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I don't know who the drawing on my profile belongs to, I found it on Pinterest and it doesn't even have a signature, although I'm thinking it comes from Pixiv

I started wanting a Hello Kitty head at some point after having this image, so I'll be saving up to get the materials and make it out of foam.

I ended up making a character that would represent me with Hello Kitty's head.

I don't think I would actually go out in a date with any of them, I'm too shy to accept or ask for a date unless we're talking online, online I tend to be much more direct and I don't mind saying my thoughts and likes, even if they are problematic or controlling, I just hope they don't take me to jail just for something I comment on X (twitter)

Honestly, I want to eat all 6 brothers. Obsession is bad. People, don't eat that stuff. Even if all 6 are crap at some point, my appreciation for their good parts surpasses it. I just want to keep them and treat them like my babies, nothing more than a platonic relationship full of love.

I feel like I can't just pick one matsuno brother, I have a little bit of everyone.

With Osomatsu, I completely avoid gambling with real money because I don't see them as a good idea, but I usually do it with my siblings with candy we buy or in gacha games.

I'm not a gambling addict (luckily). I have friends who are, and my partner swings between being one and not being one, which worries me.

Although I'm very stingy, I'm also selfless. I try to always watch how much I spend and value the money I have at a certain point, but easily if you're part of my family or a friend of mine, I'll give it to you no matter how much you ask for, or if I can't afford it. thats me when my dad give me 20 dollars <3 (i pretend i don't mind, but i love have money because i don't work)

I used to have that habit that Osomatsu has (I don't do it as much anymore since my little sister is controlling me when I talk too much.) Come on Osomatsu and he starts saying everything, EXACTLY EVERYTHING he thinks, even about himself.

Well, I used to throw away everything I thought and believed about myself. Of course, respecting other people's information. In the process, I humiliated myself just by saying how disgusting and stupid I am, so I hoped no one would have expectations of me. Well, it didn't work. In the end, everyone has a certain level of expectations of you, and it's because you get to see people who appreciate you even if you're practically a lost cause or if you see yourself as garbage that should just die.

The thing is that I have only been able to express that type of behavior online and with my therapist when I was little. With the people I saw face to face, I was simply polite, kind, and mostly didn't even speak to them, I just listened without saying much.

It's funny how I identify with Karamatsu almost completely, except for the dramatic love he gives to his brothers.

As you know, in high school I was shy and insecure (I still am but less than before) I really spent my time in my own world and I could never fit in with any group but it's more because of not knowing how to communicate with people. I was like asking my classmates for their phone numbers, and when they gave them to me and I texted them they just ignored me T-T

I deliberately asked for their numbers because I thought I might talk to them, since I struggle with words. You could easily have recognized me by face and thought, "Okay, here's my number. I don't know why you want it since we haven't even spoken enough for me to consider you relevant, but whatever."

Also between the ages of 16 and 18, when the Tokyo Revengers anime started and I started the manga, I started to admire this character called Kazutora. At that time I had a jacket that I wore, but because of that character I started wearing it more and in my own world I felt like I looked cool.

I wore it with my school uniform, I just needed dark glasses... actually, I did have glasses, but I wore non-prescription glasses to look pretty since I always liked girls and boys with glasses. The times I tried to wear dark glasses, they always told me to take them off because I was inside the building, I gave up on that.

There is also the case of how I consider that I treat my siblings, I always try to give them the best that I can give, and before I could not even refuse my little sister's requests because I wanted to please her, whether she asked me to do something for her, buy her something or cook something for her.

Of course, at the same time it was an excuse to get up and do something too, at that time it was hard for me to get out of bed if it wasn't to go to school, my sister didn't know, but I did that as a reason to do something more than get depressed.

I've stopped giving in to my sister so much, and she always tries to motivate me to do something with my life since I'm a NEET currently, I'm not even in my 20s yet, but next year I will be.

Choromatsu is also a case in point. I feel ashamed of identifying with him because it shows my ego. That episode exposed me to myself. T-T

I really like things related to manga, anime, idols and video games.

Whenever I wanted to do something that I considered useful or that I was going to improve something about myself, I always said it so that those close to me would know, but in the end, even if I started, I didn't continue and I didn't achieve it. I only complain about my inefficiency and I get tic when I see my younger brother doing something that I consider useless (which is hypocritical on my part since I consider that everything I do is useless.)

But since I was in my junior year I was in the process of being drafted into the Navy and I told all my relatives, in the end, or at least now I still don't get in and I'm not even close to being able to pass the ASVAB, always using as an excuse the fact that 'my math comprehension is poor and doesn't go through arithmetic' I find it complicated because I feel like I need a teacher to ask questions and explain to me why things are the way they are, at that time I saw AI as a useless tool, that only pretended to tell you what you want to know, so I demanded a human teacher but my school was just leaving its teachers and I had poor communication with the ones I already had, to the point that if they asked me to stay, I wouldn't do it and when I did, they didn't even pay attention to me because of my poor communication in English and lack of making known what I needed.

I say a lot of things, that I'm going to study, that I'm going to community college, that I'm going to exercise, that I'm going to read a book, but in the end I don't do it or I don't finish it, I end up postponing it, I have low self-esteem but a high ego. I want to do something useful, I want to be a good person, I want to do something for myself even if I am and I consider myself a hypocrite for saying it and not doing it.

Well, unlike Choromatsu, I don't like doing housework, although I do mind the mess and dirt, and I don't mind living with it, although if I'm not distracted, I can get down to organizing and cleaning. But I can identify with her female version Choroko, who is a bl, heheheheej, even in the dirty clothes…

although I also have that screaming fan that he has for his favorite idols, in my case, they are singers, actresses and fictional characters, an example would be Ado, Aurora, Kana Kanasawa or Yaosobi, I love those singers!! I would cry if I could go to one of their concerts and I would scream at the top of my lungs!!! AWAAAAAAAAA I LOVE YOU!!!

Ah… well, I've already mentioned enough about my behaviors that resemble Ichimatsu.🤣 But I'm going to mention it anyway.

Since I was little I've been a fan of thrillers, serial killers and blood, of course, not in a raw way like watching someone kill themselves live, I mean more like old works like Freddy Crueger, Jackson, Final Destination, or like anime like Another, Mirai Nikki, Kyokai no Kanata, there was also a Japanese novel that I liked a lot, I think it was called The Bloody Forest.

My taste has always been creepy, with zombie or demon movies. I even started liking forensic series and seeing rotten, discolored, and chopped-up flesh in movies. (Honestly, it's one of my phases that makes me most ashamed, since I confessed to a boy telling him that he looked dead.😭 like, wtf girl? what’s wrong with you?)

When I was in school, whenever someone talked to me I would try to be extremely friendly and cheerful, and many times I genuinely was because I literally couldn't talk to anyone if they didn't talk to me!! i was between ichi and kara

You could easily see me with an angry or sad face when I was alone (which I wasn't, it's just that my face looks like that by default T_T the contrary to Jyushimatsu) And if they greeted me, I just felt my heart skip a beat, but then I got nervous because they couldn't continue the conversation!!!

I felt depressed because I didn't feel like I had friends at school, and that the few who talked to me didn't even consider me a true friend and that they only talked to me because they liked me a little, seeing me as just another classmate.

So when I saw Ichimatsu, how friendly he was during high school and suddenly had a depressive aura when he was alone but immediately changed when someone spoke to him, I felt identified. X’D

Well, since I was little I like cats, and I always like to tell this from when I was little: When I was between 9 and 11 years old, I always said meow when I was talking to people, like my friends from middle school before I moved and my family. I was in my own world and I liked to imitate cats. But when I moved to another country, I wanted to change, and I started to feel embarrassed about my way of communicating. I tried to stop saying meow, but it took me a while because whenever i say something, the first thing that came out was meow. It took me a while to get used to not saying it.😭

Since I was little I have loved cats. I was able to live with cats when I lived with my grandmother and sometimes with my aunts, but when I moved I could no longer have kittens, but I continued to see them on the street, although I try not to get close to them since I feel that I would bother them. But from some of my original characters you could already tell that I'm somewhat fascinated.

It's because of things like this that I couldn't get along with ZEN, from Mystic Messenger.

And precisely the chapter where the artificial intelligences help Ichimatsu, their reactions completely identify me with the cats, WAAAA!!!

although, yes, something, as I said, my way of expressing my brothers is not as much as Karamatsu, for me that is too cloying, it would be more like Ichimatsu but not going to the extreme, I am like, 'I will do this for you because it is you but do not get close to me or appreciate too much that I am doing it for you if not I will be ashamed, angry and I will not do anything to you.'

I don't understand why it happens to me, but I feel strange and even ashamed that people appreciate what I do for someone too much when they consider it something insignificant that I only did because it occurred to me at the moment.

By the way, I had my moments when I put me to sing and talk while I recorded, having my own episode of schizophrenia

Jyushimatsu… if you got here reading, you will already know that I am a social misfit when it comes to starting a conversation, but I am also a social misfit when it comes to social rules. Luckily I have my sister and some friends on Discord who do touch grass, unlike me, who let me know what would be right or wrong in a social situation, the same with my partner, who I have hurt by things I have said and was not aware that they were wrong or inappropriate.

I can be as random as him a lot of times, and even have a lot of energy, but I tend to lose energy quickly when I get depressed and just stay in bed. But often to avoid that, I encourage myself by singing songs until I'm out of tune and tired, which lasts at least two or three hours, releasing all my stress, frustration, and possible potential for depression. Of course, that comes at the price of my siblings and friends having to suffer their hearing. And of course, I love that they listen to me and praise me, even if I know that I'm singing terribly myself.

For Jyushimatsu, his passion is baseball, my passion, it's a little bit of everything, but more than anything my favorite stories that I constantly read, my drawings that I hope to improve, and singing, which is what relieves me of my sadness the most.

I read something somewhere, I don't know where, that Jyushimatsu is possibly autistic. I'm only on the autism spectrum, but I felt like I could see myself into him more after knowing this.

Maybe it's shorter than Jyushimatsu, but he's the character I most embrace in terms of identity.

I hope the series delves deeper into him.

And I don't know if anyone else noticed, but doesn't Mashel remind you a little of Jyushimatsu…?

Todomatsu I don’t really have anything to identify with him at all… the truth is I admire him and he reminds me a lot of my younger sister (she’s a year younger than me) Everyone calls him fake, hypocritical and manipulative, but it seems to me that he’s simply the clear representation of what most people are like who have a social life, work and try to move forward in life without being judged. He doesn’t mind being judged so much by his siblings, that’s why we can see that bad side of him, but most people act out of their own convenience to get what they want or need and for that you have to act nice and be easily influenced, which is what Todomatsu is.

If you don't wear a mask for getting something by co-worker or in social interactions like Todomatsu does, you'll most likely look like Osomatsu, Jyushimatsu, or Karamatsu. No matter how sincere they seem, they don't really come across well in front of people, and there's a limit to what you should and shouldn't say, there's a limit to how you should and shouldn't act.

Of course, Todomatsu exaggerates that role with his lies, but it's still common.

Despite Choromatsu's claims to be the most ordinary of the sextuplets, the truth is that not even he can enter the social scene like Todomatsu, who is hailed as two-faced.

And it seems everyone is looking for someone who is genuinely kind, but they end up scolding them out of envy. What's that kind person going to do? They'll try to fit in with whatever they're asked to be; that's how the social world works, unless you're strong or naive enough to ignore the criticism.

I've been meaning to talk about Todomatsu for a long time, as well as Totoko, since they seem to get a lot of hate. I won't be mentioning Yowai Totoko here in this post, though.

@kyoruyuang

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