[em-0o]

[weltenwellen]

Andrea Gibson, The Madness Vase

[katishaaatorrez]

As if the words couldn’t be heavier so filled with grief, loneliness and pain

I love her

Just as a daughter should love there mother

But In any other aspect of the word “mother” she hasn’t been that to me for years

It’s endless conversation about her needing that next fix something she can’t live without it

To blaming me for anything under the Sun that takes that guilt from herself

It’s the way she uses the title mother that she always finds a way to criticize how I mother my own children that I’m never good enough

Funny how a better role model would have fixed her views

Even though I know for a solid fact my kids will never have to grieve me not the way I do her

It’s the true form of emotional abuse

Mentally and physically that she uses to stay consistent with guilt which I can never tell her no

I can say exactly how I feel tell her how bad it hurts to say the words

I never deserved this

And like always it’s just wind to her

Something she will use against me

Tell me in her losing battle it was my fault

It’s always my fault

When will she change?

When will I?

It’s not making me stronger it’s a forever kinda pain I never deserved

I will not recover from her

[poetryforall]

[pink-heart-writes]

i hope my absence gives you the peace my love apparently never could

- nick <3

[jaggedjawjosh]

[katishaaatorrez]

You remember when you said you loved me?

Yeah I’ll never forget it

It was a night to be fearless

To say everything I felt with no regrets just some liquid courage and your ears to listen

The way we spend countless hours being intimate and the way I feel so much comfort just being around you is insane

Here’s to the long run of becoming a better person just for you

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

– Jay Vespertine

[old-school-romantics]

Jm Storm

[katishaaatorrez]

It feels as though my heart is breaking inside me

I feel like I can’t take a full breath without feeling guilty

Why does heartbreak make you question your worth?

Why have I stared in the mirror and told my self “of course your not worth it look what you have done”

I think the era of my giving so much of myself to others has ended now I’m just left with the shell of who I thought I was because everyone that has depended on me has no use for me anymore

How can I feel while if I can’t even help others it’s like having background noise on it helps my mind not think

I feel like I’m falling at the jobs I’m actually supposed to show up for

Being a mother

Being human

Being a friend

Being myself

At this point I don’t even know what I can do to get this pain to stop

[baby-im-falling-for-youu]

[hwhwgwhnwnwbwbwg-deactivated202]

Nick Miller

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

“Come love, make me better than I was. Come teach me a kinder way to say my own name.”

- Andrea Gibson, from "Good Light," Lord of the Butterflies

[weltenwellen]

Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, 1931–1934

[louisegluck]

Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals

[transparentthingss]

[joytri]