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4.4k/ Reader pov x soshiro build up/ reader has a big family/ it's chaotic but in a good way/ some drama with soshiro/  angy soshiro/ trying my darndest to be gn with my reader POV but im sure i missed somethin/ i guess hurt and comfort?/ where are all my ppl with loud and invasive families at haha

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Soshiro has yelled before. “Get those legs up!” “More! C’mon I know you got more in you!” “Ten more reps then we’ll call it a day!” all commands in training or shouting orders when on a mission. Sure, he’s yelled and shouted at all of you a whole lot. But always in your best interest. For your protection, strength, encouragement, to make you better. But this time was different. 

It got very silent after he did. This time he wasn't shouting from his usual place of care. He was angry. Almost menacing even. Worse, it was directed at you. 

You dropped your staff in the middle of armed combat training. It happens. Not a big deal. Usually. People drop staffs, swords, guns, all the time and then everyone corrects form and  moves on. Not today. 

You’re frozen in place. For the first time you find yourself afraid of the vice captain. There is always the knowledge that he could kill you if he really wanted to. He is extremely talented and could take a whole school of trainees. Of course. There is the reverence of his ability at all times. But to feel like it could be used against you? You’ve never felt fear quite like that sink into your bones. You’re sure your skin has gone pale and your basic bodily functions like breathing and heartbeat faltered. Everyone else feels it too. His eyes, a brilliant violet, are staring into yours and you can't move. The strength you were using a moment ago vanishes.The tension in his body seems ready to pounce on you. What did you do wrong? You couldn't understand. You go through all your movements in your head. Everyone drops fighting props. What did you do wrong? He berated you infront of everyone and internally you're doing it to yourself now too.

Kafka breaks the silence in the room and the panic in your head. “Hey, uh, vice captain, I’ll work with them.” He puts his hand on your shoulder and with a tug pulls you out of your frozen state and guides you away from Soshiro’s glare to a far corner of the gymnasium. Soshiro doesn't argue and you feel his eyes on the both of you as you’re guided away. The tension is still heavy in the air as you both walk. 

Practice continues quietly and with hesitancy from everyone as they avoid being on the receiving end of any more of his ire. You can feel eyes on you and murmurs of “Shit, that was intense.” “They okay?” “I wouldn't be.” You're still shaking a bit as Kafaka tries to guide you through the movements. A pitying look on his face you're half grateful for. You’re still trying to figure out what happened. What did you do that was so incorrect? Maybe something you did before this? 

“Hey.” Kafka’s low soft voice snaps you back from your spiral again. “Keep your eyes on me okay?” 

You nod trying to steel your nerves but you’re too afraid to look back at the vice captain. God, you think you’re going to cry actually. His anger is so frightening but more so is the thought of disappointing him. Kafka is fighting you with the same gentleness he would use on a kitten. 

Practice ends and your friends practically run to you. You're grateful for the shield they provide as you all put your weapons away and leave the gym. You still don't dare to look at the vice captain. Embarrassed, hurt and tired you let them guide you to the cafeteria. 

“Okay what the fuck was that?” Iharu asks once you're all out of earshot from Soshiro. 

“Yeah, that was a bit much.” Reno says.

“A bit? It was uncalled for.” Kikoru says, noticeably upset. “Don’t get me wrong. I’m all for berating people when it's called for but (y/n) wasn't doing anything wrong. We all drop our staff sometimes.” 

“Yeah, especially during sparring.” says Reno

“You didn't do anything to piss him off before training did ‘ya?” Iharu asks you.

“No? I don't think so?” It's not like you havent been thinking about it. It's all youve been thinking about. What did you do that was so wrong? 

“Hey, even if they did, that kind of reaction is uncalled for.” Kikoru says.

“She’s right.” Reno says. “Even if (y/n) had, vice captain still has to be mindful of how he carries out punishment. Obviously after he did that it affected morale.”

“Was he acting a bit off to any of you before training started?” Kikoru asks. 

“Nah, I didn't notice anything.” Iharu says. 

“What else is new?” Reno remarks. 

“Hey!” Iharu says, punching Renos arm. 

“Yeah, way to have self awareness, Iharu.” Kikoru adds. 

You all laugh at Iharu’s expense and his many failed objections to having some level of self awareness. 

Kafka sighs “I don't know what that was but I bet it's got nothing to do with you, yeah?” he rests a heavy arm over your shoulders as you all reach the cafeteria. “At least you won't be here for the rest of the week.”

“Oh yeah, your big family gathering and all.” Iharu pinches your arm.

That brings a smile to your face. You haven't seen your family in months, much less extended family and you're excited to have some home cooking and for your parents to buy your dinners for you when you all go sightseeing. You appreciate your friends so much for trying to make you feel better. A family away from your own. Kafka is probably right. Maybe something did happen to Soshiro before training. It still stung though. 

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Five days go by in a very turbulent cyclone of hugs, sometimes the bear kind, kisses, hand shaking, other times straight up picking you up and shaking your whole body greetings. “Cousin!” “Sister!” “Mom!” “Uncle!” “Dad!” “Look at you! You’re real strong now, huh?” “Can we fight?” “How many kaiju have you killed?” “Any cute guys you got your eye on?” “Do you travel a lot?” “Do you get to keep body parts?” “Where can I get their body parts?” “Gross.” “I bet it's fun.” “I bet it's gross.” “Stop talking about it. I hate thinking about my baby in that situation.” “They arent your baby anymore!” “Yeah they are. Just a bigger baby now.” And on and on like that constantly for days. It doesn't particularly end at night either. 

You’ve all gathered at your grandfather's house managing to squeeze something like 15 people (with more coming and going) into four bedrooms, two living rooms, four closets and some even camping in the kitchen. Still more come for dinners and outings but do not stay the night. At night you can hear your mother and aunts cackle and chat about old boyfriends, girlfriends, some information you could have gone your whole life not hearing about your uncles and who in the family died recently. They talk outside for hours and still get up before everyone else to make breakfast. Your uncles outside talking about work and how their jobs are treating them. Maybe find new contacts through each other. Not everyone could take the time off for the reunion. Some come and go for work. Some drop by for lunch. Some relatives you only see briefly, some you spend the whole week with. Your grandfather half heartedly watching the kids with your other grandfather. Your afternoons with your cousins are left chatting about who's dating who, who's going to work where, accepted to what school, marrying someone here, going on a trip elsewhere. 

Long walks, shopping trips, hikes, several grocery runs, long drives, sleeping in cramped seats, lots of cleaning after dinner, arguing about bathroom order. You figure every single minute was used for something. It feels like a lof once you reflect on it but it's familiar and comforting even if stressful at times. Finding the quiet moments to speak in the silence of a tired house late at night are some of the best conversations you ever have. They happen in bedrooms, on the patio, in the backyard, in the kitchen, outside past the gate on the sidewalk, the bathroom. Whispers of gossip, your aunt's new young boyfriend, your cousin's way too expensive car that has your aunt shake her head when mentioned. Tense moments that are forced to pass, laughter that hurts your sides when you breathe, honestly that brings some to cry, reminiscing of days that make everyone silent and listen intently. Understanding this is passed wisdom you may not get the chance to hear again. Sometimes this all happens at once in the same room.

Your mom announces she wants to have a big dinner tonight since most of your family will leave the following day. All day all hands are helping cook, clean, shop, set tables, chairs, speakers, putting on makeup, doing hair, choosing outfits and shopping some more.

Finally everyone is in for the evening and once again settling down for long conversations, drinking, playing games, eating and dancing. You are often on your feet getting this for that uncle, helping an aunt with that, giving a cousin this, talking to grandma about some other thing you haven't thought about since you were eight. 

You finally get a chance to sit at a crowded table breathing in for a moment. So many family and friends showed up that the dinner had to spill out to the patio from inside. Then more friends and family arrived and then it spilled out into the front yard. All the young, too cool teens in the backyard, your cousins closer to your age crowded around you talking, well, more like yelling but that's just how they speak. Your older aunts and uncles half singing half telling stories to laugh at each other too. Some others helping set up hanging lights on the trees. Soshiro casually speaking with one of your uncles by the gate. The kids chase each other with toys or beg for a water slide. 

Wait.

Soshiro casually speaking with your uncle by the front gate?

No, you weren't drinking unlike your other cousins so you definitely were not imagining Soshiro casually holding a conversation with your uncle. Now one of your aunts is walking towards him with a drink. Oh god what is going on. 

You shoot up to your feet and try as fast as you can to get to him but have to shove past chairs and tables set tightly by each other. Push by family standing and talking. Squeeze around others carrying food and barely managing not to trip past spatially challenged adults and children. 

“Vice captain!” You shout although you don't mean to be so loud but you are still not convinced this is really happening. You’re actually not sure if you didn't drink something earlier while being tossed around for chores and taking a sip from anything to quench your thirst and forgot. 

Soshiro turns to you with his usual unreadable expression. He’s holding what looks like orange soda in his hand. “Hello (y/n). I hope you don't mind my intrusion but I really wanted to talk to you-”

“(y/n)! Why didn't you say you were going to have guests come today?” your aunt that handed him his drink asks.

“I didn't know I had any.” you say to her confused, worried, and maybe a little embarrassed. “I’m sorry I wasn't expecting anyone from the division to show up. What are you doing here?” you ask him. A million scenarios of how this evening could go horribly wrong play out. You're suddenly very self conscious. 

Before Soshiro can say anything you see one of your uncles walk towards you and give you both a look. You know that look. It's the look every family member in the history of family has always given when they are about to ask the dreaded question. You are too late to stop him from asking: “Boyfriend?” 

“NO!” you shout just as the word comes out of his mouth. But now you’ve managed to attract everyone's attention within earshot. You hope the music drowned out your uncle asking that. You dare a quick look at Soshiro’s face but it's unmoving. Thank god he's always had such a good poker face. 

Cousins begin to walk up “Hey, there (y/n)’s friend that is definitely not a boyfriend! What's your name?” 

This is gonna be a long evening. 

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You're both sitting next to each other. It's been something like three hours and they have not stopped asking Soshiro questions. It's not everyday a famous kaiju killing officer shows up to a family gathering. You’re exhausted from trying to protect Soshiro from evasive questions but he takes it all in stride. He answers all questions promptly and gives just the right amount of information. He’s so tactful with your rude family it's admirable. There's no point in you telling them not to ask something because Soshiro has already responded. You stop trying to stop it. He's perfectly trained in combat and intrusive family conversation too it seems.

“So vice captain, is (y/n) any good at what they do?” a cousin asks with a baby on his lap. 

You’re about to say something but then remember the last training session you had with your division. You’re actually not so certain yourself. 

“(y/n) has exceeded all of my expectations.” he turns to you. “I couldn't have asked for a better officer to be in my platoon.” 

You search his face for a clue of him joking or waiting for a punchline. But his smile is sincere. You want to be moved by his response but you think he's probably just trying to make you look good in front of your family. 

Your cousins murmur their comments of approval among themselves. “Hey, vice captain, would you like something else to drink?” one of your cousins asks from further down the table. 

“Please, I’ll get my own drink. Don't trouble yourself.” he stands and turns to you. “Would you like anything?” 

You're still not quite sure what to make of all of this. A refill is not really a thought you're having. 

“(y/n) probably wants some of the cake we have at the table by the drinks.” someone else chimes in. 

“I can get that myself.” you do want the cake but having your superior serve you is too weird to handle. You start to get up from your chair when he interjects. 

“It's okay. I’m happy to. Enjoy your time with your family.” he says smiling then scooting past everyone towards the drink table.

“He’s nice.” “Yeah, I figured defense force officers were kinda meat heads, you know?” “He has real good manners.” “He's sitting so straight.” “I didn't know they made them like that anymore.” your cousins comment. 

One of them shoves your shoulder playfully. “He’s super cute!” she gestures to Soshiro speaking with your lively little cousin swinging a stick like a sword. “Why didn't you say you were inviting someone?” 

“I didn't.” you continue to watch him making sure nobody is being rude towards him. Who knows how this is going to affect your job if your family does something offensive or stupid. 

“He just showed up?” 

“Yeah. I mean I have to report where I’m going to be but I didn't invite anyone.” 

“He just wanted to show up?” another cousin asks. 

You nod. They give knowing looks to each other. 

“What?” you ask firmly. Who knows what mischievous things they're communicating with each other telepathically it seems. “Don't say anything stupid in front of him please.”

“Hey, we aren't gonna have you lose your job.”

“Does he do this a lot? Just show up to officers' houses unannounced?” your cousin who asked about inviting him wonders. She has a tone that you can tell is heading this conversation somewhere you don't want it to. 

You sigh irritated. “It’s not like that.” 

“Why not?” another cousin asks. 

Some of them are giggling now. They are enjoying this excruciating line of questions. 

“Because.” you say wanting this conversation to end before he comes back. 

“Are you not allowed to date superiors?” 

“No- I- well, I don't know.” You shake your head frustrated that they're leading you on the exact conversation you're trying to avoid. “It doesn't matter, okay! It’s not going to happen!” 

“Do you want it to?” someone further down the table asks. You had no idea the conversation had reached that far down. You can feel your face start to burn and you don't want to give them anymore ammo. It's time to make your escape before they realize your face is a giveaway. 

You stand up. “I’m gonna check on him.” you begin to walk away and some of them start to whistle a love song, giggle or whisper little comments. They definitely saw your face turn red. 

You get to Soshiro as he was about to head back to the table. He's holding your cake and his drink “You mind if I eat that somewhere else? It's getting stuffy at the table.” 

Soshiro smiles, not looking eager to return to his interrogation. “Sure. I’ll follow your lead.” 

“Let's go out to the sidewalk.” You both begin to walk towards the gate. You wish you could shrink your head into your body like a turtle. The looks you both are getting as you walk out is enough to make you want to disappear. 

You give a long exhale when you're both finally out the gate. You lean against the wall that borders your grandfathers home. The music and noise from the party faded considerably behind the brick. Soshiro hands you your food. 

“Thank you for getting this for me.” 

“Of course.” he takes a drink from his cup. 

“It's been such a whirlwind I didn't ask you why you're here.” you cut a smaller piece of cake to eat. 

“You did. Earlier. I just didn't get a chance to respond.” 

You stop chewing. “I did?” 

A smile grows on his face. “Yes. But I understand. I’m so sorry for showing up like this. I just needed to speak with you about last week.” 

“Last week?” 

He nods. A pained expression taking over his face. He places his cup down on the sidewalk. “(y/n),-” he faces you with a determined look. His voice is serious. You tense up not sure why he suddenly had to put his cup down for whatever he's about to do. For a moment you think hes going to kick your ass for having such a loud fucking family. He bows. “Please forgive me for my extremely rude behavior.” 

Your brain stops. “What?” is all you manage to squeak out. 

He rises up. He’s looking down but you can tell from his face that he means this. “Last week. I lashed out at you. It was uncalled for. I immediately regretted it after it happened.” 

You think for a second, still trying to catch up to the fact that Soshiro Hoshina just bowed to you. Then you remember. “Oh!” 

He gives you a look that says ‘Seriously? I’m trying to apologize and you don't even remember?’

“Sorry, it's just, well, this week has been so busy I kinda forgot about that. I mean until you showed up anyways.” you clear your throat. “I didn't expect you’d apologize for it. Much less show up here to do it.” 

He pinches the bridge of his nose. “I shouldnt’ve’ shown up.” 

“No! Its fine that you did! It was just shocking.” 

He takes a deep breath and exhales. “I wanted to talk to you the next day but then I was told you were on break for a week. And, well, I didn't want to wait any longer. It was…” he trailed off before starting again. “It was botherin’ me too much. You looked real hurt so… I’m sorry.” 

A pause between you two follows and the only sounds are the nighttime insects and your family's music and laughter that echoes past the wall. Then it hits you. You're five hours away from Tokyo right now. Your vacation ends the day after tomorrow. He could have waited another day. He could have called. Even a text if he really wanted to apologize that way. But more importantly you never expected he’d apologize to begin with. It hurt and you were scared but you figured that was just part of the territory of being in the defense force. You get your commanding officers ire sometimes. 

“... I accept your apology.” You say looking at your half eaten cake suddenly too shy to face him.

He sighs in relief. “Good.” 

Another pause. 

“You came all this way to apologize?” you ask, looking at him. Searching his eyes. 

He looks at your eyes in return and doesn't respond for a moment. “Yeah.” he smiles. “Can I have some of that?” 

“Huh? Oh, yeah but I dont have another fork-” He steals your fork and takes a piece of the cake. 

He chews and swallows. “It's good.” 

You watch him chew. Stunned that he just did that. “Yes.” 

“Homemade?” 

“Yes.” 

“You like it a lot too, huh?” 

“Yes.” That's the only response you can say apparently. 

He chuckles then his voice drops when he speaks. “I have so much fun with you. I didn't want what happened to affect us.” 

You watch him not sure what to think right now so you say the first thing that comes to mind. “I have fun with you too.” You suck your lips into your mouth directly after saying that because never would you have imagined you'd have the bravery to say something like that to him. 

He laughs. “What's with that face?” 

You pretend not to know what he's talking about, raising an eyebrow still sucking on your lips. 

He laughs more and you try to hold your lips in but end up bursting out in a laugh too. It's so good to hear him laugh. It's so contagious. It always makes you smile without fail. You both go on until the laughing subsides on its own. You now remember what happened after the training session. 

“Can I ask you if something happened before the session that made you do that? I was afraid I did something to disappoint you.” 

His expression visibly shifts to a serious one as you say that. His eye brows furrow slightly like he's mad at you for saying that. “You could never disappoint me.” 

You once again are at a loss for words so you give a nod instead. 

He joins you leaning on the wall. He silently looks down at his shoes for a moment as if thinking of what to say before facing you. “I don't want to give you excuses.” 

You shake your head slowly. “Not an excuse. We were wondering if something had happened. You're not usually like that.” 

Soshiro looked hesitant to say anything. He seemed to look everywhere except back at you. He opened and closed his mouth several times before speaking. “My family isn't like yours ya’ know.” 

There had always been whispers about the Hoshina family. Not very good ones. Soshiro also doesn't often volunteer information about himself. But maybe tonight he's making an exception because he feels guilty. 

“My brother called me and…” he sighs irritatedly and drags a hand across his face. "I'd rather not bore you with the details.” he says with a breathy half assed laugh. “It’s a nice night with your family. I dont wanna ruin that.”

He's uncomfortable and you can see it. It stings a little bit that he won't tell you. 

He picks up on changes in your facial expression as you look away. “Sorry. I know I just spent the whole evening with your family but…” he sighs. “It’s just a lot that you really don't need to worry about.” he’s trying to sound like he's doing you a favor. 

You give him a sad smile. You want to know. You want to know everything about him. “I understand.” You understand that he's your boss and there's always going to be an invisible boundary between the two of you because of that. Can't get too close. That's always it isn't it? You both can laugh, joke, he can show up to your family gathering unannounced, charm all of them, get you cake, but no. You can't get too close. “But I want you to know you don't have to keep it to yourself. I mean you tried that and look where you are now.” 

He snorts. “Yeah you’re right.” He looks at the top of the wall then the gate. “It's not such a bad place to be though.” A sudden wave of laughter comes from behind the wall. Your family's joy makes you smile. 

“Yeah I guess they aren't so bad.” You eat more of your cake. “But it's not always like this, you know.” He looks at you curiously. “I just want you to know families are complicated. But I'm sure you know that.” 

He nods knowingly. “Yeah. I get it.” He stretches and takes the fork from your hand, swiping the last piece of cake for himself before you can say anything. He picks up the cup and chugs down his drink. He grimaces “Yeah your uncle for sure put somethin’ in that.” You laugh. “Well I'm gonna head out.” He checks the time on his phone. “I’ll catch the last train to Tokyo if I leave 10 minutes ago.”

You start to panic. “Are you gonna be able to get home?” 

He shrugs and starts to walk away. “If anything I’ll stay at the nearest base.” He waves as he walks backwards. “Thank your family for me! They were great! I’ve never heard someone be asked if they were my (girlfriend/ boyfriend/ partner) sa’ many times and be so cool ‘bout it!” 

You blush. You become the shade of a ripe strawberry. The inside of a watermelon perhaps. “What!?” 

He chuckles. “I’ll see you back at base soon!” 

You watch him walk away casting long shadows by lamp posts as he passes them. You ask him in a whisper “Why didn't you just wait until I got back?” 

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promise i actually have other things to write about other than kn8 men in heat like fr i just haven’t had the time to sit down and write this week. some ideas i’m excited about. one with soshiro x reader and another with gen x reader aaaaa i can’t wait to have time 🐊 📝

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reno ichikawa x f!reader/ cock warming/ needy subby reno/ eventual breeding/ begging/ teasing reader 😈/possibly fucking up your furniture/ short drabble

“Please, baby, please let me put it in baby! You said I could fuck you raw, baby! Please!” Reno whimpers, his voice cracking as he slides his cock on your slick pussy coating it with your juices. Poor thing. He’s so needy for your permission. But he’s so cute when he’s like this. Breathing so hard his nostrils are flaring, you can feel his heartbeat go erratic against your back, barely able to keep a pace up from your thighs squeezing him.

He’s thrusting as he stands behind you cock warming himself. It’s so sexy watching him be so needy. “You said I could- ah!” he’s gripping the table in front of you with white knuckles barely able to keep steady. “You said I could fuck you raw baby. Please, god, please!” you turn your head to face him and swear you see tears welling up in his eyes. He’s sweating, breathing so hard his nostrils are flaring, you can feel his heart beating so fast against your back.

“Are you gonna be good?” you reach back and caress his hair.

He’s so sensitive anywhere you touch him makes him tremble. “Mmm! Yes! Yes, I’ll be good baby! I’ll be so good for you!” he wraps his arms around your waist tight. You reach down and stroke the head of his cock. He jumps at the sensation “Fuck! Baby! Please! Please! I wanna cum inside! Fuck, please!” he’s fully whimpering having lost control of his voice and fucking your palm.

He’s so fucking cute. You kiss him and he’s so eager to stick his tongue in your mouth. So ready for his reward. You hold eye contact with him for a moment. “That’s what you want sweetie? You want to feel my pussy?” he nods quickly, breathing from his mouth now. He’s already so close. “But you’re already gonna cum.”

He shakes his head ‘no’ vigorously and swallows hard. “No! No I won’t! I’ll be good! I won’t! I’ll give you my cum when you want it! Let me! Please!”

“Stop.” you whisper. His hips stutter to a stop. He trembling. Barely managing to control himself. You can see the effort on his brow. His eyes are shut tight trying to concentrate on not ejaculating. “Open your eyes.” his eyes snap open. He’s taking such deep breaths. You admire his efforts for self control. You draw circles on the head of his cock with your slickness. He moans, his body trembles, shudders, eyes rolling to the back of his head, biting his lip. All the muscles in his body tensed. Slowly, tenderly, you slide the head of his cock in your warm welcoming pussy. Just the head. His head rolls back and he lets out a deep groan. “Don’t move yet.” you demand. Your eyes are still on him taking in every detail of his reactions as you slide him inside you. He locks eyes with you. His lips trembling, you can barely make out a ‘Please’ on his lips. You see the veins in his neck stick out, his jaw muscles tightening.

You allow another inch. Scared of crushing you he places his arms back on the table. The veins and muscles of his arms taunt. Another inch. He lays his head on your shoulder. “I can’t take it baby.” he’s practically crying.

Finally you push your ass fully on his hips, taking in his whole length in one fast movement. It takes the breath out of him. He takes a deep sudden inhale as the surprise of your warm, wet pussy envelopes his aching, swollen, drooling cock. His entire body is tense like a string is pulling him from head to toe. You admire his obedience. He still hasn’t moved like you ordered.

“Stay still.” you start to fuck yourself on his length. Gyrating your hips as he hits your sweet spot. He’s so stiff you feel sorry for him. His mouth opens and his eye lids flutter closed as he starts to go dumb from the sensation. You grind yourself on him harder. You want his cum. You want to squeeze every last drop out of him. He’s standing still as you fuck the sense out of him. His body is relaxing and he’s swaying with your movements. Your ass smacking against his navel, he’s barely saying anything coherent. You make out ‘Yes’, ‘More’, ‘Please’, ‘So good’ but the rest is him mumbling, crying as he’s watching where you both connect. Spittle coming out of his mouth and dripping onto your ass. You feel your orgasm coming. You grab his face to make him look at you as you finally grant him his wish. “Please, fuck me.”

His eyes darken. In one motion your legs are spread wider, you’re bent over, your hips raised, your legs dangle, he lifts your ass up, you brace yourself for the beautiful way you’re about to be fucked. One deep thrust as he takes command. Another and your cervix is pleading for more. Another and your arms reach out for something to hold on to. He begins to fuck you fast and deep. Each thrust making your back buckle as he reaches deeper inside. The air is knocked out of your lungs and your legs and arms are trembling as it feels like his cock is reaching your stomach. Now you’re the one that can’t form words.

The table is being pushed forward, scratching against the floor as he hammers his cock into you. Your legs tense as you feel your orgasm coming. He’s breathing hard through his teeth feeling your pussy flutter around his cock. He’s getting close too. It builds until your legs squirm finally settling on clinging to his waist, your nails dig into the table, you let out a soundless scream until finally sound returns to your vocal cords. The orgasm crashes into you electrifying your whole body making it shake and wrap your cunt like a vice around him “Cum in me, Reno!” you cry.

He grips your hips, his pelvis flush with your ass, as he grinds his cock into you finally letting himself have relief. He’s pushing into you more as he cums. You’re not sure if it’s his grip or his cock that’s lifting you off the ground. Holding his breath, then crying out your name, he bends down to your ear, shuddering as his balls empty. He gives you a few more hard deep thrusts. You hear him groan and whimper thank yous’ as he finally gets what he wants.

You both stay still as your pussy stops fluttering and his cock begins to soften. It’s quiet except for your collected heavy breathing. At some point the table was pushed directly against a wall and your feet away from where you both started. Your legs around his waist relax and settle on the ground barely with any strength to keep yourself up. His grip on your hips eases. He kisses the back of your neck lazily. “That was so good, fuck.” you feel him pull out of you. He groans at the sight of your cum leaking cunt. He puts his fingers into you. You clench around them. “You’re not full enough for me baby.” You turn to him. Hair sticking to your forehead, barely catching your breath, your legs cramping from how hard you were wrapped around him. You watch him stroke his hardening cock. His mouth slightly open watching himself play with the cum in your pussy. “I wanna do that again.”

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i can’t find it but i saw a drawing of gen instantly falling in love with okonogi and YES PLS I LOVE STUPID BOY SMART GIRL MATCH UPS PLS

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my hw assignment staring at me as i think about a smut ramble with iharu on a leash

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lmao i gotta say the amount of smut written about soshiro getting his wee wee sucked is so funny like i didn’t know soshi fans were throat goats like that frrrrrr

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soichiro x f!reader/ nsfw/ ramble/ short/ breeding/ reader tied up gagged/ lots of sweat/ very sweet soichiro/ he just wants a family ya know?

“Mmmm, you feel so good baby. Are you feeling good sweet heart? I wanna get you pregnant baby. I want you to have my babies, princess.”

Soichiro is fucking you slowly. Shallow thrusts only putting half of his cock in. Teasing himself. You’re tied to his bed posts facing down. A gag in your mouth. Your legs are spread wide and he’s been coming in you for almost two hours. Once you told him you wanted to get married he’s been insatiable in bed. Obsessed with breeding you. Your pussy is swollen from how long he’s been fucking you. Your ass is covered in sweat and a mixture of your cum and his. Your ass cheeks plump and red with his hand prints.

“I gotta fuck my cum into you baby. I don’t want any to go to waste.” he’s breathing like he’s running a marathon. Sweating so much but the sight of your leaking, gripping pussy coating his cock in your wetness and his cum is keeping him going. Your moans making his length twitch. “I’m so happy baby. I’m so happy I get to do this to you.” He’s sincere and his voice is honey sweet. His white hair sticking to his face.

He lowers himself on top of you. You’re both so slick with sweat he’s practically sliding on you. “I’m gonna cum again, princess.” he’s by your ear. He kisses your sweat soaked neck “We’re gonna have such a big family.” you moan as you feel his hand glide between your legs. “You want that baby?” his thrusting gets deeper. His other hand reaching for yours tied to a post. His dick kissing your cervix. His fingers rubbing your swollen overstimulated clit. “My wife.” his balls tighten. His cock getting harder inside you as he’s getting closer to his release. You feel your pussy tighten as your orgasm starts to get closer too. “Please get pregnant baby. Please.” he breathes harshly into your ear. Your eyes roll back, toes and legs tense, you grip his hand, and you cry out but your gag muffles it as you cum on his cock again. “Yes princess-“ he gives one last thrust as he spills his seed into your already swollen womb. “I love you so much.” he whimpers out. He keeps rubbing your delicate clit making your mind go blank. You don’t feel anything except him. Your orgasm is making you buckle under his weight but he stays steady. He’s still coming, grinding the head of his dick deep into you. You’ll have triplets at this rate. The pressure is so good you swear you’re made just for him to use as he pleases. He finally pulls the gag from your mouth. “Tell me princess. Tell me you want this everyday.”

You know he means it. His eyes begging, looking at you as if you would deny him anything. You can’t form words anymore but manage to moan out a yes. He smiles and kisses your cheek. “Thank you baby.” He turns your head to face him and kisses you slowly. It’s so messy, sweaty and wet. His expression is so tender. “I love you so much.”

He trails kisses down your back while your mind is still in a haze. You feel him untying you. You feel yourself starting to pass out from the exhaustion. “Oh no sweetheart not yet. Please?” he helps you roll over and sit up and rest on him. You groan. You’re sticky, sweaty, and you can feel his cum pooling between your legs on the bed.

“Soichiro…” you whisper. Not because you mean to but your voice is tired from moaning and crying out. “I can’t anymore.” Your whole body is tender. You feel a sort of cozy vibration all through out. It’s pleasant but fuck you need a break. His face looks genuinely disappointed but he can’t argue with you. Instead he nuzzles your ear. “Tomorrow then?”

“Soichiro!”

“Sorry. I’ll run a bath for us.” he kisses your forehead.

“For me you mean.”

You kicked him while he’s down. “Without me?”

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gen is the stinkiest character in kn8. cannot be disputed. 100% correct about this.

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Breaking News!

Very stinky creature terrorizes the KDF!

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A HAMSTER CAGE IM SCREAMING THATS BRUTAL 😭😭😭😭😭

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head canon about soichiro is that he’s a huge over sharer. with like anyone willing to listen. or sometimes not willing. has a convo all by himself. gets comfy will people quick and expresses himself with touching. tells you you’re a good listener when you weren’t really listening. probably has really shitty luck in love. i’ve been wanting to write him for a min so i think i’ll do that soon.

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wanna add to this and say he’s a huge simp when he’s in love. overtly open about it. over the top. wants to spoil you. you think you’re being love bombed. actually wants to settle down.

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considering doing a soshiro pov for my 'share with me' fic. but tbh i have not made up my mind about him having made up his mind??? scorpio men are so hard to write fr :C

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3.9k +/soshiro x fem!reader/ first time talking about s*x together and doing it/ established relationship/ desperate soshiro/ pussy drunk soshiro/ soft dom soshiro/ receiving giving oral/ throat goat reader tbh 🔥/ very sweet aftercare soshiro/ will probably be a part two. 

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“I won’t make you say it if you don’t want to” his face is barely and inch from yours. He bends his head to reach your neck and kisses it gently. Feather light. “Do you like that?” 

You nod. Maybe a little too insistently. He chuckles. 

“I’ll do it some more then.” He brushes your hair back to get a better sight of where on your neck he’s going to kiss you next. “Lean your head back more.” you do as he says. Your heart rate is already so rapid and you know it’s obvious how deeply you’re breathing. 

You’ve been going out for three months now and haven’t done much except hold hands and kiss a bit. It’s nobodies fault really. Work gets busy and you’re not exactly ready to make out after a long mission. Time isn’t on your side. Sometimes it’s hard for him to make time for you or the other way around. You also haven’t had sex in a long while since your last partner and honestly feel a little embarrassed about it. You don’t want him to think you’re lame but recently he’s been kissing you so intensely. The first time you moaned unintentionally when he did you quickly felt embarrassed about it. But the way he looked at you when he pulled back made you dizzy. 

You’d never seen his eyes so dark before. His breathing so heavy or his grip on your waist so firm. You also hadn’t felt his erection fully in his pants pushing against your stomach before. It was making you wetter than you thought it would. “You liked that?” he breathed out. You could see the beat of his pulse on the drum of his neck. You did the same then. Nodding quickly because you couldn’t speak.

Up to that point he had been so courteous with you. So polite. Always complementing you the moment he sees you. Holding your hand on errands and off work. Kissing you randomly just because. Watching you intently as you do pretty much anything. Such a sap. He’s filling you so much with care and love it makes you so happy. 

But he never goes too far. As time went on you know he wanted more but he never asked. Not with words anyways. His kisses would last longer, his tongue would enter your mouth, his hands would go lower. You never stopped him. If anything leaning into him encouraged him to do more. The longer your make out sessions lasted, the more he hesitated to touch your ass, your breasts the more you wanted him to. He has limits to how far he would go and you found it so incredibly sweet. But also a little irritating. 

You needed to say it. You hadn’t really talked about sex. You had about past partners. Maybe some silly stories but never about how you want to be touched by him. Today you decided to do that. After finishing your work for the day, as usual on wednesdays he waited for you by the front entrance to take you for a walk. You talk about your day, share stories, hold hands, joke around a bit as you head to his apartment near by. 

The first time you went to his place you thought he’d try to make a move. But it never came, not fully anyways. You’d watch something, cook together, talk for hours, maybe go out again and then he’d walk you back to your barracks for the night before he’d go back into the office and do some more work. He had a cot there so sometimes he wouldn’t go back to his place. He never insisted you stay the night but did assure you if you were too tired you could. 

So today you made your move. On the couch at his place. You both had changed out of your uniforms long ago before making dinner. Both in comfortable clothes. You picked out your ice cream and you both shared it. He had smudged some on the corner of his mouth. He didn’t seem to notice turning back to the movie you’re both watching. 

Nows your chance. You look at him, the screen, back at him. 

“You okay?” he asks startling you. 

“Yes. Fine. I’m okay.” 

He snorts. “Alright.” he absentmindedly reaches for your hand and kisses it. Then turns to the screen. 

Fuck it here I go. 

You kiss the smudge on his face. He turns to you in surprise then smiles. “What’s that for?” 

“You have something…” you gesture to the corner of his mouth. 

“Oh, I’ll get a napkin.” he starts to get up but you stop him. 

“No! Um, just sit down.” 

He raises an eyebrow but obeys. “You’re acting a little weird. You sure you’re okay?” 

“Yes just stay still.” you sound more commanding than you mean to. You’re so nervous you know it’s obvious in your voice. 

He picks up on it of course. “No somethin’s off sweetheart. You sure you’re fine?” 

“Yes! I’m fine!” this is not going like you thought it would. You’re supposed to be getting horny not frustrated. Or at least a horny frustration would be nice. 

He frowns. “I don’t like the way you said that. Do you not like the movie?” he sounds concerned. Like in a way someone would ask a puppy if it’s lost. 

“No! Please just stay still and close your eyes!” why is trying to fuck your boyfriend so hard?

He laughs. “What is this some kind of prank you saw somewhere-?”

“I’m trying to have sex with you!” 

His eyes open wide. You both seem frozen in time. The gesturing you were making with your hands is still too. The movie keeps playing and the light of the screen reflects off both of your faces. Someone in the film laughs. 

You snap out of it first. “Fuck. Sorry. Never mind-“

“That’s what you want?” You hardly ever hear his voice get this low. His eyes are laser focused on you. The surprise is gone from his face. He’s fully serious. 

You nod. “Yes. Do you?” 

He pauses the movie and comes closer to you on the couch. “I’m taking your lead.” you can feel his warm breath on your lips. Your back pressed on the arm rest. “I’ll do whatever you want.” his hand reaches down and caresses the length of your exposed thigh. “Whatever you need.” 

You hadn’t felt his hand on your bare thigh before. Fuck that alone feels good. His hands are warm and little rough. You didn’t expect him to be so willing so quickly. 

And here you are now. Soshiro sucking on your neck. Your mind and body feeling like your being dipped in warm honey. Such a cozy feeling enveloping you. “Touch me more please.” you practically moan it out. 

He obliges with a grunt still buried in your neck. His hand comes up to cup your breast. You can’t believe your eyes. He’s kneading the fat of your thigh, the other hand on your nipple under your bra and his mouth coming back to yours. “You still like this?” 

You nod and before thinking you grab his face and plunge your tongue into his mouth he’s caught by surprise but you can feel his body relax and sink into yours more. He’s been so patient. So sweet. So caring. He makes you feel safe and happy. Man, you wanna fuck his brains out so bad. 

He pulls away for a second and pulls you into his lap. You can feel his hard cock pressing on your pussy. You grind yourself into it and his breath catches when he speaks. “I like that baby.” 

He sounds so desperate, his hands kneading so greedily on your ass, pushing away the shorts that barely cover it anyways. It’s turning you on so much. You put your hands in his hair and kiss him more. This time you’re in his neck. He moans and thrust his aching cock up. You meet it with your own gyrating hips. You kiss him up to his jaw when we grabs the back of your head and makes you meet his gaze. “You sure you want more baby?” 

His eyes are begging you to say yes. His heartbeat is going crazy and his skin is flushed. “Yes please.” you whimper more than say. 

He takes your face in for a moment before clashing his lips with yours and quickly removes your shirt. He lifts your bra and takes your nipple in his mouth. The sensation makes your pussy clench.  His strong arm supporting your back as you arch into this mouth. He’s trying to take as much of your breasts as he can. Moaning as you grind yourself more on his hard length. His hands feel so good palming your ass, reaching up your back, down your thighs and back to your ass. His fingers pressing indents into your skin. 

He stops and looks up at you with hooded eyes. “Please let me eat your pussy.” 

You swear you could die happy right there. “Yes!” the instant the word is out of your mouth he lifts you off of him and sits you on the couch he stands and takes his shirt off. 

You bite your lip. Goddamn his body is gorgeous. Tightly packed muscle you wouldn’t think is there when he’s clothed. His chest and shoulders wide and his abs firm. And now this perfect man is getting on his knees in front of you. He slides your shorts off and you lift your hips to help him without a second thought. You take your bra off too and you watch as he lowers his shorts just enough to grip his cock. You want to see it more but he tugs your hips downward so your pussy is fully infront of him as he aligns his mouth with your entrance from his kneeled position. You feel his got breath on your sensitive skin. 

He lifts your legs and licks a long stripe from your ass cheek to the inside of your thigh. You grip the couch tightly at the sensation. He does the same to the other leg and presses two fingers on your clit. You whimper. You already had a burning desire for all of him but you want everything now. 

“Are you okay?” he stops and looks at you. He’s never heard you make that sound. Of course your perfect caring boyfriend is concerned something is wrong. 

He’s so considerate but you need his mouth on your clit. “Yes! I’m fine! Please put your tongue on my clit already!” 

He laughs. “I didn’t know you wanted it so bad baby. I’m sorry you waited so long.” his fingers find your clit again and make slow gentle circles. Barely enough pressure to feel. You whimper. “Look at me.” You do. His eyes bright violet. Pupils wide. “I’m gonna take good care you.” he puts more pressure now. “I’ve thought about this for a long time.” he slowly slides one finger into you. “And…” His mouth centimeters from your pussy. “This perfect pussy you have.” in one move his fingers are gone from your clit and his lips are suckling on it. Your head jerks back, hips lift up to push yourself more into his mouth. His other hand now twisting and thrusting two fingers into your pussy and the other you can hear him stroking his cock with. It makes you gush more knowing he’s getting turned on by this like you are. 

He sucks you languidly and you try to keep a rhythm with your hips but you’re desperate for more. You’re greedy and want release. You can’t keep steady. He lifts his head “Put your hands in my hair baby. Use my mouth how you want it.” Fuck he’s perfect. You do as he says. He flattens his tongue on your cunt and you grab fist fulls of his hair guiding his head how you need it. 

Such delicious pressure on your swollen clit. His tongue is firm and he’s moaning as you slide your soaking pussy up and down its length. “Soshiro. You feel so good.” His whole face is covered in your nectar. He’s fucking his cock into his palm using your juices to lubricate his thrusting. The wet sounds are so erotic it’s making your head hazy. You can feel yourself getting close. You look down at his face and his eyes are half closed, hair sticking to his forehead, his breathing is harsh and his face is shiny with a mixture of his sweat, your sweat and the addictive syrup from your plush pussy. The sight is bringing you to the edge. 

“So- shiro! I’m gonna cum!” you cry out. He lets out muffled moans and his expression is almost a pained one. He’s so needy for your pleasure he needs you to cum on his tongue. You’re sure you’re going to pull his hair out. Your hips and arms struggle to keep up the pace as the orgasm starts to build. “Fuck! Ah! Soshiro!” he pushes his head harder into you, his fingers thirsting faster and you feel bliss break out though out your body. Your legs tense up so tight, your toes curl, your spine arches, your body is almost completely off the couch. You cry out almost as if in pain as your legs tremble. The wet sounds coming from your pussy as he fingers and devours you like he’s begging for more fill the room. For a few seconds your body is paralyzed from the pleasure. You try to breathe but your breaths are shallow, your arms searching for something else to hold as if you’re falling. 

But he isn’t stopping. He can hardly breathe with how tight your thighs are squeezing him but he doesn’t care. He follows your movements as you try to get away. Your orgasm making your clit as sensitive as it’s ever been. He lets go of his cock and with his arms and head pushes you back onto the couch until your whole body is on it. He’s burrowing his mouth into you like he’s addicted and needs more of your essence. 

Your orgasm is trying to fade but he continues to press on your clit. “Soshiro! I- I can’t! It’s too much!” you’re so sensitive and he can’t leave it alone. You opened a door tonight that’s never gonna close again. You try to push him away but he doesn’t stop. His eyes almost completely rolled to the back of his head and he’s drinking your juices so mindlessly. Fuck it’s so sexy how dedicated he is. But he might suffocate at this rate. 

You manage to pull his hair enough so his mouth is inches away from your pussy. His breathing is so heavy you’re sure now he was actually suffocating. His grip is still tight on your hips leaving bruises on your skin. He wasn’t going to quit unless you forced him. His sight on your glistening core. Like a dog being held back from his favorite food. He’s drooling. His hair is a complete mess from your tugging and all the moisture that got into it. Your eyes are being blessed once again. A panting, needy Soshiro between your legs, face covered in your cum, tongue out like a dog. You think you’re gonna have a heart attack. “I might have needed that more than you did.” He says breathlessly licking his lips. He raises his gaze to you. “Are you okay?” It’s like he was under a spell and now it’s subsided. 

It almost makes you laugh. Here you are having experienced one the best orgasms of your life while he could hardly breathe and he’s asking if you’re okay. You smile. “Yes, I’m okay.” Your legs are still trembling a bit but you feel fantastic. 

“Good.” he rises up slowly as he gathers his breath and balance. Finally you get to see his cock. It’s leaking pre cum and looks so hard you swear it hurts him. You sit up and he takes off his shorts and when it’s in sight again without thinking you take it in your hands. 

“B-baby wait-“ but you don’t. You’ve never actually been eager to have a cock in your mouth but it looks so good. Maybe you’re still dazed from your orgasm but seeing his hard muscle leaking, eager for you is making your pussy ache with need. You grab it in one hand while hes still standing and lick a long, slow, stripe up from its base to his swollen head. “Aaaaa fuuuuck.” his head lulls back as you do that again. You’re not sure you can fit all of it in your mouth since you’re out of practice but you try anyways. His hips jerk as you take more of his cock in your mouth. 

He loses balance for a second. “Baby, don’t hurt yourself.” he breathes out. You look up at him and it’s such a sight. Looking at his soaked face past the landscape of his muscles almost makes you whimper. His chest heaving and sweaty. 

“Guide me?” you ask. One hand slowly stroking his length. 

He swallows hard. “I’ll try to be gentle. Let me know if I hurt you okay?” You nod. He places his hands gingerly through your hair on top of your ears and positions your mouth at the head of his cock. “Suck on it gently baby.” you do as he asks. You take his head in your mouth and suck with light pressure. He sighs almost in relief. “Use your tongue baby.” you circle your tongue around his head and he starts to gently fuck your mouth. Fuck you didn’t know you’d get so turned on from this. Little by little he fits more cock in you and you get so horny from his pleasure you reach down and touch yourself. He sucks through his teeth. “Fuck that’s so sexy. You getting turned on baby?” He fucks your face a little bit faster now. “You like how my cock tastes baby?” you start to bob your head with the rhythm of his thrusting. He moans again. Your tongue rolls with your joined movements. You feel him getting harder. “I didn’t know you like eating my cock so much.” his words make you wetter and you start making more rapid circles around your clit. His grip is tight in your hair and his cock is reaching the back of your throat. You start to choke but he doesn’t stop. You look up at him and you could almost cum again with how he’s looking at you. Like prey. Like he knows he’s using you the way he wants to. Your eyes tear up. His cock reaches your throat now. “Mmm, you were that hungry for my cock baby? Yelling at me that you wanted to fuck.” he pulls his dick out completely and you take in much needed deep breaths. 

He doesn’t let go of your head. A thin rope of spit attached from your mouth to his delicious memeber. “Beg me to fuck your mouth more with it princess.” He teases your lips with his leaking head. You’re much more of a slut than you thought because you want him to keep using your mouth to fuck you. 

You swallow the saliva that built up in your mouth. You feel a tear run down your face. “Please keep fucking my mouth.” 

His cock jumps and you barely get your mouth open before he plunges it back into your throat. He’s fucking your mouth in earnest now. You’re bobbing and tongue can’t keep up with his using your head like a fuck doll. You’re rubbing your pussy vigorously and can feel another orgasm building. You’re chocking and tears keep coming. “Sorry baby but I want you to swallow my cum.” his voice is gravel now. Barely able to keep steady as his balls tighten. You whimper. “You want that? You wanna swallow my cum baby?” you moan more as you grind your hips into your hand. His cock is harding more and you can tell he’s close. “Gonna stuff my princess’s mouth with cum.” his hips start to stutter and you can barely breathe. “(y/n) fuck!” he grinds his cock into your throat and you feel the hot cum pour into you. Your orgasm hits you too and you convulse as it rips through you. Your nose is pressed to his pubic bone as he pushes your head into the couch. “Fuck you’re such a good slut for me!” he holds you there for a few seconds as his balls empty into your throat forcing you to swallow. 

He pulls out of your mouth. Your face covered in tears and sweat. His cum smudged on your cheeks. Your breathing is ragged and you’re light headed from coming and suffocating. “Open your mouth pretty girl.” you’re so drunk on his cock you’ll do anything he says. Your limbs are so weak you can barely manage to hold yourself up. You open your mouth and without warning he shoves his cock back into it. “Gotta make sure you don’t spit any out baby.” You suck his softening cock some more and swallow all the saliva and cum left on it. 

Finally he pulls out of your mouth and lets go of your hair. He caresses your face gently and kisses your eyes, your nose, cheeks and lips. “C’mere.” He picks your limp body up with care and carries you to his bedroom. He lays you down gently on the bed. “I’ll go get us some water and a towel.” He kisses your forehead. You lay down and spread yourself out on the mattress pushing the sheets away. Fuck that was good. You’re breathing heavy. Your body is still radiating. You haven’t even had him inside you yet. Well, inside a different hole. 

He comes back with a glass of water and hands it to you as he wipes your face with a towel. His face looks clean from rinsing it along with his hair. It’s pushed back enough you can see his widows peak. He has such a content look on his face you wonder if yours is the same. “Did I hurt you baby?” 

You shake your head as you sit up and drink the water. “No. Maybe I really am a whore.” 

He laughs and sits closer to you. Rubbing your sore legs. “Same here. I wasn’t too mean was I?” 

“No. I mean if you spoke to me like that outside of fucking I’d cry.” 

He chuckles. “I won’t do that then.” he kisses your check. “Do you wanna shower? Sleep? Are you tired? Or hungry?” 

“Probably should shower actually.” you sniff yourself. 

He laughs again. “Okay. C’mon. Let’s take a bath.” 

“Are you okay?” you ask placing your empty cup on the night stand. 

He holds your face in his hands. “I’ve never been better in my entire life.” he kisses you slowly and so softly. You could fall asleep with his kisses like that. You smile. “I’ll carry you to the bath if you want? When the water is ready.” 

You’re a bit stunned. “Aren’t you exhausted?” 

He laughs. “Not in the least.”

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head canon about soichiro is that he’s a huge over sharer. with like anyone willing to listen. or sometimes not willing. has a convo all by himself. gets comfy will people quick and expresses himself with touching. tells you you’re a good listener when you weren’t really listening. probably has really shitty luck in love. i’ve been wanting to write him for a min so i think i’ll do that soon.

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working on my first even nsfw fic. like ever.

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iharu is so easy to bully when i write him i can’t help it

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4.4k/ Reader pov x soshiro build up/ reader has a big family/ it's chaotic but in a good way/ some drama with soshiro/  angy soshiro/ trying my darndest to be gn with my reader POV but im sure i missed somethin/ i guess hurt and comfort?/ where are all my ppl with loud and invasive families at haha

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Soshiro has yelled before. “Get those legs up!” “More! C’mon I know you got more in you!” “Ten more reps then we’ll call it a day!” all commands in training or shouting orders when on a mission. Sure, he’s yelled and shouted at all of you a whole lot. But always in your best interest. For your protection, strength, encouragement, to make you better. But this time was different. 

It got very silent after he did. This time he wasn't shouting from his usual place of care. He was angry. Almost menacing even. Worse, it was directed at you. 

You dropped your staff in the middle of armed combat training. It happens. Not a big deal. Usually. People drop staffs, swords, guns, all the time and then everyone corrects form and  moves on. Not today. 

You’re frozen in place. For the first time you find yourself afraid of the vice captain. There is always the knowledge that he could kill you if he really wanted to. He is extremely talented and could take a whole school of trainees. Of course. There is the reverence of his ability at all times. But to feel like it could be used against you? You’ve never felt fear quite like that sink into your bones. You’re sure your skin has gone pale and your basic bodily functions like breathing and heartbeat faltered. Everyone else feels it too. His eyes, a brilliant violet, are staring into yours and you can't move. The strength you were using a moment ago vanishes.The tension in his body seems ready to pounce on you. What did you do wrong? You couldn't understand. You go through all your movements in your head. Everyone drops fighting props. What did you do wrong? He berated you infront of everyone and internally you're doing it to yourself now too.

Kafka breaks the silence in the room and the panic in your head. “Hey, uh, vice captain, I’ll work with them.” He puts his hand on your shoulder and with a tug pulls you out of your frozen state and guides you away from Soshiro’s glare to a far corner of the gymnasium. Soshiro doesn't argue and you feel his eyes on the both of you as you’re guided away. The tension is still heavy in the air as you both walk. 

Practice continues quietly and with hesitancy from everyone as they avoid being on the receiving end of any more of his ire. You can feel eyes on you and murmurs of “Shit, that was intense.” “They okay?” “I wouldn't be.” You're still shaking a bit as Kafaka tries to guide you through the movements. A pitying look on his face you're half grateful for. You’re still trying to figure out what happened. What did you do that was so incorrect? Maybe something you did before this? 

“Hey.” Kafka’s low soft voice snaps you back from your spiral again. “Keep your eyes on me okay?” 

You nod trying to steel your nerves but you’re too afraid to look back at the vice captain. God, you think you’re going to cry actually. His anger is so frightening but more so is the thought of disappointing him. Kafka is fighting you with the same gentleness he would use on a kitten. 

Practice ends and your friends practically run to you. You're grateful for the shield they provide as you all put your weapons away and leave the gym. You still don't dare to look at the vice captain. Embarrassed, hurt and tired you let them guide you to the cafeteria. 

“Okay what the fuck was that?” Iharu asks once you're all out of earshot from Soshiro. 

“Yeah, that was a bit much.” Reno says.

“A bit? It was uncalled for.” Kikoru says, noticeably upset. “Don’t get me wrong. I’m all for berating people when it's called for but (y/n) wasn't doing anything wrong. We all drop our staff sometimes.” 

“Yeah, especially during sparring.” says Reno

“You didn't do anything to piss him off before training did ‘ya?” Iharu asks you.

“No? I don't think so?” It's not like you havent been thinking about it. It's all youve been thinking about. What did you do that was so wrong? 

“Hey, even if they did, that kind of reaction is uncalled for.” Kikoru says.

“She’s right.” Reno says. “Even if (y/n) had, vice captain still has to be mindful of how he carries out punishment. Obviously after he did that it affected morale.”

“Was he acting a bit off to any of you before training started?” Kikoru asks. 

“Nah, I didn't notice anything.” Iharu says. 

“What else is new?” Reno remarks. 

“Hey!” Iharu says, punching Renos arm. 

“Yeah, way to have self awareness, Iharu.” Kikoru adds. 

You all laugh at Iharu’s expense and his many failed objections to having some level of self awareness. 

Kafka sighs “I don't know what that was but I bet it's got nothing to do with you, yeah?” he rests a heavy arm over your shoulders as you all reach the cafeteria. “At least you won't be here for the rest of the week.”

“Oh yeah, your big family gathering and all.” Iharu pinches your arm.

That brings a smile to your face. You haven't seen your family in months, much less extended family and you're excited to have some home cooking and for your parents to buy your dinners for you when you all go sightseeing. You appreciate your friends so much for trying to make you feel better. A family away from your own. Kafka is probably right. Maybe something did happen to Soshiro before training. It still stung though. 

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Five days go by in a very turbulent cyclone of hugs, sometimes the bear kind, kisses, hand shaking, other times straight up picking you up and shaking your whole body greetings. “Cousin!” “Sister!” “Mom!” “Uncle!” “Dad!” “Look at you! You’re real strong now, huh?” “Can we fight?” “How many kaiju have you killed?” “Any cute guys you got your eye on?” “Do you travel a lot?” “Do you get to keep body parts?” “Where can I get their body parts?” “Gross.” “I bet it's fun.” “I bet it's gross.” “Stop talking about it. I hate thinking about my baby in that situation.” “They arent your baby anymore!” “Yeah they are. Just a bigger baby now.” And on and on like that constantly for days. It doesn't particularly end at night either. 

You’ve all gathered at your grandfather's house managing to squeeze something like 15 people (with more coming and going) into four bedrooms, two living rooms, four closets and some even camping in the kitchen. Still more come for dinners and outings but do not stay the night. At night you can hear your mother and aunts cackle and chat about old boyfriends, girlfriends, some information you could have gone your whole life not hearing about your uncles and who in the family died recently. They talk outside for hours and still get up before everyone else to make breakfast. Your uncles outside talking about work and how their jobs are treating them. Maybe find new contacts through each other. Not everyone could take the time off for the reunion. Some come and go for work. Some drop by for lunch. Some relatives you only see briefly, some you spend the whole week with. Your grandfather half heartedly watching the kids with your other grandfather. Your afternoons with your cousins are left chatting about who's dating who, who's going to work where, accepted to what school, marrying someone here, going on a trip elsewhere. 

Long walks, shopping trips, hikes, several grocery runs, long drives, sleeping in cramped seats, lots of cleaning after dinner, arguing about bathroom order. You figure every single minute was used for something. It feels like a lof once you reflect on it but it's familiar and comforting even if stressful at times. Finding the quiet moments to speak in the silence of a tired house late at night are some of the best conversations you ever have. They happen in bedrooms, on the patio, in the backyard, in the kitchen, outside past the gate on the sidewalk, the bathroom. Whispers of gossip, your aunt's new young boyfriend, your cousin's way too expensive car that has your aunt shake her head when mentioned. Tense moments that are forced to pass, laughter that hurts your sides when you breathe, honestly that brings some to cry, reminiscing of days that make everyone silent and listen intently. Understanding this is passed wisdom you may not get the chance to hear again. Sometimes this all happens at once in the same room.

Your mom announces she wants to have a big dinner tonight since most of your family will leave the following day. All day all hands are helping cook, clean, shop, set tables, chairs, speakers, putting on makeup, doing hair, choosing outfits and shopping some more.

Finally everyone is in for the evening and once again settling down for long conversations, drinking, playing games, eating and dancing. You are often on your feet getting this for that uncle, helping an aunt with that, giving a cousin this, talking to grandma about some other thing you haven't thought about since you were eight. 

You finally get a chance to sit at a crowded table breathing in for a moment. So many family and friends showed up that the dinner had to spill out to the patio from inside. Then more friends and family arrived and then it spilled out into the front yard. All the young, too cool teens in the backyard, your cousins closer to your age crowded around you talking, well, more like yelling but that's just how they speak. Your older aunts and uncles half singing half telling stories to laugh at each other too. Some others helping set up hanging lights on the trees. Soshiro casually speaking with one of your uncles by the gate. The kids chase each other with toys or beg for a water slide. 

Wait.

Soshiro casually speaking with your uncle by the front gate?

No, you weren't drinking unlike your other cousins so you definitely were not imagining Soshiro casually holding a conversation with your uncle. Now one of your aunts is walking towards him with a drink. Oh god what is going on. 

You shoot up to your feet and try as fast as you can to get to him but have to shove past chairs and tables set tightly by each other. Push by family standing and talking. Squeeze around others carrying food and barely managing not to trip past spatially challenged adults and children. 

“Vice captain!” You shout although you don't mean to be so loud but you are still not convinced this is really happening. You’re actually not sure if you didn't drink something earlier while being tossed around for chores and taking a sip from anything to quench your thirst and forgot. 

Soshiro turns to you with his usual unreadable expression. He’s holding what looks like orange soda in his hand. “Hello (y/n). I hope you don't mind my intrusion but I really wanted to talk to you-”

“(y/n)! Why didn't you say you were going to have guests come today?” your aunt that handed him his drink asks.

“I didn't know I had any.” you say to her confused, worried, and maybe a little embarrassed. “I’m sorry I wasn't expecting anyone from the division to show up. What are you doing here?” you ask him. A million scenarios of how this evening could go horribly wrong play out. You're suddenly very self conscious. 

Before Soshiro can say anything you see one of your uncles walk towards you and give you both a look. You know that look. It's the look every family member in the history of family has always given when they are about to ask the dreaded question. You are too late to stop him from asking: “Boyfriend?” 

“NO!” you shout just as the word comes out of his mouth. But now you’ve managed to attract everyone's attention within earshot. You hope the music drowned out your uncle asking that. You dare a quick look at Soshiro’s face but it's unmoving. Thank god he's always had such a good poker face. 

Cousins begin to walk up “Hey, there (y/n)’s friend that is definitely not a boyfriend! What's your name?” 

This is gonna be a long evening. 

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You're both sitting next to each other. It's been something like three hours and they have not stopped asking Soshiro questions. It's not everyday a famous kaiju killing officer shows up to a family gathering. You’re exhausted from trying to protect Soshiro from evasive questions but he takes it all in stride. He answers all questions promptly and gives just the right amount of information. He’s so tactful with your rude family it's admirable. There's no point in you telling them not to ask something because Soshiro has already responded. You stop trying to stop it. He's perfectly trained in combat and intrusive family conversation too it seems.

“So vice captain, is (y/n) any good at what they do?” a cousin asks with a baby on his lap. 

You’re about to say something but then remember the last training session you had with your division. You’re actually not so certain yourself. 

“(y/n) has exceeded all of my expectations.” he turns to you. “I couldn't have asked for a better officer to be in my platoon.” 

You search his face for a clue of him joking or waiting for a punchline. But his smile is sincere. You want to be moved by his response but you think he's probably just trying to make you look good in front of your family. 

Your cousins murmur their comments of approval among themselves. “Hey, vice captain, would you like something else to drink?” one of your cousins asks from further down the table. 

“Please, I’ll get my own drink. Don't trouble yourself.” he stands and turns to you. “Would you like anything?” 

You're still not quite sure what to make of all of this. A refill is not really a thought you're having. 

“(y/n) probably wants some of the cake we have at the table by the drinks.” someone else chimes in. 

“I can get that myself.” you do want the cake but having your superior serve you is too weird to handle. You start to get up from your chair when he interjects. 

“It's okay. I’m happy to. Enjoy your time with your family.” he says smiling then scooting past everyone towards the drink table.

“He’s nice.” “Yeah, I figured defense force officers were kinda meat heads, you know?” “He has real good manners.” “He's sitting so straight.” “I didn't know they made them like that anymore.” your cousins comment. 

One of them shoves your shoulder playfully. “He’s super cute!” she gestures to Soshiro speaking with your lively little cousin swinging a stick like a sword. “Why didn't you say you were inviting someone?” 

“I didn't.” you continue to watch him making sure nobody is being rude towards him. Who knows how this is going to affect your job if your family does something offensive or stupid. 

“He just showed up?” 

“Yeah. I mean I have to report where I’m going to be but I didn't invite anyone.” 

“He just wanted to show up?” another cousin asks. 

You nod. They give knowing looks to each other. 

“What?” you ask firmly. Who knows what mischievous things they're communicating with each other telepathically it seems. “Don't say anything stupid in front of him please.”

“Hey, we aren't gonna have you lose your job.”

“Does he do this a lot? Just show up to officers' houses unannounced?” your cousin who asked about inviting him wonders. She has a tone that you can tell is heading this conversation somewhere you don't want it to. 

You sigh irritated. “It’s not like that.” 

“Why not?” another cousin asks. 

Some of them are giggling now. They are enjoying this excruciating line of questions. 

“Because.” you say wanting this conversation to end before he comes back. 

“Are you not allowed to date superiors?” 

“No- I- well, I don't know.” You shake your head frustrated that they're leading you on the exact conversation you're trying to avoid. “It doesn't matter, okay! It’s not going to happen!” 

“Do you want it to?” someone further down the table asks. You had no idea the conversation had reached that far down. You can feel your face start to burn and you don't want to give them anymore ammo. It's time to make your escape before they realize your face is a giveaway. 

You stand up. “I’m gonna check on him.” you begin to walk away and some of them start to whistle a love song, giggle or whisper little comments. They definitely saw your face turn red. 

You get to Soshiro as he was about to head back to the table. He's holding your cake and his drink “You mind if I eat that somewhere else? It's getting stuffy at the table.” 

Soshiro smiles, not looking eager to return to his interrogation. “Sure. I’ll follow your lead.” 

“Let's go out to the sidewalk.” You both begin to walk towards the gate. You wish you could shrink your head into your body like a turtle. The looks you both are getting as you walk out is enough to make you want to disappear. 

You give a long exhale when you're both finally out the gate. You lean against the wall that borders your grandfathers home. The music and noise from the party faded considerably behind the brick. Soshiro hands you your food. 

“Thank you for getting this for me.” 

“Of course.” he takes a drink from his cup. 

“It's been such a whirlwind I didn't ask you why you're here.” you cut a smaller piece of cake to eat. 

“You did. Earlier. I just didn't get a chance to respond.” 

You stop chewing. “I did?” 

A smile grows on his face. “Yes. But I understand. I’m so sorry for showing up like this. I just needed to speak with you about last week.” 

“Last week?” 

He nods. A pained expression taking over his face. He places his cup down on the sidewalk. “(y/n),-” he faces you with a determined look. His voice is serious. You tense up not sure why he suddenly had to put his cup down for whatever he's about to do. For a moment you think hes going to kick your ass for having such a loud fucking family. He bows. “Please forgive me for my extremely rude behavior.” 

Your brain stops. “What?” is all you manage to squeak out. 

He rises up. He’s looking down but you can tell from his face that he means this. “Last week. I lashed out at you. It was uncalled for. I immediately regretted it after it happened.” 

You think for a second, still trying to catch up to the fact that Soshiro Hoshina just bowed to you. Then you remember. “Oh!” 

He gives you a look that says ‘Seriously? I’m trying to apologize and you don't even remember?’

“Sorry, it's just, well, this week has been so busy I kinda forgot about that. I mean until you showed up anyways.” you clear your throat. “I didn't expect you’d apologize for it. Much less show up here to do it.” 

He pinches the bridge of his nose. “I shouldnt’ve’ shown up.” 

“No! Its fine that you did! It was just shocking.” 

He takes a deep breath and exhales. “I wanted to talk to you the next day but then I was told you were on break for a week. And, well, I didn't want to wait any longer. It was…” he trailed off before starting again. “It was botherin’ me too much. You looked real hurt so… I’m sorry.” 

A pause between you two follows and the only sounds are the nighttime insects and your family's music and laughter that echoes past the wall. Then it hits you. You're five hours away from Tokyo right now. Your vacation ends the day after tomorrow. He could have waited another day. He could have called. Even a text if he really wanted to apologize that way. But more importantly you never expected he’d apologize to begin with. It hurt and you were scared but you figured that was just part of the territory of being in the defense force. You get your commanding officers ire sometimes. 

“... I accept your apology.” You say looking at your half eaten cake suddenly too shy to face him.

He sighs in relief. “Good.” 

Another pause. 

“You came all this way to apologize?” you ask, looking at him. Searching his eyes. 

He looks at your eyes in return and doesn't respond for a moment. “Yeah.” he smiles. “Can I have some of that?” 

“Huh? Oh, yeah but I dont have another fork-” He steals your fork and takes a piece of the cake. 

He chews and swallows. “It's good.” 

You watch him chew. Stunned that he just did that. “Yes.” 

“Homemade?” 

“Yes.” 

“You like it a lot too, huh?” 

“Yes.” That's the only response you can say apparently. 

He chuckles then his voice drops when he speaks. “I have so much fun with you. I didn't want what happened to affect us.” 

You watch him not sure what to think right now so you say the first thing that comes to mind. “I have fun with you too.” You suck your lips into your mouth directly after saying that because never would you have imagined you'd have the bravery to say something like that to him. 

He laughs. “What's with that face?” 

You pretend not to know what he's talking about, raising an eyebrow still sucking on your lips. 

He laughs more and you try to hold your lips in but end up bursting out in a laugh too. It's so good to hear him laugh. It's so contagious. It always makes you smile without fail. You both go on until the laughing subsides on its own. You now remember what happened after the training session. 

“Can I ask you if something happened before the session that made you do that? I was afraid I did something to disappoint you.” 

His expression visibly shifts to a serious one as you say that. His eye brows furrow slightly like he's mad at you for saying that. “You could never disappoint me.” 

You once again are at a loss for words so you give a nod instead. 

He joins you leaning on the wall. He silently looks down at his shoes for a moment as if thinking of what to say before facing you. “I don't want to give you excuses.” 

You shake your head slowly. “Not an excuse. We were wondering if something had happened. You're not usually like that.” 

Soshiro looked hesitant to say anything. He seemed to look everywhere except back at you. He opened and closed his mouth several times before speaking. “My family isn't like yours ya’ know.” 

There had always been whispers about the Hoshina family. Not very good ones. Soshiro also doesn't often volunteer information about himself. But maybe tonight he's making an exception because he feels guilty. 

“My brother called me and…” he sighs irritatedly and drags a hand across his face. "I'd rather not bore you with the details.” he says with a breathy half assed laugh. “It’s a nice night with your family. I dont wanna ruin that.”

He's uncomfortable and you can see it. It stings a little bit that he won't tell you. 

He picks up on changes in your facial expression as you look away. “Sorry. I know I just spent the whole evening with your family but…” he sighs. “It’s just a lot that you really don't need to worry about.” he’s trying to sound like he's doing you a favor. 

You give him a sad smile. You want to know. You want to know everything about him. “I understand.” You understand that he's your boss and there's always going to be an invisible boundary between the two of you because of that. Can't get too close. That's always it isn't it? You both can laugh, joke, he can show up to your family gathering unannounced, charm all of them, get you cake, but no. You can't get too close. “But I want you to know you don't have to keep it to yourself. I mean you tried that and look where you are now.” 

He snorts. “Yeah you’re right.” He looks at the top of the wall then the gate. “It's not such a bad place to be though.” A sudden wave of laughter comes from behind the wall. Your family's joy makes you smile. 

“Yeah I guess they aren't so bad.” You eat more of your cake. “But it's not always like this, you know.” He looks at you curiously. “I just want you to know families are complicated. But I'm sure you know that.” 

He nods knowingly. “Yeah. I get it.” He stretches and takes the fork from your hand, swiping the last piece of cake for himself before you can say anything. He picks up the cup and chugs down his drink. He grimaces “Yeah your uncle for sure put somethin’ in that.” You laugh. “Well I'm gonna head out.” He checks the time on his phone. “I’ll catch the last train to Tokyo if I leave 10 minutes ago.”

You start to panic. “Are you gonna be able to get home?” 

He shrugs and starts to walk away. “If anything I’ll stay at the nearest base.” He waves as he walks backwards. “Thank your family for me! They were great! I’ve never heard someone be asked if they were my (girlfriend/ boyfriend/ partner) sa’ many times and be so cool ‘bout it!” 

You blush. You become the shade of a ripe strawberry. The inside of a watermelon perhaps. “What!?” 

He chuckles. “I’ll see you back at base soon!” 

You watch him walk away casting long shadows by lamp posts as he passes them. You ask him in a whisper “Why didn't you just wait until I got back?” 

[kaijunouhhhhhhhhhhummmm]

my fics about soshiro are slow burn because mentally i’m just not there yet 😭 i’m shy 🥺 we aren’t even holding hands yet 🫣