Hi :)

i kinda like sometimes fart it up in my brain sometimes so this is where the farts go to die. 23.

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"thats just the way it is"

"life isnt fair"

"haha welcome to being an adult"

literally shoot yourself with a gun, that would be more helpful than saying any of these phrases.

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What even is the point of all of this then? Why am I waking up if not to find happiness? And why is trying to make everyone happy such an or-fucking-deal? "Oh well we cant this bc xyz" xyz isnt real, none of these boundaries that we put up are real. Nothing is real unless you make it real. What are we fucking doing. Im going insane.

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"thats just the way it is"

"life isnt fair"

"haha welcome to being an adult"

literally shoot yourself with a gun, that would be more helpful than saying any of these phrases.

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NONE OF THIS SHIT IS REAL AND IM TIRED OF PRETENDING IT IS

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THE ONLY THING THAT IS REAL IS WHAT I SEE IN FRONT OF ME, NOTHING ELSE.

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NONE OF THIS SHIT IS REAL AND IM TIRED OF PRETENDING IT IS

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different, but the same

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C-PTSD is so fun bc I dont feel like a Real Adult unless I have my own omniscient observer watching my life and course correcting. Why do I have to be my own observer like the whole point is that I Observe.

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As a 23 year old, I now know that there are many experiences life has to offer. These experiences are not something you can wholly accept by conjuring scenarios in your head to try to grasp what you would feel like during.

To be frank I am working on my disassociative disorder so maybe I was grasping at straws trying to feel around for any physical evidence that I was living and remembering how things feel.

But, no. You cannot plan your way through life, you cannot flex your life around the expectations you have for yourself because things change. Life does not cater to the molds of your internal experiences. Life is rigid and unforgiving. We are animals, we have no choice but to keep going.

Everything around you will change, and so will you. It'll fuckin suck for so long, so so long. But there might be a day, where you pause in the middle of your routine, look back at everything that has happened to you, happened around you, and things that you made happen. And you might think to yourself "Im so glad."

And that's all we can really do.

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Was trying to figure out why this townie was always pregnant and at the brink of going into labor whenever I saw her and

yeah that'll do it.

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Started the in bloom legacy challenge bc Why Not and this is Blossom Sanchez, the buttercup generation!

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would it be unifying or polarizing to say the scottish accent and the bostonian accent are the same accent but just on different ends of the spectrum

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so whats the take on this after the world cup

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shep on me walk today

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would it be unifying or polarizing to say the scottish accent and the bostonian accent are the same accent but just on different ends of the spectrum

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went to PT for the first time ever after a work injury. First appointment was just:

*back cracks* "Oh yeah thats normal"

*neck cracks* "yeah thats normal"

*every other joint cracks* "yeah thats normal"

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Made a Tinkaton themed nail set design, the shape is long almond but could work on medium almond/oval shapes. Calling it Tinkitink.

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Therapist manually took two of my synapses and tied them into a cute little bow when they said my parents were fraudsters.

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so like does anyone have the step-by-step instructions on how to make friends as an adult?

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Im not very likeable so Id factor that in.

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getting? my nails done? with a coworker for my birthday? Has it always been this easy?

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why does being hungry make my brain foggy? Youre in my gut, stay there.