why am I here? Like wtf

I'm a shitty person telling my shitty life to people who are probably shitty too

[justsomeone879]

You Never Asked Me

You chose her...Not the one who has been with you since 4th grade...the person who has known you for a year. “Fuck the person who has been there lets just take this bitch who knows nothing about me.” You let her say so much shit about me things you knew weren’t true,and you keep saying I don’t like you yet you never asked me if I did or didn’t. Well the truth is I don’t know I don’t know if I am mad at you or if I miss you,but it doesn’t matter cause you chose her.

[justsomeone879]

You knew I was in love with him. You knew this because I told you. We were so happy for me because I had never liked anyone before my first crush. I got pushed to like someone anyone to be a normal person. I did not because someone pushed me to him because he was the only one who...sparked something I knew him for 4 years. You used to like him but when I told you I saw no problem because you were dating one of my close friends. 

You even told him. So he knew because we even talked about it,but I found out that you had been flirting with him while you were with my close friend.God I wish you would go to hell because I really don’t wanna see you. 

And to this boy broke my heart. Why didn’t you think it through that flirting with my best friend knowing you had my heart rapped around your finger.

-JustSomeone879 

[justsomeone879]

It’s You.

Do you think school will ever get better? The answer is no because being petty seems to be the answer for you. You never fix the problem you make it worse,or better yet you run from it. It wasn’t us it was you did this to yourself. 

[justsomeone879]

I hate you

I hate you for pretending. Pretending that you didn’t do anything for pretending that nothing ever happened. I loved you. You were amazing friend...until you started making me feel like shit. I hate you for making me feel like this. I hate you for not being there for me when I was for you. I hate that you made my problems feel smaller than yours. I hate how you called me at 3am to cry about a boy when I was having a hard time staying alive. I hate that when I didn’t wanna live I only stayed because “you needed me.” I hate how I am so much better without you. I hate that I miss you after all the shit you did to me. I hate how you made fun of me. I hate how I didn’t notice that I needed better people in my life........................I hate you.

[justsomeone879]

I’m sorry it all went down like it did. It could have been better if I would have kept my fucking mouth shut. God do you ever just wish you would disappear that I feel it feels like the whole world is watching me. Like the whole world has it’s eyes on me. 

-JustSomeone879   

[justsomeone879]

I wanna get it all over with and forgot that I’m even alive.

-JustSomeone879

[justsomeone879]

You know the one sucky thing in life is when the one person who always believed you who always thought good of you. Hears one thing and now your the liar.

All because of two girls my whole life is fucked. I’m now painted as a monster which is not me. Welcome to hell. Maybe I am the monster?

-JustSomeone879

[justsomeone879]

SINK

You know I seem to help people who I should not be helping, I feel the need to fix people ,everyone can be happy if you just “fix the.” Everyone can be happy,but the only person who seems not to be able to be happy is me. The one person who can’t be fixed.

Funny thing is the people who say I made them happy all have left me in the dirt. That’s just fucking fantastic.

The one thing “holds me back” is people. I know what I mean when I say that because they are they have made me go to hell and back for them and I did ,but now they fucked me over. 

They seem to get me to this place were they sink me to the bottom. I don’t realize it till I’m already drowning so I think it’s all my fault so I don’t leave. When I do realize it I have to come up for hair by myself. 

Now I’m careful with everyone waiting for the moment were they make me sink.

-JustSomeone879

[justsomeone879]

The real bullshit is how I can cheer other people up but I can’t cheer up myself. I tell people 24/7 I’m always here if you wanna talk,so how come I can fix others but can’t fix myself

-Justsomeone879

[justsomeone879]

Have y'all ever heard that sound that says "time is an allusion that helps things make sense."

Its been living in my head for the past months and honestly. I hope it never leaves

-JustSomeone879

[justsomeone879]

I used to post on some website you can go and find it I don’t care but I used to write all my bullshit to random people who have no fucking idea who I am ,but today at 10pm I thought......hmmmm.tumblr...sure basically I think too deep for the people in my life to understand. In fact if people ever found out the way I think... well I guess I’m fucked. They would 100% think I’m a serial killer but I’m not you can be fucked up in the head without wanting to kill people. 

Just understand some people are more fuck up than others.

-JustSomeone879