K-tea: Unfiltered

Thoughts and feelings. Unfiltered, uninhibited, and completely valid (I hope).

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Too f**king soon.

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I just want to go home and sew and make stuff

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Omg hi

It's been a while

I am still a grumpy cow 😁

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Endlessly scrolling pumpkin merch because apparently that's how I handle depression 👍🎃

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Note to self: Don't write sad things at the gym. It makes me wanna cry twice as hard.

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My head also feels heavy. Ugh.

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I'm exhausted. Is anyone else exhausted? 'Cause I'm exhausted.

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The 4th has not been with me today. My friends, however, have, and I feel really fucking grateful for that ❤️

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Oh hey, it's been a while.

I am so tired.

Where do I begin?

I need a holiday.

My best friend has left the company we both work for and will soon be leaving the county to live four hours away. Which fucking sucks.

I can't seem to write. As in creatively. Nothing is working.

I'm freaking out that time is going so fast and I'm getting older.

Counselling is good but exhausting and expensive. And I keep spending the rest of my money on stupid shit so I keep panicking about running out of money.

I don't know where my "career" is going.

I feel chunky and gross and the gym ain't doing anything for me.

My skin is a mess.

My teeth are sensitive and I'm shitting bricks about my dentist appointment next week.

I've actually contemplated calling in sick at work just to catch a break.

I want to go see the world but I have a mortgage to pay.

I constantly want to eat.

Urghhhhhh.

There are good things, honestly. But I'm tired. And that's kind of prevailing right now.

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I mean, they're damn fine fucking stickers. Just sayin' (apart from all the plastic wrapping. Ffs).

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Why do I have to go to work when I could be enjoying my sticker delivery? 🙄

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Hello! I'm alive, and much better.

I've been having counselling for a while now. It's helping hugely. I understand more about myself and how my past has affected me more than ever. I have a safe place to share my thoughts and feelings and not be judged, or worry they I'm burdening someone.

I'm still tired. I still have tough days. But things are better. And that's good.

[aidashakur]

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Huh. I haven't shared my depressed and anxious thoughts here for a while.

I'm sorry to say that this doesn't mean I don't still have them.

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Seriously, every time I start to feel better and things look brighter, something happens and my mood just plummets again.

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Things were kinda going well. Then they got fucked.

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Can I just give up now?