君上: in yearning.

the heavens, they look at me :   𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘮 𝘮𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘭𝘺.

[junshangs]

#JUNSHANG:  an independent  /  18+  /  friends only /  low activity  LUO BINGHE   from  mo xiang tongxiu’s   人渣反派自救系统.    primarily focuses on PIDW adjacent verses,    but will write in any canon timelines.    heavily triggering  themes will be present,    including but not limited to:   gore,    severe bodily mutilation,    mentions of physical / mental abuse,     torture,    etc.    please follow at your own discretion and know that  muse =/= mun.     rules below.

-  heres my last disclaimer:     this blog will contain HEAVILY triggering content.    though none of these triggers will be actively written on this blog,    they are strong themes in luo bing-ge’s background and will be mentioned in threads.   follow at your own discretion.

-  i don’t plan on interacting with anyone i am not already close friends with due to the content of this blog-   if you are not even familiar with lbh’s content material i am even less likely to want to interact.   please note this is a side blog,    so i can’t follow back from here. 

- lbh is severely mentally ill due to abuse in his past.    he also lives under the influence of xin mo,    a sword spirit that quite literally erodes at his morality.    this leads to sporadic behavior,    explosive anger,    severe abandonment issues,    low self esteem,    and self destructive tendencies,    to name a few.    keep this in mind when interacting with him,    do not expect me to water him down in any capacity,    and above all,    know that muse =/= mun.    

- as for romantic shipping:   to put it simply,   shipping w/ luo binghe is hard + needs to be plotted heavily due to his background.    luo bingmei is also married post canon,   which can be worked around if plotted.    but keep in mind his fixation on sy!shen qingqiu is still a big part of who he is so i’m not really keen on watering that down.    

- with that being said,   if you write sy!shen qingqiu,   do not just jump into shippy interactions without giving me a heads up.   i adore bingqiu / bingyuan in any of their iterations,    but dont appreciate being jumped on for ships without a notice!    i am also not open to romantically shipping either version of luo binghe with the original shen qingqiu / shen jiu under any circumstances-  and thats all i have to say about that. 

- there aren’t many out there,   especially for bing-ge,   but i am 100% okay with duplicates. give me bingmei + bing-ge interactions rn!!    

anyway thanks for reading ..... im just here to have fun with my little scrunkly lbh! enjoy!!

[junshangs]

ok ok binghe has officially moved to @junshang yeah yeah yeah!

[junshangs]

think I’m gonna move bingge to his own blog sometime this weekend

[shenzuns]

@junshang​​​  sought:  ʘ‿ʘ   /   bing-ge  @  shen  yuan  .

𝙷𝙴’𝚂  𝙰𝙻𝙻  𝚜𝚙𝚞𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜  𝚊𝚗𝚍  𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚜,  warm  bowl  of  half  finished  something  shoved  to  the  side  unceremoniously  in  lieu  of  much  needed  space  to  hunch  forward,  punch  at  his  chest  and  gasp  for  air  like  a  dying  fish.  was  this  how  he  was  going  to  die  ?!  pathetically  choking  on  food  in  the  face,  and  lap  (  something  he  couldn’t  be  faulted  for  !  he  was  a  simple  guy  and  who  said  bro’s  couldn’t  cuddle  ?  ),  of  the  morning  and  evening  star  that  PIDW’s  world  depended  on;  the  very  same  shining  jewel  that  shen  yuan,  refusing  to  admit  so,  had  spent  an  embarrassing  amount  of  time  ranting  and  raving  over.  people  just  didn’t  understand  his  nuance  and  so  it  was  only  fair  for  shen  yuan  to  correct  their  trashy  incel  asses.  he’s  more  than  just  his  wives  and  third  leg  people  !  though  he  really  didn’t  help  his  case  with  the  latter  but  shen  yuan  had  already  chalked  that  up  to  airplane’s  shitty  pandering  to  the  unfortunate  blowhard  majority  fanbase  that  made  up  PIDW;  he  was  different,  of  course,  he  saw  the  analytical  nuance  in  PIDW  that  other’s  didn’t.  it  wasn’t  his  fault  they  were  that  useless  at  reading  the  text,  read  better  !

𝙰𝙷𝙷𝙷  𝚂𝚃𝙸𝙻𝙻,  𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕  !!!!  all  of  this,  embarrassing,  cringy,  behavior,  to  look  so  weak  in  front  of  the  great  emperor  of  the  three  realms  himself  (  he  looked  more  like  a  cozy  housewife  here  though  /  an  easily  brushed  off  thought,  buried  deep  somewhere  /  but  there  was  no  denying  the  slightest  twinge  of  joy  it  brought,  warm  &  tender,  to  know  someone  so  gently   —   it  must  be  indigestion  he’s  feeling  ),  and  for  what  ?  because  he  couldn’t  eat  food  properly,  what  was  he,  a  grown  toddler  ?   —   so  caught  in  his  mental  lamentation,  he  barely  registers  the  soothing  caresses  against  his  back  nor  the  call  of  his  name,  low  and  affectionate  had  shen  yuan  not  known  any  better.  but  he  does  know  better,  really,  what  affection  could  be  had  here  ?  a  scrawny  loser  shut  -  in  who  spent  most  of  his  time  reading  trashy  stallion  novels  and  scolding  or  fussing  over  luo  binghe,  who  …  for  some  reason  or  another  seemed  to  preen  at  his  attention,  but  really  !  it  was  unfathomable  (  and,  maybe,  if  he  was  a  little  sad  at  the  thought  he  would  pay  no  mind  to  it  ).

𝙷𝙴  𝚃𝚄𝚁𝙽𝚂  𝚑𝚒𝚜  𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍  𝚝𝚘  𝚝𝚑𝚎  𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎  𝚞𝚙𝚘𝚗  𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚐,  pleasantly  leaning  into  the  sensation  of  binghe’s  touch,  offering  a  small  smile  and  a  quiet  apology  at  the  outburst.  there’s  a  slight  glance  over  to  the  mess  in  front  of  him,  thankfully  neither  of  them  were  caught  in,  and  he  sighs  through  his  nose.  he’d  deal  with  it  later,  he  thinks  resolutely  as  he  sinks  back  into  the  comfortable  embrace  of  binghe,  all  too  happy  to  press  his  nose  ‘gainst  a  warm  shoulder  and  soft  curls  (  a  part  of  him  wondered  if  this  was  too  intimate  ?  they  had  been  getting  pretty  close  recently,  a  lot  more  than  he  ever  thought  he’d  get  with  someone,  let  alone  him   —   but  screw  it,  he  was  cozy,  there  was  time  to  ruminate  over  this  later  ).

𝙸𝚃’𝚂  𝙰𝚂  𝚑𝚎’𝚜  𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐  𝚑𝚒𝚖𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏  with  thoughts  flitting  back  to  their  earlier  conversation,  that  as  he  absentmindedly  murmurs  out  a,  ❝   what’d  you  say  earlier,  binghe  ?   ❞,  it  comes  crashing  back  with  a  startling  shock   —   (  WAIT,  WAIT,  WAIT  !  )  but  there  was  no  forgiveness  to  be  had  here,  with  binghe  shifting  to  glance  down  with  eyes  as  stark  as  night,  endlessly  beautiful,  and,  and  !!!  attractive  ?!  him,  shen  yuan,  this  loser  asshole  who  can’t  even  chew  on  his  own  food  right  ??!!!  (  he  realizes  now,  with  a  pretty  flush,  that  to  his  credit  it  wasn’t  his  fault,  he  hadn’t  expected  to  be  hit  with  that  suave  charm  of  binghe’s  so  early  in  the  day  ).

𝙷𝙴’𝚂  𝚀𝚄𝙸𝙴𝚃  𝚏𝚘𝚛  𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐  𝚎𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑  that  it  rouses  binghe  from  his  own  position,  lithe  fingers,  coarse  from  years  of  hard  work,  curling  under  shen  yuan’s  chin  to  tilt  his  head  up  and  fuck  !  panic,  panic,  he  can’t  do  this  today   —   don’t  treat  him  like  one  of  your  maiden’s  binghe  !  he  does  the  only  thing  he  can  hope  to  do  and  with  hands  covering  binghe’s  own,  an  anchor  to  hold  onto,  laughs  a  half  hearted  laugh.

❝   ah,  didn’t  anyone  teach  you  that  lying  was  bad  ?  you  don’t  need  to  flatter  me  binghe,  i  know  what  i  look  like,  but  maybe  you  should  get  your  eyes  checked,  hm  ?   ❞,  please  forgive  him  binghe,  but  if  you  want  something  you  should  come  right  out  and  say  it,  not  lie  to  his  face  like  that  !

[maluinks]

im trying to get to coloring more so i started out with the fluffiest demon lord: Luo Binghe

[junshangs]

me: ahah, this is a sideblog, never gonna promo it or move it to main blog, no need to worry about big interactions

also me: how do i jump start interactions if i only have 6 followers. binghe is the only thing on my mind. GRAHHHH

[junshangs]

no binghe hate allowed here

[sssilkworms]

师尊 ，若能死在您手里 冰河不亏

[dokidreaming]

sometimes you have to hug your comfort shizun

[junshangs]

thinking some thoughts for my -5 tgcf followers rn but here are my thoughts so far!

- im thinking maybe he ascends as a deputy god for the original shen jiu as a young adult / teenager, maybe alongside ming fan / ning yingying, because i want to keep the same genre of dynamic between disciples / shizun, since its so vital to his story.

- anyway, shen jiu originally chooses him as a deputy god because he acknowledges his potential and eventually comes to hate bing-ge for all the same reasons he hates him in canon. the abuse he endures is the same as in canon. no one steps up to save or acknowledge the abuse besides nyy.

- gotta think through the schematics of this a little more, but in the end im thinking shen jiu would probably do something along the lines of framing bing-ge and get him banished from the heavenly realm. and maybe he’s killed somewhere along the line because of this chain of events. ,

- maybe sj does this bc of something to do with bing-ge’s lineage and tlj being notorious for something (maybe he’s an old ghost king?? who knows) .... no specifics yet bc i gotta think on it a little more, but n e way im thinking he gets cursed shackles and all before he dies because of the weight of the accusations. maybe those are the main factor in why he eventually dies. i’ll come back and add more to this when i think of it but some thoughts are being had.

- moving on, mayhaps bingge comes back as a ghost .... goes to mt tonglu ... emerges ... plans to get his revenge on shen jiu + hides his identity as a calamity / devastation level ghost bc it’s Bin-ge :tm: ... ......  maybe by virtue of doing something rly good (gestures vaguely at bing-ge saving a bunch of pretty ladies as he does in canon) he ascends again, but as a martial god by his own merit...  and the revenge starts there!

- this final possibility is a little looser because as a tgcf main at heart i dont wanna stomp on tgcf canon, so this is just me throwing things out there. but i do think all the while getting his revenge on sj (which would, logically, take years as sqq is probably a heavenly official with a lot of power), bing-ge would want to amass power in the heavenly realm. maybe he takes over parts of the ghost realm and the like. realistically he would want to do the same as in canon and try to take over as much as he could and combine the realms...... but this ofc is a little looser, bc tgcf canon is just. yeah! i dont think i’ll make this part of the verse, im just thinking some thoughts out loud. just thinking of what bing-ge would do. hehehe

[toskaesque]

MITSKI LYRIC / SENTENCE STARTERS. send in a lyric accrued across all five of mitski’s lp / albums.  or send 🌹 to have a random number generated to get a starter that incorporates the corresponding lyric!

content warning:  suggestive themes.

❛  in the rearview mirror i saw the setting sun on your neck, and felt the taste of you bubble up inside me. ❜

❛  every time i drive through the city where you’re from, i squeeze a little. ❜

❛  but with everybody watching us, our every move, we do have reputations. ❜

❛  i always wanted to die clean & pretty. ❜

❛  he liked her more than life itself, i’m sure. ❜

❛  of course, you couldn’t know it was you and you alone. ❜

❛  so come inside and be with me, alone with me. ❜

❛  i wouldn’t have to scream your name atop of every roof in the city of my heart, if i could see you. ❜

❛  i don’t need the world to see that i’ve been the best i can be. ❜

❛  one warm summer night, i’ll hear fireworks outside, and i’ll listen to the memories as they cry. ❜

❛  we nearly drowned for such a silly thing. ❜

❛  if i could i’d be your little spoon and kiss your fingers forevermore. ❜

❛  everything you feel is good, if you would only let you. ❜

❛  i’m not happy or sad, just up or down, and always bad. ❜

❛  i haven’t told anyone just like we promised, have you? ❜

❛  i will wash your hair at night and dry it off with care. ❜

❛  i will see your body bare, and still, i will live here. ❜

❛  stay with me, hold my hand – there’s no need to be brave. ❜

❛  all the quiet nights you bare, sal them up with care. ❜

❛  we’re not out of the tunnel yet, i bet you though, there’s an end. ❜

❛  i say your name in hopes you’ll hear it in the stars. ❜

❛  one morning this sadness will fossilize, and i will forget how to cry. ❜

❛  i told him i’d do anything to have him stay with me. ❜

❛  when you go, take this heart – i’ll make no more use of it when there’s no more you. ❜

❛  what do you do with a loving feeling if the loving feeling makes you all alone? ❜

❛  tell your baby that i’m your baby. ❜

❛  i know that i ended it but why won’t you chase after me? ❜

❛  you know me better than i do. ❜

❛  i want a kiss like my heart is hitting the ground. ❜

❛  you’re coming back and it’s the end of the world. ❜

❛  went to your room thinking maybe you’ll feel something. ❜

❛  you can come closer, i’ll let you hurt me how you choose. ❜

❛  i’m tired of not loving you. ❜

❛  i always want you when i’m finally fine. ❜

❛  i’m staying up late just in case you come up and ask to leave with me. ❜

❛  i don’t wanna go home yet, let me walk to the top of the big night sky. ❜

❛  i don’t know what to do without you, i don’t know where to put my hands. ❜

❛  i don’t think i could stand to be where you don’t see me. ❜

❛  they’ll never know how i stared at the dark in that room with no thoughts like a blood-sniffing shark. ❜

❛  i should tell them that i’m not afraid to die. ❜

❛  you’d say you love me and look in my eyes, but i know through mine, you were looking in yours. ❜

❛  we’re starting over and i love you darling. ❜

❛  all i wanna do is get naked in front of you. ❜

❛  you know, you made me happy. ❜

❛  i just need a quiet place where i can scream how i love you. ❜

❛  give me your love for being so good. ❜

❛  take me out, baby, makes no difference where we’ll be. ❜

❛  fuck you and your money, i’m tired of your money. ❜

❛  you know, i wore this dress for you;  these killer heels for you. ❜

❛  went to your room thinking maybe you’ll feel something. ❜

❛  there’s a lie that i told you. ❜

❛  i would give you my heart, i think. ❜

❛  my heart wants to hold you, but i know the rules.  ❜

❛  my god i’m so lonely. ❜

❛  you’re home to me. ❜

❛  if i am not yours, what am i? ❜

❛  i don’t need anything other than you. ❜

❛  would you let me let go? ❜

❛  i don’t blame you if you want to bury me in your memory. ❜

❛  don’t dare regret anything. ❜

❛  would you just tell me what i’m meant to do? ❜

❛  i’ve waited and watered my heart til it grew; you can see how it’s blossomed for you. ❜

❛  maybe when you tell your friends, you can tell them what you saw in me. ❜

❛  i don’t want your pity, i just want somebody near me. ❜

❛  could we be what we’re meant to be? ❜

❛  i know no one will save me, i’m just asking for a kiss. ❜

❛  nobody butters me up like you and nobody fucks me like me. ❜

❛  are you waiting to touch me? ❜

❛  would you tell me if you want me? ❜

❛  i’m not wearing my usual lipstick, i thought maybe we would kiss tonight. ❜

❛  i know who you pretend i am. ❜

❛  why not me? ❜

❛  there’s nobody better than you. ❜

❛  would you spare me your voice if i called? ❜

❛  i hope you leave before the sun comes up so i can watch it alone. ❜

❛  i think my life is losing momentum. ❜

❛  i can’t move until you show me. ❜

❛  you’re all i ever wanted;  i think i’ll regret this. ❜

❛  i’m tired of wanting more;  i think i’m finally worn. ❜

❛  somebody kiss me, i’m going crazy. ❜

❛  it would be a hundred times easier if we were young again. ❜

❛  i’ve been blossoming alone over you. ❜

❛  your mother wouldn’t approve of how my mother raised me. ❜

❛  i could stare at your back all day. ❜

❛  you’re the sun, you never see the night and you hear its songs from the morning birds. ❜

❛  i am the fire and i am the forest and i am a witness watching it. ❜

❛  you love me so hard and i still can’t sleep. ❜

❛  you’re growing tired of me, and all the things i don’t talk about. ❜

❛  sorry i don’t want your touch;  it’s not that i don’t want you. ❜

❛  it’s just that i fell in love with a war;  nobody told me it ended. ❜

❛  every night, baby, that’s where i go. ❜

❛  why am i lonely for some lonesome love? ❜

❛  i hear my heart breaking tonight;  do you hear it too? ❜ 

❛  i want a love that falls as fast as a body from the balcony. ❜

❛  please hurry leave me i can’t breathe, please don’t say you love me. ❜

❛  i’ve been anywhere and it’s not what i want, i wanna be still with you. ❜

❛  you have a way of promising things. ❜

❛  you’ve turned down every hand that has beckoned me to come. ❜

❛  it’s not real enough. ❜

❛  i will be the one you need, the way i can’t be without you. ❜

❛  i need something bigger than the sky. ❜

❛  i need somebody to remember my name after all that i can do for them is done. ❜

❛  how many stars will i need to hang around me to finally call it heaven? ❜

❛  i just can’t be without you. ❜

❛  can you come to where i’m staying and make some extra love? ❜

[junshangs]

looks at my three followers and points at u. the first thing i have to say here is that binghe in all universes is my little meow meow scrunkly baby. i am a luo binghe apologist first and a human second, this man has done nothing wrong ever and i will fight with my bare hands anyone who thinks otherwise