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I can do this. Breathe. It will be ok. Now breathe again. And againā¦.
I donāt like you very much right now. You need to leave. Everything can NOT be about you. Get over yourself.
I canāt breathe anymore. Pulling myself together is an ongoing need. Iām in pain. Mentally and physically. Iām so sorry I donāt know how to get through this.
You have no idea. I didnāt tell you because when I wanted to you were too busy telling me everything wrong with me. Too busy telling me what Iām doing wrong. Iām sorry. Iām doing this alone. Itās hard. Iām sorry itās not good enough for you. And Iām sorry you donāt know what Iām dealing with because you canāt listen for one minute.
Yes. I am still a big mess. Shocked? Oh. Me neither. š¤·š»āāļøš¤¦š»āāļø
So fucking emotionally unstable right now. I hate losing control. š¢
I need to move on. You have NO right to be upset or act anything other than completely happy for me when I do. You chose this. I tried this time.
Idk what I am doing. Itās all a mess. No matter what I do or how hard I try. A mess. Work, personal life. I ALWAYS make the wrong decisions. How do people do this? Iād like to get just ONE THING right. š¤¦š»āāļø
This is ridiculous. You wanted me to say it, I did. You wanted me to pursue more, I am. Here I am. Just feeling like a big idiot trying to tell you letās try this. The absolute most TERRIFYING thing EVER. Letās do it. Iām in. Iām ALL IN. What about you?
Where will I go when the darkness settles in? To you? You, who canāt handle the ābaggageā? No. There is no one. I will be alone in the dark. As I have been my entire life. Alone in the dark. Really alone in the light too. Light just attracts bugs. Things that feed off your light. They donāt help you stay in the light. Fuck it all. Let the darkness come. Iām not ready yet though. This isnāt over. I will fight alone if thatās what it takes.
Something is not right. Itās been four days of this. What is happening to me??? Waiting for an answer is a nightmare. Help.
There are so many things you donāt know about me. There are things you wouldnāt want to handle. You donāt know me. No one does. š
Iām not ready for this. Also; Iām not really sure I can handle it.
Wtf world? Just W. T. F. ?????? Iām so broken. Someone or something please help me. I need to sleep.
Since Iām recently RE-obsessed with Hamilton I have to admit that whenever you kiss me that song plays in my head....
YOU asked me a valid question. And you put the ball in my court. I am just barely hesitating but I might be FINALLY making the choice. Maybe. Thereās just no way to know what is right. I feel like it wouldnāt work. We arenāt into the same things, you donāt know everything....to this day something you said to me years ago is STILL at the forefront of my mind when lever we bring this up again - you said I had too much baggage for you. From the military, of all things. The PTSD? I already had that from other things. It sounded like you werenāt willing to āput up withā that. I have never known what to say to that. I just go back and forth. The feelings are there; no question. The attraction is there. I just have no idea how you are in a relationship. And you have no idea how I am either - yes I know you THINK you do, but you definitely donāt. We have a really weird, but not bad thing. If we try and it doesnāt work out we will lose that thing. Idk if I can handle that. š¤·š»āāļø
Still mad. Thatās all.