unholy

i want to be soft and sweet but i’m fucking vile.

[juxtaparadox]

tumblr decided to terminate my writing blog (i'm devastated) and i cannot stop crying because i don't understand why the hell it's been terminated!? i haven't even had an email explaining why.

genuinely worried i'm about to have to start all over again :(

and i was 1 follower away from 600 as well :'(

was: plasticflowersinahistorycemetery (smin)

@losers-clvb @soldiersgirl @bejeweledinterludes @sacr1ficialang3l @angelicjackles @blossomingorchids @lunaleah @tinas111 @daylighted @0ccvltism @bruisedfig @claireyoucandobeddor @nevercameraready @itshellfire @deansbbyx @mostlymarvelgirl @sorryitsmyfirstdayonearth @xoswiftieprincess @waynes-multiverse (i cannot think of who else to tag rn because my brain is screaming and i'm having a panic attack the size of europe but if y'alls can think of any others, pls let them know)

smh fuck, tumblr making me expose my priv like this. criminal.

[juxtaparadox]

my life is fucked :)))

let's pretend i'm not currently battling active recovery while watching my nana die and having to take care of my youngest brother because my ma can't handle even the slightest amount of stress without shutting down and becoming catatonic. i will be damned if i let my lil bro go through one of her breakdowns like i had to when i was younger. parentified daughters rise. i am also highk struggling with my recurring prescription pill addiction which isn't helping my ed and i'm like... fuck what the fuck am i doing

[ren-needsaving]

[understands]

[archbudzar]

WOULD RATHER BE ALONE THAN FEEL LIKE THIS

follow my work on Instagram

[plasticflowersinahistorycemetery]

i can’t claw my way out of this pit. can’t dig my feet into the dirt— it’s too dry. it crumbles every time i get purchase.

no progress. just dust beneath my nails.

i’m waiting for the rain.

maybe it’ll wet the earth, make the climb easier. maybe it’ll soften the edges, give me something to hold.

or maybe, just maybe, it’ll fill the hole instead.

drown the need to get out. drown me with my desperation to escape.

i can’t decide which feels more comforting.

[innocentscemetery]

Psychout for Murder (1969)

[bustyourkneecapz]

[understands]

[archbudzar]

Libra season (C.B)(9.30.18)

[sonimage1965]

[f3cbd1]

[praisethelucifer]

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[muchlovefleursblog]

[whenyougotosleep]

[mournfulroses]

Katherine May, from Wintering: How I learned to Flourish when Life became Frozen 

[nevver]