HONEY

e. | he/him | late 20s | mdni

[bearilya]

sesamesesame BLOG UPDATES!

1. I’ve changed my URL! sesamesesame -> bearilya (you understand)

2. I’m moving hollanov wg stuff to @6xlya so it can expand freely (;))

I’m going to be reblogging/moving my old related posts there to streamline things, and will be answering the ask prompts I haven’t answered yet there as well. I’ll be staying active on this blog, but please direct kink correspondences to the sideblog instead. I promise you’ll be rewarded handsomely.

I’ll repost this a few times over the next few days and then pin it so that there’s no confusion.

Thanks 🍒

-e

[bearilya]

Ilya shirtless in his boxers eating coldcuts straight outta the fridge like Tony soprano

[bearilya]

I know this isn’t what anyone is following me for but I AM thinking about ilya cocaine problem

[bearilya]

might be having gay sex tonight. Fuck Fourth of July

[ileaveclawmarks]

Daddy Dyke Skeeter and Boy Jaime in Vol 1 No 1 Venus Infers Summer 1993. Shot by MichaelAdrienne interviewed by Nora Parkin

[bearilya]

Actually you know what… this isn’t wg related at all (though it can be), but I’ve always felt a little ambivalent towards and unsure about Best Friend Hayden and the way he acts. Care to elaborate on that friendship divorce? 👀

Oh yes. I should say first that I haven’t read any of the books, so this is solely personal headcanon based on what I’ve seen around, the sliver we’ve seen of him in the show, and some fan interpretation I’ve read, and I’m going to say it’s specific to this universe we’re creating to excuse myself of any inaccuracies to canon material.

But Best Friend Hayden Pike is a Normal Fucking Guy. He’s nice enough (to his bros at least, never mind the vaguely dehumanizing way he talks about Jackie and the fact that he evidently won’t consider a vasectomy), and he’s normal. He’s taken Shane under his wing because Shane is a generational talent any player would want to be associated with, and because Shane is just socially awkward enough for Hayden to feel like he’s helping the guy out by hanging out with him. He probably doesn’t think about it like that, though, Shane being both a trophy and a project. He’s just being a nice guy.

And they have inside jokes together. They hang out, and they get along well enough, because Shane is funny in that way that entertains Hayden because it baffles him, has an easier time talking to Hayden than some of the other guys who he relates to even less (for one thing, Hayden is married, so he’s not expecting Shane to go out with him and pick up girls, and on Hayden’s end, Shane never complains about Hayden having settled down too early). Having Normal Hayden as a Normal Friend makes Shane feel Normal. Hayden is incurious enough that it makes Shane feel safe.

When he’s outed, and his team rejects him, and he’s suddenly got this complexity and dimension that ruins Hayden’s image of him as a simple fun weirdo hockey savant, the friendship starts to fall apart. Maybe Hayden feels betrayed that Shane “hid” his sexuality from him for so long. Maybe he feels insecure because he thought Shane was smaller inside than he actually is. Maybe Shane, now that he’s no longer constrained to the safe shell he’d tried to build for himself, looks back at the borders of that shell and resents them. Being in a relationship also allows him to see other people’s relationships more clearly and Hayden increasingly just comes off as a sort of cowardly misogynistic idiot. I think he’s also a little weird about Shane being gay. It’s in an outwardly-supportive, socially liberal way, but he’s weird about it. They keep hanging out for a while, because they have history, but they don’t last.

[hollanderscafe]

I’ve been feeling shitty about my art lately so while I originally had a longer comic, for now, pls accept this very brief moment of Ilya wanting to pounce on his man instead of going to a boring party 🫱🏼‍🫲🏻

thank u @thinkingplump , this was one of ur ideas

[timbitshockey]

i think there’s a disconnect in fandom spaces between the general fan attitude of “i want more fic all the time with the exact concepts i’m interested in executed exactly the way i think is best and i want it to be 100k words and i want 25 chapters and i want a new chapter every day” and then also “i can’t believe the writers i was treating like a machine to create the art i want to consume as if it came off an assembly line used a machine to do it :/ who could ever do this” and like yeah obviously not everyone is in that first group but it’s an extremely pervasive attitude in newer, younger, popular fandoms. i don’t think it’s an “excuse” to use AI but i think the attitudes and environment that create that also create authors who feel they have to use AI to keep up with demand or authors who feel that their work is being consumed as factory-line commodities so why bother putting in effort? everyone wants fast food. everyone wants shein. if you want to be in an environment where art is created by artists the environment needs to be one that values art and creation and the process rather than just end results and numbers.

[timbitshockey]

like, writers and artists and people who create any kind of fan works are IN your fandom with you! they are not some outside entity who you appease with kudos and comments and reblogs to make sure your crops survive the winter. if i join a new fandom and everyone is obsessed with First, Longest, Newest, Most, More then those are also going to be the concepts i value when deciding to create fanwork!

it’s sad to me because the aspect of fanworks that i enjoy the most is the community aspect. i love having long conversations with my friends and other fans about work i’ve created and work they’ve created and work others have created. you don’t get that with AI works, right? you get, like, the dopamine rush of New, More! and then it fades because there was no real creative process involved. but there’s a lot of fandom spaces where that dopamine rush is all you get, because fanworks are treated as content being created for the fandom rather than by the fandom. idk man!!! it all sucks!!! i have a lot of empathy for people who have been raised in this environment when it comes to everything — school, social media, friendships, relationships — and bring the same processes into fandoms. we have to engage with the world to have a world with engaging in

[slutforglut]

[hudconvent]

no one ever talking about connors crooked bottom tooth…….never ever let them give you Invisalign my king….

[crazysodomite]

[cuppydogshane]

after they retire and are trailing into their mid-late 40s i think they get kinda fat btw. just some real solid Guys w the same strength they had but no real need to keep up a Performance Body

[l3thalp3tal]

[bearilya]

we should be talking about the underboob roll

[bearilya]

Hollanov paternity shoot. Shane is holding ilya’s belly. Shane is pregnant. Ilya’s just fat.

[bearilya]

lily rozanova, moles-on-cleavage crazy, chipped nail polish, lipstick on her cigarette

[bearilya]

fine dining baby sous chef shane and protégée line cook ilya. ilya chainsmokes, shane gets chubby. for fun maybe there’s also a murder? no idea who dies but something’s rotten

[bearilya]

Ok here’s my entire fucking plot outline if anyone wants spoilers (assuming I ever even write the thing)…