I wanna start posting on tumblr, just my thoughts and the shit I be thinking about at 2:27am 😂 stuff I be wanting to post on my social sites but I don’t want people judging me and thinking they really know me.
I’m currently in a situation.. nipsey posted a tweet a couple of years ago and it said “Survive the transition” and that’s exactly where I feel like I am in my life. The person who I am now vs. the person I want to become, I’m super far from it. As much as I want to be that guy RIGHT NOW I know I got so much more work to do. I’m lacking the discipline, I’m lacking the faith, I’m lacking focus.. it’s just a lot of shit I know I have to change within myself to become that mf I see in my head and the mf I know I truly am. I’m addicted to weed, I love destroying my body with beer and shots of whatever. Whenever I try to start a work out regimen, that shit lasts for like 2 weeks and then I’m back doing the same unhealthy shit. I got fired from my 9 to 5 in July 2025. I’ve been a full time entrepreneur since then and I’ve been making some good money , but I don’t know how to manage it. I spend all my money on food, drugs , alcohol and other bullshit. I’m going through a lot personally as well. I have an 8 year old who i don’t see everyday because of the relationship between me and his mama. It’s not her fault, she stuck in a situation with a nigga who wishes he was me. I can’t speak for her and the decisions she’s made for her life but I can say that those decisions be effecting me on the daily. Did I mention I have another baby on the way with my current GF??
A little girl , who I plan to love with all my heart but it’s still that fear that I won’t be a good dad to her based on how my last situation went. I know you not supposed to dwell in the past but I’m a human being, I’m also my biggest critic so it’s shit I be thinking about everyday. I really don’t be having nobody to talk to about the shit because truly , who gives a fuck. It’s my job to figure all this shit out. And I will, I promise it’s just me being who i am. I’m emotional , very passionate and I love very hard & I’m impatient as fuck 😩 that’s something I need to work on because why the fuck should I have to wait on anything?
Idk man , I’m all over the place.. it’s so much shit I didn’t mention in this post but over time you’ll get the rest.. let’s see how consistent this stay with doing shit like this. It’s definitely therapeutic. Im not doing this for nobody else but me. Honestly i would have just got a journal to do this but i wanna come back one day , when i blow up and become that person who i mentioned above and laugh my ass off. I can see it now, like wtf was I thinking expressing my thoughts and my life to the World Wide Web 😂
Anyways, I’m about to finish this beer and go to sleep 😂 I ain’t smoke no weed all day so I’m up lmao until next time ✌🏾
