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Reality

I hate myself and all my flaws. I hate my personality and I hate the shape of my jaw, my head is too big and my teeth are crooked. Every time I see myself in the mirror I ask myself what I have to live for. Nothing. Suicide crosses my mind, once, twice, three times. I think of all of the things I hate about myself. I thibk about my mom, and my dad and how they might never love me. How they might never call to wish me a happy birthday, or a merry christmas, happy easter maybe. I think of all the kids at school who make fun of me. I think of every hurtful word thrown my way. As i sit here and think about all this. I begin to cry. I cry not because of all the terrible things in my life, but because Im so blinded by the bad I havent been seeing the good. My baby sister, shes a straight A student who wants nothing but my love and support. I think about my baby brother, who looks up to me for answers, and love. But where have I been looking? Right past them. At my own problems. There are always people who care. Always people who will be there forever.