Fuck, the house is so cavernously empty without them. They would be settled and sleeping now, and I would ghost through to get a drink, and see them, and touch them in turn, see if the sick boys were okay, pet Fancy, barely waking them, and they would stretch sometimes or yawn, or merely settle more firmly, or a paw might come out and toes might spread, and they were there and warm and breathing and even in the silence their little hearts raced on and on. We still have Sid and Fancy, but they are light and quiet, and every space in the house is empty of Smooch and Raleigh in a different and distinct way from the others. Kitchen half an eggshell, studio like a still photo of someone else's life, hall like an empty elevator closing behind you, living room a park after curfew, bedroom like the last night in an apartment, and the laundry room, the fucking laundry room, where Raleigh came to meet us coming home, empty as a closet that never held a thing.