midnite escapee

friendly alerts: I don't write anything fancy, it's more like an online diary.

[dramatroll]

me after hanging out all day with my friends and needing my alone time

[kairinnisa]

Probably all we need in life is mutualism, get benefits for each other. Tapi mbok ya jangan bangsat kalo manfaatin orang.

[kairinnisa]

Akhirnya memang hanya rumahmu lah, penyembuh segala luka yang seringkali kau ingkari dengan tidurmu. Sleep helps you forget, but 'home' heals.

[dramatroll]

coz pride over hunger. 

[kairinnisa]

sometimes your loved ones could be the greatest weapon to hurt yourself. you think that they’d understand you but no they did not. you don’t even clarify it cause you think they'd know but no they did not. then they judged you for things you didn’t do. then they yelled at you for your mistakes. but neither you can yell back nor make everythings clear cause you were too busy holding tears up. you think they’re such pain in the ass cause they hurt you but no,

you were the one who killed yourself.

[dramatroll]

my struggle everyday. 

[kairinnisa]

jarang-jarang punya girl squad yg bisa diandalkan di segala kondisi--karena basically saya memang ndak punya banyak sahabat perempuan. so here's these pretty ladies whom always got my back during the bad and good times. ah ditinggal pulang dan sibuk pacaran sih jadi saya rindu (iya padahal sendirinya juga pacaran)

[chibird]

You have the power to plant and nurture the good thoughts! Sometimes it’s hard if you are around people sending you negative thoughts, but hold onto the good ones, and a beautiful confident person will grow.

[kairinnisa]

I hate my self for smiling like an idiot when actually the inside me is crying out loud. sometimes life's just damn insane I need someone to cheer me that everythings gonna be okay. I know I'm not the one who hides this kinda feeling, so lets be aware of people around. probably your hug and simple hello could mean so much to someone.

[kairinnisa]

"Dari semua cewek yg aku pernah aku pacarin, kamu yang paling keren! Mau diajak ke rental PSan, mau diajak ngopi di angkringan, gak masalah makan dimana aja, bisa bikin ibu aku seneng" Salah. Dari hubungan-hubungan yg pernah aku jalanin, bersamamu yang paling bahagia. Tanpa prasangka, tanpa beban, tanpa topeng, tanpa tuduhan, tanpa tuntutan. Bahkan di waktu terpuruk ku pun aku masih bisa mensyukuri keberadaanmu. Btw, basically aku emang cewek yg keren sih, sebelum maupun sesudah bersamamu.

[kairinnisa]

your simple hello might be a reason for someone's smile today as well as your simple wassup' that probably save someone's tears.

[kairinnisa]

my elder sister tried some bridal gown today and it has made my mind wandered. I was born as a middle children which has made me likes to compare my self with other kids, for example both my brother amd sister used to be good academically on school so I thought I should do so. then they both graduated and were accepted on one of the best uni so I thought I should do so. well even now I still be the same sometimes. whenever they achieve something, I always feel like I have to do more in order to compete them. but however I realized that everyone has their own capability. I didn't have good scores on school yet I made plenty of friends. I may not be accepted on the best uni but I got more life experiences. I came to the point that actually my better self is the only comparison I should see.

[kairinnisa]

its either my introvert side or just me being super coward for not facing any confrontation

[kairinnisa]

there might be slight but actually huge differences between befriending your date and dating your bestfriend. one of them might be such pain in the ass. yet I'm happily doing the second choice.

[kairinnisa]

namanya Wahyu si arek nggateli.

[tigakata]

Maafkan ego mudaku yang akan segera habis masa waktunya, karena aku sadar separuh hidup perempuan dihabiskan untuk menahan egonya dan memprioritaskan lainnya

Jadi sebelum itu boleh aku egois sebentar? (via tigakata)

[kairinnisa]

mungkin sepi itu adalah bentuk teguran Tuhan, bahwasanya kau terlalu sering mengabaikanNya. bahwasanya manusia, tak peduli seberapa dekat kau dengannya, biasa saja suatu saat meninggalkanmu.. tapi tidak denganNya. maka suatu waktu, Ia cabut rasa 'bersama'mu.. agar kemudian kau kembali padaNya, walau mungkin berikutnya kau akan melupakanNya lagi.