well a doctor just totally invalidated me and refused to refer me to a psychiatrist because he thinks Iām āstressedā, not mentally ill.
fuck. that.
Iāve been in four different abusive relationships, seen three different therapists, tried to kill myself three times and a week ago I punched a wall so hard I still have bruises. on other occasions I have screamed incoherently because of emotional anguish and broken things. I have also called non-emergency services to say Iām going to kill myself and then hung up.
I feel like stepping in front of a bus. thanks a bunch, NHS.
guess I'm just going to have to resort to my usual getting blind drunk.










