UPDATE:
Things have been whack.
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UPDATE:
Things have been whack.
Ref:
Nah, I needed to draw this, I couldn't resist
Bonus:
give the boy some love marinette!
Chat Noir moodboard
Maybe the absence of signs is a sign.
Marc Klein; Serendipity (via quotexcerpts)
If you told me 6 months ago that the people I would spend the most time with right now would be Tony, Kelsea, Sierra, and Izzy, I would have laughed so hard.
It’s really weird that everything is changing around so much to where I’m not really close with my friends from school so much, Kat’s basically blocked me out, and I’m terrified now to talk to Madison but that doesn’t really matter because the gap between us is getting exponentially larger every day. And Liam’s just figuring things out. But it’s just lonely. They all meant/mean so much to me but now I can even really go to them to ask about their day or to tell them any updates on how things are going.
but you see her on instagram and it was never really said that you guys aren’t friends but one day she stopped answering and you stopped texting and it’s not like the wound is a cavern but it is a diagram of what if in red letters. you want to tell her nice lipstick that’s a good color but the last time you spoke it was stilted and awkwardÂ
how do you say goodbye, you know? it’s not an unfriend and block kind of situation. but you watch the people you once loved go on and have a life and you’re outside of it. and it’s bittersweet because of course it’s okay that you’re both thriving. but she used to be who you’d call if you needed to cry. she used to be who’d you’d be binge watching the new series with. you used to be hers, in a way, even if that way wasn’t permanent. and now she’s someone else and so are you and your friendship is clicking heart shapes next to pictures where she smiles next to people you’ve never met. you know where her birthmark is. she knows where you’ve buried your dead.
the poets and the singers and the authors write about romantic love when it ends. but nobody tells you how to get over a friend.
Oop
I don’t think I’m fully awake anymore like I was a few months ago. It feels bad and last night almost resulted in my actions hurting someone that even though I’m not close to, still shows me kindness when I’m not feeling really deserving of it or getting it elsewhere so I’m not sure what I can really do. I just want to help people but I’m making it worse on everyone involved with me lately. But for some reason I decided to develop a sense of pride that is stopping me from communicating at all with the people worried for me and it’s pissing me off that I’m doing all of this. I’m not fond of Tony but I don’t want him to die. And I don’t know what’s going on right now. The whole last few days have had a weird energy and it feels like I could disappear off the face of the earth and the only one of my friends who might notice is Sierra and I don’t know how that happened. I didn’t know that I’d feel this lonely and be so alone, but I am.
Gift Giving
I don’t know when it happened but it was probably sometime last week with the Maddie thing. So this is my love language chart. Pretty straight forward and mostly accurate.
Anyways, I’ve never really been all that excited about getting gifts because I usually feel bad about it and I only ever really gave people gifts when it’s a celebration or if I knew it would make them happy (Maddie and Ali). Yet twice this week I’ve made a conscious effort to go out and get things prepared for people. The Halloween package for Madison and the thing of hockey cards for Kat. Now the Madison thing is weird, because on one hand I feel like it falls more in line with my mission of finding out how to show affection to her properly, and I can’t just ask her for her love language results. Also I feel like this will just genuinely make her feel a bit happier and good on halloween. But the Kat thing is really weird. Because I didn’t think there was really a reason to do it. I visited her at work twice this week which is really out of the way for about 5 minutes of interaction each time, and the whole process of getting the cards and everything took a while, but there was really no reason. I thought at first it could have been because she was sad, but I had bought the pack before she said anything except “next time you’re at Tim hortons get me a pack of hockey cards”, so of course I made a point to get a London fog and some cards for her.
But BRUH?!?! IDEK! It fully whacked me in the face on my way to the gym that I might be doing this because subconsciously I feel like it’s the only way that they’ll feel like they’re getting anything out of the friendship? And that goes back a whole ways with the deteriorating self confidence due to lack of any positive feedback, but idk. I think it adds up because I’ve been on edge and consistently confused with how both of them feel towards me more than I worry about any other friendships, and I don’t think I would do this with anyone other than these two so it makes sense. But it also could be me simply trying to show my appreciation to my close friends in any way that might be acknowledged??? Idk
Also lmao, I’ve adopted “gamer moment” to mean a whole array of things surrounding being hella depressed, so that’s just a gamer thing
I tried pushing everything I was feeling away after I wrote the letter, and I thought it was working but we called the other day and she was smiling a lot and looking at me and it just made me feel so incredibly happy that everything came rushing back. And it sucks. This feeling is phenomenal but I know that she doesn’t and probably never will feel anything that I’m feeling towards me and I’m not even sure if I mean anything at all towards her on even a friend level because she seems to refuse saying that she misses me or anything like that so that’s that for right now I guess?
someone: i love you
me internally: prove it prove it prove it prove it prove it prove it
also me internally: please dont love me i dont want to hurt you this is terrifying please dont love me
yet also me internally: good, everyone should love me. get on your fucking knees and worship the fucking ground i walk on.
somehow also me internally: THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME!!!!!
me externally: aww i love you too!!
what if i called you a nickname you say you hate to avoid confronting the fact that i have feelings for you but then when you get badly hurt drop all pretenses and call you by your full real name because i'm too emotionally overwhelmed to keep being the silly annoying comedian of the group any longer haha... no i'm just kidding... unless?
and what if you only say you hate the nickname i gave you because you're also trying to avoid confronting the fact that you have feelings for me and every time i use it your heart stutters in your chest and you have to stop yourself from blushing and smiling sappily at me... lmao i'm joking... but if i wasn't?
“If someone makes you feel, let them.”
— Reyna Biddy