up behind you and places a hand on your shoulder. โwe have to go back to the store.โ he whispers in your ear.ย
you freeze at his touch but nod and say goodbye to jake. he lets go of you and the two of you walk out the exit leading to the parking lot.
the two of you get into sunghoonโs car and he drives off to the mall.ย
thereโs an awkward silence between the both of you, which you canโt decide if you like bantering with him over it. thereโs so much tension due to sunghoonโs lingering touch from earlier.
once inside the mall, you quietly walked side by side into the automatic doors.ย
only a few feet from the party supplies stores you halt. spotting your ex-boyfriend and old friend seemingly on a date.
โsunghoon,โ you whisper, tapping on his shoulder. โdo you see what i see?โ
he rolls his eyes at you finally breaking the silence but then looks up to see for himself. once he does that the two seem to have had the same idea, making eye contact with the other.
โoh shit they saw us,โ he panics, grabbing your hand and pulling you into the photo booth you were conveniently standing next to.ย ย ย
the photo booth is small. way too small. sunghoon is already sitting as you uncomfortably sit on the ledge with your legs peeking out from the curtain.ย
โget up,โ he instructs.ย
โwhat?โ you raise an eyebrow. โiโm not letting them see me again! especially not with you!โ
โi meant like come here,โ sunghoon grabs you and settles you on his lap, so the both of you fit into the small space.
โoh my god, what if they come over here!โ you panic resting your hands on his shoulders. โthis is bad! especially since iโm with you of all people-โ
โwith me?โ sunghoon questions.ย
โwell, like when we were dating, he always thought you had a crush on me, which isnโt impossible! i had to keep reassuring him but he never believed me! like me and you are barely even friends-โ you ramble, balling sunghoonโs shirt in your fists as you freak out.ย
โwoah, calm down,โ he tells you, prying your hands from his uniform so you donโt wrinkle it. โitโs not like theyโll come to talk to us.โ
just as the words left his mouth the sound of two sets of footsteps were picked up by your ears. you started to become overwhelmingly nervous. it was the first time seeing your ex-boyfriend since the split and the fact your childhood best friend was on a date with him.ย
even if you drifted, shouldnโt she have some sense of girl code?
โyouโre shaking,โ sunghoon stares at you.ย
โno iโm not!โ you shake your head, your heartbeat being undeniably fast. โbut like i havenโt had a date since him and thatโs kind of sad for me-โ
โi swear i saw her,โ the familiar voice of your old friend says, sounding so close. โit could have been anyone though.โ
โno, i saw her and that motherfucker,โ your ex hisses.ย
โwow, iโm โmotherfuckerโ,โ sunghoon whispers, rolling his eyes.
โif he made a move on her i swear.โ
โhey, i have an idea,โ he says in your ear.ย
sunghoon reaches for his phone out of his pocket, holding you close as he leans over slightly to pay the machine for a photo. the screen activates after processing his card and he selects a random frame.ย
the camera starts going and you sit confused as sunghoon starts posing. you canโt help but watch him. he always looks pretty but you must admit he knows how to pose.ย
you peek over to the curtain to see two pairs of legs standing outside the photo booth. you can only assume itโs them.ย
โyou werenโt looking in any of them,โ sunghoon recalls, pressing print on the screen.ย
โoh, sorry,โ you turn your attention back to him.ย
โitโs fine, let's do another one,โ he says nonchalantly as he pays for another photo strip.
this time sunghoon shifts in his spot, making it so that your face can be seen on the screen without having to turn you around in his lap.
you awkwardly copy sunghoonโs poses until by the second to last picture you hear him again.
โthat fucker is in the photo booth,โ the male voice outside says, seeing as he drops the photo strip back into where it fell from.ย
โcome closer,โ he tucks a strand of your hair behind your ear.ย
โfine,โ you lean onto him. โbut donโt show my face too much. iโm not wearing concealer today.โ
โyou look just as pretty,โ sunghoon leans closer so your lips barely brush the others. โmaybe even prettier than usual.โ
he brings his thumb to your bottom lip, gently stroking it before closing the gap.ย
you hate to admit it but kissing sunghoon was everything you expected and more. youโve caught yourself daydreaming about his lips on yours during one-on-one meetings in the conference room. when his hair is still damp from his after-shower practice and his face is still slightly flushed.
park sunghoon can make you mad, especially when he got secretary over you in freshman year. but you cannot deny that even when bitter about the council's choice you wanted to kiss that proud smile on his face.ย
he made you mad when he stole your posters when you were running for secretary again the next year. but after he found you crying in the far stairwell he explained he only did that because he thinks you should run for president instead. sunghoon even pulled out another stack of flyers he made for you that he spent the whole night doing.
the sunghoon that got you both kicked out of a council meeting for arguing with each other is the same sunghoon with his lips molded perfectly against yours.ย
the same boy that had you studying your ass off when class ranks came out, since heโs your only competition, is the same boy in front of you now with his lips locked on yours.
you start to feel dizzy by the decreased amount of air in your lungs by the minute but you canโt bring yourself to let go just yet. when you start seeing black specs dotting your vision you finally pull away to see a heavily panting sunghoon with a flushed face.ย
โsorry,โ sunghoon apologizes as he catches his breath.
your heart sinks. he only kissed you to distract you and probably so your ex will see the photos when they print.
โoh,โ you fight the frown threatening to appear on your face. โitโs okay. heโs probably gone now.โ
โi would have asked for your permission but you looked really stressed and i thought it would help you get your mind off your asshole ex.โ
โthanks,โ you say with a pout sunghoon finds adorable.
โyou still seem sad,โ he pokes at your sides, making you squirm in his hold. โmaybe another kiss?โ
โmaybe,โ you say shyly.ย
sunghoon is out forty dollars by the time you and he are done kissing in the photo booth. he kept mindlessly swiping his card as his lips stayed on yours to prevent anyone from kicking you two out since you were there for a considerable amount of time.
youโre interrupted by sunghoonโs phone ringing profusely.ย
โwhere are you two?โ jungwon asks in a panic. โwe need those balloons.โ
โtraffic,โ sunghoon says as you plant a line of kisses down his neck, hands tangled in the hair at his nape.
โhurry up,โ jungwon advises him.
you and sunghoon return to school an hour and a half after you originally left. with a bag of balloons and a stack of photo strips. most of them capturing purely just of you two making out.
when stepping foot in the gym and you go over to hand jungwon the balloons he so desperately needed. he quickly notices the matching hickeys forming on both your necks and how disheveled your uniforms and hair appear.
โtraffic huh?โ jungwon asks as his eyes flicker between both of you.
"lots," you nod as you walk away to help minjeong tie balloons.
somewhere in northern italy | ๐๐บ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐.
synopsis. park sunghoon hates oranges, he always has. the tangy citrusy tingles he's so not fond of it. he also hates you, the living embodiment of an orange: cheery, full of life, and well, round. why should he be bothered by it though? all he has to do is work hard to get into his dream university. but the thing is, he really needs a specific recommendation letter for it. something which he can only get from your father. and hypothetically speaking, he can't just ask for it, so he does you 'a favor for a favor'; he fake dates you on your trip home for summer break and surprise surprise your family owns the biggest orange farm in the country.
or where, sunghoon falls for the one thing he has hated all his life.
word count. 1.6k (teaser) full fic: est 10k-15k? maybe more?
meet the cast. park sunghoon who has an obsession of taking photos with fem!reader who loves being photographed.
genre. fake dating AUUUU!!!! ANDDD enemies to lovers!!!(for hoon), frenemies to lovers(for you), fluff, crackkkk, nsfw, suggestive, sunghoon getting cockblocked all the damn time, set in lombardy, northern italy. popular x unpopular but it's mildly mentioned. sunghoon thinks you are a spoiled brat, a very very studious and upright sunghoon. oh and did you know? orange, orange and orange (sunghoons nightmare) rich girlie and old money reader, sunghoon is gobsmacked at reader's house, parents..(do i really need to add?) and the orange farm.
warnings. allusions as to reader being daddy's princess and being sheltered and hoon struggling every day with oranges and painting a good image of himself to get that letter. nsfw warnings will be added in the full fic. (also no it's not a chubby reader)
RELEASE DATE. TBD
written so far. 15%
author's note๏น โ. ๏น had this random ass idea while having orange juice yesterday ksjksj. taglist is open for this as well as the permanent one, just let me know and i'll add you asap! not sure if this' good enough kindly bear with me. PLS DONT LET THIS FLOP I REALLY LOVE THIS BABY เฒฅโ โฟโ เฒฅ
๊ฐโ N O W P L A Y I N G. โ ๊ฑ cruel summer by taylor swift, one kiss by calvin harris & dua lipa, karma by taylor swift, me by taylor swift, call it what you want by taylor swift, blinding lights by the weekend, fireworks by katy perry
"you wanna go down to the lake?" sunghoon looks up to find you at the door, more like peeping in from outside. his hands stopping mid-air with his spongebob boxers in hand, in the middle of unpacking what was left of his luggage. he moves at the speed of light, shoving them back in before you can notice the print. but too late you already saw it well, "you wear spongebob?" your laugh tickles his insides and it feels weird how he seems to like it.
no, he did not want to go out right now. after that stressful breakfast in the garden he just wants to fall face first into your fluffy mattress and sleep it out under your silk comforter. but something about your laugh makes him intrigued, would going down to the lake with you show him more of this side of yours? now this would probably be the seventh time he has wondered of how prettily you laugh. the curve of your eyes and the faint dimples on your cheeks his favourite things. oh? he picked favourites already it's weird, he thinks.
"yeah, let's go. just lemme change my shirt real quick," disappearing into the bathroom before you have the chance to speak. though when he steps back into the room,"your taste is funny," his spongebob boxers hang at the tip of your index finger as you look closely at the design. "put that back!" he scolds, choking on his spit while he rushing over.
"why? don't tell me you haven't washed it? now that's really bad hoonie," the tone of your voice teases his nerves but honestly he's used to it, more precisely he doesn't hate it as much as he thought he did.
"y/n," he warns, albeit not seriously and you can see it.
"baby," in a sweet little smile, (one that has sunghoon's hate for you faltering in the slightest each time you put it on) you correct him,"remember?" my fake boyfriend, mouthing out through a sly grin.
it's like an immediate que for him to give it up, he's not gonna win against you. when he used to see you around the university, mingling amidst a crowd of people every single time, he always thought you'd hold nothing against him. in his eyes you were a hollow image, nothing worth it. perhaps he was wrong, for so far you have him tight in a grip, he can't seem to find something to properly hate. that is if he takes the oranges out the picture.
he sighs in resignation,"come on, let's go, baby." happy? his brows rising in a question, softening up at your smile getting wider with a swift nod.
he relaxed too soon.
"was this really necessary?" the palm of his hand slides around your wrist as you walk down the steps of your italian chateau. supporting your heel clad feet and gesturing at the big beige floppy beach hat sitting atop your head. "absolutely! it's my fa- dad!" sunghoon's head snaps at that, immediately turning to look at the pitch of your voice going higher. the real deal, your father still seated in the garden with a newspaper in his hands and dear lord, a glass of orange juice.
it's embarrassing to be seen with you like that, he was gonna say. but oh well, nevermind.
"i see you have your favorite hat on, going somewhere with sunghoon?" your dad asks smiling warmly at your pair. it makes sunghoon scared, aren't dads supposed to hate boyfriends? is he being bamboozled by your family? will he be preyed upon later when you are not there to see? as if it was possible, your entire family though really welcoming of him are a bunch of weirdos, who the fuck let's their precious daughter share her room with her boyfriend they've met for the first time?
when he agreed to fake date you he didn't know he'd have to put on such a detailed act. there's literally no restrictions for you in the house. you do whatever you want, when ever you want. and that includes taking him everywhere you go, because apparently your parents know him as the boyfriend who loves you so much that he can't let you be alone at any time. shouldn't that be a red flag though? he can't with this anymore, just over a day in and he's convinced he can't make it make sense anymore, it's a white towel, he can only go with the flow.
"yes he really wanted to go down to the lake," what me? when? sunghoon's eyes wander in a panic while you smile as if you weren't just lying through your teeth. smile sunghoon smile, just fucking smile, he reminds himself wondering if he should maybe say something, maybe not?,"didn't you, baby?" the little nudge of your elbow against him tells him that he should, oh god its difficult to learn when to do what.
"yeah the weather seems really good," he says, a slight tremor in his voice, internally facepalming himself. he has one job, and he's failing even that.
"hm, true," the acknowledgement from your father helps calm his nerves a bit but it runs on high again at his next words,"be back before lunch though, your brother and sister in law will be home soon. it's been so long since we last ate together," you have a brother? why wasn't he informed about this? is the universe playing a game with him? as if your parents weren't enough, now he has to impress more people. he can do this, for the sake of his recommendation letter he has to do it.
"yes dad! love you," sunghoon waits like a lone statue as you leave his side to press a kiss to your father's cheek. grabbing him by the arm and dragging him away the moment he opens his mouth to bid your father. at this rate you'll ruin it for him before he can ruin it himself. "slowdown, fluffy. i'll fall at this speed," he tries but it's to no avail, he should have known by now, no one can control you.
the walk down to the lake is quieter than he expected, no bickering or fighting. you show him around the small streets and shops on the way, telling him little stories back from your childhood. sometimes stopping at a spot,"so pretty, can you take a picture of me here?" and it's already the fourth time. he doesn't mind though, on the contrary he finds himself enjoying it. it's not everyday he gets to roam around the streets of italy with the perfect weather.
it doesn't take long for you both to reach the deck on the far left. following your lead, he sits down on the edge beside you, legs hanging low over the cold water and your shoes placed on one side. you sit close, arms brushing each other, little finger atop one another. your hair flowing with the wind swipes against his face when you turn the other way, a subtle hint of sweet (you guessed it) orange tingling his smell buds. instead of grimacing his life off, he leans closer for another whiff of it. "sunghoon!" retracting immediately when you turn back to him.
"hm?" a feeling so out of this world, a haze lost in his mind. your words sound blurry and your extravagant hat looks so pretty on you. he almost feels like he has to capture this. "i asked how you like it? weren't you listening? what're you thinking?" and he does, taking out his phone and clicking a candid. he can't believe he now has a photo of you in his gallery that he's taken on his own accord. he's been doing many weird things lately,"it's really pretty," so so many weird things.
"hey fluffy i've been wondering about something," he speaks again, looking away to try to ignore tiny little fluttering butterflies in his stomach.
"what is it?"
"haven't you ever dated before, why do your parents seem so excited to see you have a boyfriend?" there he asked it, the biggest mystery he can't stop thinking about from the moment he set foot in your palace of a house. if it's your first then maybe that would somewhat explain their behaviour, not that it would become normal altogether, just kind of justifiable that he won't be put on the rack. that he's truly welcomed and he's safe.
"not really, no one ever met my standards," your answer throws him off. what?
"does that mean i do?" he tests the water, cautious above all yet his tone still comes off as one of tease.
"yes, except one," he eyes turn to you at that, pupils dilated with curiosity for the one thing stopping him from the title of 'perfect for you' as your parents claimed. meeting his eyes in a lock of contact, you give him a small smile. hands moving over to his white button up, fingers tracing his collar and undone buttons watching his adam's apple bob in a hard gulp as his brown orbs follow your movements, sweat building up at the close proximity when you both lock eyes again,"you don't really like me," sunghoon immediately looks away, a stab of reality, he was actually anticipating something he could change. really park sunghoon? remember you don't like her?
"am i wrong?" you laugh leaning forward to have a look at his face.
"i never said that," sunghoon clears his throat, turning back, suddenly gaining a surge of confidence. park sunghoon what???
synopsis: your older brother has always told you โno boysโ and his friends โsister is off limitsโ, which always workedโฆuntil everyone comes back home from college and you see how grown up his best friend has becomeโฆ
genre: friends to lovers, older brothers best friend!au, forbidden love, eventual smut.
warnings: swearing, masturbating, fingering, reader being called a โbad girlโ once, alcohol, blood mentions, sex in a hot tub, unprotective sex, oral (m. receiving), dom!jake, hair pulling, cum eating, MINORS DNI! lemme know if i skipped anything โก
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a/n: jake is so older brother best friend coded I couldnโt help myself
โฐ this is part one to this series, please see the masterlist under the title for parts two-three. โฐ
The last thing you expected was your older asking if you were planning to head home during the last bit of your winter break.ย
You raised your brow at the texts from your brother, thumbs hovering over the keyboard debating how to let him down easily in the nicest way possible that you rather lounge around in your dorm room in your PJs for the last two weeks.
You sighed and fell back on your bed, โGuess I should start packing then.โย
You knew Jay was right, itโs been roughly a year since the two of you were back at home at the same time. And even when both were at home, one was always going out and never really stayed home.ย
Maybe spending the next two weeks at home wasn't such a bad idea. Spend some quality time with your family.ย
Or so you thought until you walked into your parents' house with your duffle bag and backpack in your hands staring into the living room and seeing not just your brother, but his three best friends.ย
The same three best friends he grew up with who all followed him to the same college after high school graduation. Ones you havenโt seen in like four years.ย
Youโre only a year younger than your brother and two of the friends while two years younger than the oldest one in their little circle.ย
You basically grew up with them as well, since you were just a grade below them.ย
They havenโt even noticed you arrived yet. Your parents werenโt even home from their jobs yet.ย
The four boys sat on the couch, their hands going a hundred miles per hour on the Nintendo Switch controllers going head to head in smash bros.ย
They all started screaming as one took the rest out.ย
You dropped your bags to the floor, clearing your throat to show your presence.ย
Jay was the first to turn around, his smile growing all the more wider seeing you. Jay dropped the controller onto the coffee table, stepped on the couch, and jumped over the back of it, โHey stink!โย
You cringe at the nickname he continues to call you even as an adult. He wraps his arms tightly around you, squeezing you.ย
You hug your brother back, tapping his back, โJay, you can let go now.โย
As Jay steps to the side, his three friends fully come into your view, all their eyes on you.ย
You tried hard to not drop your jaw at the three of them.ย
โHey, Y/N!โ all three of them said in sync.ย
Heeseung fully turned his body around, leaning on the back of the couch, โYouโve sure grown up a lot since the last time I saw you.โย
Heeseung stood up, stepping over the couch the same way your brother did, rushing up to you and squeezing you just as tightly.ย
Sunghoon was next at your side, pulling you into a small hug, โItโs been what? Like four years?โย
You nodded, โIt has been a while, hasnโt it guys?โย
โJake, what are you doing?โ Jay called him, โCome say hi too, donโt be rude.โย
Jake stood from the couch, his eyes locking with yours, and didnโt leave them until he was in front of you, arms stretched out, โWas just saving the best hug for last.โย
You rolled your eyes, wrapping your arms around his waist, โHavenโt changed at all, have ya Jake?โย
He chuckled, his heart beating loudly in your ears as you rested your head on his chest.ย
Jake pulled away from you, taking a step back, โIโve changed!โ
Jay scoffed, โRight. Weโll say that.โย
โMost that has changed is your grades are a bit better than high school.โ Sunghoon teased, placing a hand on his best friend.ย
โBro,โ Jake playfully shoved him, โIโve grown up a lot!โย
Oh yes, that he did.ย
All of them have. Itโs only been four years, but each of them has grown up. They went from those nerdy boys you would scrunch your nose at saying they have cooties while holding your index fingers into an x, to the most good-looking men youโve ever seen.ย
Four years feels like itโs been a long time, mostly with how they are in front of you right now.ย
Youโre brought out of your thoughts, as Jay sets a hand on your shoulder, โLetโs get back to playing Smash Bros and let Y/N rest, she drove longer than we did.โ
It was true, you drove three hours to get back home while they only had an hour. You were overdue for a nap.ย
Jake waited for you to glance over at Jay before eyeing you up and down. Youโve sure grown up a lot too in the last four years. He was expecting the same girl from all those years ago, oh but he was wrong.ย
Jake eyeing you down didnโt go unnoticed by his friends, mostly Jay who was shooting darts into Jakeโs soul.ย
โOh also!โ You said as you picked up your bags, โHow long are you three staying here today?โย
Sunghoon wrapped his arms around Heeseung and Jakeโs necks and pulled them in, โWe are here the whole two weeks.โ
You raised a brow, confused. Of course, they are going to be in town the whole time, โI meant here at the house,โ you said pointing your index finger to the floor, โArenโt you staying with your families while youโre in town?โ
Heeseung chuckled, โNah, we are staying here, thatโs what Hoon meant by being here.โย
You glanced at your brother, a smirk on his face, โNice to know I was told.โ You glared at him.ย
Jay shrugged, โIt was last minute.โย
โWe will go see our families, donโt worry,โ Sunghoon smiled, โI have to see my little sister, or else sheโll kill me for not coming back home.โย
You glanced between the four of them before deciding it wasnโt worth thinking about at the moment, you needed a nap, โWhatever, I am taking my nap.โย
The three boys turned around heading back to the couch, Jake took one last look at you as you headed for the stairs, Jay catching him once again looking, Jake quickly turned back around and placed himself back on the couch.ย
Jay quickly caught your arm before you were too far up the stairs. You turned and looked at him, giving him your nastiest side eye, โWhat corn lover?โย
โThe rule still stands.โย
You raised a brow, โWhat rule?โย
Jay tilted his head at you, โReally?โย
You gave him a confused look, trying to read his mind. The gears in your brain turned until it finally clicked.ย
โYou mean the rule from when we were kids?โย
He nodded, โNo boys.โย
You rolled your eyes, โAs if, they still have just as many cooties as they did four years ago.โย
Jay nodded, โGood. Keep it that way. Get rest, Iโll come to wake you when mom and dad get home. We are barbecuing tonight. Iโm grilling.โย
Your mouth was already watering thinking about your big brother's cooking. The one major con of going to a college further away was missing his cooking.
You continued your journey up the stairs and into your childhood room, seeing that your parents left everything the same as it was when you left it. Dropping into your bed, face first into the pillow, sleep finds you quickly.ย
Jay dropped himself back on the couch, picking up the switch controller, โAlright douche bags, letโs get this party back in motion.โย
Everyone grabbed their controllers except Jake, who had his nose in his phone and searched for your Instagram account from Jayโs account, curiously stalking through your account.ย
It didnโt go unnoticed by Jay, who glanced over at Jakeโs phone, catching him staring at the recent selfie you posted a week ago.ย
โSim Jaeyun.โ Jake jumped at his government name being called so sternly by his hyung.ย
โJesus Christ, what?โ Jake breathed out, his hand flying to his chest, his heart rate increasing, โYou scared the shit out of me.โย
Jay glanced back down at his phone, bringing realization to Jake causing him to quickly lock his phone.ย
Heeseung and Sunghoon also had their eyes on Jake. He looked between the three of them, raising a brow, and glared at them, โWhat?โย
Heeseung slowly faced back to the TV, โI ainโt saying anything.โย
โI am,โ Sunghoon chimed in, โWe all saw how you eyed her.โย
Jake quickly shook his head, realizing the situation he got put in, โItโs not like that! She just grew up a lot more than I was expecting.โย
That wasnโt helping Jakeโs case. Jay was just getting more pissed.ย
โDude,โ Jay narrowed his eyes, โThatโs my little sister.โ
โWho is also like a little sister to us,โ Heeseung added in.ย
โWho passed you the baton?โ Jake groaned, finger pointing at Heeseung and eyes looking between all his best friends, โWhy are you all on my ass?โย
โOff limits.โ Jay said, bringing in the old rule from childhood, โNothing has changed.โย
Jake rolled his eyes, slouching into the couch, โObviously! Trust me, I am not interested, like a little sister, remember?โย
โGood. Goes for all three of you, sheโs off limits.โย
The conversation ended there. The last thing Jay needed was having to pull any of his friends off you. He was way too protective of you and knew his friends way too well, mostly after the sex demons they became after graduating. It was already bad enough in high school, but with the freedom college gave the four of them along with the parties and of course, femalesโฆ
Jay had to protect you at all costs. And he would always stand by it.ย
โ
Jakeโs hands trembled as he stood in front of your bedroom door. Heโs stood by your door many times as a child growing up, always kicking your door open and running away with Jay, Heeseung, and Sunghoon, before you could shout at them for annoying you.ย
But obviously, you all werenโt children anymore. So why was Jake so scared to simply knock on your door?
Jay decided to start grilling before your parents got home so that it would be ready or almost ready by the time they walked in.ย
Your parents arrived just at the right time as the steak was almost done grilling.ย
The three boys sat at the picnic table outside by the portal heater and set up the plates while Jay stood by the grill, grilling away.ย
Your parents hugged each of the boys, welcoming them into their home like old times.ย
โOh, where is Y/N? Jongseong?โ your mother asked sweetly, placing a kiss on his cheek, โI saw her car outside.โย
โSheโs napping,โ Jay said, turning over the steaks, โEverything is ready, so someone should go wake her.โย
Heeseung and Sunghoon were already way too busy talking to your dad to notice what Jay said, your mother ultimately decided sheโll go wake you.
โMom! No no no!โ Jay quickly spat, โGo sit down, you just got off work, Iโll make one of the boys do it.โย
Your mother sweetly smiled, โAre you sure? I can do it.โย
Jake quickly stood from the table, placing a hand on her shoulder, โIโll go get her, Mrs. Park, please sit.โย
She quickly pulled Jake into another hug, โSuch a sweet boy like always!โย
And thatโs how he found himself at your door. The sounds of the laughter of his friends and basically his second family echo from the background as he continues to hover his trembling fist at your door.ย
โCome on, Simโฆโ he whispered, trying to hype himself up, โSheโs the same girl you grew up with.โย
Jakeโs knuckles made contact with the wooden door, leaning himself closer to listen for any movements.ย
Nothing.ย
He knocked again but a bit louder, โY/N?โ silence. Another knock, โHey, Y/N?โย
There was shuffling on the other side, the door opening too quickly. You and Jake were now face to face, barely inches apart.ย
Oh lord was Jakeโs heart racing.ย
You were in your favorite pair of sweatpants and an old tee shirt back from high school with the school's logo on it. Your hair was slightly messy from sleeping and had on the same pair of glasses you wore growing up.ย
Jake was weak. He always loved your glasses growing up. Thinking they shaped your face nicely and made you look really cute. Of course, heโd never tell you this, he just always made fun of you like the other boys did.ย
Jake quickly stepped back, giving you space.ย
You yawned and did a small stretch, โWhatโs up?โย
โUmm,โ Jake quickly looked away from you, too scared youโd see how his heart was practically bursting through his chest, โYour parents are home, and dinner is ready.โย
Whatever tiredness you once felt was out the window at the mention of Jayโs dinner.ย
โOkay! Let me change and Iโll be downstairs.โ You closed the door quickly, not wanting to miss a second away from the delicious dinner.ย
Jake made his way back down the stairs and outside, shoving his hands into his jacket pocket as he sat back down.ย
Jay raised a brow, โMy sister?โย
Jake shrugged, โSheโs coming. Said she was going to change.โย
As if on cue, you slid open the glass door, quickly embracing your mother.ย
You wrap your arms around her from behind, surprising her.ย
โHello, mom!โย
She quickly turned around to hug you properly, โOh my sweet girl! Iโve missed you!โย
You smile, the familiar smell of her rose perfume fills your nose, โIโve missed you too momma.โย
โJongseong, come over here too!โ your mother waved your brother over, pulling the both of you into a tight hug, โItโs been so long since I have had both my children home. Iโm so happy youโre here:โย
Jake and the others smiled at you three.
Once your mother released you from her arms, Jay sat down across from Jake, leaving you a spot between him and your mother.ย
Before sitting down you hugged your father and gave a wave to Heeseung and Sunghoon.ย
โGood to see you back to the land of the living,โ Heeseung teased, โWe thought youโd died.โย
You roll your eyes, โHaha, very funny.โย
Jake took a moment to take in your new outfit. Hair was nicely brushed, tight skinny jeans with rips at the knees, and a baby blue long-sleeve shirt that hugged your torso snug, perfectly shaping your breasts. His eyes not leaving you until you sit down, and then his eyes go to his plate of food.ย
Jay glances at his best friend, eyes shifting to you, then back at him.
โWe can finally eat now that Y/N decided to grace us with her presence,โ Jake teased, finally digging into his food. God he was blessed to have Jay as one of his best friends.ย
You reached under the table and kicked Jakeโs shin, him only laughing more than before.ย
โJust like old times! You kids never change!โ your father smiled, lifting his beer for a cheer.ย
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Jake tossed and turned, eventually ending up on his back staring up at the ceiling.ย
The thoughts of the outfit you wore earlier tainted his mind. The way your clothes perfectly shaped your body.ย
Jake quietly covered his face with his hands, rubbing his eyes in hopes it would take the thoughts out of his head. โSheโs your best friend's younger sister, what are you doing?โย
He sat up in bed, throwing the blankets off him, and carefully crawled out from the bottom bunk of the bed, trying to not make too much movement to disturb the sleeping Sunghoon above him.ย
Heeseung was fast asleep on the twin-sized bed across from him, small snores escaping his lips.ย
Jake took one last look around the room before carefully tip-toeing out.ย
Jake remembers when Jay announced to them that his parents were buying a bunk bed to add into the spare room so that each of them had a proper place to sleep besides sharing the twin-sized bed or having an air mattress.ย
Mostly after the four of them got into middle school, no one wanted to share a bed anymore.ย
It was a blessing, even more of a blessing that the Parkโs kept the spare room just the same after all these years.ย
Jake opened and closed the door with such grace praying to be quiet enough to not wake anyone. Carefully walking down the hallway, stopping at the foot of the stairs, swearing he heard something, looking up them.ย
The moonlight gave enough light to show how empty the upstairs was, Jake shrugged off the noise he heard and went to the kitchen.ย
You quietly opened your door, making sure to not disturb any sleeping body, specifically your parents since they needed to be up early for another full day of work.ย
The nap you took earlier in the day completely messed up your night's rest. You tossed and turned in your bed hoping for sleep to find you but never did. Hoping for a few bites of the leftover barbecue and some water will help you chase the sheep.ย
You tip-toed to the stairs, carefully and slowly making your way down them, eyeing down the hallway as you made your way to the kitchen, making sure no one else was awake.ย
You turned the corner of the kitchen, fingers flipping the light switch on. Once the lights came on, your heart nearly dropped to your stomach.ย
You swore you jumped ten feet in the air, โOh sweet god, what the fuck Jake?!?โ you whispered loudly.ย
What the fuck indeed.ย
Jake was pressed against the counter, the water bottle he once held in his hand was now on the floor and the liquid completely covered him.ย
He took a few deep breaths, hand clenching his now wet shirt, feeling his heartbeat.ย
โYou scared the shit out of me, Y/N.โย
You raised a brow at him, โI scared you? I nearly had a heart attack!โย
Jake relaxed against the counter, his hands now gripping the counter behind him, โThat makes two of us.โย
You ran your hands down your face, taking a deep breath in, before dropping your arms back at your side, โWhy are you even up?โย
Jakeโs face was glued to you, his eyes turning dark.ย
You just looked at him, โWhat?โ It wasnโt until you crossed your arms that you realized what he was staring at.ย
You remembered what you were wearing. Sweatpants that hung loosely at your hips and a black sports bra.ย
Jake didnโt notice it at first, mostly not after the surprise of you scaring him half to death, but after he finally looked at you is when he noticed.ย
The way your breasts were exposed and practically spilling out of the top of your sports bra, how loosely your sweatpants hang. Oh, the thoughts running through his head.ย
The way all he would have to do is barely slip his fingers at the fabric of your pants to remove them from your hips. The access his lips would have to your tits as he slid his against your heat.ย
Jake didnโt even realize how hard he was staring at you, looking like a meal he could easily eat up.ย
Normally youโd run out of the kitchen and back up the stairs full of embarrassment, but something about the way Jake was looking at you made your knees weak.ย
Your body moved on its own, walking closer to him. His hands gripped the counter, knuckles turning white and his heart rate accelerating. It wasnโt until you were a couple of inches away from him that he realized what was happening.ย
You could easily see the tint in his shorts growing. All it took for him to see you like this to get so hard?
Jake watched as your eyes dropped to his crotch, and slowly made eye contact with him.ย
Oh how hard it was for him to keep his hands to himself.ย
โJake,โ you whispered. You, yourself, want to put your hands on him.ย
From the moment you saw him, Sunghoon, and Heeseung in the living room earlier this afternoon, youโve had to admit you were attracted to them, especially Jake. He was no longer the icky boy you grew up with. Heโs a man, looking at you like a woman, not the little girl you once were.ย
You whisper his name again, moving your hand to touch his bicep, but stopping halfway.ย
โY/N, touch me and I canโt promise to behave myself.โ His Aussie came out thicker in that moment, filled with lust and want.ย
You wanted to test his boundaries and see if he would actually misbehave.ย
Your cold fingers brushed his bicep, and thatโs all it took for his hands to fly to your hips, switching positions and pinning you against the counter, his hard length now pressed to your aching core, hands gripping your hips.ย
Jake felt as if he was on autopilot, moving against you as if it were second nature to him.ย
Jakeโs mind has been going wild since the moment you walked through the front door.ย
He wasnโt expecting the woman he had pressed to his body.ย
Jake was still expecting the little girl he used to tease. The little girl he would gang up on with his friends. The little girl he would scrunch his nose at when heโd see you in the halls at school as youโd pass by him. The little girl Jay would rant about if another boy looked at you in a romantic way. The little nerdy girl who got straight Aโs and never skipped a day of school in your life even if you were sick.ย
Jake never expected to see you so grown. To see how your body changed and filled in. The way you style your hair and the taste of fashion you have now. How your tits naturally fall and how your ass fits so perfectly in any pants youโve worn today.ย
Oh, Jake was a mess. And oh how badly he wanted to make a mess out of you.ย
You kept your eyes locked with Jakeโs, honestly loving how seen you felt by him right now.ย
โThought you were going to behave?โ you whispered, your hands now gripping the counter behind you.ย
โI told you the consequences of your actions if youโd touch me, and here we are.โย
You let a small laugh leave your lips, rolling your hips against him.ย
Jake groaned, resting his forehead against yours, grinding himself back onto you, โWhat are you trying to do here, Y/N?โย
You bit your lips, trying to hold back the sounds threatening to escape your mouth from the pleasure of his dick just rubbing against you.ย
โAre you trying to get me in trouble with your brother? Huh?โ Jake whispered, dropping his head to the side of yours, lips brushing against your ear, rolling his hips a bit harder than the last, โHeโs already on my ass from the way Iโve been eye fucking you today.โย
Your knees buckled, Jake not letting your weight drop with the grip he has on your hips.ย
โYouโre being such a bad girl right now, Y/N, disobeying your brother's wishes so easily just to get a feel of my dick.โ
Your brain was going fuzzy at his words, trying to focus on the sound of his breathing to keep you in reality.ย
Jakeโs hands drop down to your ass, squeezing the fat as he thrust his hips against you. Your breath hitched at his touch, knees buckling again.ย
You wanted to feel his hands everywhere, to feel his lips on yours and against your skin.ย
You turn your head towards him, wanting to find his lips, only to be met with his hands leaving your ass, body no longer pressed against yours and him taking a couple of steps away from you.ย
Jakeโs chest raised and fell with each deep breath he took, eyes glued to the floor as he ran his fingers through his dark hair.ย
โWe canโt be doing this,โ he finally said between deep breaths.
No matter how badly Jake wanted to lead you up those stairs and push you face down into your pillows, he couldnโt betray his best friend like that. Couldnโt betray that trust.ย
You nodded in agreement, taking your own deep breaths to steady out your heart rate, โYouโre right, we canโt be.โย
You relaxed your body, pushing yourself off the counter, eyes darting to the fridge.ย
You grabbed a water bottle, walking past Jake as you exited the kitchen, stopping right past him.ย
โJake,โ you whispered, looking back at him. Jake stared back at you with lustful eyes, praying youโd jump his bones right here, right now, โMake sure you pick up that bottle and clean any water that got anywhere, mom will kill you if you donโt clean your mess.โย
And with that, you left him alone in the kitchen.ย
Jake didnโt realize he was holding his breath until he heard your footsteps going up the stairs. He quickly cleaned up the spill and threw away the bottle.
Jake made his way back to the hallway, stopping at the door of the spare room, and seeing the bulge in his shorts.ย
โFuck,โ he whispered, eyes going straight to the bathroom door.ย
He locked himself in, pulling his shirt over his head and to the floor, quickly dropping his shorts and boxers down to his ankles.ย
His cock pulsating and red, precum leaking from the tip.ย
Jake took himself into his hand, pumping himself slowly. Head leaning back against the wall, mouth slightly open.ย
Jake stared at himself in the mirror, watching as stroked himself, hand picking up speed.ย
His hand wasnโt enough, and as guilty as he already felt, he imagined his hand was yours. Imagine how your hand would be wrapped around his thick cock, thumb spreading his precum around the tip. He imagined how itโd feel to how your lips on his neck, kissing down his chest and torso until your lips wrapped around his cock, tongue licking up and down his shaft.ย
Jake had to bite down on his lips to keep his moans quiet, whining at the sensation of the twitch his dick made, so close to release.ย
He whispered, โIโm cumming Y/NโฆIโm cum-โย
Before he could finish his words, his cum was dripping down his hand.ย
Jake slowed his hand movement, chasing his high.ย
He looked down at his mess, taking deep breaths and relaxing against the wall.ย
โFuckโฆoh fuckโฆโย
Jake knew thinking of you while he got himself off would only make this sexual frustration worse. How was he going to survive the next two weeks? He barely survived the first day.ย
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If you werenโt awkward around Jake before, you sure are now.ย
You barely slept at all last night because of the hard-boiled embarrassment you felt.ย
You came onto your older brother's best friend?! What were you even thinking? You can already see how pissed off Jay would be if he found out what happened last night.ย
You knew what happened was just a one-time thing. Some weird thing that happened because of your choices.ย
But the way Jake looked at youโฆhow his eyes spoke for himโฆit clouded your mind.ย
When you walked into the kitchen that morning, Jake, Sunghoon, and Heeseung sat at the kitchen table yelling and pushing each other while your brother stood at the stove flipping pancakes.ย
Jay was the first to notice you, โAye, good morning stinks.โย
Three other pairs of eyes fell onto you, feeling Jakeโs gaze specifically.ย
You walked to your brother, taking a glance at the pancakes, โWhen will they be ready?โ Your mouth was practically watering just by looking at them. Maybe it was a good idea to come back home, all for Jayโs cooking.ย
โSoon, go sit down with everyone else, impatient.โย
You stuck your tongue out at him, crossing your arms, โHow can I not be impatient when I donโt get to have your cooking anymore?โย
Jay rolled his eyes, โMaybe if you came home more often-โ
โOkay, whatever corn lover.โ You scoff, โYou win.โย
Jay chuckled at his victory, telling you once again to sit down.ย
You grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge, eyes landing back at the spot Jake had you pressed against just the night before.ย
Jake took notice of your stare on the spot. Covering his mouth with his fingers, eyes staring down at your legs and how your ass is barely covered by your shorts.ย
Itโs like you were trying to tempt him.ย
Sunghoon also noticed your stare at the counter, raising a brow in concern, โYou good over there Y/N?โย
The thoughts of last night faded from your mind as you turned around to face him, smiling with a โMmhmm! Just lost in thought!โย
Oh, Jake couldnโt help but tease you, โWhatโs up with that spot to get so lost in thought about?โย
He did not.ย
You narrow your eyes at him, the shit-eating grin that spread across his face pissed you off.ย
While the others giggled and went back to their normal business, you kept your eyes on Jake. Fully watching as his eyes traveled down your body.ย
If he wants to play games, youโll play back.ย
You walked back over to Jay, leaning yourself onto the counter, knowing full well your shorts will ride up, showing off your ass cheeks.ย
Jake clenched his fist in his lap, biting down on his fingers at his mouth, feeling his dick start to harden.ย
The way your shorts lifted to show the small amount of fat from your ass, basically showing off to Jake that you were either wearing a thong orโฆnothing at all underneath.ย
You slightly shifted your weight between your legs, the small jiggle of your ass made him clench his fist tighter, having to completely cover his arm over his bulge.ย
Jake knew he couldnโt get up and walk out of the kitchen, not with his raging boner on full display. Everyone would clown him.ย
This was the consequence of pushing his luck. Now heโs got to suffer with it.ย
You turned your head back to look at him, seeing the way he twitched in his seat and how his jaw was clenched tightly. The look he was giving you, the same hungry look from last night, but worse.ย
It was enough to dampen your shorts.ย
Jake knew he had to turn the situation around, to drop it entirely, โHey Jay!โย
You quickly twisted yourself around, looping your fingers at the back of your shorts to pull them down, seeing the smug look that now played on Jakeโs face.ย
It was a powerful move to get your brother's attention, knowing Jay would turn around along with Sunghoon and Heeseung's attention being brought in this direction.ย
Checkmate.ย
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You nearly jumped for joy when you found out all the boys would be leaving the house for the day to see their families, Jay going along with them.ย
You decided since now the house was empty and youโd be alone means the massive TV in the living room finally being free.ย
You pulled Netflix on the TV and skipped your way into the kitchen, pushing a bag of popcorn into the microwave, watching the timer go down as you grabbed a bowl for the popcorn, fingers barely holding the bag to drop them into the bowl.ย
You dropped onto the couch, popping the corn into your mouth, free hand searching for something to watch.ย
There was a show your best friend from college told you about not too long ago, but you couldnโt for the life of you remember the name of it.ย
You looked on the coffee table, searched the couch, and couldnโt find your phone anywhere.ย
โWhere could it beโฆโย
You set the popcorn bowl on the coffee table, rushing upstairs into your room, and finding the device sitting on your bed. You snatched it up quickly, shooting your friend a quick text as you made your way back down the stairs, the sound of the spare bathroom door opening nearly sent your soul into orbit.ย
You found yourself standing across the hall from Jake, him shooting the same confused look back at you.ย
โWhat?โ he raised a brow, โWhy are you looking at me like that?โย
You pointed a finger at him, โWhy arenโt you with the boys?โย
Jake got more confused, โWhy would I be?โย
โDonโt you need to see your family? Ya know while youโre back home?โ you retort.
Jake chuckled, โHoney, how can I visit my family if theyโre on vacation in Australia?โ
Youโฆdidnโt think of that. You just assumed his family would be here in town too.ย
You fidgeted with your shorts, suddenly embarrassed for thinking youโd be home alone.ย
Jake looked down at your legs, the thoughts from earlier in the morning coming back to his head.ย
You caught him looking, a smirk playing on your face, โYou sure have a staring problem, Sim Jaeyun.โย
His eyes whipped up to yours, the corners of his lips curving, โYou really want to play this game right now, Park Y/N? When thereโs no one else here?โย
You came back to the realization that the two of you were alone.ย
Jake walked over to you, arms stretched out at his sides, corning you between himself and the railing of the staircase.ย
Jake knew this was wrong, but the stunt you pulled this morning had him taking a thirty-minute shower after breakfast just to beat himself off to release that tension.ย
โIโm asking you this again, what are you trying to pull, Y/N?โย
You were at a loss for words because you werenโt sure what you were trying to pull. You want to respect your brother's โoff limitsโ wishes towards his friends, but god damn at the same time, you were so attracted to Jake.ย
He has always been a good-looking kid, you always found him so adorable, but once middle and high school came around and he started to finally fill into his body properly, the more attractive he became and the girls around school knew it too. The last time you saw him was his high school graduation, and boy did those years make him one of the sexiest men youโve ever seen.ย
โTurning me on in front of my friends and your brother? So dirty.โย
You clenched your thighs together, trying to hide the arousal you were feeling, except nothing could get past Jake.ย
โYou want me,โ he whispered with a smirk, leaning his body closer to yours, โYou want me so bad.โย
Jake had to admit seeing you like this was such a turn-on. The way heโs got you clenching your thighs and hasn't even laid a hand on you.ย
God he wanted to touch you again, have your body pressed close against his, feeling your tits squish to his chest and hands grasping your ass.ย
Him being alone in this house with you was dangerous.ย
Day two and still basically a full two weeks left to go.ย
But he canโt fold, no matter what.ย
You saw how quickly Jakeโs face changed, how the lust left his eyes and was replaced with the soft puppy dog eyes he normally has.ย
And you knew why.ย
Jay.ย
โMaybe we need to stay clear from each other,โ you said, slipping under his arm and up a few steps on the stairs, โLike you said last night, we canโt be doing this.โย
Jake knew it was the right thing to do. Besides, once these two weeks are over and he goes back to college, things will go back to normal, right? No thoughts of his best friend's little sister fucking him into oblivion.ย
He nodded, pushing himself off the stairs, โBut unfortunately we canโt completely ignore each other, thatโll be more suspicious than anything.โย
โRight,โ you knew the moment your brother caught onto the two of you ignoring each other heโd known something was up. Thankfully for you, nothing has really happened between you and Jake, just some dry humping, dirty talk on Jakeโs end, and him grabbing your ass in the kitchen on top of you teasing him this morning. No big deal! โWe just need to act like how we used to do, like when we were kids.โย
Jake softly smiled at you, โThatโll be an easy thing to do, right, stinks?โย
You rolled your eyes and stomped up the stairs, โIโm so sick of that name.โย
Jake couldnโt hold back his laugh, seeing the popcorn bowl you left on the table, โIโm stealing your popcorn!โ he yelled, shoving some of the buttery goodness into his mouth. But the only response he got was the sound of your door slamming.ย
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What Jake thought would be easy ended up being the hardest thing.ย
He couldnโt look at you without the thought of laying face first into your bed running across his mind.ย
Talking to you was a small challenge in itself. Mostly because Jay, Sunghoon, and Heeseung were always right there. Jake felt like their eyes were secretly judging him, watching his every move when probably in reality there was nothing but elevator music going on in their heads the entire time. But he still couldnโt help but feel like an ant under a microscope and had to watch how he looked at you or spoke to you.ย
The four of them grew up teasing you, calling you silly names, spitting their watermelon speeds at you during the hot summers while you all played outside, and even when they would throw snow at you when you five would play outside in the cold. You were really like a little sister to them, basically family. So why was staying clear from you so hard? It was easy as kids. What was so different now besides how grown up you were now?
It was now Monday, four days into the small vacation at your parents and still all this week and a full week after that to be here. The last couple of days have beenโฆsomewhat of a struggle for you and Jake.ย
You acted normal when everyone was around, but still couldnโt help but steal glances at Jake, sometimes already catching him looking at you.ย
After that day you were both alone, you stayed in your room at night, already having some snacks and water up on your nightstand so you wouldnโt have to carefully sneak yourself back downstairs and run into Jake again.ย
Thereโs only been a few times where walking past him was a challenge, mostly in the living room trying to find a seat to sit down or in the kitchen when everyone is putting food on their plates at dinner time.ย
Small touches of your hands grazing from reaching for cups or when you walk past each other in the crowded kitchen and living room. Nothing too big that anyone would really noticeโฆor so you hoped.ย
Jay nudged your shoulder with his, โWhatโs up Stink?โย
You looked up at your brother, โHuh?โย
Jay raised a brow at you, โY/N, youโve been twirling your spoon around your cereal for like five minutes now.โ
You thinned your lips into a line, looking back down at your cereal that is more than likely soggy now, โI was, wasnโt I?โย
You dropped the spoon in the bowl, excusing yourself from the breakfast table and walking the bowl to the sink.
Jay crossed his arms and slid back into his chair, โYou not going to tell me what is going on?โย
Your heart dropped, does he know? Does he know you and Jake have been acting not completely normal?ย
โIโm just really tired today is all,โ you decided to play it off, hoping your worst fear wasnโt happening. Dumping out your wasted cereal and washing the bowl and spoon, โI also didnโt sleep much last night, could hear your snoring from next door.โย
Jay, who now appeared at your side, chuckled, taking the bowl from your hands and a towel from the cabinet, โWas I really snoring that loud last night? I was exhausted. Heeseung spam called me saying they all could hear it from the guest room downstairs.โย
Score! He doesnโt know.ย
You watched as he placed the now clean bowl back into its home in the cabinet and placed the towel over the rack to dry, โDamn, even Heeseung heard it? How is your throat not dry as hell?โย
Jay flicked his finger against your forehead, laughing as you winced and one hand went to your head while the other balled into a fist and reached across to punch your brother in the chest.ย
His bright smile was enough to completely change your mood, taking whatever negative energy that was balling up to release and escape back to wherever it came from. Jay always had this effect on you, it was one of his best sibling traits.ย
But that didnโt stop you from still trying to square up with him.ย
And you failedโฆhorribly.ย
Heeseung and Sunghoon walked into the kitchen at the perfect time for Jay to put you into a headlock between his biceps, โSay you're sorry,โ he said in a teasing tone, โAnd Iโll let you go.โย
Even with the laughing fit you were in, you still didnโt give up. Hands gripping his arms in attempts to get yourself free, โNever!โ You chanted, โYou snore like an old man!โย
Heeseung and Sunghoon shared glances before walking around the two of you wrestling to grab their own bowls of cereal and sitting at the table.ย
Jake was the last to pile into the kitchen, stopping abruptly at the fight in the kitchen.ย
โJust walk around them,โ Sunghoon mentioned, โWe did.โย
Jake carefully walked around the two of you who now sat on the floor.ย
You had your arms and legs wrapped around your brother, his back to your chest. But he had your back pressed against the island, his shoes digging into the floor to help him use all his weight towards his chest to keep you against the island.ย
Jake carefully made his way to the table, sitting down beside his other two friends, โHave they been fighting long?โ Jake asked, too scared to even prepare himself his own bowl of sugar.ย
Heeseung shrugged, โWe found them like this when we got here.โย
Sunghoon groaned, โShould we break it up now? Probably been going on for long enough.โย
โHey!โ Heeseung shouted. You and Jay stop wiggling around, eyes now set on the table at the three friends staring back at you, โSome of us would like to eat our breakfast in peace.โย
โThat sucks,โ you joked, tightening your grip on your brother. Jay pushing his weight back onto you.ย
While Heeseung and Sunghoon seemed to completely discard the two siblings, Jake couldnโt help but smile fondly at you two.ย
He dropped his jaw into his palm, his smile only growing wider. This moment felt like old times when you were all children.ย
But that happy feeling soon faded and was replaced with fear when your mother walked into the kitchen. Jake never sat up straight so fast. Even Heeseung and Sunghoon stopped slouching.ย
โPark Jongseong! Park Y/N! What are you doing?!โย
You and Jay got up from the floor, standing side by side in front of your mother.ย
โArenโt you supposed to be at work?โ Jay quickly asked with his, sorry for wrestling my baby sister on your clean kitchen floor mom, it wonโt happen again, awkward smile.ย
Your mother placed her hands on her hips, โAm I not allowed to have a day off from work?โย
Heeseung scooted his chair closer to the table, leaning against it in a way to get as close as possible to the conversation, him eating his cereal as if it were popcorn, and you guys were the movie.ย
Sunghoon followed Heeseung, him pulling at Jakeโs hoodie to pull him close too.ย
โI think what Jay means mom, is that we werenโt expecting you to have the day off.โ You elbowed your brother's ribs, a small oof leaving his lips from the pain.ย
Your mother relaxed, looking between the two of you, โYour father has a company party tonight up at that new fancy hotel a couple of towns over, we are leaving now to get there at a decent time. We are packing as we speak.โย
โWait, you're not coming home tonight?โ Jay asked with a hint of shenanigans in his tone.ย
Oh boyโฆ
She shook her head, โThe party is ending too late, so we are staying at the hotel and coming home tomorrow morning.โย
Jay didnโt even hide the fact that he had some kind of bullshit cooking up in his head as he turned and faced his friends, a smirk forming.ย
You leaned back, glancing at his friends, trying to decipher whatever secret language they were using to communicate with their eyes.
Before your mother could protest whatever shenanigans your brother was planning, your father stumbled into the kitchen.ย
โBoys, I need your help. The mail just came.โ your father said, pointing his index finger at each of the three boys one by one, โItโs a big one.โย
โAre we building something, Mr. Park?โ Heeseung asked, already standing up from the table.ย
Your father nodded with a big smile, โWe bought a hot tub for the back porch.โย
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You sat at the picnic table, cold hands shoving into your hoodie pocket, watching as the three boys hovered around Sunghoon who held the directions to the hot tub.ย
โWhen your dad said he got a hot tub that he needed help setting up, I thought he meant he was going to be a part of helpingโฆโ Jake sighed, shoving his hands into his jean pockets.ย
Jay also sighed, โYeah, trust me. He put his whole faith into us with this one. Not to mention one person is just watching while we struggle.โย
The three boys looked at you. You sat up straighter, smiling at them, and waved, โDad never told me to help.โย
Each of them glared at you before going back to the instruction booklet.ย
You were surprised your parents even bought the hot tub. Mostly since it would only be the two of them using it up until the spring came when it got too hot for it. Plus you and the boys would only be able to use it while you were visiting. But itโs their money, not yours. They can do what they please.ย
โWait,โ Heeseung said, picking up one of the hard plastic pieces, โI figured it out.โย
The boys, sooner than later, had the hot tub built. It was a beautiful oak brown wood color with six seats and came with massaging capabilities with cool lights at the bottom for when it was dark out. It was small, and everyoneโs legs would get all tangled up, but beautiful nevertheless.ย
The next step was setting up the pumps. Which racked the boy's brains too hard, causing them to sit at the picnic table with you.ย
โMy brain hurts,โ Heeseung said rubbing his temples, โI need a break.โย
Sunghoonโs eyes lit up quickly, he sat up on the bench, hands slapping onto the table, โTell us your plan, Jay!โย
Jakeโs attention also drew in, curious as well, โYeah whatโs the plan?โย
Heeseung looked up at his friends, also waiting.ย
You looked at your brother, โAre you talking about whatever hidden language you three stooges had while in the kitchen earlier?โย
โHow dare you compare us to the three stooges!โ Sunghoon snapped, reaching over to flick your forehead, but you were too quick, swatting his hand away.ย
โCanโt tell me I am wrong?โ you retort, โAnyways, spill the beans.โย
Jay looked between his two friends, โMight as well tell her,โ Jake shrugged, โSheโs already onto us.โย
You shook your brotherโs shoulder, โSPILL!โย
โParty,โ he sighed, shrugging you off, โWe are going out tonight.โย
You raised a brow, switching glances between the three idiots, โAnd you were trying to keep that a secretโฆwhy?โ
โWe couldnโt go to parties when we lived here?โ Jay sassed.ย
โThat didnโt stop you from sneaking out your window and jumping into Heeseungโs car?โ you threw back, โYouโre adults now, you think our parents can stop you?โย
Jake released a giggle, โYour mother actually called Jay on the drive here telling him no drinking while we are here.โย
You shrugged, your mother was always against drinking and going to parties. Itโs what caused Jay and yourself to sneak out half of your high school lives. Your dad caught Jay sneaking in through the front door once and thatโs all it took for him to start using his bedroom window and bribing you to keep your mouth shut until the first time you snuck out and couldnโt get back inside due to your window closing while you were out having no choice but to call him to let you inside.ย
โAnyways, yeah we are going out to a club, possibly bar hop. Just depends.โ Jay shrugged it off as if it were no big deal.ย
โCool, when are we leaving?โ You asked, fully invested in going.ย
Jay scoffed, โWho said you can come?โย
You scrunch your nose at your brother, โI am an adult, if you tell me no I could always drive myself and follow you guys.โย
Heeseung chuckled, โSheโs got a point, might as well let her come.โ
You gave your brother a smug look, โSee?โ
โFine, jeez!โ he groaned.ย
โPlus, maybe youโll get lucky and someone else can take me off your hands.โ you wiggled your eyebrows, hoping they picked up what you were putting down.ย
Jake was the first one that pick it up. Chills being sent down his body. Eyes darting between you and Jay, then it finally clicked in his head.ย
โNo!โ Jay snapped, โNot happening, keeping you in my sight.โย
You rolled your eyes, knowing damn well once you all get to the club or bar and get some alcohol in your system Jay canโt stop anything.ย
Heeseung slapped his hands on the table, โAnyways, enough of that! Letโs get these pumps on the hot tub working so we can get ready to leave, thereโs five of us that have to get ready and lord knows we will need that time.โย
Sure enough, the boys got the hot tub up and running smoothly in no time.ย
โ
โWear the fucking jacket Y/N!โ Jay snapped, yelling over the loud music from the club, shoving his jacket in your face.
โI said no!โ you snapped back at your brother, shoving his jacket out of the way.ย
โDude,โ Heeseung rolled his eyes, โdid you not notice her outfit when we got in the car?!โย
Jay sent daggers shooting at the older, โI was in the driver's seat dumbass! We were running late on leaving!โย
You crossed your arms, looking down at your outfit. It wasnโt even bad? You had on your favorite faded blue ripped skinny jeans with fishnet tights underneath. You had on a long-sleeved crop top that was just above your belly button and in a v-neck style, shoving off your breasts, and your long hair was pulled back into a tight ponytail.ย
โBesides, it looks like a completely normal outfit!โ Jay once again tried shoving the jacket at you.ย
โDude!โ you pushed his hands away once again, โThere isnโt anything wrong with my outfit!โย
Jay looked at each of his friends to help convince you, his eyes landing on Jake last. Jake just shrugged his shoulders, โYour sister man.โย
Jake on the one hand had no problem with your outfit, it was cute, it was sexy, and it showed off all your curves, not to mention it made your tits and ass look GREAT. On the other hand, he can see Jayโs frustration. The moment any of the guys would take their eyes off you, another man would make his move.ย
โJesus Christ Iโm ordering us shots I canโt take this bickering,โ Sunghoon said with a roll of his eyes as he pushed past everyone making his way to the bar.ย
Jay pleaded with you with his eyes, โY/N.โย
โJongseong.โย
Sunghoon returned quickly with five shots, handing everyone theirs, โLetโs get fucked up tonight!โย
โAmen to that brother!โ Heeseung shouted, โCHEERS!โย
Everyone clacked the shot glasses together and then drank down the shot.ย
Itโs been a while since you drank last, already making a promise to yourself to not go overboard.ย
Sunghoon collected the glasses and set them on the table next to you all.ย
Jay wouldnโt take his eyes off you and you shot darts into his soul.ย
He opened his mouth to say something, his eyes looking away from you for a second, his mouth hanging open at whatever sight he saw behind you.ย
You raised a brow, turning behind you to see what he was staring at, โWow, and you want ME to cover up?โย
Granted, the female your brother was going heart eye for was beautiful, she just happened to be showing off a lot more skin than you. She had a matching black crop top and skirt with black boots. It was a cute outfit, no wonder it got Jayโs attention.ย
She was also staring back at your brother, even giving him a little wave.ย
โOh shit man,โ Sunghoon nudged his arm, โGo get her.โย
Jay ran a hand through his dyed hair, walking in her direction, โPut this on, Iโll be right back,โ he dropped the jacket on the top of your head and disappeared into the crowd towards the female.ย
You pulled the jacket off you, dropping it down onto the table, โI need more alcohol.โย
You walked away from the boys, only for the three of them to follow directly behind you to the counter of the bar, โDonโt you guys have girls to be going after?โย
Heeseung chuckled, wrapping an arm around your shoulders while he leaned against the counter, โWe came here to drink, Y/N, and thatโs exactly what we are doing.โย
You pulled Heeseung off you, โCanโt you do that somewhere else?โย
Sunghoon leaned closer to you, โYou trying to get rid of us?โ he gave you his famous smirk, and oh man did you want to punch him.ย
โDuh?โ you said matter of fact, โIsnโt it obvious?โย
โYeah, Sunghoon,โ Heeseung said, slinging his arm back around you, โShe wants to get laid tonight, she canโt be seen with three other guys hovering around her.โย
Jake didnโt like this conversation nor did he want to hear it. In hopes of changing the vibes, he called the bartender over. โCan we get a couple of rounds of shots please?โ
The bartender nodded, โComing right up!โย
You once again removed Heeseung from you, getting more irritated by the second. You didnโt know what was more annoying, your brother, or his friends.ย
The eight shots were placed in front of you all, everyone taking one into their hands.
โCheers!โ Jake calmly said, once again clacking the glasses together before slurping down the liquid.ย
You set the glass down and then dropped your head into your hand, this wasnโt how you wanted the night to go. You expected to drink with the boys, yeah, but you werenโt expecting them to be up your ass.ย
โIs that who I think it is?โ Heeseung asked, pointing a finger down the bar.ย
Everyone shifted their gaze looking in the direction Heeseung was pointing at.ย
โNo way!โ you gasped, leaning your head more into your hand, โIs that Choi Yeonjun?!โย
As if hearing his name being called from across the bar, he turned and faced your direction, his eyes wandering between the four of you. He gave a small wave, his eyes lingering on you. Way too long for Jakeโs liking.ย
The more shots Jake ordered, and the more the liquid courage went down your throat, the more you wanted to walk over to Yeonjun.ย
โAre you going to keep giving him heart eyes or are you gonna actually go talk to him?โ Sunghoon said with a roll of his eyes, taking another shot down.ย
You tucked your lip between your teeth, slightly pulling at your ponytail while making eye contact with Yeonjun, him giving you a few winks and his own lip bite to flirt back.ย
It was driving Jake up a wall.ย
โShould I?โ you asked, โHavenโt seen him since he graduated a few years before you guys.โย
Yeonjun used to be in band class along with the boys and even lived the next street over from you and Jay before he moved away after graduation. He wasnโt close with the boys since he had his friend group, but they all hung out a few times from what you could remember.ย
โY/N, maybe you shouldnโt,โ Jake said, taking a small step closer to you as he eyed Yeonjun.ย
โWhy not?โ you stood from the bar, causing Jake to bring his eyes back to you. You adjusted your shirt, pulling it slightly down to reveal your tits a bit more.ย
Jake clenched his jaw at the sight, seeing how your tits slightly jiggled from you adjusting your shirt, and the fact Yeonjun was about to see it up close and personal wasnโt sitting right with him.ย
โHow do I look?โ you asked, turning and looking at each of them for their opinions.ย
โYou look hot, now go talk to him before some other girl beats you to it!โ Heeseung said, quickly pushing you away from them, which gave you no other choice but to walk over to him.ย
Once you were far enough away, Jake glared at Heeseung.ย
โDude what?โ he scoffed, โShe came here for this reason. Jay ainโt even around, relax.โย
Thatโs not the point.
โCome on, letโs go back to the table, Iโm tired of standing,โ Sunghoon said, collecting the leftover full shots, โHee, Jake, order us some beer or something.โย
โWell, hello there,โ Yeonjun said, pulling you into a hug, โItโs been what? three-four years?โย
You nodded into his shoulder, โItโs really been a while hasnโt it?โย
Yeonjun sat back on his bar stool, pulling the one beside him out, โPlease sit.โย
Now that you are closer to him, you can see how grown-up he has gotten. Damn, what is with everyone you knew getting hit with puberty like a fucking truck?ย
โAre you still friends with Soobin, Beomgyu Taehyun, andโฆ?โย
โHuening kai?โ he smiled, โOf course!โ he glances around the club then looks back at you, โThey are around here somewhere.โย
You came over here specifically to flirt and hopefully get dragged out of this club by him, yet youโve found yourself at a loss for words. Heโs too beautiful and sexy with how he smiles, itโs throwing you for a loop. Plus you barely knew him back in school, only the basics really.ย
Yeonjun leans closer to you, placing his hand on your forearm, thumb rubbing circles, โHow is your brother?โ he asked, glancing behind you, โI saw you are here with Lee, Sim, and the other Park.โย
You sighed, โJay is around here somewhere,โ you said, taking a quick look around the club, just to find your eyes back on Yeonjun.ย
Yeonjun sucked on his bottom lip as he stared you up and down, his eyes always landing back down onto your tits.ย
Yeonjun remembers perfectly well how overprotective Jay was over his sister, so if Yeonjun wanted to get you out of your clothes, he needed to act fast before Jay caught eyes on the two of you.ย
Yeonjun was so attracted to you right now. He found you cute back in school, but damn did you grow up to be such a fine woman. And with the way your friends were eyeballing him, he knew they too found you just as sexy, making him need to act even faster before one of them decided to ruin everything.ย
Jake took notice of how Yeonjun was eye fucking you without a care in the world. His hand was on your arm as you two talked. Oh, it was setting him off.ย
โDamn,โ Heeseung said, putting his beer bottle to his lips, โYouโre going to burn a hole in the guy if you keep staring at him like that.โ
โAre we just going to let him touch her like that?โ Jake spat out, taking his eyes off Yeonjun to look at his friends, โYou both are staring at them too!!โ
Sunghoon shrugged, โI am only watching to see if he can actually bag her.โย
โDude,โ Heeseung quickly said, โOne hundred bucks that he fucks up somehow.โย
Jake furrowed his eyes, โWhat the actual fuck?โย
โWhat?โ Sunghoon snapped, โYouโre acting like Jay right now. What is up with the two of you? Huh?โย
Jake didnโt know how to answer that. He canโt tell them the sexual frustration heโs been feeling knowing one of them will let it slip to Jay either by accident or purposely.
โI am just worried about her, that's all,โ Jake said, looking back over to you.ย
In the time Jake had his eyes off you, Yeonjun had his stool pulled closer to you, his legs found their way between yours, his knees touching yours and hand resting on your thigh, his fingers slowly slipping between the tears of your jeans.ย
Jakeโs jaw locked, his hands forming into fists.ย
โJake,โ Heeseung said calmly, noticing his friend's behavior, โLetโs think smart about this, ya?โย
โShe is basically our family and youโre just going to stand by and let some random dude touch her like that?!โ Jake snapped.ย
โJake, he isnโt some random dude, we went to school with him,โ Heeseung tried to play damage control, but it wasnโt working.ย
โHe also had a reputation for the females he pulled into his bed!โ Jake spat.ย
Sunghoon let out a whistle and with a tilt of his head said, โYouโre so into her.โย
Jake whipped his head around, โWould you let Yeji be in Y/N position right now?โย
Sunghoon scoffed, โFuck no! She wouldnโt be anywhere near here!โย
โThen whatโs the difference of letting the girl we grew up with be in that position right now?โย
Heeseung sighed, โJake, what is really going on with you? Youโd never bat an eye at her before.โย
I want her all to myself. Donโt want another man touching her.ย
Jake looked away from his friends. Heeseung was right, heโd never thought twice about you before now, he should be supporting your choices to get laid.ย
Except he wasnโt.ย
Yeonjunโs hand completely slipped between the tear of your jeans, squeezing your thigh as he continued to eye fuck the shit out of you.ย
And thatโs all it took.ย
Jake shot from the chair, his brain on autopilot.ย
โJAKE!!โ Both his friends called after him. Jake ignored them.ย
Jake approached the two of you quickly, Yeonjun locked eyes with Jake and slid his hand out of your jeans with a disgusted look on his face clearly showing his irritation towards Jake.ย
โHey,โ Jake said, his hand finding your lower back, his fingers twisting into your belt loop and slightly pulling, โLetโs go find your brother and leave, ya? We still have a few other places to check out.โย
Oh here we go, Yeonjun thought.ย
โWow, no hey Yeonjun! Long time no see! How ya been?โ Yeonjun sassed, his thumb still making soft figure eights on your forearm.ย
Jake burnt holes into him, โSup, Choi, long time no see. How have you been? Cool. Bye.โย
โJake!โ you snapped at his rudeness.ย
Jakeโs hand found your waist, slightly pulling you again in an attempt to remove you from the stool.ย
โI donโt think Y/N wants to leave,โ Yeonjun glared at him.
Jake scoffed, reaching over to remove his hand from your arm, then completely wrapping around you, lifting you from the seat.ย
Yeonjun clicked his tongue, โIs there a problem, Sim?โย
Jake chuckled, โNah man,โ he looked around behind Yeonjun, โWhere is the rest of your rat pack huh?โย
โJake!!โ you snapped at him again. What the fuck was his problem?ย
Yeonjun chuckled back, his tongue digging into the side of his cheek, standing up from the stool, โWhy donโt you let miss pretty thing go and head back over to Mr. Ace and Ice Prince, ya?โย
Yeonjun reached for you, only for Jake to whip you behind him, โDonโt you fucking touch her.โย
โCome on man, trying to get my dick wet, stop gatekeeping her pussy for yourself.โย
Oh, man.ย
โThe fuck did you just say?!โ Jake lost it, letting his grip on you go and stepping into Yeonjunโs face.ย
This canโt be good, โJake!โ you gripped onto his arm, trying to yank him back, โJake come on, letโs just go!โย
He wouldnโt budge, so you did the next best thing. Whipping your head around to find Heeseung and Sunghoon. Waving your hands to get their attention to look in your direction, eyes pleading with them. They got up immediately.ย
โYou heard me, Sim,โ Yeonjun said, โI saw the way youโve been staring her down all night.โย
Jake clicked his tongue, โMan, fuck off!โ and Jake shoved him.ย
Yeonjun shoved him back harder.ย ย
Before Jake could swing, Heeseung wrapped his hands around Jake, โWoah woah woah!! Hoon get Y/N out of here!โ Heeseung yelled as he fought to keep Jake still.ย
Sunghoon wrapped his arm around your waist, trying to pull you away from the situation, โY/N, letโs go please,โ but you fought against him, โI need you safe! Please!โ You stopped struggling against Sunghoonโs hold, slowly letting him back you away.ย
โJake, man listen to me,โ Heeseung whipped himself in front of Jake, โLetโs just go okay? Think about Y/N, we need to get her somewhere safe, ya?โย
Jake took his eyes off Yeonjun and over to Heeseung, his body relaxing and nodding. The last thing he wants is to put you in danger or see him start a fight.ย
Jake nodded, letting Heeseung push him back and turn him around.ย
The moment Heeseungโs hands were off Jake and he was now at his side, Yeonjun scoffed, โPussy shit.โย
Pussy shit?
Heeseung wasnโt fast enough to get ahold of Jake, because now his fists were balled and made contact with Yeonjunโs cheek.ย
Yeonjun hunched to the side, his left hand touching the area Jake just punched him, only to quickly whip around and land a punch right on the corner of the left side of Jakeโs mouth.ย
โFind my brother!โ You yelled, fighting against Sunghoonโs hold on you, โFind Jay!!โย
Heeseung ran into the crowd, pushing past the dancing bodies on the floor.ย
Jake licked the blood that dripped down his lip, letting out an evil laugh before gripping Yeonjunโs collar of his shirt, Yeonjun took his fist full of Jakeโs shirt and gave him a shove.ย
โYouโre fucking dead!โ Jake spat, getting himself ready to throw another punch.ย
Before the next moves could be made, Heeseung and Jay were at Jakeโs side with Soobin and Taehyun at Yeonjunโs.ย
โHey! Hey! Hey!โ Jay yelled, pushing Yeonjun off his friend and then wrapping his hands around Jakeโs biceps, Heeseung doing the same in hopes of holding him back.ย
Soobin and Taehyun also hand their own death grips on their older.ย
โWhat the actual fuck is wrong with you two?!โ Jay snapped, eyes darting between him and Jun, โFighting in a club? Jesus fucking Christ.โย
Sunghoon let you go to run to his friend's side, placing his hands on Jakeโs shoulders to help pull him back.ย
You made your way over to Jake, eyes landing on the cut on his lip. You whipped your head back around and looked at Yeonjun, seeing the bruise already starting to form on his cheek.ย
Much deserved.ย
Jakeโs hands found your waist as he pulled you to him, giving Yeonjun one last fuck you look as he backed away. Jay also places a hand on your back, giving Yeonjun a stare himself.ย
Yeonjun chuckled, taking a step forward but his friends stopped him, โYeah! Learn to get your dog and bitch of a sister under control!โย
Yeonjun was now on the floor on his knees, spitting blood onto the tile, and blood dripping from Jayโs fist.ย
You quickly ran over to your brother, pulling him away, watching as Soobin and Taehyun pulled Yeonjun up.ย
โLetโs just go hyung,โ Taehyun said, โYouโve drank way too much tonight.โย
With a nod from Yeonjun, he let Taehyun pull him away, Beomgyu taking Soobinโs spot as he quickly apologized to us for Yeonjun then followed behind his four friends.ย
Heeseung drove home while Sunghoon sat in the passenger seat.ย
You sat between Jay and Jake, your hands examining your brothers, napkins, and a bag of ice you guys got from the bar laid onto his hand.ย
โI canโt believe you punched him that hard,โ you said, squeezing his wrist tightly.ย
โI wasnโt going to let him talk about you and Jake like that,โ your brother mumbled, โcouldnโt let Jake get hit again either.โ he teased
โFuck man,โ Jake said, leaning his head back and tilting it to look at Jay, โI had him!โย
Everyone laughed.ย
โOh!!โ Heeseung finally spoke up, pointing a finger at Sunghoon, โYou owe me one hundred dollars!!โย
โHuh?โ Jay questioned.ย
โThey made a stupid ass bet,โ Jake said, rolling his eyes, โSunghoon lost.โย
โI wouldnโt have if someone didnโt storm off.โ Sunghoon snapped, whipping around in the seat to look at Jake, earning a middle finger from Jake.ย
โWasnโt going to let him continue touching Y/N like that.โย
โThank you,โ Jay said, โFor watching after my sister.โย
Jake nodded, โSomeone had to.โย
You rolled your eyes and sent your elbow flying into his ribs.ย
Turning your attention back to Jay, you shifted the ice and napkin up to take a look at the cuts on his hand, โItโll be bruised for awhile, you hit him pretty hard.โย
Jay just nodded, eyes getting heavy.ย
โHey,โ you tap his leg, โYou okay?โย
Jay smiled with a laugh, โIโm so fucking hammered, surprised I sobered up enough to stop that fight.โย
You smiled sweetly at your brother, โLetโs get you to sleep once home.โย
โ
After the night you had, all you wanted was to try out the hot tub.ย
Once you and the guys got Jay into bed, you watched as they made their way into the spare room, the door closing.ย
You did get into bed, but the jitters from the fight still haunted you. And what better way to get those jitters away than to try out the brand-new hot tub?ย
You quickly changed into your dark blue bikini, slipping sweatpants and a sweatshirt over your body, and quickly but quietly made your way down the stairs, into the laundry closet to grab a towel and into the kitchen, carefully unlocking and sliding the glass door open and shut.ย
Turning the hot tub and pulled the cover off and the lights lit up the porch, and watched the bubbles start to form. You dropped the towel onto the table and slid out of your sweats, the cold immediately touching your skin.ย
You tied your hair back into a tight bun and quickly jumped over the steps and slid your body into the warmth.ย
You released a soft ahhh as the water warmed your body.ย
You laid your head back onto the pillow at your seat, closing your eyes and moving your arms back and forth.ย
No wonder your parents wanted a hot tub, this shit was relaxing as hell.ย
The sound of the sliding glass door opening scared you, making you quickly sit up and whip around. Your eyes nearly rolled out of your sockets from how hard you rolled them.ย
โHello to you too,โ Jake said snarkly, โWhat are you even doing up?โย
You turned back around, โCan say the same about you.โย
Jake wasnโt expecting anyone to be in the hot tub, he wanted to be alone and get out of the spare room for a few hours. After tonight a relaxing time in the hot tub sounded amazing.ย
He was probably the last person you wanted to be around, yet he also couldnโt help but feel happy knowing you were also here.ย
โAm I allowed to get in or??โย
You looked back over at him, giving a small nod, โYeah, thatโs fine. Youโre already out here.โย
The corner of Jakeโs lips curled, dropping the towel next to yours.ย
His hands found the ends of his sweatshirt, pulling it up and over his body.ย
You felt your face flush. Feeling as if you just saw the work of a God.ย
You knew he worked out, his whole physique was proof of that. But seeing shirtless was a whole new level.ย
Your eyes wandered from his chest down to his abs. Yeah, he was sculpted by the gods.ย
Jake looped his fingers in his sweatpants, giving a small smirk at you staring, โStaring problem?โย
You quickly made eye contact with him, then shifted yourself back around, โNo.โย
He softly laughed, dropping his sweatpants to the ground and climbing into the hot tub.ย
โI am so glad I brought my swimming shorts.โย
You watched as he sat across from you, his legs sliding down beside yours.ย
โDid you just, randomly pack swimming shorts?โ you asked, raising an eyebrow.ย
Jake laid his arms out against the top of the tub, sinking himself lower in, โYeah. Always have to be prepared.โย
You narrowed your eyes, โItโs the middle of winter.โย
Jake chuckled, โHeeseungโs family has a heated pool. Figured we would go use it at some point during this trip.โย
All you could do was nod. Youโve only ever been to the Lee household during birthday parties for Heeseung as kids. Guess the heated pool came around after you stopped hanging around them.ย
Everything went silent. It was awkward, both of you knew that. You both went from staying clear of each other the best you could to sitting across from each other alone.ย
โIโm sorry.โย
Huh.ย
You looked at him with confusion, โWhy?โย
Jake sat up, leaning forward, and wrapped his arms around himself, โFor starting a fight with Yeonjun in front of you. For him talking about you the way he did.โย
โJake,โ you also leaned forward, placing your hand on his knee, โYou were just defending me, thereโs nothing wrong with that. My brother would beat the shit out of you for even apologizing for it.โย
Jake scoffed, โThe fight wouldnโt have happened in the first place if I didnโt lose my cool.โย
โYou arenโtโฆwrongโฆโ You studied him. Youโve known Jake basically his whole life, you know his mannerisms and tell by his body language that he was truly deeply sorry, thatโs one thing that has never changed about him, โJust donโt be sorry. You were defending me.โย
Jake nodded, his eyes finding a corner of the tub, watching as the bubbles pop, then softly laughed, โSorry I cock blocked you, that wasnโt cool of me.โย
You let out a small giggle, โYeah, you really did cock block me,โ you let out a sigh, โToo bad he ended up being an asshole, really wanted to have a good fuck.โย
โFuck me then,โ Jake said softly.ย
All you could do was look at him, not being able to tell if he was serious or not.ย
โFunny joke.โย
โIโm not joking, Y/N.โย
The whole reason you wanted to go out and gain a hookup was to release the sexual frustration that you had for the man sitting in front of you. But now that said man is straight up asking you to fuck him.ย
โYou said we canโt be doing this, my brotherโโ
โI donโt care,โ Jake moved forward, reaching his hand out and grabbing your waist, pulling you back over to him and in his lap.ย
His hands squeezed your thighs on either side of him, his forehead connecting to yours, โI canโt take it anymore. The way youโve been teasing meโฆAfter seeing the way Yeonjun was undressing you with his eyesโฆthe way he was touching you.โย
His length grew hard underneath you, his hands sliding up to the strings of your bikini bottoms, gripping them tightly.ย
Jake thought he could survive these two weeks, thought he was stronger, and that the respect and bond he had with Jay was strong enough to keep him away. Unfortunately, your hold on him was stronger.ย
โI want you, so bad,โ he whispered, his hot breath hitting your lips.ย
You placed your hands on his shoulders, โI want you tooโฆโย
You did. Oh god did you want him badly. But how could you betray your brother's rules? Heโd kill you both.ย
Jake pulled at the strings of your bottoms slightly, โJust give me the word, and Iโll fuck you so good I swear it.โย
Oh, fuck it.
You nodded, โJaeyun, please.โย
And that line got crossed.ย
Jakeโs lips connected to yours, kissing you with such passion and need, like heโs been wanting for this his entire life.ย
His fingers pulled at both sides of strings, your bottoms completely coming undone and him pulling them away from your body to float off somewhere in the hot tub.ย
His tongue invades your mouth, twisting the muscle around yours letting soft and quiet moans release into your mouth.ย
You rolled your hips against him, sliding your folds against his clothed length as your fingers got tangled up in his hair.ย
Jake squeezed your hips, pushing you down harder onto him, bucking his hips up in motion with yours.ย
You released your mouth from his, a string of saliva connected to your mouths, โI need you, Jake, please.โย
His hands left your hips and flew to his shorts, his fingers pulling at the strings. You, being impatient, looped your fingers into his shorts, helping him pull them down.ย
โFuck baby, that needy for my cock?โย
You nodded, watching as his shorts went down at his thighs, his thick length now resting against his abdomen.ย
Taking his cock in your hands, you slowly pumped him.ย
Jakeโs hand went back to your waist, biting his lips. Fuck your hand feels so good against his cock, it was everything he ever imagined and more.ย
Jake lifted you, letting you adjust him to your fuck hole, lining him up perfectly.ย
โYou ready, baby?โ Jake asked, wanting one last form of permission from you before crossing the line even further behind the return.ย
You nodded, slowly sliding yourself down onto him.ย
You both groan out at the feeling of him bottoming out, the sensation already sending Jake over the edge. He could cum right now just from bottoming out.ย
You rolled your hips slowly to help get adjusted to his size, hands gripping his broad shoulders as you slowly picked up your pace.ย
Jakeโs mouth connected back to yours as you rode him. bucking his hips up at the same motion as you.ย
โFucckkkk, youโre so tight, baby. Taking my dick so good, oh fuck.โย
You picked up the pace, his dick hitting your g-spot perfectly.ย
Jakeโs brain was going fuzzy, the sensation of his dick buried deep in your cunt was sending him to another world.ย
โFuck, fuck, fuck, fuckโฆโ Jake slid his hands up to the string of your top, fingers gripping them tightly along with your skin, fingers digging in as he slid them back down your back, his hips bucking up harder into you.ย
You moaned out a little too loud, Jakeโs lips reattaching to your lips, โShhh, baby, you need to stay quiet.โย
You nodded, biting down on your lips to suppress your sounds as you continued to slide his dick in and out of youโฆin and out, in and out.ย
Jake knew he would cum soon, that knot in his stomach threatening to snap and the twitch of his dick.ย
Then your pussy tightened around him, your own high approaching.ย
โIโmโฆcumming soon,โ you whispered, digging your nails into his shoulders.ย
โYeah, baby?โ He slid his hand down to your heat, thumb rubbing circles on your clit, โWanna cum?โย
โPlease.โ You begged, throwing your head back as your legs got weaker, biting down on your tongue as the knot snapped.ย
โThatโs it, pretty girl, make a mess all over my cock.โย
You fell forward, resting your head against his, his hands squeezing your hips tightly as he fucked into you, the overstimulation making you dizzy along with the heat from the water.ย
โJakeโฆโย
โI know baby girl,โ he whispered, locking his jaw at the knot and getting close to releasing, โFuck, Iโm cumming, Iโm cumming.โย
With a groan, he pumped his seed against your walls riding out his high.ย
Jake wrapped his arms around you, resting his forehead against your neck, leaving open-mouthed kisses on your skin.ย
You tangled your fingers in his hair and let out a sigh, โJay is going to kill us both.โย
Jake chuckled, โYeah, but only if he finds out.โย
You both took a moment to catch your breaths, your hands releasing from his hair and sliding down his neck, your fingers stopping at the chain of his necklace. A beautiful large double link pendant.
Jake noticed your eyes at his neck, โItโs pretty, right?โ he said between deep breaths.
You nodded, twisting the metal between your fingers.
He lifted his hands from your sides, reaching behind him and unattaching the clasp, removing it from his body and moving it to yours, the double links dropping at your collar bones.
โJake, no, I canโt take this!โ you went to take the necklace off, โThis was probably very expensive!โ
Jake grabbed your hands, sliding them back around his neck, โItโs yours now, a beautiful necklace for a very beautiful woman. Keep it.โ
Your heart was racing, your stomach filled with butterflies at the way he smiled and looked at you.
โIt looks better on you anyway baby,โ Jake wraps one arm back around you, his free hand cupping your jaw and pulling you in for a kiss.
โ
Jake had to admit, that seeing you walking around with his necklace around your neck drove him insane.ย
It was like his own way of marking you without physically having to do it.ย
You plopped down onto the couch next to Heeseung, the necklace sitting beautifully against your collarbones.ย
Oh, did Jake want his lips on your neck right now.ย
โDamnit!โ Sunghoon shouted, tossing the Nintendo Controller onto the coffee, โWhy are you so damn good?!โย
Heeseung raised a brow, โItโs Mario Kart??? It doesnโt take skill??โย
Jay patted his back, โAt least you arenโt last place, like someone sitting in the corner over there,โย
And then all eyes went to Jake.
โOh, fuck off!โ he snapped, โI donโt play Mario Kart!โย
You smiled at your friends, eyes connecting with Jakeโs.ย
He gave you his flirty smile, eyes leaving yours, and went back to the TV as the next race started.ย
You couldnโt take your eyes off him. Last night in the hot tub replayed in your mind on a loop. The way his hands felt against your skin, how his lips fit perfectly to yours. How his cock feltโฆYou couldnโt help but wonder if he went to bed last night too with his brain flooding of you.ย
And he did.ย
Having sex with you was everything Jake imagined it to be. It was actually BETTER than he imagined it. To finally feel you wrapped around his cock and hear your pretty moans in his ears. Oh, it was heaven.ย
The only issue now isโฆwellโฆhe wants more. So much more.ย
He spent most of his time last night after the hot tub sex thinking the next moment heโd be able to fuck you. Thinking how heโd be able to get you alone long enough or even have the opportunity to get you alone.ย
Another problem is, that those chances are slim.ย
You lifted the collar of your hoodie over your neck, not wanting to chance your brother, or really anyone, seeing Jakeโs necklace.ย
You both crossed a line and now have to deal with the secret of it.ย
The sound of the washing machine went off, telling you your laundry was finished.ย
You quickly jumped from the couch.ย
โWhat are we doing for lunch?โ Jay finally said, โY/N? What do you think?
You stopped halfway out of the living room, turning back to look at your brother, โWhy not just order takeout?โย
Jay shrugged, โGuys?โย
As the boys discussed lunch, you finished your walk back to the laundry room.ย
By the time you transferred your wet clothes into the dryer, Jake walked in, โIs the washer open now?โย
You gave him a nod, closing the dryer door and turning it on.ย
โWhat did you decide for lunch?โ you asked, leaning against the dryer.ย
Jake shoved his dirty clothes into the washing machine, โWe decided on takeout like you suggested.โย
You nodded, โNice, Iโll go tell Jay what I want.โย
You barely were out of the room when Jakeโs hand wrapped around your wrist.ย
He pulled you back, leaning you back against the dryer, โStay, please.โย
Jakeโs free hand gripped the door, barely leaving it open a crack.ย
Before you could ask him anything else, his hands cupped your face, his lips crashing to yours.ย
You kissed him back, your hands pulling at his jacket, bringing him closer to you.ย
Jake has been waiting since watching you walk up those stairs last night to kiss you again. To feel you pressed to him again.ย
With one last passionate kiss, he rests his forehead against yours, โJay already knows your order, no need to leave.โย
It was true your brother knew your food orders, which was all you needed to stay in place even after Jake removed himself from you to finish starting his laundry.ย
Once the washer was started, he leaned against it beside you, crossing his arms, โCan I ask you something?โย
You nudged his arm, โYes, of course! Weโve known each other for our whole lives, you can ask me anything.โย
โCan I sneak up to your room tonight?โย
It was a simple question, yet it was enough to make your heart stop. He bit the inside of his mouth, anxiously waiting for your answer.ย
His question was proof that last night wasnโt a one-time thing. And honestly, you wouldnโt mind it. If Jayโs bedroom wasnโt right beside yours.ย
โJake,โ you whispered, peeking your eyes between the cracked door, โYou know his bedroom is right beside mine, right? And my parents' room down the hall?โย
Jake shrugged, โAnd? Thatโs the point of sneaking into your room like we are teenagers.โย
You tried to not laugh, looking away from him and his goofy grin.ย
โCome onnnn baby,โ he teased, pulling you to his chest, โLet me shove that pretty face of yours face down into your pillows while I fuck you so good from behind.โย
He slid his hands down to your ass, squeezing the fat while he pressed his hard length against you, his lips finding your neck, โWanna fuck you so hard and watch my necklace bounce against your pretty collarbones.โ
You were melting under his touch. Folding so hard for him. He makes your heart race faster than anyone else ever has.ย
โPleaseโฆโ you softly moaned, hoping he heard you over the sounds of the machines.ย
He did. Hearing you beg for him to fold you like an omelet later tonight was turning him on so badly. He thrust his cock harder against you.ย
โGet on your knees, baby,โ Jake whispered into your ear, sending chills down your spine.ย
You dropped down with no hesitation, hands already reaching for the buttons of his jeans, helping him slide them down along with his boxers in one motion.ย
Your mouth watered at the sight of his hard cock resting against his abdomen.ย
Jake stroked himself, watching how undone youโre already becoming for him, โSuch a good girl for me. Put your hands on my thighs, and stick that pretty tongue out.โย
You did what you were told, hands resting against his toned thighs, tongue sliding out of your mouth.ย
โFuckโฆโย
He placed the tip onto your tongue, immediately wrapping the muscle around him, taking him completely in your mouth.ย
Jake groaned, his hands gripping the edges of the washing machine and praying his knees wouldn't fail him now.ย
You bobbed your head, tongue licking up his shaft all the way to the top, spreading his precum and mixing it with your saliva.ย
Lifting your hand from his thigh, you wrapped it around his length, following the motions as your mouth.ย
Fuck you were sucking him off so good. His mind went cloudy, the only thing he focused on was how fucking good your mouth felt.ย
Jake pulled your long hair into a ponytail, wrapping the locks between his fingers and giving it a tight pull.ย
You moaned against him, the vibrations sending gasping out of his mouth, his hips fucking forward, โOh, fuckโฆY/N, fuck.โย
Jake pulled your hair slightly harder, not wanting to hurt you, his dick hitting the back of your throat as he fucked your mouth.ย
Your hands found his thighs again, fingers digging into his skin. You were losing yourself against his cock, knowing full well your panties were soaked.ย
You looked up at him, seeing how much of a mess he was. Pupils were blown out, mouth opened, chest heaving.ย
Who knew you could make such a mess of him?ย
โSucking me off so good, Y/N. Iโmโฆfuck Iโm, Iโm gonna cum.โย
You stuck your tongue out further, giving him more access to the back of your throat as he continued to face fuck you until his warm load shot down your throat.ย
โClench your lips,โ he whispered between breaths. You did as you were told, him slowly sliding his dick from your lips, โSwallow and show me.โย
You gulped it down, opening your mouth wide with your tongue sticking out, showing him the proof.ย
Jake smirked, using your hair that was still wrapped around his hands to pull you back up to your feet, โSuch a dirty girl, only for me, ya?โย
You nodded, licking the side of your lips.
He gave you one final kiss, then pulled his boxers and jeans back over his hips.ย
The laughter from your brother and friends from the living room filled the house while they cheered over their video games.ย
Jakeโs fingers adjusted his necklace on your neck, fingers rubbing up to your jaw, his heart did flips seeing how you stared back at him with your fucked out lips.ย
โLetโs go back, canโt let them get too suspicious.โย
Jake watched as you left, carrying your laundry basket quickly up the stairs to your room.ย
He leaned back against the washing machine, hand clenching his shirt, feeling the rush of his heartbeat.ย
Oh, heโs in deep trouble.ย
โ
Jakeโs promise to fuck you face down ass up was fulfilled. Yours and his clothes scattered all over the floor of your room. Your moans being muffled out by your pillows and Jakeโs hand at the back of your head shoving your face deeper into the fabric. It was the best youโve ever been fucked.ย
Your bed felt empty after Jake snuck right back out your door and went back downstairs.ย
You were scared tonight would be the last, but fortunately for you, it wasnโt.ย
The following night he quietly knocked on your door before quickly slipping in and crawling into bed with you.ย
This went on for the rest of the week. The two of you finding time throughout the day to have a quick make-out session just for him to crawl into your bed at night.ย
But it wasnโt always the rough sex youโd have. One night Jake cuddled you until you fell asleep before quietly exiting your bedroom. One night he held you in his arms listening to you talk about your classes back at college and the friends you had. One night he laid his head against your chest, listening to the sweet sound of your breathing and heartbeat. And then, oh god that night, it wasnโt rough sex or even a good fuck. He made love to you.ย
He hovered over you, one hand gently cupping your face as he squeezed your leg that was wrapped around his waist. Soft and slow thrusts were completely turned on just from being with each other and the feeling of skin-to-skin contact. How softly heโd kiss you and tell you how pretty you are. How lucky he was to have you in his life.ย
Thatโs the night you completely folded. You fell in love with him. It wasnโt about the sex anymore. It was about him. About the man youโve known your whole life, that you grew with and watched him become who he is today.ย
Your feelings for him ran deep.ย
The secret meet-ups during the day turned into playful kisses, him wrapping you up in his arms and hugging you tightly.ย
You were really screwed.ย
The final week of vacation was half over and Jake was dreading the finale. He wasnโt ready to leave you yet. Wasnโt ready to let you go. Knowing damn well the minute you go your separate ways he would lose his goddamn mind.ย
All because of Jayโs rules. All because of the fucking โoff limitsโ.ย
You and Sunghoon made lunch for everyone, giving your brother a day off from cooking.ย
Since you werenโt the best cook, ramen was on the menu.ย
You prepared the noodles and broth while Sunghoon prepared the meat.ย
โYou guys both know that if this ramen turns out like shit it wonโt be me beating your asses right?โ your brother teased, his eyes looking between Jake and Heeseung.ย
โYeah yeah fuck off,โ Sunghoon rolled his eyes, โWe know the ramen lovers will lose their shits. Theyโll survive.โย
โHey now,โ Jake snipped, turning around to face his friend, โI am so serious about my ramen!โย
Heeseung agreed, high-fiving Jake, โWe donโt fuck around when it comes to our ramen.โย
You finished up two bowls, rolling your eyes as you set the first fresh bowls in front of the ramyeonz, โYou both are so annoying!โย
โThey are, arenโtโฆthey.โ Jayโs eyes fixated on the necklace around your neck. He barely noticed it with the way your sweatshirt covered it. But when you bent down just right to put the bowls in front of Heeseung and Jake, it became noticeable.ย
If it werenโt for Heeseung sitting to his left, and Jake sitting in front of him, Jay wouldnโt have clocked the necklace as suspicious and went on about his day.ย
But the necklace looked familiar, and all it took was Jayโs eyes to wander to his best friend, no longer seeing the silver chain sitting against his neck.ย
โCanโt believe Iโve spent my whole life stuck with annoying boys like you!โ You teased them, earning a middle finger from Heeseung and Jake scoffing out an โwhateverโ trying to shove you playfully but missing as you were too quick to back away.ย
โWe are men! And you totally love us!โ Heeseung said with a mouthful of ramen, โDoesnโt she Jake? We are the extra brothers you didnโt ask for.โย
Jay clocked the look on Jakeโs face, the awkward smile he had, and the way he was hesitant to answer, โY-yeah. Of course.โย
โWe are stuck with you just as much as youโre stuck with us,โ Sunghoon added, โGet over it.โย
You elbowed him, โWhatever Hoon!โ his smile and laugh causing your own to form. These boys were truly dear to your heart, and it took years of being away from all four of them to realize how deeply you did miss them. Especially your brother.ย
Jay kept quiet most of lunch, his eyes wandering back and forth between you and Jake. Taking mental notes of everything in the small details.ย
How you look at him, how he looks at you. How you sat beside him at the table when you usually sit beside Jay or Sunghoon. The little graze of Jakeโs hand ran across your ass as he walked past you while you and Heeseung cleaned the dishes, causing you to scrunch your nose at him, thinking no one noticed.ย
You all went grocery shopping to refill the food in your parent's cabinets and fridge, Jay taking notes on how Jake was always right behind you or straying not too far from you. Jay was hoping he was overthinking, that maybe the two of you got closer after the bar fight last week, but something didnโt sit right with Jay.ย
He lay in his bed staring up at the ceiling that night, the sight of Jakeโs necklace suddenly appearing around your neck.ย
Jay shoved his face into his pillow, trying to chase after the sleep he deeply needed and wanted, wanting to forget everything and give his best friend the benefit of the doubt, to trust the bond they had and the rules that were set.ย
That was until he heard your bedroom door opening and quickly shutting right after.ย
Jake spreads your legs and wraps them around his waist as he bottoms out, one hand flying to cover your mouth as he fucks into you fast and deep.ย
Both of you became a cumming mess.ย
You pulled your shorts over your hips and Jakeโs tee shirt that you stole from his clean laundry over your head.ย
After Jake had his boxers over his hips, he playfully pulled you down onto your bed, his face cuddling up into your neck, โI donโt think I ever could get enough of your pussy.โย
You wrap your arms around his bare back, drawing small infinity eights, โAnd I donโt think I ever could get enough of your dick.โย
You felt him smile against your skin, โAt least we are on the same page.โย
Jake could get so high off the sex you have, it was addicting, his own personal drug.ย
His heartbeat fastened due to the thought of being away from you. Deciding now was a better time than any to bring up the topic.ย
Jake sat up, his hand resting at your hip, โY/N, can-โย
Before Jake could get another word out, your worst fear came to fruition.ย
The door opened with such force, your brother standing in the doorway, jaw locked tightly and fists clenched.ย
โI fucking knew it!โย
Your heart stopped, quickly sitting up, trying to find the right words.ย
Jake sat up behind you, โJay, bro, listen to me,โย
โThere isnโt a DAMN thing to listen to!โ Jay yelled, turning on his heels.
โJAY!!โ Jake yelled back, jumping from your bed and quickly sliding back into his sweatpants, pulling his shirt over his head as he followed your brother down the stairs, โMan stop we need to talk!!โย
You finally found the will to move, climbing out of your bed and rushing down the stairs at the right moment of Sunghoon and Heeseung running from the spare bedroom, confused looks piled onto their faces.ย
โWill you listen to me!โ Jake grabbed his friend's shoulder, Jay quickly whipped around and threw his hand off him.ย
โListen to you? Give me one goddamn reason why I should be listening to you right now?!โ Jay snapped, getting into Jakeโs face.ย
โWoah! Woah!โ Heeseung rushed over, pushing himself between them.ย
โBecause I am your best friend man!โ Jake snapped back.ย
โYeah? My best friend?โ Jay moved forward, Sunghoon now had to step in, pushing Jay back as Heeseung handled Jake, โMy best friend wouldnโt be dicking down my little sister!!โย
Everyone in the room froze, Sunghoon and Heeseung making glances between each other, and then between Jay and Jake.ย
Jakeโs jaw locked, not wanting to say the wrong thing right now.ย
You stood at the last step of the stairs, too scared to move.ย
โI gave you one, ONE, rule. That she was off limits,โ Jayโs eyes found you, โAnd you! I said no boys!โย
โNah, man!โ Jake finally spoke up, stepping in front of Jayโs line of sight, โThis is between you and me. Leave her out of it.โย
โShe betrayed me just as much as you did!โ Jay scoffed, โHow could you do this to me, man?โย
Jay relaxed his body as he leaned against the couch, Jake also relaxed, โBro it justโฆit just happened.โย
That wasnโt the right thing to say, โHow does it just โhappenโ Sim Jaeyun?! Huh?!โย
shit.ย
Jake rolled his eyes, โDude, I donโt know!โ he threw his arms into the air, โIt just did!โ
โStop lying!โ Jay stood back up, โStop fucking lying to me!โย
โOh good FUCKING god! Why are you so protective over her?! Sheโs a grown-ass adult!โ Jake ran his hand through his hair, โWe arenโt kids anymore man!โย
โThat doesnโt change the fact that sheโs my everything!! From the moment she was born, I promised I was going to protect her from everyone! including you.โย
Jake chuckled, โProtect her from what?!โย
โFrom her getting hurt!โย
โI wouldnโt do that!โย
โWhatโs so different with her then huh?โ Jay stepped forward, Sunghoon placing his hand on his chest, โWhatโs so different dicking down the girls in chem class and my sister, hmm? Youโre such a playโโ
โI am in love with her.โ Jake spat out.ย
The room fell silent, confusion not only on Jayโs face but your own.ย
โWhat?โย
โIโm in love with her, man,โ Jake sighed with a shake of his head, โIโve always been in love with her. Even as kids, IโฆI always had this ache in my heart, never understanding what it was, and because of your stupid ass ruleโฆI was never able to figure it out.โย
Jay relaxed himself back against the couch, eyes staring holes into the floor.ย
Jake continued, โYeah I might have been a stupid ass playboy and completely forgot about your sister and what she meant to me but good god, the minute she stepped foot into this houseโฆโ Jake turned and looked at you, โEverything I felt all those years ago became clear.โ
Jay looks up at you, the hardness that once sat in his eyes a second ago was gone, nothing sat there except soft sadness.ย
โYes, Iโll admit, I had sex with your sister at first to release the sexual frustration, but the moment it happenedโฆI was done for.โย
Jake placed his hands on your face, his forehead touching yours, โSheโs everything to me too, Jay.โย
Jay let out a sigh, โWhat about you, stink? Whatโs your side?โย
You remove yourself from Jake, walking around him and standing in front of your older brother, โI love him,โ Jay rolled his eyes, staring back down at the floor, โBut I love you too!! Jongseong, youโre my everything too. Youโre the best big brother I could have ever asked for, youโve done your job protecting me.โย
Jay looked at you with glossed-over eyes, โWhy him? Why out of everyone, one of my best friends?โย
You shrugged, โIt just happened that way.โย
You stepped closer to him, pulling him into a hug, he gave in and hugged you tightly back.ย
โI am deeply and truly sorry that everything happened this way. I didnโt want to hurt you.โย
Jay knew that, deep down he knew this wasnโt what either you or Jake wanted. That this was something that just kinda happened. And he has to accept it.ย
Jake appears at your side, having you step away, pulling Jay into another hug, โI wonโt hurt her. I promise. Iโd die first before Iโd ever do that.โย
Jay sighed, also giving into Jake and hugging him back, โHurt her and itโs your funeral I am planning.โย
Jake chuckled, slapping his best friend on the back, โNo problem there buddy.โย
Jay pushed Jake away, โOkay, letโs all go back to bed. I am sure we already disturbed my parents enough.โย
You let out a yawn, exhaustion sweeping over you.ย
Heeseung and Sunghoon walked towards the spare room and you up the stairs, Jake following behind you.ย
โUhhh nah,โ Jay snapped his fingers, pushing Jake towards the spare room, โYou ainโt going back up there.โย
โCome on dude.โ Jake groaned.ย
โNo, Iโm sleeping in front of her door.โ Jay pointed at the two others, โMake sure he doesnโt leave the room.โโ
You rolled your eyes and continued up the stairs, โYou all are really actually annoying.โย
โ
You sat at the kitchen table, peeling the potatoes for tonight's dinner, watching as the four boys and your dad stood outside in the cold grilling the meats.ย
Your mom stood behind you at the island, tossing the salad. Her careful eyes studied you, โWant to talk about it, my sweet daughter?โ
You turned and faced her, โTalk about what?โย
She gives you a soft smile, โAbout the reason your brother was screaming last night.โย
You sighed, turning back around to continue peeling the potatoes, โYou and dad heard everything?โย
Your mother sat down beside you, taking the peeler and potato out of your hands, forcing you to face her.ย
โHoney, your brother is a very vocal person when heโs upset. It scared us half to death.โย
She held your hands, her thumbs circling your palms, โWhy didnโt you come and stop the fight?โย
She sighs, looking outside at your father, โWe wanted to, but your father said it was best for you guys to handle it. It was a matter we couldnโt step into.โย
You understood that, everyone here is grown adults, your parents stepping in probably more than likely wouldnโt have helped anyway.ย
You followed your mother's gaze outside, watching as your brother flipped over the steak with dad right beside him. Jake sorted the raw meat into separate plates, handing them off to Jay to be grilled while Heeseung and Sunghoon helped cut the cooked meat into pieces.ย
Your eyes lingered on Jake, watching as he said something to Jay, your brother smiling wide and shoving Jake. That made you happy at least, knowing that your betrayal didnโt completely shatter their friendship.ย
โY/N, you love him, donโt you sweetheart?โย
You nodded, the tears swelling up in your eyes, โMomma I love him so much. But the fact Jay caught us the way he did is eating me alive. The last thing I wanted to do was see that betrayal and hurt in my brother's eyes.โย
โY/N, can I tell you a little story?โย
You nodded, looking back at her. She wiped the tears off your face and squeezed your hand, โYou want to know why your brother started that rule in the first place?โย
You nodded again.ย
โIt was Jongseongโs tenth birthday party, and Jaeyun just returned from visiting Australia, you remember that?โย
You slightly nodded, trying to recall the memory. Jake would disappear to the land of kangaroos at least once or twice a year growing up. Narrowing down specifically when this is in this situation would be hard to pinpoint.ย
โWell, Jaeyun brought back gifts, not just for you know, your brother, Heeseung and Sunghoon, but one for you.โย
The memory completely came back to you. Jake brought you back a small keychain with a baby joey and your name on it. You had that keychain on your school backpack for a couple of years until you lost it.ย
โI remember, Jay was irritated with me that day and I couldnโt figure out why, I was only nine.โ
Your mother nodded, โIt was the first, and last time may I add, that Jaeyun ever brought you back a gift.โ she softly laughed at the memory, โLittle Jaeyun handed your brother his birthday gift and souvenir, giving Heeseung and Sunghoon theirs, then he rushed away from the picnic table looking for you. That little keychain was in his hands until it was placed into your hands. Oh, was your brother upset.โย
โSo he was jealous that I also got a gift?โ You raised your brow, glancing back outside at your brother, jealousy was never something he had or even showed.ย
โThatโs what we thought it was at first, just Jongseong being jealous that his baby sister also got a gift on his birthday. Your dad tried calming him down for a good twenty minutes.โย
Jay and Jake started to play fighting outside, running further into the yard as your dad just laughed and took a sip of his beer bottle.ย
โAfter your dad got him calmed down, we were finally able to talk to him about why it upset him, and you know what he said?โย
You looked back at your mom, waiting for the answer.ย
โThat you were too young for a boyfriend,โ you rolled your eyes, of course he said that. Even as a child at the age of ten, he wanted you nowhere near other boys, โWe had to explain to him that just because Jaeyun brought you back a gift, didnโt mean he likes you. But your brother wasnโt having any of it, kept saying over and over that the look Jaeyun gave you said otherwise. Then he told your father no one would be good enough for his little sister, that you were a prize that could never be won. So he came up with his rules. His friends were told you were now off limits, specifically to Jaeyun. And then he told you no boys.โย
Your heart melted, knowing that Jayโs rules were always just a way to protect you, that he held you on such a high pedestal to the point no male would ever be good enough for you in his eyes. That you did indeed deserve so much.ย
โObviously, your brother didnโt want you dating his friends, it would have been weird, mostly with how close the five of you were growing up. But your father and I figured he would have eventually let it go.โย
You shrugged, making eye contact with Jay, he gave you a small smile before returning back to the grill after his play fight with Jake, โBut you know, mom, I am grateful for his rules. He has helped me get out of so many terrible relationships and helped me see my worth.โย
Your mom pulled you into a hug, โHe loves you so much. You two are truly blessed to have each other as siblings.โย
You agreed, no one will ever compare to your brother.ย
Your mom pulled back, rubbing your shoulders before standing up and going back to the island, โI always secretly wanted you to get with one of them.โย
โMother!โ you snapped, โHuh?!โ
โWhat?โ She smiled, โHeeseung, Jake, and Sunghoon have always been good kids. I practically raised them! If any boy would be good enough for my daughter it would be one of them. Just funny how the person who created the whole reason the rules came into place is the same one who took your heart.โย
You had to admit, it was funny. No wonder Jay literally lost his bonkers last night, questioning you on why Jake.ย
โTreat him well, Y/N. And give your brother some time to get over it. Heโs strong, and he will get over it. Donโt beat yourself up or let it affect your relationship with Jake.โย
Your mother was right. But you still canโt help but feel a bit guilty. Jay deserved the truth from the beginning.ย
โ
The rest of the week went by in a flash. And turns out you really had nothing to worry about with Jake and Jay.ย
The two boys moved on like it didnโt happen, that their friendship was never on the line to begin with.ย
Jay even was being his normal self to you.ย
Dinner last night Jake sat beside you and even put his arm around you, and Jay didnโt even bat an eye.ย
It feltโฆdifferent. You and Jake went from secretly hiding around to holding hands, hugging you any moment he could, and werenโt afraid to sit close to you. The only thing he secretly did was when he wanted to kiss you. Which you understood.ย
Jake still snuck into your room as well. That didnโt change. But the final night at the house, Jay straight up told him to spend any final moments with you.ย
Unfortunately, the night went by too quickly. You woke up in Jakeโs arms, the only thing that could be heard was the sounds of his soft breathing and his heartbeat in your ear.ย
Jayโs alarms went off in his room, then the sound of his feet shuffling against the floor. You knew it was time to get up.ย
You got Jake up, sending him downstairs to pack and get ready.ย
Time was flying too fast, and soon enough your parents stood on the front porch, hugging each of you goodbye.ย
โPlease come back home soon!โ Your mother whined, tears staining her face, โI miss you both already!โ She pulled you and Jay into a hug.ย
You fought back your tears, and you could tell your brother was too.ย
Your parents hugged the other boys as well, telling them to not be strangers and stop by anytime they come home or to even come back when Jay does.ย
But then the moment you wanted to shove away came, saying goodbye to Jake.ย
You hugged Heeseung, โKeep in touch kiddo!โ he said with a pat on your head, โStay out of trouble.โย
โI think youโre the one who needs to stay out of trouble, Hee.โ You pinched his arm, then moved on to Sunghoon, โYou too! I heard all about your party shenanigans!โย
Sunghoon playfully shoved you, โAs if!โ and then pulled you into a hug.ย
Jay was next.ย
โC'mere stinks.โ Jay pulled you into a tight hug, โThank you for agreeing to spend the rest of your time with us.โย
You nodded against his shoulder, โIโm so glad you convinced me.โย
Jay gave you one last tight squeeze before releasing you, โLove ya, please stay safe and talk often, ya?โย
โOf course.โย
He gave you one last smile, before his eyes lifted over behind you, โAnd keep him in check, ya? I canโt do it on my own.โ
You turned behind you just in time to see Jake roll his eyes, โDude, I keep myself in check.โย
You patted his arm, โSure you do babe, itโs okay.โ
Everyone had their laughs except for Jake who rolled his eyes once again. โI hate you all.โย
โWhatever, go say your goodbyes so we can leave,โ Jay said, shooing you away.ย
Jake followed you to your car, his hands settling on your waist as he pulled your body to his, leaving no space in between. โIโm not ready to leave you yet.โย
โI donโt want to leave you either, Jake.โย
He really wasnโt ready to leave you yet, wasnโt ready to be apart, โWhy did you choose a college so far away?โย
You gigged, โBecause at the time itโs where I wanted to be.โย
โTransfer. Come be with me.โย
You smiled at him, cupping his face, โIโll think about it.โย
Jake shook his head, sticking his tongue out at you, โDonโt tease me.โย
You touched his forehead to yours, โIโll miss you, so much.โย
Oh, now Jake wanted to cry, โGod knows how badly Iโll miss you too.โย
He pulled you even closer, lips connecting to yours.ย
Jake kissed you like you were about to disappear from his grasp. Like the universe was going to rip you away from him.ย
Your cherry chapstick filled his senses and made his head spin, oh the things heโd do and the crimes heโd commit to always get a taste of your lips.ย
โHey!!โ Jay shouted from his car, his head hanging out the driver's side window, Heeseung and Sunghoon also peeking out their windows, โYou gonna keep making out with my little sister or we gonna hit the road? Sheโs got a longer drive than us!โย
Jake laughed against your lips, head turning to his friend, โIf youโre going to give me a choice thenโฆโย
โHurry up!โ Jay snapped with a laugh.ย
โGo,โ you said, โYouโll see me soon.โย
Jake placed one final kiss on your lips, pulling away as he walked backward towards Jayโs car.ย
โI love you!โ Jake shouted freely, finally happy to say those three words heโd been holding back.ย
โI love you too!!โ You shouted back.ย
โCall me when youโre back in your dorm!โย
You nodded, climbing into your car. Jake got into the back of Jayโs car, letting out a sigh.ย
โMissing your girlfriend already?โ Heeseung teased.ย
โMan,โ Jake shook his head, โShut up.โย
Jay took off down the street, slouching down into the seat, โDonโt worry, man.โย
Jake slung his head back onto the seat, staring out the window, โHow can I not?โย
Jay looked into the rearview mirror, โI already have a plan to convince her to transfer.โ Jake smiled, โIf I can convince her to come home for two weeks, I can convince her to transfer. Itโs already in motion.โย
Jake sat up, slapping his friend on the shoulder, โMy man!โย
Jay knew he had to get used to seeing Jake with you, and he already could imagine the pain you both would feel being apart. Plus, having you around more often wouldnโt be a bad idea. It would be just like when you were all kids.ย
Jake sat back down in the seat, his smile never fading with thoughts of you.
PREVIEW. where jake teaches you how to blow him behind the bleachers just before his soccer practice, unable to resist the charm of you in a cheerleader outfit. well it's not like he has to resist you anymore, you are finally officially his girl.
FEATURING. simp sim jaeyun(jake) with his obsession fem!reader(candy) from WATERMELON SUGAR . . this can absolutely be read as a standalone but i would still suggest giving the full fic a read, if you like this.
WORD COUNT. 3140 edited but don't come at me.
WARNINGS. SMUT MDNI!!!!! blowjob obviously, face fucking, dacryphilia, corruption kink, handjob, reader's a crybaby kinda, pussy rubbing but brief, mentions of eating pussy, voyeurism slightly, jake's mind is literally a museum of dirty thoughts about you. he's way too obsessed with you, he swears a lot and cums a lot, hand in hand. jake is real sweet trust. psst! sunghoon thrid wheeling oh. and that's all i think? idk if it's good i hope y'all like it!
โ YEONIE NOTES. this took so long im sorry guys, pls enjoy and leave comments and feedback i'd love to know your thoughts and yes im still open to doing more drabbles for them!
cheerleaderโฆ not a bad idea, you could definitely make use of it
โoh my god candy, you're gonna be the death of me!โ jake pulls you away, dragging you to the back of the bleachers, his cock already rock hard and throbbing with need.
โdon't you like it? i thought cheerleaders dressed like this,โ you pout at him, fiddling with the ends of the literally shortest skirt of your closet.
โi love it baby, but you can't just show up to practice like that, how am i gonna be able to concentrate when all i can think of you is fucking you,โ he groans scanning over your figure again and again, it's like you brought out a hidden desire he didn't even know he had. he'd win every game for you if you were to cheer by the stands like this, the adrenaline of getting to ruin your perfect outfit and your perfect makeup after, putting him on a winning streak.
โteach me to suck you off,โ jake loses his mind when you get down on your knees, pushing your hair out of the way and looking up at him through your lashes, doe eyes driving him crazy.
โshit baby, i will,โ oh he's so going to corrupt you.
โlet me just put this down fโ you,โ taking off his varsity jacket immediately, he spreads two fold on the ground, pressing his hands on it to make sure it's cushioned enough for you. being glad of the fact that he hadn't taken the jacket off for the practice before you came to give him the surprise.
. .
โyou okay baby? do your knees hurt too much?โ he asks once it settles in that you are doing this here and right now. heart pounding against his ribs so hard, he feels it ringing in his ears. his eyes cast down to the place your knees meet the rough ground and he internally grimaces and scolds himself for letting your soft skin scrap against dirt like this.
you smile sweetly at his actions, moving onto the jacket and letting your knees rub against the same cloth you watched him wash just yesterday. his precious jacket that he always took extra care of.
โso? how do i do it?โ jakeโs eyes quiver, orbs darkening as the lust takes over. blood rushing down quick at the dirty insinuation behind the innocent words that leave your mouth. drunk on the way you already seem so into it.
โtake it out first,โ he tries not to falter and just moan his heart out when you already jump at pulling his pants and boxers down before he's even finished speaking. holding his breath while he watches you watch his cock slap against his lower abs and then reach out to gently grasp it. mouth instinctively slacking open when he twitches in your grip and slowly bringing him close. a wet smooch at the tip that makes his whole body shudder and release a thick glob of precum, confusing you if he just came, your eyes instantly shooting up to look at him to which he just nods his head telling you to go on. put it in your mouth. his gaze speaks, air dense with anticipation.
โgo on babyโ โ fuckkkkk oh god,โ fuck fuck fuck, it feels way too good, cock laying heavy against your hot tongue, the softness of your mouth inside feeling like a tight pouch of warmth engulfing him in the most pleasurable way possible.
โjust s-suck on it like your lollies,โ jake groans, uttering the words through his clenched teeth. just a minute into you trying to give him head and he already feels like busting a nut. god how long has he dreamt of this exact moment and how many times. how many dreadful nights of fisting his cock imagining it was your tiny warm mouth around him, sucking him hard and sloppy like you do with those watermelon lollipops all the damn time in front of him. those torturing times, oh he can't believe he survived it to actually know what it feels like to be inside your mouth.
his hair sticks to his forehead, feeling the sweat drip as he breathed hard with every experimental suck. hands reaching down to push the strands of hair that fall forwards away from your face. thumb caressing your the skin under your eyes as you look up and into his brown orbs. holding eye contact with a dazed doe look that drives him crazy. the touch of your small hands stroking what you can't seemingly fit inside, lips always coming back to suck on his tip, like slurping dripping candy. he felt crazed, insane, and lunatic for still craving so much more of you.
โyeah fuck candy, just like that,โ he pants, head tilting back as he gasps for air, everything around him tuning out at the realization of having you on your knees for him.
โshit!โ the sudden feeling of you gagging around him after trying to take him all in makes jake jerk forward in a shudder.
it doesn't take him another second to decide that, that's it. he can't control himself anymore and absolutely needs to fuck your mouth, push so deep into your throat it leaves the imprints of his cock and make you so cock drunk all you ever think about when you gulp is him him and just him.
โpush my thighs if gets too muchโโ one of his hands thread into your hair in a makeshift half pony to hold your head firmly and the other squeezing below his tip hard to hold himself from nutting before he gets to the real thing, wanting to drag this out even though he knows sooner or later someone will come searching for him, noticing the quaterbackโs absence the moment one pays a tad bit of attention.
jake has never been the one to skip practice and especially not for something indecent like this. being late is not in his veins and keeping his varsity duffle bag at the stark front of the bleachers; his all time habit, always eager to make his presence and determination known. so the fact that he can't be spotted anywhere in the field with his bag resting exactly where it is every time, is more than enough of a reason to have the whole team searching around for him. however, in all honesty, you being an exception to all of jake's rules(as it has always been) all he hopes for is not being caught no matter how much the thought of it arouses him. he can't let people see this pretty you. wanting to gatekeep you to the very last bits. hence, this blowjob is way more important, and practice and his team can just wait a few extra minutes.
he starts off slow at first, thrusting careful and steady, to let you adjust to it. ten, nine, eleven, eleven, trying to count sheep in his head not to lose his cool too quick. shit shit shit, it's okay, it's all good.
it works for a while, even if his counting is fucked over like him, it works for a short fleeting while. maybe a minute or two or three, he has no idea but it's too brief of a time to be called as holding back.
he takes one look at you. just one look, at the way you already seem to be struggling, drooling all around him with your doe eyes all wide and teary, a few drops slipping out with each thrust of him. you are a crybaby for sure and maybe it would've annoyed him if it were someone else but come on it's you. he already imagined you to be a crybaby and god did it turn him on beyond expectation, though he didn't think you'd actually be one, and he definitely never thought he'd love it so so much when you cried for him. eyelashes wet and batting at him, doing whatever it takes to keep your eyes open and trained on him.
if he knew it was because the first time you fucked, he asked you to keep your eyes on him and you thought he liked it when you did it, hence forcing your hooded eyes to stay on him right now.. jake would lose his mind into the depths of hell and into the sins of lust.
the whimper you let out when his cock hits the back of your throat makes him buck his hips forward once, and at realization of how you're struggling and yet not pushing him away because you want it just as much as him, his grip on your head tightens before he starts thrusting frantically like a madman. albeit, at the back of his subconscious he's still holding back, knowing you're not yet ready to handle his true lost self.
โi swear, you're trying to kill me,โ his voice strains with the amount of moans and groans he held back all time to make sure people don't find him.
back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. jake's hips fall into a rhythm of their own as he swears out all the curses known to mankind at the back of his mind. feeling so good, it makes him question if all the sex he had until you was actually some real sex or just some otome simulation he played.
there's no way something as simple as this and something where he has to be sane enough to hold his demons in check could feel so damn ecstatic.
his eyes shut tight at the feeling of his orgasm creeping in quick. not wanting to overwhelm you by coming deep inside your throat, yet not being able to stop the frenzied thrusts: desperate and erratic. fucking you had him fighting demons but having your mouth on him also has him fight demons, though a level lower, but feeling like his life would be sucked out of him.
and if there's anyone who he'd actually let sucking his life out of him, it'd be you. one whine of his name and he'll fold to give you his cock anytime and anywhere.
โfuck candy, โm so close,โ jake's strokes falter into sloppy movements when you suck in your lips to squeeze him tighter showing no signs of pushing at his thighs and just letting him hold your head in place and use you as he pleases.
just as he feels the first twinge of coming undone, jake quite literally forces himself out, gritting his teeth and holding his breath as he pulls away mumbling out a rough fuck while staggering in his steps.
โjerk me off, wanna finish on your face, wan to paint your pretty little cheeks and your cute little tongue with my cum,โ he mutters, guiding one of your hands to his cock as one of his own moves to hold your jaw and squeeze your cheeks to keep your mouth open. thumb rubbing against your lower lips while he bites his own at your hands returning to stroke him like you did before. brows furrowing and heart thumping loud as his orgasm builds up again.
he's gonna cum so much and jake knows because it starts to hurt. and like the masochist he is, he heightens it by bringing his other hand to hold his cock over your small slick ones,โtwist it like this under the head,โ he says squeezing and moving his hands in twists to show you just how he likes it. and lord do you get it so well, twisting harshly just under the head like he said and then pulling at it. it's honestly a mysery to jake how he's lasted this long and not just cum in the first two minutes of you touching him. perhaps his experience comes to some use, but then even his experience can't help him from nutting in just merely twenty minutes. the time he so struggled to calculate just a couple seconds before he lets the pleasure take over and the hot spurts of cum shoot out on your tongue and all over your face.
โmhmmm fuck baby fuckkkkโโ jake hisses, biting down on his lips hard as his whole body spasms with pleasure, ropes of cum spilling out the tip, pushing his hips in quick thrusts into your fist.
and even though jake has perhaps sworn a million times that he's not a voyeur, that he does not feel his entire being ascending into the holy sins at the prospect of being watched with you, especially anyone besides him, watching you, he swears he has sworn on it a good damn gazallion times. yet when he spots a boggled and overwhelmed sunghoon, gaping and gawking in the corner, the intrigue and hunger in his obscure gaze evident along with his obvious boner; jake feels a second orgasm coaxed out of him in another spurt of cum that lands directly on that spot on your lips he loves to rub his fingers over.
fuck. that's all jake can think of watching sunghoon realize he was caught and immediately rushing off. since when was that prick watching? he better not have gotten a look at your teary eyes and heard the little whines you let out.
he doesn't let it bother him too long though, he'll deal with it when he gets back to the field.
what he now wants to focus on is you and only you.
running his thumb over the splashes of cum and smearing them on your lips, inserting his fingers into your mouth and telling you to suck before he's pulling you up by your waist and holding you tight against him. his cock rubs against the fabric of your skirt, twitching with sensitivity at the touch but he pays it no mind. his own lips hovering over yours as he speaks in a whisper,โare you okay? did i hurt you somewhere?โ
you shake your head in denial and jake heaves a sigh of relief, proceeding to tame your hair back to how it was before. palms caressing your head softly, and fingers threading through the strands all gentle and slow. not wanting this moment with you to end. his lips lock with yours in the midst of it as his hands fall down to your waist again. kissing with so much fervor and desperation, it makes you rub your thighs together to get some kind of a friction. and jake notices it for his hand had moved to play with the ends of your short skirt, knuckles loosely brushing against the back of your thighs that fidgeted every time he sucked on your tongue or nibbled on your lips.
โoh, my baby seems bothered,โ pulling away to whisper it against your lips that chase his own for more.
โwhat do you want? tell me and iโll give it to you,โ jake grins, watching you struggle out of embarrassment,โcome on candy, use your words,โ it's so cute, should he just touch you or should he take his time cooing at your fumbling self.
โw- want yoโโ
โwell since you aren't gonna say it,โ he picks up his jacket from the ground and brings it up to your face to wipe off his cum from your cheeks. pushing against the plump of your skin to make your lips pout out and one of your eyes close.
โwant you to touch me too,โ you whine.
โwhere baby? you gotta tell me,โ he teased further, booping your nose before putting his jacket back on him.
โhere,โ jakeโs breath hitches when you guide his hand down to touch you over your panties, the fabric so damn wet you might as well have cum untouched. the prospect of that being true turns him on beyond what's humanely possible. you cumming untouched while he fucked your mouth, god the thought of it makes him crazy. but thinking back on how sunghoon wandered in, it's better to leave it at this for now. can't have more people getting the opportunity to see you.
โhere? my baby wants me to touch her pussy?โ there's so much more he wants to say, but he knows if he says it now there's no way he won't be getting rock hard again and completely ditching practice.
his fingers press hard into your folds while he rubs around, his other hand squeezing your ass and his face buried in your neck, inhaling the scent of your shampoo as he bites and nibbles on the skin there.
โiโm sorry candy, but you'll have to wait until after practice. want to take my time eating you out. want to make you cum at least three times,โ and make you squirt, he wants to add but man does the thought of it make his dick twitch, speaking it out loud would just make him squirt a pump of cum.
he slips his fingers inside to gather your wetness, sliding two fingers between your folds before taking it out and putting them into his mouth,"fuck, love the way you taste,โhe groans. his favorite candy in the world. his drug, candy.
jake spends another minute rubbing you over your slick panties and letting his other hand on your ass move all over and grope you wherever he can. he makes sure it's just enough to have you craving his touch the entire time you wait. feeling jealous over the thought that having you wait for him by the bleachers would give sunghoon a view of you too. and knowing his friend, he probably won't have any innocent thoughts about you after what he walked into.
โcome on now let's go,โ it takes a great deal of self constraint for jake to pull away but alas it will only be fruitful once he gets through practice and has all the time in the world to pleasure you.
he helps you fix your appearance and dusts off his jacket and pulls up his pants before he leads you back out into the field where everyone waited for him.
โwait for me here,โ he says, bringing you to his bag where he takes off his โthisisneverthatโ shirt to put on his jersey with a smug grin lacing his lips. placing his jacket on your lap to cover your pretty legs, if he could he would just burrito you with a blanket and thโ no sim that's creepy.
โI'll be back before you know it,โ bending down to place a chaste kiss on lips and forehead, he promises. jogging away to the middle of the field and taking his position beside sunghoon. it feels like there's a spark of tension between them from what you catch, but perhaps you're just thinking too much, they're good friends aren't they?
preview. heโs the sweetest to you, one might confuse him for your boyfriend, but heโs not, he just your fuckboy of a roommate who treats you like a delicate candy, always looking out for you and never at you; or so you think.
or where, jake can't seem to get you off his mind no matter how hard he tries.
meet the cast. simp sim jaeyun(jake) with his obsession fem!reader
genre. and they were roommates trope, fuckboy soft for his girl trope, SMUT MDNI!!!, lots of toothrooting fluff, tiny speck of angst but not proper angst, drunk confessions?, only one who can control him/her trope, happy happy ending, crack/humor, domestic scenes(newly added) college fuckboy athelete roommate!jake with his candy!roommate girl. computer science & programming major!reader, exercise physiology major!jake, nonidol!au, soccer player!jake.
word count. 13,488 unedited! it's word vomit.
warnings. fingering, dry humping, dirty talkkk lots and lots of it, nasty freak jake with innocent(seems to be) girlie, experienced x inexperienced(virgin but has idea), pussy slapping, somewhat drunk sex but there's consent consent, oral (m rec.) different scenes, p in v (unprotected! but pls pls pls do not do this ever use protection!!!!!) multiple orgasms (f.rec), overstimuation(f.rec) and somewhat (m.rec), spitting? slight nipple play, jake is rough and filthy, with heavyyyyy corruption kink it's all throughout the story, strength kink, size difference โi worship the ground you walk onโ energy but still dominant jake, jake has soooo many dirty inner thoughts about you it's innumerable. he's a simp for you so you're a slut for himโ i guess that's them?
theme song. animals by maroon 5 (jake pov), into you by ariana grande (yn pov)
๏นโ ๏น เฃชDRABBLES (find them here)
` author notes. im sorry for making you guys wait three extra weeks I hope y'all still want to read this,, what do i say it was so horrible before the revamp, thankfully it's so much better now and the smut god, it was so hard to write it i hope it's good enough. REBLOGS AND FEEDBACKS ARE HIGHLY ENCOURAGED AND APPRECIATED!!
โi donโt mind this feeling.โ
YOU DONT KNOW WHAT TO CALL IT, WHATEVER IS HAPPENING BETWEEN YOU BOTH, BUT YOU LIKE IT. IT FEELS SILLY AND FRAGILE AND GOOD. perhaps a little too good.
god forbid what you had done in your past life to get a roommate like jake, a complete package; a concoction of all classic kinds of roommate one could possibly expect. you arenโt complaining though he takes care of you in every way he possibly could. making you feel like his entire world revolves around you, from his time home to the hours he spends on the field. one would ask anything of him and his answer would surely include you in one way or another, everyone knew it, everyone could see it, the way he feels.
he makes you breakfast, he helps with the cleaning- you both actually have it planned to have a cleaning day every week to polish the apartment. he cooks for you and he does the dishes more often than not, the only exception being the time when you insist deathly on doing it yourself because come on you gotta do at least some thing around the house.
to add to the perfect mixture of god gifted man, he video games in his room with the door shut so that the sound of him shouting at the screen doesnโt disturb you. does the laundry- even your bras and underwear, heโs just too used to those clothings to give a care to get embarrassed (outwardly). he would never admit the way they get him all hot and bothered when he thinks of all the places those fabrics have touched. how wild his imagination runs and all the things he wishes he could do to you. all the sounds he could get, out of you and all the things you'd taste of.
you are his candy (well not exactly โhisโ but according to him this nickname of yours is only and I repeat only reserved for him) literally because you are all over sweets all the damn time and figureratively because heโd die to have a taste of you; the forbidden fruit of his life, too innocent for a person like him to ruin. but lord would he give up everything to land a chance to lay his hands on you not so innocently.
this man does not give a fuck about who is not you, and maybe occasionally spare a care for his two best friends who so far have only been blessed enough to know your name because jake has made it clear that you're off-limits and if they ever dare to do anything given the opportunity he'd rip off their balls and feed it to ducks (he's serious he swears)
getting to the real point of your dynamic: the only drawbackโ jake sim is a renowned fuckboy on campus, the heartbreak prince and you, his miss americana as they all like to call it. it is a daily routine, having to find a new girl in the house and ofttimes hearing them even with your door closed and your hands pressed on your ears. at first it felt disgusting, then you got used to it, and now very recently youโve been feeling weirdly dejected. a certain kind of hatred towards the girls, something you canโt pin point exactly to why and what it is.
โcandy, my laptop broke down again!โ jake's raspy voice dances through the little cracks of the bathroom door as you prepare for a quick shower. you sigh, tightening the towel wrapped around you before stepping out. a short knock at his batman poster door left ajar, and he's whipping his head to have a look at you as if he knew you'd be in the middle of washing up. a little secret, yes he knew because everytime ahead of bathtime you make sure to have a sip of your watermelon slush stack from the fridge and the sound of it's door reaches his room just right to let him know.
he remains seated on his bed, a sheepish smile on his face. your eyes fall at his desk to see his laptop closed, he tricked you, and like always you fell for it,โmaybe if you used your school laptop to study instead of playing games on it, this wouldn't happen all the time. but i assume you probably did it to get me here, itโs not gonna work everytime yun,โ you click your tongue in feigned annoyance making him grin wider,โwell it does work everytime though,โ he knows how to have you on his tail just like you know how to have him wrapped around your finger. it only seems fair, you both know what gets the other going and you use it to your advantage.
โwhat is it?โ asking in a sing song tone, you plop down on his desk chair. spinning in rounds with your legs out swinging, hands gripping onto the arms of the chair while looking up at the phosphorescent glow-in-the-dark stickers you had forcefully put up on the ceiling of his room. a funny memory of jake trying to stop you because it would defeat the whole image of his room only to fold when you gave him the puppy doe eyes, baby talking that you really wanted to do it. it doesn't take much to have jake cave in, just one look from you and the boy is a flatline. fuckboy? he is that to everyone but to you he's practically whatever you want him to be, though you have never really had a talk about it.
โactually eunsang, she-โ there is a hesitation is his tone you are well aware of, having almost a clear idea of what he's about to say,โi told- no warned you not to get involved with her for a second time, didnโt i?โ you scold, feeling that little twinge of hurt knowing he probably will keep on being involved with girls like this no matter what you say. it's the one thing where you don't have him under your spell. or that's you think, i mean you you have no idea do you of how much he wants you. just like how you have no idea how much you want him.
โyes but it happened and now sheโs after me all the time, she even showed up to my soccer practice yesterday! please just this one time, please help me get rid of her,โ clamping together his hands in a plea, jake pouts as best as he can, giving you his puppy eyes. but when you donโt show a reaction of any sort he resorts to the next best guaranteed thing: bribery,โiโll buy you tons of watermelon lollipops! from your favorite brand that too!โ eyes sparkling with hope and expections of having you fall for it, like you do every single time, he waits. albeit patterns break, in everything and everyone.
โno, iโm on a diet. i gave up on sweets, what if i get diabetes? will you,โ you point at him dramatically,โtake responsibility?โ to which his stance morphs into one of stunned. he would gladly take responsibility for you at any given chance, but it's one of more gravity and significance than diabetes. and he's sure he's not one you should be in care of as more than anything that you are right now. he's too corrupted and you are too naive.
โyes of course iโll help you take your meds and-โ he mumbles in a quick, hurried note aware that youโll not let him answer if heโs not fast enough. you still beat him to it though, speaking loud over and above his voice, to drown out his words despite hearing them quite clearly,โwill you? NO you will not! so let me just shower peacefully before i get the urge to lock you in the bathroom when youโre in there later,โ with a silence after, one that has jake grinning again at your cuteness, you take it as a que to rush out swiftly. trying to make it to the bathroom before he decides to use his strength against you and hold you down wherever he wants. which though hasn't been often, has always left you breathless and flustered to a point you refuse to admit.
training to become an athlete, a buff center forward in comparison to you who barely puts effort into doing even a little bit of yoga once a month. itโs obvious heโll have you give in if he wants but heโs too sweet to force you. and of course it's obvious, the tension of the strength kink that looms over in the room.
it comes as a shock to you when the next day, the first thing you see waking up in the morning and walking into the living room: is eunsang standing by the kitchen counter. and important point: clad in one of jakeโs dress shirts that you recognize from doing his laundry occasionally, pouring herself a glass of water. oh you had to see this coming, this is jake we're talking about will be really ever like ever not bring over girls? no matter if they're clingy or not. the answer is ambiguous and definitely not to your favor.
sheโs shares a small smile upon noticing you, a friendly smile which you know is obviously fake. sheโs doing it just to look good and polite in jakeโs eyes. just to show that she's not bothered by you, because as said everyone knows if they don't like you then they automatically are on jake sim's blacklist. and being the star player of the team, his acquaintance is more or less influential to a large extent, so note to be taken be nice to candy to not be on the cross out list.
however as sad as it is to say itโs of no use. sheโs not even there in his eyes to begin with. the moment the jake comes out of his room, his field of vision doesnโt include her. passing by her very visible figure like sheโs a microscopic bug to ruffle your hair in a dotting manner, his morning voice coming out in an adoring essence,โgood morning, candy,โ he smiles and scrunches up his nose when he notices the baby cat you both adopted last month, curled up in the corner of the couch,โand mei,โ he acknowledges your pet kitty but not the girl he brought home, that should speak volumes to you, jake thinks. treating you like candy of his world you are, shouldn't that be the ultimate giveaway of his feelings? like even his hookups can see how down bad he is for you why is it that you're the only one who can't? he wants you to know but at the same time he feels he's not right for you, a dilemma he handles by fucking up over and over again.
wishing him morning in response you give him a look which silently delivers your question of what is going on. you did hear them last night (more like her), but you didnโt know it was her her. you werenโt even expecting her to be the one. after the conversation with jake yesterday, she was the last person you would have ever assumed. he sends you a flying look that heโll explain everything later, shushing you off before you speak out loud.
โyunie,โ your ears perk up at her voice, eyes narrowing in a deadly stare at the nickname you exclusively call him with, leaving her crusty mouth. certainly, like jake you blossom a definite possession over names too. perhaps it's the effect of living with him 24/7 but you seem to have picked up a lot of his antics.
jakeโs eyes shift to look at you for a moment and then heโs running a hand through his hair, dropping his sweet conduct to get back into his usual cold fuckboy self. he absolutely does not like the way your brows turn down and the pretty smile you were previously adorning for him falling off your pretty lips. he can tolerate anything but seeing you bothered in any way. โyouโre still here? it's better if you leave soon, candy doesnโt like all this,โ walking around her to the other side of the counter and into the kitchen to open the upper cabinets, jake ignores her like a plague as if he wasn't showing her heaven last night. but alas, nothing comes above you, she should have known that.
โwhat do you want for breakfast candy? should i make you some toast? or do you want your usual dose of sugar?โ his palms rest on the granite countertop, leaning against it slightly while turning to fix his gaze on you. it makes eunsang rage with anger, throwing you a demeaning look before she disappears into jake's room.
the moment his bedroom door closes, you feel the unfamiliar weight on your shoulders relax a tad bit,โmy watermelon slush please,โ finding your cozy spot on the kitchen counter, you give him your most adorable pout feeling like you had to gain back his warmth after the hookup. your legs dangle over the height between, toes softly brushing against jake's calves every two seconds. watching him prepare your drink, you decide to voice out the thing that had been disturbing since the moment you walked out your room,โdid you like make a friends with benefit kind of arrangement or something?โ it comes out in a low whisper, afraid if you said it too loud it'd come true. the thought of it disturbs you for some reason, itโs not new for you to see random girls in your apartment; or to hear them while theyโre at it. yet it still gives you a sort of uneasy feeling, something you do not like feeling.
โit was a last time kind of deal actually,โ he stops briefly to give you a quilty smile. finishing your sweet slushy just as eunsang hastily steps out, wearing what you assume her clothes from the previous night. she slows down to observe as jake hands you the cup, repulsively watching you take a sip,โis it good?โ hearing him speak in a tone way different than the one sheโs acquainted with him using with her has stomp her way out in a grumpy fit.
looking up from the edge of your cup with hopes to give her a sly stare, your eyes follow her figure, flinching silently when she bangs the door close harshly,โbitch,โ you comment, hooded orbs shifting back to jake who scowls in disapproval,โlanguage candy,โ he reminds, knowing very well it does nothing to stop you.
โsorry yunie but she's so agressive, and for what?โ you whine.
โfrom what iโve seen, youโre way more aggressive,โ jake laughs softly, index finger coming to poke at your cheek tenderly.
with full cheeks, you grin like a cheshire cat and jake feels his heart rate speeding up, who gave you the permission to be the cutest person he's ever known? the urge to kiss you just keeps growing with each passing day and with with each little sneaky smile and doe eyes you give him.
โwe need to get the groceries this week, i have after classes soccer practice for the next four days and we're not gonna last that long,โ the thought of spending the next four evenings alone in the unit is gloomier than the half assed ham and cheese toast jake makes for himself. if only you said yes to some proper breakfast, his taste buds and stomach wouldn't be suffering so much.
you nod as if he has eyes on his back, knowing well he's gonna want you with him but not force you, if you'd say no. whatever you want, is whatever he does.
โโm gonna go take a shower first then,โ hopping down, you place your empty mug in the sink, and skip to your room to take your bath supplies.
โletโs shower together,โ jake's friskiness thrives in the way he shouts with an undertone of mischief. watching you with a teasing gaze as you step out the threshold of your bedroom door. a tiny smirk spreading onto his lips when you scrunch your nose in a grimace. cute, he mouths thinking you wouldn't notice but god you do. he's clearly joking but you canโt help feeling flustered internally. keeping up with his flirty and touchy stunts and tricks should have made it easier for you by now, but over a year in and you're yet to find yourself getting used to it. heโs too attractive and hot to get used to; at least thatโs what excuse your brain gives you, which honestly is true to some extent. his looks score a lot of points and you can't deny that.
โand if we get locked in there, whoโs gonna get us out? you know the door lock has problems,โ you complain in a soft groan which, in his eyes is more adorable with the little annoyance you show. if you think you could ever intimidate him, you probably will because he'll melt right away to even think of a counter back.
his stance straightens at that, a fleeting look of flabbergast clouding his face before heโs breaking out in a taunt of smile, eyes closing in on you in a brazen look,โso does that mean if the lock was fine youโd actually shower together with me,โ he feels this triumph of emotions, a sudden rush of sugar at the realization that'd probably maybe perhaps someday let him get in the shower together with you. the sheer excitement he experiences through his veins is over the roof, just the possibility of something so intimate with you is a bite of golden spoon for him.
he purposely stops all heโs doing to stare at you, moving his eyebrows cheekily, trying to provoke you,โi never said that,โ you stick your tongue out at him, closing the door in a soft slam and crying out a โyouโre sick in the head!โ
โonly for you!โ jake yells back, chuckling to himself as he leaves the room.
two hours later youโre both strolling through the isles of shelving, bright florescent lighting, end displays of popular products, sale signs, banners with store mottoes, isle signs with product locations, rows and rows of household products and everything you'd always spend lots of time looking through until jake has to drag you back home.
he pushes the cart while you look around for items to throw in and cross out one by one from your checklist. the way you both discuss and bicker over what to keep in the cart and what not to every two minutes will lead any sane person to conclude you as a couple. you both would also admit it feels as such. how he insists on taking what you like while you argue that youโre on a diet and need to cut down on the consumption and desires of your sweet tooth. it feels sweet, he feels sweet. and you make him want to coddle you so bad, like what do you mean you're on a diet? you're perfect already. too perfect for him.
โiโm taking the pop tarts!โ you hear him shout from two or probably three Isles away while you look through some new make up launches,โโฆokay fine!โ capturing the attention of an old couple who glance at your way and mutter something you donโt quite catch but you assume itโs probably about how annoying you both are, shouting at the mart.
โyunie look these are so pretty,โ you point at the line of lipgloss as jake comes over with cart. he hums in agreement, watching you scan through the shades in an animated mood, mumbling over the names and speaking of how it'd look good for an everyday look or with summer dress you recently got. oh how smitten he feels, observing the way you seem so pumped up simply over gloss.
โthere's no mirrorโ โ
โtry it on me,โ oh he's bewitched under your spell.
jake stands still as you apply the mauve on him, staring at you through hooded eyes,โoh, this oneโs really pretty on you!โ you beam, looking up at him as if he could see it too.
โit'd look prettier on you,โ he's hardly able to whisper out, gaze trained on the way you part your lips while you wipe it off his and apply another. if he didn't have a strong self control, by now he would have shoved his tongue down your throat in the dirtiest and messiest kiss you'd ever known. knocking your breath out, as well as his. he's already on the verge of losing it with every little touch you leave on his lips, wetting your own as a habit.
โwhich one should i take?โ you ask something cutely, jake almost feels guilty for the thoughts swimming in his head.
โiโll buy all of it for you, we can do something like a chapstick challenge you know. the one where you kiss and guess the flavor,โ he teases loving the tiny exasperated glare you throw him. โyunn, be serious! which one?โ
โthese two?โ he points to ones you commented were pretty feeling impatient at the conjured up image of you wearing the colors on with you tiny, sexy little sundresses you got hidden in your closet. please feel guilty man he thinks.
in the end jake (successfully) convinces you to continue your diet later over the summer break offering to help you with it. and grabs a bunch of packets of your favorite snacks, your favorite brandโs watermelon lollipops and not to forget the fruit itself. checking all out he insists on carrying everything himself, only handing you the little bag that held your lollies in case you'd want one on the way back.
the subway is more crowded than usual, scarcely any seat left. it takes you a whole minute to scan around for an empty one, immediately encouraging jake to take it. a silly game of rock paper scissors to decide who stands, insisting firmly that he sit when you end up winning. the grocery bags rest by his foot and you stand between his legs, holding onto the bar wobbling every now and then. itโs just one stop left when jake suddenly pulls you onto his lap, adjusting you comfortably on his thighs and placing his hands on your legs possessively. you turn to look at him, lashes brushing against his skin and lips parting in the slightest at the adrenaline you feel pumping into your fast beating heart. the muscles in his chest feel firm at the faint touch of your back against him, the thumping of his own heart similar to that of yours.
he leans closer to whisper in your ear,โthat creep right there kept staring you up and down,โ pointing with a discreet move of his eyes as he drills holes through his stern gaze fixed on the said guy. you on the other hand, grow hot with irritation, perhaps just as hot and bothered you are feeling jake pressed so close. an abrupt and sharp impulse of anger.
โiโll show him the fuck he was staring at," you mutter out, teeth gritted, and hands almost forming into fists, expression as innocent as always. jake seems to catch on to what youโre about to do and before you can get up from lap, his hold on you gets tighter,"okay, i know you hate this candy, but i donโt want you getting hurt in any way, if he does anything iโll make sure to set him right, for now i think he got it that heโs not gonna stare at you however he wants,โ hand grabing yours in gentle caresses along the expanse of your arm. delicate and slow like a soothing rub. his touch just as enticing and stimulating it is, is also calming, knowing exactly how to pacify your hot headedness. jake finds that really hot about you, the way you look like you couldn't harm a bug but he's seen you throw kicks and punches (for the right reasons) โlooks like a cinnamon roll, could kill youโ he never knew that's his type. sometimes and really only some rare times he wonders if you're not as innocent as he thinks you are, getting rock hard at the thought of it, dick twitching multiple times imagining you saying and doing things that an angel like you shouldn't be.
for the rest of the ride he manages to lull you back to your sweet candy mode, making you laugh at his lame pick up lines, and occasionally tickling your sides. head falling back into his shoulder in cute giggles and hips rolling on him, damn only he knows how bad he's holding back. as shameless as he is he'd probably jump your bones right infront of everyone to see. thankfully you bring the decency in your relationship.
when your stop comes, he intertwines his fingers you as you walk out the compartment, just in case you decide to give the dude a slap before leaving.
โ'm gonna flatten out all your abs today, you'll need to gym again,โ jake chuckles, feeling you roll over his body like meiโs lint roller as he lays on your favorite fluffy kuromi rug typing away on his laptop an essay deadlined for tomorrow. the weight of your body on and off and the touch of your hot skin he feels funsies,โyou do this all the time, candy and my abs have never left. how can i let them? knowing how much you love it,โ reaching behind to hold you still on his back. you are glad he can't see the way your cheeks warm up at that, a bashful look on your face remembering all the times he's caught you ogling at his body.
โwhy are you sulking?โ he asks when you don't respond with a whine like you usually do. aware that you behave this way either when youโre over the top bathing in happiness or dissatisfied with something.
โโm gonna gain weight now because of you, iโll see all the snacks and sweets in the pantry and not be able to resist binge eating,โ you lightly punch at the curve of his shoulders, dropping your head into the crook of his neck in a pout. jake turns around swiftly to hold you in a hug, wanting nothing more than to cheer you up,โi love your belly anyhow, whether itโs visible or not,โ giving the plump flesh of your stomach a zephyr-like pinch. you wince playfully drawing back inches to tease him only to drop down into his arms to hug him back seconds later,โyeah whatever,โ his words make you feel butterflies, a turmoil of frenzy and fuzzy feelings, cheeks growing warm once again, and the warmth spreading all over your mind this time. why does he have to be so sweet to you?
you both stay like that for a while breathing slowly, and taking in the comfort of a hug, the room saturated with a restful and serene silence. youโre the first to pull away,โyou should finish that essay, i have to prepare for my test next week,โ jake groans at the loss of your touch, wailing out with his hands as you leave the room.
โiโm joining you as soon as i finish this!โ
four days later on the weekend, you sit on the couch alone, wrapped in the thin lilac charmeuse blanket jake got for you (he said it the softness of it, reminded him of you.) waiting for your him to join you. eight in the morning with โtangledโ running on the tv, it's not something jake would ever want to do, but he gives in because you like it; bonus sometimes when you get a little sleepy, he grabs the chance to cuddle you as close as he can, leaving a few fluttering kisses on your temple and cheeks. he's grateful you never say anything about it and just let him be.
โyunie, can you pass me the watermelon in the fridge? the one from yesterday,โ you spare a quick glance towards jake as he walks out his room. his headset rests loosely around his neck, half naked, wearing only a pair of sweatpants and his black hair all dishevelled: looking even more messier due to the perm he got last week. โyeah sure,โ the rasp in his voice as he mumbles out softly gives away the fact that he probably stayed up all night again.
taking the half a piece of watermelon out and grabbing a spoon, jake scoops out a small little portion. going up to your slouched figure on the couch, and extending it out for you to eat,โhere you go, candy,โ he does it quite often, infact he loves to feed you. seeing your cheeks full and your eyes sparkling makes him feel fond as much as it turns him on. picturing you the same way on your knees between his legs with his dick stuffed in your mouth. choking and gagging on him, tears dropping down your pretty eyes while you stare up at him with this same doe look. it'd be heaven. even more so if he would have to teach you how to do it right, further fueling the massive corruption kink he seems to have harboured after meeting you.
he passes you melon after you take the bite, sitting beside you with his legs crossed. eyes trained on the way you fill in more in your mouth than you can handle, face all round and full,โeat slowly,โ he flicks at your forehead.
โdo you want to go buy a new sofa at ikea tomorrow? this oneโs pretty small,โ he adds a minute later, raising his brows subtly.
โwell, first of all i didnโt plan to have a roommate and secon- i swear if itโs for your hook-ups iโm kicking you out!โ it comes out in a yell, voice raising with every syllable before you spit a seed at him. one that due to your bad aiming skills instead of landing on his face, falls and sticks to the skin of his chest. damn those muscles they get you feelings things you probably shouldn't be.
putting away the watermelon on your tea table, you pick up mei and settle her on your lap, pulling back your blanket which had slipped off in a crackle of laughter,โthis is public space have some decency before you have such thoughts!โ
โstop making me appear like a horndog!โ he laughs along, whinning at your false accusations in giggles and a look of faux disbelief.
โwell that is exactly what you are!โ you throw the closest cushion at his face. grinning with your signature cutesy doe eyes and jake is a goner. he always is.
โno don't do this me,โ
โchange the sheets then, it's your turn this week,โ turning away from him, you fix your eyes on rapunzel climbing down the tower. trying to avoid the way he stares at you with betrayal, immediately scooting over to tickle you.
โyou cheeky liar it's your turn,โ his hands glossing over your ticklish areas.
โi love you,โ in a fit of uncontrolled giggles, you shout. pushing against him to escape only to have your wrists pulled away, held together in a tight grasp and pinned above your head. โcandy! i love you is not gonna get you out of chores come on i'll help you. we'll watch tangled later. together, i promise,โ his laughter dies down with every word he utters, whispering out the last part as he becomes aware of the proximity between you two. so close you both think, breaths slowing down and heartbeats picking up the pace with each passing second.
โwe're doing this okay?โ jake whispers again, albeit, his tone a tad bit more heavy and bothered. an ambiguous daze clouding over, as if he is talking about something entirely different than just changing sheets. a twinge of lust bubbling inside. having you under him like this makes him realize just how desperately he wants you, and how bad his strength kink blooms for you. to have you whimpering and moaning, gaze all hazy as you let him do whatever he wants with you. damn he feels his dick twitch at that, gulping nervously hoping you wouldn't notice.
โyou look like eugene,โ you mumble out suddenly and jake feels his thirst rise off the roof, because the size difference between the characters? he wouldn't deny he thought of you the first time he saw the animation. wanting you have you in his arms the same way.
โthen you must be my rapunzel,โ you feel even more flustered if that's possible, your stomach twisting and twirling at his words until,โnow come on we gotta keep the house clean for mother gothel,โ jake let's his grip on you loosen, taking a moment to get off you.
โyunie!โ
โi'll make you some sweet soy-glazed potatoes too later,โ he voice drowns out as he enters you bedroom first.
โwell i guess it's okay then,โ you giggle following after him.
โcandy that's not how you tuck in the corners,โ jake scolds you for nth time, running after you to fix the edges you mess up deliberately time and again. โhey! candy! get down!โ you make it a chaos for him, jumping onto the unmade bed and messing up the sheets all the way.
โoops,โ there's a devilish grin on your face as jake pauses to watch you have your sugar rush episode.
โif you wanna wrestle again and end up under me, just say so,โ he teases, inching closer and grabbing you by the waist. you both laugh again as if you weren't dripping with need for each other just moments ago. he picks you up and walks to the door putting you down by the sill,โi seriously need to get this done, you go and peel the potatoes for me,โ you can't cook for the sake of god and letting you use knives is like a deathwish, jake can only hope peeling will keep you busy and safe enough to not end up with cuts anywhere.
the doorbell rings just as you step into the kitchen, walking back to the front in a sluggish sigh. feeling utter regret for answering the door, the instant you notice the figure outside. not wanting to reveal the presence to jake, you shut the door behind.
he peeps out your room at the sound of it, shrugging it off as nothing because youโve done it lot many times: when your friends show up because you simply donโt want them to fall under his radar as prey.
you spare an indifferent glance at the way eunsang stands tall; hands folded with a cocky look on her rather gorgeous face. she's a beauty and you hate to admit that, a vibe so opposite of you it makes you insecure considering jake's hooked up with her more than a few times. โiโm here to see jake,โ she states, tilting her head to point over at the closed door, all the sugary honeyed act she keeps up around him nowhere to be seen.
โand he doesnโt want to see you, didnโt he tell you it was the last time,โ you counterattack, folding your arms and straightening up to look intimidating. your stare is one of taunt, carrying a gaze of boredom in hopes to establish that you're one to reckon with.
โare you jake? i said i want to talk to jake not you,โ her heels click in impatience and underlying disgust in the tone she uses with you gets on your nerves.
you close your eyes for a moment trying to calm the annoyance in you before it turns into anger, tongue poking at the side of your cheek, โand are you deaf? i said he does not want to talk to you,โ assert dominance, assert dominance you repeat over and over in your head.
but what she says next makes you lose your temper.
jake, the very epicenter of it all, on the other hand has no idea of what's going on outside until there's a scream that sounds too much like you, one turning into many more. it's frantic and inhumane, the speed at which he runs out. dropping everything and anything. there in broad daylight he finds you and eunsang trying to rip each other's hair out in the thankfully empty hallway. he doesn't know if he should be worried more about your scalp hurting or your throat tearing from how loudly you scream over eunsang. his hands flail as he contemplates on breaking the fight or letting you calm down, which you probably won't as he knows. he grabs onto eunsang's hands on your head trying to loosen her grip on your hair, concerned over the pain you must be feeling while you're there now trying to kick her between her legs. she's shocked to say the least, watching him latch you off her in a swift motion and throw you over his shoulder. he takes you back inside quickly, groaning at your fists pounding against his back in a protest,โfucking let go of me! iโm gonna give her a good piece of my mind!โ
โcandy language!โ putting you down by the kitchen softly, he grasps the side of your arms and forces you to look into his eyes,โstop fighting all the time, stay here iโll talk to her, okay?โ he speaks slowly as an attempt to calm you. when you wiggle off in a scornful shrug, he asks again, this time moving to cup your face, a tender look in his eyes,โokay?โ you nod in a defeated sigh and he's out the door before you can say anything else. you're upset, really upset, you know what you did outside was not decent yet you can't get over the fact that he left you in here to go back to talk to her. he was on your tail last week trying to beg you to help him get rid of her and even shooed her out the unit harshly, what more is there to talk about?
truth to be told, this was how he first met you, or should he say saw you. it was the move in day, he had all the necessities for the week packed in a travel suitcase, with the other stuff to be brought in later on. he was waiting for the elevator in the lobby, more tense and anxious than ever to meet the girl he was going to be living with a good four years of his college life. hoping she'd not treat him like some stranger, or be someone impossible to get close to hash live with. along with little bits of curiosity and hopes again, that she'd be a pretty and sweet girl maybe someone help could form some kind of benefits with.
however never in a million years did he ever expect it to be the cute yet fierce girl in the elevator. to say he was flabbergasted would be an understatement, he was literally blown off his feet, scared or impressed, his confusion was massive. when the doors of the elevator had opened he had found you slapping a middle aged man,โfun? you think groping my butt โs fun, you sicko,โ kicking him in the balls next. hard. jake had gulped at that, hard. heart on a pause. the look of feigned innocence on your face as you did all that. damn jake swears it was that moment he fell. maybe not romantically but you definitely got his dick hard.
you looked super cute, and you knew how to fight, jake thought he hit the jackpot when you turned out to be his roommate. pretty you were, definitely, and sweet wasn't even a question; you were sweet to him and you are a lot of sweet. the only thing that remains a mystery till now is if you'd taste as sweet. jake hopes he can find that out.
he returns a few minutes later, lips pursed in a small smile as he shuts the front door. it grows even wider when his eyes find you,โso your soy glazed potatoes,โ he chuckles walking over to the kitchen and getting other things out.
โshe called me a slut for living with a guy like you and i was in the midst of giving her a lecture on actually how good of a person you are-โ you bang on the counter with a thud and turn around to face him,โand you dragged me in!โ whinning in a pout that looked as upset as your furrowed brows.
jake glances over in amusement, halting to give you another grin as he boops your nose gently,โmy darling candy, iโm only good to you,โ the glare you throw his way only makes him snicker with adoration. the little flicker of bashfulness you feel making you break out in a smile which (thankfully, for you) jake doesn't notice.
โwhatever, iโm gonna take a long shower. do not disturb me!โ you leave in a rush afraid if you stay too long he'd see it all on your face.
ten minutes later, as you tiptoe to get your favorite shower gel from the shelf above the mirror, luck decides to remind you why you shouldn't ever stay away from jake sim. feet slipping on the wet floor, body colliding against the cold tiles in a thud loud enough to have jake come running.
โcandy, you're okay? what happened? should i open the door? โm coming in,โ his voice is laced with worry, snapping open the door to find you laying flat down, though to his relief not unconscious. he picks you carefully, bringing you to your room and seating you on the edge of the bed to check for any injuries. hands delicately caressing all over and asking if it hurts any where,โyou're so clumsy, always getting me worried like shit,โ
โlanguage,โ you giggle, trying to make him laugh and it works.
โsorry, just please be careful, okay?โ his fingers brush back your hair as you give him a small nod,โdo you feel pain anywhere?โ another nod, and this one ticks his alarms.
โwhere!โ your fingers reach out to press against the brooding crease between his brows, attempting to remove the frown from his face. and jake melts at that, feeling his heart flutter at your cuteness, god he loves this side of you so much.
โyou little demon, look what happens if you don't shower with me,โ laughing out together, oh how he wishes it were like this forever. and jake sim has never thought of a forever ever before.
a month passes by in the blink of an eye, your routines and relationship staying the same as always, classes, his soccer practice and your weekly cleaning day. but what seems to have changed is his routine of bringing over girls, the number alarmingly cutting down day by day (which currently sits at zero) and what you havenโt noticed- his display of affection towards you growing more and more. yet you think nothing special of it, assuming that perhaps now he got a grip over himself. which is partially true. jake thought of you as deserving someone better, so it was only right that he became better. and what better way than to start with quitting the position of campusโ resident fuckboy.
after an all nighter the previous day, coming back from your classes you get straight to bed. changing you clothes and getting tucked under the blanket from around eight in the evening. jake returns from his soccer practice later, unaware of the fact that you're already passed out. opening your door to let you know of his night out plans,โcandy, iโm gonna go out with jay and sunghoon! make sure to have your dinne- oh you were sleeping? i didnโt know iโm so sorry candy,โ he mumbles out in a soft whisper towards the end, supressing a smile watching your sleepy figure under the covers. trying to rub out the drowsiness from your eyes; heavy blinking and a small pout, his cute girl.
โitโs okay no need to get up, go back to sleep, iโll be back in the morning,โ approaching the bed as you lay back down, he pats your head in a 'sleep wellโ before leaving.
it's probably past midnight when you wake up to constant ringing of calls. fumbling around for your phone in a daze only to find a dozen calls from an unknown number and a bunch of texts from the same. it's jay, asking you to get jake from the bar they're at. saying the guy's refusing to go back with anyone that's not you: whining for your presence and making it hard for his two friends.
'where is my candy?โ jay and sunghoon are sick and tired of hearing it all night.
by the time you get him back to the apartment, it's three and your bones hurt from the weight of his body leaning all over you. it doesn't help that all he does is giggle and throw himself over you. there's been a lot of times you have seen him drunk, probably more than a dozen, but he's never looked as wasted as today. sunghoon told you it's because he drank way more than usual, and unbeknownst to you that you are the sole reason, you wonder of the things that plague his mind to the extent of drinking so much.
dragging him into his room you have him sit on his bed, going through his closet and getting him a pair of sweatpants and the first shirt you can grab. โcome on yunie, get changed,โ you hand him the clothes, turning away when he takes everything off nonchalantly. even though he likely would rather want you to look, from the many times he's said it before โwhyโre you looking away, candy it's all for you,โ his exact words. the bane of your existence.
after he's changed, you wipe the sweat off his body with a wet towel as much as you can. giving him a glass of water before leaving for your room when he grabs your wrist and stops you with his puppy eyes.
in the morning, around noon jake is the first one to wake up and having no memory of the previous night besides the fact that he was drunk. he sits at his desk chair, hands in his hair, watching you sleep on the other side of his bed, clad in his shirt. itโs like he feels everything is over and done from here. he did what he swore never to do, this was the very first thing he pinned on his mind as an important note: not using you even if he has very obvious feelings for you. he tugs on his hair in frustration, angry at himself for not staying in his lane when drunk. with his head hung in guilt, he doesn't notice you stirring awake, sitting up at the sight of his hunched figure.
โyun? are you okay? is the hangover severe? should i make you something for it?โ startled at your soft voice, he flinches visibly. a thousand scenarios running through his mind and not one ends up good.
โyou donโt even know any hangover recipes,โ jake mumbles almost inaudibly.
โi can just search on the internet and try my best, itโs not like iโll give you anything inedible,โ you teaee, trying to lighten the heavy atmosphere you feel in the air.
it takes him a moment to speak again, sounding as miserable as he has never before,โcandy iโm,โ he halts, gulping to hold back the lump in his throat,โiโm sorry, i really didnโt mean to, i donโt why i, it's all my fault,โ he stops again, leaving you confused and dumbfounded,โwhat are you saying? what apology?โ it is when his eyes shift to stare at what youโre clad in, staying there for a hard minute when you get a rough idea of what he could be thinking of. your cheeks grow hot at the realization, shaking your head when unholy images pop up in your subconscious.
but the butterflies fly away just as fast as they came as his words dawn uppn you. even if it didnโt happen the fact that he wouldnโt mean it, want it, regret it has something in you twisting in pain, are you so bad? or that he actually really thinks of you as his little sister? that you read his affections wrong, assumed his feelings differently? your heart breaks more than a little at that.
โwhy? is it because iโm not like the others you have been with? because iโm not like eunsang? or because iโm not her? the one you were smiling so hard after talking to? are you dating he-โ
โthatโs the problem! youโre not like her! youโre not like anyone i've known before! youโre special and iโm afraid iโll lose you, things will change and just iโll have to get over you without even getting a chance,โ it's the first time he's ever raised his voice at you, and the first time ever he's sounded so desperate, weak and dejected. so vulnerable.
the split moment of sadness dissipates with every word that sinks in. the revelation of a(n after)drunk confession. the fact that you're a different kind of special to him, that he would want a chance to be with you, that he's afraid to lose you. you supres the urge to laugh when it all settles into your understanding. having a better grasp over the bigger picture. your steps are slow and calculated as you walk over to him, sitting across his lap and cupping his cheeks in a fleeting breath of courage. his eyes almost bulge out when you brush your lips lightly against his, mumbling softly,โnothing happened, but if you still want i can give you a chance, itโs going to be hard though tolerating me, think wisely,โ you giggle and jake malfunctions for an instant before grabbing you in a tight hug, burying his face into the crook of your neck.
โof course, of course i do want it, iโve always wanted it,โ chanting out in a trance.
โyour lips tasted like watermelon,โ he mutters out some time after, eyes locking with yours in an intense pull. still in a daze that out of all the bad things that could've happened it was none. literally none plus you perhaps wanting him just as much as he wants you.
โi had some in the morning before you woke up, anyhow yours taste like alcohol and your breath is horrible, go and freshen up,โ you push at his shoulder, getting off him to leave the room to cook something. probably (as you said) a recipe searched up on the web, hopefully edible enough for a hungover person.
when he comes out later, all showered and back to the jake you know: the one who likes his hair slightly messy and almost never in a shirt. โwhy were- are you wearing my shirt then?โ
โyou practically begged me to last night while sobbing for i donโt know what reason,โ he's a bit flustered at that, but hey, it's what got him here, you gotta do what you gotta do.
โcandy, you wanna go out tonight? jay and sunghoon wanted to hang out but i don't wanna leave you so i said iโd bring you along,โ jake asks, knocking at your door.
it takes you a little over a minute to open up but jake's does not mind it at all for obvious reasons, his jaw comically falling to the floor when you walk out in your tiny little blue sundress and the shade of lipgloss he was dying to see you in. you're unreal.
โyes! i heard you on call earlier,โ
โoh my god candy, gimme a princess twirl,โ the amount of desire he feels for you right now is unfathomable. biting his lips at the sight of your lace panties underneath that faintly flash him in the mini twirl you do. can you get any hotter?
โjust fifteen minutes and i'll be ready,โ he got ten minutes to do something about the boner he just popped, and it's more than enough to have him rub one out with what he just saw. maybe add a little hint of imagination and wondering what you'd sound like if he were to touch you down there. especially given the fact that the likelihood of it happening were through the roof now. you almost kissed last week, anything could happen at this point. and jake's dick gets impossibly sensitive at the odds of it.
at the restaurant, jay and sunghoon sit in an awkward silence, watching you both be all over each other. when they agreed for jake to bring his girl along, they didn't expect it to be so bad.
โum jake talks a lot about you,โ sunghoon says trying to start a conversation that he knows probably wouldn't go anywhere.
โhe does? that's so sweet,โ you smile, giggling over something jake whispers in your ear, his hand palming over the plush of your exposed thighs,โwhat do you wanna eat?โ sunghoon nerves feel boiled at the way jake completely skips over his attempt to talk to you. while jay sips at wine, agonizingly slow knowing this is how it's gonna be from now on. their friend is a changed man.
โi have this picture of jake from middle school, you'd love to see it i promise,โ a little tipsy, sunghoon's persistence to put himself in the equation albeit admirable, annoys the fuck out of jake, scowling at the other well of aware of the so called picture he wants to share.
โjay man, take care of him. candy and i are going home,โ jake gives them a tight lipped smile, holding your rather drunk self (it's just wine you had said)
โsee you later ca- y/n,โ at first jay leans in for a friendly hug butโ nevermind. the way jake stares at him is scarily weird.
jake makes sure to have you sit on the couch before he leaves to get you water but you're sprawled out on the floor when he comes back. mumbling something about how cool the tiles feel against your skin,โcome on you should drink some water,โ jake pulls you up on your ass, sitting cross legged on the floor beside you. his hand softly holds the back of your head as he brings the glass to your mouth.
โalright say, what did you wanna say?โ
โi wanna kiss you,โ if jake thinks the pout on your lips is the cutest thing ever then the words you say must have to be the hottest thing ever. how can a simple word like kiss make his heart flutter so bad? and it's not even lust at this point.
he fulfils your wish without a thought, leaning in to capture your lips in a gentle kiss. sucking on your bottom lip a second long before he pulls away and boops your nose. no tongue and no other intentions. the after taste of your gloss lingering in his mouth.
โlet me tell you a secret,โ you whisper out, moving over to his lap, knees on the floor each side.
โi knew you stole my kuromi panties,โ he's shocked you know about it, he made sure to be extra careful with it, though his nasty ass was internally hoping you'd catch him.
โmhm, i do have it with me but it's not really wearable now,โ he did not see this becoming something sexual but the moment you brought up the panties, you might as well have brought up his dick. man practically re-lived every single time he used it to jerk off, all those orgasms coming to life at once.
โyou need to punished!โ you whine,
โwhat do you wanna do?โ and jake feels his dick get harder at that.
โcan we kiss again?โ oh my god, you make him feel so fuzzy and horny at the same time, it's unbelievable. in the guide of jake sim: to make him horny is relatively easy, to get him all fuzzy is once in a lifetime and to get him both at the same time is impossible. yet you do it so effortlessly.
jake answers you with his lips against yours again, relishing in the feeling of them on his own. all those times he wondered of how it'd feel like to kiss you seemed so lame now that he actually did. no imagination could ever come close to way he feels right now. his hand comes up to cup the side of your neck, his grip firm as he pulls away for a moment,โi wanna love you so much and take you on cute little dates and buy you all the food you want and fuck you so hard you only remember my name,โhe mumbles against your lips in a bit whisper, letting you take a breath before he dives right back in. this time he lets his tongue slide in, rubbing against your own for a short while only to pull back and go for another trying to keep your lips pressed together for as long as he could. finally pulling away when he feels you push against him a little too roughly, a crawl of shudders all over his skin at the roll of your hips against his bulge.
โwanโ you to fuck me too,โ you whine, this time desperately.
โfuck candy, you're drunk we shouldn't be doing this,โ he reminds, failing miserably to hold himself back. his hands keep twitching to just grab your hips and grind you down on his dick until you're both cumming together.
โiโm not, i swear. i just drank a little because i couldn't have done this all sober,โ even through the layers of clothes, jake can feel your neediness dropping with the way you roll your hips harder against him. speeding up when you think he's pushing you away, but he's just grabbing you closer by the waist. he can't deny how wanted he feels right now, feeling like he'd explode any second. the fuck were you so horny for him?
โare you sure this is okay?โ he asks again. no matter how bad he's dying to fuck you, he'll never do it if you don't to.
โโs okay, please yunie,โ you feel his hands slide along your thighs and in between your legs. fingers faintly brushing over the wet patch on your panties in a sharp inhale. he grazes two fingers against your clit, testing the waters. rubbing harder when he feels your breathing pick up it's pace, switching to spank your clit impossibly fast having lost control at the sound of your wanton whimpers.
โdonโt move and take it baby,โ jake growls, pushing you flush against his chest, making your back arch more and more into him. tits bouncing right up in his face as he bends down to nibble as the exposed skin between them.
he stops for a moment only to push your panties to the side and touch you raw. rubbing rougher and so intense, your legs feel number from pleasure,โhas anyone touched you like before?โ his jaw clenches hard, eyes dark with want as they remain fixated at the sight of his hands on your pussy. fuck he finally knows what touching you feels like.
โnghโ no, fuck!โ and it boosts jake's ego through the roof, he doesn't think he's ever felt as horny as he feels right now. the thought of being the first to touch you in your princess parts, the first you have seen you putty like this, the first to be the one to get you like this. fuck, fuck, fuck! he feels so turned on it's literally inhumane. precum oozing out his tip with every twitch of his dick.
โmm, gonna put my fingers in you,โ you feel one of jake's fingers press into you, sliding inside easily with how dripping wet you are. the pornographic moan you let out when he slowly slips in another and curves up has his dick twitch so damn hard he thinks he just came untouched. you sound so cute yet so fucking hot, his mind is in a spiral of everything he wants to do to have you moan like that again and again until you're so drunk on pleasure, you only want him all the time.
โshit you're so tight and warm, can't imagine how good you'd feel around my cock,โ his eyes keenly hooked on the way you raise your hips to meet the thrusts halfway,โy-yun, โs feels too g-good ah,โ
โfuck you're so hot and so perfect for me,โ his words travel straight to your core having you clench tight around his fingers and all of a sudden you find your oragasm hitting you as violently as jake continues to run you through it, fast and painfully pleasurable. enamoured and obsessed with the way your doe eyes struggle to stay open, mouth parting in a loud whine, back arching and hips shooting up. god you're a piece of art and jake doesn't think he's ever gonna want anyone other than you.
he immediately stands up with you in his arms, walking over to the kitchen counter and placing you gently on the cold marble. his fingers run through your hair in a soft caress, tucking in the messy strands behind your ears,โyou sure you want this? we can stop here if you want. just say the word and iโll stop,โ
โwanโ yun to be my first,โ you whimper wearily, jake feels his heart skip a couple of beats. your first, he wants to be your last too and you to be his last.
โgonna make you cum so much harder on my cock,โ he places his hands on your thighs in a tight grip and forces them apart fervently. he so damn wants to eat you out but he also wants to feel you cum around his cock, it's a hard choice to make but his cock feels so angry and heavy slick from all the precum he shot out each time you whimpered or moaned or whined, if he'd wait to get his dick wet he'd probably actually come untouched from your sounds and reactions alone. and only god knows(jay too oops) how bad jake sim wants the first time he cums with you to be deep inside you. so much so that he might develop a kink of getting you knocked up (nope you're too young for that!)
he takes his pants off in a snap, practically ripping his boxers along with it, grabbing his rock hard dick, throbbing and red at the tip and trusting into his fist a couple of times. breathing heavy at the way you watch him with your lips between your teeth. he wonders how good it'd feel to watch you touch yourself while he does the same, cumming together with your eyes locked. but he probably doesn't have that kind of self control to just watch you touch yourself, when he can do it himself?
he taps his tip against your clit for a hot minute sliding it along your folds in a strained groan. you're so embarrassing wet, it's like jake could shove himself inside immediately and your you'd hardly feel pain for a while. however, holding back his desires, he pushes into you slowly, holding your body close and stroking your back soothingly,โlet me know when i can move,โ a tender kiss at your forehead, trying to make sure you know you have the say it in.
jake groans as you give him the go seconds later,โmhmmm candyโ โ baby,โ moaning soft and lustful as he pulls out till the tip and thrusts all the way in. your insides feel so warm and gummy, walls clenching around him crazy tight. he thinks he'll lose his mind and end up cumming embarrassingly fast like a teen getting pussy for the first time. the way he feels the pleasure throb in his veins so intense all over his body, it's almost numbing.
your hands loop around his neck, fingers scratching at his back as he pounds into you rough, his pace hard and fast pushing all his body weight against you.
โdon't think i can ever get enough of you,โ
the sight of the thin straps of your dress slipped to the sides, tits almost spilling out of the front gets jake going, fueling him to grab at you anywhere and everywhere his hands can possibly go,โtell me im dreaming fuckkkโ i've wanted you for so long, can't count the number of times i've jerked off to the thought of having you like this, so pretty and dumb under me,โ all those evenings when you roamed around the unit in the shortest shorts and the smallest crops, driving him mad shit insane, having to sneak off into the bathroom multiple times. fisting his cock hard, groaning and biting back his moans as he got off to the thought of you, while you sat all unaware and innocent on the other side of the wall.
he stops abruptly, pulling out in a frenzy and turning you around on your heels and pushing you by the back of your neck to lay against the cool granite. one hand going down to grab at your thigh and hook it up on the counter, drooling at the way your pussy glistens from the angle. he shoves his dick back in without a warning, feeling your ass collide against him harsh yet fervid.
you both pant in rasps when his cock hits a sensitive spot inside you. he shifts to angle himself just right to repeatedly brush against that spot and you mewl out loud at that, so loud your neighbours probably know what you're up to.
โfuck i can't stand not seeing your cute face,โ jake bends over to grab you by your throat, pulling you up and flush against him, head resting back at his shoulders as he forces to look at him, fingers gripping your jaw softly,โeyes on me, okay baby?โ grunting from deep within his chest, a wild grin on his face as he watches you get lost in ecstasy,โiโll get you addicted to my cock,โ just like how addicted he already is with your pussy and everything about you.
his other hand reaches up to tug the front of your dress down, groping up one of your tits, a silk touch to see your reaction. loving the way it's so obvious how sensitive you are there. mouth parting open with you in sensuous gasps as he twists your nipple harshly, rubbing the tip with his thumb. your walls clench a little too hard and your back arches off as you push your hips back into him, the tell tale signs of you getting close,โmy baby's gonna cum for me?โ
holding your jaw to have your eyes trained on him, he unexpectedly inserts his thumb in your mouth pressing against your wet tongue, your red swollen lips too tempting to resist,โfuck yes, show me how pretty you cum,โ you mumble out a series of incoherent words in hazy chant.
the hand on your breast slips down to your lower abdomen pressing rashly against his bulge, feeling faint movement of his cock deep inside you. fuck you're so small and delicate. his hold on you tightening as his calloused fingers find your neglected bud, rolling it in quick, tight circles. it's so painful yet you feel so good, tears wailing down your cheeks as your orgasm crashes hard, overwhelming and violent, thighs trembling and pussy clenching uncontrollably. jake's continues to rub your clit, helping you ride out your high. eyes fluttering shut, and swallowing thickly at the sensation of you creaking over his sensitive length, cock throbbing impossibly hard.
jake refuses to stop even after you have come down,โone more candy, i know you can do one more for me,โ hips hammering into you at full force, and lips finding yours in ragged breaths. and it dawns on you what exactly you have gotten yourself into when you feel the two of his fingers protruding at your entrance, trying to push in beside his cock,โif you try to close your legs i'm gonna punish you,โ he warns making you whine into his mouth.
in a flash he turns your body to face his, quickly shoving his cock and fingers back into you. his other hand spanking the skin of your ass and kneading it a soft caress after. he eyes hypnotized at the view of you taking him in, a white ring of your cum adorning the base of his cock. he spits at your clit, once again toying with the engorged bud, pinching and flicking,โโgonna make you cum until you pass out, fuck i really wanna do thatโ โโ your hand darts out to grip at jake's wrist, feeling too overwhelmed with hypersensitivity. wanting to shy away but the pleasureโs so good you can't bring yourself to push him away.
โbut it's your first time,โ jake mumbles between hoarse grunts.
before you can even realize it yourself your third orgasm courses through you vehemently. body jerking and twitching, almost falling over if not for jake's hold. jets of cum gushing out as you moan loud.
feeling you spill down his cock, all warm and tight, his brutal rhythm falters,โfuck- โm gonna cum,โ eyes locking with yours as he thrusts once, twice and then stills, burying himself deep, streams of cum shooting out. hot spurt after spurt, swollen cock twitching against your walls. goosebumps all over, his legs quiver from how hard he came.
he stays quiet and motionless for a while, his arms wrapped around your shaking body. breathing in the scent of your shampoo, trying to calm his pounding heart and cock.
โyou good candy? iโm sorry, i think i went a little rough on you,โ you nuzzle into him in quiet,โits okayโ as he strokes your head, leaving fluttering kisses over your face. picking you up by the thighs he brings you to your bed, laying you down and gently pulling out. groaning at the way all your mixed cum oozes out, pretty little hole clenching around nothing.
exhausted, you let your mind drift, feeling the drowsiness kick in while jake bends between your legs with a wet towel. whining wearily, when his lips wrap around your nub in a suck, the wet sensation of his tongue against your clit like a shot of electricity,โsorry, baby just had to do that once,โ he knew he didn't just call you candy for nothing and he was right. grining sheepishly as he wipes the rest of the cum off, cleaning you all up.
โyou're nasty,โ you manage to whisper out.
โonly for you,โ the touch of his body is hot and comforting, arms around your waist cuddling closely(and half naked).
โlet's shower together in the morning, wanna eat you out so-โ
โjake!โ
โwhat? it's the truth!โ
the following around four in the afternoon before jake has to leave for his soccer practice, you approach him on the couch, as always re-watching an episode of vincenzo. you haven't talked much about labels, but it's known to everyone that you're sorta together. more like jake is taken by you. his friends weren't too surprised to know about you both, it was obvious jake had the hots for you and from the little hangout at the restaurant they figured it all worked out for him.
โincoming, pocky!โ you sit beside him with a banana flavored pocky stick between your teeth, leaning in teasingly.
โoh you want me so bad,โ he plays along inch closer and biting it off in a snap, lips barely brushing against yours.
pulling you onto his lap with your back pressed into his chest, he locks you in place, chuckling at the way you attempt to escape. his fingers twirling the ends of your hair as you surrender in seconds, switching to watching the show absent-mindedly,โmy parents wanted to meet you,โ he drops the bomb, tracing random letters on your skin to distract of the fact that he just mention a meeting with parents.
โas my roommate, actually,โ quickly adding the important point, fingers poking at your cheeks like jello.
โso suddenly though?โ you think back on all the things you have ever done to him, for them to want to see you. perhaps they think of you as a snobby girl whoโs indulging their sonโs already unpleasant habits.
โtheyโve actually been wanting to meet you for the past three months, i was putting it off but now summer break is starting next week and i have no more excuses to give,โ hugging you, he rests his head on the curve of your neck, breathing in the smell of watermelon that surrounds you after you had basically devoured a whole at lunch. โif you donโt want to then you donโt have to, iโll talk to them,โ he assures, not wanting you to feel obligated to agree, or force yourself despite being uncomfortable.
โno itโs okay, we can go meet them. how long will the drive be?โ fumbling with his red knuckles, your mind wanders off to when he fingered you, growing hot and embarrassed all of a sudden. hardly listening in on his answers.
when jake leaves for his soccer practice, you find time to complete the trivial chores around the house. watering the plants with a pout, missing jake more than ever. you have completely different majors and you are not in any clubs either to stay after classes. the only time you spend together being the one at the apartment which is also cut down by his frequent practice sessions, sometimes in the morning during weekends and normally most evenings on weekdays. it makes you ponder on whether you should try out for any club, after all these years doing something else besides studying. but you have no idea what you should consider, having no knowledge on which clubs you could be eligible to join.
it takes you two whole weeks and a bunch of outfit checks to find yourself on your way to meet jake's parents. feeling almost weird and exhilarating at how his parents and his older brother welcome you. treating you so well even though they recognize you as nothing more than just his college apartment roommate who helps fix his laptop and tolerates the boy knowing the kind of womanizer he is. appearing more as a meeting with in-laws when you jake and you are not even official yet, more so they have no idea of what's going between you two.
they try their best to make you feel at home. during the lunch as jake had told them beforehand, his mother had a few sweet dishes prepared for you, coddling you just as jake does back at your unit. they talk to you about casual things including your likes and dislikes, what major you are in, whether jake treats you well, if you have any complaints regarding his behavior. it doesnโt feel as awkward as you as thought it would and you didn't have to put on any act as you prepared yourself to do.
in the beginning of your roommate journey, his accent, his voice was the first thing to attract you but slowly as you explored his personality you came to like him for more than just what attracted you to him. now you as you spend time with people closest to him, you understand where he got it all from. the sweet person he is, which you never expected a fuckboy to be, you didnโt even have an ounce of hope that heโll acknowledge your presence in the apartment when you got to know about his playing around conduct. yet he turned out to be the sweetest boy youโve ever come around in your life ( and the nastiest perhaps, )
when you are sitting alone with his brother, while jake is away downstairs to bring you something sugary to eat, his brother takes it as a chance to share his thoughts,โyou know until i heard him call you candy a while ago, i was under the impression that 'candyโ,โ he quotes it specially with a movement of his fingers,โis supposedly a cheerleader fling of his after i saw the contact name showing up when he got a call the last time he was here,โ giving you a sly look as he catches sight of jake approaching,โturns out itโs you, i never knew he is the type to give such sweet, unique petnames,โ
before you leave in the evening, jake makes sure to let them know that youโre toegther, and that heโs not playing around this time. heโs willing to give effort into it and change his usual ways of living, to be better for himself and as well as for you.
on your way there you had thought of a lot things, had a lot of assumptions and expectations. even prepared yourself to hear things thatโll stick to you not so positively. but what stays in your mind now is completely unexpected and opposite of what you had internally composed yourself for. itโs all you can think of in the car and after youโre back in the comfort of your familiar apartment.
cheerleader, not a bad ideaโ
โoh my god candy, you're gonna be the death of me!โ jake pulls you away, dragging you to the back of the bleachers, his cock already rock hard and throbbing with need.
โdon't you like it? i thought cheerleaders dressed like this,โ you pout at him, fiddling with the ends of the literally shortest skirt of your closet.
โi love it baby, but you can't just show up to practice like that, how am i gonna be able to concentrate when all i can think of you is fucking you,โ he groans scanning over your figure again and again, it's like you brought out a hidden desire he didn't even know he had. he'd win every game for you if you were to cheer by the stands like this, the adrenaline of getting to ruin your perfect outfit and your perfect makeup after, putting him on a winning streak.
โteach me to suck you off,โ jake loses his mind when you get down on your knees, pushing your hair out of the way and looking up at him through your lashes, doe eyes driving him crazy.
โshit baby, i will,โ oh he's so going to corrupt you.
synopsis: sunghoon finds himself waking up and repeating the same day over and over again until he finally breaks the cycle and finds himself on a space station called โastra 1โ. he soon learns he is one of the few who are still alive and that they arenโt aloneโฆ
genre: space!au, survival!au, neurologist!sunghoon, neurologist!reader, strangers to lovers, angst, smut.
warnings: swearing, blood, m*rder, guns go pew pew, other life forms, some science talk, unprotected sex, biting, hair pulling, sunghoon fucks reader against the wall, adding more as the story progresses, MINORS DNI!!! (these tags will be on every part even if they do not consist of said tag)
intro | part one | part two
this is part ONE for the series, please read the INTRO first before this one!!๐
Sunghoon found himself in the Arboretum. Nov directed him here saying heโd be able to find you here since it was your last known location.ย
And Sunghoon desperately hoped it was still your location.ย
Finding you wasnโt the only thing Sunghoon was hoping for. Nov mentioned a greenhouse filled with veggies and other plants that can help with healing and medicines for in caseโฆya know, he gets mind controlled or something.ย
Apparently, there were worse typhon than just the mimic and phantom he encountered earlier. Heeseung named the phantom as well, apparently. The human-like one. It made Sunghoon wonder what was worse than those two. And he assumed since Nov mentioned mind control, then yeah thereโs worse than the two heโs already had to deal with.ย
The Arboretum was quiet, beautiful, but quiet. Too quiet for Sunghoonโs liking. But still beautiful. The Arboretum was so green. Despite the darkness of space leaking through the domed windows that surrounded the area and making it dark, the green still shined out that darkness.ย
The greenhouse sat on the farthest side of the Arboretum to Sunghoonโs right. To his left was an elevator that looked to take you down to the crew quarters or up towards the bridge. Both of which he planned to explore to find Heeseung after you gained his bracelet's location.ย
The wrench swung at his side as he walked and his hands clenched tightly to the shotgun, one finger on the trigger. Nov questioned the wrench before Sunghoon left the office, to which he just responded that he was keeping it. How could he abandon the trusty wrench?ย
Sunghoon kept walking to the right, eyes wandering over every piece of plant and cobblestone of the path. He passed by a bench where a dead body lay atop of. The dead looked exactly like the ones he found in the lab. He shuddered, quickly looking away and walking faster. Sunghoon couldnโt help but think how busy this station must have been before the outbreak. How alive it could have been. Itโs a shameful thing he had no memory of it or the faces of the dead he knew he would encounter. Anger boiled within him, he caused this.ย
Following the cobblestone path eventually led him to the greenhouse. Even from the distance he was at, he could see how green and full of life it was. You had to still be alive if the greenhouse looked this good in shape.ย
He lowered the shotgun down to his side and reached for the handle, his gloved hand gripping it and twisting. His senses were immediately filled with the smells of all the vegetables and plants. He took a step in, eyes already looking for you.ย
But found himself staring down the barrel of a shotgun.ย
Well, this is a turn of events.ย
โMove and Iโll fucking blow your brains out!โ his eyes shift from the barrel to a woman. She wore the exact same spacesuit. He looked for the name tag, seeing Dr. YN/LN printed across it. He found you.ย
He shifted his eyes back to your face, taking in your every feature and structure of your face. His heart pulled to you, and he didnโt understand why. He assumed it was because you held the very thing he wanted desperately: the location of Heeseung.ย
โDr. LN?โ he asked, โYouโre Dr. LN?โย
You lowered the barrel to his throat to get a better look at him, and youโll be damned, โGuess those tests didnโt actually kill you, Dr. Park.โ
Sunghoon raised his brow, โExcuse me?โย
You shot the barrel back to his face, remembering exactly that he was put under test after test. Who knew what Typhon still laid dormant within him, โAre you actually Dr. Park Sunghoon? Or are you under mind control and acting normal?โย
He scoffed, โIf I was under mind control you think Iโd continue to just let you point your damn fucking shotgun to my face?โย
Yep. Thatโs Sunghoon alright. You couldnโt miss that attitude anywhere.ย
Before you could lower your weapon, Sunghoon had pulled it out of your hand and tossed it. His shotgun barrel is now pointing at you, โAre you under mind control?โย
You laughed, โI donโt think a person under the mind control of a telepath typhon would be able to take care of this greenhouse, ya?โย
He lowered the gun, โI need your help.โย
You scoff this time, walking away from him and regaining your weapon, โYou just accused me, pointed a gun to my face, and then asked for help?โย
Sunghoon locked his jaw, โYou did it to me first, Doctor.โย
โOh, please!โ You whipped back around to him, โI have a right. Mostly after everything,โ You could see how his eyes softened, โThey completely wiped your memory, didnโt they?โย
Sunghoon shrugged, โI donโt remember stepping foot on this station or anything that happened here besides the tests they forced me to take and the fact I was drugged every single day as they stripped my mind over and over.โย
You watched how he tightened his grip on his weapon, you felt bad for him, honestly. To have those things done to you over and over and stuck in a loop. Youโd be pissed off too.ย
Your eyes met his and all it took was those few seconds for his headache to return, dropping down to his knees and clenching the side of his head, and biting down on his lips to keep from screaming. Blood filled his mouth from the bite on his lips and slowly pooled out the side of his mouth.ย
โSunghoon!โ Your voice called to him, but he could barely hear you.ย
Donโt black out again. Donโt black out again. Please.ย
A flashback came to him then, small glimpses of you. Walking past you in the labs at the company building on Earth. Neither of you ever spoke to each other. The last memory he was given was seeing you hold up the first ever neuromod and your bright smile.ย
Then his headache faded. He felt your hand on his back and the other on his knee. Sunghoon slowly dropped his hands and then looked up at you, โYou created the neuromods. That was used to add humanโs and typhonโs psyche into each other's brains. And the mind transfer.โย
You pull your hands off him and stand back to your feet, โYeah. I did.โย You could tell that was the only piece of information that was returned to him in whatever kind of attack that was to his brain. Probably the effects of the neuromods he injected into himself finally wearing off. The other scientists obviously didnโt make it any easier on him. Not when they were drugging him on top of removing the neuromods and stripping his memory every single time.ย
Sunghoon thought back to the neuromod and the three long prongs that stook out of the tip of it and how the body of it looked in the same shape as a handgun. Did he shove those things into his body over and over again?
โSo you had just as much of a play on this happening as I did.โย
You had half a mind to kill him right now, โIf you came here to remind me of my part in this, then I suggest you get the fuck out of here. I donโt need this.โย
Sunghoon wiped the blood from his mouth and chin, seeing that it wasnโt its normal crimson, but a shade of black mixed in with it.ย
โAn effect of the neuromods,โ You said, glancing away from him and at the walls of the greenhouse, โIt wasnโt as perfect as we had hoped.โย
Apparently not.ย
Sunghoon stood back to his feet, getting everything back on track, โI need your help.โย
You scoff again, โWhat more could you want from me, Sunghoon?โ Formal names. Youโve been formal with him on and off.ย
โWe werenโt strangers to each other, were we?โ he asked, โYouโve been acting like you hated me since meeting just now.โย
You placed a hand on your hip and smirked at him, โSomething like that,โ you looked him up and down. He looks good for someone who was missing for three months without any food or water. You thought he either was dead or became one of the typhon. The human body couldnโt have survived that long unless someone was helping to keep him alive. It couldnโt have been November. Nov was destroyed. But knowing Sunghoon, he probably revived the little guy in secret. You shook your head away from the thoughts, โYou said you needed my help?โย
Sunghoon nodded, โI heard you had the list of the tracking bracelets.โย
Your lips parted, โI did. Who told you that information?โ Before he could answer, you answered for him, โYou sneaky bastard, you did revive November.โย
Sunghoon gave you a confused look, clearly not knowing what you meant. But also wondering what all you knew. He needed to keep you close, โWhat do you mean did have it?โย
โI took the list and the software used to track them after the first outbreak and hid them in my room down in the crew quarters. But considering that Iโve been hiding out here, itโs proof the crew quarters arenโt safe.โย
The first outbreak? Meaning another one happened. Which is the one that caused so much death on this station.ย
โI need that list and software,โ was all he said and he didnโt care if the desperation showed on his face.ย
You narrow your eyes at him, โWhat do you need it for?โย
โHeeseung,โ he took a shaky breath, โI need to find Heeseung.โย
Ah, Dr. Lee Heeseung. Sunghoonโs best friend. How could you forget the second CEO who used to sign off on your paychecks and was attached to Sunghoon at the hip.ย
โHeeseung has been missing for just as long as what you have,โ you said, โThe chances of him being alive are slim.โย
Sunghoon wasnโt excepting that answer, โNov said his bracket was off, which means he could still be alive! I need your help to turn the bracelet back on and track where he is.โย
You studied him, this wasnโt the only thing he needed you for, โWhat else are you planning, Sunghoon?โย
He lifted his head high, โIโm going to find my best friend and any other survivor and get off this station and destroy it in the process.โย
You raised a brow, โYouโre going to destroy Astra 1?โ you laughed, โYou think if that was possible, I would have done it by now? The power plant is the death trap filled with Typhon.โ You knew the risks and what it would take to blow up this station. It was one of the safety precautions, after all, to know how to do this. He made sure of that.ย
โI donโt care. Once we find Heeseung, the three of us can work together,โ He took a few steps closer to you, โPlease, YN. We need to survive this and destroy the typhon and everything that happened here.โย
You looked into his brown eyes, the same ones youโve never been able to say no to, and forced yourself to look away, โFine. But weโll need to make a stop before heading straight to the crew quarters.โย
โAnd that is where exactly?โย
โPsychotronic. The place of the outbreak.โย
Sunghoon swallowed, โWhat for?โย
You smiled, โSomeone stole my card key to get into the crew quarters and I am assuming you donโt have yours?โย
He sighed, already knowing this was a terrible idea. โOnward to Psychotronics.โ
Astra 1โs lobby looked as peaceful as it did when Sunghoon first saw it, and the view of space? He still wasnโt over it either. The Arboretum had a good view of space, yes, but it was nothing compared to the lobby.ย
Sunghoon followed behind you but stopped short and glanced up the stairs that led to his office, eyes stopping at the trauma center door. Relief washed over him when he saw the lock at the door was still lit up red. But his curiosity took over, legs moving him towards the stairs.ย
You turned around in time to see him take the first couple of steps up. Where was he going? You knew his office sat on the top floor, but he did not need to go there.ย
โSunghoon!โ you tried to whisper just loud enough for him to hear, but he indeed did not hear. He walked up the steps as if he was entranced. And that worried you. You double-checked the lobby and made a quick sprint to the stairs, praying no Typhon was in the area.ย
By the time you caught up to him, he was staring through the small window of the trauma center door.ย
What the fuck is he doing?!
Sunghoon locked eyes with the phantom, finding that it was still in its same place crouched in the corner.ย
Its dark purple eyes widened, tilting its head to the other side.ย
โแตฃโ yโแตค โโ โแตคแตฃโ?
Sunghoon clenched his hands tight around his weapon. What is this creature on about?
You touched Sunghoonโs shoulder, โWhat are you doing?โ You glanced in the window, your heart racing at seeing the phantom and how its dark eyes shifted to you, โSunghoon, letโs go!โ you tugged at his suit sleeve, โWe need to go!โย
Sunghoon went to respond, but your unrelenting tug on his clothing took his eyes off the phantom, and looked at you, โYeah, sorry. Letโs go.โ He didnโt look back at the creature as he walked past you and down the stairs.ย
You followed quickly after him, not wanting to take another glance at the phantom locked in the trauma center.ย
The eerie feeling Sunghoon got the moment you both stepped foot in front of the Psychotronicโs door shook him to the core. This is where the outbreak happened. This is where it all started. The lock panel on the side of the door was red. He sighed, another passkey he doesnโt fucking remember. You walked up to the panel, typed the four-number passkey, and hovered your thumb over the unlock button, โThe moment I unlock this door, we will have to relock it from the other side. God knows what we are fixing to encounter here. Are you ready?โย
Sunghoon lifted his shotgun up, โI survived my memory being wiped over and over, I can survive whatever the fuck is past these doors.โย
You held back a laugh, knowing damn well he wasnโt ready for what he was fixing to witness. But you pressed the button anyway, watching the door open due to the motion sensor. Sunghoon didnโt hesitate to walk in and you went in after him, quickly relocking the door behind you.ย
Sunghoon couldnโt place his finger on it, but something about this small office didnโt feel right. There was another door with โPSYCHOTRONICSโ printed in red across it. It was a full glass door, and it looked even more eerie than the feeling Sunghoon couldnโt shake off him.ย
โSomething doesnโt feel right,โ he whispered, wandering his eyes to every inch of the room.ย
You also clench your shotgun tighter, finger resting on the trigger. Something indeed did not feel right here. And you knew it wasnโt just because of what haunts psychotronics as a whole.ย
Out of the corner of Sunghoonโs eye, a paperweight sitting on the desk in the corner fell to the floor as if it was pushed off. Mimic? No. Couldnโt be. He didnโt feel this unease in the presence of a mimic. Neither did he with a phantom. This was something else completely.ย
The paper weight then shot across the room and the air grew thick.ย
Gโโ โแตคโ!
Both your and Sunghoonโs suits automatically flipped the helmets over your head just at the right moment of the both of you being lifted off the floor.ย
โA poltergeist!โ you screamed, gripping a hold of the bookshelf off to your left.
โA fucking what?!โ Sunghoon snapped, wiggling himself in the air to try and steady himself, โWhere the fuck is it!?โย
Your fingers started slipping from the bookshelf, dropping your shotgun and watching as it hit the floor in the same movement of gripping your other hand to the shelves and retightening your other hand, โItโs another Typhon! Its abilities are the exact same as a poltergeist ghost, youโll need to find it!โย
Easier said than done, YN.ย
At this point, Sunghoonโs back touched the ceiling. The poltergeist pressed him so hard he felt like he could barely breathe. Other smaller objects started to float in the room, making it harder to locate exactly where the damned thing was.ย
Until Sunghoon caught movement by the door leading to the inner depths of psychotronics. The movement was quick, but not quick enough for him to get the location of the thing. He struggled against the force of its ability, but nevertheless, he lifted the shotgun up, closing one eye to help aim. The world seemed to have slowed at that moment of locking onto the poltergeist. Its body flickered slightly, โThere you are.โย
One shot. One bullet piercing through the middle of its body was all it took for its invisibility to falter along with its lifting ability, dropping everything in the room, including you and Sunghoon.ย
You pushed yourself forward to land on your back, knowing damn well the amount of pain youโd be in. Sunghoon on the other hand, was able to tuck and roll the minute he touched the ground. The minute he rolled back onto his feet he was rushing the geist, its deformedโand rather now angryโbody rushed him too. It slowly flickers itself back to being invisible. But Sunghoon wasnโt going to let that happen, at least not fully. He dropped himself back to the floor the moment he sensed the geist was inches away and slid across the floor, aiming the barrel directly at the geist.ย
One shot. Two shots. Three. The first hitting its middle, the second at its neck, and the last in the head. Its black blood coating his helmet and suit. The geist let out an agonizing screech and dropped its dead weight on top of Sunghoon, who quickly pushed the damned thing off him.ย
Once he was back to his feet, he took a couple of deep breaths in and rested his hands on his hips, โWhat the fuck is a poltergeist Typhon?!โย
You slowly picked yourself off up from the floor, stretching your back out and praying nothing was broken, which nothing seemed to be, โItโs exactly what I said,โ you walked over to his side, staring down at the creature, โPoltergeists are exactly like phantoms but not successfully created, which is why they look deformed and have different abilities than phantoms.โย
Sunghoon scoffs, the cool air now hitting his face as the helmet automatically retracted itself, smearing the black blood from the helmet now onto the back of his suit, โPoltergeist,โ he mumbles, โDid Heeseung name that damn thing too?โย
Your helmet also retracted back, giving you access to fully look back at him, and you just smile, โYou did, actually.โย
He raised his brows and let out a whistle of disprovement. He named this thing? And that was the best he could come up with? His thoughts stopped at the realization of the question he just asked you, as if heโd known you for longer than the short couple of hours.ย
Sunghoon stared back at you, scanning his eyes over your features, trying to look into your mind somehow. To see what it is you know and to figure out why it is that he wanted to pull you towards him.ย
โLetโs go, we need to get that card key.โ You said, breaking eye contact and walking past him, and pushing the door open. Sunghoon slowly walked behind you, staring at the way your hair falls behind you, and how your hips sway. The way you carry yourself. His heart kept pulling and pulling towards you.
It confused him as to why. He just met you. The two of you were obviously complete opposites. Both your attitudes retract each other. So why? Why does he feel the need to pull you into his arms? Why does he want you in his arms? Why did he want to do all the things that kept rushing his brain with and for and to you?ย
Sunghoonโs mind drifted away from the thoughts of you as the two of you approached the psychotronics lab. His eyes widened at what he was seeing in front of him. Not just what he was seeing, but what he was hearing.ย
He cupped his hands over his ears and grinded his teeth. There were rows upon rows of phantoms locked inside small chambers no bigger than the size that they were.ย
You glanced back at him, seeing as he hunched over slightly, eyes wide and looking down at the floor. You walked back over to him and hooked your hand on his bicep, pulling him to walk forward. You werenโt sure what it was that was causing this, all you could guess was it was the effects of the neuromods.ย
The minute you pulled him away from the phantom's chambers, he lifted himself back up and let out a pained exhale, โWhy are they in there?โย
You tilt your head, clearly questioning why he cared, โThey were the test subjects for the human psyche trials. They are the ones that werenโt so lucky to escape doing the outbreak. Some are ones that were caught and put back in there.โย
Sunghoon looked behind him, looking at each chamber, โThere are no humans in there, right?โ You tucked your lip between your teeth, his head whipping to you in your silence, โYN, answer me.โย
You look in the direction that you both need to go, โJust follow me.โย
So he did. Followed you to the very end of the ward and the fear Sunghoon just had became true. There were cells filled with people, some were dead, but most were alive. Their eyes burned with hatred as you both walked past their cells, โYN.โย
โThey are prisoners, criminals given to us to use.โ You hated every word of that sentence and could feel the piercing eyes of not just the ones trapped, but also Sunghoonโs, โThey were the humans who underwent the first trials of gaining the Typhon psyche. They are the reason you went through the tests next after it was deemed successful. But when the neuromods were stripped from them, their memories stayed.โย
So they know exactly who I am and what I did to them here.ย
Sunghoon looked each of them back in the eyes, telling them through his apologetic eyes how deeply terrible he felt for what he had done. Even if he didnโt remember any of it.ย
He kept following you to the last cell that sat in the very back of the wall in the middle. The man who resided in was alone, his blonde hair slowly drifted into his eyes as he tilted his head to his left, a smirk growing wide across his face.ย
โWell look who the fuck it is!โ he clapped his hands, โNever thought Iโd see your two faces ever again!โ his smirk turned into a frown, โEspecially yours, Park Sunghoon.โย
Sunghoon frowned back at him, but not out of sadness, but from the pure anger he felt towards this man. He didnโt understand why.ย
The blonde lifted his head up, staring down at the two of you, โWhat could either of you possibly want?โ Sunghoon looked at you and then laughter filled the room, โNow thatโs a sight to see!โ the blonde chuckled, โDr. Park is actually quiet for once!โย
Sunghoon whipped his head back towards the male, โWhy the fuck are you in this cell?โย
The male tilted his head again, โYou donโt remember?โ he chuckled again at Sunghoonโs silence, โFuck, they wiped your memory?โย
You sigh, โThis is Jay Park, trialed for several third-degree murders on and off Astra 1.โ
The blonde smirked, stretching his arms at his sides and taking a bow, โAt your service.โย
You continued, โHe killed multiple doctors, nurses, scientists, and other normal everyday workers here just for sport.โย
Jay looked back at Sunghoon, โAnd why on Earth would I just hand over that keycard?โ he reached into his back pocket and pulled the card out, your name and face printed over the front of it, โAnd what would I gain giving it back to you anyway?โย
You didnโt understand how Jay knew you wanted the card, but before you could answer, Sunghoon did it for you.ย
โI am going to blow this motherfucking station to kingdom come,โ he said without missing a beat, โSo if you want to survive,โ he tilted his head down, staring up directly at Jay, โI suggest you give us the keycard and weโll give you your freedom and escape back to Earth.โย
Jay tucked his tongue into the side of his cheek, glancing back and forth between you and Sunghoon, clearly weighing out his options, โIs that all youโd need from me?โ Jay questioned, โI have a baby sister back home, I canโt risk some bullshit thatโll end with my death. That stinkhead needs me.โย
โFucking watch it!โ Jay snapped, snarling his teeth at Sunghoon and gripping his hands to the cool bars in front of him, โGuarantee my safety and Iโll help out in whatever you need.โ
It was your turn to look at Sunghoon, trying to read whatever it was he could be possibly thinking.ย
โI promise youโll return back safely to your little sister,โ Sunghoon stood up a bit straighter, โYou will also release the rest of these people and lead them to the escape pods, but you wonโt be allowed to leave until I say so,โ Sunghoon made quick work to glance at Jayโs wrists, seeing a tracking bracket attached and snapping his eyes back to his face, โWe can track your location, so the minute you step foot off this station,โ Sunghoon walked up to the bars, grasping the wrench at his belt and releasing it, swinging with all his might and hitting the two metals together, the ringing of them echoing throughout the lab.ย
The Typhonโs cries were so loud it not only affected Sunghoon, but also Jay. Both males wincing at their screams against their minds.ย ย
Once the cries settled after the ringing stopped, with a few pants, Jay nodded, โFine. Iโll help,โ Jay tossed the keycard between the bars and on the floor, you rushed to pick it up, โNow let me out.โ
Sunghoon had a bad feeling about letting Jay take control of the other prisoners and lead them to the escape pods, but he didnโt have any other option. Sunghoon also couldnโt shake away the fact Jay seemed to also be able to hear and communicate via the mind. Did they both go through similar tests? Had to have.ย
All Sunghoon could currently hope for was for Jay to lead the others to the pods safely.ย
The crew quarters were smooth sailing, or so you hoped. It was quiet and not a soul in sight. All the lights were still on and not a sigh of them even being tampered with. It definitely felt off, but you also werenโt going to complain. That still didnโt stop you and Sunghoon from treading lightly and not speaking a word with both shotguns locked and ready for use just in case.ย
Yeah, the whole station gave Sunghoon an eerie feeling, but specifically the crew quarters did. Something was strange about this place. Something so unsettling. He wanted to get to your room, get whatever shit it was you needed to track down Heeseungโs bracelet, and get the fuck out.ย
What made Sunghoon feel so unsettled was probably the lack of bodies, which you would think would be a good thing. But with the Typhon on the station and their abilitiesโฆ
The entire area was filled with gold columns, silvery wallpaper for the walls, and a crimson carpet for the flooring. Each step was muffled by the carpet, which made the trek to your room easier. Sunghoon didnโt even realize he was holding his breath until the two of you stepped foot into your room and the door was closed and locked.ย
Sunghoon let out a breath and steadied himself against the wall, watching you kneel down to the floor by your bed and pull out a laptop. Sunghoon raised his brow, โYou hid everything in a laptop?โย
You rolled your eyes, typical of Sunghoon to judge something like this, โWould you rather I have just laid all the software and drivers in the open for everyone to see?โ You quickly stood from the floor and tossed the laptop onto your desk and walked to the other side of the small room and to a picture frame you had on the wall, โI put everything onto this laptop, copied it into a neuromod and destroyed the rest.โ You twisted the picture frame up, revealing a panel. You pressed in the code and the small door swung open, revealing the neuromod.ย
Now Sunghoon was even more confused, โWhy did you transfer the data into a fucking neuromod?โ You glared at him as you took the neuromod and closed the safe, letting the picture frame swing back over and covering it. Sunghoonโs curiosity got the best of him, eyes scanning every inch of the photo: it was you with another male, another neurologist, he assumed. You and the male were in lab coats, holding up two of the neuromod guns with massive smiles on your faces. You noticed his eyes were on the photo and followed his gaze to it, thinning your lips to a line and softening your eyes, โHe looks like a puppy.โย
You let out a breathy laugh and forced yourself to look away from it and take a seat at your desk, โHe was known for being Astra 1โs puppy for a reason.โย
No matter how hard Sunghoon tried to put the male's face through his memory, nothing came up. He silently cursed to himself and decided he wasnโt going to rack his brain trying to remember. It only made him feel more like shit anyway.ย
So he stood behind you at your desk, placing his hands onto the back of your chair and leaning forward, being nearly inches away from his chest touching your back, โYou going to tell me why youโre using a neuromod to store data that isnโt a living things psyche?โ
You held up the neurogun, pressing the trigger and watching the three prongs shoot from the barrel and loving the way Sunghoon flinched from the corner of your eye. He may not remember how painful those things had to have felt being injected into his body and he sure as hell doesnโt want to remember it.ย
โIt was the closest thing to a hard drive to put the data on that wouldnโt draw suspicions, obviously.โย
The fuck did this woman get her attitude from?
Sunghoon sighed, โYou do remember Iโve had my memory wiped over and over again, right? I donโt know what it is Iโve done to piss you off, but I apologize, okay?โย
You swallowed and kept your eyes locked onto the laptop as it booted up, โEveryone thought you were dead.โย
Especially me.ย
And thatโs all you left it at and Sunghoon didnโt press it further, digging his nails into the cushion of your chair, โIt was a smart idea, transferring the data into a mod.โย
You formed a small smile, โI know. I created the mods, to begin with, I know what they can do.โย
Sunghoon chuckled and rolled his eyes, his heart once again pulling to you and he unknowingly shifted forward, his chest barely grazing your back. You pulled up the bracelet tracking software and then inserted the prongs into the side of the laptop where the custom holes you created for it. It took a few seconds for it to process open and once it did, the entire list of staff and prisoners rolled up.ย
His heart nearly stopped and his lips parted at the first two names on the list.ย
Sunghoonโs mouth went dry as he stared at Heeseungโs unknown location, hands trembling against your chair, โYou can turn his bracelet on, right?โย
You slowly nodded, โYes,โ you turned your face to look at him, seeing how he bit down on his lower lip with a look of desperation on his face. That lookโฆthat scared and worried and frustrated look was the same one you had when Sunghoon went missing. To this day you never figured out what happened to his bracelet or where the location of it even is. Nothing worked to turn it back on, meaning it was completely destroyed. It was the whole reason you thought he was dead to begin with, โBut I need you to prepare yourself just in case it doesnโt turn on.โย
Sunghoon didnโt want to have to prepare himself, didnโt want to even put the thought in his head that his best friend could be long gone, โPlease, YN, justโฆjust check.โย
You faced back to the laptop and moved the cursor to hover over Heeseungโs tracking number then worked your magic into hacking the software on his bracelet and bypassing the mainframes. You bite down on your tongue, praying once you access the inner parts of itโฆthenโฆ
The gasp of relief escaped his mouth as he flung his head down and to the side, resting his forehead against your temple, โYou found him.โย
You stiffened, opening your mouth to speak but shutting it closed. You couldnโt bring yourself to bring his hopes down that there was still a possibility thatโฆ
So you gently shoved him away and stood up, โLetโs go check out the locker room and see what we find.โโ
Sunghoon could see it written on your face on what youโre thinking, but he still had that hope regardless. His best friend could be alive. So he hoisted his shotgun up and followed you out of the room.ย
Leading the way to the locker room was a short trip across the crew quarters, passing a set of stairs off to your left. Sunghoonโs footsteps fell quietly behind you, turning around to see him staring up at the stairs and to the doors.ย
โSunghoon?โ you whispered to him. He slowly just looks back at you. How can he tell you something is drawing him up those stairs? Beckoning him? He chose to fall right back into step behind you. He needs to find Heeseung first.ย
The main door to the locker rooms split off into the womenโs going to the right, and menโs towards the left. You point your finger to the left, telling him that is the direction of Heeseungโs bracelet. With a deep breath, Sunghoon stepped through the door frame, shotgun pointing forward as he carefully walked in.ย
The locker room was dark with one singular light flickering in the middle. A small droplet of water dripped down from a broken sink, echoing the room along with a sound ofโฆheavy breathing?
Sunghoonโs heart pounded, walking faster past each row of lockers until reaching the end, seeing another person hunched over on the floor, their hands tangled into their hair on the back of the head. Mumbles escaped their lips as their entire body shuddered.ย
โHeeseung?โ Sunghoon whispered, lowering his weapon and reaching a hand out toward the male, โHee?โย
Before Sunghoon could even touch the man, he quickly whipped around eyes wide and tears streaming down his face, โH-help me,โ he mumbled. Sunghoon immediately recognized the male. Astra 1โs puppy.ย
โJake!โ you whispered, trying to rush to your best friend but Sunghoon stopped you. His arm wrapped around your waist and yanked you back, โLet go!โ you quickly snapped.ย
โSomething ainโt right!โ he snapped back, lifting the shotgun and keeping it pointed at Jake, โLook at him!โโ
So you did, seeing the way Jakeโs body twisted and twitched. How his eyes were red and pupils were blown.ย
โYN,โ Jake cried, his aura changing as he stood up, his fingers gripping to the bench in front of him as if to stop him from fully standing, โGet out of here,โ he begged, pleading with you both with his eyes, โNow.โโ
Your fingers gripped into Sunghoonโs suit, โJakeโฆโโ
โHeโs under mind control,โ Sunghoon glanced away from Jake and to the floor, โA telepath is around here.โย
As if it was beckoning him, Sunghoon glanced back up at Jake and to his wrists, seeing two tracking brackets. One look was all it took for Sunghoon to realize one of them belonged to his best friend.ย
โWhy do you have Heeseungโs bracelet?!โ Sunghoon snapped and all Jake replied with was a hushed breath, begging once again for them to leave.ย
โIt knows youโre here,โ Jake cried, still trying to fight the mind control, โYou need toโโ and then his body stopped twitching, arms falling to his sides and head falling forward just to slowly lift a bit, eyes beating up at the two of you, the corner of his lip twitched and one more tear fell down his face, โKill me. Please.โโ
Not a second passed after those words and Jake was rushing forward. Sunghoon quickly flung you behind him, both hands gripping the shotgun, โJake!!โ he shouted, rushing backward as quickly as he could to stay out of the male's grasp. Who knew what would happen if he got ahold of either of you, mostly with a telepath somewhere in hiding.ย
โKILL ME!โ Jake was screaming now, his movements getting faster but his eyes stayed begging. Sunghoon couldnโt do it. How could he end another human's life? He clearly worked alongside this man before his memory was wiped. He couldnโt do it, โDr. Park! Please!โย
I canโt do this. I canโt do it. I canโt do it.ย
But you could.ย
The realization hit you all too late that:ย
You left your shotgun back in your room.ย
Jake was going to die anyway.ย
The Telepath wasnโt going to allow Jake to live much longer, and by how red his eyes wereโฆJake was already crossing that thin line between life and death.ย
So with tears in your eyes, you snatched Sunghoonโs weapon, pointed it directly at your best friend, and whispered, โIโm so sorry, Jakey,โ and you pulled the trigger. You could have sworn you saw a glint sparkling in those red eyes as his body went limp and fell to the floor, his blood pooling around him.ย
Sunghoon immediately twisted you around and pressed your body against his, shielding you away from what you just had done, wrapping his arms so tightly against your frame. But it was too late. The image of the hole you just put between the eyes of your best friendโs head was stapled to your brain.ย
Jake was dead. You murdered him.ย
Your body shook as the tears kept flooding out. Sunghoonโs grip on you becomes tighter and one hand connects to the back of your head, โYNโฆโ It was all he could say. Nothing but your name leaving his lips. No words would make this right or what you did to fade off into existence.ย
You pulled yourself away from Sunghoon, staring deeply into his eyes, seeing the same hurt staring back at you. Seeing how he also was accepting the painful truth: His best friend more than likely is also dead.ย
A scream then erupted deep within the locker room. Multiple sounds of footsteps echoing and rushing.ย
Your eyes widened, โThe telepath is sending everyone it has control over to us!โย
You needed to get out of here and fast. Without so much as another thought, Sunghoonโs hand was wrapped in yours and leading you out of the locker room. You both were barely out and back into the brightness of the crew quarters just to be met with multiple humans under the control rushing towards you from almost every direction.ย
Those stairs.ย
Sunghoon kept his grip on your hand tight and ran, โWe need to get to those stairs!โ You knew where those stairs led and knew the safety they held. Rushing Sunghoon to run faster.ย
He took two steps at a time, eyes locking onto the first door he saw, barely catching the nameplate.ย
DR. LEE HEESEUNG.ย
The screams and shouts from the mind control humans were gaining on them, Sunghoon fumbling with the door and noticingโฆโITโS FUCKING LOCKED!!โย
You quickly reached around him, typed the code in, and shoved the door open, โFUCKING MOVE!!โ you yelled, shoving him inside and relocking the door behind you.
You both sat on opposite walls of each other, heads resting on the wall and lips between your teeth to keep any sound from escaping. The sounds of the mind-controlled more than likely drew in every type of Typhon in the area or nearby in this direction. And now it was a waiting game.ย
How much time has passed? Thirty minutes? An hour? Sunghoon couldnโt be so sure. And it wasnโt until the echoing of the mind-controlled started to fade that either of you felt brave enough to move. You unlocked the door and barely slid it open, peeking your head out just enough to see not a soul walking the area. Nor human or Typhon. You quickly closed the door and relocked it, slowly turning to Sunghoon.ย
He stood by the nightstand table, a photo frame of himself and Heeseung as children sat atop it. You wanted to speak but didnโt have a clue what to say. He just found out his best friend is more than likely dead. What words could be said at this moment?ย
โDo you have any idea as to why Jake had Heeseungโs bracelet?โย
His words cut like ice and you had to remind yourself he was hurting, โNo, I didnโt,โ you swallowed and stood a few steps towards him, โI didnโt even know Jake was still alive.โย
Which was true. After the second outbreak, every employee and crew mate kind of justโฆwent where they could. Youโve tried tracking down Jakeโs bracelet too, it showed movement for a couple of days until it eventually stopped. You assumed he was dead, and left the safety of your room knowing damn well the moment you left the crew quarters youโd not be able to return without your lost key.ย
Sunghoon slowly set the photo frame face down and let out a painful exhale. It broke you seeing him like this, โSunghoonโฆโ You walked behind him and wrapped your arms around his waist, and rested your head against his back, โI am so sorry.โย
He tilted his head up and quickly blinked away the tears that were forming. Heeseung was gone. He lost his best friend. Your sniffles brought Sunghoon back to reality and quickly twisted himself around to hold you to him, โHey,โ he whispered, pressing your face to his shoulder, โItโs okay,โ he knew it wasnโt okay, that it wouldnโt ever be. Not after what you had to do.ย
You pushed yourself from him and rubbed your eyes with the back of your gloved hands, โLetโs just search this room while we are here. Maybe you can find clues or something.โ You werenโt sure what exactly youโd find here, but all you could hope for was Sunghoon finding some sort of peace.ย
So you both got to looking, finding pretty much nothing outside the ordinary. A bunch of neurology books and records of patients are on the bookshelves. Any photo on the wall didnโt have any hidden compartment like yours did. Nothing under the bed or table. The last place to look was his desk.ย
Sunghoon sat down at the desk, staring at the login screen on the monitor. His fingers hovered over the keyboard and his lips trembled. It angered him how he couldnโt for the life of him remember what Heeseung could possibly use as his password.ย
You noticed this, reaching over his shoulders and typing in the password, and hitting enter. Sunghoon quickly wiped his head to you, โHow do you know Heeseungโs password? You knew the one for the door too.โโ
You didnโt know how to answer this but went with, โItโs kind of important to know all the passkeys around here,โ you looked away from him and towards the monitor, โMostly after the outbreak and over half the crew is either dead or missing.โย
โHow, YN.โย
How could you tell him?ย
Sunghoon shook his head and turned back to the monitor, deciding to dismiss the conversation and search through Heeseungโs computer. He was thankful for you and for you knowing every password. He might finally get more answers about Heeseung.ย
And thank whatever god was listening that Sunghoon seemed to know how to navigate this computer, being itโs the same exact software back at the company building on Earth.ย
There too, was nothing out of the ordinary on the computer so far. Just records of patients and some notes on neuromods and the prisoners and Typhon. Nothing that stood out. Until Sunghoon came across a folder that was clearly out of place, โWhat the fuckโฆโ he mumbles, clicking the folder and a bunch of videos popping up.ย
โHe made video vlogs?โ you question, leaning further over Sunghoonโs shoulder, โWas he the type to make vlogs?โย
Sunghoon shook his head, โIโve never seen him make one.โย
You looked at the dates on the videos, seeing they started back on the opening day of the station, โScroll to the bottom,โ Sunghoon listened and stopped at the bottom. Your lips parted at the dates of the last three videos, โThose are the dates of before you went missing and a month after.โย
Thatโs all it took for Sunghoon to click the first video.ย
The video started with Heeseung adjusting the camera with a goofy look of concentration on his face, Sunghoon couldnโt help but chuckle. โSo,โ he started, sitting back in his chair, โSunghoon had another outburst today,โ Heeseung rubbed his hands against his eyes, Sunghoon took notice of the bracelet on his wrist, his tracking bracelet, โI tried to convince them to shut the trials down. That we needed more time to research this. But those damn scientists act like they know MORE than me as if I didnโt slave my life away to get my degree,โ he sighed and dropped his hands into his lap, eyes wandering to the door, โThey wonโt let me see Sunghoon. Completely closed off the area to the labs and denied my key access to getting in.โ Heeseung locked his jaw and looked back into the camera, โAs if Iโm not their BOSS and sign their fucking paychecks every two weeks. Fuckโem!โ There was a knock at his door and he stood from the chair, the sounds of a door opening and closing echoed, and then Heeseung dropped himself back into the chair with Jake appearing behind him.ย
Your heart nearly stopped, what was Jake doing there?
Jake raised his brows at the camera, โBro, you vlog?โ Heeseung slapped Jakeโs chest, both of them smiling wide, โFuck off! Itโs just a way to keep records and to talk.โ Jake chuckled, โYou know we have a therapist on the station right?โ The two males ruffled around, โAnyway!โ Heeseung said with one last shove of Jake, โDid you bring what I asked?โ Jake frowned, โYes, but I donโt think this is a good idea.โ Heeseung stared at the camera, โLemme see it.โ Jake sighed and moved off to the side of the desk and then came back into the frame. Both your and Sunghoonโs hearts dropped. A neuromod was in Jakeโs hand.ย
Sunghoon quickly looked at you, seeing the same shock he had written all over your face, โJakey,โ you whispered, โWhat did you do.โย
Heeseung took the neuromod from Jake and examined it in his hands, โThank you. And it has exactly what I asked for?โ Jake nodded, biting at the skin on his lips, โHee, maybe we need to rethink this. Youโve seen what these things have done to Sunghoon.โ Heeseung didnโt take his eyes off the mod, clicking the trigger and watching the pongs push out, โWe wonโt get the results we want if Sunghoon is the only one sacrificing himself every single day!โ he looked up at Jake, โI have a theory, and if this works we can recover the memories those asshats keep stripping from Sunghoon. Itโs probably why he keeps having outbursts.โ Jakeโs eyes glanced at the camera, โAnd what does YN think about this?โย
Your body went cold at your name being mentioned and you didnโt miss how Sunghoonโs hand on the mouse twitched at your name being said too.ย
Heeseung swallowed and looked down at his lap, โShe doesnโt know. And we wonโt tell her.โ Jake shook his head, โYou canโt keep this from her!โ Jake slapped his fist into the desk, the aggression not affecting Heeseung one bit, โShe has a right! Mostly if it affects Sunghoon!โ Heeseung lifted his eyes up to the camera, โWe arenโt telling her, and thatโs final.โ Jake looked to the other side of the room, โFine. But if shit goes south I WILL tell her.โ Heeseung nodded, โI have another request of you before you leave,โ Jake tilted his head, clearly waiting for his instructions, โIโm going to disable my bracelet. I need you to dispose of it.โ By the look on Jakeโs face, he disagreed, โHeeseungโโ Heeseung didnโt wait for Jake to finish, โI need to be able to walk freely without them on my fucking ass. Please.โ Jake nodded but clearly didnโt like it. The males worked together to get the bracelet off and disable it from the other side. Once it was finished, Jake shoved the bracelet into his pocket, โI need to go, they are fixing to prepare a phantom for a trial, I need to be there.โ Heeseung nodded, and without another word, Jake left. Heeseung pulled himself closer to the desk, โIโm praying this works, and if it doesโฆโ He swallowed, โI can save my best friend and shut this shit down.โ Heeseung lifted the neuromod up, facing the pongs towards his right eye, โHere goes nothing.โย
You barely were able to look away in time of Heeseung shoving the pongs into his eye socket. But Sunghoon kept his eyes glued to the screen, watching his friend torture himself and letting out screams of pain as a small stream of blood ran from the socket. Listening to the video was bad enough, you could only imagine what Sunghoon was currently thinking.ย
Heeseung yanked the pongs from his eye and closed it tightly and reaching for a towel that sat at the corner of his bed and pressed it to his eye, โFuck that hurts!โ he said through gritted teeth, โHow the fuck does Sunghoon do this?โ Heeseung then opened his drawer to the desk and tossed the neuromod inside, slamming it shut.ย
Sunghoon was quick to reach his hand over to the handle of the drawer and fling it open. His heart dropped at what he found: multiple neuromods with their pongs out sitting in the drawer. Sunghoon counted over twelve.ย
Heeseungโฆwhat the fuck did you do?!
Heeseung stared into the camera, reaching his free hand up and grasping it, โGodspeed.โ Then the screen went black.ย
Sunghoon quickly exited out of the video and clicked the second one.ย
Heeseung once again was sitting at the desk, his favorite black Prada tee shirt was stained, and Sunghoon assumed it was stained with blood. Heeseung lifted his eyes up to the camera, his right eye slightly red, โIโve used aboutโฆsix? Yeah six neuromods so far,โ he leaned forward, resting his arms on the desk, โThis phantom's psyche that I have consistently shoved into my eye socketโฆitโs a smart one. I can hear its voice. It showed me its past memories,โ Heeseung leaned back into the chair and lifted up his right arm, โIt has even granted me its gifts,โ Then his arm shifted, turning from a normal human arm into one of a phantomโs, turning the color of the shiny black and twisting and pulsating. Heeseung was unfazed as he looked down at his arm and then returned it back to normal. โThe phantom has even accessed parts of my memory that I have forgotten. This will work, or would have worked,โ He dropped his arm into his lap, โThereโs been an outbreak, two actually. The first was contained, the secondโฆโ He swallowed, โI need to get to Sunghoon. Fast. The scientists abandoned him down in the labs but the Typhon got to them before they could escape, trapping them inside.โ Heeseung licked at the side of his lips, โBefore the first outbreak, Sunghoon left a video message for himself and I helped him set everything upโฆitโฆit was the last time I was allowed to see him before the final trial they put him through. I need to get to Nov and see if we canโt hack into the doors and get them open so I can get Hoon out. The only problem is the Typhon running around. Iโll have to sneak around.โ Heeseung pushed himself away from the desk and grabbed a briefcase, โJake, if you see this video at any point, I am sorry. I stole more neuromods without you knowing,โ he set down the briefcase, โYN, if you see this, I apologize for failing and breaking our promise of keeping Sunghoon safe. I don't know where you are on this station, but I pray to whatever god is listening that you use all the passkeys Iโve given you to get off this damned ship and take Jake with you.โย
You clenched your gloved hands onto the part of your suit at your pant leg, eyes glancing down at Sunghoon, โHe gave you all the passwords?โ Sunghoon felt more confused than he did before.ย
โAlso, YN, Iโm the one who stole your keycard, they disabled mine again after you helped me re-enable it. So I took it to use and blamed Jay for it, it just happened to be a silly act of fate that he ended up taking it from me before being put back behind bars.โ You bit at your lip and looked away from the screen, โLastly Sunghoon, I am so sorry man, for letting you go through these trials. For not trying hard enough to stop them. I know I said all this when I saw you last, but I am truly so fucking sorry.โ Tears fell down his best friend's face but quickly brushed them off, โI will get you out of that lab. I need to get to your office and reboot Nov.โ The video ended there.ย
Sunghoon didnโt miss a beat when clicking the last video. Heeseung was now in the trauma center, his right eye bloodshot red and his dark hair dripping with sweat, โI failed,โ were the first words he said, his red space suit he was now wearing was torn, his nametag barely legible, โThe Typhonโฆthe phantomโฆin my brainโฆitโs taking control.โ Heeseung dropped his head into his palms, โI tried to control it, thinking if I stayed in control and reminded it whose body itโs in that it would listen butโฆโ Heeseung dropped his hands, parts of his face spotting the Typhonโs skin, his left eye completely turning from its brown to dark purple, โI canโt control it. We made a mistake using these creatures.โ Heeseung glances at the door, โI hacked into a turret and used the last neuromod I had to give it the phantomโs DNAโฆMY DNAโฆโ He swallows, โThe phantom will take over my mind and body. I canโt take any chances.โ Tears fell down Heeseungโs face and this time he didnโt stop them, โSunghoonโฆIโm sorry. If you wake upโฆI sent Nov to leave notes that you wrote for yourself and had him drop them off around the station. I reprogrammed his system to only tell you the important details then erased his memory of seeing me. Itโs what is for the bestโฆmostly sinceโฆI wonโt exist much longer.โย
Sunghoonโs hands were tremblingโฆthe phantom in the trauma centerโฆ it was Heeseung. Thatโs why Sunghoon felt so compelled to go there. The trials Sunghoon underwent were the Typhonโs psyche being placed and removed over and over again, it all made sense why he was able to hear the Typhon speak to him. Why he could hear Jay. Sunghoon still had a bit of their psyche left in his brain.ย
โI will send this vlog to my computer and pray you find it, Sunghoon. I love you manโฆso much, thank you for growing up with me. For being my best friend and brother. See you on the other side.โย
Sunghoon shook his head, โNoโฆโ Heeseungโs features slowly started to shift and then the video ended. His best friend was gone. Forever.ย
Sunghoon slowly stood from the chair and pulled you into his arms. His whole body was shaking, โWe need to get off this station.โย
You nodded into his shoulder, โWe need to survive, for Jake and Heeseung.โย
Once Sunghoon stopped shaking, you convinced him to go to the escape pods and make sure the other survivors got on and left so you both could go to the power plant and shut this station once and for all. For Jake. For Heeseung. And for all the innocent people who lost their lives working on this damned station.ย
He followed you out of Heeseungโs room, watching carefully as you started to walk away, but stopped and turned to him, โWhatโs wrong?โย
Sunghoon turned and looked at the door beside Heeseungโs, DR. PARK SUNGHOON was written on the door plate, โI want to see whatโs in my room.โ Sunghoon obviously had more questions and more curiosity about the memories that were taken from him. Maybe he left vlogs like Heeseung did. Maybe there are records of all that happened to him. Literally anything.ย
โSunghoonโโ
โYN, please.โย
You slowly walked past him and stopped in front of the door, fingers trembling as you typed his passcode into the panel, the click of the door stopping your heart. You stepped to the side, letting Sunghoon be the one to walk inside first.ย
With a deep breath, Sunghoon pushed the door open and walked in, you following behind and closing the door behind you, resting your body against the door. The first thing he noticed was the workbench in the corner, pieces of what seemed to be the same material that Nov was made out of, along with a broken neuromod. This is where he created Nov. He walked to the middle of the room and looked at his bed and then the nightstand, seeing a photo frame sitting there. He furrowed his brows as he picked it up. Sunghoon stood in the middle of the photo, Heeseung was to his right, you to his left along with Jake at your left. Each of you was holding up a red solo cup and the background looked like what seemed to be a bar area on the station, โWe were all friends, werenโt we?โ You stayed silent, watching him with saddened eyes. Sunghoon noticed how close you were standing next to him, how his arm was wrapped around you, and the way you leaned into him.ย
He set the photo down and looked at his computer desk, more photos sat by the monitors and even hung on the walls above them. Sunghoon slowly walked over, his heart pounding at the images. There were some of him and Heeseung. A few of him and Jake. But most of them consisted of you. You and him. Sunghoon traced his eyes over each photo, seeing all the memories he lost. Each photo of you and him held so muchโฆlove. The way he kissed your cheek in one photo. The way he held you to his chest in his bed in the other. The way you held your hands in his. One of the two of you in your lab coats and doing a silly pose. And then the last oneโฆwas just of your handsโฆmatching rings placed on both your middle fingers.ย
Sunghoon placed his fingers over his gloved hand, feeling the metal still there. He looked over to you, โWe were together, werenโt we?โย
You mimicked his motion, and felt for the matching ring that sat on your middle finger, โWe were, yes,โ you blinked away the tears that formed and weakly smiled, โYou told me you wanted to marry me the minute we landed back on Earth,โ you looked down at your gloved hand, โSo you made these matching rings as a promise that youโd switch it over to the right finger once our feet touched the ground.โย
โWhy didnโt you tell me?โ Sunghoon took a step towards you, afraid heโd overstep if he got too close.ย
You met his eyes, โI thought you were dead. How could I tell the person I love that we were in a relationship without confusing him further after finding out all you have in this short time?โ you broke eye contact again, looking to the floor, โIt took everything in me to not rush to you when you appeared down in the greenhouse. I had to remind myself what was done to you. I wantedโฆโย
Sunghoon rushed to you, cupping your face between his hands and forcing you to look up at him, โIโve felt this pull towards you since I laid my eyes on you,โ tears now swelled in his eyes, โAnd I fucking hate myself for forgetting someone so important to me.โย
Sunghoon couldnโt explain it, but he knew he loved you. Even with all the memories stripped from him. He could feel the love you had for him radiating and knew that same amount of love resided within him too.ย
Tears filled your eyes now too as you stared deeply into his, โShhh,โ he whispered, wiping his thumb against your eye, โI am right here, baby.โย
โI thought you were dead,โ you couldnโt stop the tears from falling now, โI thought I lost you, Iโโย
Sunghoon pressed his body against yours, โI am right here, shhh baby, donโt cry I am right here.โ Without hesitation, he crashed his lips to yours, sliding his hands down to your waist, โI am right here.โย
Three months. Three long months without him. With thinking he no longer existed in this world. Without touching him. You didnโt know what came over you, but you took advantage of this moment. Deepening the kiss and pulling him as close as possible against you. Sunghoon couldnโt get enough of you, every ounce of love poured out of him at this moment. His hands slid back up your body and gripped at the zipper of your suit at the same time as your fingers fumbled with his zipper, both of you pulling it down. You reached your hands into the suit at his shoulders and slid your hands down across his white tank top, the leather of the suit at your fingertips sending chills down his spine and oh god he couldnโt wait to actually feel your skin against his.ย
You pulled the suit down his shoulders and arms, him pulling leather off his arms and dropping it at his waist, hands flying back to your now exposed waist and sliding them up, groaning at how your skin felt against his skin. His hands kept moving up, cupping your clothed breasts before pushing them up to your shoulders and pulling your suit off to expose your blue tank top and bare arms. Once it pooled at your hips, Sunghoon pressed himself further against you, taking in the feeling of you. He wanted more. Needed more.ย
He grabbed your hands and placed them on his chest, moving them down his torso and stopping at the ends of his tank. You took care of the rest. Looping your fingers underneath the fabric and sliding your hands back up, grazing your fingers over his toned body as you dragged the tank up and over his head, disposing of it somewhere in the room.ย
Sunghoon was losing his mind at your touch. Cursing himself more and more for forgetting the taste of you. For forgetting how perfectly your body connected with his. For forgetting you.ย
You pulled the rest of his suit down, leaving him now in nothing but his boxers. You fought with the rest of your suit, Sunghoonโs hands making quick work to pull you off the wall and shoving the suit down and pressing you back against the wall, hands now removing your tank and bra then looping his fingers at your panties and removing them, leaving you completely bare to him.ย
He tucked your lip between his teeth and pulled, loving the gasp of pleasure that escaped out your mouth, rubbing his clothed cock against your folds, โLet me have you,โ he said after releasing your lip, his thumbs tucking into his boxers, โBaby, I want to feel you.โย
And oh god you needed to feel him. Your eager hands pulled down his boxers for him then placed your hands on his shoulder and lifted one leg up to his hip and did a small jump, Sunghoon catching you and wrapping your legs tightly around his waist, his tip prodding your entrance.ย
Sunghoon stared deeply into your eyes as he lowered you down, his cock stretching you perfectly. You threw your head back against the wall, relishing in the pure bliss of feeling him deep inside you again after so long. Sunghoon might not remember the first time heโs fucked you, but he wonโt forget this time. Heโs going to fuck you to the point the memory and your sounds get burned into his brain.ย
He pressed you harder against the wall, snapping his hips at a primal rate against your skin. He connected his lips back to yours, tongue licking at the inside of your mouth, not leaving a single inch of it untouched. Your hands slid from his shoulder and up to the back of his head, tangling your fingers in his hair and pulling. Sunghoon released his mouth from yours to moan at the grip you had on his hair, relishing in the sensation of each tuck you made, โFuckkkk,โ he lowered his head into your neck, โYou really know how to work my body.โ
You tilted your head at the touch of his lips to your neck and hissing as his teeth took your skin into his mouth and sucked, โAnd you havenโt forgotten how to work mine.โย
Sunghoon licked at the now purple mark on your neck, loving how good you tasted on his tongue. His breathing became uneven as he lost himself to the pleasure your cunt gave him, hips stuttering. He knew he wouldnโt last much longer, not with how tight you hugged his cock.ย
โBaby,โ he moans against your neck, โIโm not going to last much longer,โ you felt his cock twitch and his hold on you becoming loose.ย
Without another word, you went from being pressed to the wall to being pressed to his bed. Your legs are now being moved from his waist to over his shoulders, your thighs pressing against your chest.ย
โUghhh fucccckkkkk,โ he groans, flinging his head back at how much deeper he is now inside you in this new position. His cock kissed your cervix with each thrust he made. You also werenโt going to last very long, not with how he fucked into you.ย
โHoonie,โ you whine, digging your nails into his back, โIโm cumming,โ
โShit baby, me too.โย
You latched your lips onto his shoulder and bit down as your orgasm flooded out, coating his cock with your juices. He hissed at how much harder you bit down, making him see stars with the final thrust, his seed painting your gummy walls.ย
But he couldnโt stop moving, wanting to relish in the feeling of you as much as possible, even if it was overstimulating you both, โI love you,โ he whined, finally dropping his weight on top of you, lips pressing to your temple, โI love you.โย
You slid your hands down his biceps, eyes looking at the ring on your middle finger and tears swelled your eyes once more, โI love you too, please donโt ever forget that.โ
Sunghoon rested his forehead against yours, โI wonโt baby. I wonโt ever forget again.โย
You werenโt sure exactly how much time had passed, but you also didnโt seem to care. Not when there was so much lost time to make up between you and Sunghoon.ย
Mostly not caring because of the way Sunghoon had flipped you over not even twenty minutes after the first round and had your face pressed into the pillows and pounding into you from behind.ย
Sunghoon couldnโt help it. His love for you was pouring out and there was nothing he could do to stop it. The way you felt wrapped around him exceeded every ounce of pleasure he could have imagined. He just wanted to love on you in every way possible, and right now that was fucking you like tomorrow wasnโt promised.ย
Both of you were cased in sweat mixed with both your legs sticky from the number of times heโd made you cum alongside him. Even once you both finally got out of bed and into the shower to clean yourselves off, Sunghoon had your back pressed to the cool tile wall. Rocking his hips against yours slowly as his hands explored every inch of your body and his mouth brushed on yours with soft moans escaping his lips.ย
It took a lot of you convincing him after cumming once again that there was still work to be done and to finally clean up. He pouted but nevertheless listened to you.
With both your suits now zipped back and weapons in hand, it was time to move forward.ย
โNext stop is the power plant?โ Sunghoon asked, closing the door to his room behind him, taking one last long look at Heeseungโs door as you both walked past.ย
You turned and looked at him, seeing the sadness back in his eyes, โWeโll send the survivors out on the escape pods first and get them off this station. Then the next stop is the power plant.โย
Sunghoon nodded, finally drifting his eyes off his best friend's door, and placed his hand on your lower back, fingers slightly digging into the fabric of your suit, โLetโs get going then.โย
The walk to the bridge was quiet, only encountering a few mimics which was nothing either of you couldnโt handle. Sunghoon followed close behind you as you guided him back through the Arboretum and into an elevator taking you up. Sunghoon silently thanked whoever designed this station because this elevator had the perfect view of space as you ascended up. His lips slightly parted, completely blown away by how beautiful space truly was.ย
You noticed how in awe he was, โThe first time I ever saw you,โ you started, gaining Sunghoonโs attention. You smiled and looked away from him, letting your eyes trace the stars, โYou and Heeseung were looking at live photos of space back in the company building. You had that exact same look on your face.โย
You turned to face him once again, moving to stand right beside him, and as if on instinct, he reached his arm out to wrap around your waist and pull you close, his lips making purchase on the crown of your head, โWhat about when I first saw you?โย
You looked up at him, โYou were an asshole when we first met.โย
Sunghoon chuckled, looking back out into the infinite space, โSounds about right.โย
You hugged him close, โIt didnโt take me long to get you to warm up to me once we boarded Astra 1.โ You smiled at the memory, feeling like it just happened yesterday when it was a little over a year ago, โI just had to separate you from Heeseung first.โย
Another chuckle left his lips, โHe was my best friend, we were practically attached at the hip.โย
You traced your gloved finger over the line of his jaw, โTrust me, I know.โ You stood on your tippy toes and planted a kiss on his cheek, โYou both were a package deal, just like Jake and I were.โย
Sunghoon tried to act like the word were wasnโt affecting him. How could he just get used to saying it in a past-tense way? He was pulled from his thoughts as the elevator windows finally got covered by parts of the station and came to a stop, the doors slowly opening.ย
The hallway was dark, immediately forcing Sunghoon to quip both hands onto the shotgun, eyes double-checking that his handy wrench was still attached to his belt. Sunghoon slowly stepped off the elevator, eyes darting straight ahead, โStay close to me, YN.โ You stayed on his heels as you both trekked down the hall, a set of stairs going up, which he assumed was the bridge, and another going down, which he also assumed was the escape pods. And sure enough, he was right as a sign came into view pointing him in the direction he needed, heading directly down the stairs.ย
As you both gained closer to the door, the voices of the survivors echoed into the hall softly. Once Sunghoon pushed the door open, all eyes were locked on him and you, especially Jayโs.ย
Sunghoon lifted the shotgun, parting the sea of people between him and Jay, โI will blow your brains out along with this goddamn station! Shut your fucking mouth!โย
You rushed to him, gripping the barrel of the gun and pushing it down, โSunghoon, thatโs enough. Same to you Jay!โย
Both men scoffed but backed down.ย
โGet in the pods,โ Sunghoon finally spoke back up after a few minutes of silence, โNow.โ Sunghoon instructed to keep the first pod free, wanting to have it as easy access once the station was set to explode and make it an easier escape for you and him.ย
One by one, each survivor piled into the pods, and one by one, Sunghoon closed the hatch and sent the pods out. The final pod to prepare was Jayโs along with the remaining survivors. Sunghoon set the pod to be launched, taking one final look inside at Jay.ย
โTell your sister hi for me, ya?โย
Jay stood to his feet, โYou son of a bโโ he was cut off by the pod's door closing and the hatch covering the pod before sending it out.ย
You rolled your eyes, โDid you have to piss him off?โย
Sunghoon shrugged, placing his hand at your hip and moving you back towards the entrance, โHe just irritates me.โย
You sigh, โYeah, he irritated you even before your memory was wiped.โย
Which didn't surprise him at all.ย
He shrugged again, โLetโs just go blow this motherfucker up, ya?โย
The descent to the bottom of the station was short but nerve-racking. Sunghoon couldnโt shake off the feeling that something very bad was lurking around. He couldnโt describe it, the eerie feeling he got once the elevator arrived at the power plant. It shook him to the core.ย
โWeโd have to override the system,โ you said stepping out of the elevator, โIt wonโt be hard, but once itโs activated weโll need to runโโย
โShh!โ he quickly hushed, pointing his index finger to his lips, โSomething doesnโt feel right.โย
You wanted to question him but stopped yourself after seeing the terrified look on his face. Youโve never seen him so scared, or ever scared at all. Something has to be wrong.ย
You looked around the power plant, trying to find what Sunghoon was so desperately trying to find. The air grew thick as you too, couldnโt shake off the feeling that something bad was lurking down here. And unfortunately, there were only two ways to go: either back up the elevator, or pass all this machinery and into the next room where youโd need to be heading anyway.ย
Reaching out for his arm, you pulled him towards the office room to overrate the system, trying to be as quiet as possible.ย
A loud screech filled the room, forcing you and Sunghoon down to your knees and cupping your ears. Sunghoon being more affected than you as his voice almost matches the same pitch of the screech with his own screams. His throat went dry and his voice hoarse as his screams no longer erupted from his mouth.ย
The screech stopped and something compelled Sunghoon to slowly turn his head, eyes widening.ย
โWhat the fuck is that?!โ He yelled, his whole body shaking and not being able to move.ย
You crawled over to him and got to your feet, shoving your hands under his arms and forcing his trembling body up anyway, โA fucking nightmare! RUN!โย
The nightmare was the same height as the ceiling, his head barely scraping its surface. The thing had to be pushing eighteenโtwenty feet. It looked exactly like a normal phantom, but huge.ย
Sunghoon tried to reach for his shotgun, but you pulled him away all too quickly, โLeave it!โ you screamed over the nightmare echoing out its screech but on a lower pitch, โThat gun wonโt do nothing for you!โย
So you both ran. The nightmare taking one step compared to your multiple, its arms reaching down, ready to grab you both.ย
Almost there. Almost there. Just a few more steps. ALMOST THERE!!
And bless whatever idiot that was down here last and left the door unlocked, making the escape into the room easier. Once you both were in, you locked the door and hurried to the computer monitors, pressing your fingers away at the keys.ย
Sunghoon dropped to the floor and hung his head low. He felt like he was going to be sick. This was it. Itโs all over.ย
The nightmare clawed at the wall and door, its screeches barely being muffled.ย
โWhatโฆโ Sunghoon swallowed, โWhat is that monster?โย
You kept your eyes locked into the monitor, โA nightmare, its sole purpose is to hunt its prey. Itโs unknown how it was created or what even created it,โ You looked back at him, then faced the monitor again, โGet up! I need your help!โย
Sunghoon couldnโt move no matter how badly he wanted to.ย
He cupped his hands over his ears, โIt knows my name.โย
You whip back around to him, โSunghoon!โ You snapped at him, his eyes locking with yours, โPlease help me!โย
It took every ounce of strength for him to move, โWhat do you need me to do?โย
You pointed over to the panel, โOnce I finish overriding the system, youโll need to flip those three switches back to back. An alarm will sound off and itโll push the nightmare away and off to somewhere else on the station or hopefully off it. Itโll also start the countdown until this place goes up in flames.โย
Sunghoon nodded, shaking his head and focusing on the switches in front of him.ย
โSHUT UP!โ He screamed, clenching his fists against the counter, โGET OUT OF MY HEAD!โย
Those words alone were enough to prove your suspicions true: Sunghoon still had a neuromod attached to his brain. It made so much more sense on his reactions each time youโve encountered a Typhon and even Jay. This was a matter to take care of once back on Earth.ย
You kept your fingers moving until finally the override was completed, โSunghoon! Now!โย
He flipped the switches and the alarm sounded not a second afterward. The nightmare let out a pained screech then everything went silent besides the alarm.ย
โCome on,โ you pulled on his arm, โWe have fifteen minutes to get back to the escape pods.โย
But Sunghoon wouldnโt budge, โHow does it know my name?โย
You swallowed, gripping your fingers tighter around his arm, โThis isnโt the first time youโve met it.โย
Thatโs all he wanted to know. All he needed to know. You could see it was all the information he wanted, so you pulled at him once again, his hand now reaching for yours and leading you to the door, โLet's get the fuck off this station.โ
Fifteen minutes. Thatโs all the time you both were given to make it from the bottom of the station to the top. It took five minutes for the elevator to reach the bridge. Three minutes to rush out of the elevator and to the escape pods.ย
Seven minutes remain.ย
The minute Sunghoon whipped around the corner to the pods, his hands got to work on the panel. Trying to work as quickly as possible to start up the pod.ย
But something wasnโt right.ย
Error code. After error code. After error code.ย
Your eyes widened at the realization: this escape pod has been tampered with.ย
Six minutes remain.ย
โFUCK!โ Sunghoon slammed his fist against the wall and then rushed his hands through his hair, stepping back from the panel and squeezing his eyes. After ruffling his hair, he rushed back to the panel, once again trying to set up the pod.ย
โSunghoon,โ you touched his shoulder, โIf we run fast enough we can make it to the shuttle bay and escape on one of the ships.โย
Five minutes remain.ย
โWe donโt have time!โ he snapped, continuing to try and bypass the error codes, only for one last message to pop up on the screen before shit hit the fan:ย
๊ฐแดแดแด สแดแด โ แด.
Sunghoon gritted his teeth. He knew he couldnโt trust Jay. Knew nothing good came from that man. Sunghoon should have held him as a hostage until this point. You looked down to the metal floor.ย
โWe need toโโย
Just then the escape pod launched. Both your helmets automatically clipped over your heads to protect you from the infinite space. The panel door not closing after the pod launch.ย
Time seemed to have slowed for Sunghoon, seeing you get pulled outside of the station along with him. He managed to grip a hold of a safety bar with one hand, and gripping the strap of your suit's belt with the other.ย
Warning signs flashed on the hud of your helmets, warning about the lack of air and safety.ย
You tried to remain calm as you gripped your hands onto Sunghoonโs arm, trying and failing to keep your tears at bay. You were terrified. And so was Sunghoon.ย
โKeep a hold of me, YN!โ he shouted, trying to use all his strength to pull himself back into the station, โI got you baby, donโt let go!โย
Sunghoon pulled himself close enough to plant one foot back onto the station, his foot then slipping and grip tightening on the bar.ย
Donโt let go of her. Donโt let go of her.ย
You stared through watery eyes at your lover, watching as he struggled to pull the weight of both of you. You both were going to die here if he couldnโt pull you both back in. Youโd both die with this godforsaken station if something couldnโt be done right now.ย
And thatโs when you made your decision.ย
Sunghoonโs left arm gripping the bar was getting weaker and weaker, you could see it. Even after he managed to plant his foot back on the station and hook his leg around the corner for better support, heโd still need to keep his left hand on that bar.ย
โBaby, I need you to listen to me,โ he said, voice shaking, โI need you to try and reach for the station, okay? YN are you listening to me?โย
You were listening. But you already had made your mind up.ย
โYN!โย
โLet me go,โ you said calmly, eyes locking deeply with his, โI need you to let me go.โย
Sunghoon quickly shook his head, โAre you fucking crazy! Iโm not letting you go!! Pull your ass back into this station right now!!โย
You could see his grip was slipping. He was about to fall out into space with you.ย
โSunghoon,โ you said, tears streaming down your face, โI need you to let me go and get to the shuttle bay and off this station.โย
He shook his head again, gripping his hand tighter at your belt, โIโm not letting you go!โ tears swelled in his eyes, head shaking again, โI canโt lose you! I just found youโฆI canโtโฆโย
โSunghoon.โ
He ignored you, once again trying with all his strength to pull you back to the station, the air escaping the station was making it hard for him to keep his grip on not only you but the bar and leg wrapped around the corner, โBaby, please!โ He begged, โPlease, donโt leave me.โย
You slid your hands from his arm and placed them on top of his fingers, the tips of your fingers curling into his fist.ย
โAstra commands,โ you said, the menu pulling up on your hud.
Sunghoon furrows his brows, โWhat the fuck are you doing?โย
Your eyes glanced up to the number on the side of the stationโs wall to indicate which escape pod was once there, โClose escape pod door thirty, on my command.โย
Sunghoon shook his head once again, โYN, stop!โย
He tried to pull up the commands as well, voice cracking with each word as he tried to disable your commands, but unfortunately, he couldnโt.ย
โShould have never given me access to everything on the ship,โ you said trying to lighten the mood in some way possible.ย
The tears now fell down his cheeks, โThis isnโt fucking funny! Pull yourself in! Please!โ He couldnโt take his eyes off you, โI canโt lose you, too.โย
He would have lost everything if you continued down this path. He cursed Jayโs name for fucking with the last chance you and he had at survival.ย
You pulled at his fingers, โI love you.โย
He continued to shake his head, โNo, donโt say it as if itโs the last time.โย
You weakly smiled at him, โPlease get to the shuttle bay, you need to survive.โย
โYou need to survive too!!โย
One final tear jerked from your eye, โI love you, Park Sunghoon.โย
โI love you, too,โ he cried, knowing nothing was going to change your mind but still fought against your fingers, โBaby, please.โย
โClose the door.โย
You quickly pulled his fingers from your belt and shoved his arm back.ย
โNO!!!โ
Before he could watch you float into the infinite space, the door closed, locking him on the station.ย
His helmet retracted back. His heart pounded out of his chest as he balled his hands into fists and repeatedly hit them against the door. Nothing came out of his mouth besides his screams.ย
He didn't know how much time he had left nor did he even care. You were gone. The last important thing to him was gone.ย
He tired himself out from screaming, dropping himself to the floor and hunched over. He lost control of his own station and company. He lost his memories. He lost his best friend. He lost the love of his life.
Sunghoon twisted himself around, resting his back and head against the wall, staring off into the distance and slowly closing his eyes. He made his decision: he wasnโt going to live without you.ย
โDr. Park.โย
โGo away,โ Sunghoon opened his eyes to see the little white ball floating above him, โLeave me alone.โโ
Nov tilted to its side, โMy purpose is to make sure you follow throuโโย
โThis station is set to explode at any moment now, you kept your promise to the past me. Now leave me be.โย
Sunghoon knew Nov was just following directions he himself had given him, โI was created to also protect you, Dr. Park.โย
Sunghoon stared up at the ceiling, โI want to be with them again. Please give this to me.โย
Nov said nothing as it floated its small body down to his side, resting against his thigh.ย
Sunghoon took a deep breath in, picturing the photo back in his bedroom of him, you, Heeseung, and Jake. The three people that meant the most to him even if he doesnโt fully remember it all. He pictured the photos that hung on his wall, all the memories heโd made with you, and the promise of how he was going to marry you once back on Earth. A promise he wouldnโt be able to keep.ย
The only promise he could keep was never to forget you again. Heโd die knowing that.ย
The alarm of the station finally stopped as a tear ran down his face and he squeezed his eyes shut, โIโll see you again soon, YN, Heeseung, and Jake. Iโll be there soon.โย
The corners of his lips curled as the last thing he felt was heat.
preview. the ever quintessential first time dad moves in next door with his five year old and finds it impossible not to fall for you, the pretty girl who gives his daughter cookies and him; the doll eyes. obsessed with your entire being, unable to keep his hands off you, park sunghoon questions if he's just crazy or he's crazy over you.
or where, he notices the way you look at his hands a little too long for it to be innocent.
meet the cast. single dad!park sunghoon with his pretty neighbour fem!reader.
genre. DILFF AUU !!, SMUT MDNI, fluff, neighbours to lovers, sunghoon is quite literally yes insanely crazed over you and for the sake of god can't keep his dick soft, domestic a little bit i guess, i want to make her my wife trope EEEKKK, slight age gap (hoon in late twenties and reader in early twenties) more to be added.
word count. est around 20k or more
warnings. inaccuracies about parenting cause i aint a parent, i got no idea. more will be mentioned in the actual post.
releasing. very soon!! .. progress update tag
park sunghoon was hot, he was a walking greek god. was single and wore these fitted suits that had you weak in the knees. if that wasn't hot enough, park sunghoon also had the cutest baby girl you had ever come across and it just made him hotter than he could ever have been.
"hey, um .. is jiโ" sunghoon stands at the threshold of your open apartment door, one hand holding his creased blazer and the other rubbing at the back of his neck. embarrassed and shy at having to show up at yours looking like a mess after work because his daughter ran off while he was busy on a call and taking out her school bag from the backseat. and because everytime his daughter ran off, it was to the pretty girl next door who gives away sweet cookies all the time.
"is jia here? yeah she's in the kitchen," you answer, smiling soft and knowingly at the worried guy who barely looked like a dad. he worked in a corporate editorial, out before eight in the morning just as you prepared ingredients for your bakery. taking his daughter along to school, her excited voice resonating through the halls talking about how they were going to play with clay in class. around seven in the evening you'd hear her again, this time alone as she would skip over to your door because dada was too slow.
on weekends it'd be impossible to ignore the ruckus they made playing around, sometimes inviting you over for lunch because sunghoon apparently made too much and jia wanted to share her dada's delicious food. on some occasional weekends when he'd be called in to work for a few hours, jia would promise him to stay home and behave only to call you through the landline the moment he'd step out the door. and you would text sunghoon to come over to yours after work, his daughter munching on the new flavored cupcakes you made, unbothered about her dad and his scoldings.
"come on in, i made some almond lime tart, you could give me some feedbacks along with jia. you know she always says it's good and i can never know if it's actually good," sunghoon can't help but chuckle at that, slipping off his shoes by the front and walking inside. his eyes following your figure with a fond look as you tend to his daughter delicately, and might he admitโ even more so than him.
you're sweet, you know how to handle kids; cue that one time jia was crying her eyes out after school and he had no idea what to do to comfort her, knocking at your door frantically and having his mind blown at how quickly you figured things out and calmed her down.
you're sweet, you know how to handle kids, you treat them both so well, always ready to help him out with jia, giving them sweet treats every other day and most of allโ you're fucking pretty. way too pretty for him to handle.
synopsis: what happens if your friend decides to jokily post a 'husband for hire' listing without thinking that a person will take it seriously? on the other hand, yn desperately needed a date and took the listing seriously.
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a/n: hi! i decided to revamp my previous psh smau since i didn't like it but made a new one with the same genre, ne ways don't expect stable update schedule from me and love ya! ๐
GENRE: childhood friends to loves, forbidden love, fake dating
SUMMARY: In the midst of her chaotic college life, Y/N is blindsided by an invitation to her ex's wedding. With no date in sight and the event looming, her brother throws a lifeline by suggesting she bring his best friend. the mix of nostalgia and free-flowing champagne leads to an unexpected night of passion. Now, Y/N must navigate through a storm of emotions and the potential drama within her tight-knit circle, all while juggling her academic responsibilities. Will this one night stand alter their friendship forever, or could it be the beginning of something new?
a/n: AHHH iโm so excited to introduce my first full length smau!! i really hope you guys enjoy it, itโs been stuck in the back of my head for a while now. more updates to come!!
