Dear God, I dreamt of him. After all this while, I dreamt of him. 😨 God, when I had dreams of him previously, it was from afar. Distant. Non personal. But last night's dream seemed very real, vivid and personal. I dreamt I took the train. There were some issues at the train station but not clear enough to remember. It was a long walk from the station to the place. This place was located at a corner lot, near a slope. The scenery reminded me of Korea or Japan or even a bit of busy London. I was there to meet someone I knew and was ok with. There was another person in the shop whom I did not want to see and this person did not come out as well. I had a chat with this friend. Afterwards, this friend brought out another person whom I have not seen in a while. This other person is him. I remember I felt shy in my dream. Partly cause I've changed a lot, physically. Fat. Hair's much messier. Shy because my self confidence was low as well. But if anything, he did not show it in his reaction when he saw me. At first, I stood by the wall near the back of the row of shops. We started talking. Then somehow, we moved to sit down together, side by side, near the front of the shop. I remember talking about recruitment and LEP with him which he would not even be aware of. Yet, in my dream, he could hold up his end of these conversation topics. We talked about other things though I can't recall. Suddenly, he mentioned something about his wife. I remember perking up cause in reality and to my knowledge, he is not married. I must have shown some reaction in the dream as he retracted his words. It was something to do with logistics and I asked why he didn't discuss this matter with his wife. Again, I have no recollection of what this logistic issue is about, just that it is far and inconvenient. But do you know, while we were chatting, I had his hand in my hands and I was playing with his ring, twisting it here and there on his finger, as our conversation was going on. And the feeling sitting next to him, chatting, was just so calm and pleasant! It was a very enjoyable sensation through it all. You know what else? We were there, just the two us, chit chatting from dusk till dawn. Apparently I arrived at the place late evening in my dream, hahahah. We didn't sleep throughout the night. We talked and laughed. Then I finally had to go cause it was morning and I needed to go to work. 😂 I said goodbye and walked back to the train station again. This time, I dreamt I sat in a bus as well. Well, that's the end of my dream. God, was that meant to be a closure? It just made me all the more confused and made my feelings return. Feelings I want to suppress amd forget. For what it's worth, it was a lovely dream. 😊
