Just Musings

. Character: Sayaka Makihara . Manga: Oukoku Game

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Everyone who knows me deserves better.

Me myself and I

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I n̲e̲v̲e̲r̲ wanted this to happen  Never wanted this to die

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In a room full of 𝓼𝓲𝓵𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓼   Telling me I'll never stop them

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I’m not as cruel as you see me

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And, sure, I’m the one who swung the ᴍᴇᴛᴀʟ ʙᴀᴛ

But, hey, I can’t control the urge!

Nobody’s gonna вℓαмє me for that

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The familiar burn The familiar cold

Never changing punishment

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I’m scared that one day I’ll find myself    Arm cut open, blood flowing         Not knowing what to do anymore

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I try to drown out my thoughts

                              But they’re just

                                                       so

                                                                loud

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A red string, tied around my wrist like a bracelet      Pain shoot through my arm when I think of it              Of what I’ve done

But I never regret it once

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If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever

Winnie the Pooh

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If no leaf ever flutters the same as it falls, what does it matter?

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I have no expectations for anyone for anything

You cannot disappoint me, because I don’t expect anything. Even if you told me you’d do something, or wouldn’t do.

I don’t think you’re lying. I believe you will do, or won’t do, whatever you told me. But if you do the opposite. Then I won’t feel sad. Disappointed. Mad. Anything.

Either I will be happily surprised that you kept your word Or I won’t feel anything

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Please don’t be mad at me. 

Please don’t abandon me.

Please never say you won’t stay.

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What do you see, You people gazing at me? You SEE a girl on a 𝓶𝓾𝓼𝓲𝓬 𝓫𝓸𝔁 That's wound by a key.

HOW can you tell 𝓲'𝓶 𝓾𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻 𝓪 𝓼𝓹𝓮𝓵𝓵?

I'm waiting for love's First KISS.

You cannot see How much I long to be 𝒇𝒓𝒆𝒆, Turning around on this 𝓶𝓾𝓼𝓲𝓬 𝓫𝓸𝔁 That's WOUND by a key.

Yearning,

Yearning...

...Turning around and around.

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ʟօʋɛ, I have written a thousands songs for you And I hope you love 𝓶𝓮 too

ʟօʋɛ, I know that everybody loves you But I want you all for 𝓶𝔂𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯

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For LIFE continues mercilessly, even if your joy from it dies.