These things...

In a world without free waffles, I'm your free waffle.

[justxxan]

I’m a semi successful video editor now and this blog is never used anymore

[patanu102]

[justxxan]

Currently reading a song of ice and fire

[justxxan]

Still existing, barely.

Still holding out that someday things will improve though. Maybe one day I’ll have more than a cat to tend to. The weirdest thing happened a couple of weeks ago, my upstairs neighbors dog wandered off and of course I was trying to help him call it. After about 5 minutes he assured me will find him so I went back to watching Netflix, then after about half an hour I remembered I had to go to the shop and in pitch dark my neighbors dog Fox found me and started following me! My neighbor was happy I found him and I was like “He found ME lmao”

Btw Fox was the best behaved dog I’ve met in a while with the exception of my old neighbors dog when I was about 6. But he was a Navy trained dog so he had more good boi training I’d imagine.

[justxxan]

Not going to lie

I feel venting on here is actually helping me process this whole mess.

Maybe that’s causative to horrible social anxiety that kind of prohibits me from talking to anyone irl so I just stew in this nightmare. Not unlike how being trapped in a barrel would probably feel like only the barrel is full of bear traps of angst and lemon juice of... just lemon juice.

Maybe this is life until I die in 40 or so years.

Edit: hot lemon juice

[justxxan]

Even my favourite things to do seem so stupid and pointless. My hobbies are gaming and cooking but a few nights ago I made chicken with a lemon, garlic and ginger dish. When I sat down to enjoy it I felt so trapped in my hopeless life. Nothing matters.

Pic somewhat related

[justxxan]

So what do I do? What am I to do now?

As my pointless, spiteful existence continues I have no idea how or why to go on. Which makes me feel crazy because no one actually knows what I’m going through. Whatever, would anybody even care if they knew? Likely not

Another unrealated pic for the bots

[justxxan]

Perhaps...

Perhaps I’m just crazy idk

[justxxan]

Nothing I do matters

Years ago I was about to apply for the army, it was the only thing I wanted at the time but then an accident happened and I got nerve damage in my right hand so I can’t.

Now I just feel so jaded and nothing matters to me anymore. The only one who even cares about my existence is my cat because I feed her.

Long one I know but that’s kind of what I use tumblr for these days. I just vent to the bot accounts because I know no one is going to read this.

Pic unrealated.

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[enthusiasticlizardtheme]

Such a sweet a jam

[loviely]

raise ur hand if You’re tryin real hard but it’s gettin worse n worse evryday

[loggednightmares]

Mental illness has ruined my fucking life, don’t ever tell me that it’s a choice

[untrusteveryone]

SHOUT OUT TO EVERYONE WHO STILL TRIES TO GET BACK INTO THE SWING OF THINGS AFTER DEPRESSION HIT THEM HARD. THERE ISN’T ENOUGH RECOGNITION FOR THOSE PEOPLE WHO KNOW THAT THEY’RE GOING TO LOSE INTEREST AND MOTIVATION AGAIN BUT PUSH THEMSELVES TO DO STUFF ANYWAYS. YOU ARE FIGHTING A DAILY BATTLE WITH YOUR OWN THOUGHTS AND YOU’RE STILL COMING OUT ON TOP, YOU’RE ALL BRAVE AS FUCK

[mens-rights-activia]

Me: I’m having such a hard time, can y’all please go easy on me?

[mens-rights-activia]

According to this meme I made in 2016, 2018 is the last year in a barrage of terrible years. In 2019, the suffering will end and good things will come to us once again

[albearrawr]

Reblog for a good 2019, because goddamnit we all need it.

[justxxan]

I’ll be your monster, you’ll be my bride.

[melonmemes]

[horribledrawingsofmylife]

my therapist would tell me this is a thought distortion but i really dont care