IN THE LIFE OF H.I.J.KAY

Tatei Kay! Enjoying my days as life hands me lemons forcing me to make lemonade, AND sweet tea. I have a lot of dysfunctional things to say and no one to say them to so WELCOME…. welcome to my boggled mind, confused thoughts, and anxious feelings. This truly is My personal Circus!

[poemswords]

“There’s no need to talk about it, because the truth of what one says lies in what one does.”

— Bernhard Schlink, The Reader (via books-n-quotes)

[books-n-quotes]

“Don’t waste your love on somebody, who doesn’t value it.”

— William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet (via books-n-quotes)

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[quotexcerpts]

“They may not have loved you, but they did change you. They taught you. They grew you.”

— Bianca Sparacino

[poemswords]

“Every once in a while she’ll get worked up and cry like that. But that’s O.K.. She’s letting out her feelings. The scary thing is not being able to do that. When your feelings build up and harden and die inside, then you’re in big trouble.”

— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood (via the-book-diaries)

[books-n-quotes]

“And sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself, because I could find no language to describe them in.”

— Jane Austen, Sense and Sensibility

[poemswords]

“I’m young but I have been through so much.”

— (via love-diaries)

[kay1210]

I Surrender

I am afraid of my own mind. I am a slave to its repetition of words and phrases that other ppl speak from their lips. My mind is the theif in the night coming to rob steal and kill any hope I thought I had. Shattering glass is the illusion my mind creates in order to let me know that I have no control. I surrender.

[kay1210]

Reborn.

Today I woke up to a new life. When I opened my eyes the world seemed a little brighter. I had escaped the nightmare that replays so effortlessly in my head even when I am awake. I felt alive again. My feet felt as though they were walking on clouds so soft and and guiding. Leading me to a life of self love and gratitude. Those things did not exist in my previous life. I guess you can say I have been reborn.

[kay1210]

“I know what it’s like to be afraid of your own mind.”

— Spencer Reid (Matthew Gray Gubler) Criminal minds S2: E11 “Sex, Birth, Death” (via tanya-nicole)

I was just writing about this.

Being a prisoner of your mind is a real thing.

Mentally I’m sealed in a bubble of insecurities and failure. Slowly I’m suffocating in thought. Tortured by the orbiting structure of bad words let downs and insults. I can’t help it. I’m broken. Torn. Twisted. Trapped.

[kay1210]

Reborn.

Today I woke up to a new life. When I opened my eyes the world seemed a little brighter. I had escaped the nightmare that replays so effortlessly in my head even when I am awake. I felt alive again. My feet felt as though they were walking on clouds so soft and and guiding. Leading me to a life of self love and gratitude. Those things did not exist in my previous life. I guess you can say I have been reborn.

[kay1210]

Exhale.

Inhale. Anxiety fills me up like a balloon at your birthday party. Repeating the phrase everything is going to be fine. Knowing damn well it won’t be. Exhale.

[kay1210]

Beauty. It’s defined as a quality of being pleasing, more specifically pleasing to look at. The question I pose is who defines what is pleasing to all? More specifically who defines what is pleasing to look at for all? Am I not pleasing to look at in the eyes of some? Maybe NOT! But are MY eyes pleased BY what I SEE looking back at me? I believe so SUSAN! And you see THAT IS BEAUTY! I am me and I am beautiful!

#beauty #selflove #writing #love #beautiful #happy #beyoutiful #poems #tumblr #imwritingagain

[astound]

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I’d hoped to give you forever.

Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook (via astound)

[kay1210]

L O V E

Allow yourself to be vulnerable and Love because ultimately Love cures all! Sometimes people don't understand that individuals may love you differently than you love them. Not that there is a wrong or a right way to love but rather many variations of Love.....You may be craving more from that person.... But they may be loving you the only way they know how to love you. Instead of throwing away what could be a good thing Explain how you need them to love you and grow from there.