My Fucked Up Life

This is a blog (or whatever you'd like to call it) about my life with illnesses that have taken over me and made me who I am today.

[justanothersickperson]

Idk.

I can't do this anymore. I just want to sleep. I don't want to listen to the arguments. I'm done. Please, please don't wake me up. I don't want to wake up.

[justanothersickperson]

Strange...

Something doesn't feel right, I just can't put my finger on it. I need to sleep but I can't, don't want to. The nightmares, well the memories are more often than usual. I don't know what to do...

[justanothersickperson]

Hope.

Hopefully tomorrow will be less painful. Sick of feeling pain like this. The feeling of being scared incase it's worse than I thought, worse than I know it is. I just want to be okay. Truly. Honestly. Okay. Not just "fine"...

[justanothersickperson]

I don't know...

I'm tired. I'm scared. I'm confused. I need someone or something to get rid of all the bullshit. I need to be strong even when I don't feel like I will ever have the strength to stop all this madness in my life. I just want peace, even if that means death.

[justanothersickperson]

Just want to feel something good for a change...

[justanothersickperson]

Tired of being tired, sick of being sick, when will it end?

[justanothersickperson]

What gives you the right to judge me? What gives you the right to hurt me in any way shape or form? I'm not some stupid little girl who doesn't know right from wrong who'll let you say and do as you please. I am strong willed and I have nothing to lose anymore because you ruined it for me, because you ruined life for me. I no longer wish for dreams to come true. I only hope one day your daughter doesn't feel like this, feel like she no option left but to wish someone will see the truth and get her out of there before she decides to end it all. Like me.

[fuck-me-till-the-end-please]

“My imagination is fucking you like crazy right now.”

[justanothersickperson]

Just feeling meh.

Would anyone notice if I was gone? even if it was only for a little while?

[coldely-deactivated20210320]

Reasons to marry me: We'd eat pizza and listen to good music together and we'd probably fuck 14 times a week and buy too many pets and build pillow forts.

[justanothersickperson]

Confused.

I feel conflicted lately, do I forgive and let go or fight for something better. Even though it might not get any better? Even though you won't change your ways and still hard me. I don't wanna lose you but I can't let go of all your lies knowing what I know. You don't lie about children ever! I just want a bullshit free life and to be happy. FUCK! Why do I even care about someone like you?

[justanothersickperson]

Fingers crossed

Hope I made the right choice...

[justanothersickperson]

Sometimes we just fall...

[justanothersickperson]

Why?

Don't know how to cope anymore. Why did things have to change?

[justanothersickperson]

You too asshole.

You do the same thing. You know how I feel about you but you just keep coming back around like a tornado.

[justanothersickperson]

Consent is simple!

If you ask someone something and they say NO you DON'T ignore them and DO it anyway you LISTEN to them INSTEAD of HURTING them!!

NO MEANS FUCKING NO!

YES MEANS FUCKING YES!

STOP IGNORING CONSENT!

[molllylucas]