Call Me Kelli

Transgender female, Living in the south, and trying to live my life in this absolutely absurd thing we call the world.

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Pay me attention.

Hey I’m sorry babe! I have had a lot of Life shit happen! You are always in my heart though

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So if you haven’t noticed I don’t tumblr as much as I use to but you can follow me on Snapchat!!! - Kellicd

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where'd you go kelli :(

Well that’s a fair question.. I know I have been mia for awhile. Life has just hit really hard and I have wrestled with why I even do this tumblr thing. Three years ago I really need to the support and community that this brought to me. When I felt down or depressed or even suicidal at times, this online community really saved me.But since transitioning I have built more relationships and friends locally who I can be myself around. And I know enough about myself that I just post pictures so I can be told I’m pretty and I know that’s really vain.So I know that’s a long answer to a short question, but that’s “where I’ve been” 😜

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Just because it’s the month of love... here is one to say I love you all 🤦‍♀️💕😘

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New outfit for a date tonight!! Like I need an excuse to go shopping 😍💁‍♀️💃

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💕💕Happy Weekend Everyone!! 💕💕

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This isn't an ask, but I wanted you to know that every picture you post is the cutest picture of all time. You are stunningly gorgeous, Kelli. Like, it's downright freaking breathtaking.

Awe thank you! This is where I usually deflect a compliment and say something like, “you obviously haven’t seen the other girls on tumblr” or “you have just seen pictures, but you wouldn’t say that in real life.” But today.... I needed the compliment ☺️ thank you

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Ok y’all I can’t begin to say how impactful Brené Brown’s book, “Braving the Wilderness” has been for me. I HIGHLY recommend it for anyone who doesn’t feel like they don’t quite belong - ESPECIALLY for my transgender followers! Here is a quote that I am pinning on my mirror in the morning!

“There will be times when standing alone feels too hard, too scary, and we’ll doubt our ability to make our way through the uncertainty. Someone, somewhere, will say, ‘Don’t do it. You don’t have what it takes to survive the wilderness.’ This is when you reach deep into your wild heart and remind yourself, ‘I am the wilderness.'”

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Meow 🐱

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I’m not going to lie. 2017 kinda sucked for me. I don’t think I have ever been so excited to countdown a countdown a clock and celebrate a new year.

And because a new year brings in new resolutions I just wanted to share mine with you. What I have come to realize about myself is I am my own worst critic and most of the thoughts I communicate to myself are negative. My most often self deflating statements are: 1. You aren’t passable - everyone is going to stare and laugh at you. 2. You aren’t lovable - everyone will find something about you that is broken and reject you 3. You will never overcome your anxiety and depression.

So for 2018 my simple resolution is to replace those negative beliefs about me with positive affirmations about me. So for example: 1. You aren’t passable —> You are beautiful because you are living the authentic you. 2. You aren’t lovable —> You are lovable Bc being fully you is the most courageous and brave act that you can do 3. You will not overcome anxiety —> That define your past but it does not define your future.

What are some of your resolutions? What are some negative beliefs you say to yourself that you can change with a affirming belief? Here is to hoping 2018 is better than 2017!

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2018!! You are so welcome!

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Today I am heading home for the first time since I started transitioning. To say I'm nervous is an understatement but I'm also really excited. For the first time I will get to see a present for "Kelli" under the tree and I can't tell you how giddy that makes me. And although I know I'll see and run into former classmates and friends who won't understand my transition - for the first time I am truly glad to be home for the holidays!!

And in the spirit of Christmas comment below your favorite Holiday tradition! Mine is getting a new pair of PJs on Christmas Eve that we wear in the morning to opening presents 🤶!! Tell me yours below!!

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What can I say, it’s my favorite time of year and I’m in a Christmas/ gift giving mood 😜

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It's been over a year since these pics!!! My time has flown! Merry Christmas Bc I don't I don't take too many pics like this anymore 🤶

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People should start calling me "Tony the Tiger" because all I deal with is "Flakes." I often get asked what it's like dating as a transgender woman, especially in the south. And simply - it's tough. Guys only interested in a sexual curiosity is the norm - Rejection happens constantly - and people "changing their minds" is a text I get often.

So here I am laying in bed on a night I was suppose to go out with a cute guy I was really excited to get to know. But I'm still smiling because if you can only love yourself if someone else loves you - then your setting yourself for a lifetime of low self esteem and low self worth. You are literally enslaving your worth to other people and that's just crippling. So dear transgender who is dating - please love you first... Because I think "Yourrrrrrreeee Grrrrrrrreat!"

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His Tinder profile vs. Real Life 😂😂😂

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Let me know if you have had to much of me 😝

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You probably hear this all the time. You look amazing! So gorgeous. And those glasses, love them! I'm so jealous wish I looked this good!

Awww thanks! But I love your glasses too in your profile pic anon 😎