Me.

katherine / kat / me things i think, and the things i wish i thought. for the love of words. want images instead? -> @moodsymoodboard

[meanwhilepoetry]

Sometimes I think about how beautiful it is that humans sing despite it all. That through suffering, we still sing. How even on the worst of days in the world, there were still people singing. The way a mother sings a lullaby to her crying baby to soothe her. Or the way sailors sang sea shanties out even on choppy oceans to build a sense of familiarity and camaraderie as they worked. Or how even in the depths of the earth, coal miners sing. Isn’t that the most beautiful thing about the human spirit? That we found a way to reach each other in the darkness. To let each other know through song, that do not worry, I am here. Let us sing together and ease each others fears.

- Nikita Gill

[boykeats]

September Affirmation (Don’t Be Afraid) by Keaton St. James

[meanwhilepoetry]

The bad news is we will never go back to the way it used to be. The good news is we will never go back to the way it used to be.

- Nikita Gill

[kat-the-rin-blog]

I guess this is the end of the road for me.

[praying]

[veerideas]

[meanwhilepoetry]

When you start to put up firm boundaries to protect yourself, you will lose people. This will teach you the sharp distinction between who is with you because they truly respect and love you, and who is with you because they want to take advantage of your inability to say “no”.

[kat-the-rin-blog]

“May the bridges I burn light the way”

— (via dangered)

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I think this is a fitting post for my return to tumblr :)

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Hi. I fucking hate myself right now. Why do I always have to go around and try to make my situation sound better than it is. Why do I have to make things sound like they’re normal. Why do I suck and communication. Why do I always pick the WRONG time to try to stand up for myself?

I want people to see me for the depressed, desperate, broken person I am, but I can never express it out of fear.

[kat-the-rin-blog]

I busted balls to get things rolling

but instead I’m just left here hanging

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that moment you realize that in your attempts to protect yourself from toxic behavior, you have started becoming toxic as well.

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I’ve never been so afraid of myself and my circumstances as much as these past moments.

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maybe one day I’ll speak my mind.

maybe one day you’ll get it.

maybe one day if won’t hurt so much.

maybe one day...

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that moment you become the very person that you’ve feared to become.

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Hi. I’m moving house for the first time in my life and as excited as I am for the new house, the stress of this process is crazy.

I just want something to go right so I don’t feel like I’m making the wrong life choices.

Fuck me. Fuck this whole thing. I genuinely feel shitty and just want it to stop.

[kat-the-rin-blog]

I thought I could feel this conflicted and hurt from a family member....I just want it to stop. It keeps getting worse.

Thank God I have my chosen family...but still. It sucks and hurts so f****** much.

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When you grow up feelin flawed as f***, feeling self confident is a struggle...

Sometimes I wish it was easy, and I could do things without feeling like a fool. Sometimes I wish I could stand up for myself more. Sometimes I wish I could take no s***

But I’m not any of those things. I’m emotionally fragile, I’m a scardey cat, I’m insecure, and I’m seemingly the wrong person for everything.

I can always list these “if only”s but at the end of the day, all I can do is try...and if my trying is not enough for you, well, I guess there’s nothing I can do...