on the edge of greatness

Kendall Berns. 29. Account Executive.

[kendall-berns]

Text || Kyson + Kendall

Kyson: You drive a hard bargain Ms Berns

Ken: So does that mean I get what I want?

[kendall-berns]

Text || Kyson + Kendall

Kyson: I was going to get it sent to you and it was going to be all cute though

Ken: But seeing you would be so much cuter.

[kendall-berns]

7, 14, 20, 30 - jaylen

@jaylen-harris

∗ o7﹕ a  text  to  get  back  in  touch .

text: I have an extra ticket for the first preseason Bulls game.  Would you want to go? Evan and Cara are going so it wouldn’t feel weird with the two of us. Just thought that be fun to hang out again. If you don’t want to I get it.

∗ 14﹕ a  text  that  was  never  sent .

text: When they said that I had cancer the only thing I wanted to do was go to you. Not even to tell you but just to go back to the time when I felt the most right. Because being with you has always felt that way. I would have done anything to just crawl into your bed and have you hold me. The doctor was just going on about stages and treatments and I couldn't hear a word of it because I just thought if I could be there in your arms then I would be safe. When I got to the car I thought about calling you but then I just knew I couldn't. How could I when I pushed you away and now just because I need someone for my own shit I come back demanding your attention? That wouldn't be fair to you. But there was also a selfish reason why I didn't call you and tell you. Because there was a part of me that feels like it would be harder with you. I know how you would be. You'd be attentive. You'd be there for me. You take me to chemo and you'd research the right questions to ask the doctors. You'd be the perfect support system. Why wouldn't I want that? Because I can't let myself love you more than I already do. I wouldn't be able to hide it anymore. Then you would know and you would have me completely in a way I don't think anyone else can. You'd have a power over me that I swore I would never give any man. I swore I would learn from my mother's mistakes. She may be hard but I still see the pain in her that my father left. How as much as she hates him that brokenness is because she will always love him. I can't risk that chance because I know. I know you'd be that for me. The one that would take a part of me and I'd never get it back.

∗ 2o﹕ a  text  containing  an  apology .

text: I know that I could have made things so much easier for the both of us. We could have been happy. I’m just more fucked up than I wanted to be and I’m sorry. Even if you don’t believe that I am.

∗ 3o﹕ a  random  text .

text: I know that we aren’t really talking but do you remember that one time we took the train to the city and there was that guy on there that was singing those old Motown songs? I was coming back tonight and he was on there again singing and it just made me think of you.

[kendall-berns]

2, 12, 24 - jarret

@j-deleo

∗ o2﹕ a  text  asking  for  advice .

text: I need to meet with you about the Van Patten group. You know I have never passed on an account, but this guy is such a misogynistic asshole. He talks over me all the time and barely looked at the numbers I prepared for him. I refuse to give it to someone else so can we talk tomorrow? See if there is another way that I should be handling their account?

∗ 12﹕ a  text  that  wasn’t  meant  for  the  receiver .

text: Why? Because it is none of your business. And maybe I would just like to have something in my life that you can't criticize. I'm not going to let you dig in and try to find the one thing that I have just for me so that you can tell me what is wrong about it.

∗ 24﹕ an  angry  text .

text: I know that I have no say about who you see and when you see them but at least show me an ounce of respect by not lying to me. I fucking know your schedule, Jarret, so don't treat me like some dumb bitch like I don't actually know what you are doing. I hate it when you do this to me. Undermining me like the excuses you use for your other girls will work on me. I don't deserve that. I'm not asking for details of your night but don't lie to me. I hate it and you know it. I can only do this with you because I trust you more than anyone else so don't give me a reason to stop.

[kendall-berns]

10, 20 - Kyson

@kysongray

∗ 1o﹕ a  cheesy  text .

text: I'm two glasses of wine in so that is what we are going to blame for this but lately I feel like the only time I feel like my mind is at peace is when I'm with you. As someone who is constantly thinking and stressing you don't know how nice that is.

∗ 2o﹕ a  text  containing  an  apology .

text: I'm sorry that this is last minute but I'm going to have to cancel our date. I think I have a bug or something and as much as I want to see you, I don't want you to see me looking like shit. I will make it up to you, I swear.

[kendall-berns]

Text || Kyson + Kendall

Kyson: What do you want for lunch? My treat

Ken: I'm not all that hungry but I'll join you where you go.

[kendall-berns]

kysongray​:

“Oh come on you wouldn’t like that at all?” Kyson teased gently. “I think it sounds fun, your’e hot when you’re jealous.”

“I would like it a lot. But so would other women.” She rose her brow. “Oh hot, huh? Well do it and you can see how hot I can be.”

[kendall-berns]

jamie-chiu​:

“Uhm - well, if I lie to you that is definitely going to get you off my back, right?”

“Jamie,” she said her name in a scolding tone. “You came here for fun. Have fun! You can’t tell me you came just to stand around.”

[kendall-berns]

j-deleo​:

“And I’m surprised to see you so soon. I thought for sure those 7 minutes would turn into forty- five,” his eyes glanced up to where she’d come from. He wasn’t about to tip-toe around it. He was sure she knew that.

Kendall wondered if he had noticed who she had been with. Jarret had never banned her from seeing other men but despite their now lack of relationship, Jaylen was always going to be special to her. “Given the right circumstances you know I can get done in 5.” She joked onl because she didn’t know what else to say.

[kendall-berns]

@j-deleo​

She wished that she had a drink in her system before facing him but with treatments she had been cutting back. Only having some wine when Jarret offered so he didn’t notice anything. “I’m surprised you have made it here this long,” she offered the conversation though she wasn’t naive to how this would go.

[kendall-berns]

@jaylen-harris​

“Just know that I haven’t decided if I’m going to let you get to second base yet,” she joked as they got shut in the room. “But you know you could have just turned it down. My ego could have taken the public rejection.”

[kendall-berns]

@jamie-chiu​

“Please tell me you have actually participated in some of the games tonight?”

[kendall-berns]

@kysongray​

“I was going to say this is a shame that this isn’t your work uniform,” she tapped his chest. “But then I would just have to be jealous all the time.”

[kendall-berns]

Kendall Bern’s Slumber Party look

[kendall-berns]

jaylen-harris​:

“Oh I see… so you’re just plain evil. How’d I never see this before?”

“I have been pretty upfront about this from the start. It’s not my fault you ignored it because my pretty face and great ass.”

[kendall-berns]

kysongray​:

“And what’s the worst thing that’s going to happen if you don’t look over work tonight and you just hang out in bed?” Kyson adjusted slightly to make sure that Kendall was as comfortable as possible. “Sometimes breaks are good.”

“Oh you don’t want to know the endless amount of scenarios that I can come up with if I don’t. I’m a workaholic. Just hanging out in bed has its allotted time.” She admitted how it worked for her but she didn’t move away, instead her fingers tracing his chest. “You’re making it too good.”

[kendall-berns]

j-deleo​:

“Nobody just goes from getting that shit out of their system to ready to go, so I don’t know what the fuck you’re trying to prove by brushing past it like this.” Jarret’s own frustration came out, the longer this went on, the more it seemed like something else was happening he wasn’t aware of. “You really like it, doesn’t mean you need to want it all the damn time.”

Kendall scoffed as he spoke, taking a step back to break off the contact. Running a hand through her hair, she shook her head. She hated that she was failing this. Making her feel like she was incapable of what a normal night should be. “Yes it is! That is literally the whole fucking basis of this relationship. You use me to take your sexual desires out on and I say yes. Pretty simple formula to follow.”