sloppy seconds

MOSTLY JUST LIKE OMG PICZ OF MY FACE AND SOME OTHAAAAA SUPA HIP SHTUFF (Storage Unit #665)

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No filter... just the real me on thr bathroom floor like always. Why is this the safe spot for us addicts.. everyone complains im elusive and yet im predictably still sitting right here on the bathroom floor

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This is me now, bitches. #stillondrugs #blackgirlmagick #roughdraftwitchcraft

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No Lectures No Sermons

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Can u ship?

Are you dumb?

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drunken assholes

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From when I was 17.

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Oh, the good ole days of being a drug dealer..

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My updated face, haha. I don't look this sassy.

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Hahahahaha hashtag "INTERRACIAL RELATIONSHIP" ftw

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Burrito <3

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Burrito:)

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what and your life do you love so much that you'd be willing to die for it? and if you truly love it to die for it would you then consider living for it even if it meant kicking your drug habbit?

I'm willing to die for a lot of things in my life, to many things.. that's the problem. It's a lot easier to die for something you're passionate in, somebody you're passionate with, than to live for them. Fuck, it's easier to kick a drug habit than to live for someone a little longer, especially when they aren't here anymore. RIPThat's the problem. 

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2 drunk 18 year olds.

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do you think you'll live long enough to get to a point where you want to stop? (sorry if you don't like answering all these questions)

No, it's fine. Honestly, I don't know.. but I'm leaning towards probably not. 

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You're very sexy, wish I could find a girl like you. ^_^

haha

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what would inspire you to try to stop?

I wouldn't know.. Anytime anything does, it doesn't last very long. I've been stuck for a while, and now I'm comfortable which I feel like should scare me, but i'm comfy so I'm not scared. I don't know anything  other than this, and every time I get sober I can't even recognize myself. I guess, hope.. hope would probably inspire me but honestly I haven't felt that since before I even knew how to spell the word "junkie". And even the last bit of hope I did experience was superficial.. which makes me just feel- overall: defeated. That's why my loved ones have stopped trying to "help me get it or understand" I'm not dumb, I know what I'm doing more than most doctors do.. I've never stolen or been horrible to my mother, I've never broken into houses or shot up children. I've always been clean about it, it's just a habit that I can't seem to (even want to) shake off. I know its bad, I've been watching my physical health deteriorate faster than anyone else, I've got front row seats. I know my mental health is slipping faster than I let show.. I'm surprised I am even this age, I swear I was supposed to be dead at 18 so instead of focusing on the drug problem, I am just working on all of my other problems in life. And "hoping" that once some of that shit is cleared away, then maybe it will be easier to (even want to) try functioning without the use of hard drugs in general. Sorry for ranting.. it's just been a while since I've realized that its still eating me alive while I'm to busy trying to distract myself. It's become such a casual part to my every day life that I forget I'm dying, and I forget that I'm supposed to be finding that inspiration to influence me to stop.. I get distracted and confuse it with inspiration to influence me to write instead..