keeping all my sad boys in a curio cabinet

now fulfilling my prophecy of becoming a dedicated audio drama I'm listening to blog

[justasadboystan]

I know I'm not supposed to but I really understand Adam. No matter how difficult it is, there will always be love for the one who made you. Even if you hate them, and for very good reasons, the hate stems from that core concept: they were supposed to love me amd treat me with worth and dignity.

I think when Sydney summoned him, his intentions and need for being wanted shaped and twisted the nature of Adam and forced him into an existence is madness. A heart that beats for another. If you are not built like that it would be world ending to feel the yearning, the pining the wanting. To be attracted to someone when you brain and body do not exist to do is a horror in of itself.

They could never make me hate you Adam. I know you're bad bad terrible bad but I could never hate you because if I too had my aroace heart forced into beating for another I would be driven to madness.

Sydney was right to shut down his "bipolar fantasies" though.

To talk about the ending though?

The ending is wild, I want to be reincarnated as the train so I can know what happens next. Because a name drop???? At the last minute?!?! Benjamin Locke? Sir I'm sorry I've been giving you the worst nicknames to my friends, agent 23 would respect me for it.

[justasadboystan]

(Redacted) you weirdo creep! You should have been decked!

Also what do you mean "the coven"? Ma'am???? There's too many layers this season, it's getting me to consider investing in red string and corkboards.

Oh and more baby October will get me through the rest of the week. My heart, you left us too soon my beloved.

The live reaction reading the episode notes after getting a bad vibe:

[blue-wolfe]

This is frustrating for no one more than it is for me, but technical issues of my PC dashed a significant amount of editing progress of the episode file, and have basically forced me to postpone a day.

The alternative was releasing later tonight, but when asking the community Discord, most would rather be given a day so as to see a release earlier in the evening. This is okay for me! The livelisten culture is a huge piece of community, and something I also look forward to experiencing with all you lovely listeners.

Said issues I believe are caused by my PC overheating due to the recent heat wave, and it's causing damage to the motherboard. I've got it working again after troubleshooting, but due to community preference I will be releasing episode 69 tomorrow night. My heart hurts a bit at this, but it'll be just as good!! I'm hoping and praying everyone still shows up, as we've all poured our heart and soul into this episode!

Get excited... 👁️🚂

! Season 2 Episode 69, the hour long finale, releases the evening of June 2nd at midnight ET !

[justasadboystan]

The way I'm going to waking everyone up in my house because of this fr.....

[justasadboystan]

We just started the season and these episodes are making me pace:

Hope has essentially been kidnapped. She's getting the coming of age roadtrip edit. Bestie I hope you know kneecap someone

Olivier being blamed and shamed for something they literally couldn't do anything about (Get behind me, I'll protect you!)

The quartet still have supporters!? AND ARE WINNING?! Ain't no way, I will crawl into the audio waves to fight you myself if I have to. And the desecration of the workshop?! Sorry chat/cast I think we have to kill thes guys

Apollyon is finally back home with his family (bless). But like Countess, babe, Yaretzi has two hands

For 208, when I saw we only had one pov story I knew this was going to be peak and stressful and my god it was. Let Nikignik go full blast and finally take some control of the narrative!

Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh, how am I now supposed to go to work and function as a totally normal and not neurotic individual who has been in no way affected by the story before me.

[justasadboystan]

Aaaaahhhhh so many lore drops in the Stories from Ylelmore qna that released!

I'm giggling and kicking my feet fr! They are everything, the power of friendship will win me over every time!

So happy to know one of my favorite shows has a POC weirdcore girl (bless. Nature is healing) in charge of the squad. Can't wait for the new season to come back!

[justasadboystan]

Damn.

Damn.

Neurodivergent self-sabotage meets repairing relationships👏👏👏 Does the apology repair the damage? Maybe. Maybe not. But its a start. I'm happy they got to see clarity and pulled themselves out of their descent into the void. But at least we're seeing accountability!

Damn there are so many points of discussion we can talk about for this episode, some that I am not qualified to start. I'm excited to see the Tumblr start popping off though.

[justasadboystan]

I think this episode is going to become my favorite of the whole series. The rawness and emotion performed by Corey Wilder left me captivated the whole episode. I legit stopped doing my study guides and just stared at the wall listening through the whole thing.

I kept thinking back to how his journey through the tunnels reflects a journey of mental health treatment (at least from the perspective of a BSW student). When you are in the thick of it sometimes it feels better to stay in that same routine over and over because at least it's not getting worse. You make changes and you are left worse than where you originally were. Sometimes you're in the think of it for so long that it becomes its own joy (and that's ok, as long as you're keeping yourself and others safe). Sometimes making the choice to pull yourself out of the trenches is an ugly process that you have to fight tooth and nail for every victory and millimeter of progress. Sometimes that work brings you wrecked into the sun and sometimes that work blows up in your face deeper in the trenches. I am glad Rowan one this battle and got himself out of the literal trenches to not face the storm alone.

[justasadboystan]

Time to fight the foundation guys! If they so much as touch Dumptruck or my other babies I'm going to throw hands fr

[iceical]

about the cocoa

okay so im relistening to the amelia project, y'know as you do. and i was like ok. I've had enough of wanting cocoa because the interviewer keeps talking about it all the damn time. I'll look up a dupe recipe from le du margot, make it, see what the fuss is about let me fucking tell you, that this shit is the best hot chocolate i have ever had and i fucking burnt it dude. i fucking burnt it and i licked two cups out of my stupid fancy little teacup. my mother who is losing the ability to taste anything COULD TASTE THIS STUPID FRENCH HOT CHOCOLATE. ITS SO EASY TO MAKE, ITS LITERALLY DARK CHOCOLATE, MILK, BROWN SUGAR, A PINCH OF SALT AND YOU WHISK IT. I BURNT IT. IT WAS STILL AMAZING. IM SO UPSET. MAKE THE DAMN HOT CHOCOLATE ILL GET MY RECIPE FROM A RANDOM LADY ONLINE GLAZING FRANCE AND LEAVE IT HERE I JUST NEEDED TO TELL SOMEONE THIS IS SO STUPID WHY CANT BEING PROVEN WRONG TASTE THIS GOOD ALL THE TIME

the recipe i used

[justasadboystan]

Bro I was worried the framing change was going to affect the story's mystery aspect because the twist for season one was so mindblowing. But it still hits so good! The new season has such amazing sound editing and acting and does a great job leaving season one Easter eggs so you can still listen to the new season independently.

You still should absolutely listen to season 1 though, it is crazy good.

[justasadboystan]

Oh my god, I got to see a winnebago in the wild. I feel so happy that they still have space to be free

[justasadboystan]

Bro I'm crying, they were all so happy together!! Ahh what could have been!!

And the musical piece once again was absolutely perfect. Athan never misses, I absolutely will go feral if an album gets put out

[justasadboystan]

I just finished the new Find Us Alive ep.

I am kicking my feet and screaming! The beginning was so cool!

I seriously have no idea what is going to happen next, ugh I can't believe it'll be another month till the next one is released

[squeakitties]

wikipedia no longer being anywhere near the top of search results when looking up anything feels eviscerating

[ichorandpride]

#they really said “you can’t use wiki as an academic source-use our garbage AI that’s even less reliable”#and you can’t even opt out of it

no but you can FORCE it away. use ublock origin and copy paste the blacklist i made into the filters to be able to remove the bullshit AI overview that google forces. it also removes youtube's forced ads (at least until they fix it)

you can also use the ublacklist extension and use this blacklist of AI image generation websites to curate your google image results

there are ALWAYS ways around stuff. it's just a matter of looking into it and asking around

[nicenice7]

I'M FREE

[alistairsprayerwarrior]

FOR WIKIPEDIA!!!!

[justasadboystan]

This new HFTH season is really settling with me on a personal level. I feel Percy's anger at wanting to prove the opposition wrong but it still not being enough for them. And I feel Diggory's position of having to appear to be the most grounded person in the group because everyone needs someone that is calm in the situation and can't be allowed to spiral or appear angry.

I feel Olivier wanting to be enough for everyone and shouldering all the responsibilities given to you to be enough to those around you. And yet something out of your control wrecks that and you are still blamed for all the mistakes. I feel Riot/Clementine trying doing everything in your power to try to do the right thing and keep everyone together but still things keep drifting apart no matter how hard we hold them together.

I can feel it.

This is going to be the best Hello from The Hallowoods season in the series. I can feel it.

[justasadboystan]

You know good for you Sidney for finally getting some type of agency in your situation. Like its not a lot and you will probably still get yourself killed

Again

But at least you are questioning things and pushing back against the shitty situation you are in. Now do it again but with the toxic men in your life!

[justasadboystan]

Adam.....I know I'm not supposed to trust you or like you. But goddammit! My garbage taste for dangerous men is getting the better of me!

The M and M's delivery is giving Po-Tato salad from the railroad man though, another dubious audio drama man......