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[anxietyproblem]

Just for fun. Let’s all write a poem about anxiety. 

Start with, Dear anxiety…

[visi0n720]

Dear anxiety…

I’m sorry I’m not what you want from me,

a clean demolition, a loud demonstration,

but Im a quiet poison that only brings devistation,

My laughter is infectious and the room falls silent,

every word I speak is backed by hateful violence,

I’m hated, I must be, it’s what the voices scream,

I’m afraid, and I never ever would want to know me,

so to my anxiety, It must seem like I’m tough,

but i promise you truly, I’ll never be enough…

[beenberry-deactivated20230219]

Dear anxiety

My palms are sweating

You stand beside me in the mirror

But no one sees how you torment me

They say ‘awww you’re always so happy’

But they don’t see you

We both heard them laugh

You say it’s about me

But I know better.

[tundraroo]

Dear anxiety…

i’m tired of feeling under the weather

with all the “what if’s,” with the “you gotta do better,”

you’re a song stuck in my head,

but you aren’t a pleasant song to sing,

the moment i deal with you, calm myself down,

you come back to torment me, and my head will ring,

the never-ending doubt about myself,

i spend so much energy to deal with your blabber,

but again, you come right back to me,

the never-ending victim of your chatter,

i feel tired in the morning because of you,

and the exhaustion only makes you bigger,

filling my head, asking “what’s wrong with me?”,

though i know better than to listen to your snicker,

you are only a voice in my head, after all,

not a representation of me, or what i desire,

the intrusive thoughts, the “what if’s,” the endless worry,

i need not treat you so dire,

it’s difficult, sure, since you sound so convincing,

but it’s becoming easier to see through your deception,

so while the road i must take is still long and steep,

i’ll only grow stronger through self-perception.

[happycryingdarlings]

Dear anxiety,

I have no energy

Left

To fight you.

I am lonely,

Alone, with you.

I miss my friends, my family,

I wish I’d never listened to your melody

When you said there was rain

But with no cloud in sight

I’ll be strong through the pain

I’ll be my own light

But today

I have no energy

In me.

[fiction-travels]

Dear anxiety,

I know you’re supposed to be something that helps me.

Something to keep me from danger or help me escape it.

Something we’ve needed to get where we are today.

But you’re to much.

You’re voice forces me into overdrive,

You make the smallest touch burn,

You make me feel like nothing is good enough,

You choke me when I want to scream,

You hold me down when I’m in danger,

You shake me when I need to be steady,

You cripple me when I want to go-

I don’t want you, but I don’t know how to live without you.

Because you were there when they left.

You are there when I’m scared.

When I don’t know what to do.

When it’s the last minute and I need to finish.

I don’t know how to live without you, but I can’t keep living like this.

You’re going to destroy me.

I want you to go away.

But if you do, will I too?

Will I also need to leave if I don’t want to be with you anymore?

…

Dear Anxiety.

Thank you for trying.

Please stop.

[kachulein]

Dear Anxiety,

You always come to visit me all of a sudden

And rob me of my mental clarity

So everyone around me views me as a burden

Although I know these fears are irrational

I can’t seem to stop them from entering

And so I go on and keep on wondering;

Am I just too sensitive? Too emotional?

Or is it you, anxiety, who’s planted these thoughts in my head?

Is it you who triggers fears upon thoughts that keep me up in bed?

Is it you who’s made me paranoid to the thought of everyone hating me?

Is it you who doesn’t let me get over my misery?

How can I separate myself from all that is you?

How can I believe that your lies aren’t true?

I don’t want to keep living in this endless suffering

So long and far seems the road of recovering

When will you ever get fed up of tormenting me?

I know you’ll get stronger if I put up a fight

And I can’t ignore you for you’ll make sure that I see

How you’re still here and waiting to attack me again at night

I’m drowning in an ocean of my own tears

The water keeps spilling out over the shore

I’m screaming and crying but no one hears my fears

For they are silent killers who won’t listen to you no more

The fighting, clawing, and trampling only makes me lose my breath

As the water slowly starts filling my lungs

I’m getting calm and stop resisting as I patiently await death

Accepting my fate, I am making peace with what comes

But suddenly it all changes and the water stills

I’m catching my breath, find the ground beneath my feet

The water dissipates and all that’s left are muddy hills

I’m not suffocating anymore although I’ve accepted defeat

Was it acceptance that made you leave in the end?

Should I have treated you as if you were a friend?

Was all the straining against your will in vain?

Should I have just let you uncover all the pain?

Is it validation that you seek, a desire to be heard?

For that you will finally leave my world?

Dear anxiety, it is hard to figure you out

But I think I’m gonna win this round.

[kachusworld]

21/09/20

you can hide your pain

so that the others don't see

but baby, you cannot deceive me

i can see the sadness in your eyes

and in your smile

i can feel it in the way you talk

and the way you walk

you can show 'em this happy image all you like

but i will always see how you're hurting inside

time: 11:38pm

[warakami-vaporwave]

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[kachusworld]

dear friend 08/09/20

how can i help someone without knowing what's wrong

i feel helpless, so i put my words into this song

are you feeling lonely, lost, or at war with your mind?

do you feel like you're being left behind?

whatever it may be, please don't fight this alone

it's so hard to deal with these demons on your own

you can always come to me, i understand

i'm here to offer you a helping hand

let it all out and don't bottle it up

and even if that doesn't make it stop

you're finally sharing what's been weighing you down

please don't try to hide your pain, i can see it in your frown

okay i'm sorry, i don't mean to force you to open up

i just don't want you to swallow your pain like the contents of a coffee-cup

you may not be ready to share this with someone

and maybe the thoughts in your mind make you wanna run

i know it's scary and you don't want to face

all the struggles that put you in such a dark place

but pushing them away will only make them stronger in the end

and is it really worth it to go on and pretend?

you don't need to be afraid, i'm not here to judge

and if you don't want this, i promise i won't budge

it's just that it pains me to see you suffer in silence

and i don't want you to be alone with your mind and its violence

that's why i'm here to tell you that i really care

and that no matter what, i'll always be there

whenever you're ready, you can come to me

i'll listen to your story and help you become happy.

time: 00.07am

[underratedpopsicle]

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クリスタルペプシの涙

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[kachusworld]

daydream - 17/08/20

i keep hiding in my daydream

reality can't compare

but you'll stay unaware

that you're the star in my daydream

-

when i wake up in the morning i just want to go back to sleep

i'm chasing dreams with you in them but none of 'em i can keep

why do you have to be so far away when all i want is to have you near

if i met you, i knew, i could not stay but the thought of losing you is my biggest fear

when i watch your cuddly form through the screen of my phone

and when i see a smile spread out over your lips

i can no longer bear the reality of being alone,

i want to run to you and put your hands on my hips

it's all innocent and pure, i just really crave affection,

whenever i look at you, all i can see is perfection

and when you give me a hug and hold me close

i will look up at you and get on my tip toes

until our lips brush against each other in a kiss sweeter than a chocolate milkshake

it is then, that i'm being torn out of my dream and suddenly lie here alone & awake

time: 6.59pm

[pink-rosie-posie]

[eliisunflower]

Please do not leave me alone, stay by my side.

[boyist]

↳ pink & pining

[kachusworld]

him.

it all started with a simple song

that i repeated all night long

your music drew me in so deep

and followed me even into sleep

i never meant for this to start

too strong was the beauty of your art

blindly did i fall into your trap, without realizing

and soon after i’ve found myself crying

over the fact that i’ve fallen for you

and how our love will never become true

our worlds are so different and so far

it puts my mind and my heart at war

my rationality fights against my undying love

though just being able to hold you is all i dream of

02/01/19; 05:30am

[sugar-puppie]

[girl-of-your-dreams-02-deactiva]

🥺🥺💕

[selves-acceptance]

you are enough, just as you are.

you don’t need to change to be lovable.

you don’t need to change to be worthy of good things.

[angeldiscovery]

Heal and evolve ♥︎

[summersunflower-suggestions]

you are going to make it.

[sugar-puppie]