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my daughter is 3 years young now and as I'm lifting her up onto my gaming chair, kasi dun niya gustong matulog every time I have work, I realized it's been so long since I've carried her kaya ang ginawa ko kinarga ko muna siya ng mga at least 5 minutes and I almost teared up kasi how??? parang kahapon lang nung lagi siyang nagpapakarga sa akin na minsan naiinis na ako kasi madami pa akong trabaho then bigla siya mag aask na kargahin siya and now she doesn't even ask anymore nor does she want to be carried. I didn't know it would make me this sad lol but hey if you have a kid, cherish every moment with them and try to be mooore patient kasi sooner or later they're gonna grow up and they will not need you the same as they need you now.

may napanaginipan na naman akong naging totoo.

yesterday, nagbabasa lang ako messages sa isang gc na nasalihan ko sa telegram kasi may nag aaway e syempre chismosa tayo kaya kahit inabot na ng 1k+ yung messages binasa ko pa rin isa isa hahahaha tsaka day off ko rin kaya at wala ako magawa sa bahay. then bigla may nagchat "bff mo na daw yun e" or something like that then nag iba yung pakiramdam ko kasi wow deja vu parang nangyari na yung ganon na scenario like tumaas talaga balahibo ko ksksksks. a few seconds later narealize ko na napanaginipan ko yung ganon na scenario and yung panaginip ko na yun happened like maybe a month ago? possibly last year pa and it's one of those dreams i get na di ko magets kasi super blurry and ang daming nangyayari na hindi magkasunod sunod, also it's one of those dreams na pag gising mo di mo na maalala, alam mo yon? this isn't the first time that something like this happened and i'm kinda worrying kasi i've had some terrifying dreams din that felt super real kasi sobrang vivid. what if that comes true as well? katakot. will be the topic of my overthinking for sure

dami ko nababasang discussions and nakikitang edits about hunger games recently and i can't help but remember the intense feelings i felt when reading the books hays grabe until now crush ko pa rin si Josh 😄

anyway, these past few days i've been wanting to catch up with friends (cause i'm lonely) and i have a friend in mind na gustong gusto kong ichat to rekindle the friendship or whatever pero nahihiya ako because never ako nagchat first not unless family lol. the reason why i wanted to chat this friend is because kababata ko siya and alam niya i like to hear updates about the place where we grew up in, also kapag siya yung kausap ko never ako nabored kasi di kami nauubusan ng topic pareho. gusto ko rin mag aya night out or night swimming pero ayun nga nahihiya ako magchat first HAHAHAHA siguro sa birthday niya na lang ako magchat "happy birthday, ano handa?" ganon

pota ang 🤮 ng postings ko nung 2018-2019 😭😭😭

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su-n-s-e-t

gagi sobrang gulat ko nung pag open ko ng twitter p*rn agad lumabas like why tf am i suddenly following a 18+ account on my main twitter?? buti wala ako katabi 😭😭😭

dati gusto ko maging nurse pero now gusto ko na lang maging financially stable na may business na may many branches sa different parts of the city na married to a gwapo & rich & very kind malaysian like my auntie chz HAHAHAHA

nakakakaba mag open twitter in public baka ibang acct naka log in 😵‍💫

i don't dream often like maybe once or twice a month lang but tell me why when i dream you always pop up??? like i'm not always on facebook and we are facebook friends and one time i was scrolling through my feed when i saw you updated your profile picture, i didn't even have any reactions to it (yeah you were cute but whatever) i just scrolled past it not even taking a second look but that night my dream was all about you WHY!!!

#oh did i mention you're my ex