Facing the crowd, squinting slightly at the bright lights directed at my face, I can barely hear the warming applause over my own heartbeat. I have practiced hundreds of hours and been to countless dance classes in order to prepare for this: my first time performing on a stage. It was exhilarating and terrifying at the same time. The music begins and my mind goes blank. I have no idea what move comes first and my queue is coming up. Somehow, my body starts the synchronized movements without a problem. I hit the opening counts effortlessly and before I know it the performance is halfway through. I mentally remind myself to smile and keep the audience entertained. I move gracefully around the stage along with my other classmates, moving in harmony. The bass matches my heartbeat and the music is blaring in my ears but I can see from the reaction of the crowd that we are doing well. I see out of the corner of my eye a brown haired girl trip and fall to her butt on one of the harder moves. I try to concentrate on hitting the moves myself, but I can see her get to her feet and turn a few shades redder. As I turn to dance to the back of the stage I can see that I’m 2-counts early, and I scold myself internally. I quickly get back on the right counts and collect myself for the rest of the dance. When the music comes to an end, I dramatically strike the ending pose, my face painted with the biggest grin. For a first performance, I know I nailed it.
Performing has become a part of who I am. I would be nothing without dance recitals, competitions and halftime performances. After my first performance, I was hooked. I joined my high schools dance team and we performed at least once a week, along with long hours of practices. I was in heaven and my dancing had improved so much.
Taking the stage for the first time on the dance team, all the same nerves rushed back into my body. Crouching in our opening pose, I couldn’t stop shaking, from nerves and adrenaline, and my heart was racing. As I waited for the music to tell me to start dancing, I went over the opening in my head. When it was time to dance, our team hit the beginning section without a flaw. I transition to the back of the stage and continue the routine. When we hit our group toe touch I can see that the left side is faster than the right, a pang of disappointment hits my heart, but I know we can recover from this. I continue with the rest of the dance picking up momentum and confidence. The rest of the performance goes off without much of a hitch. Just a few minor count errors. As the music ends, the crowd bursts into a round of applause and I can see the section of our parents jump to their feet with huge smiles on their faces.
As the years go by, I grow tired of going to practices, and as the hours drag on so does my patience. Each day I force myself to attend practices, but I’m always the first one to arrive at performances. They are still a novelty to me.
As my last year on dance team winds to and end, and our last performance is right on the horizon, I start to regret all the practices I didn’t cherish and the days I spent in less than happy moods. As I take the floor for the last time on senior night, my eyes start to water as I come to the realization that I will never dance on this floor again, I will never dance at another basketball or football game again, and I will never dance with my best friends again. Dismay washes over me but I push it away as the music begins, only letting myself focus on counting the beats and making this the best performance of my life. My last dance was hip-hop style and I was chosen to have my own solo in the middle. When my solo comes, I take one last deep breath and set my mind on killing this performance. I smoothly transition from a side stall into a toe touch and the crowd goes wild. I can hear the student section screaming my name. I look over and give my friends a confident wink. The music guides my next moves and we transition to the last formation. As the music begins to fade we all hit our ending pose, panting in unison. As the crowd erupts with cheers and applause, a wave of emotion courses through my body. That was my last time dancing. I can’t believe it. But I just killed it. We just killed it.