Earlier today, I was watching a vlog and a familiar song that I often avoid listening to came on. I didn't recognise the melody immediately, but somehow squinting my eyes helped me concentrate and as soon as I heard those familiar lyrics my heart sank. "Baby I'm so lonely". This song hurts me because it was very clear the condition of this person's heart - the lonely pain that brings someone to take their life really grieves me. I have an early morning, I'm trying to sleep and for some reason the idea of speaking to those who are suicidal comes to my mind. What would I say? Literally, an audio of a conversation is created in my mind. My eyes are closed and this audio, this monologue is created in my head and the more I hear of what my voice is saying to this person tears are uncontrollably coming out. What would I say? You are highly valuable and you are highly valued, precious and bought at the highest price. For God so loved the world that He GAVE and did not even spare His only son that He may have you. There is a love that can never be matched or contained, a love that is deeper, wider, higher and longer than any other love. The cross is not to be feared, it is His perfect crazy love and this love is your life and hope. This love knows your name and knows everything of you, and died to give you life before you even had breath. It is ready with open arms, it is prepared for you. You are so valuable, so precious, so highly valued - He displaced Himself, saw treasure in you and wanted and continues to want you so much that He gave His son buying you at the highest price that you will be His, that you will have life, that you will be free, that you will have hope, that you will simply breathe and never be alone. He waits for you, He yearns for you. Patiently at the altar, He waits for you.
And this do not just for the suicidal. I yearn for my brother, my family, the suicidal, the lost , the lukewarm and backslidden to know the cross. The greatest measure and demonstration of true love.
I pray my heart will wear the cross like a pendant - a pendant that can never be removed. May my heart wear highly valued I am and may this truth never depart from me. May it wear your love Lord. And I pray to be used mightily that many will know this love. Wear sin, the world and enemy as stolen, killed and destroyed many may I be a vessel used that a multitude and even nations will know the hope, future, life, way, and love of God. I will not shut up but this Gospel I am proud of, this love I am proud of.