It's Simple.

I'm just trying to reverse the damage I've done so far, and hoping my body forgives me for treating like junk. I'm 22, I've been at this for a few years now, but I kinda fell off the wagon in 2013. So, now it's back to the basics :).

[kekeapple]

someone get me home!

after 2 stays in atlanta in the last week i now remember why i want my house to be so far out in the country and away from other people that if something happens i'll probably die before anyone makes it to me. litterally some of the worst manners i've ever witnessed in my life. how hard is it to say "good morning" or "thank you"?! needless to say, my vacation was wonderful but i am more than ready to be back home. especially because my cats play in the final four tonight! i think i appreciate my home state more now than i ever have before :). also, VERY excited to get back to my normal eating and workout routine. and i'm so excited to see my boyfriend i can barely stand it. as of today we'll be living together in my little apartment for 3 months, until my lease ends and we can get a house. it's gonna take some getting used to, but i am more than excited to get used to it with him :).

[wasifio]

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Paleo “Ravioli”…RECIPE

[foodffs]

How to Crack and Use a Whole Coconut

Really nice recipes. Every hour.

[kekeapple]

well if this isn't the life, i don't know what is! i am thoroughly enjoying my stay at the beach with my family, and i absolutely do not want to come back home. but i have to soon :( there's a cute boy waiting for me at home! however, i have a new goal in life. i want to live in a cute little beach town and ride around on my cute little vintage bike with a huge basket on the front collecting fresh produce all day long! and then vome home and lay in my hammock :)

[prettygirlsfitness]

[kekeapple]

i had my appointment with my lady doctor today (finally!) and i got switched back onto my old birth control. which i'm super excited about. i was on it for about 6 months, and it made weight loss SO easy. like it almost just fell off lol. and she told me to start taking it immediately! i was worried i was gonna have to wait 3 weeks until i finished my current birth control pack. when i told her i kept gaining weight on it no matter what i do she was like "oh that totally makes sense, it has this, that, and the other." and she said my new stuff actually has a diuretic in it ( so i won't retain water like i so with the current stuff) so maybe now i'll be able to get my body back to a point where i feel comfortable in it again. i miss that feeling. not that i don't love my current body, but i've gained 30 pounds in a year and a half with this stuff, and i'm just not comfortable at this weight.

[kekeapple]

can i please just lay in my bed until saturday morning when i leave for florida? it's so warm and cozy in here :).

[kekeapple]

okay, so...

i happen to just enjoy what most consider “healthy diet foods”. call me crazy, but i like the way my body treats me when i feed it good things. so with that, of course comes the million questions about why i’m eating carrots, or salad, or apples, or whatever.

and i’ve dealt with it for many years, but for some reason the encounter i had today made me mad lol.

like, i totally realize that i’m not stick thin. i’m aware that my hips are little wider, and my bellies a little rounder. does that automatically rule me out for enjoying healthy foods?! apparently so. apparently girls shaped like me aren’t capable of trying to just live a healthier lifestyle. we’re not supposed to eat good foods unless we’re solely trying to lose some weight. and then girls that are just naturally thinner, who also happen to enjoy healthier foods, are told they should be eating a cheeseburger.

excuse me, but if i’m not asking you 20 questions about your not-so-healthy foods, leave me and my damn carrots alone.

from now on everytime i get asked if i’m dieting based on my food choices, i’m gonna reply with “no, i’m trying to prevent diabetes. i’d like to prevent high cholesterol and blood pressure. and it’d be REALLY grand if i could continue hiking when i’m 80 because my body loves me.”

okay. end rant.

[kekeapple]

i am in serious countdown mode right now.

1 week from saturday i will be laying on the beach. which is about the only thing keeping me from going insane as i look at this snow on the ground. mother nature has had it out for kentucky this year. it was litterally like 70 degrees on saturday, and 25 and snowy by last night. how does that even happen?! anywho, i don't care. because there's NO snow in the forecast for the next 10 days, AND the temps are in at least the 40's :). incase y'all haven't noticed.... i detest winter. with every single fiber of my being. i hate it. on a completely different note, i did not realize how hard accepting myself, and learning to love myself would be. i had no idea i would break down in tears everyday for a week after feeling disgusted by the physical image in the mirror. and when i really stop and think about it, it's so silly. but at the same time, it's depressing. i've come to realize maybe it's just a little more than "self-esteem issues". maybe it's the kinda thing people seek professional help for. i could be wrong, but i don't think it's normal to do a quick calculation of how many calories you've eaten and how many you burned at the gym every time you look in the mirror. it doesn't seem okay to me that i don't feel like i look beautiful in my clothes if i don't also look "skinny" in them. there is a serious battle that goes on in my head every single day, with half my brain saying "i don't care if it kills you, just get fucking skinny." and the other half going "shut the hell up! calm the hell down, go eat some carrots and stop worrying about it." long story short, i'm over this feeling. i honestly can't remember a time that "gettin' skinny" wasn't the goal i woke up to everyday.

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[mindy-fit]

[basilgenovese]

Spicy Garlic Shrimp (Cajunlicious)

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[kekeapple]

SO pretty today. and i made it 30 minutes before anyone else made it up there lol. got confused coming back down and ended up taking an even pretty detour. can it be like this everyday?

[kekeapple]

i think i'm gonna skip the gym again today, and go hike up to this wonderful view :). i mean, when march gives you sunshine and a high of 70 degrees, how do you say "no thanks, mother nature, i'll just stay in doors at the gym."