-continuing from where mix_12 left off; Mafuyu is worried about music so he goes outside to the park, sits on a bench and tries to sing. But his inability to do so only adds to his worries.
-Ue comes running to see Mafuyu. (Mafuyu had sent him a text saying heโs lonely and wanted to see him.) Pale with worry, he yells at Mafuyu to reply faster to his texts, but Mafuyuโs delighted response upon seeing him, has him instantly mollified.
-Ue settles on the bench beside Mafuyu, who rests his head on Ueโs shoulder and breathes a sigh of relief.
-Feeling guilty about spending all his time recently with Hiiragi at band practice and neglecting Mafuyu, Ue invites Mafuyu to go practice at the studio, just the two of them but Mafuyu declines.
-Although Ue senses somethingโs off, he doesnโt dwell on it too much.
-Realizing itโs almost time for the last train, Ue hands him a ticket for Hiiragiโs concert and says, โI wanโt you to come.โ
-Mafuyuโs expression changes and he pulls away from Ue- who is startled by this strange reaction and he finally realizes that Mafuyu has indeed been acting strange and cold when it came to music.
-Hastily announcing itโs time for the last train, Ue stands up to leave. Taken aback, Mafuyu only says, โhuh?...oh...โ and looks anxious.
-At home, Ue is depressed and overwhelmed by everything that happened. He worries about Mafuyuโs reaction earlier; which was like him rejecting music.
-Given has not had a practice session in 2 months. He wonders if Mafuyu doesnโt want to sing anymore which could lead to the band splitting up. And, if he messed up when he joined Hiiragiโs band to help him but heโd worked on THE songโsimply because he wanted Mafuyu to listen to it.
-He thinks about Shizu and Hiiragi (and their whole situation) and the chapter ends with him thinking he canโt be like that.
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Yet another beautiful chapter from Kizu Natsuki sensei.
Quite a few heart breaking face expressions in this chapter... so, brace yourselves.
Iโve excluded a lot of details as always, because instead of losing your shit after reading some spoilers, y'all should just wait to read the chapter... And enjoy it then x.x
As for my thoughts... Itโs very interesting how music has influenced relationships in this story:
Ugetsu gave up on Akihiko for music -> Akihiko kinda gave up on music once because of Ugetsu but fell in love with it again because of Haruki and the kids.
Shizu is doing music for and because of Hiiragi. -> Hiiragi is doing music to bind Shizu to him.
Uenoyama wants to do music WITH Mafuyu. And he canโt give up on either one.
Annnnnd,
Mafuyu... is afraid of being left out? He loves music but at the same time heโs scared of it. Being โexcludedโ once again has brought to surface some unpleasant memories. Soooo... to him, music IS the villain, it took Yuki from him, IS taking Ue away from him and heโs terrified.
Basically, Mafuyu is hurt because he doesnโt know Ueโs intentions.
And, Ue doesnโt know this is Mafuyu sulking because heโs lonely and feeling left out again.
...Yet they just keep missing each other and running away from one another smh.
Will they overcome this? Absolutely.
Because neither of them want to let go of the other.
Hello, thanks for the updates! In jealousy, does it show what happens with Tatsuyuki's mother? What was the cause of her death?
Hello!! I actually don't know how she passed away! ๐ I feel like the Fandom is very limited, so I haven't found any summaries/ translations on the newer chapters. BUT IF ANYONE KNOWS HOW SHE PASSED, PLS LMK!!!
-Shizu watches Hiiragi sleep as he thinks about everything that happened the previous night. He gently touches Hiiragiโs face.
-Hiiragi stirs awake and Shizu immediately confesses his love for Hiiragi, adding, โlet me stay beside you till the day (I) die.โ
-Hiiragi (wide awake now) yells at Shizu for always being grandoise and demands a more normal confession. But Shizu believes that was the most subtle way (for him) to express his feelings.
-During their band practice session later, Uenoyama notices a change in their (Shizu and Hiiragiโs) music.
-Uenoyama being Uenoyama, asks Hiiragi about itโwho denies at first but then panicks when pressed for answers. He kicks Shizu and Ue out of the studio ordering them to go buy food.
-Shizu and Ue do as their told, although Uenoyama is pissed off by Hiiragiโs ridiculous behaviour. He asks Shizu why heโs in a band with Hiiragi, to which Shizu simply replies, โbecause I love* him.โ
-Uenoyama is shocked and he asks Shizu if heโs dating Hiiragi. Ue worries when Shizu answers in the affirmative.
-Uenoyama questions Shizu on whether he feels anxious about their music being affected now that theyโre pros.
-Shizu replies heโs confident that he takes music seriouslyโheโs doing it to stay beside Hiiragi which is why he doesnโt feel worried or conflicted. Shizu goes on to say heโs devoted to Hiiragiโs music and that their relationship is different from Ue and Mafuyuโs because heโs not โsufferingโ and thatโs his strong point.
-Ue finds Shizuโs way of thinking strange, heโs bewildered but accepts it nonetheless. He feels a bit envious of Shizu because heโs not being indecisive.
[*loveโ Shizu uses the word โaishiteruโ which is almost never used in real-life situations. Simply put, itโs much much more profound than the word commonly used: โsukiโ (which translates to like/love)
Japanese folk tend to be reserved about their feelings, so โaishiteru/aishiteiruโ is cringe-worthy tbh and whenever it is used, if ever, it will be to express sincere and intense feelings.
You will see the word โaishiteruโ being used in some anime/manga but itโs quite rare. For example... Gilbert tells Violet, โaishiteruโ]
-Scene cuts to Mafuyu.
-In a dream, Yuki, Hiiragi and Shizu are leaving him behind. It then changes to Uenoyama, Hiiragi and Shizu. He wants to tell them to wait, but he couldnโt speak.
-He jolts awake, his heart racing because of the ominous dream. Checking the time, he figures heโd dozed off earlier.
-Suddenly, a realization strikes him: he canโt listen to music. Even though the ringing in his ears hadnโt stopped at all since he met Uenoyama.
-He also wonders how long itโs been since he sang, and the chapter closes with Mafuyu asking himself โhow did I sing?โ
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Uenoyama is dumber than a bag of rocks when it comes to romance but is ridiculously perceptive when it comes to anything related to music.
Sometimes I wish Mafuyu would just punch him in the face... with lots of love and force.
Still, Uenoyama is a gem of a person. You canโt help but adore him.
Also, I find it incredible that anyone could be devoted to someone (like Shizu is to Hiiragi) and the Universe also makes it so that the object of your affections reciprocates your feelings...
Lastly, Mafuyu... ;-;
*Sigh* letโs just not freak out and wait.
...Heโll be fine.
I am half-asleep while typing this, so Iโll fix any errors I find later. Iโm gonna crash rn... But before I do, lemme say this- those of you who called it rape/dub con, I hope you had fun eating your words. PFFT :D yus im being petty lololol
Kusakabe and Sajouโs story is not done yet! Introducing Futari Gurashiย or Living Together, some all new content! Also, please enjoy the cover that I colored <3
These scans arenโt perfect, but I tried to clean them up the best that I could. The translation might take a while because I am very busy currently, but I will do my best!
Feel free to use these images however you would like!
Hello ~ thank you for all the things you share! I wanted to ask... will you be posting the raws of the Jackass spin-off too? It comes out in July and I can't wait to see it ๐
Omg yes!!!!! I've been waiting for a spin off of those two for ages!! I'M SO EXCITED FOR IT!!!
hey!! its the jealousy anon again! i keep checking your blog obsessively xD ill wait for the better lighting pics lmao BUT IM READY TO YELL WHENEVER YOU ARE!!!
OMGGG YESSSS!!!! come off anon when I post it so we can yell together!!!
I was reading the given raws right now (so good by the way thank you for uploading) and I noticed your nail in one of the photos, and they look amazing ๐
Thank you!!! ๐ญ๐ญ๐ I always try to give my nails a lil cameo in the pics lol
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