Kata

41 year old owned masochistic slave / pet / little in New Hampshire. My Master @Retro13 Has full 24/7 control and I love being his denied toy.

[katacanvas]

I just wanted to say hi and reintroduce myself since it's been so long… I'm kata and I am an owned slave. My Master has trained me in orgasm denial and edging for a little over 3 years. My last orgasm was May 6th 2023 (making today 121 days) and there is no intention of an end to denial. Permanent denial is the goal for my future. Unless of course it amuses him to change that.

I have to admit that I both love and hate my denial and I would never change it. I am his to use, deny, or do with as he sees fit.

One thing I wish I had been able to read was what denial was truly like not just the sexy stories. So here is the reality of my long term denial:

I am most definitely very pliable

I want to do most anything to please him sexually and do. Sometimes even doing things that afterwards disgust myself.

I am extremely desperate and needy all the time. There's always an ache.

I am very emotional and can have mood swings. This can affect everyday life in the bedroom and outside of it. With your family members and friends.

Being very wet down there often (I am required to edge multiple times a day) can cause irritation and become very itchy.

Sometimes it is actually hard for me to get wet because my body is on strike I think lol (that's not often but can happen)

More often than not It takes barely a touch to get me going. He uses this to his advantage quite often and anywhere he so pleases.

Sometimes I'm completely turned on and desperate without being wet

Sometimes I'm wet and my brain is absolutely not there sexually and not in the mood but my body is 100% ready so definitely open to being used (it's never about me)

Long-term denial is a crazy thing, it's frustrating, and it's amazing. I absolutely love being his desperate needy fuck hole

Please feel free to ask me anything and I will answer when I can.

[katacanvas]

The end and new chapter. My denial journey.

Today is November 13th 2024

After 552 days in denial, on November 8th, my Master decided it was time for a reset. It was amazing and awful all at once. Let me explain: I want to start by saying I really don't know what I expected it to feel like... If I'm being honest, there was a part of me that feared that I was broken, and would never be able to cum again. Maybe another part expected pure ecstasy, or maybe an overwhelming pleasure unlike any other. It was both of those and it wasn't. Such confusing and warring emotions.

So what do I mean? What happened?

Let's start at the beginning. Using his hand to edge me as he has done more times than I can count, turning my brain to mush and my body preparing for that edge, he out of the blue uttered one word, a word I hadn't heard directed at me in 552 days, "CUM". I am pretty sure my eyes betrayed my shock in that moment. My body at first didn't want to, it took determination and really pushing myself to finally go over that edge. It sucked. There was pleasure of course, but not really this enormous wave that I expected. Then still wearing his shirt, I felt him push my legs back and slide his cock inside me. I had just enough thought left to push his shirt up his body so that I wouldn't leave any mess on him. It was just in time for him to give the order again, "CUM". This time he was inside me so he could feel it. It was amazing, and earth shattering, and so very terrible.

It was in that moment that I realized 552 days of my life spent in denial... 552 days of work to ensure that I'd edged multiple times a day, but kept a self-control to allow me to never go over... 552 days of knowing I pleased him in my denial... 552 days, a number to be proud of... 552 days gone, my denial reset.

In the end, the pleasure was immense, the tears lasted a while, the emotions were overwhelming. He held me through it all. He realished in the pain, the pleasure, the emotions I felt in that moment, and at my realization of the weight of my loss. He held me through all the sobbing, and while my body still shook. He held me.

Welcome to the next step in my journey of denial, today is day 5.

Tabitha aka KataCanvas proudly serving @retro-13

[katacanvas]

My life in denial

In just 9 more days I'll reach 300 days in orgasm denial and I cannot be more happy.

When I first agreed to try denial I didn't think it would work for me or that I'd ever enjoy it or find my place and the happiness that it brings me.

It's taken years but I'm finally here!!!

I'm so proud to serve him in this way and I must admit I'm also proud of my own resilience and control. Both of which I must give thanks to his training and his full confidence and faith in me that allowed me to learn just some of what I'm capable of. I cannot wait to find out what else I'm capable of through this amazing journey he's taking me on.

I am about to reach a number that I never in my wildest dreams believed possible. I never believed I could come close to or for that matter thought I'd ever want to.

10 months or it could be called

42 weeks and 6 days or it could be called

300 days!!

Watch out year here I come!

[daughteryours-deactivated201905]

Things you can do to me

Fuck me in any hole you want

Fuck me whenever you please

Use me as a fucktoy

Use me as a stress relief

Keep going even when it hurts me

Keep going even after I cum

Fuck me while I sleep

Drug me

Only care about your own pleasure

Cheat on me

Share me with whoever or whatever you want

Make me watch as you fuck someone else

Literally anything that gets you off, I was made for your pleasure.

[neodemonhawk]

That’s the way I like my girls.

[slavetosir22]

Made to use

[retro-13]

Reblogging for my slave.

[dirtylittlebookworm]

I like to be used.

I like it when he’s in control. I like it when he takes what he wants. I like it when he uses my holes for his pleasure.

I like it when humiliating me gets him hard. I like it when my tears make him harder.

I like it when he hurts me. I like it when he expects me to hurt for him.

I like it when he expects me to take it.

I like it when he makes the decisions. I like it when he says, Daddy doesn’t even have to ask, does he?

I like it when he doesn’t ask.

I like it when he tells me that this is what I’m good for. I like it when he treats me like his toy.

I like it when he bruises me. I like it when he marks me. I like it when I can feel him for days afterward.

I like it when I’m in pain because of what he did to me.

I like it when he reminds me that I’m his. I like it when he tells me that he owns me. I like it when he says that I belong to him, that I’m his now, that there’s nowhere for me to go.

I like it when he breaks me. I like it when he takes my vulnerability and rubs me raw with it. I like it that I can be that person with him.

I like it that he sees the darkest parts of me and still wants to be with me.

And I love it that he loves me enough to use me.

[katacanvas]

Ulfric wants my pussy stretched more, he started by fisting me, I thought there was no way he would make it fit but he did.

My journey tonight began with a bottle. I started with the neck, just slowly sliding it in and out allowing my body to adjust, but that wasn't enough.... He wanted the other end inside me.

I did not think I'd manage to get it to fit, but I slowly worked it up inside myself for him.

After a while my body adjusted and I was able to fuck myself with the bottle, harder and harder. Knowing how much it pleased him had me so wet.

I feel so sore now but I have to say I loved every minute of stretching my hole for him. Of course when finished i thanked him for allowing me to be of service to him and he had me thank the bottle for its service as well.

I wonder how far this journey will take me...

[aster-kitty]

Molest me

Tell me its ok, that you’d only do this because you love me while you slide your hand up my skirt. Tell me its normal for little girls to explore and youre just helping me, that if i tried it with anyone else they might hurt me. Tell me terrible lies about how I should be fucking you. When I’m asleep pull my pants down and take photos, spread apart my holes, push yourself inside me. As soon as I start to stir tell me “daddy’s here, you’re just having a bad dream, daddy would never hurt you” Make me touch you, grab my hand and make me jerk you off even when I’m scared. Use your strength against me. Make me cry. Tell me nobody will ever believe me and that if I try and tell anyone you’ll kill me. But you still love me. Hurt me. Push my face into the bed with your foot and fuck me until I cry. Tie me up for hours taped to a vibrator just so you can watch me squirm and squeal and turn into a cummy, dribbling mess. After every time you violate me, kiss me and tell me what a brave little girl i am and how much you love me for sharing such a special secret with my daddy. Fuck. Molest me, Please

[chainedboy82-deactivated2016050]

[dumbworthlessfucktoys]

Which type of cunt are you?

A. You look innocent. Somewhat classy, but deep inside, you have sick twisted fantasies and it makes you wet, just knowing how filthy you really are. How no one has a clue about it. You know you are sicker and filthier than most girls. Message me and say “I am sick, daddy” if you belong to this category.

B. You’re a nympho slut. A sex-addict. A cumwhore. Even while you function and do your daily chores, being filled, fucked and used is the only thing on the back of your mind. You pretend to be classy, but secretly you’re a wet mess all fucking day. Sex is the only thing on your mind. You could feel your pussy all day long, if you wouldn’t have to do chores. Just need the right man to use you and keep you on his leash, all day long. Message me and say “Break me, daddy” if you belong to this category.

C. Humiliation. That’s what makes you cum. Being treated like trash. Being called names. Pissed on. Slapped. Treated like a fucking sex object with all dignity and self respect taken away. You feel guilty later on, after you’ve been used. After you cum. Yet within a few hours, you’re craving that degradation again. Caught in the vicious cycle again and you know there’s no escaping now. You’ll never be able to cum to a “nice” guy again. Don’t need them either. Message me and say “I am trash, daddy” if you belong to this category.

D. You have a Husband. A boyfriend. A lover, yet here you are. Cumming to rough, degrading porn. To women being used like shit and half wishing it was you. Your partner has no idea you’re here and nor is he kinky or wild enough to use you like this. Fucking need to cheat on him secretly and be used. You need daddy to use you like you were made to be used and cheating only makes this cunt drip more. Message me and say “make me cheat, daddy” if you belong to this category.

E. No strong father figure in your life? Even when you had one, you were neglected. Making you attracted towards a strong father figure from an early age. You want to call a guy “daddy” before doing everything in your way to please him. That’s how you’ll earn the affection you never got. You’re broken now and you’ve got daddy issues, but you’ve embraced it. Message me and say “You are my daddy” if you belong to this category.

F. You want to be controlled, from what you think about to what you wear. Tasks and rules complete you. You want to be brainwashed. Corrupted. Left an addict by daddy till the point that you can’t say no, even when you want to. You act normal, but deep down inside you just want to be an owned, braindead sextoy. Once a good girl, now reduced to nothing but a vacant look and gaping holes. Message me and say “Brainwash me, daddy” if you belong to this category.

Think I missed out on a category? Let me know and I’ll put that up too. Choose a max of two categories which suit you best and let daddy know.

[dumbworthlessfucktoys]

So I’m adding four new categories, based on popular demand.

G. You’ve always stood up for girls around you. Stood up against perverts. Even against those misogynistic jokes guys cracked around you. You’re not scared of speaking out against men like that either. A true feminist on the outside that’s not scared of letting her opinions known. Vocal about protecting other girls. They don’t know how you go home though and secretly cum to thoughts of men violating and abusing you. How you secretly can’t get enough of being a fuck object. That’s all that you really want, deep down inside. A secret feminist skank, nothing more. Message me and say “Me too, daddy” if you belong to this category. H. You love being an object. You’re pretty. You’ve got a nice body. You pretend like you’re dressing up for yourself and you even give men dirty looks when they stare at your legs in a skirt, or those juicy tits and cleavage popping out. Secretly though? You love it, whore. You love that men are just objectifying you. That’s all you want to be for them too. A fucking sex object. Reminded that you’re nothing but holes to get off to. Message me and say “Objectify me, daddy” if you belong to this category. I. You love being a filthy race traitor. You’d be a disappointment to your family, if they ever knew what you crave. The more they wanted to keep you ‘pure’, the more you want a man from another race to fucking ruin you. An interracial addict by now. Betraying your own race, thoughts and even your own husband because a dirty dark man’s cock is all that gets you off now. Their brutality is what you need. Message me and say “Destroy my race, daddy” if you belong to this category. J. You love being in a risky situation or place. Risk is what pushes you over the edge. The more wrong it is? The more risky it gets? The more it makes your cunt leak. Could be sexting at work. Letting a man degrade you while you’re sitting next to your mom. Or simply talking to your husband about his day while I keep texting you and tell you what a dirty fucking slut you are. Let daddy put you in that position. Message me and say “Risk it, daddy” if you belong to this category. Think I missed out on a category? Let me know and I’ll put that up too. Choose a max of three categories which suit you best and let daddy know.

[saswitchblr]

A C D

[cock-pleaser]

C H. I am trash, objectify me, daddy.

[lilithedoll]

B and G Me too Daddy

[justanotherbitch69]

A C F

[little-stuffie-slut]

H A C

[katacanvas]

Picking just 2 is hard but A and C

[dumbbigtittedslut-deactivated20]

I choose degrading sex

because getting fucked up the ass while I bark like a dog is approximately one million times better than missionary in the dark.

[17894532]

because feeling her struggle to keep from pissing the carpet while im inside her ass is one million and one times better than kisses down her back.

[17894532]

because forcing her face into the stain asking her “didn’t I train you better, bitch?” gets her one hundred times wetter than “oh baby, you’re so tight.”  

[17894532]

because the look on her face and whimper she makes before barking after you mutter “maybe i should send you back to the pound” is one billion times more satisfying than some “six month anniversary” blowjob. 

[naomitweet-blog]

Because when he tells me to take his cock is Ten thousand times better than hearing “do you want me to stop?”

[dontgetwisewithme]

Because forcing her to cum repeatedly against her will until she’s begging and crying is a few hundred thousand times better than asking “did you finish too?”

[pacifiers-and-paraphilia]

Because being told that I’m a vile little slut is more thrilling than half hearted sweet nothings.

[boysschool]

Because transforming the grossest, most embarrassing things imaginable into eroticism as a couple is about a trillion times more bonding than vanilla sex. Vulnerability is true intimacy.

[jennzipuppy]

Because my orgasms are much stronger when he’s holding me down with the entire weight of his body as he nearly rips my clothes off and manhandles me than the run-of-the-mill vanilla sex

[lunashantelle]

Because calling me a good little slut while he slaps and spits in my face and fucks my mouth is so much better than having him fuck me for 2 minutes, then fingering me for 12. 

[thecunthunter-deactivated201710]

Because unleashing all my aggression on her and leaving her a bleeding, bruised, and sobbing mess at my feet, not letting her up until she’s managed to say “Thank you “ is a million miles better than saying “oh I’m sorry I didn’t mean to hurt you”

[meoww-maid]

Because knowing he’s going to turn me into a drooling whimpering mess makes spending the time to get dolled up a bushel and a peck more exciting than hoping my lipstick will stay intact the entire night.

[buttercupbaba]

Because him caning, paddling Or spanking me until I’m crying to unleash all the pent up stress, anger and sadness is better than me crying alone in my room.

[cass-ie-opeia]

Because giving up control to someone who cares about my safety and happiness is better than giving up control to drugs.

[anothersadist]

this post is why i love tumblr

[foryourdispleasure-deactivated2]

Because watching her makeup run from shoving your cock down her throat is infinitely better than hearing “I think oral sex is gross”

[forced-to]

Bc when he makes me let the neighbor watch me being fucked and peed on is better than not fucking anything

[dumbbigtittedslut-deactivated20]

Well that certainly went to some places

[17894532]

I remember when this was at 10k notes - what have we done.

[anothernutbust]

because fucking the cute blonde cheerleader against the community college desk is better than asking “how old are you?” found out later in the semester she was 16.  (that really happened)

[katacanvas]

Because being used like his personal cum rag is soooo much better than him asking if we can have sex

[lethargicfog-deactivated2021041]

Lois Smith and husband

[this-is-your-new-master]

▪️◾️◼️⬛️◼️◾️▪️ 

You’ll find my NSFW Blog over on BDSMLR, under “this-is-your-new-master”

[katacanvas]

I love sitting at his feet so much

[lone-rusalka]

I want to feel you break me. Strip away every barrier I have, every hang up and worry. I want to be yours. To use, to fuck...

But also for you to find your home in. Formyou to be able to lose yourself in when the rest of the world doesn't make sense.

[massaandi-deactivated20160312]

I want to be treated like shit.

I want to be fucked hard, with no regard for my pleasure.

I want to be told that I am stupid, fat, ugly, and worthless. That I am blessed that any man would let me have access to his superior, wondrous cock.

I want to be told that as a woman, I am worth only the three holes I possess.

I want to be raped in my ass while I a cry and beg him to stop.

I want to be married and live the life of a housewife. Cooking, cleaning, servicing my husband, bearing his children. I am good only for breeding and licking the toilet clean.

I want to suck his cock while he takes his morning shit and swallow his piss. I want to be pissed on whenever he decides he would be amused by my disgust. I want to be denied orgasm unless he commands me to.

I want him to let me suck a cock while he watches porn of hotter women than I am, comparing me to them and degrading me. I want him to let me suck his cock while he watches a football game, drinking beer and ignoring me other than to cum on my face.

I love cum on my face. And on my tits. I want to be titty-fucked, my nipples pinched till they’re sore and sensitive. I want him to cum inside me, knock me up with his baby.

I want him to pass me around his friends, a violent group gang rape where I have every hole filled. My face slapped, my ass beat, my stomach punched. Where I am spit on, pissed on, covered in their cum and fucked repeatedly until I am too weak to move.

I want to make him happy, for him to use me as a footstool. To be forced to eat under the table, from the ground like a dog. To suck his cock as he eats.

I want him to shove his whole fist up my cunt, ruining me. I want to be made to oink like a pig, because I am a fat sow who deserves a life of wallowing in the mud.

I want to be his, completely and totally. Whoever he is.

[educating-cunts]

What all the worthwhile girls want.

[katacanvas]

There are moments that some people realize their true desire to serve and please is what drives them.

Lately there's been a lot of those moments for me. Last night there were two moments in particular...

I've always been disgusted by others feet, having them near me, touch me, or worst me touch them. Even the thought of it was too much for me to handle. So last night while laying in bed with Ulfric I looked down at his feet and I thought about the fact that he works hard and has to be on them often and I realized that I wanted to be of service to him and rub his feet. Just the thought itself came as a surprise. As I crawled down to the end of the bed and took his foot in my hand and started to rub I could see the look of surprise in his eyes, but that first moan of pleasure that escaped his lips was beyond satisfying. After I rubbed both of his feet I leaned my head down and placed a kiss upon each one to show him my happiness in serving him. I look forward to having his feet in my hands again.

The next moment was when I had his cock in my throat, struggling to breathe and knowing his bladder was full and ready for me. I felt his warm piss start to flow as it drained into my throat like a water faucet being turned on. I pulled my head back choking on it (I still have work to do on taking that). He made sure I was okay and then continued to let his stream flow all over my body that was covered in scratches (he'd ensured throughout the day were everywhere to prepare for this) . The sting of it was amazingly torturous, but I must admit I look forward to the next time he starts to fill my throat again.

[peacemaker93]

Okay I love everything about this

[katacanvas]

Thank you, honestly he makes me feel amazing and serving him is my absolute pleasure. I'm very lucky to have him.

[katacanvas]

There are moments that some people realize their true desire to serve and please is what drives them.

Lately there's been a lot of those moments for me. Last night there were two moments in particular...

I've always been disgusted by others feet, having them near me, touch me, or worst me touch them. Even the thought of it was too much for me to handle. So last night while laying in bed with Ulfric I looked down at his feet and I thought about the fact that he works hard and has to be on them often and I realized that I wanted to be of service to him and rub his feet. Just the thought itself came as a surprise. As I crawled down to the end of the bed and took his foot in my hand and started to rub I could see the look of surprise in his eyes, but that first moan of pleasure that escaped his lips was beyond satisfying. After I rubbed both of his feet I leaned my head down and placed a kiss upon each one to show him my happiness in serving him. I look forward to having his feet in my hands again.

The next moment was when I had his cock in my throat, struggling to breathe and knowing his bladder was full and ready for me. I felt his warm piss start to flow as it drained into my throat like a water faucet being turned on. I pulled my head back choking on it (I still have work to do on taking that). He made sure I was okay and then continued to let his stream flow all over my body that was covered in scratches (he'd ensured throughout the day were everywhere to prepare for this) . The sting of it was amazingly torturous, but I must admit I look forward to the next time he starts to fill my throat again.

[themasterofo]

[psychedelic-purple]

Orgasms ruin my life, need to stay edged

[katacanvas]

I'm learning the truth to this

[gookslutwhore]