im not as depressed as i used to be

i’m kai, and i’ve been through a lot of sh*t in my life. i’m here to help people that have been through the same sh*t as me, and answer questions about this sh*t.

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i just want to be understood. as someone with bpd i can hardly understand myself sometimes but i know what triggers me and i know how i react. i make these things known to the people around me yet they don’t get it. i cant control my emotions and i’m trying so hard to be better. it’s not my fault, it’s the fault of my brain. i know people who also have bpd as well and they don’t even sympathize with my faults. what the freak.

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tw // depression , mentions of homophobia

i came out as gay to my whole family a few days ago, and let me tell you, that shit was so rejuvenating. i had been depressed because i was pretending to be someone i wasn’t, but coming out lifted a weight off of my shoulders.

if yo u are depressed because you are closeted, i recommend coming out to someone. even if it’s not your parents, because that is a really big step and i understand you may not be ready yet. come out to a friend, or just some rando on the internet.

if you know you may not be accepted, just know that i accept you, no matter who you are, what your pronouns are, who you love, whatever the case is, you are you. and nothing is gonna change that.

note: if your family is homophobic and you’re not 18 yet, wait until you can move out to come out. i know it sounds crazy, but it will help in the long run. remember to surround yourself with people who love and support you!! :))

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simple lesbian pride lockscreens :)

like/reblog if you save <3

i made bi lockscreens a little bit ago, but i

now realize that i’m a lesbian, so here you go!

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simple bi pride lockscreens :)

reblog/like if you save <3

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in case you haven’t seen this

stan timmy tim for clear skin

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if you are in the closet and you feel like coming out to someone before you explode, come out to me in the comments! i will be supportive, i promise!

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tw // rape , suicide , ptsd , and depression

a few years ago, i was raped by my moms boyfriend. i never spoke about it, never mentioned anything to anyone for five years. the idea of what happened lingered in my mind for those five years until they exploded. one night, at midnight, i could see myself five years ago, being raped and controlled by an asshole. seeing this broke me, and i let everything out. i told my mom what had happened, her and the boyfriend had split up four years prior to me telling her. my mom spoke to someone about what happened to me, and i was able to get therapy. being able to talk to someone about my experiences with trauma, and being able to control post traumatic thoughts has made my life ten times happier. if you feel like you need to go to therapy, for whatever reason, go. it really does help. i am also here to help, answer questions, and share my story with anyone who wants to hear!

because i am recovering from my depressive episodes, i will rarely post on this blog, but shameless self promo, you can check out my main @kity-jpg if you wanna hear a lot from me! :)

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just updated the page ! ha gottem

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I JUST TOOK A GAY QUIZ

IT TOLD ME I WAS 10% HETEROSEXUAL THAT IS WRONG IM GONNA THROW UP HETEROSEXUALITY IS NOT THE DEVILS WORK

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i think im getting a goddamn migraine. so help me god i will shoot a bullet into the sky and idk where it will land, but it’s gonna hit something, hopefully not me.

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sorry

im just going wild and listening to rap music and dancing in my room.

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imma dip my balls into some thousand island dressin

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if you ain’t a christian imma stab you in the face

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i got depression

i put my dick in a bag of doritos

make a bitch suck the dust off the tip

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“im gay but it’s weird so i won’t tell people”

me, 2014-2018